i want to be someones karen

i think you’re really beautiful

a playlist for someone who i hope will realize someday how beautiful they are

multi-love - unknown mortal orchestra
the only one - the black keys
keep on lying - tame impala
the chase - future islands
i follow you - melody’s echo chamber
derka blues  - the growlers
i think you’re really beautiful - starry cat
pepsi/coke suicide - elvis depressedly
no other heart - mac demarco
sometimes - beach fossils
i wanna be a witch - julia brown
i don’t want to get over you - the magnetic fields
ooo - karen o

♢ listen here ♢

No but what if Tony gets killed in Infinity War and Peter screams and tries to get to him but he gets intercepted by Rhodey or Sam or someone who holds him back and tries to keep him out of danger, and then when he finally stops struggling whoever is holding him back loosens their hold a bit and Peter says, voice hoarse, “Karen. Activate instant kill mode,” and the eyes on his suit narrow into red pinpricks, and whoever was holding him back tries to catch him again but Peter’s too quick and he darts away and just throws himself at Thanos, oh gosh, please no

While I am always glad to see people recasting Padmé and Leia as Asian women, black women, Latina women, Pacific Islander women, and so on, and I understand why people recast these characters, there’s always a part of me that feels something isn’t right when the recast is not Jewish women. Both of these characters are played by Jewish women, and it always feels to me that a recast of any type should be Jewish women.

And, to address it before it is brought up, black Jewish women exist (Kat Graham, Lisa Bonet, Kali Hawk), Latina Jewish women exist (Rachel Ticotin, Veronica Schneider), Asian Jewish women (Karen David, Romi Dames) exist.

When I look at these things, it often makes me question if I’m looking at something that says that Jewish people aren’t a minority. This isn’t even touching onto Jewishness as an ethnicity or Jewish people as conditionally white, two things that I am not remotely able to speak about as someone who is not Jewish (I’m a Catholic of Filipino descent). Yet, it always feels off to me.

something that bothered the shit outta me is how they used matt and foggy’s disagreements in daredevil season 2 to minimize foggy’s importance in matt’s life. in that scene where the defenders were going after their loved ones to bring them to a safe place, i was hoping that i’d see matt grabbing foggy at some point. but he didn’t. he went straight to karen, and i don’t condemn it, she’s his friend and he loves her. but foggy is in another level. back in the comics, matt went to jail and shit went down bc he thought he’d lost foggy. it almost drove him insane.i shit you not, matt murdock gets scary as shit once he thought foggy had died while visiting him in jail. matt could pick foggy’s heartbeat in that jail with hundreds of people, and he had to hear them “killing” foggy, and there was nothing he could do about itll. it haunted him for weeks, until he started get shit done. all the goddamn guards in the prison were so scared of him they’d anything to be on his good side. his inmates in would rat everyone out if it’d save their skin. i think the punisher was there too at that time but nvm. his level of PTSD was no joke.

more recently, matt faked foggy’s death when foggy got sick bc it was too dangerous for him to not stay in the shadows. it broke him when he knew he could lose foggy to a disease; he even took foggy to a “ride” with daredevil around the city to cheer him up, it was cute and sad at the same time.

also recently, when matt had one opportunity to see someone bc he got his sight back momentarily, he went to foggy. he wanted to see foggy’s face; his best friend, someone who has been with him in all his ups and downs in life as matt murdock and as daredevil. that’s how much foggy means to him, and to see that over looked and cast aside pisses the shit out of me.

my point is that matt needs foggy just as much foggy needs him and despite the catholic bs, he knows foggy is his moral compass. don’t get me wrong, i don’t hate karen or any other of his friends but you gotta see that the role foggy nelson plays in matt’s life goes way beyond their fights, goes way beyond matt being a stupid little shit, goes beyond their paths being in different roads but always converging. they always come back to their friendship no matter how much damaged by each other they got. foggy is the most important person in matt’s life; it has been proven over and over again and i don’t want to diminish karen or any other of his friends’ roles. i love that karen has her own storyline, her own fights (let's be honest: her romantic plot with Matt doesn’t have any chemistry at all, they’re good as just friends); it makes her an incredible character. but it is just how it is. it always has been nelson and murdock, and even when foggy didn’t agree with what matt was doing and how he was leading his life, putting himself in danger, he still stayed at matt’s side for as long he could. foggy bringing him the daredevil suit it’s just not a proof that foggy supports matt even in crazy shit like that, but also that he believes in him, and in the daredevil. that he believes matt could help make their city a better place. foggy knew a day would come that matt wouldn’t come home anymore, he just wished that ninja asshole could pull one more stunt, one last time. but he didn’t, and a bit of foggy died with him back there. once matt asked him if foggy wished he’d stayed and fought for nelson and murdock, but he meant about them. it’d be too selfish to foggy to ask him to stay.

dream-and-slash  asked:

So I'm continuing my S7 rewatch and it bugs me how Dean is so bothered by the betrayal and subsequent death of Cas. If a friend betrays you, you're usually more angry and then it eventually goes away. But for Dean, it eats at him. He can't get over it. You know what that sounds like? A combination of a jilted lover and someone who just got his heart broken. Thoughts? (PS i love your meta write ups)

@nerdylittleshit pointed out this excellent comparison of Bobby/Karen v Dean/Cas on another post where I was talking about Bobby knowing about Dean’s feelings for Cas, I’m just going to go a little deeper.

Bobby: In 7x10 Bobby reveals that the worst part wasn’t that Karen died or that he killed her, but that they had a huge fight about him not being able to give him what she wanted and he never got the chance to reconcile with her before she died…

Dean: In 6x21 we have the infamous Dean/Cas scene were Cas asks Dean to stand behind him this ONE time, to prove his words, that he does count him as family, to trust him, but Dean refuses. Dean doesn’t give Cas what he wanted and he ends up dying before he can fix it.

Bobby: “Biggest regret of my life… You’d think it was stabbing her to death but no, I was thinking, we never got to get past this”…

Dean: Cas was also stabbed, before Dean and Cas could get past it:

6x20:

and 7x01:

They never did get to fix it, they did never get past it.

So now we have Dean, who lost Cas, but he suffered not just Cas’s own ‘betrayal’ before, but for which he knows now was all for him and his family, to protect them, as Cas told him, but also how he feels he let Cas down by not supporting him this one time he asked, which lead to all of this, because Cas asked Dean to stand behind him and prove that he was family and he didn’t. 

Which led to his making the final choice to face Raphael alone, to open up purgatory and ending up destroying him. 

