i wish i could feel good about myself

#transformationtuesday here on the left is me suffering form multiple disorders from restricting myself, over exercising, binging, purging, depression, to mental health that had just gone to shit. All I wanted was to be skinny and no matter how skinny I was It still wasn’t enough. I was wrapped up with this idea that I was worthless, ugly, and a disappointment if I couldn’t live up to society’s expectations. I constantly compared myself to others just wishing I could look and be like them. I would physically harm myself because I hated myself so much that I felt like I needed to be punished. On the right is me now! I eat what I want when I want it. I practice self love everyday and finally feel good and confident in my own skin. I go to the gym and lift heavy weights because that’s what I’m passionate about, but if I’m tried or just don’t feel up to going I simply don’t go and I don’t get stressed out about it like I use to. I try my very best not to compare myself to others, but with social media it can be very challenging at times. I battle my demons everyday and recovery is mentally exhausting and so not easy, but it’s worth it to me because it makes me stronger. My past, my scars, my bruises, and my imperfections make me who I am today and these things are what make me feel beautiful🐣

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This is my partner, Noah, @pastelpinkdisaster (and their artwork)!

Noah is also the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. They’re an amazing artist, singer, and craftsman. They hope to be an animator for LAIKA one day, and I know they can do it. They’re incredibly determined, gifted, kind, funny, passionate, wise… Everything that’s good about humanity is multiplied in Noah by a billion.

Noah is also autistic. This is a very important part of who they are as a person! And since it’s autism acceptance day, I’d like to share their words with all of you:

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“I want people to accept us as we are. Don’t try to make us feel bad for not being what you wish we would be. All my life I’ve been noticeably “other” and shamed for it. People tried to make me remove pieces of myself so I would be a “normal” person they could like. And it sucked. It still sucks.

Anyone can be aware of anything, but we don’t want you to just be aware. We want you to accept and love us for who we are. We don’t want to have parts of us covered up so we can seem “normal,” we want people to know that there’s nothing wrong with us and that we ARE normal.

My life wouldn’t be better if I wasn’t autistic, but it damn sure would be better if people didn’t treat me so badly because I am.“

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On this very lovely day, please show some appreciation to our autistic black LGBT brothers, sisters, and non binary siblings. They are beautiful, capable, and strong - just like Noah!

#redinstead #autismacceptanceday

the road to recovery and becoming a more resilient person always brings me to “you have to learn to focus more on yourself”

and by that its a lot of things. forgiving myself. allowing myself to feel emotions, even the ugly ones. letting myself be. embracing the good things and accepting the bad. and accepting that i might never be perfect but i am me, and there is only one of me, and that my life is valuable.

ive always thought i was replacable. maybe because there always seemed to be someone “better”. ive always felt like i wasnt good enough for anything. like someone who was everything i wanted to be would come along and take my place and id turn to dust.

i dont know. i dont like to focus on myself because in my mind, im sad. im angry. im petty. im fragile. and yes i am. but isnt everyone once and a while?

so many people around me find things to love about me and i still dont understand. hearing it makes me feel so happy but i wish i could believe it without needing validation. i wish i could feel good enough for myself.

i want to love myself, so badly. i want to be kind to myself for once in my gd life. 

so. how am i today?

Part 1

Request: @huntermichelle

‘Can you make a short series with this theme, where Thomas then continues to pretend to be your boyfriend in public but then actually starts to like you and eventually falls for you?’

Pairing: Thomas Brodie-Sangster x Reader

Word Count: 745

Warnings: None

Sitting in Dylan’s dressing room on the set of The Scorch Trials, I fight the tears stinging the back of my eyes. Kaya, Rosa, Will and Ki Hong are all sitting around me, asking me why I still don’t have a boyfriend.

“But why? I mean, I could totally fix you up with someone, although we might have to fix your look a bit…” Rosa says, her sweet smile not quite hiding the insult.

I sigh, wishing I was talking to Dylan and Thomas on the other side of the room instead of answering their questions. “As I said before, I’m just not looking for a guy right now”.

“Are…are you looking for a girl” Kaya whispers hesitantly. I fight the urge to roll my eyes as Will smirks.

“No, Kaya, I’m not a lesbian. I’m totally fine with being single right now, okay?”

The truth is, I do wish I had a boyfriend. I’ve had a small crush on a certain British actor who plays the character of Newt for a while now, but the problem is, we’re pretty good friends, and I know that there is no way he would ever like me back. A few guys have asked me out recently, but as sweet as they all were, I’ve found myself turning them down, knowing that no one is as good as Thomas.

