im a lesbian
ok so I know I have like no followers but I just have something I need to say
i don’t really have a safe place in real life to talk about this and i’m dying to talk about it, i wanna scream it out loud i wanna talk about it so bad, i’m overflowing with emotion and relief about it…
im a lesbian! i love women!
im so happy that i’ve finally accepted that i’m gay! its a huge relief off of my shoulders, i felt trapped by forced heterosexuality and i repressed the side of me that loved women, i tried so hard to force myself to be straight, i forced myself to develop ‘crushes’ on guys in order to trick myself into thinking i was straight
and after another failed relationship where i totally dropped the ball because i was literally repulsed even thinking about having sex with this guy, it hit me, im gay
and the more i thought about it the more excited i got thinking about dating a girl instead of a guy, and even thinking about having sex with a girl seemed so much more exciting and just felt like i was what i meant to do all along. i was never meant to date boys i was meant to date girls!
to think about the fact that im actually so excited to date people who im actually both sexually and emotionally attracted to is so mindblowing to me, before when i thought about dating men it gave me so much anxiety and self doubt and confusion that just isnt there when i think about dating women.. in fact i feel happy and excited to dating women and i want to find the girl of my dreams and get married, suddenly the idea of spending forever with someone i love isnt so scary anymore
im so happy to be gay