Chibs Telford - I Won't Give Up On You |5|
“Tiggy’s not as smart as he thinks he is. I’ve been following him the whole time, I’ve been listening the whole time. Nikki ya can’t do this, I can’t lost ya and the baby.”
Chibs said walking over to you and pulling you against his chest. He was overwhelmed and his emotions were getting to him. The thought of losing you especially because of Clay was something he didn’t want to accept.
I pulled away from Chibs quickly as I stumbled back into the dresser behind me.
“I can’t loose you!!”
I yelled, anxious and angry at the same time.
“Clay will not hesitate to hurt you to get me to leave! It’s like I told Tig! I can’t risk that!!”
I said pointing toward Tig while looking at Chibs upset and hurt.
“I can keep myself safe [Name], Now I know Clay has a target on me and I can be on my guard. Please I can’t let ya go and risk something happening where I can’t protect ya.”
Chibs told you willing to do anything if it meant keeping you by his side. He’d be careful around Clay now that’s for sure, he should have figured he was why you left so suddenly. I shook my head and covered my face with my hand.
I sighed, I couldn’t think straight there was pain. There was pain in my abdomen as I moved my hand from my face to my stomach. I felt like I was peeing myself. I groaned and gasped. Something was wrong. Chibs looked from you and then to where it was getting increasingly more wet by on your pants.
It only took him a few minutes to figure out what happened.
“Tiggy help me get her out the truck, I brought that instead of my bike.”
He ordered wrapping his arm around your shoulders and leading you towards the door.
He knew your water had just broke and he knew he needed to get you to hospital as soon as possible. He wasn’t risking his child or the woman he loved.
“Filip – What – What’s happening!?”
I yelled out feeling my stomach in pain.
Tig and Chibs helped me to the truck in the rain. It was still two months early for me to be delivering… I wasn’t delivering now…. was I?
“Yer water broke darlin, we need to get ya to the hospital. Tiggy’s gonna drive and I’ll sit with ya, but I need ya to be calm okay?”
Chibs asked speaking in a slow and calm tone. He got in the back of the truck with you letting you keep ahold of his hand as Tig got into the driver’s side.
I was in pain. I was in so much pain right now as I screamed and cried. Gemma and Chibs were in the delivery room with me, up until the point where they were ushered out by the delivery doctor.
“Please, sir, I need you to stay calm!!”
A nurse said raising her voice toward Chibs.
“Her delivery is compromised, you need to let the doctor – ”
She was once again cut off by Chibs.
“The damn doctor needs to let me stay in the room with her. Look on the papers it says I’m her husband, she needs me. If she has a fucking anxiety attack yer gonna have more work and I can keep that from happening.”
Chibs snapped. He was glad Tara had managed to get that on your files in the hospital, it made shit like this that much less difficult.
“Sir! Sir please I understand but we can’t allow you back there! The doctor needs the room – ”
The nurses pager went off causing her to look at it. Her eyes widened as she looked back up at Chibs.
“I’m sorry sir, but I have to go!”
She told him with a worried tone that she hid poorly before she rushed to the backroom. [Name]’s screams of agony could be heard clearly as the door opened and closed behind the nurse.
Gemma stood there with her hands on Chibs’s shoulders rubbing them.
Chibs sighed pulling away from Gemma and slid down to the floor beside the room with his head in his hands. He couldn’t believe this shit. You were probably so stressed from all this shit that you went into an early labor. He was ready to find Clay and kill him for this shit.
He needed to tell the guys what happened but he wasn’t going to leave until he knew you were okay. Half an hour passed before the nurse came back out into the waiting room. She had blood all over her uniform as she looked to Chibs with papers in her hands. A doctor had followed out with her.
“Mr. Telford? I’m Dr. Zoe we see that you’re Mrs. Morrow’s husband?”
The doctor asked quickly. Chibs hopped up standing straight as the doctor addressed him.
“Aye, I am. Is [Name] okay? The baby?”
He asked frantically. He saw the blood covering her uniform and felt sick to his stomach as he realized it was yours. He could only expect the worse now with all this happening.
“There is… a conplication… and we can’t save them both… as her husband we need you to choose.”
He told Chibs. Gemma’s eyes widened as she turned away getting emotional hearing that.
“We can either save the baby or save your wife, but we can’t do both, there’ll be too much blood loss on one end or the other.”
