What Am I To You? (P. 3)
Summary: Your not sure where your relationship lies with Tae.
Pairing: Kim Taehyung (V)/ Reader
What have you done?
“I’m sorry….this is my fault.” You felt your eyes get watery.
“This is my fault as much as yours.” He started. “There is something I need to tell you-” He was cut off by the knocking.
You quickly wiped your eyes and looked out your peep hole.
“It’s Nayeon.” You panicked.
His eyes widen and he went into your bathroom hiding.
You opened the door. “Heyyy.” She sweetly greeted.
“Have you seen Tae?”
“Not since the party.” You answered.
“Hey you okay?” You nodded. “Do you want to get breakfast….I could really eat.” She laughed.
“Yeah of course….but I’m going to take a quick shower.”
“Okay.” Then she turned around and left.
You shut the door and went back towards the bathroom. “You need to leave…like now…before she comes back.” You panicked.
He just looked at you distraught. “We need to talk about-”
“I know okay…..I’m sorry but I promise it didn’t mean anything.”
You thought you were saving you and Taehyung’s friendship but what you really did was shatter his heart with those few words.
He looked down processing what you said.
“Right….of course.” He started to walk away.
“Let’s pretend that it never happened.” He continued and left.
“Tae?” What’s wrong with him? You thought he would be relieved but he wasn’t. He said to pretend it didn’t happen but maybe he couldn’t. Maybe he was upset because you almost jeopardized your friendship.
You continued getting ready and met Nayeon in the college cafe. You tried texting Tae and told him you wanted to hangout with him later but he declined. He said he was doing something with Nayeon.
“Took you long enough.” Nayeon mocked once she saw you. “I already got us food.” She giggled.
“Nice….thank you.” You sat down. “So how are you feeling?”
“Surprisingly okay…my roommate gave me some medicine.” She explained.
“That’s good….maybe you should slow down next time.” You laughed.
“Yeah, I don’t even remember anything.” She pouted.
“Well, you were past out pretty early for a party.”
“Can you tell me what happened?”
You gulped almost loud enough for her to hear. “Well…..Tae and I carried you to your room after we found you past out on the couch.”
“Oh okay.” She seemed relieved. “What did you guys do?”
You choked on your drink that you started but ended up spitting it out, coughing for your dear life. You took a bunch of napkins and cleaned up. You felt uncomfortable from all the people staring.
“You okay?” Nayeon looked concerned.
“Yeah, wrong pipe.” You pursed your lips.
“So?” She was waiting for your response.
“Nothing.” You nervously said.
“What do you mean?”
“We were pretty drunk ourselves so we just talked and when I woke up he was gone so I don’t know where he went.” You lied. The memory flashed through your head.
You waking up naked next to him. You felt butterflies just thinking how beautiful he was, especially when he was asleep.
You saw Nayeon staring at you and you immediately felt guilty.
If she ever found out she would be devastated.
You felt like you ruined everything already. The only thing was you couldn’t read Taehyung, like usual.
Was he okay with it or did he hate you now for this dumb mistake that could ruin your friendship forever? Was he heart broken for cheating on Nayeon? You had no idea.
“Why are you blushing?” She smiled. She turned around from where you drifted off to. She looked back at you confused. “Do you have a crush on someone?”
“Oh no.” You avoided the question.
Because, ‘I’m falling for your boyfriend’ is really gonna be a good conversation starter. Not like you’re the one to set them up or anything.
“Come on, you could tell me.”
"Please, we could double.” She wasn’t giving up.
“Okay.” You flipped through all the guys in your head. Who could you get away with that she doesn’t know?
“His name is…….Jungkook.” You actually had a good time with Jungkook last night but you didn’t have a crush on him and you knew Nayeon didn’t know him.
Jungkook may had said he didn’t like her but he said he never met her because she claimed that she wanted Tae all to herself.
“Oh…is he cute?” She winked.
“Sure.” You tried to move on from the awkward conversation. “So what are you and Tae doing later?”
She shrugged. “Not sure…I haven’t talked to him yet today.”
You looked at her confused. Why would Taehyung lie to you? There it was, the sharp pain you kept feeling. Taehyung must hate you. You made your friendship awkward and now you don’t know how to face him. He obviously didn’t want to face you.
Nayeon was on her way to look for her boyfriend. She knocked on his door hoping to find him there because he wasn’t in a texting mood today.
