Ah shit I wasn’t expecting to get emotional today.
…I have very low confidence in myself, as a writer and as an artist. I am also extremely shy in real life (probably couldn’t tell on here, right?)
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve drawn or written something and wanted to share it, only to back out at the last minute. And when I do share it, I’m scared to even look at it again because I think “No one will like it”.
I have some kind of anxiety that just tells me every day that my stuff just…isn’t good enough. That I’m just wasting my time trying. I think that’s why for the longest time, I just stopped. No drawing, no writing.
Villainous helped get me out of a rut that I’d been in for so long. I was having fun creating characters again, giving them backstories and designing them. Doing stupid little comics just to make people laugh. I never expected anyone to like my stuff. I didn’t expect anyone to draw my characters.
Hell, I never expected Carved Rainbows to actually become a thing.
This is going to sound really sappy but I am super grateful for the last few weeks. I’ve been inspired by so much, art and fanfiction a like. I look forward to checking tumblr every morning, just to see what the new day has brought. And the reactions. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t read the tags when someone reblogs the fics.
Just… thank you, guys. You all are amazing.