Cas explicitly said this was why he did it, and right before Sam stabbed him too, to hammer the point home as it were:

“So, you see, I saved you. You doubted me, fought against me, but I was right all along…”

And when Dean tries to talk him down? He’s already too far gone, but he does reveal why it doesn’t work, why Dean is not able to talk him down, because:

“We were family once… if that means anything to you… please”

But it’s not enough, because he didn’t prove that Cas was family before, when Cas was Cas and Cas now believes that Dean is “just saying it because you’re afraid….”

Originally posted by babylaracroft

The fact that Dean did not support him and rejected him as family in 6x22 is what leads Cas to not be able to get past this now, to let go of the souls and what ultimately leads to his death.

Then we also have the reason WHY Bobby and Cas held back from giving Karen and Cas what they wanted for so long and it was for the same reason:

Bobby: 

Dean


Basically Bobby / Karen is a massive parallel for Dean / Cas. 

If one doesn’t see Bobby as a bitter borderline alcoholic who only finds solace in hunting and his found family of Sam and Dean as a continued parallel for Dean finding solace in hunting and his found family in season 7 and how Bobby only finds peace in the end once he lets go of revenge and his past and allows himself to focus on being happy in himself and move forwards then….

Ouat Con Denver 2017 - Colin’s Panel
  • Audience member: “Sorry, I’m fangirling” — Colin: “Me too!” (x)
  • Colin just did a Rumple impression, he said Hello Dearie with the arm it was spot on (x)
  • One girl asked if Hook would rather have Emma or Milah and Colin smirked and asked “can I have both” (x)
    • he just referred to captain swan as true love i can never get tired of hearing it (x)
    • he said Killian would pick Emma over Milah (x)
  • “I think people get disappointed when they meet me and I don’t have guyliner on, like eh… Your face just doesn’t really work.” (x)
  • “Emma’s Hook? Like the pancake Hook? I actually just found out about this pancake thing today” (x)
  • Colin said Helen is his best friend (x)
  • Killian didn’t just sacrifice himself for Emma but for her friends and family (x)
  • Colin thinks that Hook has had the biggest “change”. (x)
  • someone asked if Killian would get another tattoo what would it be I said Emma and he looked at me and said I guess it’d be Emma (x)
    • he also said that maybe hook has more tattoos than the one just maybe we haven’t seen them (x)
  • Colin said he’d cosplay as a Tim Burton character (x)
  • a girl asked Colin about not wearing leather pants and he said maybe I’ll wear something else… or nothing at all. (x)
  • Colin said that he’s trying to be the best hook for emma (x)
  • colin said that revenge is his favorite song (x)
  • colin said hook is excited to be henrys step dad (x)
  • colin said that he thinks hook and emma went on an incredible journey and that he doesn’t know what’s going to happen (x)
  • colin said he put his limbs one the line for the musical episode (x)
  • he said that he uses his hook as a coffee cup holder (x)
  • a little girl asked for a hug, and he gave her one (x)
  • he said that his weirdest talent is that he can do the funky worm (x)
  • he just said that he would be enigomontoya from the princess bride because you killed my father (x)
  • colin said that he would be the evil queen or the wicked witch because he likes anything that shows his chest (x)
    • Q: “If you could be any girl character who would it be?” Colin: “anything that looks like my costume but that will reveal my chest” (x)
  • he just said he’s a lover not a fighter (x)
  • he said that he would live in arendale because the cold doesn’t bother him anyway (x)
  • colin would take home the jolly rodger if he could (x)
  • colin said the funniest prank was when they hid a fart machine in neverland (x)
  • HE JUST SANG REVENGE!!!! (x)
  • A prop from set he would take: jolly Roger have it in his backyard and pretend to be Captain Hook on his own in the backyard (x)
  • Colin didn’t want to tell them he broke his foot because he was worried it would mess up filming the rest of the season (x)
  • Colin said Killian would be in Slytherin, son that boy is a Hufflepuff (x)
  • he just said if I jab you with my sword you’ll feel it (x)
  • Colin would rather answer questions as Hook than as Colin because he’s more comfortable being someone else (x)
  • Karen is on Colin’s panel line and was like “you’ll fly on my magic carpet right?” (x)
  • “What would the ship name be? Jazzhook?” @colinodonoghue1 “NOT JAZZHO!” @KarenDavid (x)

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Gallagher's Good Girl

// The One Where Lip is Dating a Good Girl Y/N//

Y/N wasn’t use to the frantic behavior of the Gallagher house, the constant swearing and shouting. The nakedness and the nonchalant attitude. She wasn’t use to the food being thrown and the alcohol drinking. Her parents didn’t expose her to that type of lifestyle. So when she told her parents that Debbie Gallagher had invited her over for a sleepover, they were infuriated, but she simply explained that she’d been hanging with her brother, Phillip after school for tutoring and she would occasionally hang out with Debbie. Which was a complete lie, it shocked her when her parents hesitantly agreed for the slumber party.

She felt corrupted in a sense, lying to her parents, she wanted to run back home and tell them the truth no matter the punishment it brung. But Lip stopped Y/N, telling her that it was a little white lie and no one would suffer from her white lie.

So now Y/N sat on the couch, talking to Debbie about boys. Debbie was excited to have another female in the house, who she could talk to and laugh with. She didn’t have much girl time when it came to all the boys running rampant in the house. “I can’t believe a girl like you is dating Lip!” She stated out of blue cutting Y/N off from her sentence. Her face contorting in confusion while she watched the auburn headed girl in front of her.

“W-what do you mean?” She stuttered, Debbie flicked her ponytailed hair behind her shoulder, she tugged on her bottom lip for a moment.

“Well Lip sleeps around a lot, his last girlfriend–” she paused trying to think of her name for a brief moment

“Karen?”

“Yeah Karen, they had sex a lot!” She uttered, not knowing the true impact of her words. She gave a slight nod before forcing a smile. Her attention was drawn to Liam tugging at her pajama pants, which everyone in the house seems to forget. He babbled softly before moving away from her. She wondered why Lip never made the effort to sleep with her, I mean she was sorta ready to have sex with him but she wanted to know if it was real, not wanting to give herself away to someone who only wanted her for the sex.

“Dinner!” Fiona screamed causing the house to shake slightly while every raced to the kitchen. It was pizza that Jimmy had brought. She pushed her thoughts aside before moving into the kitchen, all eyes were drawn on her.

“Y/N! I saved you a seat” Carl smirked, he patted the chair next to him. She tugged on her bottom lip before letting out a slight laugh. She grabbed a slice before siting next to the flirtatious boy.

