Patience and Locked Doors
Based off this prompt
Summary: Phil has a panic attack and locks himself in the bathroom refusing to come out. Dan sits outside the door and texts or something trying to calm him. After he finally calms Phil down, Phil unlocks the door and they cuddle.
Genre: fluff (maybe a lil angst? not much tho)
Word Count: 973
A/N: wow I’ve been sitting on this one for like a week and I’ve just been too lazy to post it but idk here you go its like sort of angsty but mostly fluff tbh
Dan is sitting in the lounge, waiting for Phil to finish in the shower so he can straighten his hair before starting to film. It’s been forty minutes since he got in, but it’s not unheard of for Phil to sit in his towel playing iPhone games for an hour after he gets out. Dan really doesn’t want to rush him, but a video is more important than a new high score on crossy road, so he gets up and knocks on the bathroom door.
“Phil, are you almost done? I want to do my hair and then film.”
Dan’s sure Phil heard him, but there’s no reply from inside the bathroom.
“Phil? Did you hear me?”
Dan listens carefully, and though it’s quiet, he thinks he can hear faint sobbing coming from behind the door.
He knocks and calls more urgently. "Phil? Are you alright?“
Dan is getting worried. Phil never ignores him, and the sobs are growing more clear. Unsure of what else to do, Dan gently calls out, "Phil, I’m coming in.” Not hearing a response, he reaches for the doorknob and starts to turn it. To his dismay, the door is locked.
Dan is stumped. He can clearly hear his boyfriend crying in the bathroom, but the door is locked and there’s nothing he can do to open that door. He sighs and starts to walk away. He makes it to the doorway into the lounge, and then something catches his eye.
Immediately, an idea pops into Dan’s mind. He quickly grabs the phone, and with it in his hand, runs back to the locked bathroom. Hoping that it fits, he gets on his knees and puts the phone in front of the door. Dan holds his breath, and slides the phone under the door. It fits, and he exhales in relief.
Now comes the hard part.
Dan unlocks his own phone and sends a short text to Phil.
Are you okay love?
As it sends, Dan hears the simple music play as Phil receives the text. All he can do now is wait, and hope Phil is able to reply.
A minute passes and then Dan’s phone buzzes.
S care d
Dan wants to cry. Phil had had a panic disorder a few years ago. Dan thought he had gotten better. He certainly stopped having three panic attacks a week. But this doesn’t matter. Phil is lying on the bathroom floor, crying and shaking and hyperventilating and probably thinking that he is dying and all Dan can think is oh god I have to help him but he can’t help him because the door is locked and Dan has always been there next to Phil when he as his attacks. Dan is clueless as to calming Phil down without being there to hold him and whisper reassurances into his ear. This can’t stop him from trying, though, and so he takes a deep breath and texts Phil.
What’s scaring you? Is it something, someone, or just panic? I want to help <3
Don’t k niw jsu t real yl scar ed
Seeing this, Dan’s heart breaks a little. His poor boyfriend doesn’t deserve to be this way.
Is there anything I can do? I just want you to feel better
Ta kl ple as e
Talk. Dan can do that.
He hits the small microphone icon and speaks into his phone, “I love you, Phil. Don’t ever forget that. I know you’re scared right now, and I know you feel like you’re never going to stop feeling like this, but just remember that you’ve done this before and you’ve gotten through it and I love you a lot. I’ll never stop loving you. Just think about that. My love for you is a solid thing. It will never change, so focus on it. Let it ground you. You’ll feel better soon, I swear.”
The audio message sends, and Dan can hear Phil playing it through the door. He hopes it’s good enough.
Replay that as much as you need. I love you so much, Phil, I can hardly contain it. I know you can get through this.
Dan sits opposite the bathroom door, and waits for a text from Phil that something else is needed. He isn’t sure what else he can do, but he knows that he’ll do anything to make Phil feel better.
Ten minutes later, Dan is starting to get worried again. He hasn’t heard from Phil, and he doesn’t know what that could mean. He stands up, and is about to knock on the door when he hears a click and then sees the door open.
“Phil! Are you alright? I was so worried about you!” Dan is still worried, not knowing what the aftermath will be like.
Phil smiles gently, and envelops Dan in a tight hug, which he is happy to reciprocate.
“Thank you so much for helping me out. I love you so much,” Phil mumbles into Dan’s shoulder.
“All I did was tell you the truth, silly.” Dan kisses Phil softly on the forehead.
The pair stay like this for a long time, hugging tightly and not saying a word. Eventually, Dan whispers to Phil, “You know, we should probably eat something. It’s 9:30 now. Do you want to order takeaway and watch a movie?”
Phil smiles. "Yeah. I’d love that.“