As he opened the door annoyingly he was surprised to find Nayeon there with a big smile on her face.
“Hey babe.” She wrapped her arms around Tae bringing her lips to his. He didn’t really respond so she immediately pulled away. “Hey what’s wrong?”
“Nothing, just still hungover.” He lied.
He wasn’t in love with Nayeon but he felt guilty. It wasn’t fair to her and he knew that. He cheated on her with you. Even though you were both drunk, that wasn’t an excuse. How was he going to tell her? Taehyung was honest with pretty much everybody. He hated lying, especially something like this.
“Come on.” She pulled him inside and pulled out some pain reliever out of her purse. “Take these.” She handed over a bottle of water.
“So apparently you wanted to do something today?” She continued.
He closed his eyes feeling more guilty. He was caught in a lie. He figured you talked to Naeyon.
“Yeah…maybe we can stay here and watch movies?” He suggested.
“Okay cool.” She said excitingly. “I’m sure we can play some games as well.” She bit her bottom lip hinting of what she really wanted. Taehyung wasn’t ready to have sex with Nayeon. He didn’t have any feelings for her so he felt like it wasn’t moral.
“And also I was thinking we could have a double date.” She was still excited.
“With who?” Taehyung asked confused.
“(Y/N) has a crush on someone and I thought that maybe I could set her up like she did for me.” Nayeon laid her head on Taehyung shoulder.
“Who does she have a crush on?” Taehyung pulled away so he could look at Nayeon.
Taehyung felt the rage and jealousy already and he didn’t even know who yet.
How could you have a crush on someone already and why didn’t you tell him, he thought. He thought you were best friends.
“I don’t know him but she said his name was Jungkook.” She said dumbfounded.
Taehyung stood up aggravated startling Nayeon. “Are you fucking kidding me?”
Taehyung started pacing rubbing his forehead frustrated. He felt horrible before but this was an all time low for him. Not only did you break his heart this morning of your regrets of last night but now you had a crush on his best friend. He didn’t know how to express any emotion anymore. His heart just kept shattering step by step.
“What’s wrong?” He almost forgot Nayeon was there.
He had to tell himself to calm down or the truth will clearly be shown. “Nothing, I just can’t believe she never told me.” He said distraught.
“Yeah I had to drag it out of her.” She giggled. “But I don’t know him.”
“I do.” Tae said causing Nayeon to look at him. “He’s my best friend.”
Taehyung went over to Jungkook’s dorm immediately as Nayeon asked if he could invite Jungkook into a double date which he knew he never would encourage.
He knocked on the door and it didn’t take him long to answer.
“Hey man, long time no see.” Jungkook teased.
Taehyung just clenched his jaw looking at his best friend.
“What?” Jungkook looked alarmed. He never see Taehyung without a smile. “Tae?” He asked serious.
Taehyung walked past Jungkook into the dorm.
“Hey V.” Jin called him by his other nickname.
Tae didn’t say a word he just nodded.
“Tae Tae what’s wrong.” Jungkook jumped by his side aggressively wrapping his arms around him.
“Basically I came over to invite you for a double date.” Tae continued.
“Who am I bringing? Jin?” Jungkook teased.
Jungkook’s face dropped. “Why?”
“Because (Y/N) has a crush on you.” Tae said emotionless.
“What? That can’t be right?” Jungkook laughed.
“Well she told that to Nayeon so…” Tae said with more attitude.
“Look Tae, even if that was the truth, which it isn’t, I would never do that to you.” Jungkook said sincerely.
“Why does it matter I’m in a relationship and she doesn’t have feelings for me anyway.” Taehyung’s face flushed but no tears came out.
“You’re obviously not happy, why don’t you just break up.” Jungkook suggested.
“Because I have no one else.”
“What do you mean?” Jungkook was confused.
“I thought for a split second that maybe (Y/N) had feelings for me but….I don’t know.” Tae looked down. “I just keep setting myself up for disappointment and Nayeon is there and I know how she feels about me so…”
“So….do you have feelings for her?”
Taehyung didn’t answer. “You can’t do this to yourself….its not fair for her or yourself.” Jungkook raised his voice in concern.
“I know….I just need more time, I’m sure it’s there.”
“And what if it isn’t, you going to forget about (Y/N)?” Jungkook had irritation in his voice.
“She doesn’t like me like that.” Taehyung was tired of talking. “And to be honest, I’m sick of waiting for her….I just wish she would stay out of the picture and liking you is not gonna do it.”
