i wish for a box

anonymous asked:

Hey Rae. Can I get some advice? I'm really scared. I haven't been ~me~ for a while and I thought maybe I was just going through something but the longer it lasted the more I feel like it's not just a phase. I think I need to talk to someone but I don't want to tell my parents (I'm in high school). Things are getting bad but I think my mom will be mad (or won't believe me) if I tell her.

first off, i am so proud of you for reaching out for help. thank you.

i always recommend talking to a school counselor. they have experiences with handling situations like this. some school nurses are a help too.

i wish you the best sweets.
my ask box is always open

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.