i was going through my concert pictures and

anonymous asked:

I was looking through the Instagram of one of the girls who died at the Ariana concert, it made me tear up a bit because she was so beautiful and she seemed so happy. I also saw that she was a 1D fan and she saw them at the same arena, she saw Ari in. What really had me going was a picture she posted on May 22nd 2016 and it made me so incredibly sad that she'd only live another 365 days on earth.

This really breaks my heart… xx

Comparing and Wondering: Jay Park

“Y/N I don’t understand how you do it,” my friend, April, says to me from across the table as she stares at her phone.

“Do what?” I question as I move the food on my plate around with the fork.

“Be so trusting of Jay. He’s in a different country releasing these videos of him surrounded by women while you’re here studying 24/7,” April says looking up from her phone.

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Taylor, one day I hope I get to meet you, just the thought of hugging makes me happy. But a girl can dream so I thought i would share mine ya know so you could just get a feeling for how it would go down :) So it all begin at the TS6 concert, I’ll was singing and dancing my little heart out jamming out while your preforming on stage having the time of your life. All of a sudden I got tapped on the shoulder and when I turned around just to find MAMA SWIFT standing there waiting for me to calm down so she could ask me if I wanted to go meet Taylor at the TS6 party…. AND I BURST INTO TEARS I COULDN’T BELIEVE THAT I, Akhila, WOULD EVER MEET TAYLOR SWIFT AGAHAGAH I COULDNT PROCESS IT but IK I had to keep it cool because I didn’t want mama swift to think I was weird lol. After she left I went back to my HAPPY place where I listened to Taylor sing WILL I would scream at the top of my lungs trying to keep my excitement together. So anyways time goes by and finally Taylor Nation tells us all to go and meet at a certain spot in the arena, just like all of Taylor’s after concert fan meet ups. I was scrolling through my phone looking at all the LOFT 89’ pics trying to find a perfect pose but then I stopped and turned my phone off and realized I shouldn’t copy someone else’s pose I should do my own.. so ya know the drill Taylor walks in and my heart instantly exploded into a million pieces but I told myself to keep it together so I wouldn’t ruin the picture but as soon as she walked up to me and gracefully said,“ Hey Akhila, I’m Taylor,” I balled my eyes out but she helped me get back together because she told me that she didn’t want to have the time we had together go to waste and so we talked and laughed and all I could think about was how incredibly happy she made me that day. When she walked away I didn’t even feel bad because I knew that she would never forget our special moment. Buddy if your lurking and you happen to read this I just wanted to let you know that I CANT WAIT TILL THE DAY I MEET YOU but until then I can only dream :)) I love you from the bottom of my heart sunshine 💓💓 @taylorswift ~ Akhila :)

i just want to wear some chacos and throw my hair in a messy bun and read my bible and go on soul-filling adventures and drink good coffee and eat good food and be with people that fuel my soul and see God in everything i do. i want to take pictures and travel and have my feet always dirty, hair always messy, and eyes always sparkling. i want to love and fall in love. i want to listen to The Lumineers and go to concerts and dance without holds. i want to sing at the top of my lungs and stick my head out of car windows as we drive through the mountains. i want to love, to be loved and to live authentically. i want to get the most out of this beautiful life. 👣☀️

Things I should be doing:

  • making the next text post meme
  • getting screenshots for future text post memes
  • working on one of the other 500+ b.a.p projects i have
  • organising my blog tags like i said i would 2 weeks ago
  • look for a theme for the blog and make a page detailing tags
  • going through my tumblr bookmarks bcs they’re making my browser lag
  • finish writing the chicken post that’s been in my drafts for 3 weeks
  • prepare for the b.a.p concert in poland
  • literally anything

Things I am doing:

  • looking at pictures of hedgehogs
  • that’s all
Regalia University Part 2

Yoongi x reader

This au is based off a similar “school” concept from my previous fic, Telecom.

Genre: Strong language, love, angst, music, school life,

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Regalia is the school for dreamers and achievers. It is a school for widely talented people and you have always wanted to go there. The place that most idols, authors, and painters come from; was the university that you wanted to go too… And the university you were accepted to.

The exciting news sent chills through your spine as you thought of your exciting new future to come from it… But boy were you wrong…

It all started with your dorm neighbor…

Min Yoongi.

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Early 2000s

Thanks to @skydiving-zebra for the inspiration!

-Chatting on messenger all the time. Sometimes staying up till the early hours of the morning

-Sharing your favorite new bands and songs on MySpace

-Both going through sort of an emo phase, going to so many Fall Out Boy and My Chemical Romance concerts

-Also, both of you dying your hair another weird color every month

-Wearing matching denim jackets

-He would send you so many of those ‘Emo Buddies’ pictures. He’s particularly fond of “I made you a cookie but I eated it.”
-A new website called YouTube becomes popular so you guys film yourselves doing random shit and upload them

-When High School Musical comes out all you wanna do is sing. You convince him to sing a couple duets with you. Eventually he starts liking the songs as well (not that he’d admit it)

-Him taking you to see every Harry Potter movie that comes out

i miss counting down the days til the next big time rush episode and waiting for their new songs which took forever to come out and seeing them post pictures together and going through the meet and greet pictures every day from their concert the night before and watching their new interviews and going to their concerts and feeling sick when the countdown for them to come on stage got to 5 minutes because i was so excited and i would like to go back to 2012 now 