“How do you feel about dying your hair a few shades lighter? And maybe putting on some more makeup? You could totally get a boyfriend if you tried a little harder” Rosa says, not even bothering to sound polite. Her words sting, and I take a shaky breath, feeling like total crap. “Everyone else has a boyfriend or girlfriend” Kaya adds. My face turns bright red.

I see Thomas start to walk towards us in my peripheral vision, looking perfect as usual. Looking up at him, I smile weakly, trying to make out that everything is okay and hoping that my eyes don’t betray me. He places a hand on my shoulder, sending tingles rushing through me, and looks at the girls. He looks…is he angry? Thomas is normally cool, calm and collected, and it’s odd to see him like this.

“I strongly recommend that you don’t speak to Y/N like that. Especially when you have no idea what you’re bloody talking about” he says, his voice deadly calm.

I open my mouth to ask what he means, but all of a sudden, he leans down towards me. Kaya starts to express her confusion, but then Tom’s lips touch mine - softly, lightly - and I stop hearing anything, my heart hammering in my ribcage and pounding in my ears. Questions race through my mind as he kisses me, making everyone’s jaws drop.

“Y/N and I have been secretly dating for a few months, now” Thomas lies, his voice not even wavering slightly. Why would he protect me from them like that? My hands are shaking violently. He continues the lie smoothly and I force myself to nod behind him, playing along. He excuses us from the shocked, silent group and we exit the room.

“W-What was that for?” I stutter as soon as we get into the hallway.
“I just couldn’t bloody see them question you like that, so I just…I don’t know. I shouldn’t have done it, love, and I’m sorry…”

I shake my head, silencing him. I’m glad that he protected me, but…I wish he had kissed me for a different reason.

“It’s fine, thank you for doing…what you did…but what do we do now?” I ask.
“Well…” he starts, his voice slightly hoarse. “We can either keep pretending that we’re…you know. Or we can tell everyone the truth, or say that we’ve broken up. It’s your choice, love”

I take a minute to make weigh the pros and cons. Thomas is a good guy, and I know that he’ll respect any decision I make.After making my decision, I respond quietly, suddenly feeling shy.

“Maybe…maybe we should just keep pretending for a bit. We have to go to the Scorch Trials Convention tomorrow, so…let’s just keep pretending tomorrow and then work out what we want to do”

He sighs. Is it just me, or is he…relieved?

“Alright. I guess I’ll see you at the convention, then”. He moves forward, as if to hug me, but then pulls away and waves instead. Disappointment floods me as he walks away. I find myself missing him once he’s gone.  

ITS OKAY TO STRUGGLE!
So last night I was scrolling through my feed on Instagram and I was just seeing all these girls who were showing off their beautiful looks, their progress which is always very inspiring to me!! but I found myself starting to pick myself apart wishing I had their hair, skin, curves, muscles, etc. I was thinking about ways I could change myself to try and look like them, and feeling like I wasn’t good enough and why should I even try to reach my goals when I’m never going to look like them. When I caught myself thinking these terrible things about myself, I had to take a step back put the phone down and breath. I reminded myself that no I’m not ever going to look like them and thats OKAY because everyone is different and unique in their own way! And instead of tearing myself down I started to build myself up with kind words and things that make me a good strong person. Social media is a great thing, but is can also be a very toxic place. It’s okay to struggle and have these little moments because it reminds us that we are all human. The most important thing to do is to love yourself, say and think positive things about yourself because you are beautiful just the way you are and you DO NOT need to change yourself what so ever! ❤

it wasn't my fault || stiles stilinski

word count: 3201

warnings: lots of angst. dealing with death.

prompt: “they said it wasn’t my fault.”

author’s note: posted before, but my blog was deleted, so here it is again! Y/D/N means Your Daughter’s Name.

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tammi-dawdles  asked:

Hiiii! Good luck on your blog! May I request a sfw scenario about Jushiro finding out that it was his s/o that was once his secret admirer and left him love letters? And they're super embarrassed about it because they're not seen as the lovey-dovey type?

Gaah, Jushiro, my love! What a wholesome ask, of course I can do that! He’s second only to Shunsui in my eyes, but it’s a close second. Oh, this was so cute. I could feel myself melting into a puddle when I was done! Thank you for the well wishes! I really hope you like it!

