i will kill my self

anonymous asked:

I'm sad and nobody cares. I feel like if I killed my self nobody would notice. I can't do this anymore it's too hard

I would notice and I would care. I know I’m not the only one. I know shit gets hard man, I really do. I literally have no friends and no one to talk to because my ex (at the time gf) left me for someone else and then started treating me like shit. But you know what? It gets better. I wanna kill myself too. I don’t want to be here. But I still am. And I know it’s this stupid shit in my brain making me feel like this. I’m going to talk to a counsellor from school on Monday because shit has gotten so bad. So if you’re going to kill yourself, don’t fucking kill yourself. Just because it feels like no one cares doesnt mean no one does! Find a reason to make it through the day and night. Just one. And do that every day

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list of random spirits encountered:

- a spirit haunting a lamppost on 3rd street. it asks for the umbrella of anyone passing by in exchange for a temporary alteration in reality

- a spirit haunting people with burdens on their mind. manifests as a pair of wings on their shoulders

hey how about this, instead of asking me what it’s like to have a personality disorder, just ask me what it’s like to be fully willing to kill myself to get someone’s attention

I wonder if you ever felt like I abandoned you….  
If you ever thought I should have fought for you…

The truth of it is I never left.  
I’m still here.  
And I do fight for you - every single day.   
Not to win you…. not to trap you or cage you…  
But for your happiness.

I wage war on myself day in and day out for you.  
Tearing strips off myself, swallowing hatred and tears….  
So if you hate me because I abandoned you…. don’t worry…  
….. I hate myself for it too…
—  Ranata Suzuki

Dead cold hands.

I want to be happy.”
- “Then why aren’t you?”
“Because no matter how hard I try or how much I want it… I can’t.

self care is eating an entire tube of Pillsbury Original Crescent Roll™ dough raw while driving in the pouring rain with your windows down