Femininity, to me, feels like telling women they are never enough. What you are as a woman is never enough to grant you human status. You can’t wear shorts in the summer, because your legs aren’t waxed; you can’t swim with your friends because you’re not thin enough; can’t leave the house without paint on your face because your real face is too offensive for the world. I distinctly remember my own mother saying to me I wasn’t allowed to attend my friend’s party because I refused to shave, when I was eleven; I also remember her saying I couldn’t have the shirt I wanted to wear for my 9th birthday party because it wasn’t lose enough and it would make me look fat. How fucking insane is it to tell a nine-year-old child she is already not good enough to deserve respect?
Today, as an adult woman, years into the process of recognizing the patterns of oppression and since I’ve decided to unlearn femininity, since I’ve stopped shaving and wearing makeup, since I’ve cut my hair short, I still look at my body sometimes and think it’s wrong. I still look in the mirror and have fleeting thoughts of “how can I leave the house like this?”. Everything that makes me a woman is unacceptable: my body hair, which is here because of my hormones, my female hormones, my blood, my fat, my breasts. Everything is unacceptable as it is and needs to be modified.
I am a woman because I live in this body and because of it I have these experiences. I do not need to be beautiful to deserve respect as a human and as a woman. I do not need to make my body beautiful in order for it to be acceptable, because my body doesn’t exist for the purpose of standing around looking nice. My body exists to carry me wherever I want to go and to complete whatever task I want to achieve. I do not need to paint my face in order for it to be acceptable. My face existis to portray the emotions I have and to express the ideas and the contributions I have to the world, and it is amazing as it is. I do not need to remove the hair from my body to be a woman, because they grow on me and I am a woman by definition.
“Hey, Benny,” you greeted your friend as you found him waiting by your locker. opening said locker to grab your physics textbook, you gave a side glance and had to bite down hard on your lip to stop yourself from jumping him right then and there, because-
He was wearing a fucking leather jacket!
“Hey there, Y/N,” he drawled, leaning back against the neighbouring locker and from the corner of your eye, you could see him raking his eyes up and down your figure. Blushing, you remembered that you’d worn denim shorts and a tight tank top today- it was hot summer- and turned to face him, clutching your books to your chest.
“I’ve got Physics now, do you wanna meet at lunch?” you proposed.
With a wicked smirk on his face -that made you want to do all manner of dirty things with those lips- he replied, “Well, I was more thinking you could skip Physics and we’d go…some place else,” he said the last bit while taking a step closer to you and playing with the accessory dog tags around your neck.
“Umm,” you mumbled, flushing scarlet at his forwardness and chewed down on your lip while you thought, what the hell is he doing? What’s gotten into Benny?
“I think that’s a yes you’re looking for,” he murmured into your ear, warm breath making you shiver and your heart flutter. You felt his warm hand slide around your hip and pull you closer to you as he whispered, “Because I know you want me and if you skip class and come with me now, I will make sure that you’re screaming my name by the end of today.”
Aghast at this uncharacterism, especially from Benny- no matter how hot-, you shoved him away and spat, “You can fuck off if you think I’m that easy.”
You turned to see- Benny?- coming towards you (sans leather jacket, sigh) with an anger in his eyes you’d never seen before.
Squeezing your hand comfortingly as he brushed past you, he marched right up to the other Benny in the -thankfully- deserted corridor and landed him one right in the face. You gasped and covered your mouth with your hands as you saw leather jacket-less Benny kick other Benny hard in the stomach, then dive down to grab something from his pocket.
Straightening back up again, he had a photograph in his hand and clicked the fingers of his other hand to spark a small flame which he alighted the photo with. As the glossy paper burned, so did the Benny on the ground and you and the -good?- Benny were left alone.
“W-what?” you blurted out before Benny was in front of you and asking you concernedly if you were OK and if the other Benny hurt you. “Benny, I-I’m fine, just confused really. What the hell’s going on? Why were there two of you?”
“Umm, probably a conversation for another time,” he dismissed awkwardly, before shooting you that infamous goofy smile.
Sigh. You definitely preferred that cheesy, genuine smile to the wicked smirk of a dickbag in a leather jacket.
Seokjin: Wherever I am, I absolutely have to wear pajamas. I’ve prepared summer and winter pajamas.
Jungkook: I like wearing simple clothes to sleep in. For example, short sleeves and shorts. If it’s hot, I’ll just take it off. When it’s cold, I’ll wear long sleeves and/or a hoodie.
Namjoon: I wear gym shirts and underwear because that gives me no trouble. I usually want to take my shirt off but I easily catch colds due to my bad stomach. I have no problems with just wearing gym clothes during winter because it’s usually warm in the house and the blanket is also thick. I really like the feeling of the blanket touching my skin.
Hoseok: With me, it’s different every day. When I’m really tired, I’ll only wear my underwear. But usually, it’s T-shirts and shorts.
