I think lately I’ve learned what maturity is.
Maturity isn’t about being a “lady” in your actions, nor having a good language or being qualified enough to deal with people, no.
Maturity is when you reach to the point where you ask yourself; “who am I and who I want to be?” When you start to realize that your existence was meant to be for a reason, that you have something specialized only for you to do. And most importantly, it’s when you start searching for the answers.
Maturity is when your realize that your happiness comes first, no matter how much things and people you have to cut off. It’s when you realize that your smiles and laughs must be there on your face before your tears.
When you learn that loving someone isn’t enough to stop them from hurting you and it’s never your fault, knowing when to let go before it’s too tight that it could suffocate you.
Maturity is when you become your own best friend, your own priority.
It’s when you know what is and who is good for you and to protect them, protect the people you love.
Maturity is when you know that you and only you can achieve what you want and to protect who you really are and no one is going to do that for you.
Maturity is stepping out of your comfort zone.
Maturity is embracing your faults and working around them.
Maturity is marking your thoughts in big words and bright colors.
Maturity is knowing that your dreams are worth the stars.
You’ll know because he won’t mind that your texts are always a little too long and your laugh is always a little too loud and your eyes squint different shapes when you smile. You’ll know because he’ll ask you about your favorite bookstores and if you’re close with your siblings rather than whether or not you’re a virgin. You’ll know because he’ll tell you what he wants to name his kids and how much he wants to be a good dad. You’ll know because he says “I love you” using so many different words; “Are you okay?” “How’s your day going?” “I have a story that I’ve been dying to tell you.” You’ll know because you’ll want him to know every part of you, you’ll want to explore every crevice of your past with him, even the bad parts, because you want him to be able to love you for the scars on your inner thighs as well as the scars on your heart where others left cracks. You’ll know because one day you’ll wake up and realize that loving him has made you love yourself a little bit more.
hiii. just wanted to say that i love your blog, your headcanons in particular. they always give me that itch to sit down and write out what i gotta get down soooooo i decided to drop some in ya ask box lol. can i get some random headcanons on how GOM would be with their female best friend?? hope that's not too general.
THANK YOU SO MUCH i did not know i am a source of writing inspiration /cries/ nope! not too general and i kinda like this idea :)
Originally, many thought Akashi was dating his female best friend because of his gentlemanly qualities - always opening doors for her, giving her his jacket when she’s cold, pulling out chairs, etc. but that’s just what he does for the women in his life.
Admires his best friend’s ambition and strength, and he learns a lot from her.
They bond over intellectual topics and deep talks and he treats her as an equal.
Headcanon that Akashi is not as traditional as his other male counterparts in the Akashi patriarchy LOL.
She is always his +1 to events until he has a significant other.
THEY GIVE EACH OTHER FASHION ADVICE?? Like, sometimes Akashi wears something really weird (like a fur coat) and she’s like “Sei, can you wear something less extra”
He calls her late night to ask her for girl advice lmao
Also she’s one of the few people who can calm an angry Akashi down l0l
Aomine: (LOL BEST FRIEND IS BASICALLY MOMOI)
Acts like his best friend’s slave, complains a lot, rolls his eyes and gives infinite sass but would fall apart without her.
He asks her a lot of questions about girls and learns a lot how to care for another human being through her.
SIDE NOTE: Aomine is, I believe, less selfish and more human because of Momoi. He realizes he says a lot of harsh, blunt things and softens his edges when he’s around her.
He enjoys going out to eat with her post-game and always revels in his glory, and she kind of sits there, feeding in his confidence LOL.
She makes him pay for the food though and just sits there munching as Aomine goes, “did you see my AMAZING block??”
Aomine’s best friend basically keeps him from failing in school and is his number one wingwoman because daiki actually sUCKS at talking to girls, despite his perceived exterior.
He gives her one armed hugs ALL the time and lazily calls her “Baka”
PS: im a huge aomomo shipper so i think aomine gets with his female best friend sooner or later
Rants and talks about astrology and philosophy all day every day to them.
Cute headcanon: they share astrology memes and exchanges lucky items.
Midorima made her believe, or follow Oha Asa a lot more and find more happiness through spirituality.
Sometimes, they go for days or weeks without talking but then Midorima would propose a study session together and they’d sit in silence and study until one breaks the silence and talk about what’s on their minds.
She always talks to him about her boy troubles and Midorima just nods, unable to give any damn advice because he is socially incompetent.
She reminds Midorima that he’s too hard on himself and always sends little texts encouraging him to take care of his health, especially when he’s sick.
CUTE HEADCANON: they go to medical school together and live together platonically in the same apartment.
they’re close enough to share books, and midorima, being a serious person does not take this lightly.
one night when she’s really upset, midorima drives to her house, picks her up and takes her stargazing as she vents to him and he nods quietly.
Headcanon they are food buddies!! except she’s a pastry chef and enjoys baking and always needs someone to taste the food.
Mura is always like, “____-chin, they’re all so good - i can’t tell you which one’s better!!”
Mura gives her creative ideas on what new foods or recipes to come up with and CUTE HEADCANON they become co-business owners to a bakery/sweet shop.
Mura carries her on his back whenever they go traveling because she’s lazy to walk and all she has to do is feed him food to keep him going (he’s like a car!!!)
Mura asks her for girl advice and she just claims that he’s a lost cause but is secretly a great wing woman when he really needs it.
His best friend brAIDS his hair or ties it up for him when it gets super long and in his face because he keeps complaining about it and she’s tired of hearing about it.
Like Akashi, a lot of people thought they were dating but Kise sees her as a little sister.
fun headcanon!! she is a photographer friend who started off kise’s modeling career by doing his headshots and simple poses.
Kise loves doing all types of photoshoots with her and they always go traveling or on adventures to shoot.
another fun headcanon!! they start a youtube channel together to document all their fun experiences.
Very adventurous pair of friends who don’t mind attention - both sUPER sociable. they go to bars together and are the life of the party honestly.
When they’re drunk they sing karaoke pieces together LOL
She teaches Kise how to do natural makeup so when he’s having a bad skin day he can cover it up or like…wing his eyeliner when he wants to sometimes??
kise paints her nails for her when they’re bored?
his best friend is his quiet partner-in-crime
they’re basically super similar in everything except she gets a lot of people’s attention because she’s cute and adorable and small while kuroko tends to become her shadow (poor kuroko)
she hates milkshakes but she flirts with the workers at maji burger so she can get a free one and gives it to kuroko!!
they trade books and goes on walks with nigou to talk about books
headcanon that they are in multiple fandoms but they disagree on who they ship and so they always argue over that LOL
Nigou really likes his best friend (sometimes more than kuroko) and they playfully argue on who nigou likes best.
his best friend always goes to support his games and they both make fun of kagami-kun together like an evil duo
“Is it too much for him?” you asked your best friend as the saleswoman placed a beautiful sheer veil upon your head.
“Are you kidding me? Too much? He’ll be worried because he will not only see his wife but the hottest woman on earth in front of him.” She squealed happily.
And it was true; the moment he saw you his heart beat a little faster, and he realized just how lucky he was.
“I think the woods would be a great location for our wedding, babe.” You heard Derek mumble as his eyes diverted from the screen to your eyes.
“The woods? Like, the ones you run in and become all scary in?” You weren’t mad, just worried about the supernatural taking an interest in your wedding ceremony.
“It’s my second home. I want to feel connected to the earth where my ancestors fought for people like me to have the ability to get married to someone who accepts me.”