Taken from The 1975 concert in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.  (5/11/17)

I attended this show with my best friend, my favorite person in the world, my girlfriend.  Currently, she is on an amazing adventure, studying abroad in Athens, Greece for a month.  I am so proud of her, and so excited for her, but I miss her so much.  I keep going through the pictures of this concert, because it was the last time I was able to see her before she left, and I couldn’t have asked for a better way to celebrate her leaving.  We spent the weekend together, driving many hours to get to Pittsburgh and watching one of our favorite bands (which she actually introduced to me) perform. After living within walking distance during the year at college, spending the weekend together for this concert, and txting, calling, and facetiming each other constantly, this is a huge adjustment for me.  I miss her so much but still I am so happy for her. She is my rock, and a saying that we have helps me focus on the bigger picture of life, and will help me get through the next few weeks without her. 

“What’s a month, when we have forever”


Hi, I’m a french black girl and went to myname’s concert in Paris last month. The show was awesome and I’ve just noticed going through my videos that there were a lot of staring going on. I’m actually pretty tall so you’d see me in a crowd but I never thought they had seen me.

I feel like I’m overreacting, and that maybe they were just zoning out and all, but i got so much pictures of them (especially jun q and insoo) zoning out in my direction that i want to believe that they were actually looking at me. Anyway here are some gif, tell me what you think :)

KM & BW: abs! and what they whispering about? Hmm! (¬‿¬) and girl, you know what you saw, these idols are known to stare a lot, so you’re not overacting, it’s just a lot to take in xD

Once in a Never (pt.1)

Justin had been my favorite artist for quite some time now. My mom had gotten sick of me crying, not literally, every time I would see pictures of him on tour. I remember pre-ordering the album and being the first to write a review for it. Some how, my mom magically pulled a meet and greet ticket out of the air.

“You know, you better be grateful missy. I payed 2,000 dollars for that pass.” My mom says. The bags under her eyes were big and dark.

“Mom, you don’t have to go. I can bring Alisha.” I say. I had on shorts, white, low-cut converse, and a black t-shirt with Mrs.Bieber printed on the back. I had my mom put my hair in two braids.

“No, I payed for two tickets.” My mom says, putting her shoes on.

“Mom, you know that you’re going to be falling asleep. Just stay home and sleep, I’ll take lots of pictures and videos.” I say, grabbing my bag, and the tickets. My mom sighs and nods her head.

“Have fun Y/N and be safe. Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.” My mom says, smiling tiredly. She presses her lips to my forehead and pushes me out the door. I pull my phone out of my bag and call Alisha.

“Hey, so, I know it’s last minute and kind of random, but do you want to go to the concert with me tonight?” I ask, sliding into my car. I hear shrieks and crying through the phone. She was in hysterics.

“Is that a fucking question! Of course I want to go!” She half cries, half screams.

“Okay, we’ll be ready in ten minutes.” I say, hanging up the phone. The drive to her house was pretty quick. I honk the horn once I’m outside. I see my best friend walk out of the house, smiling like a fat boy when he sees cake. She had on shorts, a white t-shirt, converse similar to mine, and a plaid shirt tied around her waist. Once she’s in the car I grin.

“Bitch you look cute.” I say as I start the engine. She laughs hard flips her hair. The drive there was actually really long, due to the traffic. Alisha and I bumped Purpose the whole ride there. We got there really early, but there were still a bunch of people there.

“I’m super excited. Thank you for inviting me.” Alisha says, gripping onto my arm.

“There’s a disclaimer. So, my mom got only one meet and greet ticket, and I’m not giving that up,” I say as I bite my lip. “,but there’s good news! We have floor seats, like right by the stage.” I say, trying to make her feel a little better.

“Are you kidding me! I’m just glad I get to be in the same place that Justin Bieber is in.” She says laughing. I nod my head and smile. There’s one thing I’ve always loved about this girl, she never toke anything for granted. We both got out of the car and headed for the line, being a little in the front.

“I’m so fucking excited.” Alisha streaked. I laughed and shook my head. Believe me, I was extremely excited, but I wanted to let it all out when he came out. After about an hour of waiting, the doors opened, and me in Ali flooded in, showing our tickets. We were nearly the first people in here. The stadium was massive. The last time I had been here was to watch The Jonas Brothers. Me and Alisha found our seats quickly, right by the stage, so close we could touch where Justin would walk. I looked at her and squealed.

“I’m nervous and excited. I think I’m gonna pass out.” I say, fanning my face. I grab a bottle of water out of bag and take a sip. We waited, again, going through some really fun opening acts, my favorite being Post Malone. We were sitting in between the break when all of the sudden, the lights turned off. I got up and started screaming at the top of my lungs, tears rolling down my cheeks. Alisha was just as bad as me. Before I knew it, Justin Bieber was cascading down the ceiling in a clear box. The intro for Mark My Words started playing. I was shaking and couldn’t control my breathing. Alisha had her camera out, recording every moment.

The show went on, and it went by fast because I was having so much fun. Justin layer down next to me and Alisha and held our hands. He was just as gorgeous as he is in pictures.

“Alisha, you can go wait in the car, I’m sure the meet and greet will be short.” I say after the show.

“Wait.” She says. She begins to let my braids loose, my hair cascading over my shoulders.

“Y/N now Justin will want to fuck you.” She says laughing at her own joke. I roll my eyes and laugh.

