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Keenveins 2015 Fan Fic Masterpost

I thought it would be fun to compile all the fics I wrote this year into one big post. This year is almost over, and you all have made it so much fun! I love being able to share my fics with all of you! Fics with porn in them will be labled as such! 

Don’t Look Back (Keep Your Eyes On Me)

Arin/Everyone: My ultimate bottom Arin fic. Arin has an arrangement where he gets fucked by every Grump except for Dan. Soon, he realizes that he wants Dan too, and that maybe Dan wants him back. Much angst and sex occurs. This was my FIRST GG fic and is my longest, and also still my favorite. (PORN OMG)

Made From All The Wrong Stuff

Dan/Arin: Arin drinks during the charity stream and all he can think to do is call Dan whose in a different state, too far away. (Porn)


Dan/Arin: An AU where GG never happened and instead Arin is an animator and a big fan of NSP. He and Ross meet Dan at a convention and Arin might have a crush on Dan. (Porn)

Sea Salt

Arin/Dan: Arin takes Dan to the beach in an effort to help Dan get over his fear of the ocean. (Fluff)

No Control

Holly/Ross/Barry: Ross has a crush on Barry, might act on it and thinks he’s ruined everything. Holly saves the day. A.K.A Holly and Ross seduce Barry. (Porn)


Dan/Arin: Dan is curious about how to finger himself thanks to Arin, Arin is more than happy to give him a hand. (Porn)

Take What We Want (When We Need) 

Ross/Everyone: Ross is involved in a circle jerk orchestrated by his dom Brian. (Porn)


Barry/Ross: Barry has a big dick and Ross is a size queen who wants that dick bad. A sequel to the first Size Queen Ross fic! (Porn)

Keenveins Collection

Multiple Pairings: A collection of my tumblr prompts including the aforementioned Size Queen Ross. (Multi)

Different Colors

Brian/Ross: Brian wants to try role reversal and bottoms for Ross. (Porn)

Saving All My Summers (For You)

Arin/Dan: Arin and Dan are neighbors who grow up together, as teenagers those feelings start to evolve. My first chaptered fic! (Angst)

 Everything I Need (I Get From You)

Dan/Arin: A Christmas fic where Arin and Dan are dating but spending the holiday apart due to not being ‘out’ to Dan’s family yet. (fluff)

Let It Move Right Through You 

Dan/Arin/Suzy: Dan, Arin, and Suzy are in a poly-amorous relationship. Dan comes home from traveling to some naughty plans that Suzy and Arin have thought up. My last fic of 2015! (porn)

I posted my first GG fic back in June. I remember being so nervous about it, but you all have been so lovely and wonderful to me you really don’t know what it means to me to have people appreciate my work the way you do! 

I tried to post something every month as a personal goal for myself and I managed to pull it off! I wrote 13 fics for the fandom this year not counting the smaller things. It’s been a lot of fun! Hopefully 2016 brings many more opportunities for fic! 

'No' Resolved to Love

You knew who what and where I am before you ever touched me
I tried to be sane tried to tell you ‘no’ because I knew
I knew I couldn’t keep the passion and the heart separate
I knew I had too many feelings in reserve for touch to be safe
I knew nonchalant would never be a part of my reality
I knew long before our lips ever touched that my heart was yours
Everything in my life says 'no’ except my will and my heart
They are yours unconditionally and without reserve
But with every breath I take I’m trying to not break a heart
My very existence breaks hearts and I pray for a bullet or a knife
By living I hurt you all and I would rather my heart and life be forfeit
I’d lie on the cold slab to save you both yet you both hate me a little
I know and understand I’m the common denominator of pain
I tried to say 'no’ but I love you and in my love I’m weak
I knew yet in love I lost resolve and yet resolved to love

My conversation with a patient today:

Nurse: So these next questions are ones that we have to ask everyone that comes through the emergency room.

83-year-old patient: Okay.

Nurse: Do you have thoughts of harming yourself?

Patient: What?? No. Well, that’s not to say I haven’t before. Anyone who is a sane, thinking, human being has thought of offing themselves at some point. I thought about it when I was sixteen. And then I thought ‘Nah. I guess I’ll live.’ So I did. And now I’m 83 and sitting the the ER.

Touche, little lady. Touche.


My reaction on Funtom Five, I was completely sane before this:


Wait Edward? EDWARD



And is that Seba- hOLY SHIT THAT’S CLAYTON







Twi: “So, why didn’t you do this earlier and have her already well rested and sane?”

