I thought it would be fun to compile all the fics I wrote this year into one big post. This year is almost over, and you all have made it so much fun! I love being able to share my fics with all of you! Fics with porn in them will be labled as such!
Arin/Everyone: My ultimate bottom Arin fic. Arin has an arrangement where he gets fucked by every Grump except for Dan. Soon, he realizes that he wants Dan too, and that maybe Dan wants him back. Much angst and sex occurs. This was my FIRST GG fic and is my longest, and also still my favorite. (PORN OMG)
Dan/Arin/Suzy: Dan, Arin, and Suzy are in a poly-amorous relationship. Dan comes home from traveling to some naughty plans that Suzy and Arin have thought up. My last fic of 2015! (porn)
I posted my first GG fic back in June. I remember being so nervous about it, but you all have been so lovely and wonderful to me you really don’t know what it means to me to have people appreciate my work the way you do!
I tried to post something every month as a personal goal for myself and I managed to pull it off! I wrote 13 fics for the fandom this year not counting the smaller things. It’s been a lot of fun! Hopefully 2016 brings many more opportunities for fic!
Remember that one time? That time when I was sane? That time before hockey was introduced in my life? And I could focus on school and like maybe a band I liked? Not 20 hockey players from all different teams?
Remember that? Fuck those times, get out of my life.
You knew who what and where I am before you ever touched me
I tried to be sane tried to tell you ‘no’ because I knew
I knew I couldn’t keep the passion and the heart separate
I knew I had too many feelings in reserve for touch to be safe
I knew nonchalant would never be a part of my reality
I knew long before our lips ever touched that my heart was yours
Everything in my life says 'no’ except my will and my heart
They are yours unconditionally and without reserve
But with every breath I take I’m trying to not break a heart
My very existence breaks hearts and I pray for a bullet or a knife
By living I hurt you all and I would rather my heart and life be forfeit
I’d lie on the cold slab to save you both yet you both hate me a little
I know and understand I’m the common denominator of pain
I tried to say 'no’ but I love you and in my love I’m weak
I knew yet in love I lost resolve and yet resolved to love
Nurse: So these next questions are ones that we have to ask everyone that comes through the emergency room.
83-year-old patient: Okay.
Nurse: Do you have thoughts of harming yourself?
Patient: What?? No. Well, that’s not to say I haven’t before. Anyone who is a sane, thinking, human being has thought of offing themselves at some point. I thought about it when I was sixteen. And then I thought ‘Nah. I guess I’ll live.’ So I did. And now I’m 83 and sitting the the ER.
I took a steady drag off my cigarette as I paced back and
forth through the basement, all I could think about was her, her voice, what
they could be doing to her right now.
“Jason you need to get some sleep, it’s nearly sunrise.” My father’s
words didn’t affect me, instead I continued to pace back and forth muttering inaudible
things to myself. I felt a hand come down on my shoulder but shook it off
without a thought “Jason sweetheart please sit down.” I looked down into my mother’s
pleading eyes and sighed “I can’t, I need to keep moving to stay sane mom.” I
told her quietly before returning to my habit of pacing.
Hours on hours passed, my father’s gang worked feverishly
trying to locate her but nothing, not a damn trace, not one lead that could
bring us a step closer to her. I don’t recall much of this past night, it all
seemed to blur in my memory, the only thing that was clear to me was the way
she spoke before the line went dead, the unknowns and what if’s captivated my
brain making it impossible to think of anything else.
“Boss, you might want to take a look at this.” I stopped dead
in my tracks and hurried over to the wall of computers, a video was summoned to
the screen making my brows fur in confusion “What is this?” I asked hoarsely,
instead of replying they all just looked at me with an unreadable look “What is
it dad?” I asked him desperately, his eyes met mine “Jason go upstairs, you don’t
need to see this.” He muttered lowly, sadness laced in his tone which only set
me even more on edge.
“Is it her?” Realization hit me like a slap to the face, my
eyes reverted back to the screen “Play it.” I commanded with a whole new sense
of anger, I gripped the beer bottle in my hand even tighter as nobody made a
move to do as I said “Jason I don’t thi-“ I cut him off slamming the beer bottle
against the opposite wall “Play the fucking video!”
I watched as it began to play, the soft cries of Y/N echoes
through the basement making my heart clench “Please don’t do this- please.” She
begged quietly as the man stood in front of her, his hand held what looked like
a knife, the metal shone against the dim light “Say hi to your boyfriend baby.”
He teased gripping her chin and roughly pointing it towards the camera “What do
you say we give him a little show?” The bastard smirked smugly, outlining her
cheek with the knife.
“Enough, shut it off.” My dad stood from his seat and made
his way towards me “Go upstairs Jason, don’t even try to argue with me either
son, either you walk up there or I will drag you up there myself.” I looked at
him for a moment before my eyes flashed back to the screen “I love her.” I
whispered meeting his gaze once again “I love that girl so much and because of
that they are doing God knows what to her right now, all because I fucking love
her.” My hands shook with anger and anxiety “You find her, when you do please
tell her that I can’t see her anymore, tell her that I have to keep her safe
and because of that we can’t be together.”
“You tell her yourself son, if she’s going to hear it then
it has to be from you, no one else can break her heart other than you, and if
you say this to her that is exactly what you’re going to do.” I could tell by
the way he spoke my father was angry with me, I couldn’t seem to understand
why, this is what is best for her isn’t it?
“Once we find her I will see to it she won’t return to her
father, after that she will have nothing Jason, you can either be the one who
holds her together, or you can be the one who tears her apart.”