i wish i was itty bitty


  • ❛ Ten thousand years will give you such a crick in the neck. ❜
  • ❛ I’ve been looking all over for you! ❜
  • ❛ I wish for your freedom. ❜
  • ❛ She thinks the monkey is the sultan. ❜
  • ❛ Rick ‘em, rack 'em, rock 'em, rake! Stick that sword into that snake! ❜
  • ❛ All right, Sparky, here’s the deal. If you wanna court the little lady, you gotta be a straight shooter. Do ya got it? ❜
  • ❛ You’re gonna grant me any three wishes I want, right? ❜
  • ❛ I can’t believe it. I’m losing to a rug. ❜
  • ❛ Phenomenal cosmic powers! Itty bitty living space! ❜
  • ❛ Such a thing would be greater than all the magic and all the treasures in all the world! ❜
  • ❛ Trouble? No way. You’re only in trouble if you get caught. ❜
  • ❛ No, really. On a scale of one to ten, you are an eleven. ❜
  • ❛ Do not be fooled by its commonplace appearance. Like so many things, it is not what is outside, but what is inside that counts. ❜
  • ❛ All this for a loaf of bread? ❜
  • ❛ No matter what anybody says, you’ll always be a prince to me. ❜
  • ❛ You ain’t never had a friend like me! ❜
  • ❛ Made you look. ❜
  • ❛ Who disturbs my slumber? ❜
  • ❛ Ooh, I like it! Muy macho! ❜
  • ❛ You little fool. You thought you could defeat the most powerful being on Earth. ❜
  • ❛ We’ll be rich, live in a palace, and never have any problems at all. ❜
  • ❛ It’s all so magical. ❜
  • ❛ I must’ve hit my head harder than I thought. ❜
  • ❛ Please, try to understand. I’ve never done a thing on my own. I’ve never had any real friends. ❜
  • ❛ You’re speechless, I see. A fine quality in a wife. ❜
  • ❛ You won’t get away so easy! ❜
  • ❛ Do you mind if I kiss the monkey? ❜
  • ❛ The universe is mine to command! To control! ❜
  • ❛ You’ve heard of the golden rule, haven’t you? Whoever has the gold makes the rules. ❜
  • ❛ How many times do I have to kill you, boy? ❜
  • ❛ Do you trust me? ❜
  • ❛ Trust me, my pungent friend. You’ll get what’s coming to you. ❜
  • ❛ Well, l can’t do any more damage around this popsicle stand. l’m… outta here! ❜
  • ❛ I’m in a whole new world with you. ❜
  • ❛ Button up, _____. Learn to have a little fun! ❜

I literally just drew the entire map of Alagaesia on part of my wall, and I just realized that the mad evil king Galbatorix honestly had nothing to rule. Surda, ahahahaha no. Beor Mountains, hell no out of the tunnels. Du Weldenvarden? It’s like double the size of your entire kingdom and full of motherfucking trees. You wish, Galby. Hadarc Desert? Omg, just try to tame that wild desert life. You would die. 

He literally just had the itty bitty west coast of Alagaesia, filled with the Spine, more mountains and a few cities here and there. It’s been years since I’ve read the series and this is making me laugh hysterically. 

BTS Reaction to You Hating On Your Small Boobs



“I wonder what having big boobs is like?” You said from the living room. “Wish I knew!”  

“Jagi, you’re perfect,” Jin called from the kitchen.

Originally posted by jeonsshi


“I hate being part of the itty bitty titty committee,” you said out of frustration as a top of yours was baggy in the chest area.

“Me too, ” Yoongi muttered.

“Yoongi…” you said and laughed. 

Originally posted by sugaglos


You looked at the models on the American magazines as you were on vacation and you grew slightly self-conscious. “Bigger is better,” you mumbled. Hoseok raised an eyebrow at you and threw an expression of confusion at you.

Never once had he heard an insecurity come from you. You were always okay with yourself; at least, that’s what you tried to say.

“We mustn’t look at such things,” he put down the magazine and moved you along across the store.

