i was at school when i first saw this and i loved everything it had to say about modern education

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This is a submitted series by a writer who wished to stay anonymous, so I will be transferring their submissions to text posts yay! I just wanted to make it known that this work is not mine, and all credits go to the original author that decided to submit their series to my blog. Enjoy! :))

Pairing: Peter Parker/fem!Reader

Rated: T
Tags/Triggers(?): reader has an anxiety disorder
Summary: When Y/N moves to New York to attend a higher-level science and math school she only goes with the hope of getting a good education. But a certain cute nerdy with a camera makes her hope for a few other things as well.

Currently estimating this to be about twelve/thirteen chapters long and I’m gonna shoot for updates every Wednesday.

Super excited to be submitting this to the truly lovely Krys and I hope you all enjoy!

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About Confederate...

I don’t like to react too quickly to things. Actually, that’s not quite true. I typically react quickly, but I don’t like to vocalize those reactions until I’m ready to go in.

I have so many problems with Confederate being something that had that many people say “yes” to.  One central problem stems from the desire of these men to immerse themselves in an “alternate” history where centuries-long intergenerational violent subjugation from which we have never fully healed, continued for the last 150 years, because they think it sounds fascinating. One problem is that we do not live in some utopic present where the Union won the Civil War and then white supremacy was dismantled along with the end of slavery. Instead, in our very real American history, the only efforts for any sort of revolutionary remedying died along with Reconstruction, in no small part due to the emboldened white paramilitary terrorist groups and an indifferent white North. 

White supremacy has not only adapted beyond slavery but was modernized almost immediately and in so many ways.  I’m not talking about the era of mass incarceration only, but the continuity that stemmed from the creation of a caste system, targeted racial violence, legal segregation, legal and extralegal sexual control, voting restrictions, housing restrictions and red-lining, educational gate-keeping, widespread attempts of dehumanization, and racist state violence. The fact is, even with this list, I haven’t included everything. I couldn’t. Quite simply, slavery did not just end. The remnants of slavery exist and the ideology that created slavery is more than alive. Therefore, how does one accurately speculate on the end of something while failing to understand all the ways it hasn’t ever actually ended?

Another essential problem directly comes from the fact that this history from which they want to deviate has still never been properly recognized, taught, nor accepted in our country. How can we and why should we create an alternate history when we cannot even get our compatriots to acknowledge, understand and fully denounce the real history? From the Dunning School of historians to the first blockbuster, “The Birth of a Nation” screening in the White House, and even to the curriculums that dedicate a lone week in school to discuss Reconstruction, our history had been propagandized almost immediately after it happened to minimize the impact of slavery, the evils of slaveholders, and even lionize Confederates soldiers and antebellum Southern life.  

Even when we do not go as far as to exalt slaveholders and the KKK, we still have a nation that just does not get what happened to end slavery. These creators would do well to read Du Bois and some Eric Foner. To say that the South successfully seceded does not necessarily imply the continued use of slave labor. Racial slavery ended, in no small part, because enslaved people acted as revolutionary opportunist during that time, and ran, fought, rebelled, and organized to challenge the system and ensure that they would not return to slavery. The Union had their hand forced. Lincoln would not have freed the slaves if enslaved people had not made it known they had every intention of getting free.  David Benioff and  D.B. Weiss want to write a series about the third such war and my understanding of that history would tell me that slavery would not have made it through two of these wars regardless of what military victories the Confederacy could manage. 

I’m a fan of historical fiction as well as alternate futures. There’s no doubt that an alternate ending of the Civil War would have a lot of interesting and terrifying political implications. Maybe I’d be more interested in how that could be explored if I didn’t see Confederate flags waving, even in states that were part of the Union. We still can find monuments inaccurately memorializing the Confederacy. We saw populations of white people shift, permanently, to Republicans party voters, in large part, because they disagreed with the end of de jure racial segregation. Furthermore, and of primary concern, black pain that endures from this legacy should not be used and triggered for the sake of a story that does not also heal us. They will be taking on a project with immense responsibility. I do not see how these men are prepared for that. As viewers, why should we immerse ourselves into an “interesting” world of our nightmares? One, I might add, many people of this nation love to remind us that they long for. 

