i wasnt actually going to post this

So apparently Jungkook has a personal Instagram

This is the instagram account in question (Update: I guess I will update this for those who find this post days or weeks after. The account was a fake, it was found that this person has created fake accounts before. As you can see they have deleted their account, this is mainly because they had 100k plus followers, most followers from a popular bts info youtuber who made a video about it but without doing real research and having the comments disabled so most people believed it was jungkook’s real account and were DMing it. I think the main reason for deleting the acc was probably that the studiobillybean instagram were they stole the location pictures from ended up finding out about the fake account and in turn started posting BTS pictures. Shortly after the fake account deactivated their account. 

It’s sad that there are people who create accounts like this, there is another fake jungkook acc that posted an instagram story pretending to be jungkook singing but in fact it was an audio from an old bts radio interview. There’s also a fake Yoongi personal Acc. I have learn’t alot and I won’t be making a post like this again anytime soon…. I have come to realise that some army’s are just…..sPeCiAl.) 

it has 6 posts, apparently Wkskkk on the hangul keyboard is equivalent to Jeonaaa (i don’t know korean so…) the account has also written I miss you on Jungkook’s brother’s post of the dog. (I’m not going to lie, I have written I miss you Jungkook, when he hadn’t posted a selfie in a while so…yeah)

But note, the I miss you on the dog is kinda important, remember that.

Before I did some searching, they were a few things that didn’t add up. 

1. Jungkook is the member who is least active on social media so for a member to have a account like this, Jungkook would be the last person I would think.

 2. Let’s assume Jungkook has a personal account like this, he has a high definition camera that takes high quality pictures.

Exibit a: Taken by Jungkook.

Even if he used his phone, the pictures would not come out that low quality. So, my conclusion before searching was that maybe it’s a member of staff with a bad camera. Oh, how wrong I was….

Firstly, I image searched the pictures posted and let’s start with the Puma pictures.

These are the ones posted on the instagram account:

When I imaged search the second picture I ended up on this website. 

 It has a lot of pictures on the day when they were shooting for puma.

Notice the difference in quality, these pictures are hd, so i’m guessing the person used a filter.

Let’s talk about this jikook post. The exact same picture can be found on Bon Voyage 2.

This is selfie Jungkook himself hasn’t posted in full quality we only have this preview. This would explain why the picture is posted 4 times, because it’s small and why it’s in black and white.

This picture we have all seen it. They put a filter to make it look low quality.

Heres a better quality version.

Now I’m going to move on to the picture of the dog.

This to me, looks creepy because from my prospective it looks like a picture taken from outside a door or window..i don’t know. I google searched it and there was no match found. So, this could mean there is a picture for this dog somewhere it just wasnt found by google image search or maybe this is the only actual picture taken by this person of the dog. Remember that post where his person said I miss you on Jungkook’s brother’s instagram. That was a picture of the same dog. 

I searched the other pictures of the wall, buildings and stuff but there were no matches found there. This was the only match found and it was other korean instagram’s of sorts. 

Edit: All the pictures of the wall, tree and with the radiator are all taken from this instagram account. 

So, I would assume this person is Korean but I don’t think it is Jungkook nor a member of staff. Just a fan of Jungkook. But you never know I could be wrong. This is just what I found. 

(I’m going to tag @kookminworld0507   and @myriam1457-blog  because I wouldn’t have even known about the acccount if it wasn’t for your posts. 

Also, i do believe that BTS members have personal social media accounts it’s just I highly doubt this one is actually Jungkook’s.

also on ao3


It’s like a fire spreading from his chest, painful and unbearable. It consumes his lungs and he can feel his breath coming out in short, stutter-y gasps. He clutches his chest with one hand while the other grips his throat. A choked sound escapes him as the tears start flowing.

It’s all overwhelming — he can’t think clearly and he just — he needs to calm down.

But he can’t.

Because when the fiery hand of fear had placed its hold on him before, he wasn’t alone in those times. While his hands would shake, Jeremy would grip them with his own and lessen the trembles. He’d wipe away his tears and tell him that it would soon pass. He would say that he would be okay, and that he would be here for him, always.

