i will not see what i cannot have forever

Hi guys! Here’s a little masterpost of quotes from children’s books that you can use in your bullet journal, or anywhere else you feel like!


  • “It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”
  • “The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched, they are felt with the heart.”
  • “You become responsible forever for what you’ve tamed.” 
  • “You - you alone will have the stars as no one else has them…In one of the stars I shall be living. In one of them I shall be laughing. And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing, when you look at the sky at night…You - only you - will have stars that can laugh.”
  • “Grown-ups never understand anything by themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them”
  • “A rock pile ceases to be a rock pile the moment a single man contemplates it, bearing within him the image of a cathedral.” 


  • “If I am a princess in rags and tatters, I can be a princess inside. It would be easy to be a princess if I were dressed in cloth of gold, but it is a great deal more of a triumph to be one all the time when no one knows it.”
  • “When you will not fly into a passion people know you are stronger than they are, because you are strong enough to hold in your rage, and they are not, and they say stupid things they wish they hadn’t said afterward. “
  • “There’s nothing so strong as rage, except what makes you hold it in–that’s stronger. It’s a good thing not to answer your enemies.”
  • “If nature has made you for a giver, your hands are born open, and so is your heart; and though there may be times when your hands are empty, your heart is always full, and you can give things out of that–warm things, kind things, sweet things–help and comfort and laughter–and sometimes gay, kind laughter is the best help of all.”
  • “Somehow, something always happens just before things get to the very worst. It is as if Magic did it. If I could only just remember that always. The worse thing never quite comes.”
  • “But I suppose there might be good in things, even if we don’t see it.”
  • “You don’t forget, but you bear it better.” 


  • “I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.”
  • “It’s wicked to throw away so many good gifts because you can’t have the one you want.”
  • “Love is a great beautifier.” 
  • “Watch and pray, dear, never get tired of trying, and never think it is impossible to conquer your fault.”
  • “I want to do something splendid…something heroic or wonderful that won’t be forgotten after I’m dead. I don’t know what, but I’m on the watch for it and mean to astonish you all someday.” 
  • “Conceit spoils the finest genius.” 
  • “Be comforted, dear soul! There is always light behind the clouds.”
  • “Life and love are very precious when both are in full bloom.”
  • “The only chivalry worth having is that which is the readiest to to pay deference to the old, protect the feeble, and serve womankind, regardless of rank, age, or color.”
  • “Books are always good company if you have the right sort.”
  • “The humblest tasks get beautified if loving hands do them.”
  • “Now and then, in this workaday world, things do happen in the delightful storybook fashion, and what a comfort that is.”


  • “So Matilda’s strong young mind continued to grow, nurtured by the voices of all those authors who had sent their books out into the world like ships on the sea. These books gave Matilda a hopeful and comforting message: You are not alone.” 
  • “Never do anything by halves if you want to get away with it. Be outrageous. Go the whole hog. Make sure everything you do is so completely crazy it’s unbelievable…” 
  • “I have found it impossible to talk to anyone about my problems. I couldn’t face the embarrassment, and anyway I lack the courage. Any courage I had was knocked out of me when I was young. But now, all of sudden I have a sort of desperate wish to tell everything to somebody.”
  • “I’ve always said to myself that if a little pocket calculator can do it why shouldn’t I?”
  • “There is little point in teaching anything backwards. The whole object of life, Headmistress, is to go forwards.”
  • “I’m afraid men are not always quite as clever as they think they are.”


  • “So many things are possible just as long as you don’t know they’re impossible.”
  • “Have you ever heard the wonderful silence just before the dawn? Or the quiet and calm just as a storm ends? Or perhaps you know the silence when you haven’t the answer to a question you’ve been asked, or the hush of a country road at night, or the expectant pause of a room full of people when someone is just about to speak, or, most beautiful of all, the moment after the door closes and you’re alone in the whole house? Each one is different, you know, and all very beautiful if you listen carefully.”
  • “Time is a gift, given to you, given to give you the time you need, the time you need to have the time of your life. ”
  • “You must never feel badly about making mistakes … as long as you take the trouble to learn from them. For you often learn more by being wrong for the right reasons than you do by being right for the wrong reasons.”
  • “The most important reason for going from one place to another is to see what’s in between.”
  • “What you can do is often simply a matter of what you will do.”
  • “What you learn today, for no reason at all, will help you discover all the wonderful secrets of tomorrow.”
  • “Whatever we learn has a purpose and whatever we do affects everything and everyone else, if even in the tiniest way.”


  • “You cannot change what you are, only what you do.”
  • “We are all subject to the fates. But we must act as if we are not, or die of despair.”
  • “Every opportunity will come again.”