David Benioff and  D.B. Weiss already have shown they would not be up for the job, if it were, in fact, a job that should be done. Even in a fantasy show with an unlimited creative license in casting, they still could only see black people as enslaved and formerly enslaved, and even then, we barely saw any.  Even in a fantasy world, they showed sexual violence gratuitously while only seeming to truly show empathy for experienced trauma when that trauma is suffered by white men (i.e. how Theon’s trauma is treated vs. Sansa’s). I worry about how they will treat this trauma and how much empathy they will show to the black people in their world. Furthermore, If they inserted sexual violence into a fantasy show gratuitously, beyond the source material, I shudder to imagine how they will treat an institution in which sexual subjugation was a primary element. I also worry about who they portray as heroic actors in this story, and if this becomes a narrative where things happen to black people. I have no reason to believe they see us as actors in a story, at this point, and when it comes to the Civil War, enslaved and formerly enslaved people certainly acted as consequential historical actors. 

I do not imagine HBO changing their minds at this point, but I hope that these men spend some time understanding what they have taken on. 

When it comes to alternate worlds, I find these fantasies of victorious oppressors to be both harmful and tiring, especially because enduring white supremacy hardly deserves the descriptor of “alternate”. It’s telling that these creators (and those for a certain Amazon show), do not find it nearly as fascinating to explore an alternate history where white supremacy never reigned and disrupted the world in the first place. Now, that is a much more compelling story to tell. 



You guys are having “GOT7 1st Japan Tour 2014” in Japan right now, what’s the concert like?

Yugyeom: We will perform our Japanese song “Around the World” for the first time and we also have prepared many sub-unit performances. Please look forward to it!

JB: I hope it’s a concert that the audience can enjoy and have fun with us. The space between the stage and the seats is very close. It is the best way to get closer to our fans.

When we mention GOT7, we can’t forget about “martial arts”, isn’t it scary?

Yugyeom: I’ve injured my leg when I was a trainee and it was the first day that I learnt martial arts. I did a backward somersault, but I didn’t land properly so I got injured.

Jr.: All the members have small injuries but we can’t talk about it in front of Yugyeom. (laughs)

We heard that because Jr. is timid, so he took the longest to learn the tricks. 

Jr.: I have a lot of unnecessary thoughts on mind, such as “what am I going to do with the schedule if I get injured?” To be honest I’m still scared just by talking about it. In the beginning, even a cartwheel was difficult for me.

Mark’s flips are very impressive. Is it also martial arts?

JB: Although it looks dangerous, but it was actually a movement that we succeeded at first try. But the landing poses were unstable so we had to practice a lot on the landing.

Mark: I think I have jumped hundreds times to master the flip.

Do you guys want to try other dancing styles?

Jr.: I want to learn modern dance. If modern dance and street dance can combine well together, I think it would turn out to be a very cool dance choreography.

Yugyeom: I want to try modern dance too. I learnt a bit just before our debut and it was really fun, even though my leg injury did hurt a little.

JB: I want to try tap dance. It’s one of the style under House dance which I really like. If you put these two together, the steps will be really smooth. Also, I want to learn jazz dance. When I’m dancing, I have a greed to achieve a beautiful (body) line.

JB was involved in a car accident recently, are you okay?

JB: I’m okay. I’m fine but the manager, coordi noona, stylists that were on the car were very startled. Because I had schedule the next day so I didn’t even show a sign of tiredness.

Is this the distress of being a leader?

JB: I told the members not to be late, but it is difficult when things like this happen. I’m not the type that arrives late but if I was late myself, then I can’t say much to the members. I have a lot of responsibilities. I have to be the role model (for the members) but when I couldn’t, it really troubles me.