Originally posted by the-rap-man


Your social media accounts filled with hate comments about how you weren’t good enough for Namjoon because of your body.

“Oh, why wasn’t I blessed with big boobs?” You asked to no one.

“Because you was blessed with a big heart.” Namjoon was being corny and you were having none of it.

“Is that why you weren’t blessed with a big dick? Because your heart is big instead.” You teased. He could only laugh because that’s not what you were saying the night before. 

Originally posted by baebsaes


“Would you like it if I had bigger boobs?” You asked Jimin out of the blue one day.

He looked at you with a very disgusted look. “Nope, I like you the way you are!” He exclaimed.

Originally posted by myloveseokjin


“I must have done something really bad in a past life for the universe to punish me with small boobs!” You complained. You were lying on the couch with a pillow over your head. You were beyond frustrated with yourself.

“I wonder what I did to deserve you in this life.” Tae teased. You rolled your eyes at him trying to cheer you up. “Don’t be so hard on yourself,” he removed the pillow and gave you quick peck.

Originally posted by bwipsul


“I hate my boobs.” You said sarcastically one day.

“Want some dick to cheer you up?” You heard Kookie say from the other room.

“Oh, Jin is going to smack you all the way to the moon and back.” You laughed as you texted Jin. Kookie knew then and there that he fucked up good.  

Originally posted by baebsaes

anonymous asked:

Since I was younger, I've always desired stereotypical "masculine" traits. I'd brag about my shoe size, or pretend like my hands were larger than they were, or even compare my itty bitty cleft chin to my dad's more prominent one. Do you think these things could be signs of indiscreet dysphoria? Looking back on it now, it doesn't make much sense for a cis-girl to do those things (or simply even wish that I looked more like my dad then my mom)

Jay says:

We can’t say what your gender is, but I can tell you that I used to do this and several other transmasc folks I know did too. They could be signs of dysphoria, I think. It sounds like you looked for “masculine” aspects of things you were dysphoric about, if that makes sense. This sounds like a combination of body and social dysphoria. 

And the last bit is definitely something I relate to. I was always told I looked just like my mom and it was really frustrating for me, even at a very young age. Whenever someone said I looked like my dad I would get really excited. Even though people who say that are generally looking at non-”gendered” traits like eyes, nose, cheekbones, etc.

Also, here’s our dysphoria page, and here’s a post about different forms of dysphoria.


One Sentence Summary:

She’s the kind, ugly beast who travels to the evil beauty’s castle so she can rescue his memories and return him to his people.

Name That Trope:

Virgin Hero, Reverse batB, Fantasy Land

What part made you fangirl squeal:

  1. Mr Demon King has exactly 0 filter on his lusty, lusty thoughts! 
  2. Every second when dude’s the purdy beast WITHOUT being a giant ball of grumpy rage??? 
  3. Or or or that Miss Heroine is an abuse survivor who doesn’t coware in our beta-alpha’s presence? YASSS BOOK YASSS!  
  4. When Mr Hottie ripped her from her torture dream with his slashed palm & epic wrath over her potential death!?! LIKE OMG! 

Favorite Character:


  • Lily: A scarred, hook nosed, limp walking gal who’s the story’s hero!
  • Micah: A gorgeous powerful sorcerer raised in isolation, so he got ZERO qualms ‘bout using his words…the smexy ones and the dominate ones!

How smexy was the smex?

SO HOT IT MURDERED ME THEN BROUGHT MY ASS BACK FROM THE DEAD! My book-tease ass ain’t gonna give ya context, but “I want more words” is the hottest hero sentence, ya don’t even know! This man worships Lily in bed while Lily, treated her whole life as being repulsive, discovers her confidence through sex!  

Whose Line Is It Anyway:

Micah: If I order you to leave, what will you do?

Lily: Hit you with a stick.

“I’m the Lord of the Black Castle. My word is law. Don’t forget to think about our kisses. I’ll lick up your taste again come sunset.” - Micah

Got any bitching to do?

