i will just never understand that man

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countdown to jackson’s birthday: #KingJacksonDay
abc’s of jackson: z is for zealous

Today is the day we celebrate the most thoughtful, caring, wonderful, handsome, grateful, funny, loving man alive. Jackson Wang!  I know you’ll probably never read this but just some thoughts:  I really hope you’re doing well.  Everyone has been so worried for you while you’ve been sick and I just hope that you’ve recovered fully.  I hope you know you don’t have to force yourself and push yourself beyond your limits just to please the fans, we’ll always understand if you don’t feel well enough to meet with us or go to schedules.  Your health is always the number one priority, as you say yourself.  We’ll always wait for you to feel your best, even if it takes ten years, twenty years, one hundred years!  We’ll always be by your side.  I hope you’re able to enjoy your birthday to the fullest knowing that your fans care a lot for you. Thank you so so so much for working so hard to make us happy.  I love you so much and becoming your fan has been one of the best decisions of my life. Happy birthday!  I’m so grateful that you were born. ❤

anonymous asked:

Sorry if I show myself as Anon, I am kind of embarrassed let's say.. xD I'm not new on Tumblr but I've never talked or asked someone here for like 3-4years. But I wanted to say that your Yasuo is absolutely amazing, and your art also is! Just wanted to give a praise x) since I think you deserve it! Oh, and very sorry. English is absolutely not my native language, so forgive me if you see stupid mistakes!

//Oh hey bud!

Honest? Your english is awesome! I didn’t have issues understanding this message at all!

And thanks a lot for those nice words man. It takes a lot of effort to go out of your way and send someone a message just for them to know you appreciate them and you have no idea how much it means to me when I hear people appreciate the portrayal, the artwork or really any content I post. I enjoy myself doing the things I do and when I hear other people enjoy it aswell, there is no better reward.

Thank you so much and I wish you a great day friend :)

Hey, white women, can we talk for a second? Yep, you too. Everybody in a huddle real quick. 

Originally posted by uswntinmotion

Everybody here? Okay good. 

I voted for Clinton, but I am just as responsible for what is going on in our country right now as those voted for Trump. I am upset and devastated that the majority of white women who voted voted for Trump. I understand why and the systems in place that made women think they should vote for him, but I also need to remind you of a few things. 

Just because you borrow a white man’s privilege by being married to one or being surrounded by them doesn’t mean that privilege is really yours. It means that you only get it for a time. When a man decides he is no longer interested in you, that is when you discover the power was never actually yours. Don’t rely on white men to understand and protect you. They don’t understand because they simply are not taught to do so. 

There is a fucked up system in place of being a person who is oppressed and oppressing others. We see this all the time. We know why bullies bully. It’s because they feel insecure and unsafe in other parts of their lives. But you need to keep in mind that just because you aren’t on the bottom of the pile, doesn’t mean you aren’t being crushed in that pile. You are not on top. Why are you voting to keep others beneath you, rather than voting to climb out of the pile entirely?

There is a photo of Trump and his wife voting that I think everyone saw. In it Trump is attempting to see how she is voting. (There is one of his son doing the same thing, only in even more blatant fashion.)

I think that is a good summation of what a lot of white women subconsciously are aware of: that the men in their lives are expecting them to vote a certain way and to think a certain way. I know it sounds very 1950s, the whole good little wife waiting on her husband hand and foot, but it still echoes in our culture and has its roots deep in western culture prioritizing men’s beliefs and thoughts over that of women. Every white woman has a spectre of a white man hovering over her shoulder. That’s why we are taught to be peacemakers and to worry about making everyone happy. Even I fall into this trap, but as I said before, voting to oppress other people isn’t going to get rid of your own oppression. It isn’t going to lessen it. It only makes you an accomplice in the oppression. 

None of the above absolves you. It doesn’t absolve me. Just because I understand the system of oppression involved in being a woman in this country doesn’t make it okay that so many of us voted for someone who is so blatantly racist and angry. He is encouraging other people to act out. You may say, “I don’t agree with everything he does.” I understand that, but ultimately you voted for someone who is okay with that. By doing so, you sent a message to everyone that even if you don’t consider yourself a racist or a bigot, you will stand silently by while someone else is. 

