i wish there were more to do

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Since everyone makes a very big deal about Lay’s situation, 

since I’m fed up with the ‘fact’ he’s more important than the rest eight Exo members,

I’m happily saying:

the only reason, the only one reason I don’t want Yixing to leave the group is our leader-nim.  Because if this pink fluffy stage-fucker will get out, Junmyeon-nim is going to be stressed, depressed, upset, under pressure again. With those lackluster eyes full of fathomless grief. It was painful to see him like this in 2014, and I do not want it to happen one more time. 

However, I don’t consider Lay as an irreplaceable member. Exo had a lot of performances without him and they were great. 

In conclusion, let’s be honest: Yixing cares about himself firstly. I cannot understand why everyone’s convinced that Lay is saint af. 

I just wish SM to take everything from him, without torturing other members. 

There’s nothing terrible about OT8. 

Tobias, sobbing harder: I could take revenge on this Linda bitch, but it won’t bring you back. I… I have to do something, to put two and two together, but I’m so lost. I’m so lost. All of this has knocked me down. I still have this scar on my forehead from yesterday as a constant reminder… I wish you were here. I was so selfish, Nate. I’d now prefer we never knew each other, just… it’s all about you. You have to live!… You could’ve given this world so much more than I ever would… I love you so much, Nate, but I care about you even more. I just wish you were alive, by my side or not – you don’t deserve this kind of end.

[trans] K-BOY Paradise vol.20 (161125) - part 3: solo interviews (donghyuk, 3/7)

[intro & survey | group interview 1 2 | solo interviews bobby b.i donghyuk yunhyeong chanwoo]

“When I come to Japan I feel relaxed and relieved”

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Birthdate: 1997/1/3
Role: Vocal
Fans love his clear singing and sharp dancing. He’s well-loved and called Candy-chan because he’s so cute.

DONGHYUK

Q. Please write your promise to fans in Japanese.

If you come to our concerts and beat me in rock-paper-scissors, I’ll grant your wish!! ♥

What do you think has changed about you compared with how you were at debut?

As you might expect, I think I’ve changed the most when on stage. There were so, so many things to show that had been prepared, but now I can be a bit more relaxed so now I feel like I can try out new things. Like now I can dance the way I want or add adlibs the way I want!

And what about the member who’s changed the most?

If I have to pick one person, then Chanwoo! He didn’t talk much before, but now when he’s with the members he takes the initiative to talk, he tells jokes–he’s really changed a lot.

He still has a quiet image when on stage though……

(while tilting his head to the side as if he wants to say he isn’t quite sure about that) No, no. That’s just because he isn’t good at Japanese yet. When he gets better at Japanese, (emphatically) I think he’ll be really funny. He has a good talk sense, and he always makes the members laugh too. All seven of you live together, but do you like to keep things neat and tidy?

Me, not really…… Well, really, for me, I have too many clothes and the members are like “you have too many clothes, man, clean out your closet!”…… I have mostly hoodies. At one point I kept collecting hoodies from a brand I liked. But nowadays I’ve bought…… Ah! I love them so much, eventually I was like “I want a hoodie that no one else in the world has!” so I bought a simple hoodie and brought it to my older cousin. She’s an artist, so she drew something by an artist I like. I cherish this original hoodie!

You have the type of personality that heals others, but what heals you?

(squinting, while once again being modest) Calling me healing, what is this! I’m often comforted when I’m around other people, so the members and fans heal me. I read every fan letter I get! Coming to Japan also relaxes me somehow. In Korea we have practice and a lot of other things so we’re always busy, but when we come to Japan, we have the time to eat together or go bowling or play soccer so it’s fun–and honestly, it’s relaxing.

Trans by Shino @ iKON GLOBAL | take out with full credits.
© K-BOY Paradise

anonymous asked:

i absolutely hate the way print interviews portray zayn, and i hate the way it still seems to play up to the bad boy persona created for him while he was in one d, and how his words can be taken out of context to vilify him. i understand his anxiety with doing interviews on camera, but on camera he comes across as articulate, smart, soft spoken and funny, and i wish more people (the general public and ot4 stans) would see him that way. i just had to say this to someone i'm sorry lol

hiii!