My OooOOOooOOONLY itty-bitty complaint is I wish we’d got more scenes from Micah’s POV. The book gives him his slice, but it feels like we spend more time in Lily’s head than his.

Visually Depict Yo Book Feels:

Originally posted by kasugano

Famous last words:

THIS THING IS SO GOOD THAT I SUCK AND TRUST ME IT IS EPIC AND PLEASE READ IT AND HEEEEELP!……..Ok, real talk? This is my first Nalini book & holy shit she does world building and smexy smex and romance the frig good! I can’t oversell this book. I CAN’T I CAN’T I CAN’T!!!!!!


For a more in depth, LOL-fest discussion on romance novels and romance Asian dramas, HERE BE MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL!

Three bittybones that are my bitty babies

The Papyrus bittybone is called Pitter Paps and loves to cook in doll-sized kitchen, drive remote control vehicles and jogging with his parent

@bumbleplood woops forgot to tag you cause you helped with inspiration / w \);;

omg we cleaned out the spare bedroom and i found the wooden trunk my grandfather made for my American Girl Doll clothes

pictured: an accurate visual representation of my mental state

the tiny calculator actually worked at one time, although the battery has probably corroded into nonexistence in the past 15 years.  look at that itty-bitty pencil!  inside the notebook is a letter to my doll’s teacher excusing her from class, but it’s not my handwriting so i assume my cousin wrote it.

TINY REPORT CARD.  American Girl was alllll about the details.  the writing’s faded, but the ‘First Quarter’ comment says “Kaitlyn needs to work on math skills”.

i wish i’d spelled it ‘Caitlin’.

i got my doll in… ‘96?  maybe ‘97.  she came with this ‘modern’ jacket, and i’m torn between “i can’t believe AG thought people ever wore stuff like this” and “i would totally wear this”.

finally, a drawer of various accessories.  shit was overpriced - i don’t want to know how much that empty gift box cost.  i loved it anyway.

Wow! Super 17 is absolutely incredible!

Time to negate some Super Seventeen hate with all the things I love about him!

1) I love his facial features, all of them - from his eyes and nose all the way to his GT Chin™ - and I love how he looks more mature but still retains that air of youth in his appearance. I love how he’s basically a “grown up” version of the original Seventeen.

2) I love his beautiful long hair. I love that it got even longer than before. I love how he’s always trying to get it out of his face and I love how damn beautiful he looks when he does it too. 

3) I love how strong he is, I love that he’s OP as ever-loving fuck, and I love that there’s no reason behind that. I love that he finally got to experience life as the “ultimate android”. I love that he theoretically never had to be afraid of anything anymore, and that nobody could hurt him ever again.

4) I love how ridiculously tall he is and how itty bitty everyone looks up against him. He is such a BIG BOY and it’s great (for people wondering why he’s so tall, in the Machine Mutant race a machine’s size is an indication of how strong it is).

5) I love how he is the union of Gero’s Android technology and Myuu’s Machine Mutant technology. I love how these two amazing scientists from across the galaxy came together to create him. I wish more had been done with that.

6) I love that he has the capacity to fly in space. I love the freedom that such a thing brings him. I love the concept of him being able to visit other planets. 

7) I love that he got to fleetingly experience life with a creator who actually cares about him because Seventeen so so so deserves that. 

8) I love that he’s respectful of said creator but enforces his boundaries and won’t stand for abuse. 

9) I love his courage and his bravery. Like when he fought Cell all those years ago, he still stands his ground whilst staring death in the face.

10) I love all the silly faces he makes. All of them. 

11) Not actually canon to GT (I don’t think?) but I love how he has the capacity to absorb Cell in Dragon Ball Heroes. Delicious, delicious karma. 

12) I love his smile. I love how he still has that smirk

13) I love how he retains other assets of the original Android Seventeen. I love that he still cares for Eighteen even after everything that has happened to him.

14) I love how energy is such a non-issue for him that he uses an attack like “Flash Bomber” repeatedly, which misses like 98% of the time. I love how he seems want to use it all the time when it fucking sucks

15) I love how he’s just so cool that he needs to tie the knot of his bandanna on the side. I also love how it sticks out of his hair. 