And liberal white women, this message is for you, too, so don’t sit back and pat yourself on the back for voting for Clinton. There is a history within the suffrage movement and within feminism of white, supposedly liberal women always putting themselves first. We need stop doing that. We need to be better. We need to fight for every last single woman. We need to stop letting down every last person of color in this country. We need to stop being ableist and transphobic. We either stand for all women or none at all. Too many of us quietly went to the polls and voted for Clinton and never once said a thing to convince other people to not vote for Trump. And way, way, way too many of us are now telling marginalized people to make peace with the people who voted for Trump. Stop it. You are speaking from a position of privilege again. They are entitled to their fear and anger and no, they shouldn’t have to hug and place nice with people who told them that they are less than human through their voting. If you are really liberal, you need to act like it and you need to be ready to hear what marginalized women have to say and not get upset when they tell you you are wrong. 

This is a reminder for myself that I need to be better. Always. And a reminder that we as a group, every last white woman, regardless of how you voted, have a lot of work to do. We benefit from our whiteness, even if we don’t benefit from being women. Stop the thought pattern that says, “We are okay because he doesn’t mean us. He means those other women.” Those other women need your protection and support, because no one else is giving it. 

Huddle break over. Go prove that you are better than this. 

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nine in the afternoon // panic! at the disco

Yuuri to Viktor: "after the final, let's end this"
  • me before: wHTA FuKC MAN THEY ALERADY HAD A GOOD HEALTHYY REALTIONSHHIP KUBO HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO M Y HERAT I CANT ACCEPT THSI-
  • me, now an intellectual: What this episode really means is that Yuuri will end their coach/student relationship because he could literally see Viktor's longing to go back and skate again. Yuuri's letting Viktor free. Free from him as a mentor but their personal relationship would never cease, it will only get DEEPER.
  • just like me in this fandom hALP
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#eve baird the daughter charlene never had

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I walked away from the last Great Time War. I marked the passing of the Time Lords. I saw the birth of the universe and I watched as time ran out, moment by moment, until nothing remained. No time. No space. Just me. I walked in universes where the laws of physics were devised by the mind of a mad man. I’ve watched universes freeze and creations burn. I’ve seen things you wouldn’t believe. I have lost things you will never understand! And I know things. Secrets that must never be told. Knowledge that must never be spoken. Knowledge that will make parasite gods blaze. So come on, then. Take it!

Manga/Manhwa Worth Reading (Ongoing)

I’ll upload a list every month! Stay tuned.

1. Killing Stalking (depictions of strong violence and harassment, warning). The only reason I’m reading this is to find out how the relationship between the main characters will turn out to be.

2. Kamisama Hajimemashita (the most important arc of the manga just finished)

3. Tokyo Ghoul :re (the clowns are here)

4. Saezuru Tori Wa Habatakanai (One of my favorite yaoi manga. Warning, not everyone’s cup of tea, even though it’s a masterpiece)

5. Shingeki no Kyojin

6. Moritat (Law and Jesse omg)

7. Never Understand/ Out of control (last chapter came out this morning. An interesting read)

8. Kuroshitsuji (another arc finished, right?)

9. Horimiya (slow updates, but worth it)

10. A Man Like You (oh, the angst)

Saezuru 25: Doumeki in Focus

It was worth it to wait for the scanlation because with translated words I think Doumeki will be better understood. Because not only Yashiro but absolutely Doumeki - the controversial man of the hour - deserves to be in focus in this chapter.

I’m fortunate that I was never in Yashiro’s shoes and will therefore just discuss this in terms of fiction, art and literature taking into account not just this chapter alone but looking at it in a wholistic view of the story. After reading the chapter and understanding it I still stand by the opinion that Doumeki is a good man, it was loving, it’s not without consent nor was it violent. If you are not on the same page as me I suggest for you to just ignore this opinion of mine. And it’s a long read.

It is another very good chapter. The build up was so great and gripping that you are not fully expecting it to happen but when it did you are more than satisfied. It wasn’t rushed and it was filled with details, very detailed in fact. And I love the intensity and passion that abound in every page. The art is so beautiful and the story always pulling a heart string or two that made it probably the best love-making I’ve seen in mangas of all genre.