And so it was done. Once all your guests had arrived, your maid of honor was able to surround the premises in mountain ash, so nothing could come in and ruin your fairytale. Of course, Stiles had no issue brushing it all off when the festivities were over.
“Wow, girl. Brett has an amazing sense of style.” You heard Lydia say as she saw you wearing the dress that he wanted you to try on.
“I know. It’s beautiful. I’ll just have to tell him it didn’t fit, or that I didn’t like it.”
“Why?” She asked with a long laugh.
“Because this is the dress I’m walking down the isle in and its bad luck for the groom to see the bride in her dress before the wedding, hm?” You responded, knowing your fiance knew you way too well.
“Okay, don’t tell Y//N, but I am totally getting married in here.” Brett told his best man as he bounced his lacrosse ball off the wall.
“Bro, it’s like totally abandoned.” Brett heard his friend say.
“Nah, give it some love and a wicked makeover, and you will find the venue of your dreams. Let’s buy it.”
“Alright,man…let’s find the owners.”
And he did find them. They were confused, but boy did he make you happy with the most beautiful location ever.
“You know, getting married in Mexico is crazy. But no, you’re also flying all your guests over in two days AND planning your wedding in three days while you’re on vacation.” You heard your best friend say over the phone as she was on the plane from France to Cancun, where your beloved Isaac had proposed to you only a week ago. It was sudden, but he wanted to get married to you as soon as possible; even if that meant during a short two week stop in Mexico before your flight to Beacon Hills.
“I know, kid. I just love him so much, and its pretty exciting as well.” You explained as you grabbed a beautiful white dress off the rack.
“I think I just found my dress…” You said before she could even reply.
“Really? Snapchat it to me you gorgeous idiot!” You heard her whisper-yell, knowing she would be much louder if she wasn’t on a plane.
So you did, and she agreed. That, my friend, was your dress.
Tomorrow was your wedding, and all your guests had arrived. The only issue was, there was no venue. You and Isaac had spend hours searching for an easy venue, yet most were booked or had a long process for renting. You decided to take a stop at a cute little beachside restaurant. The view was beautiful, and it was jam packed since the area was quite a tourist hub. You were eating, when Isaac let out a long laugh.
“Babe, that’s my old 5th-grade teacher!” You heard Isaac say as he nodded toward an older man who was making his way over to you two.
“Isaac Lahey, well if it isn’t you! You still look just like the young troublesome lad from all those years ago. How are you son?”
Isaac laughed and grinned excitedly, introducing you before explaining how you two were only visiting for your wedding.
“Say, why don’t I take some good cuisine I’ve learned from my time here in Mexico for your wedding. Where is it at?” He asked before chucking and resting his hands on his hips.
“We actually don’t know, we haven’t been able to find an affordable and quick venue. It might just be in the middle of the desert.” Isaac said with a chuckle. You were quiet, letting them reconnect and enjoy each other.
“Well consider that a non-issue. I’ll rent out this place to you guys in exchange for an ability to cater the wedding.
“Oh, sir…you own this place? You are way too generous. Thank you!” You said before letting a small tear roll down your cheek from all the excitement.
“Mister.Kendrick, I will forever be grateful. I don’t know how to repay you. This is a dream come true, because your restaurant is more that my fiance and I have ever dreamt of!”
The old man just laughed and patted Isaacs back, before giving you a cheeky smile.
“A wedding is a gift. And one day, I just wish you will bring your children and remind them of that.” He said.
k if you get to date jungkook you are the luckiest thing on earth because who doesn’t want to date that nerd
so he would be extremely nervous before confessing because he wouldn’t just go to a random someone he found cute and ask them out oh no no he would totally fall for a best friend
and guess what you are the best friend
and the nerd didn’t even realise he liked you in the first place he was literally just like “huh hyung aren’t they amazing if i’d date someone i wish it would be them”
and jin is literally facepalming for the fifth time because “jungkook maybe u CAN date them just ask”
but kook is like “wait no i can’t hyung we are best friends are you dumb or something”
but then something clicks in his head or jin is hitting his head bc kook’s stupid af and you turn around and smile at him and he just realises
he just knows he already fell for you
and then he nearly faints
but yeah back to it he decides to confess after some weeks or months idk he’s pretty much a loser
so what better way to confess than write a message because he is still a loser and he knows that if he talks to you he’s gonna screw it all up
so here’s the thing, being your best friend, kook doesn’t really write you messages and even when he does they are short because he knows you won’t get mad
but he literally stood all night up to write a long ass message before sending it at like 7 am
you still don’t know that he worked so much at that message but namjoon is forever blackmailing kook with it
woah this backstory is long af
anyway badabing badaboom you two are together because you actually had a crush on him who wouldn’t have a crush on jungkook
he still doesn’t like texting but he tries to send you morning texts and good night texts
you also get to wear his white t-shirts and he complains about it but he finds you sexy when you wear his clothes so he lets you wear them anyway
you two watch the marvel movies and you secretly like iron man too but you say that captain america is better just to annoy kook
alright back to the story
so jungkookie wouldn’t be big on skinship at first
he would be afraid to hold your hand
so when he does hold your hand he just internal screams and is like “good job kook you did good”
but then he regrets everything because his hands get sweaty so he immediately tries to find a context to stop holding your hand
he is also afraid to kiss you
and when the boys see that none of you is taking initiative on kissing they come up with a plan
so they play the pepero game
and yeah, taehyung and hobi kiss again and jimin gets slapped by yoongi bc they kissed but it’s all worth it when they shove both your heads into one another to see you kiss
and this is the story of your first kiss
jungkook likes hugs though
he would hug you 24/7 if he had the time
he gives good hugs too like he likes to hover over you if you are shorter or snuggle his head into your neck if you are tall enough
I’M LITERALLY MELTING WEHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF
he would also like cuddling, especially spooning
but he would love to be the big spoon, even if you are 6 feet tall he. is. going. to. hold. his. baby.
and you can’t do anything about it
he still whines about his arm being numb after you two get up and he denies ever wanting to be the big spoon so you are still the bad one
after he gets comfortable enough with you he would start making out with you
and BOI would he love making out yes he would
he’d be pretty good at it too like he would love to hover over you while you two kissed (he would also dominate the kiss he’s a dom fiGHT ME)
he’d put a hand around your waist if you were standing and he would gather your hands over your head if you were sitting
he loves when you straddle him but he will never ever ever tell you
he also gives good neck kisses
he would pepper close mouthed kisses over your neck and they would be so light you would barely feel them
and when he gets to your collar bone you think he’s done buT HE GOES BACk to your neck and just bites
and then he starts to sloppily kiss all over your neck and he starts biting and sucking and licking everywhere he can reach and he gives you s o many hickeys and god forbid you hide them nope you gotta go out with your neck fucked up i’m sorry you got no choice
and he gets so smug and proud when people point out your hickeys or bruises and he smirks and he just w i n k s at you when you look over
but this fucker would headbutt you into your nose if you gave him one faint faint pale hickey
so yeah i guess you found out that your sex life is pretty interesting
of course, if you are ok with sex bc if you are not jungkook is still a happy bean
SMUT AHEAD PLZ DON’T CONTINUE IF YOU ARE NOT OK WITH IT I WILL WRITE SOMETHING IN BOLD WHEN I FINISH IT
k so i already said that jungkook is a dom and i will forever support this statement with my whole heart
anyway, the first time he wouldn’t be as confident as he was with making out
bc apparently making love is different
and he’s scared of hurting you
so you have to take the wheel
and your first time is gentle and cute and somehow awkward but you enjoyed it nevertheless because jungkook kept on repeating praises and he also left those heavenly moans out
spoiler: after the first three times kook flips you two over and fucks you into oblivion
another spoiler: you never get to dom ever again
from then on it just gets wilder and wilder
i don’t really see him into dirty talk but i actually see him into dirty talk???
