i was supposed to post this on the other blog i'm so stupid

anonymous asked:

Quit with the victim complex. You wrote a ridiculously shitty character bashing fic where you turned the entire GotG into a Tony Defence Squad just so you could hate on every other character to prop up your woobie fave. It was ridiculous so it got ridiculed. And they were nice enough to do it in a separate blog away from your fic or your posts. If you enjoy writing toxic character hate fics, you need to suck it up and deal with the backlash to the toxicity. And no I'm not on that thread.

okay, fucknuts, listen up here, because I’m going to teach you an important lesson on How To Be A Nice Person.

You’re not the first person to come into my inbox and talk shit on anon. you won’t be the last. lucky for me, I don’t do anything extreme when faced with this. but you know what? seeing that a few nights ago, while I was supposed to be enjoying myself on holiday, ended up triggering my depression and general self-doubt in a way Id managed to avoid for weeks. it’s bad, you shithole, it’s fucking bad.

thing is, you don’t know how much it affects someone. you don’t know anything about them. you have no idea how much writing means to me, how important it is to me to keep me happy, and how seriously I could react if faced with something as truly horrible as what I saw. you ever have someone take something you love and put effort into, and then tear it down in front of them? and then add others into the mix so they can do the same?

it sucks, you gormless fucking bellend. it really really sucks. And they’re goddamn fucking lucky that I’m not liable to do anything dangerous because of it.

I don’t give a fuck if you don’t like it, or agree with it!!! I don’t give a fucking halfarse if you think it’s out of character or sick or wrong of whatever- I wrote that months and months ago to self indulge bc that’s the whole fucking point of writing. it satisfied me because I was bitter and I love both the gotg/ Tony, so I thought, why the fuck not. you don’t get to police the content on here. you don’t get to decide whether it’s // worthy // or not.

if they didn’t like it, they could have literally just blocked me, walked away. talked about me on messenger to all their other shitty anti friends. that would have been fine. you know why? because people are entitled to their opinions and sometimes people will hate content they see.

but you know what they did instead? They screenshotted it without my consent or permission, posted on to an account specifically built to hate things and then laughed at it with all their followers. they meticulously tore down every piece of it. called me worthless and stupid and every name under the sun. and you know what- they didn’t even have the balls to reblog it directly from me. and you fucking piece of human garbage, you’re telling me that was NICE? nice????????? show me the receipts please bc I ain’t seeing it???

I’m not sure if you know this, but sometimes YOU WILL SEE THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE! Wild, I know! sometimes you will literally hate it with all your being! I know I do!

but you know what I, or any even vaguely decent person would do? I’d MOVE ON. because even if it’s the worst pile of garbage I’ve ever seen, I would never, EVER do what they did to me. Content is content, and they fucking put effort into it. they put time and love into it, and no one deserves to have that turned against them. no one.

(I literally cannot believe you called them nice hold on give me a moment I’m still processing that.)

you’re a scummy little knobhead for doing this. they all are. it’s not funny, it’s not fucking edgy. it was cruel and it was needless and it was the most horrible thing that has ever happened to me on tumblr. I cried for the first time in months after seeing that, and now I’m scared to put content out. I’m hesitant.

but you are fucking delusional if you think it’s gonna stop me. I have at least ten amazing, great fics in my Google docs, and it’s going to be awesome. I have a passion and it’s never ever going to be something I’m ashamed of. it’s more than you could do, sitting there behind your screen and deciding to try and make other people miserable. I hope you grow up soon. I really do. you’re gonna live a really fucking sad life otherwise.

fucking twat.

Thank you guys for going on this journey with me, the triplets and all the other characters I met in these almost two years.

I really enjoyed drawing those dorks and interact with other people, I even got the chance to meet new people that later became my friends in real life.

But here is the thing…

What was once supposed to be a just-for-fun blog where I could draw stupid mini comics and lovely happy dorks became a toxic place.
It’s like I really want to keep going on but there is this giant blockade that drains all my joy from drawing BroAU content.
No matter what I draw, there is always that bothering feeling of “Oh, who do you gonna trigger this time?”, “Who is going to feel disappointed/sad/betrayed now?”

I don’t care what a random anon says
but people I know better, maybe even called friends…
their words indeed affect me. In a positive or negative way.

People are always saying “You can do whatever you want, it’s YOUR blog and YOUR characters.”
For me at the moment, it doesn’t feel like it.
I mean how often can you bear it when sb says “I don’t like your decision you did with your story”, “your character were much better when xxx”, “I don’t like this and that”, “You can do whatever you want of course! but let me tell you for the 10th time that I personally don’t like it”.

When you are a friend, are you really trying to make the other one feel guilty? Regretting drawing stuff they just enjoyed?
Hell, I’m not into certain stuff my friends do or like drawing either.
But then I support them anyway or shut the fuck up and let them have their fun.

Well, at this point you maybe got me sad and disappointed with all that stuff and I would maybe have went on a break to calm down etc

…But when all those comments and attitudes hurt the persons I care most about, push them to anxiety and drag them down…

then there is the fucking line for me.

To make it clear:

I won’t tolerate destructive comments and attitudes anymore and I will start blocking people if it won’t stop.

I tried to do compromises to make both parties happy…
but when this is what I get….

Now excuse me while I am trying not to click on that fucking “delete ask-the-vinsmokes” button because I am so sick of justifying the stuff I do with my story and my characters.

Really need time to find my joy for this blog again and the reason why I want extra stress in exchange for doing free art , jesus christ….

anonymous asked:

I'm too shy to come out of anonymous... but how did you start your studyblr?? It looks so professional!

hey anon! dw, jo here has got your back! B )
     (& don’t be shy, anon! feel free message me or de-anon and tell me to answer privately if you have any questions or just want to talk!)

onto your question, personally, I kind of tripped into the studyblr community one day and simply put, fell in love. So I decided to start my own studyblr as means to motivate myself, but only started working on it about three weeks ish ago? anddd the rest, they say, is history.

WARNING: A LONG POST BC JO TENDS TO GO OVERBOARD (and i probably forgot something even tho there’s this huge post but whatever oops)

but hey! i’m sure my blabbering wasn’t quite what you’re looking for, so
here’s what I’d recommend if you’re looking to start or spice up your studyblr!!

