i wish men

I get very little delight from the idea of Calling Out Mansplaining bc like…infodumping is something i do and its something a lot of neurodivergent people do and i honestly am very sensitive about my tendency to do this and i think it often gets people bullied in malicious ableist ways. i think infodumping and mansplaining can be similar and often apply to the same utterance but like… *regardless* of intention being talked down to by a man hurts me for specific reasons and also idt my infodumping is like…always so preachy/condescending, and if it is i don’t think it would be ableist for someone to point that out. so im in a position where im being hurt by sexism but really don’t feel like shitting on someone for being enthusiastic abt their interest in an inappropriate way bc even if i do its not going to feel like Girl Power or cathartic or anything. whatever i wish men would just behave themselves 

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.
You claim to love her, inside and out, but the only time you call her beautiful is when it’s 3 in the morning and I’ve already turned you down.
—  girls tell each other everything, c.j.n.
We throw around the word never likes its nothing but a small rose petal. The word never is a doubled edged sword. On one side it says ‘I will never leave you’ and on the other it says ‘I will never love you.’
—  The Word Never