like i don’t think he will dirty talk every time but if you get him angry enough he will get into lowkey humiliation mode
sometimes calls you slut but apologizes for it 50 times after it’s all over
will never ever do anything that will hurt you because he may be a dom but he’s not going to ever hurt you so u are in good hands
a big one on fingering i dunno i don’t see him eating you out but he’ll finger you at any hour every day he’d finger you hours on no end if you would let him
also loves fucking your mouth if you are ok with it but still apologizes for it 10 times
spoiler: if you let him fuck your mouth then he will totally do it and if you gag or struggle he will chuckle and be like “come on, you can take more than that” and just continue. feels bad for it later
anyway, if you look uncomfortable with something or you look like you just can’t anymore he will stop because he doesn’t want to push you past your limits
and apologize again like 70 times because he is good at apologizing
K THAT’S IT NO MORE SMUT
if you guys ever fight he will be s o scared but only after it’s over and one of you walks away
i mean, he gets into it and he is pretty competitive so when you fight he wants to show you that he is right even if he isn’t
so he doesn’t notice that what you two do is bad only after you walk away
so he gets very very scared and he’s !!! “hyUNG WHAT DO I DO THEY LEFT”
and jin is like “calm down kid they’ll come back i promise”
and you do come back and jungkook is in literal tears his cheeks are all puffed out and his eyes are red and his lips are even redder and he looks like he can’t breathe anymore and he just clings to you and he repeats “please never leave me alone don’t ever walk away like this please i’ll do everything let’s just never fight i don’t like it” and he is ugly sobbing and whining so you just hug him and cuddle him and wipe away his tears and you can’t even remember why you fought in the first place
that was your first fight so after that one jungkook avoids the fights like the plague
if you guys start fighting he drops everything and hugs you very very tight because he is scared you will walk away again so he sits you down somewhere and he sits right next to you so your legs and arms touch because he needs to know you are there
and you two just talk and never fight again
he also gets you little cute presents because “i just saw it there and it reminded me of you so i just bought it”
so your room is full of little things from jungkook because he doesn’t really like presents but will forever buy you stuff because he highkey likes to spoil you
you are so spoiled istg the only time he doesn’t spoil you is when you say “why do you spoil me” and he just denies everything
he is totally whipped but he doesn’t acknowledge it
and you guys tease each other every day and every time people see you together you bicker but at the end of the day you are still his and he is still yours
he knows he can trust you so WAIT NOPE I FORGOT TO SAY SOMETHING IT’S NOT ENDING YET
he is so jealous
i mean, it’s not that he doesn’t trust you, because he does, but when he sees other men around you he just goes on protective mode
the problem is he doesn’t know how to react when he feels like this so every time it’s different
one time he pulls you away, one time he joins the conversation, one time he just says something salty to the other person and forcefully grabs you and takes you somewhere else
actually, it’s always different with jungkook, whatever you guys are doing, be it dates (sometimes you go to a cafe, the next time you go to the gym and sometimes he takes you to the zoo or a carnival), or kisses (he will forever kiss you in a new way, two kisses will never be the same) or even talk (you guys will never talk about the same thing twice)
and that is because he knows he doesn’t know what to do so he wants to make sure that you are still interested in him and still love him and he’s forever afraid that he might screw up so he tries his best because you are honestly the world for him and he doesn’t want to lose his sun and moon and stars
because you make him feel things he never felt before and you are his only source of calmness and peace when everyone is stressing him and only your scent can relax him
and he knows he can trust you because you have been there before he even knew who he was. you were always there to remind him why he is wonderful and why he is doing what he is doing and you always supported him through his darkest times. you always protected him and he didn’t even know
so now he is forever grateful for what you’ve done for him and he wants to do so too. he wants to be there for you and he wants you to cry on his shoulder, not on someone else’s. he wants to be the reason you smile and he wants to protect you and he wants to remind you why you are breathtaking
he just adores you and everything about you and he still can’t comprehend why you love him the way he loves you and every night he has to remind himself that you are his, that you are there for him and that you are ok with it
so your relationship is more than bickering and presents
because jungkook is way deeper than he shows and he is a person that feels everything so very deeply and sometimes he is afraid of his own feelings and this is why he needs you to show him that you feel the same way and that he isn’t crazy or something
your relationship is one where you aren’t just lovers, but best friends too, which means that you know everything about each other, but are still eager to absorb everything that means the other’s existence
your relationship is built on sleepless nights where you just stare at each other and warm blankets and 3 am dinners and soft shy kisses and sweaty hands even after years of being together and mistakes because they are always there but you two learn to overcome them and he wouldn’t have it any other way
the last time i saw you, i thought about
kissing you the whole drive home.
i thought about every could-be, would-be,
if only i had the strength to love you.
but the truth is, the experiences i make here
will filter my thoughts like dams
and make me who i am.
driving home from your apartment
with my windows open and my voice
serenading the trees is the kind of strength
i want to collect in mason jars. the kind
of strength that will keep me whole.
i want to capture the jokes we made when we
wanted this to work so bad our hearts shook
and smear the remains on my life
so i never forget how good
this anxiety in my stomach can feel.
when my friends ask me where we stand,
i smile like you’re my best-kept secret.
i tell them we’re maybe kinda sorta a thing
that may or may not be going nowhere,
but with you, i am going everywhere.
i love this feeling too much to let it go. i love
how my name sounds bubbling up
in your voice box. i love
obsessing over how i could curve your spine
until i fit inside of you comfortably. i love
sending you pictures of my alcohol collection
and feeling my throat burn like vodka when
i cough up everything that’s on my mind. i love
how you go down easy like smoke rings.
i want to treasure this feeling
of telling people what i feel when i feel it
so that my feelings don’t get forgotten
like the dandelion wishes we don’t
remember if came true or not.
at night, i pray that you are happy.
at night, i pray you are as free as you made me.
the fourth diary entry i kept locked up in the floorboards
the hell is that that you want me to do, Jungkook?” Jimin stare at him looked
so pissed that he almost felt intimidated by that. Almost. If the younger
didn’t know how sweet and caring his friend was, he could has bought that. Too
man, that’s not as fucked up as it seems, I swear,” he started.
Because dating someone only because your friend wants to make out with her best
friend seems pretty fucked up to me!” Jimin interrupted.
not like that, Hyung…” Jungkook tried again.
it then, Jungkook?”
and let me explain, will you?” Jungkook said watching the other get more pissed by the way he hushed him. That should work at least to make Jimin
less hysterical. “First of all, that’ll be only one date and I’m just asking
you that because that damn chick insisted so much in us four to go out
together. She really wants you for real, man.”
