i will never get sick of this season

okay so i’ve been watching the get down constantly since it came out, but recently i rewatched p1, esp. in prep for the tgd watch on twitter (check it out here to help us out!!) and i have some thoughts on episode six and dizzee’s experience at the club.

- first of all, i keep forgetting that two minutes before dizzee arrives, there’s the scene where thor’s like “you should come down to soho”

- and it’s so wild to watch that exact scene because as much as we joke about it being love at first sight for the two of them, dizzee genuinely had a crush on this dude ( and i think he knew it too) but hadn’t … like, experienced his awakening yet?

- so how amazing would it have been for him to 1. have met his idol (you’re thor?  wow!), 2. have his idol save him from the police, 3. be praised and admired for his artmaking and ideas, which definitely wasn’t common in his life prior to this ( i like rumi, he’s weird though / your brother’s a fucking weirdo ), and 4. that thor likes him enough to exchange books and hang out with him? then thor invites him to a party?  like at this point dizzee’s crushing on what used to a very highly esteemed colleague, and is now close to being his best friend??  stop??

- he meets up with thor and “beautiful girl” ( i will never forgive them for not giving her a name!! ) but he sees!!  thor!! make out with her right in front of him and you can see he’s like

:/// okay

- but then dizzee goes into the club! and immediately you can see him go “!!!” this isn’t insignificant for him!  this is a HUGE DEAL for dizzee

- thor’s like “yeah this is where the free people run free!!” and dizzee can likely see!!!  wlw !! couples!! and mlm!! couples!!  kissing near him!!

- he can see drag queens and people like him wearing dresses and makeup and it’s like he’s walked into a dream because he’s had thoughts about what if i could kiss boys??  what if i could wear nail polish?? what if i could wear dresses???  and so straight off the bat he’s being validated 100% by these happy dancing people and the cool disco atmosphere i mean he must be feeling high as a kite

- AND THEN and then he gives thor!!!!!!!!!! the fuckingggggggg RECORD

- he’s like “here it reminded me of you!” and thor gives him this HUGE SMILE thats so grateful and like ADORING like can you imagine how dizzee is FEELING right now

- then THEN the beautiful girl goes “you should get carlo to play it!” and dizzee’s like “okay cool who’s that?” and yeah its the dj and then she’s like “ya thor REEALLY KNOWS HIM ya know ;))))” .  dizzee’s fucking 

😱😱😱 does that mean what i think it means?? like this boy???? might like boys too ????? the fuck //????? liking girls and boys at the same time?????

- so he hangs out with the girl while thor goes off and he talks about the performers and he takes in a WHOLE NEW GENRE of art and dance and being!!

- the girl initiates the kiss but he goes in for it anyway and gets tapped on the shoulder

- and thor’s there, and dizzee goes “oh fuck i just kissed his girlfriend now the guy i’m crushing on is gonna be pissed at me” right?


- dizzee goes “sorry” and thor goes “my turn”


- MY






-  and he’s unsure right?  like christina aguilara’s song comes on and thor’s just dancing and dizzee’s like 

…. is this real?  did you just ask to kiss me a second ago?

- and the song keeps going and thor keeps dancing and bopping his shoulder good naturedly so dizzee’s like “no nah nah i’m not gonna do this what if i misread the signals”

- he didn’t

- the beautiful girl leans over and goes “IT’S OKAY, GO ON, KISS HIM!”


- GO ON!



- and dizzee at this point is just like “ ???????????????????????????? IM ALLOWED TO DO THAT IM ALLOWED TO DO THAT IM ALLOWED TO DO THAT”

- the beautiful girl takes this into her own hands and gives him a reassuring kiss, you know, one that’s familiar and comfortable and he closes his eyes and kisses back

- she pulls back and says TO.  THOR.  “HE’S A GOOD KISSER,  I LIKE THAT A LOT.”

- HE’S

- A



- I





- they’re both so shy and it’s so pure!!  like clearly this whole time thor has had a crush on dizzee as well and they don’t want to mess up and the beautiful girl in the corner is just like “this is the sweetest thing ever”

- thor gives him

- a

- mother

- fucking

- smile

- to reassure him because this is a hugely overwhelming experience for dizzee lbr!!

- and you can tell that dizzee is entranced by this whole situation because never in his LIFE did he expect a boy he liked to like him back!! he never anticipated that he would get to live THIS FREE !!

and they get closer and closer together and in a second we see a dozen people lock lips simultaneously, then the two of them slowly part, we’re left to imagine the magic and the wonder of dizzee’s first kiss with a boy (which i ❤❤❤❤❤).






- dizzee has straight up just kissed the boy he’s crushing on well enough for thor to look at him like dizzee is the SUN AND SKY

- they dance together a bit and then the beautiful girl joins them and it’s probably the best romance story ever written.  romeo and juliet who?  i don’t know them. 

- anyway

- i’m sick of this show blasting me with emotions i’m a weak bitch i can’t handle it

Y’all, listen. Keith does not like the idea of becoming the next leader of Voltron just as much as you don’t. He’d rather stick with Red and have Shiro by his side than suddenly become an adult with unbereable responsabilities on his shoulders.

He’s been pushing aside the idea of losing Shiro again since always (Stop talking like that, you’re gonna make it” // “Why are we even talking about this? Nothing is gonna happen to you”), and I’m sure he doesn’t think he’s skilled enough to lead the group, either. 

When Lance said “Keith’s a hothead! He’s probably going to shoot first and ask questions later, except they won’t be able to answer his questions, because they’ll be dead!” it’s not that Keith denied it. Actually, he stood there quietly with an annoyed, guilty look on his face. He knows he’s right. 

This premise was just to tell you that Keith will probably be the first to say no to himself as the Black Paladin in S3. Fear, insecurity, Lance and Keith’s relationship reaching its lowest point until something happens and they come back stronger than ever; maybe he’ll mess up, too. But the others will eventually come to discover how great he actually is. They could get to co-lead, in a way; it’s not that Keith is supposed to do this alone. They are a good team and have each other’s back, always.

Keith’s not just a hothead – and there’s still so much we do not know about him –, or Shiro would have never suggested him as the new leader of Voltron. Twice.

beranica’s beronica fic rec

general/teen and up 

love me, love me, never let me go by colfield
The style of this one is so unique and beautiful. It feels like a poem where B and V are falling into each other. Oneshot.