  1. find a nice theme: I find that if you can find nice, clean, simplistic (but cute and aesthetically pleasing) themes, you’re well onto your way to becoming a v nice studyblr. but still, you don’t need a theme to be a good studyblr!
    here are a few blogs that make really nice themes you can look at!
    1. shythemes - is where I got my theme. Shythemes has very simplistic, clean type themes that I really like. These themes look crisp and neat and a sort of minimalist feel.
    2. ciralismthemes - has a cute, magazine/website layout (??) type theme. Cute and clean type of theme, ciralismthemes almost seems to build a little personalized "theme” within a blog. lots of choices, each theme different and unique.
    3. micaelis - has cute, tidy themes. ‘Mediocre’ is the theme that some studyblrs seem to favor, is compact and has lots of options and things, has other themes anime-related.
    4. zenthemes - zenthemes has clean, neat, minimalist themes. loads of options, all free. take a look around and choose as you like!
    5. tumblr’s themes - tumblr has loads of free themes all ready to go, you can pick and choose whichever theme you think you like!
  2. customized backgrounds/icons: let me say this first. you do not need to have all these “pretty, cute, aesthetic, personalized items” to be a great and amazing studyblr. you don’t. but I do suppose that it makes your blog look better strictly-aesthetic wise? I’m not saying you need perfect themes and great everythings to be a good studyblr, but this is something that people seem to like, if you get what I mean.
    but here are a few things you can do
    1. on your desktop - you can do a few things with your desktop theme and stuff
      1. find nice background wallpaper - choose a wallpaper! i don’t recommend complicated backgrounds or pictures as your wallpaper, because it can make your blog look messy and hard to look at. instead, choose pastel colors or solid colors with a simple pattern (like with gridded lines or dashed lines, maybe). 
        you can also put random things on your wallpaper to customize it. I put a border with my url on it, but you can do a lot more, like add pictures of people, flower petals, stars, anything! to do that, you can use photoshop (software) or picmonkey, etc. (online photo editors) to edit.
        the usual size for wallpaper is 1920 x 1080 btw!
      2. don’t clutter - make sure your blog doesn’t look to cluttered, i guess? remember KISS (keep it simple, stupid).
    2. on mobile - just like desktop view, you can pretty up your mobile look
      1. make a header - you can either make your own personalized header (like I did for my mobile theme) that fits with your desktop (or doesn’t) or you can put nice, pretty pictures as your header.
    3. make an icon - icons are like, super important. to me, at least. so try and make or find a good icon!
      1. letter/url icon - you can make an icon by putting the initials of your url or your entire url into the icon and setting a (most often pastel) solid color as the bg. it’s pretty popular and what my icon is. you can also add things that represent your url to the icon.
      2. photo icon - set a nice photo as your icon. i don’t think there’s much to say about this type of icon.
      3. selfieeeee - you can set yourself as your icon! only if you want to though (though i’m 100% you’re super handsome/pretty, i know it ;) )
  3. URL making - you can make up anything for your url!
    1. i’d recommend you add something related to studying or academics so that people know that you’re a studyblr, but you don’t have to!
    2. most often, people find good urls by either doing
      1. favorite object/thing/color/anything + study/studies or
      2. studywith + name
      3. name + studies/studying 
  4. Original Content - make original posts! here’s the thing, i’ll be honest with you. if you have good lighting, nice notes, nice filters, etc., your stuff is more likely to get noticed. but they don’t have to be. the only step is that you post stuff! don’t be discouraged if you don’t get a lot of notes because you aren’t defined by notes. just post photos (if you need motivation, try doing the 100 days of productivity challenge), make your own masterposts, write about things, make a advice/tip list, etc. do anything! 
  5. Signal Boost - related to original content! when you make your own posts or whatever, you can tag people! put their urls or whatever tag they track in your tags because then studyblrs will see your posts! the studyblr community is a great and friendly place, we won’t ignore you or your posts (promise) unless we don’t see it on accident! people do it, and if you don’t feel comfortable tagging studyblrs you look up to or just studyblrs in general, tag me! i’ll def reblog and boost your stuff, so feel free to tag me (and it’s ok to tag other studyblrs in your posts, honestly!) and if you have any mutuals, tag them too!
  6. Intro Post - oh gosh, the intro post is like, the most important thing ever. you should make an introduction post, introducing yourself to the community! in general, the formula for an intro post is your name, age, what you’re interested in, etc. etc. and tagging studyblrs that have inspired you or helped you make a studyblr. It took me a month to get around to this, but ohhh boy, can I tell you what a difference it made. It’s important to show yourself to the community, so do this!!
  7. Get Talking & Be Nice - not like you aren’t nice, but be friendly and outgoing and nice and kind to people in general and you’re gonna get far in both the studyblr community and in real life. and you should talk to people! reach out! find new studyblrs or talk to studyblrs that you look up to, etc and message them / send them an ask (like you did me!) this gets you far, youngun, trust me <3
    1. Communities - also, you can join communities and other study groups to get connected. 
  8. Reblog - reblog posts and stuff that you like and you’ll get nice content filling up your blog in no time. also, the queue is your best friend if you’re pressed for time. 
  9. Extra things - extra things idk where to put
    1. nice things - you can buy nice things to treat yourself. buy stationery, paper, just nice things to treat yoself. they look really nice btw and yes just do it. 
      1. stores -  you can buy things at stores like muji, kikki.k, tokyo pen shop
      2. brands- that are really nice include pilot, uniball, sharpie, copic markers, etc
    2. apps/extensions - apps and stuff people use
      1. Focus Now/Forest - keeps you on focus by having you put your phone away. you either kill or grow a tree for a certain time you don’t use your phone. (extension for chrome: Forest)
      2. Leoh - chrome extension that opens on a new tab. includes to do list, time, goal for the day, news, weather, etc.
      3. Momentum - the typical studyblr extension, gives time and sets goal for the day
      4. Lanes.io - alternative to Momentum, gives time, has a built-in pomodoro timer, and a lot of lists and stuff to keep track of things.
      5. Flashcards+ - helps you study by opening a new tab and having you do flashcards.
      6. OneTab - a super lifesaver. Onetab collects all the tabs you might’ve had open and saves it so you can go right back to here you were last time if you need to close your laptop, etc.
      7. Pomodoro Timer - sets a 25 min timer to have you do things and keep you on track, etc. 
    3. Bullet Journal - keep a bullet journal! A bullet journal is a sort of to do list, note, journal, and everything else mashed into one. Lots of studyblrs and other people use bujos. You can search reach the official bullet journal website or look on tumblr to see more about bujos. 
  10. I don’t know what else, but if you have any more questions or if I didn’t answer your question properly, contact me again, anon! (If you were referring to my wallpaper and icon looking professional, I made them myself and you should contact me if you’re looking for stuff like that!) 

Other (great and quite possibly better than my hastily written answer) New Studyblr Posts:

also, some great studyblrs you should follow just to get you on your feet, etc: 
@standardunistudent @succulentstudy @hope-studies @studyign @studybuzz @studyblr-bri @haleystudies @hayley-studies @academla @sirenastudies @studylikeslytherin @studytildawn @elkstudies @studycxlture @study-well @studylou @katsdesk @studyvet @the-brightest-witch-studies @studyandblacktea @green-tea-and-studying @emmastudies @milkystudies +  hella lotta more lovely people

i hope this helped, anon! feel free to come and talk to me whenever xoxo

-jo

anonymous asked:

I can't stop thinking about the soulmates AU you posted! I really love the premise, and Barry's "promise to dump my body somewhere else" pulled at my heartstrings too. Except now I'm wondering how this would have played out without the soulmark conveniently (well, or inconveniently, depending on the perspective) the encounter, because Len already seemed somewhat reluctant about killing Barry before that. Ack, why is this so intriguing?!

I’m glad I’m not the only one who’s been thinking of it, to be honest. I enjoyed filling that prompt more than I expected.

And it’s a neat question, what would happen were it not for the Deux Ex Machina of them Bonding…. 

Let’s copy/paste and edit the scene to find out, shall we?

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anonymous asked:

Hi Wrex! I'm just transitioning from short stories into long form fiction (fanfic), and I keep getting stuck on my draft because I don't feel like it's any good, especially compared with the beautiful stories I see others write. I know I'm supposed to just let go of that, trust that it'll get better with editing, and most importantly, that I will get better with practice. The reason it's difficult is that I'm not sure that's true: I know practice works for art, since it's a physical skill, 1/2

2/2 but with writing it just seems different. Like, what are some concrete ways in which you–or any followers–have been able to improve their writing by practising? A lot of people I see just starting out, often younger than me, are just so good. I’m also more a thinker than a feeler, and maybe to be a good writer, you need to be the latter? Emotion and atmosphere are really hard for me. Anyway, this is like ten questions in one, sorry about that :) Thanks for your inspiring blog!

This is a very good question! First of all, I don’t actually think that’s true about art - I literally just saw a post about the problem with telling young artists to “just practice” without any hint of how to practice. So it’s an issue for both art and writing. Art might have a larger kinesthetic component than writing, but both skills fundamentally involve your perception and judgment, each of which need experience and training to develop.

