i wish i was at home listening to swans

Rain

I was driving on my way back home, and let me tell you it NEVER rains where I’m from, and I was listening to the Eclipse audiobook when all of a sudden, it starts raining! Then I pass a faded old orange truck just like Bella’s and I swear it was the most magical drive ever.

Here’s to hoping the Cullens are lurking nearby :)

Why Can't I Be Snowing?
Camping In Alaska

and i listened to pump fake 3000 times and wished i could find my place, my generation. 
sitting home alone after a fucking shitty show where no one showed up like they said they would. 
and now we’re grown ups. we’re fucking grown up. with a bummed out swan song wasted on closed ears. 
fuck this fuck everything no one even cares i wish they would care. 
i hope that i die so people might listen to the songs i write, or wrote.

why can’t i be Snowing?

why can’t you fucking love me

150 Kick-Ass Lana Del Rey Lyrics (Updated)
  1. You fit me better than my favourite sweater. - Blue Jeans
  2. All my friends ask me why I stay strong, tell ‘em when you find true love it lives on. - Dark Paradise
  3. I paint my nails black, I dye my hair a darker shade of brown, cus you like your women Spanish, dark, strong and proud. - Black Beauty
  4. Come take a walk on the wild side, let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain. - Born To Die
  5. Cus baby we were born to live fast and die young, born to be bad and have fun. - Never Let Me Go
  6. My pussy tastes like Pepsi Cola. - Cola
  7. If you lie down with dogs then you’ll get fleas, be careful of the company you keep. - 24
  8. My old man is a tough man but he’s got a soul as sweet as blood red jam, and he shows me he knows me, every inch of my tar black soul. - Off To The Races
  9. I can be your china doll if you want to see me fall. - Without You
  10. You’re sitting in your office dreaming of a different life, you say you wanna make me smile and see my wild side. If we don’t leave town now, we’re never gonna get out of here alive. - Paris
  11. My clothes still smell like you and all the photographs say you’re still young. I pretend I’m not hurt and go about the world like I’m having fun. - Body Electric
  12. Lay me down tonight, I’m your favourite girl. - Fucked My Way Up To The Top
  13. I’m in his favourite sundress, watching me get undressed, take that body downtown. - Video Games
  14. We both know that it’s not fashionable to love me. - Honeymoon
  15. Hot summer nights, mid July, when you and I were forever wild. - Young and Beautiful
  16. It was like, James Dean, for sure. You’re so fresh to death and sick as ca-cancer. - Blue Jeans
  17. I think we’re like fire and water, I think we’re like the wind and sea. - Brooklyn Baby
  18. He said to be cool but I’m already coolest. - National Anthem
  19. Living without you won’t be easy to do. - There’s Nothing To Be Sorry About
  20. You’re not mean, you’re just born to be seen, born to be wild. - Art Deco 
  21. And I don’t know how you get over, get over, someone as dangerous, tainted and flawed as you. - Million Dollar Man
  22. Be young, be dope, be proud. - American
  23. Baby you’ll never be old in my eyes, with your golden grill, true love never dies. We’re forever young in paradise. - Daytona Meth
  24. Now you’re just another one of my problems because you got out of hand. We won’t survive, we’re sinking into the sand. - High By The Beach
  25. Loving you is like loving a hurricane, I’m tired of all the mess you make, all the hearts you break. - Resistance
  26. This is what makes us girls, we don’t stick together cus we put love first. - This Is What Makes Us Girls
  27. I’m tired of feeling like I’m fucking crazy. - Ride
  28. But if you send for me you know I’ll come and if you call for me you know I’ll run. - Old Money
  29. They say I’m too young to love you, I don’t know what I need, they think I don’t understand the freedom land of the seventies. - Brooklyn Baby
  30. Every now and then the stars align, boy and girl meet by the great design. - Lucky Ones
  31. I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted, and then losing it to know what true freedom is. - Ride (Music video monologue)
  32. But I lost myself when I lost you. - Terrence Loves You
  33. Got me spinning like a ballerina, feeling gangsta every time I see ya. - Queen of Disaster
  34. Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, I don’t know why. - Born To Die
  35. It’s not easy for me to talk about, I have heavy heart-strings. - The Blackest Day
  36. Is she a Ride or Die Bitch? Does she know I’m tattooed onto your heart? - She’s Not Me
  37. Kiss me hard before you go, summertime sadness. - Summertime Sadness
  38. It’s you that I adore, though I make the boys fall like dominoes. - Lolita
  39. Are you gonna hurt me now or are you gonna hurt me later? - Flipside
  40. Life doesn’t always work out like you planned it, they say make lemonade out of lemons, but I try and I can’t understand it. - Starry Eyed
  41. Life is a velvet crowbar hitting you over the head, you’re bleeding but you want more. - Velvet Crowbar
  42. You got that medicine I need: fame, liquor, love, give it to me slowly. Put your hands on my waist, do it softly. - Gods and Monsters
