i was feeling down so i drew this

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.

long time no uhh…draw. I am feeling physically and mentally better woo! I only threw up twice today instead of…. a lot of times yesterday! (I don’t know the exact number of times i vomited yesterday but it was a lot. I could barely move)

Anyway have a quick doodle of my bbys bc im actually in the mood to draw and i don’t feel super sick

“Every day seems like a new low. I’m currently going through a transition with housing. I’ve got issues with her father. I’m on my own for the first time. I don’t even know where we’re going to live. But she’s always trying to cheer me up. One time she drew a rainbow, and put it in the mailbox, and told me I had mail. When she saw me crying on Mother’s Day, she said: ‘I got you, Mommy. You’re the best Mommy ever and I’m always going to hold you down.’ And she learned this song from the show Yo Gabba Gabba. It goes: ‘If you try it, you’ll like it.’ So that’s what she says to me whenever I feel like I can’t get out of bed.”

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This post goes to @angexci. She hasn’t been feeling inspired lately and I saw a post between her and @nateev and I saw her talking about how drink is dying and that’s not true. I honestly prefer drink over cream.(but that’s just my opinion) and I’m one of those people who see someone feeling down and I just want to do anything I can to help so I drew this to try to make her feel better and to let her know she is loved.
Fell palette and palette belong to @angexci
Pass on this message to help her feel better. I’ll start by tagging some people. @nekophy @nateev @nelly-the-dog

Happy New Years everyone! The year 2016 was full of events. And I am so grateful to have such wonderful people in my life. They gave me courage and power to get through when I was feeling down. Thank you so so much!

I drew a girl in Hanbok ( traditional Korean dress) to celebrate the new year! It was super fun to draw and I definitely want to draw more people in Hanbok in the future! So many beautiful designs out there!

Again, Happy New Year!! 새해 복 많이 받으세요!! 

Does my art suck?

So this is a post that’s coming out of anxiety, confusion, and pain regarding my art… I’ll probably take it down in a little while but for now I just have to get it out of my head and somewhere else.

So I entered a contest on Deviantart feeling good about what I drew for it. I’ve been in plenty of contests before and have lost pretty much every one (except for one in high school but that really wasn’t a contest in which I used my style of art). Every time I enter one I feel that my art has matured and I’ve improved and think maybe for once I have a chance… I feel like I need to give up on that kind of thinking now. 

I lost yet again even when there were 25 spots in the semi finals. Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy for everyone who made it to the semi finals. It’s awesome. But it makes me question my art… I can’t help it.

I get denied for comic cons all of the time… I can never win a contest… I’ve had teachers tell me I have no sense of composition or original skilland it’s in these moments that I wonder if they were right. Maybe I’m not good enough. I know I have so much room for improvement… But will that ever get me anywhere? Does my art, in the end, just suck?