This more than most is a question I’d like to kick to my followers. But I can tell you two things I’ve done to practice:

1) One thing I do a lot is reread writing I like (pro or fanfic) and try to figure out exactly why I like it. The key here is to stay very technical in my observations and not to get swept up in “well it just makes me feel all these things!” and similar judgments that just make me devalue my own work even more. I try to figure out exactly what they’re doing, word to word. If you’re concerned specifically with emotion, look at a story you like and analyze a paragraph with an eye toward emotion. How does the writer convey the character’s emotions? How often do they even mention emotions? Are they using key emotion-related words? Pick that paragraph apart. Then see if you can extract one little technique they’re using that seems really cool and effective to you and try it out in your own work. Don’t worry if it feels wonky at first. And - this is important - don’t think of that other writer’s technique as “the right way to do it.” Think of it just as a tool you can put in your toolbox. Other writers undoubtedly use different tools, which you’re free to borrow as well.

I mean, look - writing may seem magical, but it’s also highly technical. I have often calmed down my inner freakout of “but they’re all just so much better than I am!” by really breaking things down to a technical level and seeing exactly how my favorite writers are making their gears mesh together.

2) Another thing I do is the exact opposite of this: I freewrite, or as close as I can get. This just means I set a timer for 30 minutes and write literally whatever’s in my brain at the moment. If I’ve got a specific project brewing, I might think about that project and spew out the first things that come to mind, no matter how stupid or irrelevant. Or I’ll ask myself “what do I want for this story?” and crank out an incoherent paragraph of unrestrained wishes and ideas that reads like a six-year-old wrote it. This is actually super hard, because of course my impulse is to judge it all. So sometimes I will do something to distract a part of my attention (music with lyrics usually does the trick) so that my brain just does not have the bandwidth to write and judge what I’m writing at the same time. 

Very often, when I’m done, I’ll just throw this writing away. Or I might save it if it turns out to be useful rough notes for the project. The point is, I wasn’t trying to make it good, so I don’t reread it hoping for it to be good. It’s just an exercise. And the point of the exercise is merely to disinhibit myself as a writer, to gain access to that layer of unpasteurized thoughts, phrases and ideas that I usually filter out when I’m trying to write well. Because frankly, that filter can catch what’s good as well as what’s bad. And the more you filter yourself, the more difficult it is to reach that spontaneous, irrational, interesting part of you that’s purely creative instead of just correct.

It might seem kind of weird that I do both of these exercises: one devoted to removing the filter of judgment, and one oriented, in a way, toward strengthening it. I’m not sure why it works for me, but the two exercises seem to operate in a kind of dialectic. I know that writing is a technical skill, and that one way to acquire good technique is to become aware of techniques and employ them consciously. But I also know that writing has an accidental, unconscious, one might say id-driven aspect to it, and if I spend too much time obsessing over technique, I risk overinhibiting myself. So that’s why I do both, I guess.

Followers, weigh in with whatever you’ve got!

((Oh, you reeeeally shouldn’t have done this right now. I was willing to keep quiet while I finished my projects, and you decided to wait until I had more time to expose you for what you’re doing and have done.

SO I was at church this morning when one of the members of Studiotale decided to show me these screenshots.

I have been running myself ragged trying to get this project done AND still hold my WoW events, through sweat, cramps, and blood. I’ve been emotional, physically unstable because of new medication and YOU have the gall to try to claim I have the time to be sending anons to YOU? My fans matter MUCH more to me than you do.

Okay, let’s break this down.

BOY it’s sure funny that you basically tried to ignore the fact I existed on your blog for months. You never did like me the day I started calling you out everytime you tried to pull a manipulation tactic on me. You tried to pretend I didn’t exist and instead, always addressed me as Error. Never my real name.

I had been getting anons, as well as many others in the group, trying to gaslight us. Now, I see these as a joke.

So let’s take a look at these

Anon 1: Okay, one, first off, I AM the founding member of Studiotale. This isn’t me bragging or anything. I was literally the first person to create Studiotale. If I consider anyone else a founding member of Studiotale? It’s anyone who was apart of the Studiotale skype chat before we held the cruise. Because Studiotale had been securely established enough to hold events. That leaves me, Cymun, Voidmun, Yanmun, Inkmun, and Gmun.

Two, how would you know who was removed from Studiotale? This isn’t public knowledge.

Three. I removed them because whether they wanted to admit it or not, they were a danger to Studiotale. The moment they stared talking to Anna, the anonymous messages of harassment increased. When no one in Studiotale or the blog even knew about the contact until a week later. I removed them because by trying to be friends with someone who has caused so much pain to their family, they told us we deserved to feel the abuse and stress you have caused.

Four, The reason I don’t like you, let’s see, may be because you manipulated our members, forced them to do things they didn’t want, you made other friends feel outcasted, you not only stole from us but you stole from other people’s work, claiming you made gifts for us, but you also sexually harassed, gaslighted, and tried to trigger my son. And unlike my sister, I’m not so easy to forget.

Anon 2: BOY that sounds like something a person would say when they don’t want to be tracked even when I have blatant proof to you admitting ON YOUR BLOG of you sending an anon ask under the same IP, phone model, and location, as the other harassment messages we’ve gotten. Also, what did tractors ever do to you?

Now let’s go back to the supposed anon you claim I wrote:

- I neeeever say lmao. The abbreviation annoys me as much as rofl.

- The only time I use sweetheart is when I say “Oh, they’re a total sweetheart!” As if they’re a totally sweet person and I love them. You’re about as sweet as vinegar

- Okay, just because I live in Texas, doesn’t mean I say “ain’t”.

- I’ve never used staggering as an adjective moreso than a verb. Though the stupidity that you think this is how I type really is staggering.

- PUNCTUATION AND SHIFT BUTTON, OMFG. I ALWAYS hated how you typed, even when you were in Studiotale, I bet some members remember me subtly complaining it irritated me but I was nice and didn’t say anything.. I hated your neglect of punctuation and the shift button. CAPITALIZE YOUR LETTERS.

-Now that mention of rape is funny. Why would I suddenly mention it? I never got any anons talking about rape. But…G’s blog did

I wasn’t the one who wrote this anon, so I know I’m innocent in the eyes of God in that aspect. So that leaves you. So why would I mention rape? Because you mentioned rape but forgot you sent that message to G. There was no guarantee I would’ve seen that message. He never posted it up so no one else would. Except the person who wrote it and who wrote this message. But you KNEW there was a slight possibility I could’ve seen it. When only one person would know about it. And this is only days after I shut down anons on this page

You have the gall to say that no one cares about the rape you committed. But you know what you never had the balls to do? Come clean. You only ever admitted a message was yours when you were trying to be “cute and friendly” and like the others, I tracked it from the same phone. “Oh, but Statcounter isn’t right!” Yeah, that’s why this phone model has also appeared on the awareness blogs and your other victim’s blog for several months.

Surely you remember the FEW times I sent you an anon. I would let you know it was me by ending them with -C. I have NEVER hidden behind an anon mask. …Except for Magic Anons and love I sent to friends. (Spoilers: You’ve long stopped receiving those from me)


I am TIRED, I am BUSY. You are a literal waste of time at this moment and the lowest on my priority list which I finally got done. So I can go back to doing what I used to do and showing all the shit you keep doing.

Oh, by the way, I don’t know how much I have to say it: I didn’t know J when you were removed. When you were removed, it was because Studiotale got together and went “Oh, wow, I thought they were a shitty person to just me, I didn’t know they were doing bad things to everyone”.

You were removed because you were and still are a terrible person.


Here, why don’t you do me a favor? Do these all sound familiar to you?



Remember them? These are songs you claimed to have made for Studiotale. These are all royalty-free songs you tried to take credit for when you were with Studiotale, even posting them on youtube under your name.