“Thanks pumpkin” she smiled, he gave a crooked grin before stuffing a slice in his mouth.

“I don’t understand how someone like her is dating someone like Lip!” Veronica let out, as she watched the girl laugh along with Carl and Debbie. “I’ve meet her family and they are uptight son of bitches, and yet here she is” she slapped her hand against her thigh.

“Yeah, she doesn’t even sleep in Lip’s room, she bunked with Debbie” Fiona let out, Kevin laughed softly

“No sex?”

“Nothing, she doesn’t kiss him, well not that I’ve seen” Fiona retorted

“Good girls are always the best girls” Jimmy smiled, Fiona rammed her fist into his shoulder. The front door slammed catching the group’s attention.

“Oh pizza!” Ian smiled, he rushed into the kitchen. He gave a wide smile to Y/N, the only girl that he tolerate that Ian brought home. Being that other one was Karen.

“Hey Carrot top” she smiled, she tossed her plate in the sink while giving Ian a quick hug. He bummed into her shoulder, she let out a loud laugh before pushing him toward the stairs.

“Hey babe” Lip smiled, his body pressed against door frame, “Come on” she stared at him confused, he moved to the back door holding it open for her.

“Uh- I’ll be back soon Debbie” she stated, she moved out the door, with Lip close behind her. “Why did we-” she was cut off by Ian’s lips molding into her, his cold hands slipping around her warm body. He pulled back, his wet lips tracing slight kisses on her neck warming her instantly.

“I’ve missed you” he whispered

“You couldn’t tell me that inside?” She laughed pushing him away from her

“I wanted to be alone and you seem to have a phobia of my room” he stated, she looked down her expression quickly changing. She didn’t think that he’d have a problem with her not wanting to be alone in his room. There is the whole situation of half his family barging in and then there was the whole “being alone in room together can lead to sex.” He cussed loudly, his hand grasping her chin forcing her to look at him.

“I didn’t mean like that Y/N/N, I like the fact that you make me wait for you, it will make the time that I make love to you so much more special.” Lip let out in one breath, she smiled softly.

“Oh Philip” she let out, Y/N threw her arms around his neck, she pressed her lips against his.

“But fuck can I say you are making it so fucking hard!” He let moaned out once she pulled back.

Dear Karen,

If you’re reading this it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it, so good for me. You don’t know me very well but if you get me started I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me. But this, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write.

There’s no easy way to say this so I’ll just say it, I met someone. It was an accident, I wasn’t looking for it, it wasn’t on the make, it was a perfect storm. She said one thing, I said another, next thing I knew, I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation. Now there’s this feeling in my gut she might be the one. She’s completely nuts in a way that makes me smile, highly neurotic with a great deal of maintenance required, she is you, Karen. That’s the good news.

The bad is I don’t know how to be with you right now. And that scares the shit out of me. Because if I’m not with you right now, I have this feeling that we’ll get lost out there. It’s a big, bad world full of twists and turns. And people have a way of blinking and missing the moment. The moment that could have changed everything. I don’t know what’s going on with us, and I can’t tell you why you should waste the leap of faith on the likes of me, but damn you smell good. Like home. And you make excellent coffee. That’s got to count for something right?

Call me.

Unfaithfully yours,

Hank Moody.

—  My favorite love letter.
Jumanji, Welcome to the Jungle

Spoiler Free review

-so many penis jokes it got kinda stupid. Some of them were really funny, but it got old real quick (It was hilarious when Bethany got excited though b/c so many young children were confused and I heard multiple “What does that mean Mommy/Daddy?)

-I didn’t like the introduction of Bethany, but it was really nice to see her grow

-Not extremely preachy, and it didn’t have many moments with it.

-Dwayne Johnson, Jack Black and Karen Gillian (probs the best out of all 3) all adopted the personas of their teen counterparts that it was amazing and beautifully acted. To me if felt like most of the time Kevin Hart was playing Kevin Hart, but he also had his moments of seeming more like Fridge.

-I don’t think a lot of people realized that it’s PG-13, which means their was cussing and heavy handed sexual innuendos. Like I mentioned earlier- there were like kindergartners/1st graders in the movie theatre that asked awkward quiestions. So beware about taking young kids.

-Didn’t put the teen girl with the older man at the end

-Not many easter eggs, but they were good, call back to the Bats, Alan and… maybe more? I’m not sure?

-Bethany and Martha bonded and were supporting each other during the whole thing, I wanted to cry. PASSES THE BECHDEL TEST

-Kinda talked about Slut-Shaming and girl-on-girl hate for the stupid reasons

-Martha went after the public education for a second, it was great.

-I WISHED WE GOT TO SEE- how the adventure affected the students in the long run. What they did with their lives as  adults. I wanted to see Fridge let go of football team that was the center of his life and become a bit of a geek (maybe taking an interest in Zoology or being an Archeologist), I wanted to see Martha being a confident business/CEO type who’s badass. I wanted to see Spencer blossom into an independent and confident human-just living his life to the fullest- and I wanted Bethany to become someone who actively using social media to help others with Body/Confidence Issues. 

grabnok-destra  asked:

"Hey there Karen." "My name is Jean." "Well I don't like calling you that so I'm gonna call you Karen." Yeah, it's not a different viewpoint to call someone something they don't want you to call them. You're just an asshole. Same thing with Gender. "I prefer They pronouns." "Well you look like a girl so I'm gonna use She." "Asshole." "WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT!?"

You know what would be a good exchange?
“I’m agender and would rather you call me They”
“What’s agender?”
“It means I don’t identify as any gender. I’m genderless.”
“Well I can’t say I understand, but if you want to be called They then I’ll respect that.”

ITS NOT HARD!!!
-TQ

Pax: A Kastle Fic

Welp, I marathoned The Punisher and intense Kastle feels were one of my many reactions. Naturally these feels eventually emerged in the form of post-finale fic. 

Thanks for betaing, @khaleesa!

Originally posted by kastlesource

When a tape showing the illegal detention and torture of the Punisher hits WikiLeaks, every reporter worth their salt has a field day. Karen Page, however, calls in sick and goes looking for a different story altogether. Namely, whether Frank Castle is okay.

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Like every other newspaper in the city, the New York Bulletin offices are in a frenzy. Even over the phone, Karen can hear the pandemonium. She feels a distant pang over missing the unique blend of caffeine, cigarette smoke, and desperation that always accompanies the breaking of a bombshell story, but she doesn’t have second thoughts. Karen leaves her apartment with David Lieberman’s address scribbled on a slip of paper and hails a cab.