“Even if I smell all gross and sweaty?” I say as I grin.

“Have fun, and tell Justin I said hi.” She says, walking towards the car. I had my pass in hand, ready to go meet him. The line for this was actually pretty small, only 25 people or so. I wanted to be in the back, so I could spend more time with him. Finally, it was my turn.

“Pass?” The security guard asks. He was muscular and scary. I hand him my pass, and he scans it, making sure it’s real.

“Go ahead.” He says. He opened the door for me, letting me in. I see Justin sitting down in a chair, drinking a water bottle. My knees got weak, and I wanted to cry. He turns around seeing me, and smiles.

“Hi, I’m Justin. What’s your name?” Justin asks. He wraps me into a big hug.

“Y/N. I’m really sorry if I smell bad. I had so much fun tonight. You put on a great show, and I love you so much.” I begin to ramble, tears rolling down my cheeks. Justin pulls back and looks me in the eye.

“Hey, don’t cry, we gotta take pictures.” He says, wiping my tears with his thumbs. Jesus Christ he’s so amazing. We take a few pictures, one of us hugging, another with his arm wrapped around my shoulders, and the last one with me kissing his cheek.

“Thank you so much. I know you must be tired.” I say, smiling.

“Yeah just a little.” Justin says sarcastically. I laugh softly and grab my phone, seeing one text from my mom. Justin grabs my phone out of my hand and tucks it away.

“Wait, Justin, my mom texted me.” I say, trying to reach behind him to get it. He laughs more and holds it above my head. I sigh and cross my arms.

“You know, you’re lucky you’re tall.” I say smiling. Justin laughs along with me.

“Well, I need to do something really fast.” He says, turning his back to me. I didn’t know what he was doing, but my pone was back in a matter of seconds.

“It was nice meeting you, but I have to go. Bye Y/N.” He says, engulfing me in another, warm and cuddly hug. I get to the car, Alisha is passed out in the front seat. My phone buzzes and someone named Mike was texting me.

‘Hey it’s Justin. I couldn’t let such a cute girl slip through my fingers like that -x’

Bowie as a symbol of hope and fear

In less than a couple of months David Bowie will have been dead for a year. For many of us, his death marked the beginning of a painful, gruelling long year that just kept taking good things from us. Culturally, politically, and personally.

I’ve tried to understand for the longest time what it is about Bowie’s death that just continues to grab my chest and squeeze it so horribly. I recently saw the 16:9 version of the Lazarus video, and I had to take a moment afterward and collect myself and force the nausea away. It still gets me, still.

I felt foolish for awhile– I didn’t know the man, why was this affecting me so badly, why can’t I just get it together– but it didn’t help to just berate myself. The feeling was not going away. I can’t wrap it up in a little box and never be upset about it again.

Last October my grandfather’s cancer returned and he moved into a facility for palliative care. We knew it was going to be his last Christmas that year, and it was. He died in April.

What struck me when the Blackstar video came out was how much Bowie looked like my grandfather. I literally had that thought, that David Bowie looked like my ninety-year-old grandfather dying of cancer. I had that thought but took it no further. What good would it do? Convince myself that David Bowie was also dying?

We always talk about how hindsight messes with your ability to understand your previous perceptions of things: how could we have not known he was dying?

Twitter got so excited when Bowie was spotted going to Lazarus. It was a meltdown–more pictures of Bowie! Not once did I see anybody say, “hey, is everything okay?”

Because what good would that do?

I’d made Bowie into a symbol of everything working out okay. That’s why it provided me with such comfort to cling to grainy 1995 concert footage and press conference videos that nobody else would bother to get through. Whenever I was scared about things in my own life, I would absorb the period of Bowie’s life where things turned out okay for him. He was happily married, drug-free, and smiled all the time. Things turn out okay. His art reflected that; it became safe.

I spent a day worrying about whether somebody in my life was going to die by distracting myself with Bowie videos.

I’ve come to realize that’s why his latter work is so important to me. It provided hope when there were things happening in my life that could have had catastrophic endings. But hey, it worked out okay. Just like Bowie. And so I more strongly associated him with things working out.

And then he died. It was staring us in the face–he certainly didn’t make an effort to hide what was happening in his art–and we were still blindsided. It terrified me that something so obvious could have happened and seemed so shocking. My perfectly-crafted narrative about Bowie was wrecked. Of course he had to die someday, but why now? I wasn’t finished with him as a symbol yet. Everything got cast in shadow–The Next Day went from being a triumphant return to the tense yet falsely calm scene before the jump scare.

I realized the sadness that remained about Bowie after the true, honest sadness faded, was a more selfish feeling of fear. If ‘things working out’ was not a final definitive state, then what?

Bowie dying became so much more than Bowie dying (which was upsetting enough anyway): it was fear of dying, fear of illness, uncertainty, the passing of my grandfather, my comforting hobby being destroyed, the beginning of such a shitty, shitty year (that became apparent when Alan Rickman died not four days later. Fucking hell.)

And some of those things you can never be over, they’re unfortunate parts of life. Bowie just happened to be tangled up in that anxiety.

Of course I’m sad that he’s gone. But his death was a jarring reminder that life can happen to anybody, any time, and will not follow your happy little narratives.