✰ * º ❛   that 70′s show sentence starters   ❜

‘  you know what your problem is? i’m too good looking.  ’
‘  god, what did you have for breakfast this morning? carnation instant bitch?  ’
‘  oh, is this what we’re gonna do today, we’re gonna fight?  ’
‘  because you’re breaking up the band, yoko!  ’
‘  an apple? where’s my candy, you son of a bitch.  ’
‘  she told me she loves me and then i told her i loved cake…  ’
‘  how’d you’d like to own a little bit of my foot in your ass?  ’
‘  look, if i could run across the beach into my own arms, i would.  ’
‘  you know he never liked phones. he said he could hear voices in ‘em.  ’
‘  when my time comes, i wanna be buried facedown so that anyone who doesn’t like me can kiss my ass.  ’
‘  you know what your problem is? you’re really cute… so no one ever told you to shut your pie hole.  ’
‘  god, we are such the… perfect couple?  ’
‘  you’re cold? well damn, i can’t control the weather!  ’
‘  the gym, or as i like to call it, the institute of things i can’t do.  ’
‘  well, i’d like to help but… not as much as i’d like not to.  ’
‘  don’t put me in your fantasies. i don’t even like being in your real life.  ’
‘  i don’t like people. i like rock n’ roll, sex, and pizza – in that order.  ’
‘  i’m not loving anybody that i’m not legally required to.  ’
‘  and if somebody doesn’t tell me i’m cute in the next five minutes, i’m gonna scream!  ’
‘  don’t hate me because i’m beautiful.  ’
‘  i can’t count on much in this crazy world, but i can always count on you.  ’
‘  i’m going to go out, meet some boys and crush their hearts one by one.  ’
‘  where zen ends, ass kicking begins.  ’
‘  you guys are fighting like cats and whores.  ’
‘  cake is good, but you cannot have sex with cake.  ’
‘  well, my head says no, but my heart says no.  ’
‘  the three true branches of the government are military, corporate, and hollywood.  ’
‘  hey man, if you don’t get caught, everything’s legal.  ’
‘  yeah, but god didn’t see that. i was in my van, and he can’t see through lead.  ’
‘  college is for ugly girls who can’t get modeling contracts.  ’
‘  college is for women who don’t want to marry the first idiot they meet and squeeze out his bastard moron children.  ’
‘  i was never happy. i was just less pissed off.  ’
‘  sometimes when i’m alone, i just love to cuddle.  ’
‘  i have a definite opinion on this… i don’t care.  ’
‘  when he’s unhappy, i know our relationship is in good shape.  ’
‘  all right, sleep tight and don’t let the bedbugs put their foot in your ass.  ’
‘  that’s your brain trying to comprehend its own stupidity.  ’
‘  we have some breaking news: i’m toasted.  ’
‘  but i don’t want to go outside. there are people out there.  ’
‘  oh, please. i’m a hot-looking, smooth-talking, frisky-assed son of a bitch.  ’
‘  no, i’m not pouting. that would upset our routine. god knows i wouldn’t want to move in a new direction and accidentally slip in a puddle of fun or anything.  ’
‘  i’ve just decided being sad is a waste of my time.  ’
‘  he called me ugly on the inside and the outside. i’m sorry, but he’s just wrong about the outside part.  ’
‘  i don’t really cook much. i just plan on getting by on my looks.  ’
‘  no, no, no, you just don’t move on from me. i’m like alcohol. you need a twelve-step program to break my smell.  ’
‘  you know, being here under the stars, sitting on the grass makes me really glad i’m not poor.  ’
‘  the person i love the most is me!  ’
‘  i was voted most popular, best legs, and now godmother? what can’t i do?  ’
‘  why am i alone and all of you less attractive people are happy?  ’
‘  it’s better to have loved and loss than to be butt ugly.  ’
‘  okay, i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again: everyone loves me.  ’
‘  why get out of bed when you can read about people who got out of bed?  ’
‘  i got a lot of free time. i mainly use it to nap and cry.  ’
‘  i’ll just curl up in the fetal position and think about pancakes.  ’
‘  have you been in bed all day?  ’
‘  last night i only slept like… nine hours.  ’
‘  i pity you because you’re dumb.  ’
‘  responsible people don’t go around getting their nipples twisted.  ’
‘  they want to kill rock n’ roll because they know it makes us horny, man.  ’
‘  i would love car sex… or just sex… or just a car.  ’
‘  no, i don’t feel bad. i don’t feel anything.  ’
‘  man, think about it. we hold information that could crush the very heart and soul of one of our best friends… i live for days like this!  ’
‘  it’s like we’re too old to trick or treat and too young to die.  ’
‘  talking isn’t gonna help me, okay? what’s gonna help me is, like, drinking.  ’
‘  hey, yeah, that’s the worst idea i’ve ever heard!  ’
‘  i wish i was an octopus.  ’
‘  thanks, but i’ve gotta go to sleep because i have a big day of misery ahead of me.  ’
‘  life is too short to spend it with people who annoy you.  ’
‘  well, for your information, i’m already sorry i was ever born.  ’
‘  i don’t have a hickey. i was using a curling iron.  ’
‘  give me a reason why i shouldn’t set you on fire.  ’
‘  i’m a hottie, you’re a nottie.  ’
‘  prison is not an option for me, okay? i can’t pee in front of other people.  ’
‘  man, time really flies when you take two naps a day.  ’
‘  oh, no. now i have to act normal.  ’
‘  oh, i just remembered i can’t loan it to you on account of i hate you.  ’
‘  i’ve been diagnosed with a disease that makes me irresistible to women.  ’
‘  you know what the best thing god ever did was? boobs.  ’
‘  i’m like ketchup. i go good on everything!  ’
‘  when we were about to fool around and i said that i washed my hands, but i really just got done playing with like six dogs.  ’
‘  there’s a rabbit stuck in a tree and i want to return that rabbit to the wild so it can lay its eggs.  ’
‘  if this is about maturity then i want nothing to do with it.  ’
‘  a wedding without a trampoline? that’s crazy talk.  ’
‘  i don’t wanna blink ‘cause i’m afraid to miss even a second of your cuteness.  ’
‘  you seem normal around your family, but out in the real world, you’re kinda nuts.  ’
‘  i could get arrested. i could go to girl prison. this freakin’ rocks!  ’
‘  my parents are fighting all the time and they want me to choose sides, but i can’t because they’re both idiots.  ’
‘  why would sally sell seashells down by the seashore? i mean, that’s a terrible location for a seashell stand.  ’
‘  i’m not strong, but i know a lot of ways to destroy men emotionally.  ’
‘  i don’t have feelings for him. i just hate that bitch for making him happy.  ’
‘  i’m not jealous, i just want to pop that inflatable bitch and watch her fly around the room.  ’
‘  hello, it is me, the object of your desire.  ’
‘  i’m a beautiful girl with a shrill, demanding voice. i’m pretty hard to ignore.  ’
‘  a gold digger is what these idiots call a woman who knows that love eventually wears off, but money is forever.  ’
‘  you see, a more productive use of my time is revenge.  ’
‘  i cannot be held responsible for the things that come out of my mouth.  ’
‘  i don’t answer stupid questions.  ’


15 long years and Naruto has come to an end. During those 15 years Naruto has taught me so many things. Don’t ever give up, don’t let hate consume you, love your enemies and the list goes on and on. Naruto has been a strong character who always felt like he always had to shoulder everything, but in the end he always had friends there to carry such a burden with him and nowadays, people forget that they have family and friends who is always going to be there for them. Naruto defeated all of his enemies, but he never did it by himself. With all the POSITIVE people surrounding him, he overcome such an enemy. Not only that, let’s not forget how Kurama was sealed inside of Naruto. We all have demons inside of us, but it’s up to use to overcome those demons and learn to face them head on. As Naruto gets married, I feel like I’m sending off my child. He has grown to be such a great character, along with the others. They’ve all developed into strong characters. Even though this is an anime, we all have to agree on that Naruto has at least taught us something. Let’s just all thank Masashi Kishimoto for being the real MVP!! I cannot wait to see what the next generation has in store for us!