16) LOOK AT HIS PERFECT BROWS. #eyebrowEnvy 

17) I love how he absorbs energy. I love how he will go right ahead and absorb as much as he can. I LOVE HIM ABSORBING THIS MUCH ENERGY:

18) I love his design, I love all of his clothes and I love that he loves them too. I love how he’s more interested in the changes in himself and in his clothing than his opponents after his birth.

19) I love that he has a machine gun in his forearm. I don’t care if it’s “stupid” or “redundant” or “a rehash of 16″. PEW PEW PEW:

20) I love how naturally graceful he is.

Even if the execution of his arc was poor, even if it didn’t make sense to begin with, even if everything surrounding him was terrible, even if his death was awful and cheap:  I am so glad he exists and that I got to see him do his thing, even if it was very short-lived. 

Super Seventeen is amazing!

Quick itty bitty thing. If you can pray or send well wishes please do. My favorite aunt is in the ICU and without going into details, her condition has been described as “Not Great.” And while I firmly believe that I would feel it if she wasn’t going to get better, I’m still worried. I love her very very much, and I’m not joking when I say that I would not be able to handle anything happening to her.

Werewolf!Taehyung as a Father

And now it is time for my love, my bby squish who’s got the cutest lil personality and a cute face to top it off, Kim Taehyung aka V aka tae tae aka I just really really wanna give him a huge hug like just cuddle all day that’s all I want maybe some puppies a kitten here and there in the background but mainly him like we can watch anime, idk if he’s ever seen Osomatsu but I’m gonna show him Osomatsu bc my love 

  • Original werewolf!tae here (part two here)
  • On the topic of pregnancy, all of the father related posts are here
  • I could see Tae having kids before marriage
  • This kid loves bbys and wants a family as soon as he feels ready (which doesn’t take too long)
  • I’d say around the three or four year mark, he’s ready to start his lil family but he completely and totally understands if you need more time
  • If you want to wait until after marriage, he’s also 100% cool with that
  • As long as he gets his lil angels, he doesn’t care when
  • He would s u c h a good father
  • He loves kids so so much and they seem to love him just as much bc he’s basically a tall 5 year old why wouldn’t they
  • But also real quick I gotta talk about this
  • The kids being featured in the wedding
  • If you’re cool with having kids before marriage, he’s obviously gotta have his bbys be involved in the wedding
  • At the time of the wedding, there’s only one lil munchkin (his first son and child)
  • He lets his son be the ring bearer, even though Jimin has to be the one that’s actually holding the pillow
  • Lil teeny tiny version of tae is a lot more interesting in running over to tae than he is about carrying a pillow that’s just as big as his body so chim has to step in and make sure he doesn’t drop it bc rings you guys need the rings that’s kinda important
  • Lil bby boy being super giggly the entire ceremony bc why is dad in a suit since when ?? like this is the same dude that wears sweats and a baggy t shirt at home what is this
  • He h a s to sit on tae’s lap during the reception he has to do it
  • He needs to be able to right in the middle of you and tae so he isn’t left out of anything
  • And of course you both have zero issues with it bc it's your bby boy
  • And when it comes time for the dancing oh boY
  • Lil bby boy is dancing his lil heart out with hobi and chim
  • He even gets Yoongi to come dance with him bc everyone’s wrapped around his lil tiny fingers
  • But rewinding to before the lil munchkin is born
  • The pack is a huge part of your life
  • Tae’s a total family man and the pack is family
  • They’re constantly in and out, especially the fellow maknaes and hobi
  • You don’t mind though bc you’re just as close with all of the boys
  • And they of course do give you your alone time with tae bc they understand sometimes couples just wanna chill together and not have other people there
  • Tae makes sure you always feel loved and never feel forgotten bc he knows that can happen sometimes when there’s such a large amount of people taking his attention
  • Date nights every single week
  • Saturday is pretty much your day, it’s rarely switched around
  • He’ll do everything from a night in watching movies and cuddling to going out to a new restaurant and spoiling you with attention
  • Affection is actually just a 25/8 thing
  • Mornings with tae more like how long can he cling onto you
  • He likes to beat his record whenever he can
  • He really really likes snuggling into you while you make your coffee or snack on something for breakfast, which you end up having to share with him or else you get a whiny tae on your hands
  • Whiny!tae is fucking cute as fuck but also like he really just only wants one bite bc he’s more than likely heading over to the pack house once you leave for work/school/anything you have planned for that day and he’ll eat breakfast there
  • He would be s o happy once you tell him you’re gonna a mini Kim pup running around
  • He tears up a lil bit but doesn’t even notice bc he’s so happy
  • He hugs you for like an hour straight and is just lowkey in shock bc wait what is this really happening rn
  • Your growing bby bump gets like a weekly photoshoot tbh
  • Any time you two go on a late night hunt for whatever you’re craving, he films a lil snippet of it
  • Saves every single ultrasound picture
  • Also, in the nursery, he frames each of them and hangs them up so you two can see the process of your lil bby growing while taking care of the end result
  • He boxes all of those lil memorabilia up bc he needs it in his life
  • Also does the same things for the other munchkins bc he’s cute like that
  • Kisses the bby bump, hugs it, is constantly touching it, all of the things
  • The first time he feels him kick, he honestly smiles for like a month afterwards
  • Tells the bby story after story after story
  • “And that’s how we met, I fell in love right away”
  • “And that my bby boy is the reason why your uncle Jungkook isn’t allowed near the kitchen sink anymore”
  • “It was the best day of my life hands down, 10/10 wish you could’ve been there”
  • Heart melts at all of the tiny things
  • His hands are huge and when he holds the itty bitty bby shoes in his hands, it’s almost comical