When all this part of the plot started it was Yashiro who asked for it first. Doumeki was the first to refuse. And with that rejection Yashiro started to crumble.

It was pretty much the same kind of rejection he was afraid of before with Kageyama.

Only now with Doumeki he is still not yet fully recognizing that he loves this man. But the rejection triggered Yashiro to rub salt into Doumeki’s old wounds bringing into surface Doumeki’s own trauma and fears.

And Doumeki laid his feelings and everything for Boss and still did not do it. The point is Doumeki refused and even after Yashiro’s exit to the bathroom, he still thinks at that moment that his decision was the right thing to do but also started to question it.

What changed it?

Everything changed when Yashiro put down some of his walls in that moment of vulnerability in the bathroom. It changed when Yashiro said he is afraid to lose Doumeki.

It changed when Yashiro for the first time expressed his true emotions. And Doumeki came to understand him better.

Yashiro needs someone. That’s why in that moment Doumeki hugged him and kissed him.

And Doumeki showed him another side, another angle of this fear “if losing me scares you so much, then why are you so afraid of being here with me now?”

There’s nothing for Yashiro to be afraid of with Doumeki beside him if it is losing him that he fears. Yashiro is fearing something else. He is afraid not of Doumeki but he is afraid of “feeling” and of being truly hurt. Yashiro trained himself to be numb and make himself believe he likes pain. But he is afraid that Doumeki will erase all that. He is not running away from Doumeki but he is running away from the things that would hurt him just like what he had always done all his life.

Again, that’s why at that moment Doumeki hugged him and kissed him. Yashiro’s pain and fears I would also like to hug it all away if only that could help him.

I love it that Doumeki knows what Yashiro truly needs. Yashiro needs to face what happened in the past at least once in his life to be able to break free from it even at least a little. Face it without joking, without the air of indifference and casual dismissal, face it seriously head-on as the reality that it is.  And to face the love and affection that is in front of him now.

Would you say there was no consent and Doumeki forced it because we haven’t heard it explicitly?

Here is Yashiro’s answer. 

Doumeki stopped and pulled up respecting the silence. But very clearly Yashiro gave his answer and brought his hips up to Doumeki’s stuff. 

A silent answer. A clear plea of mutual desire. He wants it. And Doumeki made Yashiro face him. 

Doumeki made Yashiro face him, made Yashiro want him…not the pain but the man in front of him and all his feelings. He will not fuck him. They will make love.

It was not totally without consent. Yashiro wanted it too. Yashiro is protesting to doing it in the front and to Doumeki pleasuring him with real pleasure. But not to the act itself. Doumeki continues on with giving him pleasure and treating him gently because Yashiro needs to know that he can be loved and that pleasure does not equate to pain, he can feel good and he can feel pleasure without pain, and Yashiro needs to admit to himself that he does not really like pain. 

And Yashiro initiated this one.

This is Yashiro’s first time being treated so delicately, and kissed so tenderly like this while doing it. and I love this kiss in the forehead sooo much.

Doumeki is probably the first to refuse to inflict pain on him despite his words; the first to know that what he really needs is gentle love despite his conflicting contradictions; the first to say he is beautiful and made him feel he is an existence that should be treasured.

“You’re so beautiful.”

Doumeki… you made many fall for you.. with the feelings you are showing to Yashiro, with every caress, with every embrace, with every loving gaze, with every kiss you shower Yashiro.

It triggered memories of his haunting past and the ghosts he has been battling and suppressing all these years. And those were pages of memories that broke hearts. But it made time and emotions flow again for this frozen man.

you know, i was rewatching the ssw forest scene for the umpteenth time and something really hit me. seeing aaron’s empathy and compassion towards robert in that scene has always made me extra emotional but now it’s struck me just how much i love that aaron, who has been through and survived some of the worst things a human being can go through, would never undermine or dismiss the seriousness of robert’s own experiences and traumas.

in that scene, he’s crying from watching and listening to the man he loves open up about something that happened in his past and about his feelings, because he understands that what robert is telling him about has shaped how robert has perceived and lived his whole life up to now and he gets how huge it is that robert is finally expressing it.
some would think that aaron’s lived through worse and would have limited sympathy or whatnot, but that’s not at all how aaron sees things, not in the slightest. if something affects robert, it’s important. as proven by his reaction to the jack comment at their wedding, months later. 

so basically god bless aaron dingle, i am immensely grateful for him and so happy that robert sugden is as loved as he is by this amazing person. because believe you me, aaron would defend and protect robert from anyone who would dare hurting him, with everything that he has.

