i want to hug paul


[5/10 male characters] - pierre bezukhov, war and peace

“They say: sufferings are misfortunes,“ said Pierre. “But if at once this minute, I was asked, would I remain what I was before I was taken prisoner, or go through it all again, I should say, for God’s sake let me rather be a prisoner and eat horseflesh again. We imagine that as soon as we are torn out of our habitual path all is over, but it is only the beginning of something new and good. As long as there is life, there is happiness. There is a great deal, a great deal before us.”


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 You remember it clearly, the day when Paul told you the truth about being a werewolf. You were mesmerized, happy to finally know the truth. He was relieved too. Now, two years later, your relationship is beyond perfect. And that’s why you can’t understand why you’re crying on the bathroom floor with a pregnancy test on your hands.

 You have this problem, always overreacting. But now it’s something much bigger. A baby will change your life forever. Paul never said anything about kids, so it’s kinda obvious he doesn’t want them. So the possibility of him breaking up with you is what’s killing you right now.

 But you need to tell him. Right now. He’s with the pack and should be home in an hour. So you get up and take a long shower to calm down. The warm water makes you cry even more, almost making you want to let it all behind and run away from confrontation.

 When you’re finally done you hear your husband downstairs with Sam, Seth and Embry.  It’s not a good time to have company, but asking them to leave so you can talk with Paul would worry not only your boyfriend but also the whole pack. Wearing your best smile you go downstairs to meet them, hiding the pregnancy test in a pocket on your coat.

 “Hello, guys.”

 “Hello, (Y/N).”

 “How are you doing?”

 “Love of my life!” Paul hugs you tight, spinning you around. The pack never hears the answer to those questions, because Paul always steals your attention.  “What is it?”

 You nervously put your hand in your pocket, holding the test.

 “Paul I need to talk to you. It’s… very important.” You speak too low, but everyone stares at you. “I mean, after dinner, of course. Did you guys brought something to eat?”

 “Hell yeah! Lots of pizza because today is pizza’s day!”

 “(Y/N), what happened?” Paul stares, worried. You attempt to take it easy for now is useless. Paul knows you too well. “Just tell me.”

 You feel the wolves getting tense. The past you share with the vampires makes them worry a lot about you. Like you being in trouble again. Wouldn’t surprise them, actually. When the tension starts to scare you, and you feel like they’re just about to hunt any vampire they can find around here, you find your voice.

 “No, guys, I’m okay.”

 “Then why are you crying?”

 “I’m not crying.” You say, with tears rolling down your cheeks. “I’m just… I’m just…”

 “(Y/N), please. Tell me what’s happening. ”

 Reluctantly you pull out the pregnancy test, handing it to Paul. The silence kills you.

 “Oh, yes! Paul is gonna be a dad!” Seth screams, hugging you with a big smile on his face.

 “Let her go, Seth, I want to hug my girl.” Paul pushes Seth away and hugs you with all his love, then you’re not crying anymore.

 “I need you to help me.”

 “Help you raising our child? You don’t need to tell me that. I love you and I love our baby.”

 “I love you.” You whisper with your head against his chest. Yes, you were overreacting after all. “I love you.”

 “I love you more, beautiful.”

“Hmm.  What podcast shall I listen to during my commute this morning?”

…Uh…nvm.  I’m…good, thanks.