i want to see a sign like that!

geckotony  asked:

Speaking of stolen art, have you thought about watermarking your work or putting your signature in there somewhere? I know some artists prefer not to watermark so that it doesn't block any of the picture, but I think it's worth it when done right.

i only watermark sale samples bc otherwise it kinda ruins the image a lil imo. like….. a lot of what i post is just doodles and draft-quality stuff so i’m not super protective of it and i’d rather just let people see it without obstruction

i prefer signing stuff and do that sometimes but same feel of, i don’t want it to be too distracting. plus it’s easy to edit that out

so idk

at the end of the day, it’s not my responsibility to do stuff i don’t want to so that people are discouraged to steal my stuff. people should just… not steal it

Things the signs don’t like:

(I’m not trying to tell you what you don’t like this is just my opinion based on the Signs as I know them)

Aries: I feel like they are sarcastic but hate sarcasm from others

Taurus: Change

Gemini: Doesn’t like being in situations where they can’t speak their mind

Cancer: People who won’t let them help. I feel like even though they are meant to be the most ‘cry baby’ out of all of the signs, they keep their emotions in and are more 'motherly’. They show tough love and I honestly don’t really see them cry. I think their the toughest.

Leo: Not being the centre of attention (just kidding.) They hate negative people that doubt everything.

Virgo: MESS

Libra: Not being listened too

Scorpio: Being emotionally exposed

Sagittarius: Commitment (sometimes) and restrictions from freedom!

Capricorn: Someone getting in the way of something they want to accomplish

Aquarius: Everyone copying them, whether it’s their style or homework

Pisces: close-minded people!

POET: how could you cause me this much pain? why would you want to?

BEE: I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, you just got in the way. you came too close to my jacket and I panicked. everything I touch starts to bloom: flower or bruise, it’s your choice, I can’t tell the difference. don’t you see these colors littering my body? my skin has only ever been a warning sign screaming at the world to stay away.

POET: I’ve never paid attention to things like that. I love quickly and regardless of history. I see a red flag and I rip it to shreds. I read emergency plans and I abandon their language. I pick poison berries and I swallow them whole. this is always how it’s been, I don’t know how to be any other way. safety is a word I stopped using after I found out that our last kiss was our last kiss. wait, sorry, I forgot who I was talking to. ignore that last sentence.

BEE: I…see. well, I didn’t mean to take advantage of your heart, I didn’t realize you would be so soft.

POET: they never do. have you been to the ocean?

BEE: a long time ago.

POET: when I was younger I went to a beach in south carolina, early in the morning before the seagulls began to beg for sustenance. I was alone, and I didn’t have a swimsuit but the water was so flat, and I needed to get closer to the sky, so I ran out up to my waist wearing all of my clothes and just stared at the threshold between shades of blue and shades of oblivion and I waited. I don’t know what for, but I waited, and I think that what I was waiting for must have arrived because when I finally turned back towards the sand I felt better. like I was naked except I wasn’t, I had clothes heavy with salt draped over my frame, but I could’ve been stripped to my bones for all that I knew. I was there, and I was alive, and it happened at a time when that feeling would’ve meant something.

BEE: why are you telling me this?

POET: I just wanted someone to know that I was happy, once. two lifetimes ago I let souls born of typhoon and earth see me vulnerable and thirsty and the act of doing so didn’t bring me to my knees. I was whole, once.

BEE: you’re still whole, it seems like you’ve just changed your parameters.

POET:

BEE: look, I’m sorry I stung you. I really am. I feel bad. it won’t happen again.

POET: it’s okay, I’m used to it. everything I’ve ever gotten close to has scarred me then vanished. ache and abandon, burn and bury. I could write a new testament about the memories I’ve had to plan funerals for.

BEE: maybe you should stop getting close to things.

POET: maybe I should.

IN WHICH THE POET CONVERSES WITH THE BEE THAT HAS JUST STUNG HER, by Caitlin Conlon

就算住醫院 你都係我隻狗嚟
Even when you are in hospital, you are still my DOG.

LIKE & REBLOG!!

It’s positive that I care about you, but I feel so frustrated when you bombard me with silly statements like “you don’t love me” or “I mean nothing to you”. I do like you, and I like you as my bf, but I also enjoy owning you as a pet, especially an obedient one. I could not help but roll my eyes whenever you doubt my affection for you. If you see dog/slave training as a sign of indifference to you, I would be really disappointed. If you want to run away from this, I could let you go. Just don’t make any complaint when I keep others as dogs.