Except in this moment, he isn’t. Michael is alone and sobbing into his sweatshirt as the chill from the porcelain bathtub seeps into him.

It’s quiet and somewhere in the back of his panic-stricken mind he finds this odd. He’s at a party with loud music and equally loud people, which he should be able to hear from the other side of the door. He can make out one sound, though, and as he focuses on it, he realizes that it’s his name he hears.

Michael? Michael!

It sounds like -

“Jeremy!” he gasps, sitting up from the bed he’s in.

Bed. He’s in a bed, not in a bathroom sobbing. After rubbing a hand over his face, he quickly realizes he actually is crying.

He jumps when a hand lands on his shoulder.

“Are you okay? You were crying in your sleep…” Jeremy says.

Michael glances at him and sees the concern written all over his face. He looks away and responds, “Yeah, it was just a bad dream, which you could probably tell. It’s no big deal.”

He doesn’t say anything else and goes to lay back down when Jeremy’s response stops him.

“What was it about?”

He sits up fully and debates for a second. Should he tell him? He doesn’t want to keep anything from Jeremy, but he doesn’t want to make him feel guilty.

He can’t meet Jeremy’s eyes as he says, “It was about that night…”

“That night?”

“Yeah, at the party. In the bathroom. After you — I was panicking; you were gone and — yeah. That night.”

There’s a beat of silence, no one moving, until he suddenly feels arms around him and Jeremy’s face pressed against his back.

“I’m here now,” he hears Jeremy say, muffled slightly.

Michael feels a spark of anger or worry or something, and he puts his head in his hands, causing his voice to come out muffled too.

“But for how long? What if something happens and you leave me again? I don’t — I don’t know what I would do.” he admits.

Jeremy holds him tighter and stays quiet. It isn’t until Michael hears a sniffle that he realizes that Jeremy is crying.

“Jeremy, are you…are you crying? Why are you crying? What did I do?”

“That’s just it, Michael. You didn’t do anything.” Jeremy’s voice becomes more frantic. “I did. I messed up. I called you a loser and left you there. Who does that to the person they care about? I love you and yet here I am, the reason you’re having nightmares and crying in your sleep. I don’t know if I can ever forgive my-”

“Jeremy, Jeremy. I love you, too.”

Jeremy only holds on tighter and sobs.


Sunlight streams through the slit of Jeremy’s bedroom window curtains, warming Michael as he wakes up.

The first thing he sees is Jeremy, eyes closed and lying curled up close to him. His breathing is even and his face looks impossibly peaceful. Michael can’t help but trace a finger along the edge of his face lightly, taking in the sight.

It’s not long before Jeremy begins stirring, eyes slowly opening and looking at Michael.

“So…what’s, uh, up?”

Michael laughs softly at Jeremy’s usual awkward nature, but quickly turns serious when he looks Jeremy in the eyes and says, “I meant it, what I said. I love you, too.”

“Even after I ignored you?”

“I love you.”

“Even after I called you a loser?”

“I love you.”

“Even after I -”

Michael doesn’t let him finish as he cuts him off with a quick, soft kiss.

“It might still hurt when I think of it all, but I know you aren’t the same person then, and that it wasn’t even really you. I know you’re sorry. And I forgive you because I love you.”

Jeremy looks like he’s about to start crying, but he’s smiling and grabbing Michael’s hand, threading their fingers together.

“I love you, too.”

They’re both smiling at each other now, teary eyed and sleepy in the late morning sun. Michael feels a warmth spreading throughout his body, and everything feels okay. He knows Jeremy isn’t going to leave him again. He’s not alone.