A Cure for the Common Cold by shiphitsthefan 
Veronica gets sick and Betty brings her soup. I feel like this one captures Veronica so, so well. Oneshot.

Straight Girls Get Married on Facebook All the Time by Alsike
B & V being oblivious about their feelings in the way that only they can. Straight girl shenanigans turned realized feelings. Really fun read that includes Kevin referring to Veronica as Bi-ronica. Oneshot.

Sugaring Season by nimmieamee
This one is such a fun read. I love how all the characters are written and the quirky plot. A really good fic to lose yourself to for a bit and enjoy. Multi chap.

should have worshipped her sooner by oceanofchaos 
Veronica’s pining and Betty’s… Betty. This one feels infinitely warm and ends so sweet. Oneshot. 

i won’t say (i’m in love) by pizzaoctavia 
B & V kissing too much and talking about it too little. The tension that builds up in this one is almost tangible. One of my favorites. Multi chap. 

tangled up, so in love by guitarstrings
I love the straight, to the point style this one has. Betty, per usual, is overwhelmingly not straight. Great fic. Oneshot. 

Thaw by alanabloom 
This one hurts. A lot. But the best stories do. Veronica forms a sordid sort of crush. Oneshot. 

Crossing All the Lines by susieboo 
A glimpse into Veronica and Betty kissing and the emotions that ensue. Really good characterization in this one. Oneshot. 

everything so soft and still by Lint 
A glimpse into the beginnings of an iconic B & V relationship. Really sweet and really believable. I love the writing style a lot. Oneshot.

Gray-Colored Lenses by beranica
I wrote this one but what’s a fic rec without a soulmate au?

not rated/mature/explicit under the cut

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anonymous asked:

Do you think Clarke had already subconsciously fallen for Bellamy when she was with Finn and Lexa? It seems like both Finn and Lexa had questioned her about this in an indirect manner.

Short answer: Yes.

Long answer:

The attraction has been there since season 1. That’s for sure. I mean look at her face. They were openly flirting in this scene.

And Finn saw that too.

I think she started having feelings (in a romantic sense of the word) for Bellamy in season 2. She asked specifically if Finn and Bellamy made it. Twice.  She put Bellamy on the same level as her love interest. (Did she ask for Monroe? Sterling? Octavia? No.)

She ran through the camp just to get to him and the hug… even Bellamy himself was shocked. Octavia noticed (”There’s something I thought I’d never see.” + her facial expression is also very telling) Damn just rewatch it. Pay a special attention to Clarke’s facial expressions. Compare Bellarke hug to Clarke/Octavia hug - that’s a massive difference.

Clarke still felt guilty for closing the door on Bellamy and Finn. That’s very evident in that scene by the fire in 2x05.  Bellamy offered her understanding. “It had to be done.” He made it very clear that he’s not holding it against her, that he understand why she did it. He reassured her she’d done the right thing. And that’s something Clarke needed at this moment. She was kinda on her own in the Mountain. She was suspicious and trying to get out while the other were trying to convince her they’re finally safe. Then she espaced with the knowledge she left them all behind in MW (which is not what happened but I’m pretty sure Clarke thought something like this). And then she reunited with Bellamy and suddenly she was not alone. She got her partner back. 

And then in 2x05-2x08, they were back in their co-leaders mode. They were so in sync…. Since this episode (meaning 2x05) Bellamy is the person she trusts the most. The person who understands the burden of being a leader and carries it with her. She started falling for Bellamy in these episodes. She still had feelings for Finn but she was not exactly “with Finn”. She wasn’t Finn with since the moment Raven’d landed on the Earth.

The narrative backs me up in 2x09. Clarke just killed Finn and one of the first things she said to Bellamy in this episode is “I can’t lose you too.” Again, Bellamy is put at the same level as the person she’d said “I love you” just a few hours ago.Later in the episode L/xa (sorry guys but thi will show up in the tag anyway since the anon used the correct name) and Clarke had conversation about leading their people and L/xa confided a story of her lost love to Clarke. Clarke needed to stop the pain. She wanted to become a strong stoic leader and make sure she will never have to feel this way again so she built the walls around her heart and emotionally shut herself off. “Love is weakness.” And what is the first thing Clarke did? She sent Bellamy away with the words “I was being weak. It’s worth the risk.” This is Clarke trying to be like L/xa - strong leader devoid of emotions. And what is Clarke’s last line in this episode? “Love is weakness.” Hmmm interesting. So yeah I think she started realizing she has feelings for Bellamy in 2x09 but that’s one of the reasons she sent him away. 

She realized her mistake pretty fast because basically all episode of 2b is Clarke being constantly worried about Bellamy (2x11 is a perfect example but it’s in every single episode). Yet she never stopped believing in Bellamy. She never doubted him. She always believed he’d succeed in this mission.

Even L/xa saw it and called Clarke out on her feelings for Bellamy. “You care about him.” “I care about all of them.” “Yet you worry about him more.” FUCK EVEN L/XA SAW IT.

“…besides, we lost contact with Bellamy.” she’s blinking the tears back again.

And their reunion in the tunnels in 2x16? Clarke is speechless, she’s just staring at Bellamy in wonder, blinking the tears back. She absolutely stunned and the relief is written all over her face.

Moving on…. she didn’t tell anyone else but Bellamy that she’s leaving (maybe expect for Monty). She didn’t even tell her mother. Anyways, did she kiss Monty goodbye? No, she didn’t.

Now for the second part of your question. I’d like to start by saying that Clarke probably spent plenty of time thinking about the delinquents and Bellamy in particular during those 3 months between s2 and s3. Now I’m talking about platonic Bellarke. She thought of him as her partner, friend, co-leader. Se thought of him as a person who pulled that lever with her.

And then she finally saw him again when he came to rescue her. He caressed her face and hair and she’s absolutely stunned. She just started at him with wide eyes. She begged for his life, her voice breaking and she’s do anything - even sacrificing her own life for him (don’t forget that she didn’t know Roan is taking her to Polis, she thought he’s taking her to Nia who wants to kill her). This scene kills me every damn time because it’s the least platonic shit I’ve ever seen. And Roan noticed (and as the season went on, he kept on noticing).