Dubwoofer Subnautica by Omnitica - You claimed you composed this for @macabre-masquerade101 ​ as Cap’s theme

Zap Beat by Kevin MacLeod - You claimed you composed this as a theme for G

Vanishing Horizon by Audionautix - You claimed you composed this as a theme for Error

Barge by Gunnar Olsen - You claimed you composed this as a theme for @papercut-papyrus

Chase Pulse Faster by Kevin MacLeod - You claimed you composed this as a theme for Discord (Which btw, I have the exact .wav file of this audio you gave me months ago. I’ll happily give a screenshot of where you put ParadoxialGamer as the Artist)

Funny thing is I found these on the Youtube Audio Library when I was looking for themes for future projects. My fiance’s a youtuber, did you really think we wouldn’t find out eventually? Oh, and yes, I plan to use these in my future projects


Listen, “sweetheart”, I was happy to ignore you until you used my real name. I think you learned a long time ago that it’s dangerous when you pull me into your little game, because I’m nice, but I play dirty. So do us both a favor, and leave Studiotale out of this. Because I don’t have time for games, and while I’m busy, I have little patience for you. This is only a fraction of what I know about you. what you’ve done, and what you will do. Just quit while you’re ah-…Pffft, actually, just quit while you can))

Originally posted by utiligif

Title: What You Are In The Dark
Fandom: Haikyuu!!
Pairings: Tsukishima Kei/Yamaguchi Tadashi
Words: 2157
Summary: Late nights aren’t anything new.
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This is the fic I wrote for @yankasmiles for the @tsukyamgiftexchange! Enjoy!~


Lil note: Okay it’s time for a super embarrassing confession and I hope this isn’t too weird but here we go. So when I first got the message in my inbox like “you will be making a gift for: yankasmiles” I kind of panicked. I saved this as “oh no oh no oh no” in my google docs. I’m a huge fan (I typed fuge han at first lmao) of yours and I admire you so much, both as an artist/general content creator and as a person, and I was really nervous writing this because I’m like “omg what if it’s actually good and Yanka likes it and we start talking and we’re kinda friends??!?!!” because yeah I’m a very shy bean. I just want to talk tsukyam with you because you’re the actual Tsukyam Queen and I’m rambling now but I hope this isn’t too awkward and I really hope you like this!! Happy holidays and happy 2017!!!

Also, thanks to @violet-boy for betaing! You deserve the world <3


The poster is neat and organized, just the way Kei likes it. All the outlining is done, the title’s written at the top in purple pen in a simple but interesting script filled with loops and swirls - thanks to Tadashi, of course; Kei’s never been artsy enough for anything like that - and the pictures are laid out in columns, waiting to be glued down. It isn’t anywhere near finished, sure, but it looks good for what it is. And it’ll get done before tomorrow morning. Somehow.

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Post It Notes

Mark: It was always simple things, like ‘I love you’, ‘I miss you,’ ‘sorry for not being around as much’. You would find them in the strangest places, like on your forehead when you couldn’t get up to see him off to practice. Your favourite was always when he cooked breakfast for you, a post it note saying ‘thank you for cooking for me last night, I thought I would return the favour. I love you. P.S. I hope you don’t get food poisoning from this.’ You’d had fallen asleep while waiting for him to get home from practice and the next thing you knew was that it was morning and Mark had left for his schedule but not before cooking for you. In that moment, you knew that all the difficulties you both had gone through during your relationship were worth it.

Jaebum: You weren’t quite sure whether Jaebum actually understood the concept of post it notes. It was meant for short notes but Jaebum always used them to write long letters to you. You’d find them lined up along the bathroom mirror, his words mixed with lyrics that he had just written and you couldn’t help but grin at how cheesy he was but you loved it, it made you felt special. How many people could say that lyrics had been written for them? And to find letters written on post it notes. You’d text him to say that he was so cheesy. Jaebum replied saying that he knew you loved it, and he was right. You did love it, and it made you love him even more.

Jackson: It was always random things, like where he was if he was home before you, mostly it was things like ‘I’m at the gym, will be back soon’ with a thousand hearts following and a little doodle of him working out. You’d sigh when you see that his gym towel was sitting next to the note and you had to hand deliver the towel to him. When you walked into the gym, Jackson had an expectant smile on his face, and you groaned knowing that he had left his towel on purpose. Other times it would be things like ‘I love you’, ‘your cheeks have been looking a little hollow, so eat more,’ accompanied with your favourite take out. You’d do the same for him except that you’d pack his bag full of isotonic drinks and snacks. Your post it note would read ‘don’t share with the members, hehe.’

Jinyoung: It was always a book reference. You’d be looking for a book to read, only to see a book that you hadn’t seen before and pull it out of its place. ‘Will you be the Eleanor to my Park?’ You would almost scoff when you read the title because it was literally ‘Eleanor and Park.’ And you were wondering what he was trying to imply because his surname was Park as well. A few hours later and half a tissue box later, you were cursing Jinyoung because the stupid book had made you cry and you hated the vague ending. When he came home, the first thing you did was to chuck the book at his chest, “so, will you be my Eleanor to my Park?” “I’ll think about it.” You teased him as his face fell. The next time he was taking a long flight, you had stuffed the whole Lord of the Rings trilogy into his bag, the post it note reading ‘will you be my Aragorn to my Arwen?’ Jinyoung would call a day after he landed, “is that supposed to be a reply?” “Did you actually finish reading the book?” You were baffled because it had taken you at least three days to finish the whole thing. You could hear him laugh over the phone, “I watched the movies, Jackson had it on his laptop. But yes, I’d be your Aragorn to your Arwen, minus the facial hair.” You’d laugh and tell him that you loved him.

Youngjae: Neither of you were particularly good at expressing your feelings with words so you always communicated your feelings through songs and post it notes, Youngjae did it through songs and you did it through post it notes. When you felt a sudden rush of affection for him, you’d hurriedly scribble something down and slap the post it on his forehead, running away after that because it made you embarrassed. Youngjae would let out his loud laugh and you’d chuckle as you knew that he had read it. “Why do you always run away?” Youngjae pulled you into a back hug, eyes staring intently at your cheek, “stop looking at me like that.” You would whine, cheeks colouring as Youngjae let out another chuckle, pressing a kiss to your cheek. “I love you.” You said in a rush, your cheeks were now a flaming bright red, Youngjae would be stunned for a moment because he had expected the first ‘I love you’ to be written on a post it, or him creating a playlist of songs about the first ‘I love you’s. “I love you too.” Youngjae spun you around to kiss you on the lips, the curve of your smiles as you kissed, forever engraved into your memories.

BamBam: It was always always about food and things that went missing and other random things. When the milk ran out, you’d find a post it note saying that he had accidentally finished the milk and that he’d buy some on the way back. Or it’d be a recipe for his favourite green curry, the note reading ‘make some for me noona? Keke.’ Other times it would be about where his hoodie was (and it was the one that you had stolen because it was your favourite) or where the other side of his sock went to, making you overturn the entire house, only to find that BamBam had accidentally stuffed the other side into one of your sneakers. You’d take a snapchat of your ‘angry’ face and the sock in your shoe and BamBam would send back a video of his kissy face, and a post it note that said thank you because he was on stand by and you thought that it was strange that he had a post it note on hand. He’d later tell you that he had taken one from the staff. There was that one time that he had pasted a note on his lips saying that his lips missed yours, and you took the note off to kiss him on the lips. “My lips miss yours too.” You’d teasingly say and BamBam would pull you into his arms and kiss you again.