I understand totally, but I will say that I think the way he’s been portrayed in print has gotten better in the last several months then it was when he first started doing solo!Zayn print interviews. I think the early solo!Zayn write ups were more aggressively about him being Sony’s answer to The Weeknd and a fuckboy archetype who never wanted to be in a boy band (and I get that part of that was about separating him and establishing a persona but it was sooooo heavy handed and off-putting). 

The thing is, Zayn on video (and even some of the print quotes) voiced a lot of the same concerns the other dudes did about being in the band (wanting to make his own music, having different musical tastes, etc), but in video he really is magic, and his words, tone, inflection, etc do him a lot more justice as what you described: article, soft spoken, smart, and funny. I do 100% agree with you that I wish more people saw him that way, too. 

Something that pisses me off Is when people are like “don’t ship actors in real life that play wlw it’s intrusive and rude.”
1. They aren’t reading the fanfic or tumblr… be real
2. If you’ve been an actor or involved in shows as a director/producer etc. you know damn well how often showmances happen. It’s like the almost a guarantee. I have never worked a show where a showmance didn’t happen. When you spend 18 hours a day with someone it’s just one of those inevitabilities.
3. Fucking straight people having been doing it for decades and getting their way so shut up. If I wanna wish that there were more out gay women in Hollywood dating so I feel more represented then I’m gonna damn well do it.

Also I cannot tell you how many women I know that didn’t realize they were bi-sexual or pan sexual until they were actually physically intimate with a woman. So let’s not play around like that shit doesn’t happen. Anyway end of rant. I’m not saying everyone go tweet Kat or Dominique to leave their boyfriends etc. but don’t shame people for having any sort of fantastical hope.

anonymous asked:

So UT bizarre dolls lived on fulfilling a last wish right? So what if what drives the twin is a combination of his desire to protect his brother and also a hatred of what happened. It would make for an interesting development in his character where he wants to protect ciel as well as want retribution for what happened to him. (I hope this made sense)

UT’s more advanced Bizarre Dolls were based on their aspirations for their future in their moment of death.

These parts of the Cinematic Record were added and the more the person had the better Bizarre Doll resulted out of it. 

So if we assume that the same method was used on the twin it would indeed mean that the twin must have had quite many of these so called ‘episodes’ since he seems to have turned out even more perfect that Agares who was UT’s masterpiece. I’m not sure how much these wishes for the future determine the Bizarre Doll’s moves. But since the body acts because of the continued Cinematic Record I guess these wishes do play an important role in the Doll’s actions. Agares, at least, seemed to continue with his normal life as if he hadn’t died. So the same may be the case with the twin if his ‘revival’ is based on the same concept.

So maybe, if he now wants to take revenge on our Ciel, that’s what he was thinking of when he died in the cult? I’m not so sure about the protecting since the twin now doesn’t really make the impression of wanting to protect Ciel (aside from his words to our Ciel but those seemed rather mocking to me and not really meant honestly).

However, I’m not so sure if the twin really thought of harming our Ciel when he died in the cult. He never seemed angry at our Ciel before, he rather wanted to protect him even in the cult. And the twin didn’t know that our Ciel would steal his identity in the moment of his death. So his Cinematic Record couldn’t have produced episodes as a reaction to that. The twin seems to have changed quite a bit and I doubt these changes would be this extreme if the Cinematic Record that’s driving him now would only contain his yearnings for the future back when he died in the cult.