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OH MY GOD CAN YOU HEAR THIS CAN YOU SEE THIS GUY MY DAD MY LIGHT KEVIN KO OLUSOLA SHINE HOW AMAZING IS THIS NEW COVER!!!

ONE SECOND HE’S HIS GENIUS SELF BUT WHEN HE SINGS I HEAR VERY VERY CLEAR INFLUENCES FROM MITCH KIRSTIE AND SCOTT’S VOICES LIKE HE CAN DO THE ENTIRE PENTATONIX ON HIS OWN IF HE WANTED LMAO

AND ON TOP OF IT HE IS SO PRECIOUS???? SO SWOLE BUT SO SMOL THIS CINNAMON ROLL GOT ME WIDELY SMILING THE WHOLE SONG THROUGH

Being a witch is funny because you will see pentacles or pentagrams or runes out and about and just see see signs of rituals and feel safe where as everyone else sees them and gets scared? Like i watch scary movies and paranormal shows for fun and they will go into an abandoned building and see runes and herbs and be petrified? Like chill brad… thats a protection sigil and glamour spell… betty probably just wanted to look banging for school on monday

EDIT II: This post has been going around as definite proof that the Cult Ending is fact, and the real way the game works. As such, I’ve been accused of spreading misinformation, to a degree that I’ve been getting extremely toxic and damaging messages.

I want to clarify at this point, this post was made as a vent, back when the data-mine of the Cult End was beginning, and we first got the info that it was a file in the game. The Data-Mine is pretty much finished now, at this point; nothing new to find. And it’s revealed that, while the ending is in a playable state, no coding in the game actually makes it possible to play it. There’s no outcome you can get to trigger this end.

No one is sure if this is a cut ending, future DLC, or if it’s a bug messing up the coding trigger. All we know is we found it, and I made a post too hasty in assumption. I made it when we still thought it was possible to achieve.

So please. Take this with a grain of salt. I don’t want to delete this post, as I feel like it would give the bad impression that I simply wanted to spread fire, with no care for repercussions. But I do want people to know I’ve learned now.

I’m sorry to everyone that I deceived with this. It wasn’t my intention at all, but execution doesn’t always pan out like we hope.


EDIT III: Good god, how often am I going to be updating this post.

Well, we have verification the ending isn’t as scrapped as we thought it was.

An update patch for Dream Daddy to fix bugs and add Robert’s Whittling minigame also secretly updated the coding of the Cult Ending. This info was found VIA data-mining the Level18 files as they were before and after.

The updated files include more trigger codings, and has added the achievement trigger for what we presume is “Escape the Margarita Zone,” as it is listed as “ACHIEVEMENT_SECRET.”

While it doesn’t necessarily mean the ending is definitely going to be playable in the future, it does make the ending’s chances of becoming a possible canon that much more of a reality.


Man. The reveal of what Joseph actually is both amazes and horrifies me further than what we’ve seen.

Okay, so data-mining revealed that Joseph does have a good ending, but it’s not much different from the bad. He still remains with Mary, but he takes you in as a side-man (AKA, he stays with you to continue an affair on Mary.) It’s not very good either, so I won’t be surprised to see people voice disappointment when they get it.

HOWEVER, data-mining found something even worse in the code. And that is Joseph has a third ending, a secret ending, and potentially, the TRUE ending of not only his route, but the game entirely. This ending has been dubbed “cult ending.”

This ending ended up revealing that Joseph is not at all what he seems. He’s not a man living a broken marriage, forcing himself to stay with an alcoholic and cheating wife to have some semblance of a family life with his kids. No, this family he’s created is simply a facade to hide who he is.

Joseph isn’t human. He some sort of demonic entity that has an ulterior motive. His children aren’t truly his children in the sense that you’d assume, they’re more like broken portions of himself, inhabiting child-like forms. And Mary is a woman who was forced to play a role to paint a picture, an illusion. Something she can’t escape from, because Joseph literally has her wrapped around his finger.

Joseph also is a leader of a cult (Obviously, given the fact that this ending is dubbed “cult end.”) I’m not too knowledgeable about the cult, but apparently it’s a front to rituals and the like. We know Robert was, at one point, a part of the cult, but isn’t any longer.