Photo edits goes to @lockscreenalala

andreil going on roadtrips is literally??? just the?? warmest thing ever????? they werent able to do it before, for spring break, because of all the bad stuff that happened…but just imagine like sometime in the summer. for 2 weeks or so they get to be together, alone, free of worry leaving it all behind ((including kevin much to his distaste bc he didnt want to have the court so far from him but hes able to stick with his dad so its ok. also andrew pulled out the knives))

  • having just the road beyond them!!! they travel for hours with no real destination in mind, only the feeling of being able to be with each other like this 
  • with their fingers loosely laced together in the middle of the console and the windows down with the wind blowing through their hair. sometimes neil will stick his head out to really breathe in and feel his blood rushing because freedom is right here in front of him in the palms of his hands and it feels so good
  • andrew glances at him before turning back to the road again and his heart is clenching and burning with this entirely new feeling because neil still feels like a fucking pipe dream even though he is right there with him. and he always will be.
  • after a while they’d stop at a rest area, or maybe just the shoulder of an empty road. andrew would step out and go to neil’s side and lean against the hood of the car while lighting 2 cigs
  • they both breathe in the smoke while they lean back to stare at the starry sky which is extremely clear without light pollution, except its only neil doing so, because andrew is staring at him from the corner of his eye instead
  • the awe on neil’s face makes the realization hit him that he’d burn down the world if that meant nothing would ever be able to take this away from him again ((am i speaking about neil’s happiness, or neil with andrew? ;)))
  • this muddles his thoughts and almost melts his fucking brain, so much that he has to ask “yes or no?” and pulling neil in by the collar of his shirt when he whispers out a “yes. always yes.” and biting his bottom lip for the last of it in retaliation which makes neil smile against his mouth
  • they spend nights in shitty motels with junk food and candy surrounding them on their bed, courtesy of andrew
  • theyre wrapped in blankets like a cocoon and sharing kisses and nuzzles to necks and soft touches like hands running through hair, warm hands on the back of necks and sometimes barely-there fingertips grazing up and down arms when andrew is comfortable with it
  • neil will send a pic of them on the balcony with the sunrise behind them to the foxes’ groupchat and everyone dies from it. andrew is glaring at neil and flicks the ash of his cig towards him and neil just smiles
  • neil would want to go on runs in the morning, to stick to routine, to sometimes push away nightmares he had the night before, but in the end he will always come back to andrew because he knows he no longer has to be actually on the run. and andrew will be waiting for him
  • and he is, with takeout breakast and a 2nd cig in between his fingers for him, and the steadying presence with the feeling of home
  • they dont exactly have plans for their days, just whatever comes to mind and whats easy, either lazing about watching boring movies with andrew’s legs thrown across neil’s lap or andrew slowly taking neil apart bit by bit with hot hands and harsh kisses. it all works for them
  • ((once neil asked if he’d wanna go running with him sometime and maybe check out whats around and what to do and andrew just stares blankly at him like ‘are you kidding me’ and neil has the audacity to laugh))
  • and even after many years that pass they’ll still take these roadtrips, a lot of them on a whim just to get away from everything and to wrap up into each other and feel how they still fit together like 2 pieces of a puzzle even after all this time
  • until the end of forever

i live for kaidan distracting security during the citadel dlc

kaidan: i lost a lot of money. who can i talk to about getting it back?
security: i’m sorry, you can’t get it back. no please, sir. please don’t cry–

kaidan: uh, i accidentally used biotics on the roulette wheel. (laughs) sorry.

kaidan: mike hazer? hazer the laser? i almost didn’t recognize you! … you owe me money.

kaidan: kaidan alenko, special tactics and reconnaissance. you look like you would be an excellent candidate.

kaidan: i’m with the varren anti-cruelty association and i cannot believe what i’m seeing up there.

like… you little shit. take me to bed or lose me forever.

The thing that ruins me the most right now is that I had this big dream for so long. Like since I was 12 and started going to shows I have wanted to be a music journalist slash work in the music industry.

and I used so many years and spent so much time writing for any website i could, doing any internship i could do. I went to uni and studied journalism but only did music journalism stuff outside because that is all i could see myself doing.

and now im 23, almost 2 years out of uni, and im still working two casual jobs not knowing where Im going in life.

This year I have had to realise and accept that the dream Ive had for ten years will probably never be anything more than a dream. But the problem is I have nothing else. I dont know where to go or what to do. Im not really good at anything.

Where do I go next? I know I absolutely cannot stay in retail forever, it makes me too unhappy and it doesnt fulfil me.

I was the one with all the potential, the one with the big life ahead of her that would become whatever she wanted to be. But now Im an adult and im looking like more of a failure than anything else.

I didnt understand why my brother was so heartbroken the year he turned 18 when he didn’t get picked up in the draft. When he didnt want to do anything else because football was all he knew and football was all he wanted. I didnt understand why he didnt find something else at the same time. Just in case. Just as a back up. 

All the while I was doing exactly the same thing.

In Living Color

Written for the third BTZ Challenge. This time around we picked a prompt, then an aesthetic was made to go with the prompt, but we don’t know what or who will be in it. My prompt is: You have been completely color blind your entire life and only see in shades of grey. You come across a stranger that appears in total color. Beta’d by my amazing partner-in-crime, @just-another-busy-fangirl. You’re the best LK!

Word Count: 1481

Warnings: hmmm nothing, I don’t think…Sam in a suit?