Then everything had changed because Roan brought her to Polis and Clarke was forced to play a role of Wanheda, She became a political figure. War was about to happen and Skaikru was in danger. She didn’t trust L/xa (for a good reason because obviously L/xa betrayed them before) so she had to stay to make sure L would keep her word AND SHE WASN’T READY TO COME BACK. NOT YET. That’s why she decided to stay in Polis in 3x03. If you watch the scene closely, you can see that the conversation with Bellamy wasn’t easy for Clarke. When he walked away, she had to take a moment to blink back the tears and take a deep breath before she was ready to turn around and play the role of wanheda again.

Since 3x04 she was falling for L/xa. But at the same time, she never stopped having feelings for Bellamy. It is possible to love two people at the same time. But I believe Clarke didn’t realize the true nature of her feelings for Bellamy.

One of my scene is definitely their argument in 3x05. I analyzed it in details so you can check that out. Clarke was stunned. She was absolutely crushed. But that scene also kinda woke her up. She was on her own for 3 months, she was isolated from her people in Polis (which is the main reason I’m always saying she was a terrible ambassador) and this argument finally showed her the reality and the consequences of what’s been going on in Arkadia in between 2x16 and 3x05. She realized she’s not the only one who’s hurting. She saw how broken Bellamy was. And she believed her they could fix it all. Together. But she said a few words that triggered Bellamy and he did what he did (again, I talked about it in detail a few months ago).

After the debacle in Arkadia, she focused on playing the role on wanheda again in order to keep her people safe. She was getting closer and closer with L/xa and eventually she fall for her…. and we all know how that played out. Clarke lost another person she loved. At that time, that was all she could think of. Everything happened so fast and then there was the flame, Titus, Murphy… she didn’t have time to think about her feelings. She was overwhelmed. Her feelings for Bellamy were still buried inside of her though without her realizing it.

The Bellarke reunion in 3x11 is interesting for many reasons. Clarke expression can be interpreted many ways but I think she’s also shocked she saw Bellamy, relieved he’s alive and relatively well (she had to blink to make sure he’s really standing there in front of her) and she was also scared. She didn’t know where they stood because the last time they saw each other he handcuffed her and she tazed him.

3b was about finding their way back to each other and Bellamy realizing his feelings for Clarke. Yes, I think that at this point Bellamy is aware of his feelings for Clarke. Clarke on the other hand is not but the feelings are definitely there and have been since season 2. Those feelings never disappeared and I hope we’ll get to see Clarke bringing these feeling back on the surface and becoming aware of her them.

Skam Finale Rant

So somehow I ended up writing an essay about the Jonas/Eva/Chris triangle. Wish I put this much effort into other areas of my life…

I really do not understand how people could be so upset at Jonas and Eva getting back together yet want Chris and Eva together. Did people understand season 1? Season 1 was not about Jonas treating Eva badly. Sure, he was not the perfect boyfriend (and Eva’s insecurities made her far from the perfect girlfriend). He did lie about smoking weed with his friends but their relationship was not toxic. Eva felt insecure because of her OWN actions, not because of how Jonas treated her. She betrayed her best friend and lost her group of friends in the process. She felt guilty and terrible about what she did so she clung to the person she had left (Jonas) and became dependent on him. They had problems because Jonas had his own group of friends (which is healthy) and Eva did not. The season was Eva’s journey towards owning up to what she did (apologizing to Ingrid) and realizing that she needed to become her own person, which required taking a step back from her relationship and finding her own group of friends. Eva’s season is my favorite because it showed how a flawed person could become more than his/her mistakes and move past them. 

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Lunch today was excellent as usual. Even though I eat similar meals every day, I never tire of them. Just imagine if you could eat your favourite foods every day. Would you get sick of them? 😜 That is how I feel. And really my lunch is different every day even though I use similar ingredients. The veggies are always fresh and locally grown so they taste slightly different day to day. Sometimes we change up the seasonings, we might add more tomato paste, or leave out onion. We switch up the starches, using different kinds of rice or potatoes. The most important thing is that these meals satisfy me completely and that I’m eating my favourite foods in abundance. Usually my meals are: oatmeal for breakfast, veggies and rice for lunch, watermelon and fruit for dinner. This is one tasty routine! 😋 That being said, my meals will gradually change as the seasons change. I expect to incorporate more citrus, potatoes and legumes as we move into winter. 👌 What’s your favourite meal routine?

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Season 11 Season 12 spoilers! The reader finds out she’s pregnant and Dean kicks her out. 

Dean and Reader,  Sam, Mary, Castiel

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            I had been sick for a few weeks now, I knew the reason but I have no idea how Dean would feel. Don’t get me wrong, he loves kids, but he always told me that children never belonged in the hunting life. I have everything I needed, so, while the boys were on a hunt I did the tests. The timer on the phone went off, and I went to see my fate. Two pink plus signs stared back up at me.

           I was in such a trance I didn’t hear the door open and close, I didn’t hear the boys coming down the hallway. I only knew they were home when Dean grabbed my shoulder and spun me around. Then, he saw it, I saw his jaw lock and stomp back out hearing the door slam. I dropped to my knees sobbing into my hands. I felt two arms wrap around me and I knew instantly it was Sam. “I knew he would hate me! I can’t do this by myself”

           “No, you won’t! I’ll be there for you through the whole way! Ok?” I nodded, not knowing what the next step was. Sam had moved me into his room until he could get the next steps in order. I had fallen asleep in his bed, exhausted from the crying and sobbing. I could hear the boys arguing. Things had becoming tense lately with Amara, every road leading to nowhere.

           I went to our used to be shared room and grabbed my things, I was tired of fighting with him, tired of him ignoring me or exploding at me. Now that I was pregnant though, I wouldn’t put my unborn child through that. Both boys saw me leaving, and sadly Sam was the only one who tried to stop me. I hugged him and promised to keep him in the loop, he also made me promise to get a place in town so he could help me. I reluctantly agreed, and went on my way.

           As I drove to the nearest motel, I wondered when he fell out of love with me. When did he get so disgusted with me that he just shut down. I had found an extended stay hotel and rented a room for three months. That should give me time to get things put together, and saved up. I called Sam and told him where I was, “When did he start hating me?”  “He doesn’t hate you y/n” I started sobbing, wondering where I went wrong.