She gives the driver the address, and something in her expression deflects any further attempts at conversation. She’s grateful to avoid the ordeal of small talk. The suspicion in Ellison’s voice when she’d called in sick had left her drained of words and the desire to speak them. He hasn’t looked at her the same way since he asked whether she knew Frank was alive—and she lied to his face. She’ll have to reckon with that eventually. For now she contents herself with the silence and watches the skyscrapers dwindle into homes and trees as they leave the city behind.

The cab stops in front of a white house with green shutters and a welcome sign beside the door. She asks the driver to wait and steps out at the corner of two streets populated by bare trees, old and comfortable houses, and a few distant figures bundled in coats and walking a dog. Dead leaves skitter past her feet when the wind blows; Karen crosses her arms against the cold.

For a moment, she’s not so far away, standing between another cab and another house in a quiet neighborhood—a house with no lights, no sound, and the name Castle on the mailbox. She blinks away the memory and focuses on the click of her shoes against the front walk.

At the door, her knock is answered immediately.

“David Lieberman?” she asks, but she already knows the answer. She’s seen his picture. Judging by the flash of recognition on his face, he’s seen hers as well.

“Miss Page,” he says. “Please come in.”

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When We Collide

Pairing: Assistant!Y/N/CEO!Luke

Rating: PG-All

Request: Yes

Words: 4.000+

Summary: He is the definition of high class smart ass, swimming in Dom Pierre Pérignon champagne and has never seen the shadow of poverty. She is underprivileged, lives in a messy dorm room on sale and struggles working as an assistant after being thrown out of college. But how will they collide when Luke makes Y/N pregnant after a drunkenly one night stand?

”So what you’re saying is that I woke up this morning expecting everything to be butterflies and rainbows, called my chauffeur to pick me up and wasted gas all the way over to my office just because you couldn’t satisfy my request?”

Luke’s tone rose by each word that left past his pink lips, his eyebrows furrowing and his marker rolling between his fingers.

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Conscience (Peter Parker x Reader)

@5sosislife12344 Hey! Can I have a Peter Parker X reader where the reader is the voice in his suit, and when he goes upstate he meets her. Maybe a curvy reader and some cute fluff? Thanks!

Originally posted by thoranda


Peter Parker hadn’t been so excited in his life… like, ever. After months of using his new and improved Spiderman suit by Mr. Stark, he had finally found the AI attached which he named ‘Karen’. ‘Karen’ had been his best friend (other than Ned, of course) ever since he discovered her and how easy she made things. 

The computerized voice spoke out one afternoon as the teenager was swinging underneath the Queensboro Bridge. 

“Peter, you are receiving a call from Tony Stark. Would you like to answer?”

“Yeah, of course!”

Tony was talking before the call even started.

“Peter, Happy is at your apartment right now. Where are you? He’s going to drive you up here to the base because I want you to meet someone. Why aren’t you at home? I told you to take a break from patrolling once all that Vulture stuff went down.”

Tony’s interrogation shocked Peter to the point of silence. After a minute, however, Peter regained his voice and told Mr. Stark, “everything’s fine. I’m on my way back home now. I’ll be two minutes tops, Mr. Stark. I’m sorry I left Happy waiting.”

Tony seemed satisfied with that answer and hung up without saying goodbye.

Once he’d been in the car for almost an hour and a half, Peter was growing bored. He had finished his homework ten minutes before and Happy wasn’t responding when he asked questions. None the less, the boy found bugging the stocky bodyguard entertaining. With a smile, the teen bombarded the grumpy man with questions.

 “Why won’t you tell me who I’m going to see? Are they a new addition to the Avengers? Is it a press event? Do I need to bring my suit? It’s in my bag. Happy, why aren’t you answering me?”

A heavy huff of annoyance sounded from the man in the driver’s seat who clicked one of the many buttons on the control panel, which raised the partition between Peter and the front seats.


Peter was greeted by Stark in an unconventional way; aka, Stark levitating towards him from the roof of the Avenger’s base. Peter was in awe of the man’s shoes which looked like glammed up Adidas shoes. 

“Cool, right? Banner just made them for me. It’s our 6 year best friend-iversary.”

“Yeah! They’re awesome, Mr. Stark! Can I try them?!”

“Obviously not, Spiderboy, they’re meant for trained professionals. Aka, me.”

Tony’s feet never touched the ground as he lead Peter inside the base and up the stairs to a laboratory room. Stark opened the door swiftly and speedily levitated inside towards a desk on the other side of the room.

A pretty girl with a headset on sat on a comfy chair behind a modern desk. She looked up from the computer screen; hair swaying as she took off the rose gold and white headset. Her lips that were painted a shade of red, which suddenly became Peter’s favourite colour, started to move and he didn’t hear what she said. All he could do was admire her beautiful features until Tony’s hand came down onto his shoulder roughly. 

“Peter, this is my daughter; (Y/N). She’s your…” Tony fished for the right word before he turned to you, “What did he call you again?”

A gentle, airy giggle came from your scarlet lips before you said, “Hey, I’m who you call ‘Karen’.”

Peter had never heard something so mortifyingly embarrassing. His face bloomed the same shade as your lips and forced coughs erupted from his throat. Flashes of all he’d told you and then Karen’s voice played through his head. He told you about Liz and you said, “This is your chance, Peter. Kiss her.” He cringed as his blush darkened.

“Please,” he started, almost begging, “Please say that you’ve recorded a bunch of things and that your dad’s amazing technology made an AI. It’s not just you talking to me through an intercom or something.”

“It is sometimes, but the personalized messages are me. I get a notification through my watch whenever you’ve got the suit on so I can be ready to talk to you if you need immediate help,” you told him.

“Surprise!” Tony yelled, while pulling the string of a partypopper. 

“And I’m guessing you can see everything I do through that computer, can’t you.”

You nodded, but then you remembered seeing a little bit of footage he probably didn’t want you to see. Him getting out the shower. Thank god it was steamy so you couldn’t see that much.

You pulled a lie out of thin air to try and make him less embarrassed. “I only see when you’re in the suit.”

Your dad went to deny your claim but your glare shut him up. He grabbed Happy’s arm and pulled him towards the door. Between heaves of trying to lug the man out the door, who seemed adamant to stay in the room with the teens, he said, “We’ll be going then.” “No funny business,” he added as a second thought, which only deepened Peter’s blush more.


Looking around the room, Peter can see that the desk isn’t the only thing in the room. His embarrassment distracted him from noticing that the large room is filled with a massive bed covered in fluffy cushions, a door to an on-suite bathroom, and a billion little fairy lights that aren’t turned on that line the ceiling, curtains, and windows.

