last night i went to a lecture on prison abolition and how it’s related to disability justice and the institutionalization/incarceration of disabled people and all of this impacts communities of color, especially black folks. and then today i went to another lecture on the way injustice and police violence are targeted towards queer people of color and black women (who are often left out of the conversation).
it’s been, a lot. a lot for me to try and absorb it all and filter through. especialyl stuff about the concept of the modern asylum which i’ve only learned about recently.
but yueah like this stuff has been so good adn important and im relaly grateful these conversations are happening but it’s also been really triggering and causing me to have flashbacks/relive the police violence i’ve been through and i’ve been thinking more about that and also institutionalilzation.
and just generally these converations are triggering for me because like i want to have them but i’ts all so gfresh and i already hyperventatlate and panic every time i pass a police officer and it makes this thiings hard to talk about.