Unexplainable

Otherwise known as; Poems written by William Poindexter and then performed by him at Annie’s on Slam Poetry Night, Number One.

         The clearing of a throat.

         “This poem is called Unexplainable.

Poetry is the topic I didn’t understand in English class

I mean, poetry is one of the many topics I didn’t understand in English class

It is how Shakespeare felt about the woman in the poem

(Who you tell me was really a man but that leads to a whole other thing I won’t get into now)

It’s the words people use to describe emotions I had never felt

Poetry is unnecessarily complicated and never outright and most of the time I feel like we’d all have an easier time if people just spoke plainly

But you tell me that poetry isn’t about easy

You tell me that poetry is about the unexplainable

It is finding a comparison as close as you can get

Because the thing you are writing about is yours

No one else would understand

You say, “I could write you as plainly as I see you

“But people would only understand how I feel if I compared your touch to fire, your laugh to melodies, your hands to a home where all I need to do is be.”

I still don’t understand your poetry

I still like things plainly said

But sometimes I think I understand

Poetry must be the light in your eyes when you’re passionate

The ink of your tattoo dripping across your skin

The words you use, the way your mouth moves around them like they’re building something great, something people will come to stare at in awe, something that people will remember until their dying day and leave afterwards for their children to speak like a prayer

Poetry must be how I feel when you read me yours

Because that is truly unexplainable.”

What she says: I’m fine

What she means: Taraji P. Henson getting snubbed for the Oscars 2017 is just disgraceful. A white man accused of sexual assault was nominated, a movie about a creepy obsessed man in space was nominated, a movie about white-washed superheros and cultural appropriation was nominated, but the phenomenal, heart-wrenching, incredible performance by Taraji was snubbed. I am livid. Taraji P. Henson should have been a shoe-in for that nomination and inevitable win. While I am thrilled that Hidden Figures, Moonlight, Loving, Fences, and Moana were all acknowledged, I will never understand how they justified snubbing Taraji P. Henson, Janelle Monae, and everyone else from the aforementioned movies who damn well deserve the nominations. Oscars STILL so white.

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Stay

Summer wind blows in again
Sometimes we wonder where we lost it
My good intentions were your fateful weapons
Still I’ve yet to learn my lesson
Oh oh oh
Though i don’t need much for anything
But a shady tree and a couple pours of whisky
To write my songs of love and life and loss
And just a few about you
So if you’ll hear me out

Stay with me we might never have to leave
You’re my southern king
We’re living for the day dreams
So don’t you laugh
He’s a good good man there’s something’s
he just wont understand

You know my old man is out of town for a couple days
I think that you should
Stay with me, all summer
Stay with me, under the covers
Stay with me, be my lover
Stay with me, all summer
Stay with me, under the covers
Stay with me, be my lover

So come on down i will show you how
Us mid-west boys like to party
So grab a beer and get over here
Summer straw and air don’t wait another year

Stay with me we might never have to leave
You’re my southern king
We’re living for the day dreams
So don’t get mad
Whats past is in the past
We can make this last if you just give me that chance

So when my old man is out of town for a couple days
Stay with me, all summer
Stay with me, under the covers
Stay with me, be my lover

Stay with me, all summer
Stay with me, under the covers
Stay with me, be my lover

Stay with me, all summer
Stay with me, under the covers
Stay with me, be my lover