Jr. was casted in “Dream High 2”, is there a role that you want to challenge?

Jr.: Science fiction related films. When there’s nothing in the background and you have to imagine while you act. I watched “Avatar”, it was just a blue screen at the back, the actor had to act by himself and then they put everything together with the graphics. I want to try that.

During the trainee days, you guys received sex education from teacher Koo Sung-Ae. Was it helpful? 

Yugyeom: At the time, I was in my 2nd year of middle school. Because I didn’t have much knowledge about it so it was useful.  

Jr.: It’s not something you can learn from anywhere. It’s basic common sense. And I realized that “ah, because it’s sex education so it’s necessary to learn.”

In “Roommate 2”, Jackson showed his immense love for meat, have you always liked meat?

Jackson: Compare to not getting enough sleep, it’s a more sensitive issues to me if I’m hungry. I like everything except for spicy food. If I eat spicy food, I will sweat a lot, but having said that, the spicy sausage stew is very delicious. I sweat like a pig when I’m eating it.

Yugyeom: All the members like eating meat. When our schedules ends, we go back to our dormitory, and we order braised spicy chicken with vegetables to eat while watching the TV.

We heard that Bambam’s mother is big fan of Rain. Does she still like him?

Bambam: She likes Cha Seung-won now. She watched the drama “The Greatest Love” and fell for him. Instead of liking singers, now she likes tall and handsome model-turned-actors.

In “Win” GOT7 had a dance battle with YG’s WINNER, it left a deep impression on us. At the time Yang Hyun Suk praised Bambam, how did you feel?

Bambam: It felt great. Actually, afterwards people around me kept giving me good feedbacks, saying “ah, this kid has got something.” And I want to do better so it’s becoming a burden.

Early this year, we saw the news that GOT7 members were diagnosed with swine flu. You guys must have been startled?

Jr.: There are many people misunderstands that it’s really painful to have swine flu. Actually it wasn’t that painful. The swine flu virus has been around for 4 years, right. So you will recover real soon after taking the medicines.

JB: It’s improper to call swine flu an illness. It’s actually just a cold. I didn’t even know how long I’ve had the swine flu. I did a check-up, and I was told that it has been more than a week. I was very healthy that I didn’t even realize I had swine flu for a week.

Bambam: Actually it’s still painful. I’ve had a cold for 2 weeks now.

If you guys didn’t become singers, what do you think you will be doing right now?

Jackson: Maybe I’ve participated in the London Olympic? Even if I didn’t get a gold medal in fencing, I would still get a good mark. I was a champion when I was little.

Mark: I think I would be an ordinary university student in America.

Youngjae: Studying for the national college entrance exams.

Yugyeom: A dancer. I like dancing so I will continue to dance.

JB: A soldier. I will be in the army. I will be the private first class soldier serving in the army.

Bambam: I think I will be doing something in Thailand. I had some activities before coming to Korea.

Jr.: I will be a psychology major student in a university. I have a desire to learn about people’s psychological state.

What do you guys want to achieve as GOT7?

Youngjae: I want GOT7 to be known for having pure talents.

Bambam: A group that leads the trend. It would be great if we become a group that can make a difference in the industry.

JB: It would be great if other singers can make remakes of our songs, or follows our performances.

Mark: I want to become a singer that receives acknowledgement upon the other singers.

Jackson: I want to become a singer that is a role model for everyone. And I want us to become a group of 7 members with its own color.

Jr.: It would be great if GOT7 can last for a long time. Even though it’s good to be the best, but I hope we can become a group that can gather up together whenever we say “hey let’s release an album”.

Yugyeom: A group that can last for a long time. I want us to succeed individually and get to the top.

What are your future plans?

Jr.: We are planning to release our third album. We are working really hard on it. We are aiming to become great singers.