I’m not doing this just to make out with Youngah, Hyung, I want to date her…
Like seriously,” Suddenly, Jimin was dead silent. Jungkook took that as an
opening to continue talking. “You got
to cover that for me, bro, I promise I’ll make it up to you…” he scratched
the back of his head shyly. “So, will you help me?”
pleaded, eyes glittering in anticipation for what answer would Jimin possibly
give to him. From the other perspective, Jimin knew in the moment Jungkook said
he was going to ask him a favor that there was no way Jimin wouldn’t do it.
really that serious about her?” Jimin attempted to ask.
serious, bro,” he smiled at him with that cute but way too pervert smile of
his. “She makes everything feel special. I think I may be in love or
even know what you’re talking about,”
maybe I don’t, but come on, just help me out this time…” Bang! A new shot of
Jungkook’s best doggy face for the win.
didn’t take so long for the younger to notice the sad expression in his friend’s
face. Jimin was spacing out in front of him and all he could think about was
the visible pout in his plump lips. Maybe he was… sad? Or hurt because of his
proposal? Jungkook always knew that his friend was kind of sensitive and
emotional in everything that comes to the relationship topic, but he never
thought asking Jimin to go on a date with a girl who had a crush on him would
hurt him. Jungkook was about to take off his invitation when Jimin started.
I’ll do it.” He answered not looking into the younger’s eyes.
look at me…”
text me the place and hour you guys finds best. I’ll be there,”
Jungkook, I’ll do it,” Jimin said. “For you…” he whispered the last
you okay with that?” Jungkook questioned.
Jimin reassured him again still not meeting his gaze. “Gotta go, be waiting for
your text, see ya.”
yep, bye. See ya.” Jungkook replied while watching his friend walk away. It was
really strange watching Jimin act like that even knowing how he felt about
going out with girls he didn’t liked. He just decided to shrug the feeling away
and text Youngah to decide the details of their double date before Jimin gave up.
message came, for Jimin’s infortune. The date and place was decided and it’d be
at 5 p.m. in the Sunday in the central Shopping, close to the local both girls
lived in. Jungkook arranged everything for them to take a bus at a bus stop a
few blocks from their neighborhood and arrive at the Shopping almost half an
hour before the girls to talk about their strategies and techniques to get to
the kissing and holding hands point with their dates. Well, not actually for
Jimin. The older boy wasn’t interested at all in this topic, but he’d just bare
it for the day and then leave Jungkook with the person who he claimed that had gained
Nonetheless, his tough, reckless and strong heart was always also afraid of getting hurt.
Jimin knew Jungkook for what looked like ages now. There wasn’t a single thing
about the younger he didn’t know. If Jungkook was an artist, Jimin would
probably be his most dedicated fan, he guessed. But still, should that be so
difficult for a boy to truly and strongly have feelings for another boy? Even
if he was – like – his best friend since their childhood?
that guy is Jeon Jungkook, then yeah, that’d be a pain in the ass. While a lot
of projects from the school were about homosexuality in the nature and the
social prejudice problems that comes with it and how it worked out
instinctively as a natural attraction between beings, the younger always showed
how uncomfortable he was with the simple mention of two males being together.
That scared Jimin way too much.
one specific episode when one of their extracurricular club colleagues started
joking around about their closeness and then called them both around “Jikook”,
Jungkook threw a hard punch in the guy’s arm.
have no idea how disgusted I am because of you.” He said to the whining guy.
That sentence would never leave Jimin’s mind even if he tried his best to erase it from his memory. He also could never be the same to Jungkook either. He could never
caress softly the other’s hands and play with his fingers while he was
distracted watching some gameplay on the internet. He could never surprisingly
hug Jungkook from behind when the younger stood always early in front of his
house patiently waiting for them to walk together to school. He could never
kiss Jungkook’s cheeks when he asked only for him to come over his place, play
video games and eat junk food to celebrate his birthday. Jungkook’s hands,
fingers, backs and cheeks aren’t allowed for him. Jungkook’s wasn’t his.
knew that that even considering that possibility already disgusted Jungkook.
passed so fast that Jimin almost couldn’t catch a hold of the time. Well, not
likely the black-haired boy could ever forget about the day of the date when
Jungkook insisted to remind him every single day at school. He hid it. He hid
behind smiles and automatically nods how much painful was seeing Jungkook being
in love with someone else but him. Every time he felt like dying of jealously
when the youger showed him pics of the girl who he was supposedly in love with:
a beautiful skinny brunette girl with cat-like eyes, smooth bright skin and
long legs. The exactly type Jungkook ever described him to be his ‘ideal type’.
Jimin would be dating her friend, a girl as stunning as Jungkook’s date, but
instead of cat-like eyes, she had more like puppy round eyes. She looked like a
cute girl with honest feelings for him… But he could already picture himself
telling her that the problem wasn’t with her, it was with him.
problem was that she wasn’t his childhood best friend.
soon as he just decided to stop trying to forget about it, Sunday arrived like
a blink of eyes.
phone vibrated above his writing-desk and he didn’t need to catch it to know
who it was and what he wanted. Jimin couldn’t make himself to wake up properly.
His legs were like triple weighted and his eyes just wouldn’t stay opened.
little earthquake on his writing-desk told him that Jungkook didn’t give up of
his waking-Jimin-up mission. He just grope his phone and unlocked it to read a
bright and excited message from the younger. Jimin wished he could ever be the
reason of Jungkook’s happiness.
he’d do his best to not to mess up Jungkook’s date, not to hurt the girl’s
feelings too much and to be the good friend the younger needed him to be.
couldn’t make it to arrive at the Shopping earlier since the bus was so packed
of people. They actually made it on time, but for Jimin’s luckiness they didn’t
had the time to argue about strategies for that Jungkook would find out that he had
girls arrived after them. They were absolutely stunning and Jungkook couldn’t
stop bragging about how pretty his date was until they were face to face with
them. None of them talking, just staring. Jimin looked almost desperate between
gazing the cute tinny girl in front of him or Jungkook for him to start some
conversation or anything. That was awkward as fuck, but as soon as he was
wondering about climbing the walls next to him to run away from this whole double date thing, Jungkook started a conversation.
girls arrived, how was your travel?” He asked and Jimin couldn’t help but to
laugh because, come on, ‘how was your travel?’ did they just came from another
country? What the fuck was that, Jungkook?
the two girls just laughed along with Jimin and Youngah just replied. “It was
great, thank you for asking, Jungkook-oppa!”
word made Jimin lungs turn. Damn, he felt sick just from hearing the girls
calling Jungkook “oppa” in their everyday routine, now that it had the romantic
connotation, he felt like he could throw up any time. He forced himself to not
to roll his eyes for the next twenty seconds they passed staring each other
since Jimin could feel the desire in his friend’s eyes and that that was surely
reciprocal. Could that possibly get even worse?
decided to just focus on his own date and let them be. The girl was smiling awkwardly at him and even a bit shy she just suggested. “Let’s get out of here
and search for some candies, please?”
that straightforwardness surprised the hell out of Jimin, but since he was
going to spend the whole afternoon with this girl, why don’t give it a try, huh?
we’re talking.” He answered and smiled back to her. She clapped excitedly and
jumped her way out to the food center.
yeah, I’m dying for some ice cream!” Jimin laughed at her reaction and thought
that maybe it wasn’t a bad idea to accept this invitation. He heard Youngah
complaining a bit for some reason and he looked back only to see Jungkook
gazing him while they got away. “By the way, you can call me Nari.”
then it’ll be.” He looked back at her smiling. Jimin decided to forget for that
afternoon that he ever had been in love with his best friend.
just wondering,” Jimin started, mouth full of ice cream.