bladeerainer  asked:

cream filled doughnut, honey toast (tf is honey toast ??,) matcha parfait

cream filled doughnut- tell a family story: when my sister was itty bitty I was pushing her down the driveway in a stroller n tipped her by accident n she threw up blood… oops

honey toast- your dream hair color: white-blonde but my eyebrows are loads too thick n dark

matcha parfait- a few of your habits: biting the skin around my thumbs, biting my lips, napping at weird hours I wish I had obscure ones 

fragilepeach  asked:

hi! so im looking to start Wiccan practices because it's something that I genuinely believe in but I have no idea where to start 😅 could you tell me what I should do from here?

Resources for Wiccan Babs

If you’re a new baby Wiccan, such as my own bab Itty-Bitty, you’ll need help figuring this all out.

I’m going to assume, based on your ask, that you have already researched and understood what the ideas, concepts and principals general Wicca is all about (I say general because there are many different branches of Wicca), and wish to begin living as an actively practicing Wiccan.

Starting your Wiccan Path


First, you’ll need to find out what interests you.

For me, Jar Magick and Herbs/Crystals/Stones are the shit. If I see a Jar full of Magickal Herbs I almost lose my cool. I might squee a little bit. I am only so strong.

I am a big fan of Protection Magick, and, I’ll be honest, it’s about 80% of what my Spell Book contains. Oop. Both me and Itty Bitty love Charms. My other bab, Rowan, is looking into Potions and Brews. He’s more of a “I must do this on the third Waxing Moon of the year” sort of dude.

Here are some questions to ask yourself while pondering what your interests are:

  • What sort of Magick attracts my interest?
  • What sort of Magick is a no-no for me?
  • Do I even want to practice Magick?
  • Am I drawn to certain Elements?
  • Am I repelled by certain Elements?
  • Do I want to practice complex Magick or Simple Magick?

For some people, such as me, these questions are not that hard to answer. For others, such as Itty Bitty, it’s a bit more unclear. I recommend the Traditional Year and a Day practice for those who are unsure. This gives you plenty of time to figure things out.

Your Relationship with the Divine and Wiccan Traditions

There are so many Wiccans, and every single one of them practice the Wiccan religion differently. Some Wiccans believe in the Goddess and the God, while some believe in The One and The All. Many seek a specific deity or get called upon by them.