It’s been over a week since I met Fifth Harmony. I had been waiting for this day for months. The only reason I was allowed fly to see them was because my parents wanted me to have something to look forward to because I had an accident in June where I received third degree burns so I’ve been in hospital a lot since then and had two skin graft surgeries two months apart. I had no independence after this I couldn’t walk or sit or use stairs do simple things, I couldn’t even have a shower by myself. That was the easy part of it, the pain is excruciating 24/7 they prescribe shit for you but they even tell you nothing will stop the pain. I also couldn’t go back to school yet. So when every else was going back to school I was in hospital. 

From June until november I had to get dressing changes every second day. Unless you’ve experienced it the pain you go through during it is indescribable. My sister would wait outside while my mam held my hand and my sister would still hear me screaming and crying in pain from outside. Just before I’d go in every time i listened to Brave Honest Beautiful to remind myself that I was brave enough to face this again. My dressing changes are only once a week now which makes me so happy.

After 6 weeks of missing school so the end of October my surgeon told me i could go back to school part time. I had my first full day back at school on Monday November 2nd and saw the girls on Wednesday November 4th. A full day at school was a massive challenge I could still barely walk and needed cushions to sit on through at least one class so travelling to Manchester was a seriously tough challenge for me having to walk around airports sit on a plane in a taxi lots of walking and standing around all day for m&g etc it was really diificult but I knew the happiness the girls would bring me was worth the pain. 

 After my five months from hell, on that day with the girls they made me so fucking happy. During the concert I had the biggest smile on my face the whole time. Physically I put my body through a lot going to the concert since I’m not recovered but it was so amazing It outweighs it. What Lauren said to me in that first picture I’ll never forget. I love that picture because we weren’t posing. She hugged me so tight and didn’t want to let go. She also told me how proud she was of me and how brave I am and kept repeating how much she loved me.All the pain was worth it for this moment. Dinah showed me her Ireland bracelet she had on from a fan and when I told her i was missing two days of school for this she told me to tell my teachers I was doing an essay hahah. She told me she loved me and hugged me and I felt all the pain i’ve gone through wash away and in that moment i felt safe. Ally also showed me her ireland bracelet and made me feel so loved. I didn’t get a chance to go to Normani and Camila I really wish I did but being near them made my heart happy.I love the girls and they made me more happy in one day than I had been in the past few months. 

I love you girls thank you for the m&g, the concert and thank you for being there for me without knowing it the past few months. You really helped me. You were the only reason for my smile throughout all this. Due to time difference when I had sleepless nights because of the pain It’d be 7am and You’s would be coming off stage and I’d watch Dinahs stories and wipe my tears and smile. I really appreciate you girls. I’ll never forget what you’ve done for me and I’ll never forget this day! I love you always 💕 can you help me get the girls to see this? I’d really appreciate it! @ssweet-dispositionn @waakeme-up @normanikordeiofficial @allybrookeofficial @beeautifulmistake97