She answered, mouth full of ice cream as well.
name… It sounds like the flowers…” He cleaned his face a bit to look at her
She gulped. “Oh, you got me, it is
because of the flowers.”
really sounds beautiful, you know? Your mom must be really creative.” He just
said. They had been talking for like half an hour now and they felt really
comfortable with each other.
she was…” She started smiling slightly. “She was quite amazing… She used to
paint, play guitar, and write poetry. I used to be connected to her art, that was the way I learned how to connect with people as well. That’s
why I’m a bit… Different,” She said a bit unsure about how to say it. “She was
a florist, you know? That’s why I introduce myself as Nari – like the lilies…”
fell silent watching her talking about her mom showing so much admiration in her
puppy eyes. He didn’t felt like saying ‘I’m sorry for your lost’
or something like that because he was pretty sure his face expression already
did the job. Like answering a silent question, she explained.
died from a cancer, five years ago. I was twelve at the time, but we didn’t
live here, anyway…” Jimin eyes got a bit wide after hearing her answer to
each non-spoken question in his mind. “I knew it was coming. A lot of people
ask me that often.”
gotta say: I’m sorry for that.”
okay, but thanks for caring.” Jimin just felt like reaching out for Nari’s hand
to show some support, so he did it. Her hands were cold against his warmth and
he smiled softly at her.
we’re back!” They heard Youngah announce as she and Jungkook arrived to where
they were. Jimin immediately looked out for Jungkook who had his attention
fixed on their linked hands above the ice crem shop table. He gazed him back
looking a bit confused, but Nari replied Youngah before Jimin could think about any kind of nonsense possibility of jealously.
“We ran from you two staring and
flirting, not otherwise,” She revealed. “Come and sit down… have some ice cream
what I can see, you two reached a new level since you’re already holding
hands…” She pointed to their connected hands landed on the table and giggled.
Jimin immediately dropped Nari’s hands and held it shyly next to his cup of
seated in front of each other as well so they were all facing their partners
through the table, Jungkook next to Jimin, Jimin next to Youngah, Youngah next
Naeun, what were you and Jimin talking about?” Youngah asked and Jimin frowned
at the strange name which joined the conversation.
He asked gazing Youngah.
her name, your asshole.” Jungkook answered abruptly and sharply. Jimin kicked
him almost instinctively under the table in response.
believe he wasn’t talking to you, Jungkook-sshi,” Nari came in Jimin’s defense.
“My name is Naeun, but as I told you, I choose to be called Nari because I feel
closer to my mom like this.”
one who call her Naeun actually, because we’ve been friends for a long time.”
that’s such a coincidence ‘cause me and Jungkook are also childhood friends.
That’s really cool to meet people like us, isn’t it Jungkookie?”
whatever…” Jungkook shrugged and Jimin could watch the girls flinch at his last
there’s something wrong?” Youngah asked smiling softly at him, Jungkook just
ignored her question and brought another topic to the conversation.
and Jimin knew each other, huh?” He started and Jimin was already somehow afraid
of what was coming from there. The black-haired boy watched his companion
shaking her head in deny. “But it seemed like you two were pretty intimate a
moment ago…” He smirked darkly. What kind of game was he playing? It was him
who dragged him here to meet Nari and now he was complaining?
misunderstood, we’re just talking about something moving and then Jimin wanted
to show me sympathy,” She said smiling to the other boy who looked stunned by
the younger’s sudden insinuating questions. “It was just that.”
just that…” Jimin tried to end the topic. “So Youngah, where did you guys go?” He
asked trying to sound interested.
go for a bit of window shopping, and then Jungkook bought me a gift from that
pink cute store which opened recently…” She said shaking her arm excitedly; in
his wrist was a cute golden bracelet with tiny pink heart pendants attached to
it. “Isn’t it cute?”
style, but pretty cute.” Nari answered.
really pretty, Youngah…” He just praised trying to get her attention out of
Jungkook’s dark stare directed to him. “Jungkookie really does have a nice
taste for gifts.”
told us pinky bracelets weren’t your style, Nari… So, what are your style exactly?” He smiled at her in one attempt to make the atmosphere less dense,
but all he could feel was Jungkook beside him burning holes into his skin.
more into neutral color stuff… Like chokers, I love it! I have like six of
them and I’m like dying to buy more.” She explained, excited.
I have like three or four of them too,” He shared. “I almost put it on to come
here today, but I feel afraid that maybe you just wasn’t into this kind of stuff and thought it was
kinda creepy, I don’t know…”
“I’d probably think that…” Youngah raised her hand smiling.
Not at all! I’d love to see you using them one day, you gotta a nice skin to
match the black leather!” She praised him.
thank you…” He flushed and scratched the back of his head shyly. “You’ll be the
second person to actually ask me to use them…”
Who was the first…?”
let’s get going then.” Jungkook suddenly got up interrupting the conversation
they were involved in.
it’s so early, Oppa…” Youngah whined. “Let’s stay for a bit.”
gotta go, Jimin’s mom told us to be home early…” The brunette affirmed.
said, you don’t remember as you always don’t remember anything…” He scolded
the fuck, Jungkook?” Jimin lost his temper getting up to stare face to face at
him. Jungkook invited him to scold him in front of everybody and expect him to
be nice and quiet about it? He was just being a jerk since the whole double
date thing started.
take it easy boys…” Nari tried to pacify the situation only to gain a not
really nice stare from the brunette.
let’s get going then…” Youngah spoke softly looking frightened to the other
grope his wallet, and the rest of the amount of things he and Youngah just
bought while walking at the Shopping.
staying,” Jimin stated. “Bye, Youngah, take care.” He waved to her receiving a
greeting back and a soft smile from her. “Nari, do you mind staying with me? I
can take you home later…” He offered.
all. I saw a cool store which I wanna take a look at it.” She said.
brunette looked one last time to Nari, then rested his gaze on Jimin for a bit
of more than necessary time and sighed.
Jimin.” He answered sharply, turning on his feet and making his way out of the
ice cream shop. He looked so angry that even Youngah was afraid of walking too close of him.
A/N: alright so that’s my first time writing a Jikook fanfiction and i was pretty worried about my english (as it isn’t my native language), but still i wanted to give it a shot. anyway, i’m gonna be posting the next chapter soon, so if some of the shippers feel like joining me and reading the story, i’ll be happy to share with you guys my most random plots. see ya. <3
Heya, my (very shy) friend absolutely adores your art, and was wondering when commissions could possibly open? She wants to sus out a Klance tattoo and your art popped up, so here I am! Thank you for reading this. Have a great day. ^^
Hey there! Hello to your friend too ;) To tell you the truth i’ve been wanting to open commissions for a long while, but i’ve been very much on the fence about it. With a lot of my projects being delayed and some ultimately i had to give up on, I don’t think I’ll be able to open commissions any time soon… Time management is my worst enemy
I wish you and your friend the best of luck with that tattoo though. Thanks so much for asking. I hope you have a great day too
Hey could i ask for like a jeremy/reader best friends to lovers kind of thing where the guys get try everything for the both of them to realize that they like each other and shenanigans insue ( sorry if this is too detailed btw )
For the longest time you’ve known Jeremy, you two have never been apart. Even when Jeremy announced he was moving to Austin, Texas you moved with him, there was nothing much left in your hometown you have a care for anyway. Jeremy was always the one that woke you up when you didn’t wake up to your alarm; Jeremy was always the one who’d take care of you when you were sick and dying even with your constant protests and wanting to confine yourself.
You were both so closer to each other, but the force that you two had grew into something more for you. You noticed this when you came home from work one day and Jeremy had made dinner; he had candles out and everything. That made your heart skip plenty of beats. You decided that it was just a nice gesture and nothing more.