           I hung up the phone and just got into bed, I was beyond exhausted and just didn’t care anymore. Over the next few days, Sam had text me in what their plans were. He could only contact me in secret because Dean would have a huge fit if he knew. The day came and I cried all day, I had lost everything in one day.

           The months had gone by, as my stomach had gotten bigger and bigger. Sam didn’t keep much contact which broke me even more. Cas had come every so often to check on me and the baby. I had finally found a two-bedroom apartment in a somewhat good area, I had found out I was having a boy. I was about seven months along and had a rare day off, so I went for a walk. I always loved when it snowed.

           I sat down on a bench in the park and just enjoyed my little world of a snow globe and hot chocolate. I heard the flutter of wings and saw Cas sit next to me, he pulled me to him and we just sat there. “I’m miss them Cas” “They miss you as well” “I know Sam does, but Dean I don’t think so. I never thought he would fall out of love with me, I thought it was forever”

           He just held me as I cried, I was starting to get cold so Cas walked me back to my place and got me comfortable. He said he would be back later and flew out, I turned on the radio and just snuggled on the couch. I fell asleep quickly, enjoying the peace and quiet.


           I was in my room, figuring out what the hell was going on. Amara had brought Mary back, and everything was chaos after that. I missed y/n greatly, but if Dean knew I kept in contact with her he would fly off the handle. There was one night I was talking to Mary and told her the situation. “You mean I have an unborn grandchild out there?” “Yeah, I wish Dean would see he’s hurting her more than he thinks”

            We said our goodbyes, hoping I could talk some sense into Dean. She needed her family right now, instead she’s all alone and has a baby to soon take care of. My phone started ringing and a panicked Cas on the other end telling me to meet them at the hospital. I told him I would be there and I would grab Dean as well.

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           I had fallen in the shower and screamed for Cas, he quickly helped me dress and rushed us to the hospital. I was laying in the bed and having the doctors and nurses rush around me, I didn’t care about me though, I was more concerned about my son. Cas assured me that he already checked on him and he was going to be ok.

           I wanted Dean, I wanted Sam, I just wanted my family. They said I would have a nasty bruise on my back, but other than that I would be ok. Cas had left the room while I got dressed, my back was hurting terribly but because I was pregnant they couldn’t give me something for the pain. I heard the door open and a gasp, I turned to see Sam and Dean looking at the huge bruise over my spine.

           “Get Out!” I gritted out, how dare they! They left me alone, in a cold and angry world. They both nodded slightly and walked back out. I started sobbing uncontrollably, angry at everything in the world. I started having a panic attack, so Cas came in and helped me through it. He just held me and let me get my anger out, after I had calmed down he helped me into the wheel chair and pushed me out.

           “Y/n, please forgive them? Your angry and I understand, but I promised that you would be taken care of. Staying with them is the only option, so please?” “Fine then Sam can stay with me” He looked at me with sad eyes and nodded back.

           I told Sam that he could take the bed, because I had to sleep on the couch. After he had made us dinner, he told me everything that had happened. “That doesn’t give him the right to hate me. I was so broken about it, I thought he would be so happy. Instead, he showed me the door” He helped me get comfortable on the couch, after that I conked out, I was too tired to fight.

           I woke up slowly to the smell of breakfast and coffee, I cracked my eyes open and saw Dean asleep on the floor next to me, Sam in the kitchen making breakfast. I tried sitting up but cried out as pain went through my spine. Dean jumped up ready to fight whatever was there, instead, he realized that I had pain.

           He sat down on the couch and put my feet on his lap, massaging them. He explained everything in detail, everything that went through his head, and how horrible it’s been without me around. I could feel my eyes water, before I knew it there were tears pouring down my cheeks. “I’m so sorry sweetheart, I never meant any of it. I made sure Cas kept an eye on you, to make sure you were ok”

           “I missed you so much Dean!” He pulled me in his lap and just held me to him. This was my home, his arms, his scent, the rumble in his chest. I started to get hungry, so he helped me up and led me to the kitchen. This was my home, my family, I looked at my boys and realized how much I missed them. We talked over breakfast, and they practically begged me to come home. I immediately agreed and knew things would go better.

           It took us a couple weeks to get the things I needed packed up. I left some things behind because I would already have them in the bunker. I had moved back into our room, and realized he had changed the room a little bit. “Dean? Is this for me?” “Yeah, Sam saw your Pinterest boards so we took a few ideas and made it up, I hope you like it”

           “I love it” I crawled into the bed, and automatically found my spot on the bed. “I have one more surprise” He helped me up and put on a blindfold. It was a short distance to my other surprise, he took off the blindfold and I gasped. The room was a beautiful dark blue, with everything you needed. There were pictures on the wall of Dean and I from trips and past hunts. “Dean this is beautiful” “I wanted little man to have a room full of love, and pictures of our love.”

           After that night things went so much better that I could ever hope for. I was two days away from my due date and things were getting a little tense. Mary had come to finally meet the woman who stole Dean’s heart and to see the woman carrying her grandson. I waited until all five of us were eating dinner tonight to tell them what name I had decided.

           “I had an idea on the name picked out and I hope you all like it.”  I pulled out a blue blanket and handed it to Dean. In cursive writing stitched on the corner, it said ‘Jonathon Robert Winchester’. I could see tears in his eyes as he pulled me close and kissed me sweetly. Everyone at the table absolutely loved the name.

           I brought the last of the dishes to the kitchen when I felt a weird pain come across my back, I then felt water trickle down my legs. “Dean!!” He came running in like a mad man and already knew it was show time. We split and got everything we needed and headed to the hospital. The latest contraction had just finished and I was exhausted already, we pulled up to the hospital Dean helping me get out and getting me into emergency.

           They wheeled me back and got me settled but the contractions were getting closer rather quickly and I soon knew it was time to push. Dean was right by my side, supporting me and helping find the courage to keep pushing. Then I heard it, my son, he was finally here. They laid him on my chest and just cried at this miracle that was given to me. He had my y/e/c eyes and Deans dirty blonde hair.

           They cleaned him up and brought him back to me so I could breast feed him. Dean just sat on the bed and watched with tears filling his eyes. Once we were settled and Jon was sleeping in my arms, he went to get everyone to see the new addition to the family.