It had taken months of careful planning–of placing notes where Captain Ukitake would find them, of roping his lieutenant into helping you hide them, and telling you when he would be out on an errand. Each time you left a letter, it was usually accompanied by a delicate lily of some kind (it varied in color, depending on the content of the letter), and was tied with a ribbon of your favorite color. Perhaps that was what gave you away…

In the end, the letters, and flowers, and general sneakiness weren’t necessary. Nearly caught in the act of leaving yet another love note on the captain’s desk, he’d arrived just after you’d entered his office. Startled–that damn old man and his talent for hiding his spirit energy–you hid the note in the sleeve of your shihakusho as you spun around, flashing him a sheepish smile. You had apologized, stating that you thought he was inside, but realized a little too late that that wasn’t the case. Being the huge sweetheart that was he, he waved it off like no big deal, pinning you with that gorgeous warm smile, his eyes crinkling at the corners with genuine tenderness, and your heart melted into a puddle of goo.

He was just too much, all smiles and kindness, a contrast to your slightly rougher exterior. Hell, the love letters weren’t even really your thing, but the thought of being upfront and blunt about your feelings made you so nervous you thought you would pass out. But looking into Jushiro’s beautiful green eyes, so forgiving and trusting in that moment, you couldn’t keep your feelings bottled up any longer, and they came out in a rush that you weren’t initially sure was decipherable.

“I-I-I like you!” you stuttered out. “Wou–Would you consider having lunch with me?” Color flooded your cheeks instantly, burning, and you couldn’t keep your eyes on him anymore. Your gaze shifted to the floor as you willed it to open up and swallow you whole–it would likely be less nerve-wracking than your current situation.

You could practically feel Jushiro’s eyes boring into your soul, and the gentle shuffle of his feet was much too loud in your red-tipped ears as he stepped toward you. Soft, caring fingers found themselves under you chin, gingerly easing you up. You resisted.

“___,” Jushiro said gently, “would you look at me? Please?”

Eventually you did, after much coaxing, and he happily agreed to your offer. You’d been happy as clams ever since, lunch becoming a near daily commitment, something you both looked forward to. While you remained virtually unchanged, Jushiro was all sweet words, gentle, loving caresses, and smiles when he was with you. Of course you were happy as well, even though you weren’t as verbally affectionate as he was. Your actions spoke for your feelings more than your words, and that was just fine with you both. He appreciated that you doted on him in your own subtle ways. Everything was going great…until today.

When you arrived at the Thirteenth Division barracks, Rukia greeted you as per usual, giving you a knowing wink that you ignored. There was absolutely nothing that could dampen your mood when you were on your way to see Jushiro. You had your lunch in your hands, thinking about how hungry you were as you slid the door to his office open–

To reveal him reading an extremely familiar looking piece of stationary, a ribbon dangling from where his hand gripped the letter. Your eyes widened, already knowing that he had figured it out.. Jushiro was a smart man. Your face flushed red, all the way to the tips of your ears and down your chest, as he turned to you with a knowing smile. You wondered exactly where that thing had popped up from, but couldn’t find an answer.

“Darling, were these from you?” he asked, holding your letter a little higher. Damn that thing! You should have trashed when you got the chance, but you had given so much thought and care into the thing that it would’ve been a waste, even if Jushiro never read it.

Well, now that he had, and he knew your secret, there was no turning back. That didn’t make you any less embarrassed, however. You gulped, but couldn’t form any words, and your mouth opened and closed with a snap. Jushiro looked over the moon.

“’I have a feeling that I can comprehend, In my deepest thoughts you’re more than just a friend… … I’ll love you tomorrow, I’ll love you today. I’ll love you forever, And forever always.’ Did you write this for me?” Oh, damn. When he looked at you like that, like you were the most precious thing to exist in this world, you couldn’t deny it.

But you would try.

“N-No! That’s not–! It was–! U-Um…”

“Those letters were all from you?” he pressed, still giving you that disarming smile. He eased his way closer to you, careful not to startle you because he knew how you were. Oh, and did he love the look on your face. It was so cute, he didn’t know what to do with himself. Your eyes wide, cheeks a rather impressive shade of pink, lips pursed trying to find your words; it made his heart sing. For your part, you couldn’t look him in the eye, and instead stared at his chest, trying to calm your racing heartbeat. 

“I truly enjoyed those letters,” Jushiro murmured. “Every time I found a new one, it would brighten my day. I even kept the flowers until they wilted, because they were special to me.”

Slowly, you brought your gaze back up to his face, and you could have died. His expression was so tender, so full of love that your breath hitched in your throat, and if it were possible your face flushed even darker.

“You’re embarrassed,” Jushiro chuckled. In the next moment, your face was in his hands, and he was giving you softest kiss you thought you’d ever had. “I really should have noticed sooner. The letters stopped coming the day you asked me to lunch, and this ribbon–” he held it up “–it’s your favorite color.”

“W-Well, I–” You looked down again, but Jushiro wouldn’t let you stay that way. He pulled your face back up, nuzzling your noses together, coercing you into answering. “I never intended for you to find out…”

Jushiro blinked. “Why not?”