And finally, we know Joseph is drawing forth energy from other single dads, possibly both sexually and ritualistically, to bring the “Eternal King” back to life. He specifically needs the energy from single dads, and with some sort of dark magic, he lures them to his part of town for ease of access. He also is responsible for causing the events of them all being single. Every single dad, he influenced their destinies to fuel his own ambitions.

And once you find this out, you start noticing shit everywhere! There’s symbols of his cult in practically every part of town. Certain behaviors give an odd feeling. It’s just… it’s shocking to go back in to see this.

The cult end finishes with a man name Saul Graves coming to speak to you, and telling you to try and live your life normally. I’m not sure the entirety of the end, I guess it implies Joseph is on the run now? I don’t know, if anyone can clarify it, let me know.

Now, this was a beyond shocking twist to a lot of people. Especially since the game is so comedic, and the other routes, while they may have poignant moments, it’s nothing completely horrifying. I know I certainly was beyond stunned to discover this, but I honestly had a feeling something would happen like this. Though I wasn’t expecting it to actually be Joseph’s route to cause this; I thought it would’ve been a route where you don’t date any dads!

And I know that there’s some speculation that the “cult end” isn’t truly canon (As in, Joseph isn’t actually in a cult or is a demon, it’s just there for intrigue) and is just a dream end. But the fact you start noticing shit after experiencing the end, imagery and encounters, it just… I really can’t see this as being nothing but the truth. Even if you don’t get the ending where you find out what Joseph truly is, he’s still a demonic entity with dark motives, influencing the town and its people to his goals.

And then there’s something that’s honestly quite saddening to think. It’s because of the fact that, even if you don’t get the cult end, it doesn’t change what Joseph is. He’s using single dads’ energy to summon his King to the world. He SPECIFICALLY needs single dads. He has caused all of the other dads to lose their significant other to further his goals, from divorce to death. He’s the reason they’re single in the first place.

Because of this, you pairing up with a dad doesn’t give me a good feeling. Because he needs the dads to be single to draw their energy. And he doesn’t care about “true love” or “good ends.” He’ll tear you apart to forward his goals.

Joseph doesn’t care if Craig’s ending was the cutest thing anyone’s experienced. Joseph doesn’t care if you truly have a connection to Mat.

He needs you two to be single to feed off of you both. And he knows how to break you two apart without anyone ever expecting a thing.

Basically, the reveal of what Joseph is makes me look in fear at all of the other dads, look in fear of their good ends. Because even if it’s a happy end we experienced in what we saw, it implies it’s not meant to last. Down the road, we’ll either be broken up by Joseph’s influences, or he’ll influence one of our’s deaths.

And we won’t think anything odd about it. We’ll just think it didn’t work out, or that life is a cruel mistress.

This is so sinister, like I both love it for the intrigue, but hate it because I genuinely wanted cute moments, and now knowing what Joseph is, I can’t see them as cute anymore. I can’t see myself being happy with any of the Dad’s routes, because there’s that looming thought that it’ll just end in sadness again.

Fucking christ. I didn’t sign up for Dream Daddy to be this dark.


EDIT: This post really blew up, to the point that people are wondering if I’m making shit up due to lack of sources. I wasn’t intending this to get big, it was a vent/personal post, with at most some theories on implications that I thought would get lost to the various other posts people make. I made a reblog showing links that give more info, but for future people that find the post, here are various links on the info we have on the route.

Here’s some images found that pertain to this ending.

Here’s a transcript of how the route goes, from people descrambling the code. Also contains some more images.

Better quality textures of “Cultist Joseph.”

And finally, here’s how people did the data-mine.