Also, I don’t really think that the exact same method that UT used was done here on the twin. The dependence on blood transfusions seems new and also the result seems to have improved. And since I believe that not UT but someone else may be responsible for the twin’s revival there’s a good chance that some other method was used here. 

anonymous asked:

Do u have any headcanons about Angus? He was my favorite from the game and I wish there were more options to hang out with him!! Thanks tea :'o)

Ahhhhh Angus~!!!!!! He was my favorite aside from Mae when I first started to play Night in the Woods! ♥♥ Hehe, I have a few headcanons of him actually…

First head canon: I like to think he knows French. Either because he learned it during school/boy scouts, or because his family speaks it too. Either could be tied to the head canon that I could see him speak French. 

Second head canon: I saw him to be in a drama class while in  high school… At least for 3 years. I mean, sure he was in Cross Country, but I also saw that he had taken drama classes as well, and he’s a pretty good actor and singer. He starred in three plays while in high school (Sophomore, Junior and Senior year to be exact), and also Gregg is his biggest fan. ♥ (I gotten the head canon from my sister @j4m-ch4n and my friend YUMI too). 

Third head canon: … He’s a anime nerd. No one can convince me otherwise. I could see him wear various of anime related shirts, even if they’re pastel or cute-sy too. >W<♥

Fourth head canon: Well… It’s more like this is a head canon with his brother but… Me and my sister @j4m-ch4n likes to think that his brother’s name is Robert…. I dunno why, but it stuck with us I guess.

Fifth head canon: With me… I had this HUGE feeling that when Mae came back from college, not only was Angus upset with her because he was afraid that she would make Gregg do crimes and ruin their plan to move to Bright Harbor…. But also I had the head canon that Angus was really worried and stressed that Mae was going to steal Gregg away from him. Like… As in literally steal his boyfriend. I’m sure if that did happen and Gregg totally called if off with Angus, then Angus would not hesitate to give Mae a piece of his mind…. 

BUT- Everything was resolved after the three went to Donut Wolf and they talked things out… Mae didn’t even know that Angus thought she was going to steal Gregg until months later when Angus felt pretty guilty after the whole ‘Night in the Woods’ ordeal and Gregg told him the reason why Mae had come back and what she went through. Angus decided to come clean to Mae, invite her out on a little lunch outing so the two can personally talk together… Everything turned out okay and she said she totally understood and he had the right to feel that way (and also she made sure to tell Angus that he can keep Greggo >w<b). ((Also not gonna lie, I was thinking about writing this out as a little drabble or snippet too… maybe I can later)).

Sixth head canon: (This is more like what happens in my AU/After Story but...) I have the head canon that when he moves to Bright Harbor he becomes a teachers assistant (or at least a ‘helper’) over at a nearby college. After working there for some time he decided that maybe he should become a professor, and after he went to college, he becomes a professor for Astronomy!


That’s all I have for now. And I agree, I totally wished that we had the option to hang out with him more cause he needs a lot of love!! ♥♥

Thank you for stopping by!!

anonymous asked:

Just feel a need to vent - it's very tiring to see mostly top jungkook fics, it's like jk= broad and tall so he's obv a top and a jerk and Jimin = two inches shorter (and prob still taller than a majority of army) but still dominant, OMG HES SO SMOL, MUST PROTECT, SO TINY. And then the majority of bottom jungkook fics are of him being submissive af which is def not true to his personality. I feel like there's a disconnect somewhere and I just wish there were more fics like yours.

I do think there are some Alpha Jungkook fics where him and Jimin’s relationship is okay-ish, but most are exactly how you described it: Jungkook’s that one popular bad boy asshole and Jimin’s a feminized princess in distress. I’m glad I’m not the only one that’s seen this regularly occur in fanfiction because it’s VERY annoying! Nonnie, I’m about to vent as well haha~

But I’d say the number one problem with these stories is how Jungkook treats Jimin (like trash), and how Jimin’s character is essentially dumbed down to a needy, feminized character and how he ALLOWS this treatment. It’s as if Jimin’s become the “female” of the relationship which is quite silly because they’re two fully grown men having sex. Vice Vera for Jungkook as an Omega.