           I just held him, and watched him sleep in my arms. Mary, Sam and Cas came in to see us and Mary was beside herself. “Would you like to hold him?” She nodded and I handed him to her. “He’s so beautiful” After everyone had said their goodbyes, Dean laid him on his chest and got into bed with me. We just stayed that way for a while and basked in the happiness and contentment of our growing family. “I love you so much sweetheart”

           I took a deep breath and sighed “I love you too” After that I fell asleep in Deans arms knowing that life couldn’t get any better.

idk if any of y’all have read the coop book my life my tapes but it is blowing my mind, some of the connections to this season? this excerpt especially: 

“ Am standing on the corner of Chelton and Greene. It is raining lightly. On the street several feet from the gutter is the body of a man. A police tape circles the body in a wide arc. He is white, dark hair, about six feet tall, wearing a green jacket, tan pants, and brown shoes. He is lying facedown. Blood is gathered around his neck and in a small pool by his feet. I have never seen anything like this in my entire life, and I feel like I may get sick.

   A witness said the man was stabbed a block away and ran this way screaming “no.” Someone else said he was stabbed in the neck. I have watched the detectives very closely. They knelt next to the body and carefully inspected the man’s pockets without moving him. They removed a wallet, a small address book, some money in a paper clip, and keys on a rabbit’s foot. I am trying to think the way Holmes would think but I mostly want to throw up. They are now about to roll the body over… . 

 Have just finished cleaning my microphone. When they rolled the body over I recognized the man as one of the card players at the club I went to with Uncle Al. I then got sick. After several minutes I informed the police about the card game and the man with no ear. They thanked me and told me to go home, change my shirt, and lock every door and window, which I have done. Believe I will let the police wrap up the rest of the case, and I will finish my math assignment.”

basically this dead dude is wearing the same outfit dougie coop is this season. he was at a card game with younger coop and his uncle, coop then next sees him dead here. the emphasis on the gambling/being a card shark, the rabbit foot key and coop having the great northern key… idk it all means something just not sure what yet! thought this was interesting, haven’t seen anyone talking about it either. 


4 Ways to NEVER get Sick or Con Crud Again!

New video for those who happen to give a F*ck. Flu season is passing but a ton of folks are still catching Colds and going to conventions getting Con Crud. And being sick is never any fun so I decided today to give you 4 steps to prevent colds, Flus, and illnesses of any sort. So pay attention today


anonymous asked:

Hey! I just wanted to tell you that I absolutely love your fic recs and I'm so grateful for them! So thank you for that!! Now... do you know any fics where they can't stand each other but are forced to be together?

Heya, thanks for your kind words :*

So basically, you want some Hate to Love + Fake relationship, right ?

- Dance to the Distortion  : Louis accidentally breaks Harry’s camera lens and in order to get it fixed, they decide to participate in a romantic couples study. The only issue is that they are not actually couple. Well that and the fact they cannot stand each other.  (16k)

- All The Attention, All These Intentions  : Harry could barely breathe at even the possibility of getting to be Louis Tomlinson’s fake boyfriend.  Louis was his favorite actor since childhood, when Louis was also a child on the big screen. The guy he had always looked up to.  The guy whose poster he used to kiss every night before bed.  The guy whose movies Harry would watch all night until his eyes couldn’t possibly stay open anymore.  Harry was pretty sure Louis Tomlinson wasn’t even real—he couldn’t be.  or the fake relationship au where Harry is an aspiring musician and also Louis’ biggest fan–until he actually meets him. (120k)

- rapture in the dark  : Harry Styles is a breakout musician who has shed his boyband label in favor of embracing his inner brooding rockstar. His PR team think that his rebrand is the perfect time for Harry to come out of the closet and have devised the perfect plan for doing so. Enter Louis Tomlinson, up and coming (and very openly homosexual) model whose public image as America’s Sweetheart is the perfect foil for Harry’s new edge. From a PR standpoint, it’s a dream come true - a power couple that can slowly coax the public into accepting Harry’s altered image. The only problem? They hate each other.Or, Harry does the Winter Girlfriend routine with Louis instead. (13k)

- Like Candy In My Veins  :  “Um…” Harry said slowly after a moment. “Okay. That’s… this is… Let me get this straight.” He lifted up a hand and swallowed. “You told your family that you have a boyfriend… and my name was the first one you thought of?”  “Harry Potter was on TV, alright? It wasn’t that much of a stretch.” Louis pinched the bridge of his nose. He couldn’t believe he was explaining himself to Harry fucking Styles. He couldn’t believe he was stooping this low. “Forget it. I’m sorry I even thought about bringing you into this.”   Harry snorted. “What? Did you want me to pretend to be your boyfriend or something?”
(Basically the A/B/O, enemies to lovers, fake relationship, Christmas AU that nobody asked for.) (31k)

- i’ll be yours to keep  : louis should’ve thought a lot more about who he said his fake boyfriend is, especially since he and his “significant other” kinda hate each other. most of the time. (17k)

- Love’s On The Line, Is That Your Final Answer?: Harry can’t believe it when Louis, the boy he’s always had a tempestuous rivalry with, asks him to be his boyfriend. Well, pose as his boyfriend, that is—for a new television game show in which young couples are quizzed on how well they know each other for a jackpot of thirty grand.Reluctantly, Harry agrees—because he’s got student loans to pay off, hasn’t he? What’s the harm? And he can totally deal with keeping his secret thing for Louis under wraps too. This is all just to win some money. It’s fine. No big deal. What could possibly go wrong?Well, everything. Obviously. (53k)

If you can do WIP, read this, it’s awesome !

- Paint Me In A Million Dreams       Harry’s one of Hollywood’s biggest actors, has made a name for himself in prestigious films and lives the life of a superstar. There’s just one thing missing to make it picture-perfect, but the one Harry’s in love with is completely out of reach for him. Enter Louis, one of Hollywood’s biggest actors himself, who just came out of the closet and taps new genres in the industry. When Louis sacks the role Harry auditioned for in Scorsese’s next big film, their irrational feud starts. Who could have guessed it would get even worse when for promo season, their teams decide to present them as a couple for publicity? In short, Harry’s in love with someone and doesn’t care about dating anyone else, Louis never felt home in L.A., Liam writes love songs for someone he shouldn’t write love songs to, and Niall makes everything better with good food. (31k)

Also I add this one Hate to love + Arranged marriage :

- Sail into the Sun  : Prince Louis Tomlinson is sick of the closet. Harry Styles is a con man with a hatred of rich people. Louis needed a way out, Harry needed a husband. It was a mutual agreement. Doesn’t mean they have to like each other. (31k)

anonymous asked:

I dont think they'll kill Sam and Dean off for financial reasons. The show had a lot of talk about planning a supernatural movie after the show is done and also tried to launch a spin-off once already they are going to want them for these plans, or at least the possiblity for it. If they kill them and everyone else SPN is dead truely, closure included you cant sell stuff on that like with the feeling of being able to rejoin Sam and Dean anytime any plans etc over i dont think that

Hmmm… okay so valid point, if they will actually go there… I dunno if they will, If SPN ends with Sam and Dean just driving off in the impala I will honestly feel a bit cheated, because it will mean no development in all 13+seasons. Bibros will love that of course, but I think it would be a massive anticlimax. 

