Random observation of how different substances affect my ability to write.
- Stimulants can make it very easy to write if I know what I want to do but am heel-dragging in some way. The trade-off is that quality goes down because I tend to mentally skip over words (so I try less hard to sound precise) and everything seems sensible and interesting even when it isn’t. Also stimulants are somewhat emotionally suppressive and I find they make me more interested in systems than in people. Which is good for essays, bad for fiction.
- Impossible to do anything on pot. Hate it. Why do people like it. Feels like this horrible joke where your ability to have interesting thoughts increases while your ability to articulate them decreases.
- My default state is to be more like the stimulated state, so alcohol can slow my brain down in a useful way without interfering in my ability to think. It can make it a lot easier to focus on individual words and if they’re really doing what I want them to do. Alcohol’s also an anxiolytic obviously, so that helps if some kind of stress is responsible for me having trouble writing something. No more than one or two drinks though, if I’m using it in a serious way rather than just for fun. Can’t say the disinhibition has much effect, strangely.
I’ve been having some emotional conversations with K2 lately and I saw all of those people doing letters to their companions so I figured that might be good for me to do right now. So I guess, here’s my letter to K2
Please get rid of your stupid hat/crown thing. It’s really ugly and just doesn’t match your outfit. I mean I know I’m the one who designed it but I was like a dumbass twelve-year-old who watched too much anime at the time. It just doesn’t work, I cringe every time I think about it. Please take it off and never wear it again. Better yet, burn it.