Hey Greg. I had a drunken one night stand and I feel so disgusting and full of regret, it wasn't 'me' at all. I always swore I would only ever have sex with people I was in love with and now I feel like I've cheapened myself in some way. How do I move on from this experience?
You did what you did and you cannot take that back. It happened. You have a wild side, an uninhibited side. Don’t deny that. Don’t deny that part of you in your sober life. Get to know that part of you; it isn’t a bad thing it just is. Get to know it and let it out in your sober life and in activities that are safer than the ones you’ll do because of it in your drunken life. The more you let that part of you out and the more you acknowledge that part of you in your day-to-day life the less it’ll have to assert itself when you’re drunk.
Feel what you feel from this, the shame and the regret come from thinking you should be a certain way. You are split. You think you should be a certain way, but you aren’t. But you are you, you are perfect; no one is. Just be you and don’t deny parts of you that you were taught were bad. Embrace those parts of you and become whole.