Horoscope for The Signs August 2017

Aries:It’s time to fix that thing you’ve been living with. You’ll feel good about your choice to do something about it, I promise. Be it a relationship or something tangible, you can fix it if you want to.
Taurus:I feel like we have this talk a lot, but you don’t have to work yourself so thin, reassess your finances and work situations. It’s not going to blow up in your face to just see what’s out there.
Gemini:Isn’t it time to crack down? You know what I’m referring to, because you’ve been nervously thinking about it the entire time youve read this. Stop beating around the bush.
Cancer:It’s been a long hot summer, treat yourself to something that reminds you that fall is near, and that you can change with the seasons.
Leo:Take some time this month to put some time into your relationships. You’re deeply loved, and sometimes people think you’re main priority is stability, just remind them you do what you do because you want the best for them.
Virgo:Someone close may be leaving, or something big may be changing, but just remember to keep your footing and take deep breathes. Your a child born in the season of transitions, use this cusp to prepare yourself to thrive and grow.
Libra:Things feel like they’re going backwards, or that you’re going in an odd direction, and maybe you are. And that’s okay. Ride the wave, you will land right where you need to when September comes.
Scorpio:Things aren’t necessarily going bad, but you could use some fun and self servicing. You can’t keep putting off taking care of yourself. The smell of autumn is in the air, you’re very close to the prime of your year, take a break to gather yourself and enter the season the best you.
Sagittarius:Don’t let your fear of other people’s perceptions get to you. You yourself see your views as fact at times, but remember that not everyone works this way. Regardless, put your mind to what makes you happy, not what pleases people around you.
Capricorn:I love you, deeply, but we need to have a talk about this spending. You’re fine right now, but you need to keep this momentum going into September to get back into the swing of things. You can keep this up and this will relieve stress in lots of other areas.
Aquarius:Stop settling. You’re always the first to tell other people what the best option is, so you know there are facets of your daily life you’re settling on. Sit down and map out whats bringing you happiness and what’s bringing you discourse.
Pisces:Call your friends, they miss you. You feel isolated sometimes, and your emotions try to convince you you’re alone. You’re not. You have a deep pool of love in your friends, so it’s time to get the tribe together.

Stranger Things Season 2 trailer shot by shot run down

I do not claim or own any of these screenshots all rights to Netflix


aw look at my children doing normal children things can’t wait to see how long that’s going to last 

so, the way that Dungeons and Dragons was sort of the running analogy last season, my guess is that this game is going to be the overlying symbolism for this season.

my boys all back together and happy again can’t wait to see how long that’ll last :’)

so if this is the analogy I’m guessing the “sword” is going to be the key to slaying the monster

again, the dragon probably = the monster

and if so, the fact that Dustin seemingly LOST this game sort of worries me…

case in point

this trailer took approximately 15 seconds to get me to say “oh no”

AS I WAS SAYING (okay so obviously from what we left off on last season and the trailers/ teaser we’ve gotten. we now know this season is going to deal with the aftermath of the Upside Down for Will as well as the entire community as rifts have been opened to other worlds)

so i’m assuming Will’s main arc this season is going to be his struggle with being split between two worlds, and though I understand why they did it I wish we could see more of Will apart from that but oh well)

me too buddy, me too.

and thus, we have our big bad for the season *rubs hands together*

mike he is obviously not okay but thanks for being concerned

correct me if i’m wrong but is that Jonathan’s car? why is he leaving?

sooooo why isn’t Will at school?

stancy break up/ tension possibly? nothing good ever really comes from their meeting in this ally

aw…is this why he wasn’t in school? Joyce obviously knows something is up. (side note: is that Hopper behind them?)

oh come on-

these SOBs again?

so i guess maybe the Upside Down;s bleeding over to our world effect crops too???????

Hopper and Joyce as parents yes please (also Will is not okay)

“I felt it everywhere” wtf is that supposed to mean that’s terrifying

please just let the Byers family live someone give them a break

why do they look so suspect? who are they looking at?

honestly I’m loving the Halloween time theme I can’t wait for the aesthetics they’re going to be implementing

my connection/ insider I have previously hinted to me about a Steve/ kids dynamic that was going to be happening this season, but I’m actually very interested to see where this goes and the relationships that’ll come out of it

again with the aesthetics !!! yes !!! please!!! and !!! thank !!! you !!!

when the scientists are worried, it’s really time to get worried

uuuhhhhh yikes? blood is never a good sign?

ESPECIALLY AROUND DUSTIN NO DO NOT WANT THIS TRAILER IS MAKING ME REALLY CONCERNED ABOUT HIS SAFETY AS A CHARACTER

ah yes all is probably not well at the Wheeler household 

of course my dork sons all go trick or treating in matching Ghost Busters costumes I love them

it looks like he’s tracking something. buuuuut what?