funny thing i wrote out all this shit in the tag of an anti jonerys post and realised well actually i’d rather have it out in a post so i can read it properly so here it is (plus elaborated/edited ofc):

i dont hate dany. i quite like her. i’m actually so interested in where she goes from here on out, but yeah dany x jon dont make much sense – narratively or politically. in fact, instead of them being too different (as per the post i was actually responding to) i’d argue that they’re too alike to work. both are hotheaded, emotional, stubborn and really fucking dumb when it comes to politics. jon marrying dany would literally be sooo bad. two rulers who dont understand how to play the political game. and if dany’s answer to everything is the threat of violence or actual violence – well is she really a fucking hero?? wasnt the whole point of the lannisters and cersei in particular supposed to show that ruling through fear is not only going to lead to revolt and chaos but that it’s also the most black and white display of evil vs good in game of thrones? putting the lannisters aside, that was the downfall of aerys II (the mad king) as well. 

i don’t doubt that dany has a good heart. she means well and she wants to save the little people, but she can free slaves and arrest the corrupted all she wants. when it comes to actually leading, she’s proven to be quite useless. she doesn’t understand how to keep a city running. but because she is so proud, emotionally-driven and hotheaded, she uses force to keep the peace, which is an oxymoron. 

and jon. the boy is a great leader without a doubt. he understands warfare and strategy. but the political game that is westeros? not a chance. like dany, he’s too emotionally-driven. he has a clear idea of right and wrong, and for him, there is only one choice and one path, which isn’t always the smoothest path. politics is a huge part of this world. you have to learn to play it or else you’ll die. honour and heart gets you nowhere. look at what happened to ned and robb. 

putting jon and dany together?? what kind of rule would that be? i mean in any other fantasy world that’s less horrific, that would definitely be the ship of all ships. opposites coming together. but this story is about the game of thrones. it’s rooted in politics as well as those fantastical elements we love, like heroic deeds and honour and bravery and chivalry. but it also shows that heroes can fall because this world is unforgiving to those who cant play the game, which means that jon and dany simply don’t make any sense. 

just my opinion. what do you guys think?


im so tired of staying awake…but too terrified to sleep

( heres a song i was listening to when i was drawing this x )

It keeps bothering me that they decided to show that galra shield in Sendak’s ship to the audience through Keith, when they could very well have used Shiro or Allura, people we know has a past with the Galra empire, or even Sendak himself.

Okay, that sounded confusing, so let me try to elaborate. English is not my first language, so it will be a bit hard.

On the first episode, after Shiro and Pidge casually ditched Keith to his own luck on finding Red, we see him running around until he find himself in a… A…

He has two paths to go and doesn’t know which one to take.

You know, this

Now, the composition on this scene is interesting. You have the galra symbol hovering above Keith, who is right in the middle. It’s almost like it is pointing at him. 

Scratch that, the whole scene seems to be pointing at Keith in this one. No matter where you look, the lines take you back to our favorite Red Paladin. 

And then, this happens.

His whole body language changes when he sees it. He straightens his back, his arm falls to his side and I do wish I had HQ screencaps of this moment, but I don’t, so bear with my rushed kisscartoon misery.

And then he actually stares at it.

He stares at it for sometime, and only stops when he hears the galra soldier coming. His whole expression is… I don’t know how to put it. fucking language barriers, dude. If I were to name it anything, it’s almost of somewhat familiarity. 

As if he’s seen it before.

And then we see his expression changes yet again as he hears the soldier approaching and remembers why he’s there.

And not once the galra symbol leaves the screen in this brief moment. It’s always there, pointing at Keith, above Keith, on Keith’s visor…

Now, after three years hearing my teachers saying over and over again that nothing in animation is there just because, that everything was throughout planned to be there and be the way it is, I can’t help but wonder what were dreamworks and studio mir’s intentions with this one.

I mean, there’s the obvious one: to show the viewers one of the shields of the Galra Empire. To know that, whenever this symbol and others similar to this appear, it means that it’s related to the Galra in one way or another.

The thing is… Why do it through Keith, out of all the characters?

They could have done it earlier with Shiro’s flashback, as he remembered that he was in that ship before, at one point of his time as a slave from the galra empire. 

They could have done it with Sendak, since, you know, it’s his fucking ship.

They could have done it even with Allura, when Sendak first contacted the castle, and she could have recognized the symbol from the time Altea was being attacked.

But they made the deliberate choice to do it through Keith’s eyes.