  43. It’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you, everything I do. - Video Games
  44. Darling, darling, doesn’t have a problem, lying to herself cus her liquor’s top shelf. - Carmen
  45. I’m your little baby doll, you my Mr. Rock N’ Roll. - Put The Radio On
  46. I will love you ‘til the end of time, I would wait a million years. - Blue Jeans
  47. Life makes sense when I’m with you. - Freak
  48. I’m America’s sweetheart trying to get away. - Afraid
  49. You’re no good for me but baby I want you. - Diet Mountain Dew
  50. Now my life is sweet like cinnamon, like a fucking dream I’m living in. - Radio
  51. I’m not a trick but I’m a trick for you. - Ghetto Baby
  52. I heard that you like the bad girls, honey, is that true? - Video Games
  53. Every Saturday night I get dressed up to ride for you, baby, cruising down the street on Hollywood and Vine for you, baby. - Burning Desire
  54. I heart you, so come back and rock my world. - Big Bad Wolf
  55. You like your girls insane. - Born To Die
  56. I’m finally happy now that you’re gone. - Cruel World
  57. Red, white, blue is in the sky, summer’s in the air and baby, heaven’s in your eyes. - National Anthem
  58. But you are unfixable, I can’t break through your world cus you live in shades of cool. Your heart is unbreakable. - Shades of Cool
  59. They say that I’m like crack because my taste will change ya. - Midnite Dancer Girlfriend
  60. All the pretty stars shine for you, my love. - Pretty When You Cry
  61. Don’t you know, no one alive can always be an angel? - Don’t Let Me Be Misunderstood
  62. And there’s no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody. - Dark Paradise
  63. I should’ve learned to let you stay. - Guns and Roses
  64. Lick me up and take me like a vitamin cus my body’s sweet like sugar venom, oh yeah. - Radio
  65. Don’t they know it’s the end of the world? It ended when you said goodbye. - End Of The World
  66. All my dreams and all the lights mean nothing without you. - Without You
  67. You’re breaking my heart tonight, kissing me hard, seeing Valentino stars tonight. - Breaking My Heart
  68. Blue hydrangea, cold cash, divine, cashmere, cologne and white sunshine. - Old Money
  69. I’m feelin’ electric tonight, cruising down the coast goin’ 'bout 99, got my bad baby by my heavenly side. I know if I go, I’ll die happy tonight. - Summertime Sadness
  70. Lies can buy eternity. - Music To Watch Boys To
  71. Had a face like an angel, but inside my heart was as black as a broke movie screen. - Because Of You
  72. Come on, baby, let’s ride, we can escape to the great sunshine, I know your wife and she wouldn’t mind. - Cola
  73. Catch me if you can, working on my tan, salvatore. - Salvatore
  74. I’ve got a war in my mind. - Ride
  75. You got that medicine I need. Dope, shoot it up, straight to the heart please. - Gods and Monsters
  76. And all the ways I got to know your pretty face and electric soul. - Young and Beautiful
  77. In our minds, there ain’t any confusion about who we are and what we’re gonna be. - Children of The Bad Revolution
  78. The world can change in a day if you go away. - Swan Song
  79. Life is beautiful but you don’t have a clue. - Black Beauty
  80. Everybody wants to go fast, but they can’t compare, I don’t really want the rest, only you can take me there. - American
  81. I tried so hard to act nice like a lady, you taught me that it was good to be crazy. - Lucky Ones
  82. Baby, you’ll never grow old in my eyes. - Every Man Gets His Wish
  83. You make me happy, you make me happy, and I never listen to anyone. - Lolita 
  84. Carry me home, got my blue nail polish on, it’s my favorite color and my favorite tone of song. - The Blackest Day
  85. We were two kids just trying to get out, lived on the dark side of the American dream. - Without You
  86. You know sometimes I think God’s playing a little game with me, ooking down from heaven, laughing, trying to see how much I can take. - Tired Of Singing The Blues
  87. Loving you was really hard. - Ultraviolence
  88. Elvis is my daddy, Marilyn’s my mother, Jesus is my bestest friend. - Body Electric
  89. I was born to be the other woman who belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone, who had nothing, who wanted everything, with a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about it, and pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me. - Ride (Music video monologue)
  90. It’s alarming truly how disarming you can be, eating soft ice cream, Coney Island Queen. - Carmen
  91. I got my red dress on tonight, dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight. Done my hair up real big, beauty queen style, high heels off, I’m feeling alive. - Summertime Sadness
  92. Loving you is hard, being here is harder. - High By The Beach
  93. He holds me in his big arms, drunk and I am seeing stars, this is all I think of. - Video Games
  94. But you are who you are, I won’t change you for anything. - Terrence Loves You
  95. Was I wrong to go on like a little fool? It’s amazing what women in love will do. - Big Eyes
  96. If I get a little prettier, can I be your baby? - Gods and Monsters
  97. But I’m not scared, there’s nothing to lose now that I’ve found you. - Honeymoon