Yugyeom: It was how he started talking to you, with post it notes. You were his classmate and one day, you found a post it note that said that Yugyeom would like to get you to know you better, you had squinted at the handwriting because it was definitely not Yugyeom who was writing the note. Before that you saw Yugyeom shaking Jackson who merely howled with laughter and gave you a wink as you walked by which you found strange. You pasted a note on Yugyeom’s table saying that you wouldn’t mind getting to know him better as well and you loved how adorable he looked as he blushed and covered his face with his hands. After class, Yugyeom shyly approached you and asked you out on a date. You’d both grew close unusually quickly, and it wasn’t uncommon to find you hanging out at his table in the cafeteria during lunch. You’d both secretly hold each others hands under the table until Jackson plainly pointed out that everyone knew that you both were holding hands under the table. Surprisingly, Yugyeom didn’t let go of your hand and merely smiled back at Jackson. It was a couple of days later when you found another post it note on your table, ‘be my girlfriend?’ with two little boxes next to the words ‘yes’ or ‘no’. You scratched out the ‘no’ and put multiple ticks on the ‘yes’ box. You’d paste the post it on the cafeteria table where his whole group was staring at your expectantly, and you leaned down to peck him lightly on the cheek, running off quickly to join your own friends, grinning largely when his friends began to sing the congratulation song loudly. You turned back to see Yugyeom staring at you, and he gave you a wink that made your whole body blush.

(also, shoutout to markerifics for being the sweetest person ever and saying that my blog is one of her favs. ♡♡♡)

anonymous asked:

Moi! I'm studying Finnish but sometimes I feel like I can't do this, I tried it hard but I don't know how to memorize all the words or GRAMMAR, also my phone is in Finnish. I feel so stupid or unable to express myself and it makes me really upset because I want it so bad but I can't. How can I do to be able to focus more? (sorry of something is wrong, I speak Spanish🙄)

Moi!

Firstly, I believe in you. You can absolutely do this.

Also I squealed a bit cause I get so happy when someone wants to learn Finnish.

I’ve heard a lot of talking about Finnish being the hardest thing ever, which might be discouraging. So to start here are some reasons why Finnish is easy to learn.

How long have you been studying? Remember it takes a while to learn a language, even with good motivation. Do it in your own time, no need to hurry. I know the feeling, I’ve been learning Russian for two years and it feels like I can’t say anything.

For vocabulary I recommend using a fun way to learn, even if it might be slower than just reading lists up and down. Some things you can try:

-translate songs, and listen to songs. You can understand one word or phrase somewhere? Great job, give yourself a high-five.

-follow “suomitumblr” aka finnish tumblr blogs and others who post in finnish, they’re sometimes written quickly in slang though so you might be confused. (And be aware that inappropriate stuff isnt uncommon in suomitumpleri…). Some:

@saakelinsuolasirotin @ulkomaa @ristiinrastiinnaulittu @perus-suomalainen

-talk to me wait im boring tho… or someone else in Finnish!! We can chat like me and my real life friends do, multilingually. If we cant remember a word we just say it in another language. And I can correct big mistakes (nobody cares about small ones).

- stick post-its with the words written on all around your living spaces, so that you see them often even if you’re not actually studying.

-the last one is using Memrise if you don’t already, which isn’t “fun” in that way, but I find learning words using it is easy.

For grammar I’m really not helpful at all, since I’m lost when it comes to that in Russian, and in Finnish I only learn some mostly unnecessary shit at school.

What I do though, is I have example sentences and learn in what type of sentences it’s used by heart.

Try reading these articles, they seem good

Learning grammar

In this they talk about english, but it can be applied to any language

you dont need to study grammar to learn a language

You’re not stupid for not being able to express yourself, in fact you’re smart for wanting and working on expressing yourself in another language.

The best tip I have is don’t worry. no one cares if you make mistakes. except the trolls but ignore them they are the stupid ones and are only here to make you feel bad. We others only want to help. im such a hypocrite here tho

I’ll gladly help you some more, just send in a ask/message me. I hope this was helpful in some way.

Title: High High
Pairing: Namjin
Fandom: BTS
Genre: PWP
Rating: NC17
Summary: Namjoon should have never trusted the elevator. / minimal model au lmao but this is a semi collab with bangtan-sonyeondamnnnnn she wrote top Joon and I did top Jin~

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Omg, I'm in my twenties.

This year, I turned 24 – and with it came a startling realization.

Oh my god. I’m 24. What the hell?!

Now I know that sounds stupid. “You’re only 24,” my colleagues tell me - in fact, somebody said this to me today. “You’ve got your whole life ahead of you!” my older friends preach (if you reckon you’re one of these older friends, I’m sorry for calling you old and appreciate your endless wisdom. You look extra dashing today).

And yeah, I suppose I still am quite young. I haven’t had to start using Just For Men quite yet. Sure, I’m just getting started with things like my career and other adulty stuff that I’m too scared to even write because they’re so daunting. Because if I write words like rent or mortgage or bills, then that makes them true. It makes them applicable to me.

But at the same time, a tiny (and by tiny I mean huuuuuuuge) part of me is screaming that everything just needs to slow down. Because how am I 24 already? How have I not achieved THIS LIFE GOAL yet, and not accomplished THIS DREAM by now? How am I not the person I wanted to be? How are so many of my Facebook friends doing better than me? Look, they’ve just bought their first house. And how nice, he’s moving to America. And her job probably pays her a shit-ton of money. When you’ve got people like Zara Larsson making millions at 18, and you’ve got young people making entrepreneurs out of themselves through social media, it can be crippling to realize that you’ve done none of these things. As though it’s expected of you. As though that’s the norm.

It all gets a bit much sometimes. You realize that the months are blurring into years and that today you’re 24, but one day you will be 30, then one day you’ll be 40, and then it might just be too late to do all the stuff you always wanted to do. We all give ourselves a sort of itinerary for life, don’t we? We’re in the age of the bucket list. When the future is one enormous, foggy tunnel that you’re racing towards and you can’t stop, it’s all you can do to stop yourself from diving into bed with a multipack of Reese’s peanut buttercups and hiding away from the world with your favourite memes. Because let’s face it, we’ve all got ‘em (quite fond of the latest Kermit craze, tbh).

Stop. Breathe. Just freakin’ calm down and stop overthinking for a second, alright? Have a cup of tea and pet something fluffy. Sometimes I literally just grab my half-pug and bury my face in his abundance of rolls and instantly feel better.

My problem is that I’m quite self-critical. And if there’s one thing that my boyfriends asks me all the time, it’s this: why do I keep comparing myself?

And he’s right. I do constantly measure my own life up against that of other people. Mostly in terms of career success. I sometimes look at other authors, others who have literary agents or who have even been published by my age, and I wonder – how come they’ve managed to do that, but I haven’t?

The thing is, we’re living in an age of instant gratification. Our internet is faster than ever. You can take a picture, upload it to Instagram, and rake in the likes in just a few seconds. Everything is happening now, and as a result our attention spans have taken a real hit. Hell, my attention has wandered several times just writing this blog post. Oh, let me just check Facebook real quick…

So it just makes sense that we’ve accidentally conditioned ourselves to expect the same from life. From our long-term goals and aspirations. They need to happen right now, and then we need to tell everyone about it.

No. No more. Social media can be great. I couldn’t live without it now. But it’s also toxic. We poison ourselves into thinking we need to be something, when all we really need to be is happy. Happy and in the moment. And what makes me happy? Well, Tom makes me happier than anything. So does our dog, Buzz. And travelling. And going out. And reading. And writing. And good food.

And I get to do those things a lot. On a weekly basis. Daily, for some of them. I get to go to work and come home to cwtches (Welsh word for cuddle, which I will use unsparingly… you would do well to integrate it into your own vocabulary) from my amazing boyfriend and our sausagey little pupper. We have travelled to, and will be travelling to, some amazing places and I don’t think we’ll ever tire of it. We’ll always be jetting off to somewhere in search of adventures. We have some amazing friends, and we go out pretty much every weekend. I get to read books I love and write books I love whenever I want.

And don’t get me started on the food. I will hoover up anything and everything you set before me (I have been known to eat dog biscuits, but that was completely an accident and I probably need a whole other blog post just to explain myself).

Those are the things that make me happy right now (okay, so maybe not dog biscuits). Within instant reach. My real life instant gratification. Not the faux kind that comes from a little red bubble on Instagram telling you how many likes you’ve had. Or the artificial validation you get when you boast about something on Facebook. Because that doesn’t matter. What matters is that I’m surrounded by people and things that I love.