They sat down in a room, discussed over this scene, made the storyboard, and decided that showing a Galra symbol through Keith, going even as far as keeping the reflection on his helmet’s visor when there were very few other times they used reflection to show anything in this show.

And here’s my guess on their not-so-obvious reason on to why they made this choice:

They want us to associate the galra with Keith, even if in the back of our minds.

The last time I saw a show giving this sort of hint was in the really fucking good anime Erased. In the op, for a very brief moment, you see the reflection of the killer in the shattered glass.

It’s not a really obvious reflection, for you still have a hard time associating the face with any named characters before the great and majestically composed reveal. And it lasts not even a second, so, unless you’re an obsessed theorist who lives in a shack in the desert and went through the op frame by frame, you barely notice it.

But is enough for you to make out a black suit, and now it’s imprinted in your mind that you cannot trust the man in the black suit.

SPOILER: And, as it turned out, the only character who used a black suit in a regular basis was the killer.

And just like in Erased they wanted you to associate black suit with the antagonist through the reflection, I feel like Voltron is trying to do something similar in here with Keith.

They aren’t straight out telling us, but they aren’t exactly keeping it from us. At a first glance, it’s just another in between scene before Keith gets to his lion.

But when you put it together with all the other slightly more obvious pieces of evidence…

… I dare to say it’s a quite brilliant hint.

TL;DR: Either Keith is a galra and they want us to associate one of the galra symbols directly to him as a hint, or I’m going completely crazy here.

reioka  asked:

*gasp* What about Tony with 12A?????! :D

Oh gosh hahaha I wasnt actually going to draw right now - I need to go find that post ! But I guess I wanna try if you’re askin ;)

anonymous asked:

can you summarize why lucas is a piece of shit all I know is that everybody hates him

Lucas is my ex I started dating in 2015. He lied to me throughout our entire relationship, lied about being korean, disabled and talked to his exes behind my back telling him i was gross. He spread images of me discussing my sexual abuse. when i tried cutting him off he messaged my rapist saying “izaya just dumped me hes all yours have fun with him”. He called my jewish girlfriend fake black and called her a lizard as an insult which is what nazis call Jewish people.

He stalked us for a year after and started dating his current bf who he constantly scares and berates nonstop. he created an “izaya shrine” when my sisters were sending him anon hate which had gore and rape porn on it and my sister saw it.

he got a large friend group on discord and had them all talking shit about and making fun of me and my girlfriend and gave my old address out to them. he then created the blogs 70x and shizuoanon pretending to be asian and constantly saying chink and retard, and bragged in discord servers about following me on those accounts (and all my mutuals) he made shizuoanon to send me flirtatious messages even tho he was dating someone.

he told all his friends my callout for him was shopped then denied saying that to them which was his fucking downfall because he said this publicly, so his friends were like “wtf you told us it was shopped!” and he started saying publicly that he tried to tell his friends it wasnt shopped but they didnt listen.

his friends became wary of him. me and him messaged each other and i told him i just wanted to fucking move on and if he stopoed talking about me id never talk about him again or contact him because i was fucking tired. he agreed.

then a few days later in his discord he started mocking me with his friends again. and his bf messaged me and told me. i confronted Lucas telling him off. he proceeded to throw ALL HIS FRIENDS, that fucking defended him and stood up to me for him, under the bus and said that all of them started it and basically forced him into mocking me. specifically Joker Hatelust.

mysteriously enough right after this, a keysmash url private messaged me with screenshots of someone with their discord name set as Joker saying “IM THE ONE WHO STARTED TALKING ABOUT LISA I ADMIT IT!” and it looked pretty convincing (the keysmash url was lucas btw obviously)

I posted hatelusts selfies making fun of him because i thot he started it, and someone messaged me who was actually friends with hatelust and he was saying he wasnt even talking during that and that hes actually terrified of me (lol) and would never say shit like that and his discord and icon werent even the same as the screens…

so i posted the screen of him throwing all his friends under the bus. and also that was the night me and amar got absolutely shit faced so this part is very blurry, but after i posted the screen a keysmash url messaged me again (it wasnt ronnie this time lol) saying they were in ronnies friend groups server and that shit was going DOWN and that everyone was freaking out at him for lying. then he admitted all of the callout was real. and everyone lost it at him. His bf confronted him about the shizuoanon blog and he admitted making both to stalk and hit on me.