In real life, Jungkook would never treat Jimin in a demeaning way. I’m sure Jimin would never allow this treatment, either. This is why inaccurate/demeaning abo stories have become something I’ve actively tried to avoid. I’m tired of the similar plots, demeaning behavior towards Jimin (who has such a strong personality that it’s quite sad when he’s portrayed as a mere sex toy) and the allowance of such stories to become popular and further influence other readers to produce more of this garbage.

Moral of the story is that some writers have given both of the boys justice in an abo relationship. I’m not going to say every Alpha Jungkook story is shit because honestly, I’ve enjoyed many stories where he’s the Alpha. However, most show an implausible, demeaning relationship, especially towards Jimin. With Cherry, I’m going to avoid this and portray a relationship where two men are in love. It’s not going to be perfect, but that’s the beauty in writing realistically. I think many others can relate to it.

I’m sorry that this turned into such a long rant but this has been also something on my mind! Thanks for the question, Nonnie!

“Yes, I said, but if aging were so valuable, why do people always say, “Oh, if I were young again.” You never hear people say, “I wish I were sixty-five.” He smiled. “You know what that reflects? Unsatisfied lives. Unfulfilled lives. Lives that haven’t found meaning. Because if you’ve found meaning in your life, you don’t want to go back. You want to go forward. You want to see more, do more. You can’t wait until sixty-five.”
—  Tuesdays with Morrie
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jackson wang abc’s(22 days ‘til his bday 🎂🎈🎉 )

is for darling

salvainterra  asked:

i love mob so much please for the love of god tell me about ur feelings on 100% ecstasy

OH BOY WILL I !!! ABSOLUTELY 100% (pun unintended but warmly embraced) 

out of all the 100% events, ecstasy is my favorite. the drama… the tragedy… will fiction EVER peak like this again? i don’t think so. but BEFORE I DELVE INTO ALL OF THAT, there’s something i want to talk about first: mob’s psychic powers as an expression of his emotions. 

we all know that mob suppresses his emotions to avoid outbursts of psychic power. but THAT implies that mob’s psychic power is a form of self expression, in the same way that body language is expression. 

he can direct his psychic powers – the same way we can direct our bodies’ actions – but there are other components that are difficult to stop, similar to how people’s shoulders tend to hunch when they’re angry or upset, how they subconsciously cross their arms and direct their feet away when something is making them uncomfortable, etc. 

unless you know about these bits of body language, and make a deliberate attempt to suppress them, it’s difficult to stop your body from revealing something about your emotions. similarly, one function of mob’s psychic power is as an extension of the way he expresses himself. these things happen subconsciously and mostly without mob’s control. 

for example, one of the trademarks of mob’s 100% events is that mob starts releasing waves of psychic power that push his hair back. other side effects include cracking the ground under him, often to dramatic effect.

mob doesn’t push his hair up on purpose, it’s just something that happens – as a result of him releasing his pent-up emotions in the form of psychic power. these little bits of expression aren’t something he can control.

mob also says something REALLY INTERESTING in his first 100% event:

during 100% rage mob uses his psychic powers to fight dimple, yes, but these lines suggest that his outburst of power happened because he finally had to express his anger. and that implies that, in order to show his emotions, and express himself, mob has to use his psychic powers. 

which is something he almost never allows himself to do. 

never forget the disdain / loathing mob had for himself at the beginning of the manga, and how convinced he was that he couldn’t allow himself to express himself OTHERWISE SOMETHING LIKE THIS WOULD HAPPEN. 

further material to consider: the lines that he said right before his 100% animosity / hostility event 

hostility… 

at this point, mob hasn’t taken any action against koyama yet. his outburst of psychic power, radiating outward and blanketing the area, is not doing anything but expressing his hostility – to the extent that mob expects koyama to be able to feel it. 

in addition to that, during mob’s fight with toichirou, he cycles rapidly through a LOT of emotions, and this is what he says about it:

canon suggests that it’s not just a buildup of of emotions that cause his powers to run amok; allowing his powers to run amok also allows himself to feel the full intensity of his emotions. his psychic powers are key to expressing himself.