HOP!! I MISSED YOU AND YOUR PERPETUALLY CONFUSED EYEBROWS

oooohhhhhh these boys look like they’re crushing on the new giiirrrllll 👀 (mainly Lucas and Dustin? maybe Will I can’t tell) (except for Mike because they really are doing everything they can to bury me in Mileven feels)

I can literally feel her angst radiating off the screen and I have a feeling I’m going to stan her unless the writers use her as a devise to cause tension or rivalry among the boys in which case someone is going to die

“Sometimes I feel like I can still see her” WHY DO THE WRITERS FEEL THE NEED TO HURT ME LIKE THIS GAH I MISS MILEVEN HE EVEN KEPT HER BLANKET FORT UP  (because also it’s important to note that this is the same shirt from the screenshot of them watching the girl walk in. so if Mike goes home and realizes he still misses I’m going to choke)

can’t wait for this to most likely just be a cat jump scare

they’re building something don’t ask me what

if I had to guess I would say some sort of device that picks up on signals from the Upside Down maybe? like some sort of crystal radio?

but why does Mike kind of look like hes going to smash it with the speaker?

new girl seems to be working with them/ part of the group now. but the box opened? idk this part is confusing

-EDIT/ UPDATE THANKS TO @disneyprincesskatherine apparently this is a reference to Ghostbusters! the box is similar to a device they use in the movies to catch ghost (i’m uncultured I’m so sorry). she also speculates this is the capture of the sort of “pet” Dustin gets that Gaten talked about (could also be why there is blood on Dustin’s chair)

okay but where is #4? they’re still in their Halloween costumes so we can assume it’s either the day of or the morning after, though on what looked to be Halloween night in one of the previous screencaps, all 4 were present soooo

more evidence of the world meshing

YOU BEST BELIEVE I SCREAMED OUT LOUD I MISSED THEM (they both looks so good I‘m loving the haircuts) (and is this them breaking into the lab?)

even though this is a gross slimy portal to another dimension, i’m still digging the aesthetics

Will is not okay part 87450507

this is either a drawing of a map of the Upside Down or all connecting tree roots. either way wtf Will?

This time on: OTPs With Unreal Height Differences 

it kind of looks like the same “tree roots” on the ground as there were at the gas station shot so yeah, I think Will was drawing a giant root system

🎶 you’re my daaad, you’re my dad, boogie woogie woogie 🎶

DREAM TEAM (Mike, Nancy, Jonathan, Joyce) (also can we laugh at the fact that Mike is armed with a candle holder while he stands next to his sister literally holding a shot gun)

Hop digging my grave for when I finish the season

*cues classic 80′s teen movie party montage*

my girl wildin out (and Steve’s there too I guess)

TELL ME WHO HURT YOU (this is a different outfit from the party though, so it’s not the same scene)

a new weapon? perhaps the “sword”?

!!!!!!

OH GOD TELL ME HOP IS OKAY

everyone in this trailer looks as shook as I feel watching it

Will Is Not Okay: The Saga Continues

same shirt so most likely what he’s experiencing on the other side. I’m almost certain he’s going to play a big role in Eleven being able to come back to the other side

Journey To The Center of the Earth (2008)

well well well, Samwise Gamgee, what’s poppin’

why does Steve have Jonathan’s bat?

as far as I can tell this treck into the Upside Down consists of Mike, Dustin, Joyce, and I can’t tell who the others are 

“ABORT ABORT!!!” (this is a different scene from the one above so I wonder what this is in reference to)

another shot of Will being scared out of his mind, this kid doesn’t ever get a break (though the background looks almost like the lab as opposed to the upside down. I could be wrong)

…well that’s concerning (kind of looks like that giant monster is chasing him)

“If you’re out there, please just give me a sign”

so this looks to be back in the Upside Down equivalent to the classroom where Eleven defeated the Demegorgan. and based on the look on her face and the previous shot above, it seems she JUST woke up

YES MY BADASS CHILD I NEVER DOUBTED YOU FOR A SECOND

yES HER RETURN IS ABOUT TO BE ICONIC

YALL MIND IF I WILD OUT OVER THESE AESTHETICS AGAIN

I’m so freaking happy for her return to Mike us

Lord almighty this season looks amazing.

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“I was an only child, and I want to be a part of something really bad. When I got signed by myself, I felt very alone, if my dad was sitting here next to me, he would tell you about all the pages in my journal of me drawing me and four other faceless friends on different instruments. That’s why when I see a kid at a show that looks like they’re crying their brains out because they’re sitting in a room with thousands of other people who get it, I cry onstage. And I hide it because it’s embarrassing. But I get what that feels like to just want to find your place. And this is my place.”