  • psychic: *reading my mind*
  • me: here we go, the whiskering begins. gimme your face. no pressure. nose pressure ahahahhaha pa ching and pa zam. your nose is quite a nice texture today. today? that face is not helping. no, no, no, no. how do I look? pretty great. fabulous. aw aw. whiskening achieved. let's answer some Qs. that's an X. you had one job, phil. *clapping* what happens in the basement of google? it's where vloggers are born. mother. would you rather have barbed wire eyelashes, ow, or grass hair? uh, grass hair. why? get a tiny mower, different style everyday. brrr brrr brrr. is canada real? uh, no. it's a fictional country, isn't it? I was aboot to say. *finger snapping* advertise the item closest to you in the most disturbing way you can. it's actually a pair of my underwear which was on the floor. that is your underwear? oh my god. underwear? watch out for an under-scare! disturb not make the worst pun ever. sorry. do a creepy face! *dramatic music* oh wow, that's horrific *weird noises* nooo, no no no no. phil, sing the first song that comes into your head in a scottish accent. oh, I don't know what song is in my head. what the what was that? ow. rekt. no. that was like a russian no. what the fuck was that? there's a russian man in my stomach. I think phil's trying to drop hints that's he's a cannibal, guys. rrr. play tug of war with phil's stress mushroom. what is the stress mushroom? they mean this baby. no, not that. I hate that. No! *struggling* no *more struggling noises* Oh. there's wet stuff in it- OH MY GOD -what is this?-WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME? WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENED? rest in peace, disturbing mushroom. do the next question in dan's room. invent a new swear word and use it in a sentence. alright, ch-chanksplooned. alright, go on then. yeah, I chanksplooned your mom's face. do we wanna know what does chanksplooned-ok. what would be written on your tombstone? oh phil, there was never a better king of the universe. for god's sake. what's on yours, dan? ugh. dan, you're a penguin with rabies and phil, you're a mouse that's constipated. *weird noises* have a staring contest with dan while barking like dogs. whoever laughs first, wins. (?) 3, 2, 1. *barking noises* AH HA HA. y'all laughed. invent something that not one person would ever use. a bed made out of smashed glass. I wouldn't use it. fair enough. phil, sing the john cena theme while dan pretends to be john cena. *john cena theme* ow haha ow I knew that was coming *laughter* do an impression of a dying goose *weird noise* what the hell was- oh my god. *laughter* *weird noise* make a duet about ladders. ladders ladders ladders ladders ladders ladders ladders- who would(?) you step on them and you climb-ladders ladders ladders ladders- they're made of metal, they go up-ladders ladders ladders- if you're a fireman, they're really high. laddeeeerss. ladders ep. that's the symbol of our band. everyone put out their ladder hands. yeah, that's what the crowd's gonna be doing to our concerts. YEAH, LADDERS AH. you just broke the sound barrier. that's what happens when you go fast, you idiot. what the f- oh my god. become a season. oh oh wha what was that? oh, it's spring. you were birthing something. phil, what vegetable should be king? the op-carrot? scroll through your camera roll without looking, choose a random picture and explain the story. scroll scroll scroll STOP. I- I was witnessing nature in action. and taking sneaky photos of it, you perv. HAHAHA. what is happening in this photo? it looks like I'm in a public toilet mid-blink. wow. *bad beatboxing* dan, you're a nacho. phil, you're the salsa. make fanfic. I'm just so dry and crusty and until I just get inside you and submerged myself in your red juices. DIP ME - I can't get into myself-DIP ME DIP ME DIP ME AH DIP DIP AHH AHHH AAAHHH AHHH I'M COMPLETE MMMM MMM. stop it. let's all take a moment to just forget that happened. what is your favorite number of the alphabet? seventy-L. how dry is your wenis? wait, I know what your wenis is! ayee, ayee. it's this. mine's pretty soft. this is your wenis. let me stroke your wenis. that is a smooth wenis. tickle my wenis? *laughter* pretty soft as well. damn, guys. moisturized wenii. ah, let's just move on. let's move on. say a really unerotic word in a sexy voice and then lick your lips. exhaust pipe. OH *disgusted voice* OH I FEEL VIOLATED. concrete. *laughter* nooo. play the spoons. my grandma actually used to play the spoons so, prepare yourselves. *metal sounds* spoons. look up friendship yoga and imitate the first image. what? what the hell is that? HOW ARE WE GONNA DO THAT? so, we sit on our butts, not on our backs and make sure you're kinda like resting on your butt then feet together and then hands. reach. ah, I got one. and the other one. ow. ok. wait, wait, wait. alright now, over to the top. friendship. ow. *laughter* ow ow oh my god I pulled my leg oh oh. we have a very low friendship level otherwise that clearly would've worked. disaster. phil, reenact the photo of chris pratt and his raptors using house plants. I've got this. oh, god. here it is. ok, phil, very well done. *clapping* I'm so proud. that's pretty- you have a problem though. you seriously- I am chris plant. oh, did you just? do a trust exercise. no, no, no that's not a good idea. I'm actually scared. phil, you better-I'm gonna catch you. fall. oh my god. fall. AH OH OH MY GOD OH OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH. your scream was incredible. YOU CAUGHT ME. I did. I DIDN'T DIE. Yeah. let's end this right now. So, there we go. thumbs up for another year of phil is not on fire. I'm quite shocked that I actually lived through this video-yeah- it was quite dangerous. You can click on phil's face to subscribe to his channel or my face to subscribe to dan. or click our bellies to subscribe to danandphilgames. is that a thing? give em a little tickle. ok. also, there's loads of new stuff on dan and phil shop so check the out- check that out- there's a link below. and we will see you guys next year. yeahh. i mean, we are gonna make videos but until this, the whiskers will return- there, there will be another of this. ACHOO. uh, sorry. I think that that's a good time to end it. Goodbye. *slow motion screaming*
  • psychic: what the actual fuck
LOFT 89 Chicago!

I just wanted to write a quick post to share my experience when I got to meet Taylor Swift. So many people have asked me about it and I figured that writing it all out in a post would make it as clear as possible and I can get into details without forgetting anything!

So I had the opportunity to see Taylor Swift this weekend at Soldier Field on Saturday and Sunday. I had pit seats on Saturday, which is a general admission section on both sides of the runway. It’s as close as you can be. I had the most fantastic night of my life and I never thought anything could be better than seeing Taylor for the 6th time that up close and personal. Here are some pictures I managed to capture of her walking down the runway near us.

I had so much fun and couldn’t have wished for a better night. I had heard via Twitter that Taylor hadn’t been feeling well and was on vocal rest. I figured that she wouldn’t be doing Loft 89 in Chicago that night.

I woke up Sunday morning so unbelievably excited to see Taylor perform AGAIN! I was super excited to wear my costume that my friend Kiley and I had made.

After getting an insane amount of weird looks on our way to Soldier Field, we were finally in! We immediately went to find the Taylor Nation booth, where the workers for TN hang out, take photos of concert goers, and have Taylor’s outfits on display for fans to take pictures of. We wanted to wait in line and go through the experience, but it was very long. We were looking at the costumes on display when a few different groups of people wanted to take photos with us! It was really awesome, everyone was so nice and were complimenting our outfits.

It was really funny how this ended up because we were talking to all of these people right in front of one of the TN workers. If you’re not familiar, these people have a lot of influence regarding who gets to meet Taylor Swift in Loft 89. I was really happy that one of the workers saw everything happening.

We went to go get shirts and we sat down to watch Shawn Mendes. He was just as good as he was on Saturday and really knew how to get the crowd going. I was so excited to see Vance Joy and HAIM again: I have been fans of theirs for awhile and knew all of their songs.