“Because… It’s embarrassing… It’s not really my thing, you know…”

“But you do feel that way?” He raised an eyebrow. Even though you knew he was teasing, you still panicked.

“Of course I do!” you assured him. Then, quieter, “I wouldn’t have written you those letters if I didn’t…”

You refused to make eye contact while Jushiro pondered you, and you were suddenly wrapped up in another toe-curling kiss that made your knees turn to jelly.

“’Your words touch my heart, Whispers of truth reflections, With fingers of love.’”

You wet your lips with your tongue, gazing up at him, then let out a small laugh. “How long have you been working on that one?”

“Hm… From about when I found your last letter.” He smiled, and wrapped you up in his tight embrace. “By that point, I knew enough that it came to me quite easily.”

“Heh, you’re much better at poetry than I am, then. That poem took me weeks…” Hiding your face in his broad chest, you breathed in his scent as you circled your arms around his torso.

“I love you, ___,” he whispered in your ear. 

There was just no end to the cavity-inducing sweetness that was Jushiro Ukitake, and it wasn’t good for your heart, either. That man learned a new way to make you swoon with every passing day.

“I love you, too,” you replied without looking up, holding him a little tighter when he tried to see your face.

“Are you ever going to come out of hiding, my love?” he inquired, gently teasing again.

You shook you head.

“I see…”

Seeing as how you were already dying, he didn’t see the harm in picking you up and walking your lunch date out to the gardens. There, you sat under the tree that overlooked the koi pond, perched in his lap with your face buried in his neck, until your heart was calm enough to handle peering up at his handsome face. The surprisingly sneaky Jushiro stole a kiss from your pouted lips, making the color return to your cheeks once again.

He was going to be the death of you, and you were entirely okay with that.

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Credit where credit is due, the poems are not mine. I’m terrible at poetry. The first one is titled “My True Love” by Hailey L. Sturgill. I took only the first and last verses of her poem. The second, the haiku, has no title, and is by someone from twitter with the handle @purelovenergy. Thank you!

Star Trek: DS9 Notes - S6, Vol. 2

What’s that? It’s the Wartime Miniseries PART 2!

We’re at the Deep Space 9
We’re at the Terok Nor
We’re at the combination Deep Space 9 and Terok Nor

[dance breakdown]

6x04 ‘Behind the Lines’
- Nog has managed to produce BRANDY from somewhere, because “I may be a cadet, but I’m still a Ferengi.” Nog is that dude in The Great Escape who can always get you stuff, isn’t he.
- THE DEFIANT CREW HAS A CEREMONY FOR WHEN THEY USE UP A POWER CELL. Chief O’Brien PRESENTS IT to Captain Sisko, who then GIVES A ROUSING SPEECH with CALL-AND-RESPONSE ELEMENTS. do you know how much I love call-and-response??? it’s a whole personal story, having to do with Moby-Dick and my high school English teacher, and, in retrospect, the fact that he was the one who used to be a Captain in the Marine Corps…. anyway, can attest that call-and-response is a guaranteed way to create strong group bonding AND startle awful vice principals your enemies. y’know looking back, that my English teacher was seen by the administration as a defiant Romantic revolutionary with a young literati army is also making a lot of sense….
- me last time: “what strange new rhythms will you all have fallen into out here”
  Ben to his Admiral right now: “It’s just a little ritual we fell into”
  weLL THANKS!

mmmm Kira providing this diegetic VO of what’s going through this Cardassian’s head at the bar while she and Rom look down on him from the second level, GOOD STUFF

- Kira: “How did you get ahold of Damar’s pad anyway?”
  Rom: “I’m good with my hands.”
  high oh.
- I think that Jem’Hadar just broke a Cardassian’s back over his knee? what kinda fight choreography can you guys afford these days!
- Weyoun, through a grin: “Our men need to see that we’re still allies. Smile.”
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I really wish I was good enough for myself so I could be good enough for someone else. I’m constantly focused on all my faults and the imperfections with my physical appearance. I trust way too easily and I give too much of my time to people who won’t even stick around to let me fully let my guard down. I’m tired of feeling like I’ve got to apologize for existing or complaining about things that hurt and bother me. I just want things to work out and to find as much happiness as I can. I get so out of my head and wrapped up in worries and anxiety that I’m only sleeping a few hours a night now and I’m always wanting to find myself in the arms of someone I can trust. Why does my mind always want to find solace in a man? I’m never what or who a guy wants anyway.

anonymous asked:

Oh my gosh happy birthday!! It was my birthday yesterday, actually, so that's a funny coincidence!! XD I hope you had a fantastic day, you have a wonderful AU and art style I adore :D

HEYYY So you’re taurus too????
DELAYED HAPPY BDAY! TSCHHHH I WISH I COULD SHARE SOME CAKE WITH YOU!

