Sometimes, praying is hard. I know, i do. Not because theres so much going on in your life, you have time, you have space, but its the willingness to pray that isn’t there. You’re deplated.. of faith. Some days you feel so good! So full of love and motivation and you do better, and your imaan feels high, and then.. it just.. goes. You miss a prayer. Maybe two, maybe a whole day.. and you feel guilty, and you want to change, so you tell yourself i will do better tomorrow, maybe if i pray i will feel better and i will keep praying, but… then you miss them again, and you tell yourself the same thing. Again and again and again. It happens for a week, perhaps two. Perhaps even longer. It happens. Then one day you break, and everything gets too much, so you force yourself to go talk to Allah, sincerely. You ask for forgiveness, while choking on the tears you held in for so long, and feel a kind of pain you haven’t felt in a while, a pain that is self inflicted, but Allah forgives you, and helps you find relief every single time. You feel better now, you thank Allah for helping you feel better, and this feeling lasts, and you feel good all over again. And you pray for that feeling again, but it doesn’t happen. And then the whole cycle starts from the beginning. You feel up, then down, then even more down, then up.
It happens. I get it, but as long as you keep trying, thats what matters.
Allah is always there for you, always there to listen to you, to get you back up every time you fall. To find you when you feel lost and in the dark. Allah will provide you with light time and time again. Don’t lose faith, you might feel down now, but as long as you try and you feel that guilt, slowly but surely Allah will guide you back to Him.