We took a quick bathroom break between Vance and HAIM and we were asked to take a ton of photos with people again! It was so funny and strange to be asked for a photo. We hurried back to our seats as HAIM was starting their first song. I knew every word and got SO into it. I noticed the same woman who worked for Taylor Nation walk around our section about three or four times between Shawn and HAIM’s performance and I was getting butterflies in my stomach, but I didn’t want to get my hopes up.

Taylor came on around 9:15 and I was so excited to see her perform again, I forgot about being distracted about Loft 89 and just enjoyed the performance. I was particularly really into “I Knew You Were Trouble” because Tay sang the majority of the song on the runway, which was super close to my seats. About a minute or two into the song, I felt someone tap me on my left shoulder on the aisle. As soon as I turned around it was ANDREA SWIFT and I immediately knew what was coming. I just started crying and hugged her before I said a word and she was so smiley and couldn’t stop laughing! My friend Kiley and I couldn’t stop freaking out and Andrea goes, “WELL HELLO THERE! I have a question for you ladies. Have you ever met Taylor Swift?” And I started FREAKING OUT and I honestly don’t even think I responded, I just kept crying. Kiley kept telling her “NO NO NO! NO WE HAVEN’T MET HER!” And Andrea goes, “Well do you want to meet her after the show?” And we said “YES!!!!” And she said, “Are you sure you haven’t met her before?” Clearly just giving us a hard time because it was so amusing. We kept saying no we haven’t met her! And a woman next to Taylor (I honestly didn’t even look at her) Took my arm and put a Loft 89 bracelet on and Andrea put one on Kiley. We kept freaking out as they walked away and we couldn’t stop shaking! We saw that a couple girls two rows in front of us had gotten Loft 89 too and we were so happy! We were in such shock that we missed the entire next song, “I Wish You Would.” I don’t remember any of it!

We tried to enjoy the rest of the concert and not think about what we were POSSIBLY going to say to Taylor. The concert continued and it was as fantastic as the first night. I will never get tired of seeing her perform.

As the finale ended, we hurried to the section designated for us and watched as people walked by us saying “Congrats!” It was so surreal. I was really meeting Taylor after wishing for this moment since I was 12? I still am in shock.

Sierra from Taylor Nation made sure we all had our wristbands and quickly told us the rules.

1) When you get into Loft 89, you can take as many photos as you’d like, but no videos. If you are seen taking videos, you will be asked to leave.

2) When Taylor comes in, you have to put your phones away. If you are caught taking photos of her, you will be asked to leave.  You can have your phone out when you are getting ready to take the photo with her.

3).  You get one photo per group with Taylor. No videos, no vines, no snap chats, etc.

4) You cannot have your phone out even after you have had your time with Taylor.

Here are a few photos I took while waiting for Taylor!

After about twenty five minutes or so, Taylor came in!! She walked in and threw her arms up in the air and goes “HEY GUYS! I’M NOT ON VOCAL REST BECAUSE I HAVE FIVE DAYS OFF!” And everyone cheered!

I was the third group to talk to her and while waiting for my turn, I couldn’t stop STARING at her. She was so attentive with each group she talked to and made everyone feel so welcomed and like she really wanted to hear what we had to say.

When she finally came up to Kiley and I, she said “HEY GUYS!” And hugged Kiley first. She started talking about “great we looked” and how we must have been getting a lot of stares. As she turned to hug me as we made eye contact, I immediately started crying! She gave me a hug and we started telling her how we groups of people were taking pictures of us before the concert (Kiley said most of it, I couldn’t get many words out without blubbering like a baby). I finally started to calm down and she started asking us our names. As I said “Kristin,” she looked up from the ticket that she was signing for me, and said, “I LOVE your eyebrows!” I said “thank you!” and she goes, “You make me wish I had eyebrows!” I was laughing so much and couldn’t believe she said that (I take pride in my eyebrows).

As she finished signing my ticket, I asked her to write out “fearless” for me. Sidenote: I’ve always told myself since the album “Fearless” came out that if I ever met her, I would get her to write it down for me so I can it tattooed. I’m hoping to get it done soon!

The way that Kiley spells her name made Taylor think of “a band that she really likes,” and she said that they sing the Grey’s Anatomy theme song. THEN SHE STARTED SINGING THE THEME SONG. TAYLOR SWIFT SANG TO ME. I was trying not to completely collapse on the ground. Then we started talking about her cats and how “Olivia had a really good day, I woke up this morning and her head was right by my head.” And Taylor did the silliest gesture referencing to waking up to her cat. It was amazing.

Then we took a photo:

After the photo, we all hugged again, and she thanked us for waiting to meet her while she showered after the show because “You wouldn’t have wanted to hang out with me when I smell bad” LIKE SHE HAS TO THANK US FOR BEING INVITED TO MEET HER FOR FREE. She’s literally an angel.

Since we were third to meet her, we had a lot of time to hang out while she talked to everyone else, so we were talking to Andrea and got a couple photos with her as well!

It was honestly one of the best nights of my life. I am still in complete shock. Thank you so much for reading this and I really hope you were entertained by this post (as well as my Tweets, if you read them). I have been waiting to meet Taylor since I was thirteen and I cannot believe it finally happened. I am FOREVER GRATEFUL :)


**Side note: Someone who reblogged this mentioned that the band Taylor was referring to is called Rilo Kiley**

Fan account of B.A.P’s LOE2016: Dallas 4/21/16

After spending the day collecting my thoughts, I will now share my experience of B.A.P’s concert in Dallas, and what occurred that really touched my heart. 