The way I see it, SPN had two possible endings:

1. They all die in a blaze of glory, just like Dean always says and the ending that we KNOW Jared and Jensen and Misha all want. None of them see a happy ending for the show, they all think that the characters will die for the world. This ending makes sense considering the song of the show is “carry on wayward son” and really, that song is all about death isn’t it? We could STILL have destiel in this ending, and have them all reunited with those they love in heaven, it could be tragic but still hopeful and happy in a way. Like they all end up sitting around the bar in the roadhouse and all the old characters come back and yeah, maybe Dean will smile at Sam as he is reunited with Eileen (or even Jess?!) and gives her a kiss, and then Cas walks up to Dean and stands by his side, they smile at each other and all the happy faces all around them and then Dean takes Cas’s hand and thats that. End scene.

It is an option that will actually be incredibly bittersweet. Something like the Wayward Daughters spin off could still go on but the original cast wouldn’t be able to do one off episodes with them. But then would they really need to? Wayward Daughters doesn’t need Sam and Dean and Cas paying a visit every now and again to be successful. It will have Jody and Donna and Claire and maybe even Rowena could be like a Crowley character… I don’t think a movie is a good idea personally… I get flashbacks to the X Files movie and well, I wouldn’t want it to tank. 

2. We are still going for Dabb’s happy endgame idea. Who knows, maybe they will bring Eileen back? I was wondering if maybe that mystery character from the promo is the Nephilim baby from the future? Maybe he’s all grown up and tries to convince them all to let him live and gives them each a gift and the gift he gives Sam is Eileens life back? Who fucking knows eh? 

if the endgame is still happy, then it will have to be something to do with the boys not quite leaving hunting, but settling into a Bobby type role and also training up the next generation of hunters. Sam would rebuild the global men of letters from scratch (since the Brits will probably be in ruins by the finale) and recruit people from all over the world to watch over the Supernatural and start a global organisation of worldwide protection. Perhaps the final season will actually be about the world becoming aware of the SPN?! Sam would control that (a true man of letters) WITH A FUCKING DOG! and Dean and Cas would still travel, go hunting together (Cas would be human) and yeah, I can see that happening I suppose but it doesn’t make sense to not give Sam SOMEONE outside of his brother and Cas.

The reason that this option doesn’t seem so likely to me now is that they were BUILDING on Sam’s endgame in the subtext for two seasons!! His dreams of ‘someone’, his saving of the retirement leaflet in his keepsake box, his questioning of who he is and what he wants now. (he never managed to convince me that the hunter life is what he WANTS even if he has accepted it). Eileen was a big part of that… so I just don’t get it? It really confuses me that they killed her when she seemed like someone who could be so important for the future and for the endgame?! Could so many of us meta writers have been wrong about Eileen’s role? To me, it feels like a massive wasted potential and now I’m just completely lost for this endgame idea.

Perhaps the true endgame is a mixture of both of these? Could one brother live and the other die? Could that be the true endgame? Sam accepting his fate and sacrificing himself for the world in a repeat of Swan Song but this time he goes to heaven and reunites with those he loves, but the codependency is broken and Dean accepts his brothers death for real, and in his place gets a human Cas? (that would certainly be controversial to certain darker sides of fandom…)

Honestly I just don’t know. I’m upset that Sam’s friend had to die. Because she was SAM’S friend. One of the only friends he has outside of Dean, or who Dean hasn’t connected with more than him. Even if it was completely platonic between them, its still really annoying that Sam had that taken from him. He never gets to bond with anyone outside of Dean. 

*sigh* I’m so tired nonny. I don’t think I could deal with a movie or it dragging on for another so many seasons. I WANT it to end at the moment, I am sick of seeing these characters suffer. If you keep adding more hurt to the mix without any comfort the audience eventually gets bored. SPN is becoming too painful to watch right now. 

Who knows how it will end really? Or when. So long as it does end and so long as the characters get the ending they deserve, an ending that is satisfying and beautiful and makes sense according to the story so far. Anything less would just feel cheap and broken.

anonymous asked:

Like do u hate felicity bc she took laurels spot? Like cmon the chemistry between Stephen and KATIE just did not exist. It was bad. Like I love laurel, she was so much better apart. Also I'm sorry but Emily's acting is 100000x better than Katie's, katie is a brick. I'm not TRYNA hate but I just wanna understand why you're so hateful towards one female character? Why not just support both?

For starters, I don’t think Felicity “took Laurel’s spot.” The only character that exists to take Laurel’s spot is “Dinah Drake” and I have problems with that for reasons I’ve listed time and time again (and especially, most recently in a post that probably hasn’t escaped the first page of my blog). 