My name is Y/N Y/L/N. I see black, white and shades of gray. Those have always been the only colors I see. My parents told me the color of their eyes and hair when I was a child, so I assumed mine would be similar. I learned to distinguish the different shades of gray so that when I dressed myself as an adult, I didn’t look like a circus sideshow attraction if I ever came across the one person who could see me in color.  

I have seen a sunset, but can never appreciate it’s beauty. Flowers in a garden smell beautiful, but I will never see them in all their bloomed glory. I have never truly enjoyed a fireworks display or seen the colored brush strokes in a Picasso or Van Gogh. The only colors I have seen are in my dreams, like a kaleidoscope of wonder.

Can you see in color? Or maybe you cannot see red or blue? I long for the day when I can see true color with my eyes open. My parents tell me it will happen to me someday. I will meet my soulmate, my true love, the person I am meant to be with forever. He will be the only person I will ever see in color. But what if I never meet him? My worst fear is that I will never see anyone in color. Most of my friends can now see color, having found their ‘person’. What if I don’t have one?

Keep reading

TEACH ME | Chapter Two

taglist: @sarcasticvodka @mamanewta5 @wandering-at-midnight @peterparkersgal @dec-snowy @davros2004 @dr-tardis-who @b0okjump3r @castellandiangelo @i-survived-my-trip-to-nyc @once-upon-a-walking-wolf-demigod @notfabulousanna @lancesome-mullet-spacegays

masterlist (you can find the previous chapters and the rest of my writings): https://urbanstrangersfanfics.tumblr.com/post/165038874661/tom-holland-masterlist

Chapter Two:

The next morning you wake up with a message from Tom in which he asks you to go together to Oxford Street.
He didn’t say anything specific about your next lesson and you - must admit it - are curious.
Yesterday Tom opened your eyes. Maybe, he is right, you should try to be more feminine and straight your hair more often.
You stand up and head to your wardrobe full of baggy and old clothes.
You sigh. Candice is the answer to all your prayers.
Reluctant, you go to Candice’s room just across the corridor and knock a few times on her door.
Candice has a year less than you and she is your antagonist. She likes clothes, pink, make up and she spend more than one hour in front of the mirror before a date. Maybe you should become a sort of middle way, being more feminine without give up on your tastes.
Since you don’t hear signs of life, you open the door to find your sister asleep in her bed. Without making noises, you tiptoe till her wardrobe to take a black skirt and a pink blouse. Something simple but still far from your typical outfits and you can’t help blushing imagining Harrison’s expression to see you in your sister’s clothes.

“I cannot believe my eyes” Tom exclaims as you reach him in front of Forever 21.
You do a small twirl so that Tom can see all of you.
“What do you think?” you ask, more nervous than you could imagine.
Tom bites his lower lips and nods, his eyes lingering your legs.
“Harrison would definitely approve this.”
You blush at his compliment.
“What are we going to do today?” you change the topic and Tom moves his gaze from you to the street.
“I was thinking that maybe we can do some shopping. I have the impression that someone lend you her clothes.”
“Actually, she doesn’t know I’m wearing her clothes” you bite the inner of your cheek while Tom chuckled.
“Even more so, we have to buy something nice for you to wear. Harrison need to change his mind.“
Your heart clenches a bit to the memory of what Tom told you the night before.
"Sure” you shrug, trying to avoid the memory “where can we start?”
“We can start from ‘Forever 21’” He turns around to point the window shop.
You wrinkle your nose but at the end you ruefully accepted.
Three shops and thousands of dresses after, you still haven’t found anything that you like.
“What about this one?” you ask Tom showing him a black sheath dress with a diamond strip under the breast.
Tom wrinkles his lips and “Ok, try it. I’ll wait you outside the changing room” he sighs following you to the changing room area.
You start to undress you and then put on the dress, finding the zipper hard to close.
Reluctant you move the curtain apart and call Tom.
“What’s up?”
You blush a little “The zip got stuck… Can you help me?”
Tom just nods as you turn around.
Tom lingers a little before unzipping your dress. Even if you can’t see him, you have the impression that his hands are trembling as he moves your hair away from your back. Tom’s hot breath hits the back of your neck and suddenly a waterfall of shivers start to run down your spine, making you gasp.
“You look stunning” Tom whispers.
You look at your reflection in the mirror and you can’t help smiling.
“It really suits me” you giggle.
Tom lowers his head while his left hand meets yours, making you turn around so that you can face him.
“Listen Y/N, tonight a friend of mine is throwing a party. Maybe you can join us.”
You start nodding “Yeah sure. I don’t have plans for tonight. Sounds cool.”
“All right” Tom gives a hint of a shy smile “I can pick you up at 9pm if you like. I also think you should wear this dress. I bet all the boys will be drooling.”
“Do you know if…” you bite your lower lip, unsure of your question “Do you know if Harrison is coming to the party?”
Tom expression clouds, he takes a step back from you and his hand leaves yours. “Honestly I don’t know. I haven’t spoken to him.”
“Oh, never mind” you said, a bit disillusioned.
You keep quiet until Tom claps his hands with a weak “Fine” he gasps again “ I have to go now, it’s getting pretty late and… uhm, see you tonight.”
“I guess so” you make a pause “Can I ask you to unzip the dress again? I don’t want to get stuck again.”
Tom comes behind you and unzips the dress for you. You are about to thank him when his cold hands caress your spine, from the end until the upper part, and then your naked shoulders.
An unknown heat swarm you, from your bowel to the rest of your body.
You open your mouth to say something but the second later Tom is already gone, leaving you alone with your own thoughts.