JB: We’ve really worked hard this time, so we want to receive the rookie award. I hope our efforts will be rewarded. Please show us a lot love!

Scans & Translations: KIMMYYANG

Getting to “Noh” Cosplay, and how it helps society at large.

So, time for a few POSITIVE words about cosplay:

A Fireman, a Gynecologist, A movie Star, and a Schizophrenic all walk into a bar.  Bartender says “What’ll it be?” and each one in turn orders a drink… they all sit down at a table, and have a lovely evening…….

Oh… wait… that wasn’t funny… I was supposed to open with something funny.  What would make that funny? ah, yes, it would be the conflict you would expect from this group of very different people meeting together.  

But what would make these people from very different walks of life come together?  What could transcend age, race, gender, social class, education, occupation, in order to bring all these starkly different individuals together to share a few drinks, and a few laughs? Is is some kind of Illuminati-style-secret-society?  Some 1980’s “Cannonball Run” movie plot? No!  Its Cosplay!

Cosplay?  What’s cosplay?  Isn’t  that some kind of weird fetish?  “Oh kids these days!” … Well, you may know someone who is a cosplayer…that unassumingly normal person standing in front of you on line at 711 might be a cosplayer, and you would never even know it!  

Cosplay is a portmanteau for costume-play, and it is a growing subculture.  It can be defined, quite simply, as putting on a costume in an effort to embody that specific character. Some define Cosplay as a subculture that began in Japan, with the popularity of Manga and Anime, and made it over to the US at the turn of the century. Now, you may be thinking: “ We have a name for that: Halloween.  We have one day, set aside, for all this childish nonsense.  I don’t need to see batman buying milk at the gas station on a random Thursday night.”

However, I beg to differ.  Cosplay is not new.  It is something that has been a part of every culture, in every corner of the globe, since the time of the caveman.  Without it, there would be Anarchy. Anarchy?!  Surely I must be joking! What does a caveman have to do with this green woman standing before you?  Furthermore, how could my cousin dressing up like Harry Potter and embarrassing the whole family possibly keep anarchy at bay?

When you think of a caveman… you can envision them sitting around the fire, putting skulls of animals on their heads and reenacting the hunt.  Tribesmen of  Native Americans created elaborate costumes and danced out the stories of their Gods.  The Ancient Greeks defined what we know as modern theater, building amphitheaters where people could gather and experience the stories that were acted out before them.  In Japan, Noh theater, with its elaborate masks and costumes was born out of the Buddhist concept of Noh, which translates to: the connection of the audience with the actor.  Then we had Shakespeare…and oh, a few hundred years of live theater where people would come together as groups, and become enthralled with the story as the experienced the emotions, the drama, the fantasy…right along with the actors before them. … But then, something changed.

Movies came along… and then television…eventually, the internet.  And although sometimes we still gathered as an audience to witness these stories…they were now on a screen, and not in our physical presence.  With the advent of special effects and CGI the visuals became more dazzling and “realistic”.  To top it all off, reality TV became a staple.  Now anyone can be a star!!!  You do not need any training, talent, or even human decency to be famous!!!

But that Japanese Buddhist concept of “Noh”, of the connection between the audience and the actor…. was lost.

That little spark of magic, that “Noh”  is so important to me!  I remember my first Trick or Treating. I was about 3 years old.  My mom painted a clown face on me with greasepaint…which I promptly smeared all around!  When we finally got outside, my mom kept having to chase after me, because every time I saw another child in costume I’d yell “It’s Batman!!!”  "Theres Spiderman!!!“ "Oh mom look!!! a real Vampire!!!” I don’t remember one other little detail about being 3 years old, but that feeling has stayed with me for the rest of my life. It is that magic that I still feel when I see one of my favorite characters in the flesh at a convention.  