♥ THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE BDAY WISH ♥

AND aaah gosh thank you so much for the praise, i’m super happy that you think that my stuff is wonderful *blushes* even if it’s nothing compare to all of you.

Yall are the people who should be praised everyday. I can’t believe how darling and supportive yall are. Like HELL, I know that deservation is overrated, but aaaah, you all are making me feel so special, super mega special. ;u; and still, I’m just a simple person who doodle undertale stuff like a total nerd. 
 (⁄ ⁄>⁄ ▽ ⁄<⁄ ⁄)

I feel like I’m repeting myself so much about that, I feel sorry if you’re just seeing me screaming always the same way about how much I love yall! (I don’t mean to spam your dash, but I really wanna reply to all of you FOR ONCE, it’s important ;v;). I’m not that good in english, so I always use the same words, but I mean them so damn much, I wish I could have more vocabulary to worship yall better than how I’m doing it now!

One day, I’ll be there (I hope at least! XD).
Anyway, I’ll keep spamming you a few, even after this post! 
Sorry for the spaaaam ♥  ( ̄u ̄*)ゞ

@misscreatureist, @skullythepirate2: Thank you so much!! ♥

@thehybrid: I got an amazing time today and I hope I’ll be able to celebrate some more with some of you on drawpile!

@icefury55: ahaha nope, you’re not late! ♥ Aaaah merci beaucouuup!! *hugs*

@godfather44: You’re not either! Thanks youuu! ♥

@shitpost-almighty: YOUR USERNAME….. G.O.L.D
Thank you braaah *wiggles butt as a thank you*

@theholytoaster: ahaha MERCI!! (°◡°♡)
Tkt je te pardonne, va en paix mon ami! XD

@bluerose099: Yes yes… Feet doesnt impress me. But they were at first. I just spend too much time drawing in the subway when I was going to college… And cuz’ I’m shy af, I was just looking down while drawing, so I was mostly seeing feet and shoes… So I mostly drew feet and shoes. XD
A N Y W A Y, thank you so much blue!! You’re so sweet and amazing!
I’m so happy that you find me gurl! *hugs tight* 

Anon 01: It’s today, on the 28th. I just gived my own Bday to blublu, so ye, we share the same day as a birthday. THANK YOU FOR HIM (and for me cuz I took it for me too XD)

@angstysecurityguard, @animeplayer2336 Thank you so muchhh! ♥

@Anon 02 & 03: MERCI FRENCHIES PALS ♥ 
OH w8 w8 w8, je suis ton préféré? eeeeeh  (//ω//)

Adventure Time Season 7

Quotes from Season 7

Episode 1

‘People get built different. We don’t need to figure it out. We just need to respect it.‘ 

Episode 2 (so many!)

'Is that why you stopped talking to me?’ 

'I like your handwriting. I think it’s really pretty. *BLUSHES*’ (PB: the only one who could make a 'cold and heartless’ vampire blush) 

'I tried. I really, really tried. I just..I thought if I shut everything out and just focused on work, it would all be okay. All I managed to do was push everyone away. I pushed you away. I’m sorry Marceline.’ ‘Come on, what are you even apologising for?’ (Marcie being the best gf ever!) 

'Promise to wake me up in 15 minutes.’ 'I promise.' 

The Bubbline feels are real. 

Episode 3

'Maybe you can pick up from a place you haven’t been yet.’ - Jake giving the best relationship advice ever 

Episode 4

‘If you don’t like your job, it might be time to find a new one.’

Episode 5

‘Listen B-Football you seem like you might be feeling a little donked up in your head or your heart or both, and that’s okay.’ 

Episode 6 

'Someday, when you die, I’ll be the one who puts you in the ground.' 

’…That’s right, I forgot about Ooo’s extensive vampire community.' 

 Episode 7 

'Honey, something weird might just be something familiar viewed from a different angle. And that’s not scary right?' 

Episode 8

‘Old fashioned ideas have no place here.’ (Preach!)

Episode 9

‘Simon, you have to resist the empress!’ ‘But, she’s a woman!’ - can’t argue with that

‘Staking vampires. Protecting the last remaining humans. It felt like I was protecting you. It was the only thing that brought me happiness during those years.’ 

Episode 10

‘Dude was too old fashioned for his own good. He just couldn’t get with the times.’

Episode 11

‘I just wish I could do more for her.’

‘I believed in myself so much that I was blind to the possible consequences. Now, my best friend is dying of poison because of me.’