“I was an only child, and I want to be a part of something really bad. When I got signed by myself, I felt very alone. If my dad was sitting here next to me, he would tell you about all the pages in my journal of me drawing me and four other faceless friends on different instruments. That’s why when I see a kid at a show that looks like they’re crying their brains out because they’re sitting in a room with thousands of other people who get it, I cry onstage. And I hide it because it’s embarrassing. But I get what that feels like to just want to find your place. And this is my place. This is my place.”

The Signs as Harry Styles Lyrics

Aries - Choose your words ‘cause there’s no antidote for this curse. Oh, what’s it waiting for? Must this hurt you just before you go? // Ever Since New York

Taurus - I’m selfish, I know, but I don’t ever want to see you with him. I’m selfish, I know; I told you, but I know you never listen // Woman

Gemini - She’s gonna be an angel, just you wait and see when it turns out she’s a devil in between the sheets // Only Angel

Cancer - Tongue-tied like we’ve never known, telling those stories we already told 'cause we don’t say what we really mean // Two Ghosts

Leo - She’s got a book for every situation, gets into parties without invitations. How could you ever turn her down? // Carolina

Virgo - Comfortable silence is so overrated; why won’t you ever say what you want to say? // From the Dining Table

Libra - You can’t bribe the door on your way to the sky. You look pretty good down here, but you ain’t really good // Sign of the Times

Scorpio - She sits beside me like a silhouette, hard candy dripping on me 'til my feet are wet // Kiwi

Sagittarius - I walked the streets all day, running with the thieves ‘cause you left me in the hallway // Meet Me in the Hallway

Capricorn - We never learn, we’ve been here before? Why are we always stuck and running from the bullets? // Sign of the Times

Aquarius - She worked her way through a cheap pack of cigarettes, hard liquor mixed with a bit of intellect // Kiwi

Pisces - Running through the garden, oh, where nothing bothered us, but we’re still young. I always think about you and how we don’t speak enough // Sweet Creature

8

I was an only child, and I want to be a part of something really bad. When I got signed by myself, I felt very alone, if my dad was sitting here next to me, he would tell you about all the pages in my journal of me drawing me and four other faceless friends on different instruments. That’s why when I see a kid at a show that looks like they’re crying their brains out because they’re sitting in a room with thousands of other people who get it, I cry onstage. And I hide it because it’s embarrassing. But I get what that feels like to just want to find your place. And this is my p l a c e.

I have a story for everyone.

My Mom is a mutant.

To be specific, she has a disorder called Factor V Laiden Thrombophilia (same as me *waves*), a genetic mutation that causes abnormal clotting of the blood. When treated appropriately (I can never take birth control, I’ll develop complications if I ever get pregnant if I’m not careful, and in situations such as long flights I have to make sure to move around as often as possible), it’s manageable.

There’s always a very real sense of danger, however. See, blood clots can form anywhere in the body, and *move* anywhere if not caught quickly enough. If it moves to the heart or the brain, you’re screwed, plain and simple. Even if it doesn’t, and it just stays in your leg and eventually goes away, for example, it leaves damage that is often irreparable.

Fifteen years ago, when my Mom was pregnant with my youngest sister and what would have been her twin, she developed a bloodclot in her left leg. It was late enough in her term that attempting to get rid of it would have meant terminating the pregnancy, and my Mom, after asking if she would die from it and being told no, decided to not go through with the procedure. She lost one of the twins, gave birth to my baby sister, and ever since then has lived with a disability that puts her in constant pain.

The first time I saw her with her bad leg, it was when I was six-years-old. She came home with my little sister–I had to hold her since my Mom needed crutches to get around. She screamed the entire time she walked down the hallway to her room. It hurt her that badly. I’ve never felt more helpless in my entire life. The sound of her crying like that has never ever left me.

The best way to describe the physical atttributes of her leg would be like taking a hot knife and stripping off all the skin of your lower leg. Among the symptoms she’s had for over a decade include: swelling to the point that she’s torn pants, weeping–which means the wound on her leg that never goes away because of the poor bloodflow leaks fluid–to the point that she has to wrap a towel around it, bleeding, the skin cracking and falling off on a regular basis, a higher chance of getting infections (in the past four years, she’s had two staph infections, one of which resulted in an emergency room visit), and the almost complete assurance that in the next ten years, she’ll be completely wheelchair bound.