As for Felicity, there are a laundry list of reasons why I stopped enjoying the character. She’s a “reset to factory default settings” kind of character in that she’s one-dimensional and isn’t allowed to grow or evolve beyond what and who we’ve known her to be (which I think is a result of the writers thinking they’ve struck gold with her and don’t need to develop her). For a character to be that way, and get the level of attention/focus/screentime that she pulls week to week, it’s frustrating. There have been multiple instances where the writers have given her a great story, and chosen to do nothing with it, for example, when Felicity was attacked by Darhk and ended up in a wheelchair, the writers didn’t use it to propel her down an interesting, and character-building arc, instead they had a magical chip that restored her ability to walk and she was made to be completely fine — restored to factory default settings. I also find her to lack empathy, and empathy is a quality I admire in characters of fiction and people in real life, so it’s hard to relate to someone who refuses to put themselves in someone else’s shoes to understand their actions and their choices and somehow makes it all about themselves instead (eg. the entire situation with Samantha Clayton, and Oliver’s son). I think her storyline in Season 3 ruined her for me, specifically in her treatment of Ray. I will never understand how she could have played with his feelings like that and talked to Oliver as though she would drop Ray like a bag of shit the second he was willing to give in to his feelings for her (which she kind of ended up doing anyway). And to refuse telling Ray that she doesn’t love him, and has feelings for Oliver, but to still rock up at his place of business and be like, “hey can I borrow a jet?” And ya’ll can say “yeah but it was to save Thea” but she was like “lol let Thea die, it’s not worth it, Oliver.” Her entire romantic relationship with Oliver was forced and rushed and the feelings were fabricated for plot-purposes at the beginning of Season 3, and so it was impossible for me to enjoy them as a couple (and yes, it’s important to bring up because Felicity was basically just a love interest for Season 3 and Season 4). I also hate the fact that we’ve seen no fucking long-term consequences and/or guilt for her nuking Havenrock and for her losing Billy Malone. Ten thousand innocent lives are dead because of her, and she was guilt-ridden for a single scene in Season 5. And we had to see another shot of Emily Bett Rickards “trying to cry” over losing Billy, but we never got the time to invest in that relationship, and she never seems to acknowledge it in a real, human way but instead can use it as a way to justify being pushed into Helix? Again, it ties back to her being a “reset to default factory settings.” And most importantly, I hate that she never has to earn anything on the show — she never had to earn her job at Palmer Tech, or earn becoming CEO, she never had to earn being the main love interest of the show and that development is literally non-existent, she never had to earn being somewhat competent in the field to take on the League of Assassins or the Ghosts, or whoever else she’s fought, and in a show about earning your role as a hero and facing a crucible to become something else, she’s literally done shit all to get to where she’s been. And look, I was a huge fan of her in the first season. But I remember slowly getting sick of it in S2 because her dynamic, and her role was growing very stale. I know people like to think it’s because I’m a Laurel fan, and a Lauriver fan, but it’s not true. The reason I don’t like Felicity Smoak, in a nutshell, is because I fundamentally disagree with how she is written and until the writing changes to fix the issues that I have, there’s no way I can “support her.” But that’s the beauty of the world — we don’t all share the same opinion, and you coming into my inbox trying to say “support both” whilst not-so-subtly dragging Katie Cassidy… it’s not incentive for me to agree. 

I hope that answered the first part of your question. 

On the topic of terrible acting, my initial problem with Emily Bett Rickards was the way she spoke her lines — it often felt like she was reading off a script, and they were very monotonous and almost robotic. Moments where it felt a little better was when she was able to have some personality behind it, and/or some passion. And then it felt like she was improving (specifically the “keep fighting” scene in S2). But it’s still how she delivers the lines, and so I’m not a big fan of it. And beyond that, I don’t think she’s cut out to do serious and dramatic scenes that involve extreme emotions, like being distraught. As funny of a meme the “No, Ray, Olibur” thing is, it comes from a place of how awful the acting and the writing was in that scene to the point where it’s comical. But she’s great at comedy, and she’s great at being the comedic relief. I just don’t think she’s mastered the art of doing serious drama. I mean, did you see the episode of Legends where they tried to make her a superhero? Anyway, you opened the floor on discussing acting ability and so I thought I’d share as well :) 

Now, onto the chemistry part of the question. Chemistry is subjective. You don’t see it for Laurel and Oliver – that’s fine! Frankly, when I look at Oliver and Felicity, it’s kind of awkward. She looks way too young for him, or he looks way too old for her, or maybe it’s both. And the truth is, I don’t see romantic chemistry between them. I see that it’s written in the script for them to kiss and say “I love you”, and that’s how it feels. Scripted. Forced. I like the kind of chemistry that isn’t one-dimensional. I like that Laurel and Oliver can fight, and scream and have conflict and drama because they’re mature about it and it feels real and it feels like there’s all this history between them that bubbles up to the surface during those heated moments. I like that when they are together, romantically, it feels and looks like they belong and all that history has culminated in something beautiful and logical. I like that when they’re friends, you see a gentle side to them and a platform that was established and that will hold through anything. I don’t get that with Felicity and Oliver (mostly because the writing for them never warranted the relationship in the first place, but also because of the romantic chemistry lacking). But as I said, it’s subjective. You think Katie is a brick when she acts? Fine. I think Emily has very limited range and a lack of experience that shows in close to every episode. Each to their own. 

(I do want to say, though, that despite not being a fan of one’s acting ability, I have nothing against Emily Bett Rickards personally and actively do my part to make sure people from the LL don’t direct hate towards her on Twitter, which is more that I can say for the Olicity fandom that targets Katie)

Now, the reason I don’t and can’t support both is because I’m not willing to overlook serious flaws and spend my time on my blog being fake. If you go all the way back through my blog, you’ll see that I used to be a fan of both and I used to adore Felicity Smoak. I don’t anymore (for some of the reasons I mentioned above). Hope that answered your questions! 

I am so sad and pissed

I had a major break down just before over a Daryl and Jesus discussion on youtube (on a new video) about the possibility of them being a thing and the amount of homophobic rage in the comments overwhelmed me. Most of the comments were of disapproval. How is it possible that nearly half of the fanbase is so hatful towards homosexuals? I mean remember the uproar when Aaron kissed Eric in season 5? We barely even knew the characters!  imagine how they’d react when something like that happens between Daryl and Jesus. I just find this situation absolutely disgusting it’s 2017 for god sake you’d think people would accept it by now but no, they’re too dumb to open their minds. This is all coming from a STRAIGHT woman from a racist and homophobic background and look at me! I’m someone who’s crazy over Desus. Yeah i’m rambling a lot and I probably sound like an idiot who’s over reacting but please try to give me at least one good reason not to be so upset about this. i’m sick of seeing comments everywhere like,

“can at least one show have at least no lgbt couple? You don’t need to shove it down our throats everytime.”

“FUCKING DISGUSTIING! This show is turning shit”

“Daryl, GAY? That just ruins it for me now wtf”

This kind of stuff never bothered me too much before but… it’s finally getting to me. Just give me a good damn reason to shrug this shit off because I really wanna calm down.