What did you expect? You stopped talking to me, and now after some time you just wanted to pick up where we left things? I’m sorry, but that is not how it works. You can’t ignore me for days and then come back and act like my best friend again. I don’t even feel like I’m a friend of yours anymore. It’s you who said you still wanted to be friends, that you didn’t want anything to change between the two of us. But right now, you’re the one that ruined it. Friends talk to each other, you know? But apparently that was too much to ask for. So this is goodbye I guess? Thank you for everything. I really did love you.
Senpai! I've been following you forever because of your awesome anime and seiyuu gifsets!!! And in so much joy when I discover that you read Omoi, Omoware, Furi, Furare manga and you ship Yuna x Rio as well <3 But I want to ask why you think Rio's friend might start liking Yuna?!
PS: I had this ask for a long time (when chapter 16 was out) but I decided to post this after seeing the chapter 18 raws to confirm if my assumption about Agatsuma was right!!Also spoilers ahead about chapter 18 (with my translation) at the end
Oh, thank you and I’m glad your enjoying my blog especially my anime and seiyuu gifsets ^^ And yes, I super duper ship Yuna x Rio so much <3 I just love how Yuna is doing her best for being there to Rio even though he likes Akari but now that’s over with already, I know that there will be something more between Yuna and Rio since it’s too good to be true for them to be sailing already.
That’s when Agatsuma comes in. Here’s the reason why I think Agatsuma might start liking Yuna also I’m basing it on how Sakisaka-sensei made the friendzoned characters from her past shoujo manga titles like Touma (Ao Haru Ride) and Andou (Strobe Edge).
First, his appearance in the manga obviously! If you reread Chapter 06, you can pretty see that Agatsuma and Shiba didn’t draw with their eyes yet when they were with Rio, until Yuna went to confront Rio and Agatsuma was beside him.
He didn’t do much since Shiba is the one creating a drama, but at that moment where Agatsuma appeared, I feel like his gonna do something more, which I was right because of Chapter 09!!
He noticed Yuna right away! Let’s be honest here, there’s no way that he could’ve noticed her by meeting her just once, but he did. Maybe Agatsuma got her attention on how she handled herself when the drama with Shiba started from Chapter 06 ^^
Because second, he and Yuna finally got to interact when they were at the goukon.
Okay, I have so many things to say about their interaction *O* The way Yuna reacted when she looks where Agatsuma surprised me. That’s also the reason why I think he’s more than just a minor character in the manga. I mean if Sakisaka-sensei only plans to make Agatsuma a character to be Rio’s friend, she should have drawn Yuna in one panel turning her head at the side, but obviously, we got more than that.
Also Agatsuma is sparkling when he introduced himself to Yuna. And then, I noticed that their interaction in every panel have sparkling effects since they’re talking about how she’s changing and he’s just there telling her that ‘It’s fine to get used to it’ and ‘It’s fine to not rush these things, right?’
So after their interaction in Chapter 09, we can definitely see that Agatsuma and Yuna got closer plus Shiba.
Also I just want to point this out from their sports marathon in chapter 12, but Agatsuma’s expression here made me curious? Somehow he’s wondering if Rio will go with Yuna to check up on Akari and then he starts to walk away when Rio said he wouldn’t go.
And now, this is all where all my assumption about Agatsuma liking Yuna is really happening. The moment when Rio talk to Shiba and Agatsuma about the dream he had.
We got Agatsuma with an answer about a bug theory (this is my own translation from this postbecause the English translation that I saw in some manga sites interpret it differently), where he’s trying to say that someone will try to make that dream not to happen. Which made me think that he’s foreshadowing himself that he’s the bug, because after that conversation, we got this.
If you read that part in a Japanese context, it actually shows that Agatsuma envies them (in a friendly way) since Shiba will be going with his girlfriend so he feels a bit left out and that’s why he wanted to go to the festival with Yuna and the others since they’re going as group of friends.
And again, I want to point this out! Sakisaka-sensei showed Agatsuma while Shiba totally got covered with the speech bubble in this panel. It’s like she wanted us to see Agatsuma’s reaction about what Kazu said since Rio lied to Yuna that he knew about the festival from Kazu.
That’s why Agatsuma asked Shiba for a confirmation if it would be okay for him to go with them at the festival cause maybe he feels like he’ll be in the way.
Then here comes chapter 18 where Agatsuma had more panels than he had in the past chapters!!
And now, let’s have a bit of Agatsuma trying to be in the way between Rio and Yuna, which I find it really cute though >w<
Hey dad. Im a 13 year old questioning trans boy (I'm about 90% I'm trans but I'm scared it's a phase). Ive tried coming out to my mom in little ways (mom I feel like a boy, stuff like that) but she always says that I'm a girl and it's just because my best friend is gay that I want to be LGBT too so it's just a phase. And I'm scared it is too. But I can't even imagine a future as a woman. It hurts too much. I've been questioning for about five months now. Im scared and I want my mom to accept me
If you have been questioning for five months now, I think it’s likely safe to say that it is not a phase. Even if that ends up being true, that’s okay! You are young enough to have flexibility with your gender.
If your mom would be willing, I would ask her if you could pursue puberty blockers. They will stop feminine features from forming, and the great thing about it is that if you decide you would be comfortable as a girl, you get off the blockers and you go through puberty as normal. There are no permanent affects of puberty blockers.
Request by anon: May I request an imagine? How about Newt and Y/N dated, but then another shebean. (Other than Teresa) came up, and Newt cheated on her with the new girl. She was depressed and became an introvert, then her best friends (Teresa) convinced her to move on to Minho, since she had a small crush on him. Around the time she asks him out Newt realizes that the new girl was “getting with” other glader behind his back. He wants to get back with Y/N but realizes it is too late. Sorry for the long req!
A/N: Sorry this took forever! Been busy and then I got really sick but anyway, here’s the final part to Behind Your Back !! Thank you once again to the anon who requested this! I hope you enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed writing Newt in a different light as well as Minho, one of my favourite characters as well in the series! I feel like this summed everything up so there will be no further parts to this. Hope you like this!
Request:“Can I request a scenario where you’re Namjoon’s best friend and you’re very very comfortable around him, almost too much, you just never show your feminine side, but he still manages to fall for you ? Thank youuu”
Word count: 3371
A/N: You might want some wine with all that cheese ;)
Like always, the teacher was late and almost everyone was already in the classroom. Everyone but the one person you wanted to talk to: Kim Namjoon. You were really close since elementary and for the first time you actually felt nervous to talk to him.
Next weekend was going to be your sister’s wedding, and you were allowed to invite a friend – thankfully, since you knew you were going to get bored – and who else would you bring other than your best friend? But for whatever reason asking Namjoon for such a favor made you feel a bit uneasy. It might’ve been because for the first time in forever you were going to wear a dress – a pink bridesmaid one at that – and his reaction scared you. Or maybe because he’d say no, because it’d be so boring. But mostly – although you didn’t want to think about it that way – it was because you typically went to weddings with your boyfriend or a date, and he wasn’t exactly that.
After a few minutes of pondering through the window, you heard him stumble against a chair as he entered the classroom. He was wearing some black shorts, with a baggy oversized sweater, his socks reaching his calves and a smirk plastered on his face as he walked towards his seat, next to yours. It had become a habit of yours every morning to wonder how someone like Kim Namjoon could pull off the wackiest of clothes and always – really, always – look fashionable.
He smiled at you as he sat down. You were about to talk to him when he was distracted by Bora walking past him. She was the most “wanted” girl since seventh grade – her early development the source of her success. That day, she was wearing a low cut shirt, so of course he was going to get distracted.