Jungkook was shocked by the words of his best friend.
“Are you saying that you don’t want to be her friend?”
“No……..it’s just hard to be around her that’s all.” Tae fell back to lay on Jungkook’s bed.
“Have you thought about telling her how you feel?” Jungkook asked.
“I do all the time, but I know how this works….it could make things awkward.”
“Don’t worry too much Tae.”
“Jin why don’t you make something to cheer him up.”
“That’s okay…Nayeon wants to go out tonight.” Tae started to get up.
“Of course the princess wants your service.” Jungkook nagged.
Jungkook decided to pay you a visit after Taehyung left.
When you answered the door you never expected to see Jungkook of all people. Yes you consider him a friend because of Tae but that was it, you would never intend to hang out unless Tae was there.
“Hi?” You question. “What are you doing here?”
He smiled and walked past you. “So I heard that you had a crush on me.” He smirked.
“Oh no.” You slapped your forehead. “I can’t believe she would just go up to you and tell, what kind of friend does that?”
“Actually Taehyung told me.”
“W-what?” You felt shocked. You never thought that he would hear of your little lie and you prayed he wouldn’t.
“Jungkook….I don’t have a crush on you and please tell that to Taehyung.” You panicked.
“It’s okay, I figured you didn’t….that would be weird.” He sat on your bed.
“Thanks.” You said sarcastically but followed by a chuckle.
“Nayeon was convinced I had a crush so I lied and said it was you to shut her up.”
Jungkook rolled his eyes. “Why do you even hang out with her?”
“I know she’s a pain but she’s sweet.”
Jungkook laughed sarcastically. “That’s funny.”
“Can I tell you a secret?” Jungkook started.
“You can’t tell anyone especially Tae.”
“Okay?” You were confused.
“Taehyung is in love with you.”
“What?” You couldn’t believe what you were hearing. “No he’s not.”
“Oh yes he is….has been for a while.”
“You sure?” You were shook.
“Why hasn’t he said anything?”
“Because he didn’t want to ruin your friendship.” That was a pretty good reason and also the reason you were afraid to move forward.
You couldn’t help but blush. “Why are you smiling like that? Do you like him to?” Jungkook asked in excitement.
“Maybe.” You bit your lip.
“Why don’t you tell him?”
“I wasn’t really sure until last night.” Those words slipped from your mouth that you wish you could take back.
“What happened last night?” Of course Jungkook had to end his curiosity.
“Um-” You didn’t know how to explain. “We sort of had sex.”
“Whoa- what?” Jungkook stood up. “You two?”
You nodded. “Don’t get carried away….we were both drunk and obviously we don’t really remember much…”
“That’s insane.” Jungkook smiled.
“You guys need to be together.”
“We can’t.” You quickly responded.
“Wait, what?” Jungkook sat back down.
“He’s with Nayeon and she is crazy in love with him, I can’t do that to her.”
“So it’s fake love…..he obviously isn’t in love with her back.”
“It don’t matter….he needs to break things off himself.” You said.
You saw that Jungkook was thinking. “Get ready.”
“Because we are going on a double date.”
“I don’t like this, he’s going to be heart broken.” You whispered to Jungkook as you walked up to the diner.
“It’s fine I have a plan.”
What was he planning?
You entered the theater and as soon as Taehyung saw you and Jungkook holding hands his face dropped. He really did like you.
“Hey.” Nayeon greeted. “Why didn’t you tell me he looked like that?” She whispered into your ear.
You just shrugged. This whole thing made you uncomfortable.
“This was our first date.” Nayeon grabbed onto Taehyung’s arm causing you and Jungkook both to roll your eyes. You had such a rage towards Nayeon when she was around Tae.
She always wanted the world to know they were together.
When you found your seats you made a small eye contact with Taehyung. He looked away quickly. He couldn’t even look at you.
You were sat between Nayeon to your left and Jungkook to your right. Taehyung choose to sit as far away from you as possible, more specifically close to the aisle. You felt anxiety.
“Stop worrying.” Jungkook whispered. “He’ll be okay trust me.”
Jungkook made it clear that he didn’t want you saying anything about your feelings. He wanted to convince Taehyung to tell you himself. And to get out of his lousy relationship first.
As the trailers were starting you saw Nayeon fidget in her seat making you draw attention. You saw her scurry her hand over Taehyung’s thigh.