As for the other things? The long-term stuff? They will come. Keep hacking away at things in your own time, and things will start to happen. It doesn’t matter how long it takes. Life isn’t a race. JK Rowling was in her thirties before her first book was published – and look where she is now. Maybe instead of reading about people’s successes, read about their failures. Normalise it. Accept it. Know that failure isn’t actually real – it’s only an internal measure of yourself. It’s fictional.

So if you’re like me and you’re in your 20’s, feeling like you should have amounted to something by now, please stop. You’re doing just fine. Go at your own pace. Stop comparing yourself to others, because it’s dangerous. It rots your mind. It makes you lose sight of what’s important. Make a list of the things that give you that real life gratification and focus on them. Because they’re what matter the most.

And next time those slimy thoughts start creeping their way back in, come read this blog post. I’ll be here, probably experiencing exactly the same thing.

anonymous asked:

Do you know bothers me about people calling Zayn anti black or racist ? It's that white celebs like Lewis have said the N word. Have been racist constantly but noone reminds him of that. Not like the way they do to Zayn. Anything Zayn does, we get ppl making posts about him being racist. I'm like uh ok it's up to u to b offended but next time ur whites so something then plz go ahead and remind them of their anti blackness like u do when Zayn so much ad breathes.

Exactly. I also find it extremely pretentious that it is the white folks who are the most offended by this. I still cant believe Louis’ blatant racism was swept under the rug like that. He DID say the n word twice, his family has been PROVEN to be racist af but yet no one condemns him. No. Its like it never happened. Harry did black face. Black face! I get so mad thinking about this. Maybe white people dont understand the significance of this. Hell even some non black poc dont. But nope, lets all act like Harry is a sweet little angel.

No one ever calls these whites out unless it is the affected people. This fandom has definitely developed a cult of hating on poc while turning blind eye on their whites. What did Zayn do? A shady vid where I’m still convinced he never said the n word while singing that song. Maybe he did. Maybe he didnt. I found more offense in his tweets. Black people are allowed to feel however concerning that situation. You can be offended and unstan or you can be offended and continue stanning. It is a matter of choice really.

Yeah I fucking dont want to see another white person acting extremely offended on my behalf coz guess what you pretentious ass you DONT know how it feels and you NEVER will. I understand sympathizing with the situation and calling out so both the offender can learn from their mistakes and the offended can feel the support. I understand calling out a person if it is coming from a place of love. But this isnt the case in this fandom, is it? No. People just call out Zayn for the sake of spreading hate and making his fans feel stupid because “all this time instead of stanning Zayn, you could be stanning these 4 whites.” Because these whites are angels. Because they are unproblematic. No do not support the brown Muslim guy. It is not acceptable.

I saw most of these popular blogs are white people spreading their racism in such a way that it feels wrong not to be racist towards Zayn.The other poc ex fans, while I understand being mad and leaving the fandom, it is unacceptable how these same people flourish on spreading hate and making Zayn fans feel like they are on the wrong side. Just the things these people say are so racist ableist, islamophobic and downright abhorrent. Their behaviour, I dont even believe they say these things in real life; just here, behind their screens because yeah that is how cowardly they are.  

Is there a perfect person in this world? No. Are people allowed to make stupid mistakes and learn as they grow yes. Do you crucify your friends like you did Zayn when they make mistakes? No you dont. So it is time people start using their brains and quit blindly following concepts propagated by evil minded folks. Decide for yourself. Either stan or dont. But do it on your own terms.

I’m also going to say it is hilarious for someone to expect me to stan a white person. A person who has had white privilege all their life and does not understand what racism is. The fact that Zayn is a poc is what made me stan in the first place. Sure he is talented and attractive and it made me take a closer look. I relate to Zayn coz he has faced racism before, he understands the feeling of people hating you just for existing.

While y’all (4d fans) making these essays about Zayn’s mistakes,  I want to see the essays on the 4 whites mistakes too seeing as y’all refuse to be educated and reasonable. I want to see daily posts about Harry and Louis’ racist behaviour. I want to see posts on Liam’s homophobia and black appropriation. I want to see posts on Niall’s pedophile scandal and lord knows what. I want to see long ass posts on all the mistakes these 4 whites have ever done in their lives. But this wont happen now will it? No. Because white people are allowed to make mistakes and be racist as possible and still considered human. God forbid if a poc does the littlest mistake of them all coz then the crucifixion begins and never ends.

If Zayn had never debuted at no 1…I dont even want to think. But here you have Niall fans calling Zayn a flop lmao. Because people make the softest bed of them all when it comes to these whites but want Zayn to sleep in a cactus bed.

All this hate just because he dared to be different. Because he took his health first finally after years of entertaining spoilt brats. After defending his supposed friends all these years only to have them react in the whitest way possible: spoilt, privileged, snooty, childish and selfish behaviour.   Behaviour that would have seen Zayn buried alive were the roles reversed.

So yeah I get mad af every time 4d fans ‘call out’ Zayn because their only intent is malice. These people should start personally calling out themselves because no one should aspire to be such a vindictive bitter and frankly stupid af racist piece of shit.

Honey, I'm fine (Luke Hemmings Imagine, Part 2)

OMG guys! You are so, so awesome, I can not even express how grateful I feel :) You made me so happy. The first part got almost 200 notes and it is so far the most popular post on my blog <3 Most of us aren’t on Derpcon right now, so I hope I can cheer you up a little with this part 2, since a lot of you requested it :) ENJOY!

ALSO, do any of you guys have Twitter? I would like to get to know some of you, and no one uses Twitter where I live so I get really bored on there. If you want to be friends, just message me here, or on my Twitter here

PART 1 / PART 3 / PART 4

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“I said WHAT?” Luke looked baffled. “No wonder she isn’t answering my calls, ugh.” He tried calling you one more time, but you were determined not to give in so quickly. Luke was your best friend and of course you would forgive him in no time, but you though, why not have a little fun with it while you’re at it.

‘(Y/N), I’m so sorrrrrrrry. Pls answer meeee :((( ‘He texted you after you weren’t answering his calls.

‘Pleaaaaase, I need my bestie. I feel like shit and I need you to come and take care of me :(‘ He texted again. You decided to text him back, just so he knew that you were still mad at him.

‘…’ That was all that you texted him. The response came almost immediately.

‘OMG, thank god youre speaking to meee.’

‘Now will you come and take care of me?’

‘Please?’

He texted you several messages, clearly full of anticipation.

‘You made your bed, now lay in it. ;) ‘

‘Soo, I take this you’re still mad at me, huh?’

‘Ya think??’

 He called you again, so you decided to pick up the phone this time.

“(Y/N)…”  He sighed. “I know, that you said that I shouldn’t go and I know that this is all my fault now, but don’t you think you’re overreacting a little here? ”

“Oh, my, God Luke, that is so not the point. I don’t care if you went or not. That’s your thing. But…”

“Exactly, it’s my thing. Then why did you have to embarrass me in front of all of my friends by giving me a lecture?

He interjected you and at this point, you were fuming.

Are you freaking kidding me? I embarrassed YOU?”  You screamed a little. “I was just looking out for you, not giving you a lecture! “

“Well I’m sorry for having a good time.” He interrupted again.

“Yea, well I’m sorry for trying to be a good friend.”

“Oh c’mon, honey…”

“Stop calling me honey…”  You said frustrated and hung up on him. You didn’t know this would turn out to be such a big deal, but you were furious at this point. I embarrassed him? You thought to yourself. Your phone screen lit up with picture of the two of you, as he was calling you again, but you declined while mumbling some curse words intentioned for Luke.

 2 DAYS LATER

You still haven’t made amends with Luke after your petty fight and tonight was their concert. Their very big and important concert. The concert, that you were supposed to attend as the boys’ mental support in the backstage. But you didn’t feel like facing Luke just yet, so when Calum called you about the backstage passes; you just politely declined. But that only resulted at Luke getting mad at you.