Taehyung: I think of it in the moment. Yesterday, I was wearing trousers and a white T-shirt to bed. When I’m really tired and too lazy to decide, I’ll just take it all off and go to sleep. Also, I sleep on the top bunk so it’s really troublesome. I often sleep on Jimin’s bed but Jimin…
Jimin: After taking a shower and seeing him sleeping on my bed, I’ll say “go away!” Then, Taehyung will go to Jungkook’s bed instead. And then Jungkook…
Taehyung: Then Jungkook will wake me up and say “Hyung, I have no place to sleep now. Please go.” But I’ll wait until Jungkook falls asleep to go back to his bed and sleep beside him. Then, Jungkook will get angry and say, “Ah, hyung! Please hurry up (and go)!” I’ll say, “Ok, ok. I will, I will.” I then go back to my bed.
Hi I'm Amanda I'll be doing a monologue for you today
It's the summer of 2001; Joe meets Patrick and he's like "Yo, I know about music." and Patrick's like "Yo, I know more about music."
"That's impossible..Do you want to start a band?" and Patrick's like "Yeah that's cool." and then he's like "Yo this is a bookstore this is not a music store."
And then they met at Patrick's house. So Patrick is wearing shorts, and socks, and a hat. Patrick is playing drums for some f***ing reason, and Pete's there for some reason. And they start playing together, and they're like "Oh, let's play some covers from some other bands."
It was like Green Day, and f**in' Misfits, and f***in' Ramones. Pete said to Joe, "Yo, we gotta change this s** up. Yo we've played all these bands, let's play some s*** from Fall Out Boy."
And so Pete and Patrick are like "Yo, that's dope, but we need a f***in' drummer."
Because Patrick's playing drums, and he's a singer. Patrick's like "Yo, I got a soul voice." , and they're like "Wait how do you have a soul voice?" And he's like "Yo, watch this:
And they're like "Oh my God, that sounds like soul." So they put it in a song, and it was like "WHERE IS YOUR BOY TONIIIIiIIIIIiiiiIIIIiiiiiiiiGHT?"
And they're like "Yo, that's f***ing perfect, this is Fall Out Boy."
And they made records like Evening Out with Your Ex-Girlfriend. Evening Out With Your Ex-Girlfriend, everybody loves it.
"It's called Evening Out With Your Girlfriend."
With your ex-girlfriend. It's called Evening Out With Your EX-Girlfriend. It's called Eating Out Your Girlfriend, and it's real and it doesn't matter.
And Pete talked to Patrick and Joe, and he was like "Yo, what the Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu**? Yo, this is gonna be f***in' dooooooope!"
So they made a record, and it was called Take This To Your Grave. They made it without a drummer, and they had like three-four drummers come in. The four drummer they had come in were like Josh Freese, Neil Pert, the dude from Toto, the fourth one was like the guy from like Papa Roach or something, and they're like "Yo, we need Andy Hurley. Take This To Your Grave. F***in' record it."
And he did it, and he killed it, and he was like "bigidalilililililila, pshhh." Killin' the skins, tapping the skins, tapping the rim, playin' the s***, killin' these b****es, rapping it out.
You're getting a f**ing tattoo right now, what the f** is going on?
We should get signed by Fueled By Ramen, 'cause these guys know what the f*** is going on.
And they were like "Yo, if you can make our scene any bigger than it is, which is not f***in' hard, we will sign you guys."
Pete was like "Yo, we got this record that f***in' dooooooope, dude it's called Take This To Your Grave, it's called From under The Cork Tree, and it's gonna be f***in' huge."
And Patrick's like "I gotta keep it real, I gotta keep it artistic, these are three songs that are gonna make the album, and it's called [BURP] Thanks For The Memories, 20 Dollar Nosebleed, Sugar We're Goin' Down."
And they made this record that was f***in' dope, and it f***in' hit on the charts like one, two, three, three, two, one, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, ten to ONE. From Under The Cork Tree sold like four million records- ten million records, fifteen million records!
And Brendon Urie had nothing to do with the entire record. And Patrick's like "That's GOOOooooOOOOD!" Pete was like "Yo, f*** you, I can do whatever I want!"
Joe was like "Yeah, it's cool man, whatever, I don't give a s***." And then Andy was like "Eh, cool."
And Pete was like "Make-up is f***in' great for a guy. Because it makes a guy look beautiful, which a lot of times, a guy is not beautiful, and I wanna change that. I wanna make sure that everyone thinks that guys are beautiful."
SHUT THE F*** UP!
Oh f*** alright, alright.
Pete was like "Oh my God, I'm so embarrassed about this dick pic." And then I saw the dick pic, and was like "Ah, it's not bad."
It's not a bad dick, let's be real.
We made Rolling Stone one issue before Fall Out Boy. And Fall Out Boy made the issue right after us and they were so pissed, they were like "Yo f*** you guys!" They're like "Yo, Panic! has the f**in' cover for Rolling Stone yo, f** these dudes, we're gonna go miles above, we're gonna hit every f***in' continent there is known to man."
But they didn't, they missed a second of time. Apparently, they were like "Oh s***, we got every continent." And they didn't actually hit it. Dude, and Pete was like "WHAT THE F***? 'Oh it's like you didn't f**in' make the continent.,' it's like F** YOU!"
So From Under The Cork Tree happens, we f***in' have like three-four years of awesomeness. Like people are comin' on themselves 'cause it's so big.