Stay with me, all summer
Stay with me, under the covers
Stay with me, be my lover

it weirds me out when people on here try to be like “trans gay guys never grew up with any shame about their attraction to men so therefore they can’t be True gay men” or the counterpart for trans lesbians, because…… i ALWAYS had the sense that my being attracted to men was disgusting and needed to be hidden and tucked away, the only difference was i couldn’t articulate why i felt that way until i figured out i was a guy. i still deal with that now, i still feel like i can only be a good person if i date women. i was self-identifying as a lesbian since i was 11/12 because of that– i felt like i “couldn’t” like boys, or that it wasn’t allowed. my gayness will always have social, political, etc. differences by virtue of me being trans, obviously, i’ll never be a cis gay man and i’ll never fully understand a cis gay man’s experience just like a cis gay man will never understand mine, and my experiences are just a single individual’s, but it’s ignorant to assume that all trans gay men grow up with no sense of being men and no sense of being gay

i just went to the mechanic to pick up my car and the guy who worked on it spent 5 minutes telling me this long-winded story about this man who always comes in with his sons car and never knows or cares whats wrong with it and doesn’t understand any of the charges on his bill and then he goes “that’s why i always like to explain everything that appears on the bill in detail, especially, no offense, to women”…………………… i was like 

I love the fact so many people can’t spell Wednesday without going Wed-nes-day in their heads

I love the fact that so many people use Big Elephants Can Always Understand Small Elephants to spell because

I love how people use Never Eat Shredded Wheat when remembering North, East, South, West

I love how people sing the word bananas in their head when they’re writing it

I just love humans sometimes bc they are kinda cute

I don’t hate you. I loved you too much to ever hate you. I just don’t like who I became when I was with you. I am not the needy girl who finds validation in the words of a man. I am not the desperate girl who waits around for hours for a text or call. I never needed a man before you and I don’t need one now. I can’t. I still love you, I just need to find myself again.
—  I hope you understand.

listen, the first time neil replies “i love you too” after andrew says “i hate you” andrew is absolutely speechless, he just stares at neil with wide eyes, he’s never heard those words being said to him before and yet here this absolutely scarred, beautiful man, a liar, says those words to him in all honesty and andrew hates it, he hates it so much, and he hates neil and he hates this spark in his chest and he hates neil’s understanding eyes when he tells him that andrew doesn’t have to say it back, he’ll wait as long as he has to, and he hates that he is kissing neil now, putting every feeling he can’t voice into the kiss, he hates it, he hates it…

spice girls sentence starters
  • “stop right there”
  • “thank you very much”
  • “slow down and have some fun”
  • “the race is on”
  • “giving is good as long as you’re getting”
  • “what’s driving you is ambition”
  • “who do you think you are?”
  • “you’re headed in the wrong direction”
  • “never lose control”
  • “spice up your life!”
  • “all you need is positivity”
  • “too much of something is bad”
  • “something’s coming over me”
  • “love is blind as far as the eye can see”
  • “i need a friend”
  • “what part of ‘no’ don’t you understand?”
  • “too much of nothing is just as tough”
  • “i need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied”
  • “i guess we’re running out of time too fast”
  • “i want a man not a boy who thinks he can”
  • “why don’t we give it a try?”
  • “i won’t keep waiting for you”
  • “i’ll treat you right”
  • “i’ll give you everything”
  • “i decided we should be friends”
  • “take it easy”
  • “any fool can see you’re falling”
  • “just say you’ll be there”
  • “there’s no need to say you love me”
  • “i want you”
  • “friendship never ends”
  • “if you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends”
  • “forget the past”
  • “don’t waste my precious time”
  • “get your act together”
  • “we’ll be just fine”
  • “are you for real?”
  • “if you really bug me then i’ll say goodbye”
  • “you’ve got to give”
  • “come a little bit closer”
  • “don’t be a stranger”
  • “i’m tired of empty words”
  • “put it on”
  • “be a little bit wiser”
  • “goodbye, my friend”
  • “one day you’ll be able to say ‘never mind the pain’.”
  • “there’s a better way for you and me to be.”
  • “look for the rainbow in every storm”
  • “you’re gone but i can still feel you’re here”
  • “it’s not the end”
  • “i have to keep strong before the pain turns into fear”
  • “time will never change it”
  • “you’ll always be someone’s baby”
  • “love’s gonna be there for you”
  • “so glad you made it”
  • “it’s time we said goodbye”
  • “i never dreamt you’d leave.”
  • “don’t forget you can rely on me”
  • “i will be with you every day”
  • “do you remember how we used to be?”
  • “live for the moment”
  • “i’m searching for the one”
  • “i remember every word we shared”