Saying that you are nervous is reducing, you are literally panicking. You have been to several parties but never alone with Tom in a house full of strangers.
A part of you is telling you to stay at home and watch some old episode of 'Criminal Minds’ while the other part advices you to check if Harrison is coming or not. After the episode in the changing room you don’t know if you can trust Tom 100%, what if he leaves you alone at the party?
You shake your head.
“Do you think it’s a good idea going to the party?” you ask your sister who is curling your hair.
“Of course, it is. You can meet new people and maybe you find a way to detox from Harrison.”
You stick your tongue out, making Candice laugh.
“But tell me more about Tom. How is he?”
You stiffen “He’s… ok
“Just ok?” Candice asks you.
“All right, he is more than ok but he is just helping me. I’m sure that with his tips Harrison will see me more than a simple friend.”
Candice just nods, not fully convinced.
“Ta-daaaaan” Candice exclaims once she finished curling your hair “you are so pretty and I’m definitely the best makeup artist in the world!”
“Candice, you just apply mascara and eyeliner” you point out.
Candice pants “Yeah but I applied them on you, the most annoying girl in the world. Do you think it was easy for me? You were a whining mess, always complaining!”
You chuckled at your sister’s exasperated expression and look into the mirror.
Candice has made a really good job, you look like a complete different person now.
“I don’t want to be a pain in the ass but you should probably get going” Candice says with an annoyed tone.
You look at the time on your phone and your eyes widen, 8.57pm.
In a rush you collect your phone, bag and shoes and the second later you are outside your house.
Tom is already there waiting for you, his back leaned on the side of his car as he was playing candy crush on his phone. For the party Tom is wearing a pair of black trousers that swaddle his toned legs, a white button-down shirt and a leather jacket. You clear your throat to gain his attention and you blush a bit when Tom whispered a weak “Damn it”.
“You look good as well, Tom” you smile.
For the first time ever, Tom looks uncomfortable and vulnerable near you. It’s a strange feeling but you like it and all you can think of is taking advantage of the situation.
During the way to the party, Tom doesn’t say a word, but you can see that he looks at you every time his eyes aren’t on the street.
This make you gain some confidence and you enter his friend’s house with your head held high. As you walk into the hall, you notice a few guys checking you out and you smile back.
“Stay with me, darling.” Tom says giving a dirty look to every guy who’s staring at you.
You just nod as Tom’s strong arm enclose your waist.
“So” he whistles on the crock of your neck “are you ready for your second lesson, darling?”

next chapter is going to be published next Tuesday :) hope you liked it!

Penny Dreadful Sentence Starters
  1. “You’re pretty goddamn sure you know what’s going on all the time.”
  2. “And that everything can again be like it was… though I know that can never be.”
  3. “You do not belong here, even less than I.”
  4. “I wonder what lips yours have kissed and where. Too many, I’m sure.”
  5. “So have the courage to face your own sin before you cite mine so easily.”
  6. “When the moment comes, look into my eyes and pull the trigger.”
  7. “May I kiss your neck?”
  8. “How cruel you are…”
  9. “Can I help you in any way?”
  10. “And what do you seek to escape?”
  11. “I believe in everything but god.”
  12. “I thought you liked games.”
  13. “Where is your master?”
  14. “I hate him, that fucker, God, you see.”
  15. “You should’ve kissed me. Will you kiss me now?”
  16. “Her passing was a thing of grace, I promise you.”
  17. “What a simple thing it is to snap your neck. You are so fragile, you…”
  18. “Don’t let me hurt anyone.”
  19. “There was a time I would gladly have killed you, and there may come a time when I gladly shall.”
  20. “Your hands want to touch, but your head wants to appraise. Your heart is torn between the two.”
  21. “Do not be amazed at anything you see… and don’t hesitate.”
  22. “To save her, I would murder the world.”
  23. “Whatever interest, whatever need you think you have, you must forget you ever saw it.”
  24. “You can do better. Give me words.”
  25. “What happened to your lip?”
  26. “As you grow up, you’ll learn we all do things which cause us shame. Sins we have committed…”
  27. “No, no, I don’t want to sleep!”
  28. “I love you for your weakness.”
  29. “Did I deserve that?”
  30. “There’s something wrong here. What haven’t you told me?”
  31. “Perhaps it has always been there – this thing, this demon inside me – or behind my back, waiting for me to turn around.”
  32. “There are things you can’t control.”
  33. “You really shouldn’t come in here…”
  34. “Your daddy says come home, so home you come.”
  35. “Stop this right now.”
  36. “I could never love you.”
  37. “Because the truth is unendurable.”
  38. “Right behind you. Don’t you feel him in the dark? On the back of your neck, his breath… Now one finger reaching out… Do you not feel it?”
  39. “If your goal is to have me surrender to you, that day will never come.”
  40. “There’s always a way to make a living when you’ve a bit of flesh, isn’t there?”
  41. “Nothing I would say would come as a surprise, so you simply want the satisfaction of hearing me say it. Very well.”
  42. “Hell, you sought it out and fucked it.”
  43. “And what will you do with this little bit of my soul?”
  44. “That’s why you’re a virgin.”
  45. “Do what you have promised me!”
  46. “Who can tell about such things, such hidden things? Such secrets we all have, don’t we?”
  47. “I’ll not bore myself with explanations you cannot possibly understand.”
  48. “We shall live with our guilt, you and I.”
  49. “We’ve all sinned. No one knows that better than me.”
  50. “But I love you in a different way.”
  51. “If you let all this happen so that you could manipulate her… I’ll rip your throat out.”
  52. “Don’t be naïve; it doesn’t suit you.”
  53. “You can’t resist me forever, darlin’.”
  54. “Don’t be frightened. Here it is. Everything.”
  55. “Would you like to see something interesting?”
  56. “Answer me, you rude thing.”
  57. “It’s not an easy thing, this you ask of me.”
  58. “Don’t ask permission. If you want to do a thing, do it because it is your desire, not my allowance. You must risk rejection.”
  59. “You won’t be able to deny it.”
  60. “Say it like that and you can get me to do anything.”
  61. “I’m so sorry about last night.”
  62. “God, how I envied you. Perhaps I even hated you.”
  63. “This is a long, grueling, dangerous thing you ask.”
  64. “I’ve not been good. What waits for me on the other side of the door?”
  65. “Something whispered… I listened.”
  66. “You play your role well, but this is not who you are.”
  67. “I… I see things sometimes.”
  68. “Now kindly stop wasting my time, and get out!”
  69. “You have no idea how I fight this thing. This thing inside me.”
  70. “I think you’re bloodthirsty.”
  71. “I believe in a place between heaven and hell, between the living and the dead, a glorious place of everlasting rebirth. I believe in salvation. Do you believe in such a place?”
  72. “This is obscene! You mustn’t!”
  73. “I should warn you; this is not completely legal.”
  74. “I would choose her over you. I might even hope I get the chance.”
  75. “After all this time… she came to me.”
  76. “No wonder you fled from me.”
  77. “What’ve you done to yourself?”
  78. “I’ve never fucked a dying creature before. Do you feel things more deeply I wonder… Do you feel pain?”
  79. “My, my! That temper of yours!”
  80. “In that case, would you like to have an adventure?”
  81. “I like to be looked at.”
  82. “This is a bit beyond my usual practice.”
  83. “You should let me die.”
  84. “Just know that you have made my visit here truly memorable. I shall never forget you.”
  85. “Between us, there’s a rare connection. I won’t deny it, but that very intimacy released something unhealthy in me, something I cannot allow.”
  86. “I suppose we take the happiness we can. Do you?”
  87. “Little girls shouldn’t play with toys like that.”
  88. “There is no going back from this moment.”
  89. “Can I ask you a favor?”
  90. “I’m so glad to see you recovered.”
  91. “There are times when we are compelled…”
  92. “She’s been possessed by the devil.”
  93. “Do you believe in fate?”
  94. “There’s no goddamn future in it for either of us! Who’re we trying to fool?”
  95. “Best you didn’t kiss me anymore. Keep a safe distance.”
  96. “You know my name. Aren’t we family here?”
  97. “I have a complicated history with the Almighty.”
  98. “We’ve all done things to survive. There are such sins at my back, it would kill me to turn around.”
  99. “Do you feel I owe you an explanation?”
  100. “I can’t seem to get it out of my head.”
Sims blogs to follow/shoutouts/faves PART 1