Episode 12

‘I dreamed about you while I was in my poison coma. I was all old and withered, and you were still nice and pink.’ ‘You think I’m nice?’ (Of course she does Bonnie. She’s freaking in love with you.)

‘No, it’s not fear. I know what fear feels like. So maybe it’s love?’

‘I love you Bonnibel.’ ‘Yeah, me too Bonnibel.’ (Awwwwwww…..)

Episode 13

‘We’re always the underdogs you and me, and we always pull through.’

‘There’s plenty of room there, if you don’t want to be alone.’ - PB (not so) subtly trying to get Marcie to move in with her

‘Now I’m a vampire with fresh mortal memories, and I don’t know, more empathy or something. More grown up. Bonnie, thank you for helping me grow up. Now I guess we get to hang out together forever.’ (PB blushes and I die)

SO MUCH BUBBLINE THIS SEASON. NO COMPLAINTS WHATSOEVER. 

(Stakes was such a good arc!) 

Episode 14&15

'But does growing up just change your body, or also your soul?' 

‘Maybe the lesson is that, when you are grown, you won’t ever be able to tell when everything is going totally haywire. Or maybe, actually, if everything is perfectly fine.’

'I can see the world as it is. But your imagination, BMO lets you see the world how it could be or might sorta be like.' 

'As you were built to give love, AMO was built to receive, but he could not think outside his programming, and was blinded by his need. Such is the cruel physics of love. That those who crave it will repel it, and only the dang rich get richer.’ (Damn.) 

‘But I’m different! It’s not just Moe up here. It’s me too!. And if I cannot trust in Moe, I can trust in me. Oh boy, it sure in confusing being grown.’ (You got that right, BMO.)

Episode 16

‘Time is a slippery devil. Our lives are sudden. They come and go like a summer shower.’

Episode 17

‘Being a robot cowboy is a lonely job.’

‘Hey Jake, if you hear my internal monologue, I’m going to kill you!’ 

Episode 18

‘Sometimes I get lonely and need to hear the sound of other people talking.’

‘It’s like there’s this instruction manual that explains how to talk to people and everyone in the world got a copy except me.’

‘Dying together sucks a little less than dying alone.’

Episode 19

‘I say creepy is just another label we use to distance ourselves from stuff we don’t understand. Or that remind us of something in ourselves we’re not comfortable with. I mean, it just ain’t an actual thing you know, unless you choose to believe it.’ 

Episode 20

‘I will never know the pleasures of skinny dipping.’

‘Can we just take a moment to appreciate this moment?’

‘…But I only feel good about myself when I knock other people down.’

‘You should really stop and slow down more often.’ ‘Yeah, you get to hear life happening. Makes you feel good.’

Episode 21

‘If he doesn’t like his food, he’ll just spit it right back at you.’ ‘Ha-ha, Finn still does that.’

Episode 22

‘You scammed us into thinking we were spamming, You scammed us good! You’re a hero.’

Episode 23

‘It’s like the most evil heartburn!’

Episode 24

‘That must have been some cave!’ ‘(laughs) No comment!’

Episode 25

‘I want you to have a relationship with someone cool!’ (Jake being the most supportive bro ever)

‘Attracting forces come and go. It’s the way of the world.’ 

‘If I ever find what I’m looking for, I’ll become soft and I’ll cease to matter in this world. Fear of softness is what drove me to the mad and sad world of wizarding.’

‘But exceptional beasts like us cannot fall in love. That is the secret of ordinary people.’

Episode 26

‘I’m just a person. I’ve done things in the past. Things I’m not proud of. But, today I’m here to celebrate!’

‘Princess, I don’t have a special talent.’ ‘That’s okay too.’ 

Episode 27

‘Not in your everlasting lifetime, girlfriend!’ GIRLFRIEND

‘Imagine a pizza: Only half should be business, the rest should be personal. Personal pizza.’ 

‘Can you please try to get along tonight? (holds Bonnie’s hand) It would mean a lot to me.’ ‘I’ll try.’ 

‘Did you press the wrong button?’ ‘I never press the wrong button.’ ‘Yeah, you always know which button to press. I’m referring to the fact that you know how to annoy me.’  SURE YOU ARE MARCIE

‘So.. you got a boyfriend yet?’ ‘HA-NO.’ SUBTLE

‘It’s okay Simon. I’m just glad I didn’t destroy your world.’ ‘You are my world.’

Episode 28

‘I wouldn’t change anything. I’m a whole package.’

‘What to wear for my speech? Boss next door or hot president?’

Episode 29

‘I can’t believe I just believed Shelby cause he’s a nerd.’ ‘I know. It’s in his tone.’ 