I COULD GO ON… but i’ll just leave things here for now. to summarize: mob subconsciously uses his psychic powers to express his emotions, which is why suppressing his emotions also suppresses his psychic powers. 

figure 1: a helpful venn diagram of things 

which brings us to the REALLY SAD, BITTERSWEET, MOURNFUL TRAGEDY THAT IS 100% ECSTASY. 

the fight against toichirou is possibly the first time mob has been able to fully utilize his psychic powers. the first time he’s had to, even. all the unconscious limits he’s put on himself – not allowing his psychic power to go free, stifling his emotions and powers – all come undone. 

mob is allowing himself to be himself, wholly and fully. he’s removed his inhibitions. he’s running wild and free. he’s no longer expending energy trying to regulate his psychic powers – he’s allowing himself to feel. this intensity of emotion and action is something mob has never given himself before, and the freedom of it… feels good. incredibly so. he feels free, he feels alive, and toichirou – the only individual to ever stand on a level close to mob’s – understands perfectly. 

this is a level of joy mob has never felt before. 

the release of his psychic power even comes hand in hand with mob’s body language becoming much freer and more expressive than it is in daily life. look at him go!! mob, for the first time in years… letting himself feel the intensity of his emotions, just as they really are.  

but of course his happiness isn’t going to last 

because mob wants to be a part of society, and he thinks he has to keep his psychic powers sequestered away in order to do that. his greatest fear is accidentally hurting the people he loves with his own psychic power, and when he remembers that possibility… 

the tragedy of 100% ecstasy is that – for just a brief moment, mob released himself from his self-imposed limits. for a moment, he let himself really feel, he let himself be, and in that moment he experienced a richness, an intensity, a moment of being so utterly present and alive that it brought himself to heights he’d never reached before. 

 and mob will never willingly allow himself to do that ever again. 

“I’m serious, Yu. You don’t realize how terrifying humans are.”

i. I’m trying to let you go, but every day it feels like an old record on repeat; a beautiful start with the same ending 
ii. I’m trying to do things I wouldn’t usually do, like write songs instead of poems and paint instead of drawing but every curve of my pencil still ends up spelling your name 
iii. I’m trying to sleep earlier and read more often but no matter how hard I try I still lie awake at 4 am missing you and wishing you were missing me too
iv. I’m trying to open my eyes to new perspectives, see the world differently and find peace in everything but no matter what I do I can’t help but see the colour of your eyes and the shape of your smile in every fucking piece of nature 
v. I’m trying to open up more, come to terms with what happened and realise it’s permanent but I can’t help but get a jolt in my stomach every time my phone vibrates hoping it’ll be you, coming back 
vi. And I’m trying. God I am fucking trying. But this pain seems endless and the thought of you is starting to make me feel sick. I miss you more each day and I don’t know how much more of can take of this but god 
vii. I’m trying
—  dissociatingx, try a little harder
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“I just wish he were here to see this with us, just here with us one more time.”

She felt the rough silk of his black hair as he bent to kiss her fingers lightly—a courtly gesture from a bygone age. “He is with us, Tessa. He can see us. I believe it. I feel it, the way I used to know sometimes if he was sad or angry or lonely or happy.

She touched the pearl bracelet at her wrist, and then his face, with light, adoring fingers. “And what is he now?” she whispered. “Happy or wistful or sad or lonely? Do not tell me he is lonely. For you must know. You always knew.”

He is happy, Tessa. It gives him joy to see us together, as it always gave me joy to see the two of you.”