‘Are you freaking kiddin ME? Why aren’t you going?’

‘Cuz I don’t feel like it. ;)’ You texted him back. He called you in matter of seconds.

“What?” You asked annoyed.

“I can’t believe you! You are so selfish!…” You were taken back with his words and didn’t say anything so Luke continued with his rage.

And just because you’re mad at me for some stupid little shit and you’re too self-centered or too proud to forgive me. (Y/N), the guys really wanted you there! I…” You cut him off. You hung up on him and immediately call another number.

“Hey Caleb, any chance you wanna go to a concert with me?”

At the concert

Caleb was the guy you went on one date with, but never really went on another, because Luke didn’t like him, for some reason. You didn’t really think anything about it, since you would do this a lot to each other. Give one another advice on each other’s love life and such. But since you were really angry at Luke currently, you thought, well, why not add a little bit of fuel to the fire. When you two arrived at the venue, you drank some shots and then you made your way to the very front of the audience and waited for the boys to start.

When they started, you even somehow managed to forget about the fact that your best friend, that you were currently mad at, was on the stage right in front of you. You were having such a great time with Caleb. You caught a glimpse of Calum and received a confused look from him, but didn’t really think much about it. Maybe it was due to the amount of alcohol running through your body, or the fact that you couldn’t really concentrate on anything else than grinding on your hot date. Either way, you didn’t noticed Calum speaking to Luke while Ashton was talking to the audience. You didn’t notice Luke glaring at you the whole time. But you did noticed your phone vibrating in your pocket with new text from Luke.

‘I thought I told u to stay away from him..’ You grinned to yourself. At first you just wanted to tease him, because you knew he didn’t approve of him, but now that you were having such a great time with Caleb, you decided to take it up a notch, so you texted Luke ‘Honey, I’m fine ;)’, then turned around and slowly started to make out with Caleb.

 

anonymous asked:

This might be a stupid question, but I've been starting to I guess, not exactly reevaluate my position, like I know the baby is fake. But I guess it's just going on a lot longer than I'd ever expected, and instead of getting neater and better, things are getting messier and worse. Realistically speaking, how long could Simon and syco have this tenuous hold on the band? I wanted to hold on, and as a fan of the band I will, but sometimes I feel like I'm forcing myself to still have faith in Larry.


Anon, I’m not going to give you a worst case scenario about how long Syco could hold the band hostage, because that would lead to a hundred other anons saying “YOU REALLY THINK….!!?!?!?” Because no, I don’t really think ‘worst case scenario.’

As for Larry, babe, if you’re forcing yourself to believe that it’s real and true, please stop.  If you don’t want to leave the fandom, but you really don’t think Larry is real anymore, just ship like a shipper. Have fun with it, ignore the “you must believe or you’re an idiot” blogs. 

Hell, I believe 110% and I still eyeroll at some of the “proof” posts. But I don’t mock them, I ignore or post block them. 

What we know for certain, all other things aside, is that things will NOT continue as they have been for much longer.

  • We will be told the band’s plans (or about their break-up)
  • Harry, Louis, Liam, and Niall will be able, eventually, to say what they think (within the boundaries of celebrity) and will stop being so consistently evasive and shady
  • We will learn what the management situation is as a band and individually in a way that leaves little room for doubt.
  • Louis will stop getting papped every 15 minutes doing nothing but looking miserable.

We will never know everything, we’re not supposed to know everything about celebrities. But this will shake out into something resembling normal.

When? A couple of months, tops, in my opinion, but if it’s longer, it’s longer. There is not one single thing we can do about it.

So if you feel like you don’t believe that HL will come out, or that babygate will end, or that the band is going to get back together, it’s okay. You have to trust yourself over and above people telling you something that doesn’t seem true.

Personally, I get mad at anti’s mocking and ignoring any good points we make, but I don’t get mad that they don’t believe what we do. So do you babe, just don’t be an ass to people that disagree and it’ll be fine.

And when we do get some answers and you want to reevaluate and maybe join back in, you can!  The only people that won’t be welcome are those that were ugly and mean about it.

I’m not going to try and convince you to hold on. I want to convince you to trust yourself, even if you’re wrong (or I am), staying true to yourself is far more important.

anonymous asked:

I'm incredibly new to tumblr, but I saw your last post about an FAQ and I have no idea what that is or where to find it? I don't want to annoy you by doing something stupid or ignoring it, and I would hate for you to think I was being ignorant by not following it, but I genuinely don't know what it is or how to follow it. Sorry for being annoying, I'm just trying to be respectful of your wishes and read it before I try sending you anything else. Love your art, by the way. :D

Ok, I get you’re new to tumblr :) ’s cool. You don’t have to know everything. I’m gonna surprise you but hey, even I don’t know everything :) Nothing you should be ashamed of. Also it’s ok to ask people about things you don’t know. But, considering the fact that we live in a 21th century, you don’t have to ask people about absolutely everything because, fortunately, there’s a place you can check things you don’t know without actually asking people. It’s called Google. You enter “FAQ” into the browser and ta dah:

Frequently asked questions (FAQ) or Questions and Answers (Q&A), are listed questions and answers, all supposed to be commonly asked in some context, and pertaining to a particular topic. The format is commonly used on email mailing lists and other online forums, where certain common questions tend to recur.

Here we go :) Now you know what it is. Now where to find it? Probably on a blog :) So, you go to: http://atalienart.tumblr.com/ (<– this is my blog) There are usually sidebars where you can find some links (unless it’s an esthetic blog, then you won’t even find the “next page” button) and:

Be brave and click it ;)

(If you’re a mobile user, I’m sorry, you probably can’t see it anyway, you can’t even see any picture, just adverts, the world is cold and unfriendly, you’re floating in void, resigned, forgotten…)

Balthazar is five when he first wants to wear a skirt and doesn’t understand why his parents won’t let him. They tell him it’s not proper, he’s a boy and boys don’t wear skirts, but it doesn’t really make that much sense. But if his parents say it, he supposes they’re right, they’re grown-ups and as far as Balthazar knows, grown-ups are always right.

Balthazar is six when he finds his mom’s lipstick in the bathroom closet and he puts it on just for fun. He’s seen his mom use it a million times, but when he tries it for himself, it’s actually a lot harder than it looks. He smiles when he looks in the mirror then, his lips a soft pink, but his smile falters when his mom walks in and yells at him for twenty minutes straight.

Balthazar is seven when he realizes that music is his best friend. When he plays music, his parents are proud of him, when he plays music, he’s proud of himself, he feels safe, he loves it. He doesn’t have to be anyone when he sits in front of a piano, he just plays and the music fills him up and he is happy.

Balthazar is eight when a group of stupid boys laugh at him because he can’t play football. “What are you, a girl?” they ask to mock him and for the first time Balthazar realizes that being a girl is somehow supposed to be a bad thing. He doesn’t know what to reply to that question.

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Okay, guys, announcement time:

So, I have made a decision. And I’ve decided to tell you all this decision in the hopes that it will actually hold me accountable to this decision because I’ve told Leda but we both agree we are enablers who will let the other get away with literally anything.

But, I digress. Basically, I’ve decided to give up tumblr until I am actually done writing this original novel I’m supposed to be writing. Because tumblr takes up way too much time and just gives me too much Teen Wolf input into my brain. I keep seeing great gifsets of sterek or sciles and then interesting posts about stiles character development and all my creative energy just swings in that direction and suddenly I am planning out fic in my head instead of writing. It’s AWESOME, but not what I need right now.

(Also, not even just teen wolf. Yesterday I started writing a stucky fic? I’ve never even written that before??)

I will still be on to post the SASO Character Sheets as we finish them and when I’m logged in to do that, I will answer any asks/messages that I have but if I don’t get back to you right away, that’s why. Also the queue is set-up so the blog won’t be 100% dead. But in general, I’m disappearing for a bit!