‘Please don’t change. You’re perfect just the way you are.’ ‘Oh, I know! I just like to write sad songs.’

Episode 30

‘One can’t live on love alone. One must also have groceries.’  

‘Being independent is awesome. You guys have any food?’

Episode 31

‘This’ll be fun. Like the opposite of a sleepover! I’ll stay up all night if you w–’ *falls asleep immediately 

Episode 32

‘When we broke up I said sorry, but I didn’t fully understand exactly what I did wrong. I get it now. I shouldn’t have manipulated you. That was a really, really messed up thing to do, and I’m truly sorry.’ ‘You’ve grown up a lot, man. I forgive you.’ 

Episode 33

‘I could not go through with my vengeance. It would not have accomplished anything. Also, you and your brother are very sweet.’

Episode 34

‘Yo! Dogs didn’t use to talk, did you know that?’

Episode 35

‘You’ll outlive everyone you love.’ *turtle cries*

Episode 36

‘I’ve been here singing from the very beginning of Ooo. Since I can’t move from this spot, singing is my only outlet. I can neither participate in joy nor prevent disaster, so I sing.’

‘Only two kinds of people can hear my song, those who see the world with pure, childlike wonder and those with a deep sense of loss in their hearts. To everyone else, I’m just a period in a sentence in the book of Ooo.’ 

‘I’ve always wanted to be heard by everyone. That’s what friends are, right? Just people to observe you. People to enjoy your song.’ 

Episode 37

‘I at least need to unpack my last decade before embarking on my next decade.’

(Will be updated as the season progresses.)

(Translation) Kare Pillow vol. 10

大好きな彼とHして腕まくらでピロートークされちゃうシリーズ 年上彼氏と温泉デートで 編 (R18! Proceed only if you’re above 18!)

CV. Hirakawa Daisuke


T/N: Commissioned! Thanks for the huge tip as always~! ♥

Tokuten (AfterStory) is included in this post, use CTRL+F to jump to tokuten. More comments at the end to avoid spoilers ahaha


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the psychology of a crush

a heartbreak really changes your perspective. it takes a lot of time to deal with your feelings, your emotions and the bubble of happiness that you’d created around yourself during your limited interaction with someone you were really infatuated with- but the prick of the needle of reality bursts that bubble and that is where things go downhill.

i was reflecting upon why crushes feel so good. they don’t actually.

when you’re supposedly in love- you start taking care of yourself more, in the hope that maybe your crush will notice you. you start loving yourself and being more happy, because the rush that flows through your blood when you think about that special someone- it’s only due to the fact that you’ve given them the power to control your emotions. you start pampering yourself, if not consciously, then subconsciously. you just wish for that person to notice you, hold you, be with you.

we all loved to be appreciated. to be cared for. to be loved, to be respected. and sometimes, just one interaction with someone can change our lives.

one gesture, one passion, one smile- it could be anything.

i’ve realised that, why do we need someone to feel good about ourselves? many people love themselves and are complete on their own. but some people like me, who go through a cycle of falling madly in love, having their heart broken, and the getting back up again- they wish for someone to lean on.

we’re all different. we all deal with emotions differently.

and from now on, i have promised to love myself. i have promised to care for myself- even if there is no one in my life.

i promised to nurture my soul, and blossom into the bright and beautiful flower that my destiny shapes me into. i know that only i can create my destiny, and i will steer myself into a better, more positive future. because i am the best thing that ever happened to me.

stay positive.

Some thoughts on going vegetarian

8 months ago I decided to go vegetarian for a year to see if it would benefit me physically and emotionally and now that I am a little past the halfway mark, I have to say it has helped me immensely. 

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RFA Headcanon ⇒ Sports ♡

A/N: fun ( awkward ) fact: I thought of this while I was showering and I thought it was vvv cute so yeah :-)))


‣ Luciel Choi/Seven/Saeyoung: Cheerleading

  • ((( I consider this a sport, leave me alone )))
  • Only goes to football games because you cheer
  • CHEERS LOUDER FOR YOU THAN THE CHEERLEADERS DO FOR THE FOOTBALL TEAM
  • Goes over-the-top with signs for you
  • Makes signs for you even when you’re practicing
  • Thinks you’re the most adorable girl on the team
  •  Asks that you perform your routines for him at home  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
  • ((( prolly debates playing football so he can have you cheer for him )))
  • Buys you a cheerleading mat so you can practice stunts at home WILL LITERALLY LEARN THE ROUTINE SO HE CAN HELP YOU PRACTICE AT HOME
  • “Y/N YOU HAVE TO POP YOUR HIPS OUT MORE”
  • “IM TRYING”

Jumin Han: Basketball

  • Has no idea what the hell it is at first
  • “What is this commoner game? What’s the purpose?”
  • Went to one of your games with no knowledge at all
  • “So they have to get it in the hoop?”
  • ((( cheers at the wrong time )))
  • Gets somewhat interested in the sport ( only bc you play it )
  • Sets up a small basketball court outside the penthouse and watches you play
  • Hires someone to teach him about basketball terms and such so he can impress you with his knowledge ( and actually know what the hell happens in the game )
  • ((( still gets things mixed up )))
  • “That was good three-pointer that you had towards the end, Y/N.”
  • “Jumin, that was a layup. It’s only one point.”