Let me say that I have been to almost 30 concerts in my 22 years of all different genres and sizes, but this concert was hands down the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. What happened at the end of the concert was really the cherry on top. This is really long, so if you don’t feel like reading all of it, I do ask that you read the last paragraph.

My boyfriend and I arrived at the Verizon Theatre around 5:30 p.m. and queued up (we had pretty good spots in line). We were both super excited as this was our first k-pop concert of any kind. The Babyz around us were all super friendly! Two of the girls behind us picked up their pre-ordered CDs and both won hi-touch along with several other fans that passed by, which prompted many of us to become nervous about getting a hi-touch at the merch table. The doors opened, we made our way inside, and I bee-lined straight for the merch line. I picked a short line and waited anxiously for my turn. My boyfriend and I were watching the people ahead as they bought their merch and no one seemed to be getting a hi-touch. I hadn’t hyped myself up on the possibility of getting a hi-touch so I wouldn’t be disappointed if I didn’t get one. A girl that pre-ordered 4 albums won 2 and my boyfriend actually went over to her and asked if she was selling the extra lol (she wasn’t). Soon it was my turn and I asked the lady for an album and a matoki lightstick. She placed both down in front of me, and I just stared at the album while she processed my payment. I couldn’t bare to look!! So my bf grabbed the album, snuck a look, and his jaw dropped and his eyes got wide. I just stared at him, screaming in my head “No no no, there’s no way! He’s lying!” I finally opened my mouth and said “Are you kidding? I really got it?!” I snatched the album from his hands and squealed when I saw that little yellow sticker. I couldn’t believe it! The girls behind me were the same ones behind us outside so they asked if I got it and then congratulated me, telling me to enjoy it. As I left the line I could see the other fans looking at my album and I really wished that more could’ve won.

Then I went to check out my seat. Since my ticket was a birthday gift and I bought my boyfriend’s ticket, we were in different sections. I was in 101 H (5th from the stage to the right side) and he was in 205. I sat with him until about 15 minutes before showtime then went back to my seat. There were only 4 seats in my row; two of the girls came together, and the girl next to me was by herself. Her bias was Yongguk too, so we promptly spent the rest of the night crying over him, as well as Himchan and Daehyun lol. 

Now the concert itself was phenomenal. The opening was just the drummer and the DJ but holy hell they killed it (this section was right by the bass so I felt every beat throughout my body) lol they definitely got everyone pumped up. My seatmate and I commented that we would totally go see them in concert if they ever do their own thing haha. Then the boys came out to ear-splitting screams. I was in total awe. It wasn’t until the second song that I started to take pics and videos. About 2/3 through the show, after JongUp’s solo, my entire rown had moved down in front of the stage (we were literally resting our selves on it and I’m glad the staff was ok with it lol) The boys are SO handsome in person! Pictures do not do them justice! I was really happy to see how playful they are with each other on stage. Especially the amount of fun Dae & Jae had with the airhorn sound effect haha. Just six cuties having fun and loving what they do. They truly gave 110% for every single song, while still throwing in cute side antics. The solos were amazing! Himchan was incredibly sexy during S.N.S. His voice is so smooth and wonderful. I was really proud of him! Daehyun was a sweetie during Shady Lady, telling us all to sit down. He drank some water, removed his jacket, then picked up the water again, saying “sorry” and flashing that cute smile of his. Jongup slayed Now, the choreo of which was incredible. It was really nice hearing his voice for an entire song, it really is beautiful and I hope he gets more opportunities in the future. Also, a gold sticker for those remixes, shizz was lit. 

The next events are what really killed me lol Daehyun walked over to my side (can’t remember what song) so I reached out my hand but was only able to touch his arm and he had a jacket on T^T He came back a little bit later and I was finally able to touch his hand (SO SOFT OMG). What I really noticed about Dae throughout the entire show,and especially up close, was that his eyes literally SPARKLE. He would look towards the fans, smile and cue the frickin’ sparkles!!! It was stunning to see up close. Himchan came over several times and I was able to touch his hands (SO SOFT TOO). He had such a happy smile the entire time and it was nice to see him that way. Boy is super handsome as well! Zelo wandered over a few times but I was never able to reach him lol he is so tall! Like please stop growing! Then, Bang Yongguk happened and ruined me forever. So I wasn’t able to reach him the first few times simply because he didn’t come that far over. Then I managed to skim over his arm (SOFTEST ARM I HAVE EVER FELT). He had the most precious, gummiest smile on his face, just full of love, and it made him a million times more attractive (if that’s possible). When he came over again, I was determined to touch his hand lol I was the second to last person at the side of the stage, my seatmate being the last. He walked over towards us and I stretched my arm up as high as possible. I locked hands with him and he HELD ONTO IT! He reached across himself and used his right hand to touch my seatmate’s fingers then started to turn away while STILL HOLDING ONTO ME. He didn’t try to toss my hand away or anything like that, instead he let it slide gently through his enclosed hand and then, right before we parted, HE SQUEEZED MY FINGERS IN THE MOST GENTLE, LOVING WAY. My soul left me right then. My seatmate and I freaked out together. R.I.P me. Then this boy walked back over a short time later, grabs onto my hand and my seatmate’s, she screams “I love you so much” he pauses, says something (either thank you or I love you too) AND THEN BENDS DOWN TO KISS THE BACK OF HER HAND!!!! LIKE THAT ROMANTIC MOVIE STUFF YOU SEE. He smiles and runs off, leaving us to turn to each other. She’s crying and I’m holding her screaming. That man is too smooth for his own good. 