I can not stress this enough: there is no way to “correctly” practice Wicca. If someone tells you that you MUST expose your ass to the moonlight at 1:36 AM on a friday night while singing the Extended Wiccan Rede in B Major to be a “True Wiccan of the Goddess and God”, they either joking or they have been grossly misinformed. 

You may ask others for information; doing so is encouraged. You can also follow traditions to a T, but keep in mind that if you feel as if something is wrong, or if you are uncomfortable, you do not have to do it. Don’t be afraid to mix and match traditions, beliefs, and ideas together to find what you feel is the correct fit. Also remember to never, after finding your own personal ideals, ever press it onto another as the only correct way to go about things.

Some Wiccans are more Pagan in nature and wish to seek and serve God/desses and not dabble too much into Magick. It really depends on you, and how you feel.

When searching for the divine, remember that you should be comfortable with your God/desses and you should not feel as if you are forcing yourself to do/believe something you do not wish to.

Start your Book Of Shadows

I’ll be honest, this is the first thing I began working on. This is the best thing to begin working on.

I recommend making your own. From scratch. This doesn’t make it better than anyone else’s, but it does make it personal, and just what you want. My Book was made from leather and it was a labor of love. Others like the convince of a Binder, and you can deck that out in many different ways. There are many different websites you can buy a pre-made blank BOS from, even on Amazon. I suggest 13Moons.

Some things to put in your Book.

Your Book can be however you want it to be. Since I personally don’t focus too much on brewing or complex spells, I don’t even have a section for those in my Book of Shadows; that’s what my Spell Book is for.

Many people don’t allow anyone to see their Book, or just show a select few. It really depends on what you wish your Book to be. If you want it to be more of a journal of your journey, you might want it to be a bit more private. If you want to write down spells and ideas and information about God/desses, Herbs, Crystals/Stones, Charms, ect, you may not feel as inclined to shield it from others, or, maybe, that’ll make it even more private. It’s yours; do what you wish.

Gather Your Craft Materials

After you have figured out what you want to begin focusing on and what interests you, you may want to begin gathering Magickal Tools and Materials such as Herbs (Xx - x - x - X - X) small and big jars (x - x - x - x - x - x - x - x) and Candles (x) for Spells and Rituals. Books are always good, too (xx - x - x) Watch out for some authors such as Silver Ravenwolf (problematic - x) Buckland (appropriative) and Cunningham (outdated) (x).

Remember to always look for Local Wiccan and Pagan Shops or Saturday Markets, as locally made and grown materials are always more personal.

Follow Your Gut and Do What Feels Right

I know I sound like a broken record by now, but good golly gosh, this is important. Don’t just follow blindly; research! Don’t just Cut and Paste; Make it your own!

And last but not least,

ye harm none, do what ye will.

Blessed be,


anonymous asked:

rfa when they see mc wearing an innocent cat costume for halloween?

<such a cute idea, thank you anon! who doesn’t like a lil itty bitty kitty eh? okay maybe zen but ignore that>


  • honestly when you walked out of the bedroom in this adorable kitty costume he actually died a little inside ??
  • like his brain couldn’t compute how cute you were?
  • your cheeks hurt bc of how much he pinched them
  • ”MC! Look at you!! You’re so adorable oh my god!!”
  • he kept calling you kitten for the rest of the night
  • “I wish you would’ve tole me you were going as a cat MC! I would’ve matched!!”

Jaehee Kang:

  • dude as soon as you came out of the bathroom looking like a full-fledged cat she thought about three things
  • first was elizabeth
  • then was do you shed cause if so she needs more sticky tape
  • but third was how adorable you looked
  • “MC…I think you’re making me warm up to cats a bit more…”
  • people kept asking her all night if she was your master and she instantly said no and turned red
  • poor baehee ugh
  • she couldn’t get over how cute you looked though, petting you like a good master would despite the fact that it made her flustered (lololol please don’t take that out of conTEXT IT JUST GOES WITH WHAT I SAID PRIOR LOLOLOL)


  • man you walked out of the bathroom and Zen instantly turned red
  • number 1 cause his allergies began to act up
  • but number 2 cause YOU LOOKED SO ADORABLE!
  • “MC…we may have a slight problem but..you look adorable don’t change.”
  • he kept popping allergy meds all night so he could stay near you without sneezing 
  • …needless to say his opinions on certain cats definitely changed that night
  • “Well, now that MC has shown you the beauty of cats, do you-”
  • “No, I do not like your cat jerk.”