“I guess this is weird, isn’t it?” You say after a moment.

“Yeah, really weird. I didn’t know you were a person,” he tells you.

“I got that when you kept asking me questions about how life works as a robot and stuff.” He lowers his head into his hands and quietly pretends to scream which makes you burst out in laughter.

“I did mean it when I said you have a nice voice though,” he says gently while looking at you.

“I meant it when I said you should’ve kissed her,” you say back. You know it didn’t go well with that Liz girl, but you’d rather him tell you himself.

“Yeah, I’m glad I didn’t. Her dad ended up being the Vulture. Did you know? She left a little while ago to live somewhere up north with her mom.” You can only nod.

A moment of silence passes before he jokes, “I should probably call you “Y/N” now instead of Karen, huh? That must’ve been funny for you.”

“I never thought about changing my name to anything else until the moment you called me that. Do you think Karen suits me?” You stand up from the comfy chair and walk around the desk to dramatically offer your hand to him. With your best robotic voice you could manage, you say “Hello, I’m Karen. Nice to meet you, Spiderman.”

He takes your hand and kisses the back of it before looking up at you with your scarlet lipstick, “I think I prefer (Y/N), if you don’t mind.”

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Hi River (@missyriver )👋🏽! The prompt I was given was OTA related but I wanted to make something you’d absolutely LOVE based on your blog. I had to scrap my original idea of an Olicity/Kastle parallel gifset since someone made an AMAZING one before me.. but after lots of mental anguish I settled on this quote to still give you Kastle vibes. Because lbr, this speech had nothing to do with that other *weary sigh* pairing and was totally foreshadowing Frank/Karen. (ALSO CAN YOU IMAGINE FRANK GIVING EMO!OLIVER THIS ADVICE CAUSE I CAN AND LEMME TELL YOU I’M SOBBING).

Anyways I hope you like it🙈!! Enjoy all the Olicity dancing aesthetic and have the HAPPIEST OF HOLIDAYS💝✨🕎❄️🎄☃️🎁💞

- Kat (@stellahellaviola )

(Im assuming you meant a kastle fic masterlist for myself… putting it under a cut bc it’s… looong)

One-shots

One Batch Per Dozen (au/drabble collection on ao3)

- Strangers on a Train - accidentally fell asleep on each other on the train AU
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Coffee” for two - Always in front of me in line for the coffee shop with a ridiculous order that takes forever to make AU
- Running in the Dark - that’s a hideous shirt and you should take it off AU
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A Warm Place - Prompt: What happens when Frank (natural dog person) discovers Karen is a cat person?
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A Haunting - I moved into the apartment next door and it’s 100% haunted please let me crash here for the night” au
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Sleepless in Hell’s Kitchen - Neighbor who’s way too enthusiastic about LOTR soundtracks AU
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A Girl Can Dream - I’ve never actually talked to you but I had a dream we were in a relationship and now I have a crush on you AU
- Mistakes Were Made - College AU 
- A Study in You (part 1) - A Study in You (part 2) - AU in which Frank and Karen are teachers who argue a lot and the whole school ships them
- Clouds in My Coffee - AU where they are neighbors and one of them can hear the other every single morning singing in the shower
- Speechless - Prompt: Frank dealing with brain damage after effects - temporary aphasia. Karen finds him hiding on her fire escape, confused and unable to speak, and shelters him until it passes.
- Bruised Not Broken - Prompt: Frank becomes attached to the 8 year old girl Karen Babysits
- Pieces of You - Prompt: Frank showing up once or twice in Karen’s apartment to lay low, but doesn’t give her any warning, etc. Karen’s hides something of his so he will come back.
- The Daughter of My Enemy - Prompt: Kastle with Karen as the daughter of a mob boss
- Cradle the Fury - Kastle switched backgrounds AU
- Your Knight (part 1), Your Knight (part 2) - Prompt: AU where Frank and Karen live in the same apartment building. Frank is usually a smartass toward her, but one day Karen sees how gentle, patient and kind he is with their 6 year old neighbor
- He Couldn’t - Karen gets Frank’s suit back when he goes to prison, bc it belonged to Nelson & Murdock, and she keeps it in her closet, unwashed, bc still smells like him
- Rescued - Prompt: Someone grabs/kidnaps Karen and Frank rescues her
- Fight for Your City - Prompt: they meet at a protest/rally and feel attraction from afar so mutual friends decide to set them up on a date
- Every Six Seconds - Nurse/Doctor Kastle AU
- Caress - Karen notices early on that he doesn’t like sleeping. He clings to his coffee late into the night like it’s a life raft, circles under his eyes, exhaustion in his hoarse voice.
- Restless - He wonders if the ethereal night dress is something she wears often. It floats around her weightlessly, frilly lace edges brushing against the tops of her thighs. It’s something out of time, an angelic relic from a sepia toned past.
- Almost - Karen Page wasn’t a drinker, not really. A shot or three after work with a few friends, just enough to feel loose and uninhibited, that was one thing, but this losing herself in the murky depths of amber liquid wasn’t her deal.
- Just a Little Touch - Prompt: a tipsy karen @ frank: “your hands are so much larger than mine”
- Along Came a Spider - Tumblr Prompt: You report on the most dangerous gangs in New York, no problem… but you’re scared of that tiny little spider?“

Birds of a Feather - AU (fallen angel soulmate) - Francis has spent his fair share of lifetimes looking for his Karina. 

Kastle Week - A series of unconnected one-shots made for the first (i think) kastle week 1) Rolling blackout, frank shows up, the past is talked about. 2) Karen almost dies, but doesn’t, frank reacts 3) this one’s just an excuse to write bed sharing and then make you stupidly sad 4) the night in the woods at schoonover’s shack goes… differently 5) New york is buffetted by a hurricane and one wounded vigilante seeks shelter 6) Karen watches as the last of Frank Castle’s former life goes up in flames, but she manages to hang on to a piece of him 7) Frank tells himself over and over again that he won’t see her, and over and over again he’s wrong

Heartbeat - Karen is injured, not badly, but there is an unexpected complication (angsty)

No More Running - Kastle channeling their inner rom/com and having and epiphany about each other and RACING TO CONFESS THEIR LOVE

Stop Waiting - Frank finds his way back to the living with a little help from the dead.

On Broken Wing - Cornered and running out of options, Frank lets go of the last thing worth holding onto.