then he deleted “attempted suicide” by “overdosing” ON 7 BENADRYLS LIKE BITCH THATS WHAT I TAKE ON A LAX DAY BITCH THATS A FUCKING APPETIZER LMAO HE THOT 7 WOULD KILL HIM and then he lied and said the benadryl made him literally pass out on the floor. then he remade everything over and over and here we are.

anonymous asked:

hey i just kinda wanted to share. so a while back i thought i might be romance repulsed, so i followed you, and i didnt relate to all of the posts but. the aro community, and the romance repulsed aro community... they were both so accepting and hey! it turned out i wasnt romance repulsed, and i even got a girlfriend, and maybe it WAS because i was too young or something, but i'm so glad all of that happened. i cant even imagine having no community to go to during that time. people say kids (1)

cant identify as aro or shit bc theyre too young but between having an actual accepting community to go to and thinking im just… alone and weird when everybody around me was gushing about crushes? well, you get the picture. I just wanted to say thanks. I (platonically) love all of you

this is the sweetest thing, thank you for sending this!! i’m so happy the communities were able to help you out :D you are totally right, everyone should have an accepting, safe, welcoming community to go to when they’re lost. i’ll always do my best to make this blog exactly that.

“Her.” PT2 - Evgeni Malkin

Requested - Yes plenty of times sorry it took long i have been trying to make it longer and better.

Warnings - Same as last ones :)

My heart was happy for the first time in a long time, I have finally gotten everything that i have wanted. Him. I watched him as he slept , not in a creepy way but in an adoring way. His chest going up and down so content. My love for him heightened even more when i couldnt help but think about Her. How must she had felt the moment he dropped the bomb on her.

The pain she must have felt when her long time boyfriend said he was in love with another. If he even told her at all to begin with. Seeing the post of the one you love with another hurts. I should know.

“You look like youre in deep thought.” Evgeni woke up and was staring at me with a warm smile. His voice was so hoarse and deep it was the thing that made me fall in love with him.

“Did you tell her at all? or did she have to find out through a post?” i asked not returning the smile but returning a frown instead.

“Of course i told her Y/N.. I know i have been cold but she deserves the right way to know.” He sat up and proceeded to tell me how he told her.

Evgenis POV

-10 hours earlier-

I stood outside her door for 5 minutes. She was hurt and seeing her hurt made me hurt. I never thought about how she would react to when this was all too much for her. This was something i didnt want to get to but it had to happen sooner or later.

Finally leaving her home i went for a drive, a long drive where i had to think about what i needed to do next. Kara or Y/N there wasnt even a choice but the fact i had to choose wasnt what i wanted. I never wanted to have to choose between a woman i used to love and one that i do now.

I pulled up to Karas house and waited. Why was i here,What am i doing right now. i thought to myself ‘ this is probably what it felt like to her, not knowing if she still loved me after i left.’ 

Next thing i knew i was out of my car and in the doorway , i knocked on it lightly. Right when she opened the door i felt my heart sink. It was time to tell her what i did that was so wrong.

“G? what are you doing here?” she asked standing in a robe waiting for me to enter the house. “Get in here its cold.”

I walked in not saying a word making my way to the kitchen sitting in the bar stool. I watched as she sat next to me ready for a conversation. I looked her in the eyes and thought to myself ‘Be a little heartless but care enough to not hurt her.’

“I am in love with someone else.” Thats not what i expected to come out of my mouth. I look over at her and waited for her response, nothing, she was blank. She almsot looked hallow.

“I hate to say this, but i kind of figured that out already.” She looked down at her hands messing with her fingers. “I knew for a bit, but i didnt say anything because i didnt want it to be true. because i do love you.”

I looked at her with a saddened face as she sadly smiled at me. This wasnt what i wanted to make her feel like on the last night of being with her. Her emotions were inevitable it was bound to happen this way anyways.

