i was feeling down so i drew this

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.

I drew this for a friend who really liked Reaper when they were down. It seemed to help a lot. Recently, I haven’t been feeling all that great myself, and looked at my own lil’ Reaper doodles here to remind myself of a few things I try and tell others. 

I figured maybe some of you could use it too. So I’ll post ‘em. 

This was probably my first time ever drawing that mask. Started to get the hang of it when I got to the last panel. 

Some doodles I did on the side yesterday night ( @blesstale drew Zunde that there ) including Dreby taking his first steps. I saw this kid screaming “NOOOO!” at some meat in a grocery store before running to his mom, so there we go ✌️

long time no uhh…draw. I am feeling physically and mentally better woo! I only threw up twice today instead of…. a lot of times yesterday! (I don’t know the exact number of times i vomited yesterday but it was a lot. I could barely move)

Anyway have a quick doodle of my bbys bc im actually in the mood to draw and i don’t feel super sick

Hello world! Today I have been uploading quite a lot hehe..anyway on the 7th it was @therealjacksepticeye ‘s birthday! Honestly I had completely forgotten about it with my grandfathers memorial and all. You see the weirdest part of all is that the last time I drew something for Jack it was for the game “That Dragon,Cancer” ,I was so surprised and happy that he saw it ^^ , at that time I also wrote something under the the drawing. I wrote my feelings on the subject of cancer and how my grandfather was ill with it. It happened that on the 8th of Febrouary of 2016 my grandfather died after being in intence care for a week. So today was actualy his one year memorial…the reason why I forgot about Jack. But while I was kinda down and all I saw his video “The day of birth” and it tottaly cheered me up instantly so I sat down and drew this. It’s cute and it’s my first time trying to draw @wiishu…. I hope I did good heheh [also I may or may not have done a small wiishu marathon lol ] Anyway I think I vended long enough… cheerful and all ahahaha…I need to get my cheerful mojo back aaaagh… I WIISHU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAAAAAACK!! <3 yup that’s more like it :)

The Pawns And The Kings

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7

Originally posted by bangtanbtsmut

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Type: Smut

Plot: The reader is kidnapped, left alone in utter darkness. Once the day of her auctioning comes, she’s given to the head of one of the worlds most powerful gangs, Jungkook. She was nothing but a gift to him. But her little soul turns out to have the power to turn the tides in the worlds angriest ocean. And it turns out, Jungkook isn’t the only man whom eyes have settled upon her.

Warning, this chapter contains strong sexual language, and is smut.  It contains fingering. 

I had never really felt something so disguised by love. A feeling that betrays my mind and feeds my body, and in return my heart becomes vulnerable. Lust. I had never really felt it once in my life, up until now. But I still don’t understand it. The very feeling of it, the desire that bubbles up in your stomach, clouds your judgement and erases any of your critical thinking skills.

Oh how he flooded me with this feeling, the dopamine he released within my brain, the endorphin’s that acted out of pure desire for pleasure, one that he could create and expect for me to return. I had always seen it as a sin, but he makes me see it as an addiction.

Keep reading

Just Right

(Bucky x Reader)
Thank you anonymous requester!


Reader has been secretly drawing Bucky for a long time, but can never seem to get his eyes just right. In frustration, one day she storms over to him and demands that he sit still so she can finally get his eyes right.

Warnings: Nada

As an artist, you loved observing the diverse people who passed through, and lived in the Avengers tower. Ever since you joined the team about 3 months ago, you have had a keen interest in your team members eyes. They all held so much, and although you were able to read their thoughts, you felt you could learn so much more from simply looking into their eyes.

“Why can’t I just get them right?” You groaned to yourself as you rubbed your eraser aggressively against the paper of your sketch book.

You’re a talented artist, this shouldn’t have been difficult, but you could not draw Bucky’s eyes for the life of you. You tried day after day, but were unable to get them perfect, making you ever so frustrated. You scanned the room to see if he was nearby, but you couldn’t hear his thoughts. You hopped up off the couch and made your way to the place where Bucky could almost always be found, the gym. You opened the glass doors and he immediately caught your eye. You watched as he performed multiple different exercises, but couldn’t get a good view of those piercing blue eyes. You had had enough, you were going to get this right.

“Hey Bucky”

“Hey-” Before he could finish his sentence you interrupted him.

