since i’m on an “colin spacetwinks talks very earnestly and sincerely” kick right now, i wanna share about the way i approach a lot of creating things, or just doing stuff. i hate, i hate i hate i hate, being locked into being defined as one kind of creator, or more specifically, a creator of one kind of specific thing. most evident of this is comedy, and i’ve talked multiple times about how i’ve made a conscious effort to talk about different kinds of subjects - from my various hobbies and interests (superhero comics, bizarre old cartoons, spelunking through internet history, etc) to just being very upfront about my depression and anxieties and shit - so people wouldn’t just think of me as the “comedy guy”. because that’s a miserable fucking place to be. suddenly everybody expects you to be making jokes all the time, about everything, and you don’t get time to be something other than the comedy guy, and people are pushing you to joke about some shit you really don’t wanna joke about. sometimes you even start turning into a malicious shithead all because you’re chasing after that laughter and you won’t let anything get in your way. awful.
but this also applies on the other end of what i do, with my serious stuff. i do write about depression, or just dealing with all kinds of internal shit, or in general write about “serious subjects” - and i don’t like being defined as just that either. hell, i don’t even really like letting those things be 100 percent serious all the time, unless it really does call for it. to think of it this way: i’ve dealt with depression and all sorts of self-loathing and the shit that goes with it for all my adult life. and i very often made jokes about it - still do - to deal with it, to talk about it, to just give myself relief, even.
i don’t like myself being defined as doing one particular thing. especially when the serious and comedic seem to intertwine so much in my personal life. and i don’t like presenting an image to the world, to an audience, that can be solely just “they do ____”, because then it’s self-perpetuating and it traps you in that corner and it’s harder to fight out of it over time. i do something serious, some sort of psychological horror? something funny or lighthearted is my next project. pop out something long and funny as hell? i try to tackle something that’s not purely comedy next. or, often, i’ll write some serious shit but make sure there’s still jokes along the way. and why wouldn’t there be? like i said, that’s how we do shit in our own lives anyway.
to be the “funny guy” all the time or to be “the important, serious person” all the time are both miserable, but just in different ways.
so, i make a conscious effort to try and do lots of different things, when i create. it’s not just fun, getting out of your own zones, writing something totally different than what you have been for awhile, it’s not just great for developing your skills, but it helps me present myself as an actual human being as-is to people.
love y’all and take care.