Though, I should note that I do tend to have the self control of a small sea creature, so if you catch me on here reblogging or liking your posts- PLEASE SEND ME A MESSAGE AND YELL AT ME!

I love you all and shall miss you and I should be back in full in two weeks (you can write a novel in two weeks, right?)

Hello. LRH.

Originally posted by 5secsosumma

Based on Hello by Adele.

“Hey,” I began, as I sat outside of my apartment. It was the middle of the winter and I could feel the touch of cold spread from my nose to my fingertips to the small amount of skin on my ankles peeking out from under my jeans.

I hated cold days. For some reason, I always made mistakes like this on cold days. Hell, days like this one are exactly why I’m in the middle of doing something I know I’ll regret when I’m taking shots of whiskey alone later at night.

“I know it’s been a long time, but…” I mumbled, not really sure what I was going to say next. “But even after almost a year I still miss you!” “I know you have a new girlfriend, but I’m still in love with you!” “I’m sorry I can’t stop calling you! Why haven’t you changed your fucking number yet?” nothing seemed quite good enough.

“…but I walked outside in my underwear again. Nobody was in the hallway this time, thank God. I think that’s probably part of why I’m calling. When I walked outside, it was fucking cold. It just reminded me of the last time I saw you.” I continued, the bittersweet feeling of nostalgia washing over me with each reminder of a memory.

“I said so many things that I just…I don’t know. I shouldn’t have said any of those things. Because now it’s winter again, and I thought if we broke up it would feel less lonely since you’re away all the time, but it’s so much worse now than it ever was back then.”

I hated leaving voicemails. I never did it. If someone didn’t answer, I would hang up and call again until they picked up. But I didn’t feel like I was talking to his voicemail. I felt like I was rambling and he was listening to every word, anxiously flicking his tongue against the cool metal of his lip ring, maybe cracking a smile every so often.

“Wow, look at that. We haven’t talked in almost a year and literally everything I’ve said has been about me. I guess that’s me in a nutshell. But part of it is your fault, since you didn’t answer your phone. You never do when I call.” My voice was becoming more sad and so was I.

It just wasn’t fair though. I had been trying to apologize for so long. Maybe I never called and left a voicemail before, but I did try to call. It’s fair that he didn’t want to see me or date me anymore, but he wouldn’t even let me say sorry, and that is just weighing down on my conscience.

I could never move on if I spent all my time wondering if he had forgiven me yet.

“I’m sorry, okay? I’m fucking sorry. All I wanted was for you fight for me. Or fight for us. Yeah, it was really stupid and childish. I should’ve been more mature about it. I should have just told you how lonely I was, but I couldn’t. I didn’t want you to be mad at me. I didn’t want you to think I was selfish for wanting you to spend more time with me, instead of touring the world. And now you’re still touring and I’m still missing you.” I admitted, allowing my voice to grow louder. I worried perhaps my neighbors would come outside and tell me to keep quiet, but I needed to finish. I needed to move on.

My fingers were getting shaky as I grew more upset. I didn’t want to think of the things I said to him when we broke up. I threw his insecurities in his face. I insulted his intelligence. I doubted his love for me. And it all came around to me.

“I hope you enjoy seeing the world. I just wanted to say hello from the other side of it.”

Before ending the call, I decided to express one final sentiment. “And Luke? I’m really sorry. I lo-“

“The voicemail you are trying to leave is too long. To send, press one…” I dropped my phone into my lap before the voicemail lady could continue to tell me what my options were.

Instead of sending the stupid thing, I hung up. Oh well. Maybe I’ll actually send one of these someday.

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anonymous asked:

OH PLEASE. It's not like anyone is putting a gun to your head and FORCING you to play Voltage's games. If you want a stronger MC, go play Voltage USA's games instead of bitching about it. So please do leave the fandom since I'm tired of hearing whiny ass rants.

First of all, I want to thank you for letting me use this gif:

You know, what I don’t understand is why did you have to be so rude about it. We could have discussed it like mature people BUT NOOOO, being polite is too mainstream I suppose?

Anyway, this will probably be a long post so i’ll cut it.

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shoppingcart-emoji  asked:

Finally, someone else who believes something is strange about all this. There are so many factors that are off, including the mgmt switch date coming closer and the fact that no one close to him knew about him leaving? And how it would take months of prep for legalities and stuff. Idk what to think anymore but I'm glad someone else sees it too

Hey!  I think we should all stick together right now if we have this mentality.  I feel so much better seeing that other people independently feel like this is weird.  

I feel really awkward to be blogging about how shady it is since the majority int the fandom seem to have just accepted it without question, but I’m doing it anyway because I’m really feeling the “how stupid do you think I am?” vibe towards this mess.  Whether he’s gone or not, what they’re telling us has tons of holes.  

The fact that this is supposed to be a sudden decision is the most suspicious of all.  

  1. If Zayn made this decision today, why is it being reported same day? Isn’t that awfully fast?  
  2. Why was the statement made through Facebook of all places? 
  3. When was there time for the decision to be made that the other boys would continue as a four piece?  
  4. If no one knew this was going to happen until today (because the decision was made today) then why were we getting the media ramping up so much yesterday for what looked like some sort of big announcement?  
  5. Was there supposed to be something else announced and Zayn’s quitting preempted it? 

Those are all questions that you don’t even need to look at different scenarios to wonder about.  They’re strange no matter how you look at it.  Then there’s the stuff that requires a bit more theorizing.  

For Niall’s post, shouldn’t the band have been informed at least a few hours before the statement was made?  Why would Niall (or a management employee) post a routine video at a time like that?  We’re told Zayn made the decision today, so the boys shouldn’t have been expecting it and, therefore, should have been agitated in one way or another. They shouldn’t be acting blase or normal.  

I haven’t heard of the boys breaking down and crying in concert or anything. The one video I saw of Harry was because he got hit in the eye.  If they were told only a few hours before the concert, you would think they would still be really upset and it would show in some way.  Harry wore his hair up exactly like Zayn- there’s no way to think it’s anything but a reference to Zayn.  Why would he grind dirt in that cut if he knew the news was going to come out in a few hours that Zayn was leaving?

The only other explanation if you believe what we’re being told- that Zayn is leaving because of stress and this was only decided today- is that the boys weren’t told at all and didn’t find out until after the concert. So Zayn didn’t think it necessary to consult the other 4/5 of the band he was leaving in the lurch before deciding to quit?  They didn’t think it wise to have a band meeting in person at least to discuss this on the day the decision was made?  They haven’t been on the same continent for about a week now.

It takes a bit of faith, but I just don’t think his relationship with the boys is such that he would do that to them.  I also personally have no doubts that Liam and Zayn are dating and have not been having any serious relationship trouble. So… Zayn would quit without telling his boyfriend first?  That’s about a 1000 times worse, and again, I don’t believe he’d do that.

The boys have looked to genuinely be having fun in concert.  They haven’t been AS good without Zayn, but they’ve been goofy and silly and I don’t think it’s all put on.  Liam covered Zayn’s face as a joke, if Harry was really the one tweeting then Harry thought today would be a good day.  Harry wore his hair up like Zayn did at the concert.  Niall posted a regular funny video just before the concert.  Again, I think it’s highly unlikely that Zayn decided to leave today and didn’t tell them.  

  1. They knew he was leaving all along and know it’s in his best interest
  2. They know the outcome to this is going to be positive in the end so they aren’t worried

I need another 5 or 6 posts to go through everything else that’s going on, but I think we can conclude we’re being lied to about at least 1 thing.  So who’s to say there’s not more?  I know it’s a sad day, but I don’t think we should stop thinking because I don’t like being lied to in such a stupid way.  Everything about this band has been shady up to now, and I see no reason to take even this at face value.