Lest You Forget - He tells himself that it’s better that he can’t fall asleep in the dark anymore, that there’s too much work to be done with the moon’s out. He only ever feels like it’s a problem when he’s with her.

Blue At the Edges - Forgetting is a darkness he’s come to embrace.

Violets and Violence“I need you to scream. You’re Karen Page. He’s the punisher. He will come for you.” 

Reflections - The last things she wants or needs is someone to scold her for being reckless… she knows it already. She knows and yet there’s a part of her that relishes the feeling of her knuckles smashing against another’s unyielding bones. It’s the bruises afterward that she has trouble with.


Multichapters

No Sugar, No Cream - Five times Fic - Five times Frank brings Karen coffee and one time he doesn’t. (FINISHED!)

Fight the Night - AU (vampire/werewolf) -  Frank has one job, to protect the innocent from vamp scum, but his black adn white world view is sorely tested by one ethereal beauty and her craving for blood. (WIP)

Try and Try Again - The night after the punisher’s funeral Karen is approached by a stranger woman and given teh opportunity to change the past and give Frank Castle back his future. (FINISHED!)

Hold On Tight - He remembers what she looked like when she told him, eyes glistening, a half formed apology on her lips. He just shakes his head, denial pushing away all other emotions. He can’t do it again. (WIP)

Of Gods and Monsters - AU (greek gods hade/persephone) - Frank is the God of the Underworld, quietly ushering honorable souls to the Elysian Fields while ensuring the evil ones start their time in Tartarus as soon as possible. He doesn’t want or need anyone to care about, until one day the beautiful daughter of Demeter needs him. He can’t ignore his fate, and neither can she. (WIP)

Five Line Fics

Short and Sometimes Sweet (collection on ao3)

TUMBLR LINKS
- Coffee - Blood - Eyes - Body Language - Regrets - Bullets - Flowers - Birthday Present - Restless - Dive - Reach - Boundaries - Fear - Flames - Caress - Are You Wearing My Hoodie? - Smile -  Ice - Tell Me You Don’t Want This Too - I Don’t Want Anyone Else - Dance - Watching Hocus Pocus - She Gave Me Her Hand And Didn’t Need More - Stuffed Animals - Blanket - Lingering Glances - Record Store - Yoga Class - Office - Underwear - Window - Insomnia - TrustDreams - Nightmares - Breathless - Hope - Fuck - Swallow, Run, Rum, Kness, Wander - Rain, Bare, Peach, Clock, Knuckles - Ache - Poker - Karen Helping Frank Get Dressed in a Suit to go to the trial - Honor - Dancing - Just don’t go…

P.S. The first two kastle fics i wrote - (putting them at the end because frank and karen were so so new to me and i was a bit tentative)

In the Night - In the darkness everything else falls away.

Clear Skies - Frank visits the graves of his family for the first time since the massacre in the park.

Summer of Love Chapter 1: Cute

Originally posted by stallingdemons

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Relationships: Peter Parker x fem!Stark!reader, Tony Stark x Reader (father-daughter relationship)

Warnings: Light cussing, tons of fluff :)

Summary: Over the Summer Tony decides to have Peter come to the Avengers facility for a little “Summer camp” to help train him to be a hero. Peter comes ready to become an Avenger, but he didn’t expect to fall in love with with his mentor’s adopted daughter along the way…

A/N: Yes I know another Peter series! Don’t worry I’m still working on Partner’s in (Fighting) Crime, but I’m having a little bit of writers block for it at the moment, and I had this idea rattling around in my head and thought it might be nice to write so I thought I’d give it a shot! Please read and let me know what you think!


“This is so amazing this is going to be the best Summer ever!” Peter exclaims as he runs out of the car and Happy gets his bags out of the trunk of the car. 

“Yeah it sure will be.” Happy grunts and Peter rushes over and helps Happy out with the bags. “A whole Summer spent with you. Good times…” He groans and walks up the steps of the Avengers facility with Peter. 

Peter was practically exploding with excitement and happiness once he was inside. Sure he had been here before and even turned down Tony’s offer to be an Avenger but this was different. He wasn’t being pressured into anything this Summer. He was just going to be training with the team to hone in on his skills a bit more before school started again. He walked by the training facility and looked inside and smiled. 

“Wow…” He says and watches Iron Man and War Machine train in the big room through the window. “This is gonna be so awesome!” He squeals and hops a little bit. Happy sighs and rolls his eyes. 

“What is awesome?” Vision asks and goes through the wall, making Peter scream and jump onto Happy, in turn making Happy scream. 

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Meltdowns (The end) ~ soulmate series

LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK OF THE FINAL CHAPTER

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Months have passed and things have been great for your little family. Shawn recently came home from a few long months of touring and you’ve finally found a well-paying job and were slowly working your way up. You were surprised at how well things have been going for you since it wasn’t normally like this and you were almost positive that something was bound to happen.

As for Ava, she’s been acting weird lately and you couldn’t figure out what was going on with her. For the past few weeks she’s been coming home from school in a terrible mood and as soon as you entered your condo she would hide away in her room until dinner and go back once she was done. You’ve tried asking her what’s wrong but she won’t budge, not even her teacher was able to tell you what’s been going on with her. You’ve expressed your concern to Shawn but he didn’t know what to do either. You miss your bubbly little girl and honestly don’t know what to do anymore.

“Hey Ave, it’s your favourite song don’t you wanna sing?” Shawn asked, turning up the car radio with his spare hand before glancing into the rearview mirror to see her reaction. She didn’t budge, she just continued to look out her window. Shawn sighed before turning his attention back to the road.

The three of you were currently on the way for a dinner at his parent’s house since he just got home from months of traveling he was in desperate need of some time with his family, as were they.

“Ava we’re here,” you said as Shawn pulled into the driveway of his parent’s house. You could tell his mom has been working in the front garden lately, you made a mental note to tell her how nice it looked.

“Hurry it up,” you warned, watching as your daughter slowly opened her car door and unbuckled her seat belt. Shawn’s parents had already opened the door and were greeting their son by the time she finally got out of the car. She huffed as you grabbed her hand, practically pulling her along with you.

“You better behave tonight or you’re not having dessert,” you muttered before you got close enough so everyone would hear you. “And we brought cake so I suggest you tone down the attitude, little girl.”

Almost immediately, she uncrossed her arms and ran to greet Shawn’s parents nicely.

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“Best Friends” Pt. 4

Pairing: Peter Parker X Reader

Word Count: 1700+

Warnings: Just some stuff from the movie. 

A/N: HELLO! So, I think this is going to have way more than 4 parts, so if you’d liked to be tagged then please let me know!