“Could you please sit still, for just like one minute, please.” You demanded.

“Uh, yeah forsure.” He sat up and grabbed his water bottle, enjoying his break.

All your teammates loved it when you drew them, it made them feel special.

“Thank you, y’know I just can’t get your eyes right and it drives me crazy. I hope this isn’t weird, I just-” You babbled, scribbling down on your paper.

“No, I love it.” He chuckled showing that beautiful smile you had drawn so many times before.

“Okay I think I finally got them!” You exclaimed in pure joy.

“Well let me see.” He inquired impatiently with his arms outstretched.

You passed him your sketch book and watched his eyes light up as he flipped through the pages.

“Wow Y/n, this is amazing!”

“You really think so?” He asked shyly.

“Absolutely! The amount of detail. Just fantastic.” He seemed to be in awe.

You were so pleased with yourself, until you remembered that you had whole page of drawings of you and Bucky together. You had a little crush on him ever since you joined the team, and you really expressed it through your drawings.

“Hey could I have that back I just remembered i have to prep for a mission?” You questioned frantically, if he ever saw those drawings you’d hate yourself.

“Oh my… Wow!” He stumbled on his words, you knew it was too late.

You remained silent as he examined the sketches intently. He ran his fingers over the lines you had drawn and a smile emerged on his face. You tried not to listen to his thoughts, but you couldn’t help but hear his happiness, not disgust to your surprise.

“I know you know what I’m thinking already, but I’m going to say it anyway. I am so relieved you have feelings for me, because you have no idea how long I’ve wanted to do this.”

Before you had the chance to react, his lips were against yours. He wrapped an arm around your waist and pulled away slowly, staring deeply into your eyes.

“That wasn’t too much was it?” He questioned nervously.

“Absolutely not.”

You could tell this was going to be the start of something good.


I’ve bee working on this little by little on the side, mostly saving my time to work on it when I was feeling down or upset. Wanted to share this real quick cause it’s been an interesting experience working on it (it’s not done but lksdfjl i was thinking about it;; ). 

Of course it started out as a sketch due to some inner turmoil one day. The next day, however, I felt so much lighter than the day prior, and on the page next to this sketch, i drew a happy girl, with the idea of water and flowers. (sometimes all it takes is some sleep ;w; )

They were supposed to be accompanying pieces. This one, only worked on when i am feeling dull, sad or anxious ( negative feelings), and the other, I would only work on when I was feeling good ( and other positive feelings)! Hopefully this doesn’t say anything, but I haven’t gotten past the sketch with my happy girl >w>;; not to say I don’t ever feel good about myself or my artwork, there are days I’m really in the zone! But on days like that, I prefer to focus that positive energy ( or energy to work in general dlfjals) towards other projects, now that I actually have motivation. 

Now remembering her, hopefully I can get around to her soon! Little by little on my happy days<3

But yeah, I just remembered this little experiment of “exclusively working on these pieces during certain moods”, and thought i’d share it! 

helo rats i have a favor

okay i feel the events that took place in my history class today would make a MIGHTY FINE Jefferson/Hamilton cartoon of some sort, so I’ll just lay it down here and let you rats take the reigns

so today we had a potluck “presidential lunch” where we all drew a president from a cup and we had to research and prepare his favorite food, and someone had to bring in Richard Nixon’s snack of choice, which was cottage cheese with ketchup on it, I know, disgusting am I right, nobody even wanted to try it it was so atrocious

anyways, this one other guy in my class always debated and bickered in this class and we always CONSTANTLY tried to 1up each other, and at this point, he has won two Kahoot games and I had won two, so we were gonna end up tied at the end of the class since our final is tomorrow, it’s competitive business you see

so I go over to my teacher and I’m like “how much bragging rights do I get for trying the cottage cheese with ketchup” and she’s like, “I dunno, probably a lot” and I go over to that one guy like, “Yo, whoever eats the cottage cheese first should break the tie, since we’re tied for wins throughout the year,” and he’s like “heard you won’t” and I’m like “oop, try me bish”

so I boogey on down to the table and try this MONSTROSITY OF A MEAL, and I proudly get to flaunt bragging rights, and according to my teacher, “infinite review game wins”

okay you rats get creative with this, I wanna see how this goes down, I love u all

pls the real life experience was a giant meme in itself, pls help me turn it into a mega meme