Jumin Han:

  • jaw was on the floor as soon as you walked out of the bathroom and into the bedroom
  • “MC I need to get a picture of you and Elizabeth the 3rd. Oh my god.” 
  • the photo was blurry what did you expect?? but it was his phone background for the next 5636463 months
  • man kinda lost his mind that night?? just a tad??
  • his precious dressed up as his favorite animal in a cute way what else is he supposed to do??
  • stayed by your side all night, admiring you and your cat costume
  • “Oh, did Jumin put you up to that MC?”
  • “No, actually I didn’t push MC to do anything. She did it on her own.” 


  • ^^pretty sure he would shit his pants too
  • just like Jumin, Seven was super hype
  • Seven wound up chasing you around the house all night 
  • until he finally grabbed you and threw you onto the bed
  • tickling you until it died down into a lil cuddle session, you falling asleep in you cat costume while in Seven’s arms

<awww in my opinion this is definitely one of my cutest hc’s yet. thank you for the submission anon!!♡>

I like vintage clothes and vanilla candles, cool night air, and my dog’s snowy white fur. My room stays messy despite my best efforts to keep it clean. And no matter how hard I try to keep things picked up, clothes literally disappear into the black hole under my bed.

I like my brothers’ quirks, Craig’s “to do” lists, and my sister’s sense of humor. I like hanging out with my friends and making funny faces. I like driving anywhere, getting a new CD, making my mom laugh, and realizing the first line of a poem is running through my mind.

I don’t like designer clothes, cooked carrots, headaches, itty-bitty type in textbook footnotes, burnt marshmallows, and the “pretty but dumb” stigma for women. I can’t stand being late, music playing in doctors’ offices, or feeling behind in homework.

And I know exactly what I want to be when I grow up—most days anyway. I want to be famous. I want people all over the world to know me. The only question is how I’m going to be famous.

Sometimes I wish I could live five different lives. In the first life I’d be an actress. Second, I’d be an incredibly talented writer. Third, I’d go for being a great American playwright. Fourth, I’d want to be the successor to Amy Grant, a Christian pop star—diva and songwriter all in one. But somewhere in there I also want to be an American missionary, living someplace exotic like Albert Schweitzer did.

I can’t see myself getting married. Can’t see myself ever “settling down.” Can’t see myself ever being pregnant and having babies.

I don’t know. It’s just a feeling I have, deep down inside me. I have a funny feeling (not funny like “ha ha,” but funny like weird), a kind of inner sense that my life is going to be different, unusual, or that I’m going to do something important. Sometimes I feel like that funny feeling comes from God. Other times, I don’t know. I just think I’m strange. But who knows? I guess the answer to that is—only God.

But back to wanting to be an actress, a writer, a songwriter, a missionary, and all the other stuff I daydream about … I guess if I want to do all of those things, that means I don’t really know what I want to do. But I know I want to live big. I want to laugh big. I want to love big. I want life to know I was here. Leave my mark. And somehow make a difference in the process.

I think about the future a lot. Daydream. Imagine. Hope. Wishful thinking. I think those are all different kinds of prayer, at least for me. Writing to God in my journal is praying. And when I’m daydreaming, writing poems, journaling, or just imagining what might be, I don’t think small, I don’t wish small, I don’t think “ordinary.” I like to think big, dream big, live big.

Now that I think about it, I don’t know exactly what I want to do when I grow up, but I know what I want to be.

I want to be one who speaks truthfully, no matter what the cost. I want to be one who acts with tolerance, compassion, and love as my top three guides for any decision I make.