The doctor explained. Chibs sighed rubbing his hand over his face. How could he make this decision? It was between the woman he loved more than anything and a child he created with you. As much as he hated himself for this he couldn’t lose you.
“Her, you gotta save her doc.”
He choked out trying not to get emotional and cry at the thought of practically killing his own child.
“We just need you to sign these papers, telling us that your choice was the baby. It’s for legal reasons.”
The doctor told Chibs as he handed the man a pen to sign on the dotted line.
“Doc is this gonna ruin our chances of having another baby?”
Chibs asked just as he was about to sign the papers. He only hoped he was making the right decision and one you wouldn’t be upset about. He knew you really wanted this baby after he agreed to keeping it.
“We won’t know until we see the damaged that’s been caused by this complicated birth. It’s a 50/50 chance at this point.”
The doctor told Chibs as he looked down at the papers he was suppose to sign.
“Sir, the papers?”
He reminded really needing to get back there to help.
“Right right, sorry doc.”
Chibs mumbled. He sighed and shakily signed his name before handing the papers back to the doctor. He leaned back against the wall with his head in his hands as he listened to the doctor hurry back into the room. He didn’t even want to think about what was going on in there.
His baby, his son was going to be gone the next time he saw [Name].
I felt light weight as I opened my eyes slowly. My whole body felt numb and I didn’t remember much at all. I sighed a bit and moved my head around, I heard some sniffling and looked to the left side and seen Chibs.
I whispered weakly, barely able to keep my eyes open. I felt like hell and was tired as fuck. Chibs offered you a small weak smile while squeezing your hand.
“Hi luv, had me worried there for a while.”
He said softly. He didn’t know how to tell you, he had a feeling you’d feel something was off and know the baby was gone. He felt bad for hoping that was the case but he didn’t know how to break it to you. He brought your hand up placing a kiss on your knuckles as he looked you over.
They had you on a lot of pain killers so he knew you were probably still tired and not to mention weak from everything.
“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to…”
I said softly as I took deep breaths and closed my eyes again. I reopened them after a moment and gazed back over at Chibs.
“What happened? I don’t remember anything after I passed out…”
I informed him.
“I know darlin, don’t apologize.”
Chibs said softly. You had no reason to apologize in fact he’d be the one apologizing after telling you the decision he was forced to make.
“Ya were having complications delivering the baby, losing to much blood. The doctors figured out that it could only come down to one of ye. Since ya were passed out and I’m down as yer husband she came out to me and asked if I wanted the baby to live or ye.”
He explained looking away from your gaze as his guilt and shame started to take over. He felt like a fucking monster for allowing this to happen.
“Obviously I chose ya.”
He whispered trying to mentally prepare himself for your reaction. I laid there for a moment as I registered what he said. The baby was gone, because he loved me enough to want me to stay. I closed my eyes and gripped his hand tighter. I sighed deeply.
“I’m sorry… I shouldn’t have… I should have tried to stay awake so they wouldn’t have had to ask you to make this choice.”
I said feeling the tears sliding down my cheek. I would have chosen me instead of the baby.
“And if ya did that I wouldn’t have ya here with me, I know ye woulda chose the baby.”
Chibs told you. He stood and carefully got into bed next to you. Wrapping his arm around shoulders he moved so you were leaning against his side and ran his hand up and down your arm.
“I couldn’t lose ya baby, I’m sorry I just couldn’t do it.”
He whispered feeling his glaze over as he finally started to feel the full impact of his decision.
“Don’t apologize. You made a choice, and you chose someone you loved more. There’s nothing wrong with that, Filip.”
I said closing my eyes and getting comfortable as I rested against him. I held his hand, clinging to it almost.
I whispered. Chibs briefly squeezed your hand trying to comfort you as much as he could.
“I loved him too but the thought of having him without ya was one I couldn’t handle.”
He said trying to explain his thought process to you.
“Doc said it could be a 50/50 chance of having another baby.”
He told you wanting you to know before you got your hopes up.
“If you want… we’ll try again later.”
I told him feeling so tired I could barely understand what was being said anymore.
“There’s still Able and Thomas…”
I said quietly as I fully relaxed into Chibs falling asleep once again. Chibs sniffled a bit as he laid there beside you.
Keeping you close as he went back to watching what was on the TV.