So, I was rewatching HIMYM and being bitter about the finale, and then I came up with a fix-it AU, in which Tracy doesn’t die and Barney and Robin stay together forever: 

  • In the hotel room when Robin gives Barney the out, he doesn’t take it. He says that it’s hard, but he loves her, and being together is worth a little pain. (something a la “With you, the trouble doesn’t seem so troubling”)
  •  Anyways, so they agree to try couples’ therapy because they want to save their marriage. They go maybe twice and sit their awkwardly before deciding it’s really not for them. But they don’t give up.
  • Robin talks to Lily who tells her that marriage sometimes requires sacrifice. Robin mulls over this for a few weeks. Things are weirdly tense between her and Barney, but they still love each other and that’s enough to get them both through.
  • Robin really doesn’t want to give up her job, and she knows Barney would never ask her to do that. This is her dream. But, she realizes, the traveling…That’s not her dream, even though she loves it. Her dream is to be a journalist. At this point, she has enough esteem as a journalist to get a local job, writing for some big name news company…Maybe the NY Times, I don’t know.
  • They stay in New York permanently, but when they can both get time off from work they go on vacations and travel.
  • And it’s not like Robin gives up her dreams for Barney or anything like that. Her local job is just as amazing and rewarding as the international one. And he never asks her to do it. He never makes her choose between her dream and him. He’s ecstatic when she tells him, but he makes sure it’s what she really wants.
  • Eventually Robin wins Pulitzer. Or maybe two? I don’t know, the point is, she’s wildly successful
  • They get some dogs. They have like four dogs at any one time for the rest of their lives.
  • At one point, Robin asks Barney if he wants to adopt a kid, because she can’t have children. Barney says that he knew going into it that she didn’t ever want kids, and that if he had really wanted kids that much, he wouldn’t have married her. He’s happy just being the world’s most awesome uncle to Marshal and Lily’s three kids, and Ted and Tracy’s two kids. (it’s important to me that Robin never has kids)
  • Tracy gets sick, but she gets better and she DOESN’T FUCKING DIE. She and Ted are extremely happy together.

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The Pregnancy that was Promised

I’m something like a prophet when it comes to shipping. I can see a ship coming from episodes and season away. Just like all prophets I always get a lot of doubters. When I started shipping Marcel and Rebekah before The Originals air. I had a legion of doubters telling I was stupid. Rebekah was in love with Matt. They told Marcel and Rebekah will never happen. It turned out that I was 100% correct and they were all wrong. I started shipping Cesare and Lucrezia from the very first episode. I told by the doubters that I sick perverted who supported incest. I was told that Cersare and Lucrezia just love each a lot and it was strictly platonic. By season 3 of the Borgias they fucked and profess their love for each other just as I predicted. When I started shipping Jonerys I had people say, “Ewww they are aunt and nephew. GRRM would never put them together. Jon and Dany ending up together would be too cliche. It’s never going to happen.” There are plenty of more ships I accurately predicted but I’m sure you all get the point.

I am at least 90% sure that Daenerys will become pregnant next season. The writers continue to tell us that she can’t have a child. They are setting us up for a big WOW moment. One of the things I’ve noticed about D&D is they tend to leave major clues throughout each season. They always foreshadow things they have planned for the future seasons. “Kill the boy Jon Snow. Winter is almost upon us. Kill the boy and let the man be born.” That was a foreshadowing of Jon’s death and resurrection. “He wasn’t be the first to love you. He won’t be the last.” That was an obvious foreshadowing of Jonerys. Now if Jon and Dany have a conversation about her infertility. We will definitely see the Pregnancy that was Promised. That will be the big twist of season 8. You can trust me I’m hardly ever wrong.

I am free!!! Hahahaha!!

You can’t hold me forever Netflix! I have overcome your season on shenanigans and I must return to my work!! You will never hold me again!! ….

At least not until your next seasons…

So bunny hasn’t been drawing much because one I’ve been sick and two… I got caught up rewatching some kiddy show that I am enjoying. Now I feel like I need to draw a poster style of the 3 shows I got captivated into. Maybe someday…right now busy bunny need to work!

And so you know… it would be poster designs of Miraculous Ladybug (wanted to see what it was about due to fanart), Voltron (accidentally found it), and lastly Ninjago (watched the first season when it came out, but never finished it through and just wanted to see what happen to it, not gonna lie the upcoming movie also reawaken the interest )

From this Hell, a Home

Nygmobblepot Arkham AU in which Oswald and Edward are serving their sentences simultaneously. Interwoven with canon events from season 2.

(It’s 17k so you might want to read this on AO3. Done for the Valentine Exchange for @isoldewass but I never made a formal post on tumblr with the actual fic. Oops? Well it’s on tumblr now.)

As Helzinger is dragged from the room and Oswald is left on the table, he shakes and involuntarily curls around himself. There is no one to comfort him. No one left. Eventually, Oswald manages to get back into his seat, the sight of the ice cream making him sick. Giving up the ice cream to protect himself would be a simple exchange in any other context, but these simple-minded people could not be reasoned with. Oswald had no idea how to reason with them; his ability to bribe or talk his way out of a situation was all he had, and it simply did not work here. It left him isolated. He didn’t belong in this place, with these fools and their mindless violence. Sure, Oswald enjoyed a bit of violence himself, but he was methodical. He was capable of reasoning; he did not endanger himself with his sadistic tendencies. He was not insane.

Oswald hears footsteps, and he hopes they aren’t bringing Helzinger back, because he hasn’t touched his ice cream. He doesn’t plan on it.

“You missed lunch, dinner is at six. Play nice and make friends, Nygma. You aren’t going anywhere.”

“That’s where you’re wrong,” Ed hisses. The guard shoves him in and slams the gate behind him. He staggers and then turns to yell as the guard retreats.

“You can’t hold me here! I’ll find a way; there will be an opportunity, eventually. Mark my words, you ignoramus!” Ed huffs and turns back to face the room, eyes downcast and his arms coming across his chest to hold himself for a brief moment before he opts to take in his surroundings.

Oswald stares at him intently, waiting to catch his gaze. Ed’s eyes sweep the room and meet his.

“My friend!” Oswald exclaims.

“Mr. Penguin!” Ed chirps, delighted to see him. Oswald had always understood him—he would understand why he had to do this. He wouldn’t treat Ed like he was crazy. The relief almost knocked him over. He wouldn’t be alone.

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