Look, I know it’s hard not to be disappointed and I think just let people be disappointed, it’s their own money they spent. But being disappointed is not the same as being mad at bangtan themselves for it. So I hope no one is actually mad at bangtan, coz that’s just unreasonable. Also for some fans, especially those who haven’t had a chance to buy WINGS, then buying this new album is a great opportunity to finally own all the songs plus the new ones. I just hope we don’t regret buying the physical copy since it really does help bangtan a lot. Not just for this comeback but for award shows as well~

BUT IN THE END I hope all these doesn’t take away from the fact that it’s still a comeback and we have 4 new songs to look forward to. And that Bangtan worked hard for this and has been working non-stop all these years. And what with a World Tour coming up too ;_; Also, they really literally can’t stop talking about the new songs so I really hope we still try our best to help them succeed with this album. ^_^ 

As always, thank you all so much for doing your best to support Bangtan in everything they do. ♥

How to Deal with Envy and Jealousy

1. Ask yourself the question “Why does this matter so much to me? For example, is it that I feel I’m not enough, or do I feel lonely and overlooked?”

2. Ask yourself “What is MY definition of success?” Then think of realistic goals you can set for yourself, instead of always thinking of what others have achieved.

3. Focus on the talents and the gifts that you have been given, and think of how to use these in a meaningful way. Don’t wish that you were someone you were never meant to be.

4. Ask yourself “What kind of person do I really want to be … and try to develop those traits and qualities. Who you are matters more than what you look like or achieve.

5. Make a list of all the things you can be grateful for today – the blessings that you have, and the gifts that you enjoy.

anonymous asked:

I love how you always see the best in people. Like with some other youtube and internet icons you can tell that some of them are not exactly 100% genuine but with you you're always like a ray of sunshine. Just how you are with your friends and how interactive you are with your fans. You're so kind and warm and I just wish there were more people like that in the world.

Well, I mean, you all truly do help me to see the good parts of me! It’s incredibly symbiotic, what we got going on here haha, and I never want to take that for granted. I don’t wanna speak for all people in social media, but I’m sure many are quite busy or maybe going through personal things that, to other people on the other side of the screen, may make them seem distant, but is truly not what they’re intending. I just try to put myself in other people’s shoes as much as I can. I fail at that too sometimes! Haha I guess I just mean, if you look up to someone online for reasons and they seem unresponsive, maybe not give up on em too soon if you don’t know why that is. They’re only humans! Haha but I’m glad I am willing and able to talk with you all, because you make me very happy! So thank you for your kind words. <3

Welp. We went to see Wonder Woman. I cried during the sad parts and some of the other parts. They were the same kind of tears I had on and off through Ghostbusters. Movies with strong women who are fully realized people who are allowed to be sexual but are not sexualized and can also kick ass just make me cry randomly. Though TBH I also cry in LotR when anyone picks up their sword and runs into battle screaming the name of their home. I didn’t even realize how ravenous I was for a female version of that.

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YOI Future!Verse ABO AU, Visual Headcanon Web Charts #01

So I always wanted to make one of these. Turns out my headcanons for the most part are WAY too wordy for these things and uh, they’re a bit of a mess >.>;; BUT I hope nonetheless that they’re somewhat fun to read even if barely legible, it was fun to make ^ ^;

1. Super basic relationship chart of the core members of the lovely poly family in this AU.

2. “Adults Think,” the color of each adult indicates their feelings towards the person to whom the arrow is pointing.

3. “Kids Think,” the color of each OC kid indicates their feelings towards the person to whom the arrow is pointing.

There’s obviously a lot more to it than what could be crammed in the lil text boxes, but a gist and pretty much the first things that immediately popped into my mind regarding their interactions. 2 and 3 also mostly show their thoughts while the kids are younger, which will change a bit as they grow up, to be covered in a future post.

*Recommended you right click view image to see full size bc the text is tiny oops

Because the text is so illegible, text only versions of charts 2 and 3 beneath cut, all elaborated quite a bit because I’m so rambly oops:

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IF YOU ARE NEW TO THIS AU: It’s Yuuri-centric polyamory in an ABO setting, Yuuri’s married to four mates (Victor, Yurio, Phichit, Minami) and they have OC kids.

BASICS of this AU

INTRO to how ABO works in this AU

OTHER POSTS (comics + illustrations) in the Future!Verse ABO section of my YOI Masterpost.

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Please keep ship bashing out of the comments/tags. Don’t like, just skip <3 Thank you.

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