I want to say this out loud but it really annoys me when people complain their dash is empty. There’s so many simblrs out there to follow who post every day! Not everyone posts edited photos, some put up content, do streams/videos, tutorials, have projects, every day story telling and so on. This post will be divided in many parts because i cannot put too many links on a tumblr post. If you don’t want to see this post simply block the tag #simfollow

Don’t forget something! You all start from the bottom so (picture) quality isn’t always what should define your simblr :P

This is why i’ll be doing a kind of follow forever thing with so so many blogs you can follow! This list is not in order by any way and if i miss out anyone i will simply update it. Also to mention, these categories are made up by me and criteria does not certainly define the person’t blog. It’s just a small organization plan i made for them so you can browse them easier.

These people are supposedly active as i see while browsing through my follower list. Also they are mixed between sims 2 3 and 4 but mostly s3 simmers. They usually post sims related stuff as i barely see personal/inspo stuff on my dash :p There will be multiple parts since i follow about 1k people so!

I really hope after making these type of posts that i won’t see people complaining about their dash being empty as i am going to make as many parts of these as i can ^_^

Also please feel free to check out ALL of my masterposts HERE and if you feel like i’m missing out on any feel free to suggest me ideas for new masterposts!

Keep reading

you know tbh I think there’s a lot of reasons why tungle.hell has such bad mental illness activism, but I think the primary reason is most of y'all don’t want to acknowledge the benefits of forgiveness and the role forgiveness has in the process of healing from trauma.

like?? seriously. posts abt being petty and unforgiving are viral on this hell site, and uncritically consumed, but you have NO IDEA why that’s so damaging to people’s mentalities and especially towards the mentalities of trauma and abuse survivors. This encourages them to hold their anger in, to perpetuate a cycle of unnatural anger that never really goes away. This is dangerous to abuse survivors and their future relationships, and dangerous to those who will be abused at some point because they have no idea what to do after their out of the abusive situation.

Do you know why abuse tends to be cyclical? Do you know why some people tend to abuse others if they themselves have been abused? It’s because they don’t forgive. They don’t forgive themselves, they don’t forgive their abusers, they never let it go. They never learn to properly deal with their anger, and properly deal with their abuse to learn to cope with it and let go of it.

That’s what forgiveness is all about. Letting things go. Like it or not, you cannot go about your life forever consumed by those who hurt you, and you cannot always have a personal vendetta against someone. That anger seeps into your other relationships if it goes unchecked, and it makes you a nasty, bitter person to be around. It makes you abusive, and it can make you into the person who abused you. Trust me, I watched this happen. I see it everyday on this stupid site, I watch ppl who are abused yell and scream at others because they don’t want to let go of their anger and accept what happened. They want to be angry forever, and they want revenge. That’s not a healthy way to live tbh. It’s not.

And you know what? Anger in itself isn’t a bad emotion. It’s natural. It’s good. Anger after abuse is the natural thing and forgiveness being a healing step in the cycle of abuse isn’t denying that. In fact, most psychologists (the good ones mostly) don’t focus on forgiveness until the person is completely out of their abusive situation. That means anger still has its role and you still have every right to be angry at what happened to you. Forgiveness isn’t denying that. Ppl tend to think forgiveness is forgetting what happened to you, but in reality, it’s letting go of that anger and learning to say “what you did i no longer hold against you.” That doesn’t mean boundaries can’t be set up, and that you have to let abusive ppl back into your life. It just means you’re no longer angry. Because at some point, which may be YEARS after your abuse stops and you’ve gotten out of the situation, you will have to forgive. You will have to let go of that anger. Anger can easily become toxic.

Forgiveness is moving on.

It’s rising above what happened.

do you understand me?

It’s a natural step in the healing process. As a csa and emotional abuse survivor, please trust me on this.

I never want to be the one
Who breaks your heart because
It is you who keeps my own heart beating.
At times I try to be distant,
Not because I don’t love you anymore,
But because I don’t want to hurt you.
You alone are my world and
If I caused you to crumble
I would collapse just as hard.
I could never bear to see you in pain
And if it’s by my hands
I would never see the light of day.
I’m not sure what is worse
Hurting the one you love most
Or losing the one you love most.
I want to be with you forever and always
But not if it means destroying you.
This fear of mine acts as a barrier
Between the two of us and
I built it to protect you but I now see that
It is only hurting you.
I cannot promise to never hurt you
Because I will even if I don’t want to.
But what I can promise is to love you with
Everything I have.
There will
Be pain and conflicts,
But we will persevere
And our love will become stronger
Because of it.
—  Fears can kill #10 // S.T.