I want to be one who follows my heart and listens for God in the smallest of moments and biggest of choices.

I want to be one who is grace-full and gratitude-filled. I want to be one who sees in every day what I have and all I’ve been given rather than be blinded by what I don’t have.

I want to be one who trusts that God is enough—and God has made me enough. Good enough, smart enough, strong enough for whatever God calls me to be.

I want to open my arms wide and embrace life in all of its goodness and all of its badness because I believe the good outweighs the bad—for always and ever.

I want to remember to breathe deeply and sing loudly and love passionately and believe absolutely and see fully what’s really important.

And I think I’ll leave the particulars of how and when and where I’m going to be and do all of that to God—I think God is big enough to handle it all.

What are your dreams? If you could live five lives, what would they be and why?

When you’re faced with decisions about your future, when you think about your hopes and dreams, what does the phrase “choose life” mean to you? In what ways can you “choose life” in your life right now? What is “life giving” to you and what is “life taking”? What choices make you feel good about being you? What choices make you feel bad?

—  Excerpt from The Journals of Rachel Scott: A Journey of Faith at Columbine High

Tagged by @filthkid love u bitch

shuffle tag

1. Purple swag - a$ap rocky

2. Batteries - Mickey shiloh

3. Itty bitty piggy - Nicki minaj

4. Broken clocks - SZA

5. gay is not a synonym for shitty (ginasfs) - fall out boy

6. 2u - david guetta ft. justin bieber

7. Julia - SZA

8. The only exception / the good in me - paramore/Jon bellion mashup

9. Shot down - khalid

10. Daft pretty boys - bad suns

personal stuff tag

nicknames: bitch, chic, Chico, chix, dafty, fangs (not anymore tho rip), hoe

gender: I’m gay

star sign: I’m gay (aquarius)

height: I’m gay (5"4’ MAYBE I wish)

time: 23:50

birthday: 22nd jan

favorite artists/bands: the weeknd, y&y, SZA, a$ap rocky, Calvin Harris, drake, Rihanna, Miguel, childish gambino, xxxtentacion (unfortunately), Nicki minaj, the 1975, the Japanese house, blackbear, arctic monkeys, the original Bambi soundtrack, big Sean, Catb, gorillaz, kehlani, glass animals, I could go on

favorite song: lmao when do I not have 374747928 fav songs, at this minute it’s Do you… by Miguel or Rockstar by post Malone ft. 21 savage

song stuck in my head: rockin robin (DJ suede remix) by Michael jackson

last movie i watched: kingsman: secret service for the fifth time

last tv show i watched: star Vs tfoe I think??? or b99

when did i create this blog?: 2014/15 some time???

what do i post about?: Damn fuck if I know

last thing i googled: my own blog I added a playlist page to my theme (check out my fav tunes)

do i have other blogs?: Like 6/7 maybe too many to remember

do i get asks?: Sometimes ig. Send me more I love hearing y'all’s rants

why did i choose my url?: kavinsky

following: 216??? Maybe it was 317 I can’t remember

followers: 1700

favorite colors: blue, black, maybe red, maybe yellow but I gotta be in a mood

average hours of sleep: ideally? 22. rn? Less than 4/5

lucky number: 7

instruments?: guitar, piano (and keyboard), some bass, ukulele, recorder (thanks @ school), lil bit of flute, bit a drums, bit a saxophone

what am i wearing right now?: Sex pistols shirt, shorts

how many blankets do i sleep with?: 3

dream job?: Doing nothing/whatever I want and getting paid whatever I want

dream trip?: Hot springs/up north of my country (Scotland) to see the rly fucking clear water

nationality: scottish

favorite curseword: fud/scunner/rocket/bawbag/cunt/fannybaws/bawheed/bampot/Clawbaw/really washer/knobdobber/ I rly could go on

I tag @cherry-cokes @trashpaintedgold @wankerhowell @karkinvinsky @ anyone else who wants tagged lmk and I’ll add Ur name in so it’s not embarrassing if u do it and no one tagged u