Alright so Fall Out Boy was like-
So Patrick was like "Yo, we're gonna name these records From Under The Cork Tree and From Infinity On High ."
Pete was like "Folie a Deux means the theatric of two."
"The madness of two."
Oh, sorry, I'm sorry.
Fall Out Boy was like "Yo, we gotta take a break." Meaning, Pete was like "Yo, we gotta take a break, bro." and Patrick's like "I need time for my music. UHUHUHUHUH."
And Joe's like "Yo, I need time to find the f***in' art dude, I gotta find some me-metal."
And Andy's like "I'm just gonna play with some f***in' metal bands."
And they're like "Alright, this break's been like three years long-two years long-three years long-three and a half? We gotta f***in' come back, man, we gotta come back strong."
You took my beer away, what the f***?
"No, you poured it all over yourself."
"Yeah, you poured it on yourself, man, here."
"We gotta make this s*** legit, it's gonna be f**in' dope, it's gonna go f***in' sky high. We're gonna make a f***in' record that sails the skies. We're gonna call this record Save Rock And Roll."
So they made Alone Together, Light 'Em Up, Alone Together, Phoenix, and everybody's like "What the f***? You're working with this guy who f***in' recorded Avril Lavigne and P!nk."
Is this pu-what the f*** is on my shirt, did I puke myself? Oh God.
Pete was like "Yo, we're gonna end up on a tour with Panic! At The Disco and Twenty Pilots."
And that's all, and that's all that matters.And that's just how the f***in' story goes.
Oh June. You’ve been bad news ever since you arrived. But yesterday evening at the park was a welcome change, in on again-off again showers and the company of old friends and new. I’d been wanting to wear this ASOS dress ever since it arrived, along with my new sandals which I eventually drenched in a puddle. Mostly, I’m relieved that Bangalore seems to have gotten it’s weather back, at least for a while.
I just wanna lay in bed with calum one night and him wearing nothing but athletic shorts and I just study his entire toned body and delicately trace each and every one of his tattoos while he tells me about each one and explains the meaning behind them, the pale moonlight shining through the bedroom window illuminating his beautiful brown skin
i’m extremely fat and not in a way that’s socially acceptable (no ass no hips, i carry all my weight in my stomach), and i’ve got a lot of issues with my body, but my advice for women struggling with the sheer terror of wearing what they want to wear is JUST WEAR IT. wear it. put on a bathing suit and go. shorts are fun. tank tops are comfortable. etc. it might be uncomfortable at first but you’ll start thinking about other things and it’ll be okay.
you don’t even have to think you look beautiful, which is my hugest beef with the fat positive movement. the insistence that you must act like you think you’re beautiful at all times is annoying. you don’t have to be beautiful. you just have to do what you want.
i know this is a nearly impossible hurdle for some women because it’s been beaten into them through anxiety or lived experience that they’ll be punished somehow, but trust me: just wear it. keep wearing it.
i’m lucky in that for all my issues with my body, i can talk myself into/out of almost anything, and as soon as i make a decision i don’t tend to second guess it. it’s helped me a lot, particularly at the beach where i no longer feel the need to wear a tuxedo into the water to protect onlookers from seeing an arm that is fat or my weird butt. WHO CARES. NOBODY WHO MATTERS, SO YOU DONT NEED TO.
Alex and Lorna by crikett23 [Don’t my uncle and auntie look fabulous?]
@clever-green-queen Here it is. Lorna with her beautiful short green hair. She does not look bad at all. She’ll look good and more badass just like with her long hair too. I like it both, short and long. And look at her clothes. A true badass will wear what she wants regardless of current trends (:
hey so like, are there actually any bathing suits designed or at least suited for Transwomen? Cuz like… as much as I wish I could, I’m not gonna be squeezing into some tiny two piece from target any time soon, at least not without getting a LOT of shady looks, and I sure as hell ain’t gonna be going topless and passing as a Guy (considering The Girls are already growing in, who knows how big they’ll be come summer. Plus…I just don’t want it would be so uncomfortable)
So like.. do any sort of, idk, more Tank-top style swim tops exist? (I’ve seen things like that for transmen, which are rad, but obviously not for me) something that’s like, still for girls and looks kinda femme but not a literal bikini top? Like honestly the top half of a One-piece suit, ya know? Something I’d wear with like regular dude board shorts or something, just….something other than literally wearing some ugly old t-shirt that’s awkward to swim in
cuz like….if I get invited to a pool or the waterpark or something i’m gonna have to say No. It’s something that I accepted when I started transitioning, that I’m going to end up giving up a lot of things, but like…if I don’t /have/ to
hrrmmm hrrmmm HRRRMMMM how about tsukishima's s/o in public and they just HATE being hot in summer so wears short shorts and shirts/crop tops with loose neck so you can see chest every time they bend over can be SFW or NSFW whatever you want haha
this is the real life is this just fantasy caught in a writer block no escape from reality
IM JUST AN ALOOF WRITER, I NEED LOTS OF SYMPATHY CUZ NOW IM HERE, THEN IM NOT
anyway the muse comes, sorta really matters to me, TOOOOO MEEEEEE