Over the last 24 hours I’ve spoken to some people. People who have graciously explained very important things to me, and who have agreed to help me see things I was blind to beforehand. People who have been kind enough to give me advice on how to fix a mistake I had never specifically encountered before. 

I recently created and posted a piece of art that portrayed Solas as a japanese samurai. This particular piece was unwittingly insensitive. I know this because this particular piece… hurt some people. Which means I hurt some people. This was my mistake, born from ignorance towards certain things that I’ve been deservedly schooled on in the past few hours. My mistake was not even being able to realise this portrayal of this specific character could be disrespectful, or hurtful. And it was. 

My mistake was not knowing enough about the Asian people in this fandom who constantly have to deal with having their culture stolen, or have their characters invalidated just for being who they are, not only by people in the fandom but also by the very creators of the game. And I am sorry. I am deeply sorry that I was enough of a witless idiot not to see this before. I do now, and I’ll forever consider it when I have to make decisions in the future. 

My mistake was not realising that Solas is not only an elf, but a white male elf. A white male. In the end, that’s what matters here. In the end, he has no right to wear an attire that represents and means a lot for Asian people. And for not seeing this, I am sorry. 

My mistake, and something I won’t forget, was not realising that not wanting to do harm doesn’t mean you cannot do harm anyways. Lack of ill will does not ensure that people won’t get hurt and does not justify the mistakes you make. The mistakes I make. And I’m sorry. 

Because I do make mistakes. I’m just a person, just an artist, and deeply ignorant on many levels. I do not dream to think that I am all knowing and everything I do is good and fine and allowed. Because clearly, I am not. This piece of art, this particular decision with deciding to post it, that was wrong. So I’ve decided to remove it. I’ve removed everything, everywhere. It does not mend the damage done but I still wanted to do what I could to try. I made this blog with the aim to support and make people happier, and it is heartbreaking to see that  I’ve managed to achieve the opposite, and it was my doing.

And to those people I hurt, in particular, I want to say again; I’m sorry.

No, you do not need to be POC to understand or explain this to others. You just need to be able to learn; you haven’t the right to take certain things. You don’t need the right, either. They have it. They have all the right. They are more than an attire, there’s always a person behind that. We need to see the whole spectrum. We need to appreciate and accept everything they are, and who they are. 

So, I am sorry. And thank you for the lesson you’ve taught me today.


PD: I’d like to request for no comments along the lines of “but Red you did nothing wrong” to be left on this post, please… I don’t need my image restored, or for people to like me. I do this because it’s the right thing to do, period. I did make a mistake. I’m human. Allow me to acknowledge it and learn from it as I should. Thank you all.

ask-oldfashioned-bendy  asked:

That is it. I just cannot see you like that. You need to get out and have serious talk with Mr. Daddy! You cannot keep all your feelings just for yourself!... You know what, Mr. Lendy? Give me a clue. Anything. And I will be there. You cannot be there forever, and I definitelly cannot stand seing you like this!

“Please leave me alone.”

{ The ask box is now closed }

Thank You Sourcefed

The first Sourcefed video I ever watched was with Lee and Joe. I remember being entertained but not subscribing because it was a lot of humor very different from my own in a very short period of time. But like with everything I end up loving, I came back to the channel and thoroughly enjoyed every video. I subscribed just before NERD started. I came to appreciate the different personalities and voices of all the hosts.

Lee was a ball of comedic anger and silly voices inside a tiny pretty lady, and I adored her.

Joe was this fucking bad ass, clever guy that is impossible not to like.

Meg was this hot lady that dressed in simple tshirts and jeans, which is how I dress. It was something I had never really seen before, and she proved to me that I could dress casually and still be sexy.

It took me a while to get used to Shisha. Her constant perkiness was annoying to me, but over the years I learned to appreciate how sweet the woman is. Optimism shouldn’t be annoying. 

Ross, although a late comer, was a great addition to the team.

Elliott was the one I found I related to the most. His subtle, witty, pessimistic, goofy humor was very similar to my own.  When I was going through a dark time and essentially having an existential crisis, Elliott helped me find the balance between my difficult thoughts and humor, and I’m eternally thankful for that.

I got scared when new hosts started to show up. It took me some time to get used to them, as it did with most of the audience, but I am so glad that I did.

I didn’t think much of Matt at first, to be honest. He seemed too serious and reserved. Now I know him to be this joyful, clever, talented actor and chef that I’m always happy to see in a video.

Bree was a new flavor that also took some time to get used to but, listen, the girl is badass. She is honest and funny. And it honestly was such a beautiful thing to watch her live out her passion for acting on Nuclear Family.

Will came out of fuckin no where. Like, who was this kid that seemed to have a new idea every week and was completely unpredictable in video? It was amazing to watch him grow and change over the year.

Sometimes you zone out when watching videos y’know? Not when Maude Garrett is in it. You can’t help but listen to that tall funny Australian woman and think she for sure knows what she’s talking about.

I was a late comer to Super Panic Frenzy, and admittedly was only watching for Suptic at the beginning. But Reina grew on me real quick. She’s funny as fuck and you could just tell that everything that came out of her mouth was genuine.

Not gonna lie, I had a crush on Sam for a while there. How could you not love that sweet nerd boy??? He’s one of the sweetest people on the planet and he’s funny and awkward and he’s great ok?

I had never thought much of Whitney when she had appeared in Sourcefed videos before being hired tbh. But over the past few months I have enjoyed watching this stylish woman just be herself and talk about nerdy shit, and now I adore her.

Filup grew on me real quick. He won me over when he sang Seasons Of Love in sign language. He’s clever and super smart and he really surprised me.

I knew Yessica from Buzzfeed’s videos, and was so happy to see a familiar face on PBL. She’s a strong woman who I enjoyed watching kick Will’s ass. A funny sweet person. I just wanna be her friend.

John was this calm, sane, funny presence on PBL. He always gave me a comforting feeling because he seemed to have his shit together.