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Even when I was younger, bus trips were one of my favourite things. They were always a time to talk, joke around and play games with each other. Would the driver of that small car be sweet or sour? Would the truck passenger wave back at us? Not to mention it meant you were going somewhere. School was out for that day and you were going to a place you’d never been before, where all your friends would be next to you. Most of the time it was fun, a day to remember. And because of that I loved bus rides and all the memories that came attached to them.

Despite this, I wasn’t having the best time right now.

“Y/N!” My head snapped to Liz, who stood at the front of the bus holding question cards. “You haven’t answered a question this whole trip. C’mon, you got this!”

Not trusting my words, I nodded my head.

Peter had showed up this morning and re-joined the team. Everyone, apart from Flash, welcomed him with open arms, including me. Although our walk yesterday ended badly, I thought we were once again best friends and that made me overjoyed. After everyone else had gotten on the bus, I ran over to give him a hug. Just as my arms were about to wrap around him, his own came up and blocked me.

“Don’t touch me.”

Not saying anything else, he walked straight into the bus. Leaving me to walk in alone, both confused and embarrassed. My head hung low, as tears pricked at my eyes. If anyone had seen it, they didn’t say anything.

Now Peter sat in front of me, a bell in his hand as he jumped to answer the questions. Why was he so mad at me? I hadn’t done anything wrong. Was he really angry at me for having a crush on Spider Man? I mean fuck sake, it’s not like anything is going to come from it. If that’s what the problem is then he’s just being a brat.

Instead of glaring holes in the back of Peters head, like I had for the whole trip, I turned my eyes to the window. DC is fast approaching, meaning it would only be another half hour till we were out of this stupid bus and into the hotel. All I wanted to do was crawl up into a ball and sleep. Plus, it was already the afternoon, as the trip was roughly five hours long.

Maybe MJ could go protest without me.

“Are you okay, Y/N?” Liz sat down next to me, both of our feet dangling in the water. “You didn’t seem very happy today.”

The day had gone as expected. When the bus ride was over we made our way to the hotel, where we checked in. I had made serval attempts to talk to Peter, but he just left in a cloud of his dust as he hurried off in the other direction. Now I sat at the pool, my legs dangling in the water. Almost the whole team was here, playing games and splashing water, but I’d never felt more alone. Why was he so mad at me? Why was he ignoring me? Maybe he realised how much of a bitch I really am, and how I’m not worth it anymore. The negative thoughts were like a storm in my head, shocking me with sadness and evaporating my self-confidence. If my best friend couldn’t stand me who else would?

Sighing, I started at my hands.  “Yeah, I’m fine. There’s just somethings going on between Peter and I.”

“I’m sure everything will be worked out; you guys are best friends.” She smiled, before dipping back into the pool. “I’m always here to talk.”

Smiling at her offer, I nodded and looked up through the glass roof. ‘Best friends’. The stars shined so brightly, as the moon glowed. It was so beautiful, so peaceful. A flash of red and blue light appeared, causing me to squint my eyes.

No way, NO WAY. Spider Man stood at the window, looking around as his suit dulled to its normal complexion. It almost looked like he was talking to someone, pointing down at his arm as he continued to look around.  After a few seconds, he placed both of his hands on his hips and nodded.

“Y/N, what are you looking at?”

Turning my gaze from the masked hero to Liz, my mouth fell open. “T-There- s-spider-” Looking back up, the figure was gone.

After my wild and confusing encounter, I went back to MJ and I’s hotel room and slept. The next morning everyone, apart from Peter, met in the hallway and went to the Academic Decathlon. Thanks to our fast thinking, and MJs final answer, we won. As a celebration, we went to the Washington Monument, where MJ read her book and the rest of us got in an elevator to go to the top. We were almost there when a bright blue light penetrated the room and made an outline in the ceiling. Panic and fear overtook me, as I couldn’t help but scream out: “SPIDER-MAN!”

“Oh, I’m going to die.” Jumping, I flew over the helicopter. Using my webs, I swung off the railing and through the glass window. Sliding over the floor for a few seconds, the elevator roof broke off, causing it to fall.

My webs used the detached roof to fall down and catch the lift. The weight slid me across the room some more, as a I spread my legs and stopped both myself and the metal box from falling.

“I did it!” Just as the words escaped my mouth, the doors came off.  Falling into the shaft, my body slammed against the walls as I tried to regain my bearings.

The lift got caught on something, as my body came down and smashed onto the floor of the lift. My weight caused the wheels to snap off, as the elevator started to fall once again. Thinking fast, I shot my webs straight up and onto the broken roof. My body flew up, as I steadied myself on the edge of the elevator. “Hey, how you doing?” I coughed a little, “don’t worry. I got you.”

Just like the screaming, the lift stopped and stood still. Using this as a chance to catch my breath, I glanced around the room. Y/N stood in the corner, both her hands clinging to the rails as her wide eyes stared straight at me. Guilt flood through my body, as I thought of the last thing I said to her. Don’t touch me.

The only reason I was even cold to her was my own mixed feelings. Her having a crush on Spider Man was the same as having a crush on me. We’d been friends for years, and originally the thought grossed me out. But after sleeping on it, the feelings turned mutual. I mean, how couldn’t I like her? She was beautiful, caring, funny, smart, cunning and literally everything you’d want in a girl. How had I only just noticed, and why? I knew everything about her, and she knew almost everything about me.

But she had a crush on Spider Man, not Peter Parker. If I took off the mask she’d just be left disappointed. She didn’t like me, not really. She saw me as a brother and best friend, nothing more. This caused me to get frustrated. Why couldn’t she just like me? What was it about Spider Man that she liked? And why couldn’t I have it?

I was so confused about the whole situation, that when I was trapped in the damage control deep storage unit I talked to Karen about it.

“Should I tell Y/N I’m Spider Man?” The question left my mouth as I laid on the storage box.

“Who is Y/N?” Karen responded, her voice soft.

“Who’s Y/N?” A chuckle left my mouth. “She’s the best, she’s awesome. She’s just a girl that goes to my school, and I- Uh yeah. We’ve been best friends for years and I just really want to tell her, but it’s kind of weird. You know? Hey, I’m Spider-Man.”

“What’s weird about that?”

“What if she’s expecting someone like Tony Stark? Imagine how disappointed she’d be when she sees me.” A frown seeped onto my face.

“Well, if I were her, I wouldn’t be disappointed at all.”

“Yes!” Ned cheered, causing the elevator to jiggle slightly.

“Aye, big guy. Quit moving around!” Using the web, I pulled the elevator up.