Your heart was beating from your rage. You wished you never had that double date which started their relationship. There you said it.
She was really asking for it. She brought her hand closer to his fly palming the area. Taehyung gave a falsely smile and grabbed her hand to hold instead. It was his sweet way to tell her no.
“What’s wrong?” Jungkook asked.
“Nothing.” You gave a fake smile.
Jungkook leaned forward and looked in the direct you were previously. He saw that Nayeon was once again trying with Tae. You looked over and saw her bring her hand down under his waist line of his jeans.
“I’m going to use the restroom.” He sat up and walking down the aisle. Jungkook nudge you to go after him.
“I have to use it to.” You got up nervously and followed Taehyung’s footsteps. When you entered the lit up hallway, you saw him sitting on one of the benches looking distraught.
“Hey.” You sat down next to him.
He glanced at you but turned away quickly.
“What’s with you?” You poked him. “Why do you hate me?” You said it as a tease but you felt like he really did.
He let out an audible sigh. “Why do we call each other friends when you can’t even talk to me?”
“My best friend (Y/N)? Why didn’t you tell me.”
You know Jungkook told you not to say anything but you didn’t have to tell him everything.
“I don’t have a crush on Jungkook.”
He looked at you confused.
“Nayeon insisted that I had a crush and wouldn’t shut up about it….so I lied.”
“Why Jungkook?” He asked.
You shrugged. “Jungkook’s my friend and I knew that she never met him so I didn’t think this would happen.”
Taehyung still looked confused. “Your friends are weird Tae.” You giggled.
Finally, he smiled at you.
You leaned your head on his shoulder. He wrapped his arm around you bringing you closer. You wished he would just be honest with you so you can both be happy.
“I want you to know that you can tell me anything….never hold back the things you keep bottled up, because you’ll regret them later on.”
He looked down at you thinking but said nothing. He was clearly not ready and you understood.
You grabbed his hand that was holding onto you and circled it back so you can hold it properly. You leaned your head back down to enjoy the moment.
You both jumped from the voice that ruined the peace. You both looked down the hall seeing Nayeon staring at you both. Her usual brighten up face was no where to be seen.
You couldn’t read her expression but it was definitely serious.
“You’re missing the movie.” She lowered her voice as you and Tae made your way over.
She quickly grabbed Tae’s hand and went back inside leaving you alone. You were taken back from her attitude. Did she think something happened?
The movie wasn’t all that good, its hard for horror movies to be scary now of days.
“I’m gonna run to the bathroom quick.” Nayeon announced. You were staring off into space until she called your name to join her.
What is this high school?
You leaned on the sick waiting patiently for her to finish. When she was done, you almost swear she was glaring at you as she washed her hands.
“Good?” You pursed your lips and turned around.
You jumped from the fact that she grabbed your arm aggressively to stop you from walking out the door.
You raised your eyebrows at her to question her actions.
“Do I really need to warn you to stay away from Tae?” She was acting crazy.
“Excuse me?” You sassed.
“You heard me….your going to stay away from Taehyung from now on.”
“That’s not happening.” You laughed sarcastically. “Did you forget who got you two together?”
“I’m not an idiot (Y/N)…. I know you’re in love with him.”
“You’re crazy.” You tried to turn around again but she stopped you. “Let go of me.” You clenched your jaw.
“It’s funny how you could of easily had him but now that he’s unavailable you want him….wow desperate much?”
“What the fuck is wrong with you?” You couldn’t believe she was acting this cold towards you.
“I’m being defensive….I’m not gonna let a slut like you take my boyfriend.”
You aggressively got out of her grasp and made your way out of the bathroom in rage.
Walking away you were on the verge of tears. This was your friend. So you thought. How could she act like this?
When you got closer to the boys, they both gave you a questioning look.
“Let’s go.” You tugged Jungkook’s arm.
“Hey what’s wrong?” Taehyung grabbed your hand.
“Nothing’s wrong Tae, but it will be.” You glanced back at Nayeon who was making her way over. Taehyung followed your eyes and when he looked back at you, you were already out the door.
“Are you gonna tell me what’s wrong?” Jungkook asked.
“You were right.” He looked at you. “Shes crazy.”
Jungkook smirked. “I’m worried for Tae, he needs to get away from her.”
Jungkook’s smirk quickly faded. “So new plan….get him to breakup with crazy.”