She raised me and my three other siblings on her own with that disability after my Dad left and our extended family stopped giving a shit about us, and as often as she frustrates me, I want to be able to help her. She has done *so* much for me, and seeing her in pain every single day, having her crying in bed because she thinks nobody will ever love her again because of her bad leg, seeing her cycle through seasons of depression only to fight back with everything she has, seeing the look of hope when she finds something that might fix her leg only to learn that it’s too expensive to get the treatment, kills me. Knowing that it’ll only get worse without proper help hurts more than I can properly articulate. She isn’t the perfect mother, not by a long shot, but I love her and I want to be able to help.

The thing with her leg nowadays is that the bloodclot is gone. It has been for about a decade. It’s the damage it did to the veins that remains. We have yet to encounter a doctor willing to attempt surgery to replace the damaged vein, and everything else has been more for dealing with it than actively trying to find a solution.

We have found one possible one, however. An oxygen treatment that has been proven to help restore bloodflow. The problem is, the treatment is expensive and considered experimental, so it isn’t covered by our insurance.

You’re probably wondering where I’m trying to get at with all of this. It’s simple. One treatment costs 150 dollars, and my Mom would need to do about eight of those in the span of a few months to see any actual improvement. I want to change that. I want to be able to go up to her, tell her, “I’ll handle paying for the oxygen treatments to fix your leg.” I want to be able to see some hope on her face again, instead of the near-constant acceptance that she can’t change it no matter how hard she wants to.

I’m still just that six-year-old kid that wants to help her Mom. The only difference is, I’m not helpless anymore.

On my Patreon, I make a grandiose show of how I want it to help launch my career as a professional writer, which is true, but nestled deep in those descriptions is one throwaway line about helping to pay for medical bills. I didn’t delve deeper into how on there, since as this post shows it gets rather long-winded, but of the many medical bills that comes with this family, the need for my Mom to get this treatment is starting to creep higher and higher. She’s already showing signs of being unable to walk, and her leg is slowly but surely getting worse. Her doctors have even started talking about possible amputation if there isn’t any improvement.

In short, I’m asking you guys for help, because I don’t know what else to do. I don’t want to see my Mom in pain anymore. I know how to help her, but since losing about $500 worth of income last month, my paychecks go towards the bills and such that we already have. I haven’t been able to save like I used to, and the longer we wait the less likely we’ll be able to fix anything.

I need your help, guys. My Mom needs your help. I know this is a longshot. I know I’m not popular, I’m not beloved in a way that warrants having money thrown at me for no good reason, my creations are still fledgling, I know there are people out there that have it so much worse, but I’m still taking this chance. I’m coming with my nose pressed to the ground before you in supplication, and asking from the bottom of my heart: please, help my family.

Whether this story warrants that is beyond me, but stories are all I have.

If you can offer anything, thank you. If all you can do is read this, thank you. There isn’t any guilt here. It’s simply a story and a question from someone with nowhere else to turn. Those don’t always need responses.

BTS in Bed Part II (Based on Their Lilith and Eros Signs) - Hyung Line

warning: mature content ahead

Part I one can be found here and Maknae Line version here.

As an introduction, Lilith and Eros are two key placements to look at when trying to explore someone’s sexuality through astrology. Black Moon Lilith illuminates the dark side of your sexuality, and reveals one’s desires, fantasies, and kinks. Eros is an asteroid that encompasses one’s deepest passions and wants.

Jin - Scorpio Eros Pisces Lilith

  • a classy freak
  • let’s see his scorpio eros
  • they’re fearless lovers
  • not afraid to express his wants and desires
  • i feel like he’d be the easiest to tell when he’s in the mood
  • because his whole aura just exudes it
  • and his attitude flips like a light switch
  • this is an especially sensual position
  • intensity is important
  • very intimate
  • they prefer having a relationship with their partners
  • because they’re addicted to the thrill of getting to know someone inside and out
  • the type to say “i’ve literally been inside u” when u get grossed out at him
  • a lot of eye contact
  • grabbing ur chin and making u look at him
  • this boy is soft dom
  • but can turn strict in a blink when disobeyed
  • his pisces venus is dreamy and fluid like water
  • loves foreplay
  • takes his time
  • so much passion
  • into partners who have an innocent aura
  • i see him really enjoying a teacher-school girl roleplay
  • treats his partner like royalty but can manhandle them real quick  
  • 20/10

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superbooprr  asked:

Why do you not want people reposting your art? I mean, I get it. People tend to steal and call it theirs. But Ive been wanting to repost some of your art for a long time. Im not trying to sound like Im hating, Im just a bit upset I cant repost even if I credit. I love your art and everything thaf you do Signe, I just wish I could show more people it.