Night Light: “Because, as I told Shining before you all got here, having her kid tell her there’s a problem really makes it hit home more. She needs that message to get in her head.”

Cadance: “Sometimes, I manage to forget what sort of family I married into… Then things like this happen.”

So this is Milo the Staffordshire bull terrier, he’s 2 years old and is a bundle of laughs. I’ve submitted him before but he was looking more “sane” then. (:

As Long As You Love Me Part 5

Part 4: http://mccanndrxws.tumblr.com/post/119220315245/imagine-as-long-as-you-love-me-part-4-part-3

Jason’s POV

I took a steady drag off my cigarette as I paced back and forth through the basement, all I could think about was her, her voice, what they could be doing to her right now.

“Jason you need to get some sleep, it’s nearly sunrise.” My father’s words didn’t affect me, instead I continued to pace back and forth muttering inaudible things to myself. I felt a hand come down on my shoulder but shook it off without a thought “Jason sweetheart please sit down.” I looked down into my mother’s pleading eyes and sighed “I can’t, I need to keep moving to stay sane mom.” I told her quietly before returning to my habit of pacing.

Hours on hours passed, my father’s gang worked feverishly trying to locate her but nothing, not a damn trace, not one lead that could bring us a step closer to her. I don’t recall much of this past night, it all seemed to blur in my memory, the only thing that was clear to me was the way she spoke before the line went dead, the unknowns and what if’s captivated my brain making it impossible to think of anything else.

“Boss, you might want to take a look at this.” I stopped dead in my tracks and hurried over to the wall of computers, a video was summoned to the screen making my brows fur in confusion “What is this?” I asked hoarsely, instead of replying they all just looked at me with an unreadable look “What is it dad?” I asked him desperately, his eyes met mine “Jason go upstairs, you don’t need to see this.” He muttered lowly, sadness laced in his tone which only set me even more on edge.

“Is it her?” Realization hit me like a slap to the face, my eyes reverted back to the screen “Play it.” I commanded with a whole new sense of anger, I gripped the beer bottle in my hand even tighter as nobody made a move to do as I said “Jason I don’t thi-“ I cut him off slamming the beer bottle against the opposite wall “Play the fucking video!”

I watched as it began to play, the soft cries of Y/N echoes through the basement making my heart clench “Please don’t do this- please.” She begged quietly as the man stood in front of her, his hand held what looked like a knife, the metal shone against the dim light “Say hi to your boyfriend baby.” He teased gripping her chin and roughly pointing it towards the camera “What do you say we give him a little show?” The bastard smirked smugly, outlining her cheek with the knife.

“Enough, shut it off.” My dad stood from his seat and made his way towards me “Go upstairs Jason, don’t even try to argue with me either son, either you walk up there or I will drag you up there myself.” I looked at him for a moment before my eyes flashed back to the screen “I love her.” I whispered meeting his gaze once again “I love that girl so much and because of that they are doing God knows what to her right now, all because I fucking love her.” My hands shook with anger and anxiety “You find her, when you do please tell her that I can’t see her anymore, tell her that I have to keep her safe and because of that we can’t be together.”

“You tell her yourself son, if she’s going to hear it then it has to be from you, no one else can break her heart other than you, and if you say this to her that is exactly what you’re going to do.” I could tell by the way he spoke my father was angry with me, I couldn’t seem to understand why, this is what is best for her isn’t it?

“Once we find her I will see to it she won’t return to her father, after that she will have nothing Jason, you can either be the one who holds her together, or you can be the one who tears her apart.”

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Master List


The best thing about How to Train Your Dragon is How to Train Your Dragon.

Adhkār Before Sleeping

قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم : من قرأ بالآيتين من آخر سورة البقرة ‏في ليلة كفتاه.

The Messenger of Allāh ﷺ said: “Whoever recites the last two verses of Sūrah al-Baqarah at night, they will suffice him.” ● [رواه البخاري ومسلم]

Ibn al-Qayyim Raḥimahullāh said: “Suffice him for any evil that may harm him.” ● [الوابل الصيب ١٣٢]

‘Alī b. Abī Ṭālib RaḍiAllāhu-‘Anhu said: “I hold the opinion that no sane person can go to sleep before reciting the last three Āyāt of Sūrah al-Baqarah.” ● [الأذكار ٢٢٠]

people: omg the champions league is back!!! i’m so excited!!

me, a sane person who’s been through this before: *runs away*