You couldn’t help but purse your lips, immediately catching a glimpse of jealousy, that you tried to shake off as soon as possible. Your best friend was a guy – and Kim Namjoon at that – so what did you expect? Still, it bothered you deep down that he’d never look at you that way. Then again, how could you expect him to see you as a girl either, after all that you’ve been through… He had seen you at your dirtiest and ugliest, and for the longest time there was little you felt embarrassed about when it came to him. But for some reason, as you remembered your sleepovers – where burps and farts and other grossness probably happened – you couldn’t help but feel utterly mortified. You cursed your innocent and uninhibited young self as you contemplated the doodles on your notebook.
“Wow. What happened to you?” He asked chuckling.
“Wh-what do you mean?” You mumbled.
“You’re red as a tomato. Were you thinking of something… dirty?” He asked wiggling his eyebrows.
“Of course not! I’m just… tired.”
“Right. ‘tired’. So what’s up?”
“Nothing much. But I do have something to ask you…”
“You know this weekend’s my sister’s wedding and… I can bring a friend so… uhm… you’re coming, right? I don’t want to die of boredom, or asphyxiated by the perfume of too many flowers in a closed space or…”
“…Or of embarrassment when you see the new arrangements your sisters insisted on for your bridesmaids dress.”
“_____________! You’re really something. I got my invite like three weeks ago. As if I needed one anyway, your sister has been texting me about wedding details for months.”
“She even sent me a snap when she picked her dress. A magical moment…” He said as he wiped an imaginary tear off his cheek. “I can’t wait to see you in yours.” He said chuckling evilly.
“YOU’VE BEEN WHAT!? How did I not know about this… Also, if you’re responsible for that thing I have to wear you’re dead Kim Joonie!”
“Well… she wanted to see you ‘wear pink for once’ so… there was little I could do to save you.”
“You’re still dead.” You whispered as the teacher entered the classroom.
You didn’t even get to see yourself in the mirror before you had to come down for the wedding ceremony. All you knew about how you looked was that your dress was pink, puffy and short, that you had makeup on and some sort of accessories on your head. Oh. And high heels that made walking down the stairs really difficult and slow.
When you finally reached the first floor, you were greeted by a hoard of women, your aunts, your mother and sister and her bridesmaids, all awed of how “pretty and girly” you looked. You tried your best not to roll your eyes at their lies comments.
You were all gathered outside the small chapel as you waited for your turn to go down the aisle as part of the procession. When it was finally your turn, you couldn’t stop yourself from searching with your eyes for Namjoon in the crowd. When you found him, however, you regretted it a bit. His eyes were stuck on you, and you could see how hard he was trying not to burst out laughing in the middle of the ceremony. It made you feel slightly embarrassed, but at the same time, you could share his amusement in a way, had he been in you position, you would’ve probably done the same thing.
The ceremony was long but still beautiful, and you felt really happy for your sister and her husband. Your mom was crying and you almost did too. After it was over, you spent some time with your parents and the newlyweds before where the reception was going to take place in the hotel.
Inside, tables with pink flower decorations were placed around a dance floor, where your sister and her husband had their first dance together. Outside, was a garden, and you could tell there were many flowers and lights that decorated it, but you didn’t go outside, too occupied with the buffet.
As you were enjoying your dinner, you felt someone tap you on the shoulder. When you looked over, you saw Namjoon, with a plate in his hand, smiling brightly at you.
“Oh, shut up.” You said, trying to contain a laugh.
“In my defense I did try to convince her against the ruffle flowers when she asked for my opinion…”
“Wh-what ruffle flowers?”
Namjoon couldn’t help laughing.
“The ones on the back of the dress?” He said, smiling as soon as he saw the look on your face. “It’s not bad, it’s just not your style. But you do look…. Pretty.” He said, his attitude suddenly a lot more serious, not quite able to look into your eyes as the word came out of his mouth.
“Th-thank you…” You mumbled, both surprised and unexpectedly pleased by the compliment.
“I think we should dance now.” He said after you finished eating.
“Dancing? You? Kim Namjoon, dancing?” You said mockingly.
“Yes, with you, come on.” He said as he grabbed your wrist and pulled you off the chair and into the dance floor.
As expected, his dancing was weird and awkward, limbs moving uncoordinatedly from the rest of his body, his face expressions following the rhythm a lot better than the rest of him. Having said that, there was something charming about him making a fool of himself, and as you tried to follow the music too, you simply couldn’t stop laughing and smiling.
“I think I need some water…” You said, after the song ended, leaving him doing the Macarena on the dance floor.
When you came back, you saw your cousin – who didn’t have the pleasure to be a bridesmaid – dancing next to him. She was wearing a tight little black dress, and she looked beautiful as ever. She seemed rather interested in Namjoon, and you knew she was “his style”, aka, fashionable and beautiful, so you decided not to go back, you wouldn’t want to be a cockblock to either of them… right?
After mingling a little with your brother-in-law’s parents, you decided it was time to go to bed, even if you weren’t really tired. Since Namjoon was probably occupied with your cousin, there was little left to do for you, so you just went upstairs to your room, besides, most of the guests were already gone.
You immediately went to the bathroom after taking your high heels off. The pain was killing you and it took you a little bit of time to adjust to walking normally. You were surprised when you got to see your reflection in the bathroom mirror. You didn’t look bad, as you thought you did. Of course, it was out of character for you, but you actually looked… pretty. Your makeup wasn’t bad, and the dress was just a pink bridesmaid dress.
After taking one by one all the bobby pins in your hair, you took a warm shower and slipped into your comfortable pajamas. You put your still humid hair in a bun on top of your head and finally jumped into bed.
As much as you tried to relax, you couldn’t. Thoughts of Namjoon and your cousin dancing together, talking together and… ughhhh together couldn’t stop flooding your mind. You tried to pretend you didn’t know why it bothered you so much, it’s not like you didn’t know how to share a friend, right? Besides, Namjoon would be happy for you if you got a boyfriend or something, right? So… why should it bother you so much to think that he could be hooking up with some girl? And your cousin at that, wouldn’t you feel happy for her too?
Then, you heard a knock on the door.
You thought it was probably your mother, asking you why you left the party or something.
As soon as you opened the door, you were greeted by Namjoon’s classic smirk and for the first time that night you realized you were staring at him. He was wearing a black suit that fitted him perfectly – a rare occasion since he was more of the baggy-fashionable type. Of course, he looked a lot less polished than at the beginning of the party, his tie loosened and the top buttons of his shirt let you get a peak of his collarbone.
You instinctively swallowed and as soon as you understood that you couldn’t lie to yourself anymore, you immediately looked down, hiding your eyes from your friend, as if by doing so the truth would also be hidden.
You were checking Namjoon out, and it was stirring you up. Deep down you knew it wasn’t the first time that he made you feel that way either, but you didn’t want to admit to yourself that you saw your friend as more than a friend.
“You’re already in your pajamas? Damn girl, you’re fast!” He said smilingly.
“Yeah… I’m tired.” You lied.
“Oh… Uhm… Then, should I leave?” He asked shyly.
“No, it’s ok. Why did you come here anyway?”
“I just wanted to see you. You said you needed water and then you never came back so I got a bit worried you were sick or something.”
“No, no. I just saw you with my cousin and thought you wouldn’t want me to interrupt.”
“What do you mean interrupt? I came here with you, remember?”
“Weren’t you… like… trying to hook up with her?”
Namjoon burst out laughing uncontrollably.
“Yeah, no. She’s not my type. Besides, I don’t think her boyfriend would’ve liked that either.