I don’t want it reposted because if you want to repost it then that means I’ve already uploaded it so you could just as well reblog/retweet it directly from the source.
Another reason is that once people see it reposted (for instance on IG) they take that as consent to repost it themselves and thus the credit that, may or may not have been on it, gets lost in a sea of repost with stuff like “credit to whoever made this” on it, which doesn’t help the artist who originally drew it out at all. /:

“No,” Cas says stubbornly and muffled, looking down at the ground. Dean scoffs next to him.

“Cas.”

“Dean.”

Dean raises an eyebrow at Cas who shoots him a little smirk.

“Dean, I’m fine. It’s fine,” Cas insists.

“Cas, babe, it’s snowing,” Dean says, gesturing around him as though Cas can’t see. Cas rolls his eyes.

“That doesn’t mean anything,” Cas protests.

“You’re shivering, c’mon, you’re freezing,” Dean reasons. Cas looks over at him and Dean tries to keep a straight face. “You’re gonna freeze to death and I’m gonna have to take care of a court case because of it. I’ll be on trial charges, Cas, it’s gonna be a nightmare,” Dean jokes, failing to keep a straight face. Cas rolls his eyes but he has a little smile on his face.

“If I let you will you shut up?” Cas inquires.

“Most definitely,” Dean says with a nod. Cas looks over at him and Dean raises an eyebrow. Cas sighs and takes off his backpack. Dean smiles, pulling off his letterman.

“Now, you’re gonna freeze,” Cas points out, setting his bag down on the cold sidewalk for a moment.

“I am not going to freeze because seeing you warm will warm me,” Dean tells Cas as he sets his letterman that’s just a bit big on Cas over Cas’ shoulders. Cas sighs in contentment at the warmth, shifting it on his shoulders.

“You’re so cheesy,” Cas mumbles, going to pick up his backpack. Dean’s hand gets in the way, however.

“Nuh uh, I’m carrying that for you.”

Cas looks over at Dean who smiles.

“It’s what any decent and loving boyfriend would do,” Dean explains. Dean can’t tell if Cas is red from the cold or if he’s blushing but he suspects it’s a bit of both. Cas can’t help the fondness that creeps up inside of him as he looks away from Dean, trying to hide a smile.

“Yeah, okay,” he says, letting Dean pick up his backpack. Cas grasps the edges of Dean’s letterman, pulling it a little tighter around him as he looks back over at Dean. Dean smiles and leans over to kiss Cas’ cheek. Dean’s nose is cold and it makes Cas shiver but Cas really doesn’t mind. Dean pulls away but Cas stops him. “Hey,” he says, quirking a little grin over at Dean whose cheeks are also pink from the cold or Cas, either one. “I’m not done with you,” Cas teases, and Dean smiles a little wider as Cas leans in to give Dean a kiss, a real kiss on the lips that lasts for many seconds and makes both of them feel very very warm despite the falling snow.

Cas pulls away and rests his head on Dean’s shoulder.

“I love you,” he says softly. Dean smiles widely.

“I love you too, Cas.”

BTS’ Future Soulmates (Based on Astrology) - Hyung Line

Juno is an asteroid that represents marriage and committed relationships. It dictates what you value and look for in a partner. While the planet Venus influences something similar (who we find attractive), Juno is more long term. It delves into the realm of soulmates. 

Maknae Line version here

Jin and Yoongi - Cancer Juno

  • cancers are the caretakers of the zodiac
  • they are sentimental and sensitive
  • to sum it up they’re the momma birds of the nest
  • because jin and yoongi both have their juno in this sign, they’d go for someoene with these traits
  • to people with a cancer juno, home is the most important part of a relationship
  • they need to create a warm, safe space with their partner in order to be happy
  • vv domestic
  • they find pleasure in doing chores and renovations if it creates a better atmosphere
  • they want someone as family oriented as them
  • often, creating a family is one of their biggest goals
  • security is most important in a relationship to them; they want to be sure that their partner is theirs and only theirs
  • value loyalty and compassion in a partner
  • attracted to someone with nurturing and maternal (or paternal) traits
  • someone who they connect with on an emotional level
  • they tend to become emotionally dependent on their partner

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