If you haven’t had that experience, I would say that it is similar to the feeling you get when your favorite song unexpectedly is playing on a radio, and all of the lyrics seem to eerily synchronize with the events that are going on at that very moment of your life. Or the thrill of your underdog sports team gaining a seemingly impossibly victory!  But we all know that it is a very different experience in between watching your favorite sports team playing on TV, and going to watch the game in person, maybe even getting the chance to snap a picture with your favorite player?

Cosplay is actually a lot like sports, just for a different set of individuals.  Just like in sports, there are players, and there is an audience.  The players spend time and dedication honing their skills in practice, so when the big day comes, everything is on point, ready for the game- which is much like a performance. The audience cheers, boos, and is engaged mentally and emotionally with the players… here again is that Japanese concept of “Noh” !  

Just like in sports, there are levels to cosplay.  Some people just like to get together with friends and shoot some hoops. Others spend every waking moment of their lives trying to make it to the top.  

So we can see that cosplay is something that engages people socially; in a time when few of us can be bothered too look up from our phones and experience the world around us. Cosplay forces us to look, to pay attention to what is happening in this very moment.  To have an experience, however brief, with another real, live, person.   My failed joke at the beginning of this talk was actually loosely based on real life experience (and now you are wondering  "Is she the Gynecologist or the schizophrenic?“…and I’ll just let you keep wondering about that!!) But the moral of the story is that through cosplay I have had the ability to connect with oodles of people I would have never interacted with based on my lifestyle, my skin color, my education…and <mumbles> my credit score.  

In fact, one of my favorite things about cosplay is how it transcends race. (Yes, I just hit the hot button issue!!!) I can remember going to the buffet after a convention with some friends, no time to shower, so I am still the green woman you see before you.  There was a family of many people having a LOUD debate about what my true skin color was under the paint.  For some people, its the first thing that they ask me..because…when you are green, its actually difficult to discern it otherwise. People think I’m Indian, South American, all kinds of lovely exotic things.  But more often, people say to me, "you know, its so strange to see you without bodypaint!  I guess I always just assumed green was you natural skin color!” Its these people, these individuals, that give me hope for the future of humanity.  

I am a geek, a nerd, whatever you want to call it…I grew up with my nose in a book, Avoiding gross human contact at all costs! This caused me to be a socially awkward individual.  I didn’t really know how to relate to my peers who I  had nothing in common with, so I just pushed people away. I’m sure all of us, at some point have felt this way.  Now, attending a crowded convention hall full of people is the direct opposite of what you would assume socially awkward person would want to do. Yet we come in droves! We travel for days and spend exorbitant amounts of money just to be there.  One of the reasons for this is that cosplay is empowering!…. Billy might get bullied at school… but he can put on a Thor costume and be a god at the convention!  People marvel at his costume, take his picture, and he meets other Thors, who share his interests, and may share his problems with bulling at school. Sarah has poor self esteem about her looks and her body…she clearly has not kept up with the Kardashians. No girls want to be her friend, and no boys will even look at her in school.  But Sarah can put on a Wonder Woman costume for one weekend, and feel like she can conquer the world!!!  People are complimenting her, snapping pictures, just like she is on the red carpet…and when she goes back to school on Monday, she stands a little straighter, walks with more confidence, and feels better about the girl who she sees in the mirror every day.  

But where there are heroes…there dwell villains..and <feigns shock> anti-heroes!?  Why?  Why would someone, especially a child, want to dress up like something bad, something unsavory, something eeevvviiillll? Since the dawn of man, we have used our imaginations to safely explore our darker sides.  The writer who created the villain certainly had to do so.  So inherently, there must be human parts of these darker characters that everyone can relate to.  Would you prefer that Paul be that weird kid who likes to dress up like the Punisher; or would you think it better that he keeps such ideas to himself?  Forcing himself into conformity, shoving down the weird, the bad, the ugly… until these unreleased urges boil over in an actual real life destructive, or self destructive act? So there you go! A very good example of how cosplay helps to keep anarchy at bay!!!  Now lets take a look at how cosplay can benefit individual’s brains.