  98. Boy, you have landed, babe, in the land of Sweetness and Danger, Queen of Saigon. - National Anthem
  99. You haven’t seen the best of me and if you want the rest of me, you’ll have to pay a lovely fee. - Summer of Sam
  100. Blue jeans, white shirt, you walked into the room, you know you made my eyes burn. - Blue Jeans
  101. Hit me and it felt like a kiss, you know it hurts so good when you do me like this. - Beautiful Player
  102. I’m your little scarlet, starlet, singin’ in the garden. - Off To The Races
  103. All the world is ours, like they say in Scarface kid. - Never Let Me Go
  104. You’re a careless con, and you’re a crazy liar, but baby, nobody can compare to the way you get down. - Lucky Ones
  105. I was born bad but then I met you. You made me nice for a while but my dark side’s true. - Kinda Outta Luck
  106. He’s got the fire and he walks with fame. - Sad Girl
  107. I adore you, can’t you see, you’re meant for me? - Salvatore
  108. Love you more than those bitches before. - Blue Jeans
  109. Our kind of love, it was once in a lifetime, it couldn’t last, it was doomed from the first time. - Hollywood’s Dead
  110. Give heaven a try, be young and be wild, be free and alive. - You and
  111. Says he’s gonna teach me just what fast is, say it’s gonna be alright. - Diet Mountain Dew
  112. He doesn’t mind I have a flat broke down life, in fact he says he thinks it’s why he might like about me, admires me, the way I roll like a Rolling Stone. - Off To The Races
  113. They’re trying to teach me about new ways of living, they’re trying to teach me about ways of forgiving. - Westbound
  114. I say you the bestest, lean in for a big kiss, put his favourite perfume on. - Video Games
  115. I have nothing else to do this summer but be committed to you. - Aviation
  116. We could slow dance to rock music, kiss while we do it. - Freak
  117. I’m your little harlot, starlet, Queen of Coney Island, raising hell all over town. - Off To The Races
  118. Delicious to the maximum, chew you up like bubble gum. - Be My Daddy
  119. The other woman will never have his love to keep and, as the years go by, the other woman will spend her life alone. - The Other Woman
  120. Do you think we’ll be in love forever? - Diet Mountain Dew
  121. My dreams are bigger than your junkie pride. - Pride
  122. She laughs like God, her mind’s like a diamond. - Carmen
  123. No more skipping rope, skipping heart beats with the boys downtown. Just you and me feeling the heat even when the sun goes down. - Lolita
  124. Everything you say makes me wanna stay but everything you’ve done makes me wanna run run run. - Butterflies
  125. We dance like nobody’s watching us and we live like we want to. - Because Of You
  126. He loves me with every beat of his cocaine heart. - Off To The Races
  127. No one lives forever but that’s no reason to give up. - Last Girl On Earth
  128. For you, there’s only love. - Religion 
  129. Everybody told me love was blind then I saw your face and you blew my mind. - Lucky Ones
  130. I’m stronger than all my men except for you. - Pretty When You Cry
  131. Is the sun in your eyes, easy rider? Do the flame colored skies light your fire? - Angels Forever
  132. I was always an unusual girl. My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality… just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean. - Ride (Music video monologue)
  133. There’s only 24 hours in a day and half as many ways for you to lie to me, my little love. - 24
  134. I sing the National Anthem while I’m standing over your body, hold you like a python. And you can’t keep your hands off me or your pants on. - National Anthem
  135. Because you’re young, you’re wild, you’re free, you’re dancin’ circles around me. You’re fuckin’ crazy. Oh, oh, you’re crazy for me. - Cruel World
  136. In the land of Gods and Monsters, I was an angel looking to get fucked hard. - Gods and Monsters
  137. I’m just a soul whose intentions are good. - Don’t Let Me Be Misunderstood
  138. You were talking so brave and so sweet, giving me head on the unmade bed while the limousines wait in the street. - Chelsea Hotel No 2
  139. Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine but I wish I was dead. - Dark Paradise 
  140. I am sleeping with your best friend. How do you like me now? - Get Drunk
  141. I’ve been drinking Jack and Coke a lot, sucking on my lollipops, listening to my hard rock mu-mu-mu-music, thinking 'bout you quite a lot. - Girl That Got Away
  142. You were like so sick, everybody said it. - American
  143. You could be a bad motherfucker but that don’t make you a man. - Honeymoon
  144. Whitman is my daddy, Monaco’s my mother, Diamonds are my bestest friend. Heaven is my baby, suicide’s her father, opulence is the end. - Body Electric
  145. My man likes to watch me while I watch TV whiles he’s t-t-touching me. - Daytona Meth
  146. I think I’ll miss you forever like the stars miss the sun in the morning skies. - Summertime Sadness 
  147. Will you still love me when I shine from words but not from beauty? - Old Money
  148. You always buy me roses when I’m mad. Do you think I’ll forgive you just like that? - Roses
  149. I’m a lion in a party dress, I won’t stop until I get the best. - True Love On The Side
  150. I just ride. - Ride