“Oh… I didn’t know she had a…”
“Of course you didn’t, you were too busy dancing with me to notice.” He said wiggling his eyebrows, making you roll your eyes. “Come on, I want you to see this.”
He helped you off the bed and guided you all the way to the elevator. He took you to the where the reception took place, it was empty, the tables and chairs had been removed and the floors had been swept. It barely looked like a party had taken place there.
“So… what are we doing here?” You asked hesitantly.
“Here? Nothing. We’re going to the gardens. They kept the decorations and I wanted you to see them.”
You knew your sister had been planning her wedding for a long time, and you knew there was a lot of effort put into every little detail. Then again, you didn’t expect the gardens to look so mesmerizing. The space wasn’t very big, there many white flowers and fairy lights decorating the branches of the trees. You followed a thin path that guided you to a small gazebo, also adorned with fairy lights. You regretted for a second not having explored a little bit more of the venue during the party, then the idea of Namjoon bringing your cousin there came to your mind. Immediately things started to look less bright.
“God, you’re such a girl.” You heard Namjoon say. When you turned around he was staring at you. “I knew you were going to like coming here.”
“I didn’t know it was so beautiful…” You admitted.
“Well, had you not disappeared I would’ve shown it to you sooner. I looked for you everywhere, I didn’t actually think you’d be in your room.”
“Sorry?” You tried to chuckle.
“No, no. This is better, actually.” He said, taking his coat off and slowly putting it on your shoulders.
Namjoon had always been a gentleman with you, even if sometimes it seemed hard to tell under all the teasing and low-key bullying, but it still surprised you that he would take care of you that way. You swallowed, confused yet unable to keep your eyes off him. He was looking at you in a way he never had before.
“What are you doing?” You asked, trying to hide a smile.
“I don’t want you to get a cold.”
“What about you, then?”
“I’m not that important. So wear it for me, ok?” You nodded and smiled to yourself. “So… how do you feel now that your sister got married?” He asked, looking away from you for a moment.
“I don’t think things are going to change much, to be quite honest. They’ve been together forever.”
“I feel quite nostalgic actually.”
“Nostalgic? Why?” You let out a small chuckle.
“You know I appreciate our friendship more than anything, right?”
“Of course.” You said, almost amused by his doubting.
“And… you know I love you, more than anything in the world, and I would never lie to you, right?”
Since his words were so unexpected, it took you a moment to nod in agreement. Of course, you knew you were important to him. You were best friends after all, but those were words you had never told each other before.
“However…” He swallowed. “There’s something I’ve never told you and the longer it’s kept unsaid the more all that I just said becomes a lie.”
“What are you talking about? Is this one of your riddles? Because I don’t think I drank enough for one of those…”
“No, I’m serious.” He said amused by your answer.
“Then what are you talking about?” You asked, turning your face around to look at him.
“Our friendship. The longer I keep this up, the longer I feel like our friendship is a lie.”
“I know you think you’re being clear, Namjoon, but I don’t understand what you’re talking about and what you’re saying really hurts.”
“You’re right. The last thing I want is to hurt you so I’m going to make an effort not to rant and be honest even if it means risking losing what I love most.” You noticed his eyes were starting to get watery, and yours couldn’t help but do the same. “I must be the luckiest guy in the world, you know? Just to get to have you as my best friend because you are the most genuine, intelligent and… beautiful person I’ve ever met. You are adorable, silly, and supportive and funny god I you’ve made me laugh for hours straight! And you’re compassionate and-”
“I thought you said weren’t going to rant…” You chuckled nervously.
“I’m not… If I did the list would be much longer, trust me. What I’m trying to say is… You’re the best person anyone could ever have the privilege to meet and it is no mystery that I would… fall in love with you.”
You must’ve been dreaming. It was so surreal, how beautiful everything surrounding you was, and how Namjoon’s words – even if they always had the tendency to be poetic – seemed so honest and beautiful. You definitely must’ve been dreaming.
“Huh?” You mumbled right after Namjoon’s voice woke you from your trance.
“I know I shouldn’t be pushy but… You’re silent and I’ve never seen that look on your face and I’m scared, it’s killing me. So give me a hint of what’s going on in your head.”
“I… I was just… questioning the accuracy of this reality…”
He couldn’t help laughing. “You sound like me…”
“That’s because I spend more time listening to you talk than sleeping…”
He chuckled. “…So?”
“So this is not a dream?”
“If this was a dream you’d be already in my arms.”
He had a point.
“I didn’t think I’d be your type of girl…”
“I can’t have a type because no girl could ever match up to you.”
“Are you drunk or high again?”
He chuckled. “No, I’m just scared shitless I’m going to lose you.”
You shook your head. “You’re never losing me, Joonie. You are my best friend so even if I didn’t… even if I wasn’t in love with you’d never lose me.”
He grinned. “So that means you…”
“That means my parents will be happy I finally have a boyfriend I guess.”
He wrapped you in his arms and tightly pressed you against his body. You remained like that for a long moment, neither of you wanting to break the hug.
“So what exactly did you think was my type of girl?” He said, without loosening his grip around you.
“I don’t know… tall, beautiful, sophisticated, sexy, girly?” You mumbled, barely able to speak, trapped in Namjoon’s arms and coat.
“And what makes you think you’re not all that?”
You tried to lift your face to get a glimpse of him, he looked down to look at you tenderly. “Because I’m short, so-so looking, everything but sophisticated and definitely not girly. I’m not like Bora or my cousin…”
“What?” He seemed surprised to hear those names slip out of your mouth.
“I’ve seen the way you look at her…” You said as you hid your face against his chest. You could hear him laugh under the fabric of his coat.
“You’re sexier and more beautiful than both of them combined. Not to mention your boobs aren’t uneven unlike Bora’s.”
He kind of whispered that last part, but you could still hear him clearly.
“What?” You asked teasingly. “What do you mean uneven? How long do you need to stare at her to notice that?”
“Less than a second. But they bounce uncoordinatedly which is really funny, I made a bet with Yoongi once on how they’d-”
“Oh my God. You’re such a… A BET? That’s… How did I not know about this? And mine aren’t… uneven…?”
“Well… in all fairness, natural breasts are always uneven… but hers are really… god, they’re…. just… not right. And yours are perfect. I bet they feel perfect too, at least they do when I imagine it.”
You couldn’t help but raise your eyebrows. “You’ve imagined what…? They’re really not wrong when they call you a pervert.” You chuckled.
“As if you haven’t had those thoughts about me…”
“Yeah, I fall asleep every night imagining cupping your… manboobs.”
You both laughed.
“As long as they’re the only manboobs you want to cup… whatever keeps you around me.” He said before winking at you. “But for now… how about a kiss?”
You nodded and tried to stand on your tiptoes, making Namjoon chuckle. He brought his face near yours, lifting you up slightly, before gently crashing his lips against yours.
Hi ! So, I'm leaving the Sherlock fandom but first I wanted to tell you that your blog helped me stay sane after all this mess that had happened. Your blog is honestly the best but unfortunately, this is just all too much for me at the moment. I hope you have a good life Steph. You deserve all the happiness in the world, seriously ! And thanks for answering my asks and all your metas and just for being the nicest. X
OH LOVELY!! <3 <3 I’m so sad to see you go, but you do what you have to do to stay happy and healthy. And know that you are welcome back here with open arms if and when you decide to come back.
Love you very much, and thank you for everything, Lovely. Please keep safe, and I hope you have a beautiful future <3