Alajdjdkfja I just came out to my brother and he took it well. He said he loves and supports me. I feel like a balloon that was deflated. I feel good.
my pan awakening: Me realizing that I can like girls. Few months later: me realizing that some people aren't cisgender, and THEN realizing 'holy shit people are attractive'. So now, three years later, I am dating this amazing nonbinary person (whom I love with all my heart) and I have a bunch of friends in the LGBTQ+ community. (also, our five months is this friday and I didn't realize how much I could actually love someone??)