Seven Things About Supernatural: 13x01 - “Lost And Found”
Oh hey. The show’s back.
Honestly. This is mid-season or season-ender level crying happening. And shit, I am so fucking here for it.
- Jack is his father’s son. Not Lucifer’s, despite his parentage, but Castiel’s. He doesn’t understand, but he wants to. He isn’t cruel, he isn’t violent. He’s something that doesn’t fit. Both of them want guidance from a missing father. He even looks a bit like Cas, and the scenes in the police station – light bulbs exploding as he passes, being stabbed in the chest to no effect – are callbacks to Cas’ entrance in 4x01.
(He also takes after his uncle Gabriel, what with the Nougat thing. And the t-shirt is kind of an awesome nod to what Dean “sees” in him – i.e. the son of Satan – via the horns.)
But yeah. He just wants his dad. He was just looking for his dad. I wonder who that sounds like…
- Miriam – aka drunk fries angel – was a highlight. She’s merciless and damn good at her job, trailing the Winchesters to get intel while just sort of casually fucking with them. She writes “BITCH” in the dust of Baby’s back window, and she’s brutal in her fight with Dean. She knows how to make things hurt emotionally and physically, and makes decisions in the moment in ways that reminded me that I might have a very specific competence kink.
She reads Dean perfectly. Anything? Nope, Cas is dead. You want your son safe? Kill that guy and we’ll deal. I’m gonna die? Fine, but I’m taking a shot at the Nephil on the way out.
She’s absolutely not a good person, but she’s a badass in ways that are satisfying as hell to watch. Also, her actor – Carlena Britch – apparently did all of her own fight work. (She also fractured her thumb filming with Jensen, so she’s a badass IRL.)
- She also conjures up the ghost of Becky Rosen. Which…okay, I’m coming out of the text for a little bit on this one, because this was a thing that in the text is a little bit of a throwaway in the sense that we know how the angels feel about the Winchesters being a destabilizing, selfish force.
But the name Becky, that we’re supposed to hear. And she uses it, over and over, so that if we miss it the first time, we’ll catch it. And then she describes a really thoughtless, selfish person who breaks whatever she wants without concern for others in her own pursuit of satisfaction and amusement.
Guys, I think Dabb might have called the disruptive, abusive edges of fandom out for their bullshit. The ones who scream at the writers, the ones who kill the fun for other fans, the ones who are dicks at cons, etc. And that’s…fascinating? Because I know that Becky is a character a lot of folks have analyzed and tried to rehabilitate a little, even though she (and a lot of the fans portrayed in 5x09) are not a positive portrayal of fans in the same way some later portrayals are (e.g. 10x05).
And if that’s what he’s doing, that only really exists inside that scene – because we probably aren’t supposed to self-identify this way via Dean after Miriam calls him a Becky – but…
Anyway, it’s possible I’m projecting and seeing subtext where it’s not there, but I saw it the first time ‘round and in my morning rewatch and…yeah. I can’t unsee it.
- Dean’s prayer fucks me up something terrible.
“We’ve lost everything, and now you’re gonna bring him back. Okay? You’re gonna bring back Cas, you’re gonna bring back mom. You’re gonna bring ‘em all back. All of ‘em. Even Crowley. ‘Cause after everything you’ve done, you owe us, you son of a bitch. So you get your ass down here and you make this right, right here, right now.”
This isn’t the first time he’s excused himself to the back of the building to try and contact an absent father, and gone unheard. He knows how this goes. You can see it in his face. He tries to have faith. He gets nothing.
Arguably, Dean’s quarrel with Chuck in 11x21 still stands. Nothing has changed. He’s still getting screwed over by a father’s willful absence.
And then there’s this:
“We’ve lost everything, and now you’re gonna bring him back. Okay? You’re gonna bring back Cas…”
He can’t even say that Cas is dead to Sam when they go looking for Jack, but he knows it. He saw the wing prints. Miriam taunted him with it. He’s fucked-up about losing Mary yet again – evidenced by his nightmare after Jack knocks him out – but this is the loss hitting him the hardest. It’s Cas’ body that’s his to prepare, his to burn.
“You’re gonna bring back Cas, you’re gonna bring back mom. You’re gonna bring ‘em all back. All of ‘em. Even Crowley.”
(That’s not an echo of ”I love you. I love all of you.” Not at all.)
“Well goodbye, Cas…”
- And hey, if Dean’s prayer didn’t fuck you up completely, Sam teaching Jack about funerals – Jack who is an orphan now, watching both of his parents burn – is there to cause the leak in your ceiling that will pour water on your face.
“You say thank you. And you say you’re sorry. You hope they’re somewhere without sadness, pain. You hope they’re somewhere better. You say goodbye.”
Like, for all folks were complaining toward the end of Hellatus about who Sam is on the show of late – i.e. purely analytical, unfeeling – this ep was fantastic for centering him as this sort of mediating force who’s trying to work big picture despite the loss, trying to take all data into account.
And also trying not to die, because he was fucking terrified in that jail cell.
Which hey, understandable. And if we’re giving Miriam competence kink points for adusting on the fly, Sam earned his in bulk. Plus, he totally headbutted an angel. So hey. Sam fucking Winchester.
- Actually, let’s just take a second to laugh about how scary Jack both is and isn’t. Because he’s not doing most of the exotic, terrifying things on purpose. He just does them when he’s scared. And he knows almost nothing about his abilities, but he’s learning what he can as fast as he can after “growing up fast” as per his mother’s recommendation.
His sense of self seems kind of nebulous. He “was” Kelly, though we don’t really know what he means by that exactly. When he uses his powers he feels somehow disconnected from them.
And he gets hungry and the lights flicker we’re all like, “OH SHIT CLARK,” and then nope, he’s just magically stealing candy from the vendo. And he feels really badly about frightening and hurting Clark and Sheriff Barker.
He’s still figuring out shoes, y’all. Shoes.
- So I can’t help but notice that Sam doesn’t share the Castiel-as-Jack’s-father bombshell with Dean. Which, uh, I debated leaving as a bonus thing, or rolling into #5, but I think it’s significant enough to mention on its own, because this is a) kind of a big fucking deal with regard to understanding Jack, and b) kind of a serious fucking omission on Sam’s part.
Which…historically….well, Sam does that a lot. And he usually has a reason, but it also usually has consequences, so batten down the hatches for that, I suppose.
Bonus Thing: Sheriff Barker is a gift. I mean, she got the talk basically right out of the gate, and she advocates on behalf of people others call crazy or strange, and I kind of hope we see her again.
Bonus Thing 2: Hey, are we still using Baby as a gauge for Dean’s wellbeing? Because, uh…she needs some TLC.
Bonus Thing 3: There is a moment during the Miriam v. Dean fight that is fucking amazing blink-and-you’ll-miss-it physical comedy. He picks up a hat tree, she smashes the end off, then smashes it in half, and Dean does this cartoon panic and tosses the pieces up in the air.
Like, seriously. I need to learn to gif for moments like that.
Bonus Thing 4: The universe screamed at Dagon’s death. Presumably it did at Ramiel’s and Azazel’s, too? Guess that’s how Asmodeus gets the memo…