There was one part during their second? talk I think, where Yongguk was having a problem with his mic or in-ear (he had a problem with his mic pack during the first talk and went offstage which prompted Daehyun to lead us all in a chant of “Bang Yongguk!”) so he walked over to the curtains on my side and maaaaaaaaan did he look amazing! He was in all black and sweaty and I could hear him yell something to someone in that beautifully deep voice of his. After the encore they were talking, mostly in english, then Jongup asked if it was okay if they speak Korean (so adorable) to which we all said yes. When it was Dae’s turn, he started laughing then ran to the side of the stage and grabbed the translator lol they kept him there, with their arms around him, until they were done talking. We tried singing happy birthday to Himchan when he talked but Youngjae, I think, motioned for us to wait, then he and Dae led us in singing to him :) Himchan’s face after was priceless. He looked so thankful and bowed. I have a video of us singing to him. 

Now the hi-touch! The order was Zelo, Jongup, Youngjae (why is he so stunning in person?), Himchan, Daehyun (Damn Dae, back at it again with the sparkly eyes), and Yongguk. I just told them they did a great job and of course I had to let Yongguk know I love him lol. 

This is the cherry of top of everything to me: my boyfriend had managed to find himself in the hi-touch area on accident but what he witnessed made my heart swell. The hi-touch took place right outside of the doors to the lower sections. He had gone over there to wait for me, not knowing that was where it was being held. He was standing next to a family with a girl with a disability in a wheelchair, and being the friendly person he is, struck up a conversation with the dad. Then Yongguk entered the room “just so cool and full of swag” (my bf’s words lol) followed by the rest. He realized what was going on but then the dad said “you’re my son now, stay here” so he did. A staff member commented on my bf’s shirt and then Youngjae spoke up and said he liked it too. He was shocked and said thanks, noticing that Yongguk was now staring at him. So my bf sticks out his hand and asks if he can shake his hand. Yongguk immediately agrees and cue the internal fanboying. Then it was time to start the hi-touch. The mother starts to push her daughter down the line, each one of the boys smiling and thanking her. Yongguk was standing with his arms braced on top of the table looking down. Once he caught sight of the girl, he reached across the other members and held her hand in both of his, guiding her closer to him. My boyfriend said he had the biggest smile on his face and was constantly talking to her and saying thank you. Then the girl and her family made their way outside, where my boyfriend would introduce me to them when I finished. I looked over at the girl and noticed she was crying (happy tears) so I smiled and bent down to her, asking if she had fun. She smiled back and said “yes, it was amazing” then continued to brush the tears off her cheeks. I smiled again and told her I was glad she had fun. We said goodbye then walked to our car. My boyfriend recounted his story to me on the way home and I was in total awe of Yongguk’s actions. I know all the work he and the members do for children and those with disabilities, as well as seen how sweet his is with kids in videos, but hearing this just sealed it for me. I am so proud to be a fan of a group of young men with such huge hearts. Yongguk is an amazing leader and does well to set good examples. The concert was remarkable, but his actions towards that young girl are something I will never forget. Thank you, B.A.P, for working so hard in all that y’all do, but even more so for having such warm, loving hearts, for all your fans, no matter what. Y’all truly make us feel like we are one big family.


Lauren fucking Jauregui looked at me. We had eye contact for 7 seconds. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I was just running through my hair, putting them on the other side, like Lauren does it and as I looked at Lauren, she already focused on me. The way she looked in my eyes…I wasn’t breathing for 7 seconds. My heart stopped. To be 100% sure that she was looking in my eyes, I smiled to see if she smiles back and as you can see, she smiled. I smiled and she smiled back. My heart cannot handle this. That video btw is NOT my video. I was going through my explore page on Instagram and suddenly saw this video. Someone took this video and it was exactly in that moment she looked at me. FATE HUHH LMAO. What a blessing honestly. I love her so much.

What also happened:

Before the concert, I met Ally’s dad and Dinah’s cousin. YES. I took a picture with Jerry but not with Dinah’s cousin because everyone wanted pictures and I didn’t wanted to pressure her even more. BUT I had the opportunity to give her the letters I had written for Camila, Lauren, Ally, Dinah and Normani.
I think they all received them safely because Camila followed me and that’s because I noted down my Twitter username…and I wasn’t tweeting or spaming her. So I’m really the happiest ever. I’m a little too late because it was last week (20th October) but I couldn’t find any time…I’m 24/7 on wattpad because I’m way too much into DIWK lol but here ya’ll go.


Well I saw no interactions, the only thing I saw was that Camila kept staring at Lauren’s ass. 😏🍑

That’s it. I’m the happiest.
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I don’t think I’ve ever posted this.. I made this a pretty long time ago, and I’m pretty sure that a lot of you don’t know this but I’m a HUGE fan of Tyler the creator. He’s just amazing and whenever I was going through my time of depression, I seen a status he made on his Facbook page and I burst out in tears, he’s an inspiration to me. <3 I’ve been to his concert here in my city and I have so many videos and pictures and I was so close to the stage ugh.. what was I talking about? Oh yeah. Uh Yeah have a desktop wallpaper lol. It’s free… give me credit and don’t steal.