Sure, there are more superhero movies and Anime coming out all the time…but superhero movies are based on comics, and Anime is derived from Manga.  So you might be surprised to find out that cosplayers are smarter then the average bear.  And not just because they read, but many of them are becoming the next generation of skilled craftsmen.  I can not stress the importance of this enough! Both reading and crafting strengthen your prefrontal cortex: the part of your brain responsible for organizing, strategizing, controlling impulsive and addictive behaviors.  A strong prefrontal cortex give you a better attention span, helps you deal with stress, and makes you more successful in life in general.

When people take your picture at a convention, or you have the thrill of seeing one of your favs in the flesh, the excitement of seeing another person who shares your passion, that connection, that “Noh” experience causes your brain to flood your body with dopamine and serotonin- your body’s natural happiness drug!  this makes you feel good, and then while you are on your own, crafting and reading, you connect those experiences with the real life experiences and wham-bam-thankyou mam! more happiness drug is released into your system!  

Research psychologist Amy Cuddy proved that holding “power poses” or Alpha stance (and yes, the classic wonder woman pose is included in these) holding these poses, for as little as two minutes lowers your cortozol: (that’s the stress hormone that makes you sad and fat) and raises your testosterone (that the “take the bull by the horns” hormone) Where as holding  shy or withdrawn pose has the opposite effect!  So grandpa telling you to stand up straight isn’t just being old fashioned…he’s trying to make you a happier person! Now, what do we do when we cosplay?  We power pose!!  All day long!!!!  If just two minutes can have an actual physiological effect… imagine what an entire day of power posing can do for you?!!!

Another “take my breath away moment” that happens at conventions is this:  last weekend, I had an entire conversation with Mario.   Yes, Mario the plumber, known for kicking koopa’s butts and saving princess'  yeah, that Mario.  An absolute stranger came up to me an interacted with me as his character .  I didn’t ask him to…I wasn’t even dressed in a costume from the same universe.  But we went on for a good 5 minutes, just bantering back and forth about the treachery  of warp zones, where the next castles where the princess might be found, etc. For five brief minutes….we were playing pretend….just like children!  

There are plenty of experiments done on rats, and “studies” done on children that prove that interactive plat has a plethora of benefits .  Its another activity helps to strengthen our prefrontal cortex that as we explored earlier helps you to problem-solve creatively, reduce impulse behavior, and helps you to be happier and less frustrated with the world around you.  Psychiatrist  Stuart Brown shows in his book Play  that adult play can foster harmony between adults, in families, in the workplace, and even in relationships. The importance of play time for children can not be understated . During playtime  children learn social and physical  boundaries  with their peers, They learn the essence of cooperation, develop stronger language and communication skills then children who play less.  Remember Our Thor, Wonder Woman, and Punisher from earlier?  All these kids have a bright, happy, and social future ahead of them!

So its easy to conclude that cosplay is a great way to play with your kids!!!  In a busy world, why sit staring at your phone agonizingly  waiting for your child’s play-date to be over, when you could be fulfilling your childhood fantasy of being Green Lantern? I’m sure most of you have seen the viral “bat-dad” videos…you can’t deny that they make you smile!  And if you don’t have children…play with each other !!!  Be that dad, that mom, that brother, sister or friend!  It doesn’t matter if you have an expensive costume, or you wrapped a towel around your neck imbue your old class ring with power!  

I hope that I have shown you that cosplay is not “dangerous”, “antisocial” or “frivolous ”.  Hopefully you understand why its important not to shun your weirdo cousin who dressed up Like Harry potter….Because if you stripped Humanity of all its technology, its electricity, its fossil fuels … we would still be left with our imaginations.  And fortunately , all we need to create the magic of “Noh”, this sacred connection that has existed since time before time….. is me, you, and a little imagination!!!