I, like most people, thought Candace was high and boring. I was wrong. The girl is too fucking funny. She was this new kind of bizarre on the channel that made it feel like a fresh start.

Speaking of bizarre, how about that Suptic guy huh? I subscribed to his personal channel real quick after I started watching SPF. You never knew what was gonna come out of his mouth. It literally could of been anything, but it was guaranteed to make me laugh. I love that wacky tall chicken boy.

I knew Ava as DVG’s girlfriend and that was it. I was pleasantly surprised to see that she was very funny and witty. She’s always seemed like a kind wonderful person to be around.

I was subscribed to Mike Falzone’s personal channel for a couple years. I’m pretty sure he started at Sourcefed as soon as I unsubscribed from his channel. I adore Mike Falzone. When you hear the other hosts say he’s a good guy, you know it’s true. You can tell he cares. Also he’s fucking hysterical. Everything he said was either smart or funny.

Where do I even begin when it comes to Steve Zaragoza??? He is the embodiment of joy. He was always willing to do anything to make someone laugh and that’s beautiful damn it.

And last, but CERTAINLY not least, all the people behind the camera. I am so fucking glad the Vloggity started up again because it has a pleasure being introduced to all those beautiful people in that office, that are phenomenal at their jobs. They played just as big of a role in making those channels what they were as the hosts did.

Everyone in that office made me smile. Everyone one of the hosts have impacted me in a positive way. The Sourcefed channels will forever be my favorite channels on YouTube. While the channels were alive and well, if my subscription box was full I would pick an old SF video over any new ones. That’s not going to change. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for making me happy every day. Thank you for making me a better person with your wonderful and hilarious content. I cannot wait to see what you all do in the future. Thank you Sourcefed.

I am genuinely concerned of the amount of responses I get that are “I can’t see a gender therapist.”

Yes. You. Can. It took me 27 years to be able to medically transition. I did it on my own. I lost everything. Girlfriends, friends, family.
This is your life and you will be able to see a gender therapist eventually. Because every single one of you is capable of taking care of yourself.

“But I still live with my parents, they won’t accept it.” You won’t be under their roof forever. You have to find and create your own happiness. My family hates what I’m doing but I am an adult they cannot stop me. They can stop talking to me and supporting me and that’s their crappy, uneducated right.

“I don’t have a job, I can’t afford it.” Save until you can, are you medically unable to work? Get grants, make phone calls, go to every single LGBT clinic you can find until you can find someone willing to treat you.

“I am underage.” Mark a date on your calendar till your 18th birthday and save every cent and penny for your transition. Plan ahead.
Stop allowing others to stop you from transitioning. Once you are 18-21 this life is yours. To those of you underage, seek a school consoler.

This is your body. It took me so long to learn that in life sometimes it is up to you and only you to make it happen.


this here and now with you is how - an mmfd fic No. 21

First of all, lovely anon, thank you for asking.  It’s been a long six months of me trying to write anything, and your ask gave me a direction to go in, so ta very much. I think this is a much happier concoction than my usual fare.  I hope that’s what you were hoping for.

In the interest of full disclosure “she’d start an argument in an empty room” isn’t mine.  I heard it on telly and it struck me as exactly the way Finn would have thought about her, so I’m borrowing it.  As soon as I can remember which show it was, I’ll properly credit.

I cannot state loudly or often enough just how vital @how-ardently is to you seeing any of this.  She is amazing and I couldn’t do it without her. If it turns out that no one else likes this thing, I will be forever sustained by the little gleeful noises she made during our editing session. Erin gives great squee.

Much love and thanks to @bitchy-broken for some pertinent information, mainly pickled onions and Peugeot 205’s.  Turns out, Finn’s favourite is Dawn’s favourite too. Who’d have thought! Thank you darling girl. xo

The title comes from the Cure song, This. Here and Now. With You. from the album 4:13 Dream. 

I haven’t tagged anyone, save to thank those who helped, because interest seems to be waning and I don’t wish to assume.

I thank you for your interest. xo

Keep reading

Such Sweet Sorrow

This is part of my Drabble game and is written for the wonderful @amlyra

Prompts: “He can never love you like I can.” and “Trust me, I’m dying inside. You just can’t tell.”


Imagine visiting Erebor with your family and Fili sneaking into you room in the middle of the night so you can sleep in each other’s arms and kiss until you fall asleep because you’ve been lovers since you were both young.

You stared at the aged painting, the azure sky washed pale from the years of Smaug’s occupation. It had been cleaned but not restored but you had already done the repairs in your mind. In your reluctance to wallow in the depths of your inner troubles, you had revived the hues of blue and green until before you hung the perfect recreation of Erebor, a dark giant looming over a sea of grass.

If only you had your paints on hand you would do the job yourself. Mahal, you were tempted to take the painting to the Iron Hills and keep it there. You would need a souvenir to remember the Mountain by, you did not see many more visits in your future. The sudden realization made you choke and you buried your face in your hands though your tears still refused to fall.

Keep reading

Infinity Part 16


Part 1  2  3  4  5  6  7  8  9  10  11  12  13  14  15

Characters:  Mark Tuan (GOT7), You (Reader/OC), Park Jinyoung (GOT7), GOT7 members, Mark’s parents, Marika (Your friend), and other surprise characters

Genre:  Slow Build, Smut, Fluff, Angst

Warning/s:  More angst, but not as much as the previous chapters, slightly suggestive at the end (wink wink)

Length:      4,913 words

Plot:  You have always believed the line from your favorite book that some infinities are larger or smaller than other infinities. You always wonder if you even have an infinity that you get to spend with someone or you will be forever alone?

A/N: OK so here comes chapter 16!   Please be gentle since I only wrote this fic for one day hahahaha I cannot seem to get it out of my head. Also, I am thinking this series will have at least 5-6 more chapters, I tend to get carried away when I write something so it always gets extended LMAO so I hope you can let me know what you think about this chapter, I promise this will lead to something good soon :))))

“I am so happy to see you again, ______, it’s been a while…”  Mark’s mother grabs your hand from across the table and you nodded at her.

Keep reading