“I am sorry. Its been hard and i didn-” before i could finish she cut me off by taking my hand.

“I know you didnt mean to hurt me, but it was going to happen this way anyway and its not going to change the way i see you G.”

-10 hours later-

“She was very understanding. shes actually the one who told me to post the picture.” I spoke taking Y/Ns hand holding it between the both of mine. She stared at me the whole time smiling happy on how everything turned out. But i lied, it wasnt as nice as i said it was. it was worse. No woman would be happy about hearing that the one they love has been loving someone else. but Y/n didnt need to know that. She was already in pain from the blows she took last night. She cant have the truth right now but i know this lie will haunt me because its only a matter of time before the truth really comes out.


I finally did a group of more spring inspired outfits! Even though in the spring/summer I still basically wear the same amount of layers and I’d never be comfortable in real life wearing some of these more simple or short sleeved ones, it’s okay to just take pictures in them ehehe~ Sorry for the camera quality, I tried to edit and remedy the grainyness as much as possible lol.  It’s actually really hard for me to make more simplified outfits, but I tried! Read the captions for more detail~ Literally every single item is thrifted except for a few tights and shoes which are all from ebay. ✧⁺⸜(●′▾‵●)⸝⁺✧

i mean, they said that sarah had cancer, right? but they never showed any kind of doctor appointments or any pre or post-op scenes from her surgery. and isnt it kinda strange that she left the country for her surgery? why would she need to do that unless there wasnt something to hide??? debbie had been begging for money for the surgery, so its possible that this money was used but for what??? and debbie didn’t do go with her own daughter, who she says she loves but we don’t know if that’s actually true, for a life saving surgery? 

and then liv’s mom conveniently gets “hurt” and liv has to leave the village to see her. but we never actually saw her get hurt and the only proof we have is the phone call that chas got. but if liv supposedly has such a bad relationship with her mom, then why would she leave? 

i find it interesting that in both these cases, chas went with them. she left the country TWICE in less than 3 months…..hmm that’s pretty suspicious to me? and the phone call chas supposedly got from liv’s mom’s friend? maybe it could mean something?? she could’ve been lying about the phone call and was actually talking to no one or some mystery person on the other end. i’m not entirely sure yet

my theory is that chas is using the money from sarah’s fake cancer to set up a new home with liv in another country and will eventually kidnap aaron! we’ll see though, keep out on the lookout for more clues 🔍🔍🔍


here it is in the box still!!!! these are reposts from instagram and once i get my phone back ill post everything out of the box!

everything was in really good condition and testing the controller on my pc showed the right yellow button having an issue but hopefully it doesnt stay that way on the ps2! the card came with everything and it looks cool so i might just keep it as a decoration or something qwq

i knew the controller wasnt going to be arcade sized obviously, but i didnt expect it to be so tiny!!! its kinda cute actually! the buttons are really sensitive though,, i didnt expect that either, but ill try and get used to it i guess!!!

anyway the wait is finally over and i finally have an actual, physical copy of a popn game + a controller!!!!!! BD

We’re a different pair, do something out of step.
Throw a stranger an unexpected smile…with big intention.
Still posted at your station.
Always on about the day it should have flied. 

I was watching this mep and I got an idea >:) i think i went blind adding that lighting effect though

anonymous asked:

So I saw an anti sj*m post that said that Rhysand "repeatedly molests [feyre]" and "sexually assaults her" and "takes her hostage on a regular basis". And um.. When was she assaulted??? She had the paint on her body so she would know she wasnt assaulted??? And she agreed to the bargain to go to the night court??? Like what?????? And she was actually calling for help when she took him sooooo...?????

I have…a lot of feelings about this, which I will try to communicate here. 

I will say that the only time Rhys does something really, truly shit to Feyre UtM is the drugging. He thinks this is the right thing, but it’s not, and we can all agree that that takes away her agency and is…not okay in any sense. He takes away that choice from her. We can understand why he did it—to protect her—but we can also be critical of it. 