‣ Hyun Ryu/Zen: Volleyball

  • Opposed to it at first because of the uniform
  • “You’re practically wearing underwear and too much of your body that should only be seen by me is revealed!”
  • “….Zen, chill.”
  • Took a lot of convincing, but he finally agreed
  • TRIES TO CONTAIN THE BEAST BC UR BOOTY BE POPPIN IN THOSE SPANDEX 
  • Goes to every single game because he likes watching you play
  • Cheers SO loud when you have a good spike
  • "THAT’S MY GIRL!1!!1!”
  • After the game, Zen would be hugging and kissing you and saying you played really well ( even if you lost )
  • If you weren’t happy with the way you played, Zen offers to help you practice so you can be satisfied
  • ((( Extra: prolly has his hand on ur booty as ur leaving bc the beast cannot be contained )))

‣ (Bae)hee [ Jaehee ] Kang: Tennis

  • Was actually very pleased when you told her you played tennis!
  • Openly admits that she can’t play tennis because of all the work Jumin gives her, but wants to play
  • ((( bless her heart )))
  • However, she goes to as many matches as she can because she loves seeing you play
  • Always brings extra water, food, and a towel for you in between sets
  • Gives you a kiss before and after each set to wish you good luck
  • You’re a little nervous when she watches you, but she always reassures you’ll do great!
  • “There’s no need to feel nervous, Y/N. You know I won’t love you any less if you lose.
  • "Has the cutest, brightest smile on her face whenever you win
  • ((( Jaehee = Tennis mom??? )))

‣  Yoosung Kim: Soccer

  • Soccer mom? 
  • Soccer mom.
  • This boy is literally a soccer mom
  • Always makes sure you have Advil, Icy Hot, an ice bag, and just about anything that could potentially prevent an injury because he doesn’t want you getting hurt
  • Drives you to all your soccer games 
  • "Yoosung, you know I can drive myself?”
  • “Y-Yes! But I like driving you to your games!”
  • Literally thinks you look so adorable in your soccer uniform and your hair pulled up and assorted colors of pre-wrap and such
  • Picks out pre-wrap for you
  • Cannot stop smiling when he watches you play
  • Gives you the biggest hug after each game no matter how sweaty you are
  • Boasts about you to his friends on LOLOL
  • “She won again! She’s such a good player and —”
  • “WE GET IT" 
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I met Noel Fielding and I’m never going to shut up about it

This beautiful man has led me through adolescence and he’s taught me so much about being true to myself. As someone who’s genderqueer I’ve struggled with expression, but he’s taught me it’s ok to be a boy in a dress, it’s ok to be both Electro boy and Electro girl, it’s ok to love glitter, and I can wear whatever I want because if I feel good in it then that’s all that matters. His art and comedy never fail to make me smile and after spending years admiring him and thinking ‘shit, I wish I could be like that’, meeting him was very emotional. I felt so glowy when he talked about his art too- you could hear a pin drop in that room, it was so heartwarming to see such quiet enthusiasm and passion. As an artist myself I know how it feels when someone wants to talk art with you- it’s like ‘yes, someone appreciates me!’. He even drew a lil ghostie on my vinyl!!!

He’s taught me far more about self love than anyone else has, and yes, I still have things I dislike about myself but at least we can joke about our weirdly shaped noses together, right? He’s such a ray of sunshine, so gentle and kind, so passionate about what he loves, and I am so grateful this incredible person exists. I met some wonderful people too, and it was so brilliant to spend the rest of the night roaming Shoreditch, blasting Loose Tapestries and doing our best Tony Harrison impressions whilst being absolutely off our tits. It was so nice to meet people my age into the same stuff as me, and pretty cool we’d all been brought together by our love of Noel. It was one of those teen movie moments, and since my teenhood is fast approaching its end, I feel like this was a night I’m not going to forget. 

The world isn’t so bad after all.

Red Part 2 - Calum Hood Smut

Pairing: Calum and Y/N

Word Count: 3.9k+

Rating: Reasonable amount of smut

Requested: Yeeeesh

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