I…pretty much disagree entirely with the assertion that he molests her repeatedly. As you mention, he paints her boy she she knows she hasn’t been assaulted—something necessitated by the environment she is in and the fact that she doesn’t trust him. And he wants to give her a reason to/he wants to demonstrate to her, beyond a shadow of a doubt that she hasn’t been touched by him or anyone. This…to me anyways, demonstrates that Rhys has intimate knowledge of what it’s like to be used and sexually assaulted and he just wants to make sure Feyre doesn’t go through that? Like as a survivor himself Rhys knows, really well, what it’s like to feel as if you aren’t in control of your own body and the body paint = him giving her some modicum of control over a situation that she would otherwise be a complete victim in. 

In terms of taking her hostage…well…yes there is the bond. However, I find it fairly impossible to talk about this without us considering what is at stake for Rhys UtM: he has been being sexually abused and controlled for 50 years and Feyre is his only glimmer of hope. Sure, it’s not…all that awesome how he manipulates the bond from her but shit, I think that at a certain point we have to image how this story would be told from his pov? And the sense of desperation he might feel? And the…psychological damage he has endured over the years? So i see the bond as him…ensuring he has a chance with his mate if they survive. Idk if I begrudge him that or not but I can see how this narrative is unpalatable to some— which is fine (and I think he admits somewhere that the bond was selfish? anyone have a citation for this?). But essential to the plot of the entire acotar series is that Rhys is presented as the evil one/Tamlin is presented as the golden boy and then the roles are reversed. Not because they fundamentally change  as people but because what Feyre needs changes. She needs someone like Rhys after UtM—someone who is willing to do risky things to help her heal. Someone who pushes her. The moral of the story is not, i don’t think, that Rhys should be forgiven, rather, the moral is that Feyre forgives him because she understands why he does what he does, and she falls in love with all of him—even his faults. He apologizes for his actions UtM (specifically the kiss) and he atones by ensuring that they have equal power. Rhys is…not a squeaky clean hero, nor do I think he is meant to be. His actions are often ruthless, but Feyre ends up falling in love with him anyways. And…idk maybe not everyone likes that type of story, and it is certainly a dark love story but it is one that ends with the hero/heroine united in equal power and ability to rule so I’m down with it. 

Being a victim of something doesn’t give you the right to treat others poorly but I do think that when we consider Feyre and Rhys UtM we have to consider that they are both subject to the same abuser (Amarantha) and Rhys is doing everything he can to get them out—and doing everything he can means acting like an asshole a lot of the time. He is expected to be a horrible person, so he does, in fact, act like it most of the time. really well. So much so that he does actual horrible things. The allure of his character is the unflinching honesty I think—he does the terrible things without apology and because he deems them necessary. (”We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful of what we pretend to be”- Kurt Vonnegut). 

NOW in terms of the TIME HE ACTUALLY CALLS IN THE BOND!!! Feyre was begging someone to help her. She consents to being taken. She wants his help. She doesn’t want to get married, and he helps make that happen. He takes her to a safe place. And then he continues to take her to a safe place and give her the tools for survival. And then, when she is trapped in the house of her abuser and close to breaking, he orchestrates her rescue with Mor’s help and takes her somewhere she will be safe. And tells her that she can stay forever. Like….idk what else to say? No one at the spring court would help her. Literally no one (Alis would but isn’t strong enough). I…fail to see how we can think of that as violating her in any way. She does not want to be trapped, locked up, or married to Tamlin. 

And…in regards to their actual sexual relations? They are nothing but consensual. And he takes care of her and makes sure it’s good for her as well. He’s a really good sexual partner tbh so….tldr; i can see room for criticism of how Rhys treats Feyre UtM and some readers are able to forgive him the way Feyre does but some readers are unable to and that’s fine and cool but the ones who can forgive him are not wrong ya know?

anonymous asked:

your mud fic looked super interesting who are the characters? ~ts-virgil-angst

tHiS wAs oN mY mAiN

i apologize for my constant shit posting there

but basically the girl is going to be the same girl from my future original story hopefully?? i havent developed much for her but shes gonna be trying her best at being more confident 

rowan wasnt really anyone i just needed a name so it was more interesting but yea h