“I’m sorry sir, so sorry.”

It took a while, but I eventually got the elevator up enough that Mr. Harrington, Ned and Liz could jump out. Y/N was the last one in there, “Y/N.”

Just as she moved towards the door, the part my feet were pushing on broke off the roof. The elevator started falling once again.

“Y/N!” Her name escaped my lips, as I put my hand out for her to grab. Her own hand came up, but it was to late.

Using my webs, I took hold of her hand. The elevator dropped away from her, as she dangled in the air.

“You’re okay, you’re okay.” Pulling on my web, I brought her up to me. When she was close enough I gripped her hand, “you’re okay.”

Bringing her up to the ledge, a group of people helped her to safety. She turned and looked at me. We stayed like that for a moment, before I let go of her hand and just hung there, staring at her.

Even after staring death in the eyes, she was beautiful.

“This is your chance, Peter. Kiss her.” Karen voice was soft in my ear.

Maybe I should kiss her. Right here, right now. It would probably be my only chance to do so. After all, I didn’t want her to get into danger again. And it’s not like Spider Man could just appear on her fire escape and make out with her.

“Kiss her.”

I hung a little while longer, still staring at her in all her beauty. Oh, how badly I wanted to kiss those lips. To feel them against mine, as her hand cupped my cheek. I wonder what she would taste like, maybe strawberries? What type f kisser would she be? Rough? Soft? The questions were endless, just like the colours in her eyes. If I moved just a bit closer I coud remove the bottom of my mask. However, before I could make a move my web snapped, leaving me to fall down the shaft.

“Are you really friends with Peter Parker?”

Part 5


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SIMON MINTER IMAGINE- 6 YEARS TOO MANY

Part 1

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I’m in love with Simon but recently things changed. Not with me, with him. He’s still the same gamer who stays up all night editing and playing games, but now he’s cold and quiet. Too quiet and I’m no longer having to shout at him to be quiet so I can sleep because he’s already in bed and turned towards the wall.

He’s distanced himself.

But then he snapped back and I didn’t know how to react. I was happy to see him being back to himself but I didn’t know how to feel because I still wasn’t close to him.

“Si I’m getting up really early tomorrow.” I whisper as I stand in the doorway to the bathroom in only a sleep shirt and my pants.

“Okay.”

“I mean I’m getting up early and wanted to know if you would join me?”

“I don’t know. I mean I have to edit and won’t be in bed for about another three hours.”

“Okay well I don’t wanna interrupt so I’m gonna go stay in the guest room. Night Si.” I walk over to the bed and grab my phone and pillow.

“I’ll see you tomorrow.” He calls after me and feel nauseous as the words leave his mouth. No affection or emotion.

Just apathy.

“So why on earth is there a suitcase, a girly one thats yours, by the door downstairs?”

“JJ not now.” I whisper as he follows me into the other room.

“No we’re doing this now because you’re dating Simon and he didn’t say you were leaving.”

“Cause he doesn’t know. I’m going to go stay with some friends in Brighton. I just want to be by the beach. He’ll figure out soon enough.”

“Why don’t you just tell him?”

“Because have you seen him? He doesn’t kiss me anymore and he doesn’t touch me. He doesn’t act like he’s mine JJ. He’s been like this since the New Years party and I’m trying but I can’t keep grasping onto the little bit he gives me. I told him I’d be in the guest room and he just said okay see you tomorrow.”

“Jide, I know you know. I know that you know the girl he’s been seeing and it’s nice that you’re trying to salvage my relationship, but he’s bored of me. Six years too many.”

Six years and he was bored. How could I mix it up like that new girl could? Simon and I were old news and nobody wants old news after a certain point.

“My stuff is all out of here and I have more of my suitcases in the car. So when I’m gone tomorrow morning don’t say anything. Please.”

“No that’s not what you’re doing.”

“JJ I’ve known you and Simon for years. We’ve been the best of friends for years and maybe it’s just time Simon and I aren’t. Just please do me a favor and please don’t tell him what I’m up to. I already blocked him on social media and I’m changing my number. I just need time and I have none when I’m constantly worrying about what he’s doing. You kept his secret so please repay me by keeping mine.”

“If that’s what you want.”

“It’s what I need.”

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I soon put the pieces together when I had time to myself. Simon because distant and quiet when it first happened. He was guilty and he felt bad for now liking someone else. Then he stopped feeling guilty and I think that’s when I needed to go. And that’s why I did go. That’s why I’m in Brighton in my own flat near my friends who support me and make me feel wanted.

But all good things must come to an end.

“You know JJ can’t keep a secret.”

Words like knives.

“He kept yours for pretty long. Probably wouldn’t have told me if I didn’t figure it out myself.” I uncross my arms over my chest while hastily going to walk away.

“Karen can you handle the store if I head home for the day.” I shout to the back of the cafe and she nods.

Who the fuck let him come down to my place of work.

“Simon I’m not gonna spend my time talking to you so walk and talk. I have other places to be and other people to see.” I motion for him to get on with it once I have my keys and bag.

“You left without notice.”

“And you cheated on me and then continued seeing her.” I snap and he looks shocked.

“Six years of dating. I was waiting for the ring Simon. I was the idiot thinking soon you’d propose to me and boy was I wrong. Simon I’ve known you for years and been by your side for so long and you cheated on me. You didn’t even just do it once, you kept seeing her and you thought I wouldn’t know or that our friend wouldn’t tell me. You had your mates keeping it a secret. That’s low Simon. Now I go home and my parents ask where you are? I tell them that you can’t make it because if I told them we were over I don’t know if I’d be able to see their faces. They’d ask questions and I’d have to tell them that you cheated on me. So instead I lie and I tell them that you’re busy with work and can’t wait to see them.”

“Simon I waited thinking you’d propose to me this year. That after New Years we’d be engaged but instead I’m single. But you’re not because you cheated and decided to still see that home wrecker. The bitch who stayed with you and slept with you knowing you had a devoted girlfriend of six years at home waiting for you. I’m sorry but I’m sick of waiting for you. So go Simon, you got to see what you wanted. You saw the girl fawning over you and begging for you to have just been better. However I’m done being that for you because I’m happier now than I was with you because now I don’t have to worry if my famous boyfriend is gonna go fuck another girl.” I finally silence myself after putting on quite the show for the people of Brighton.

“And tell JJ that he could’ve kept his mouth shut. That I didn’t need this because I was just settling in to my new home.”

“I’m sorry.”

“You’re not sorry Simon. You’re just sorry you got caught. There’s a difference.”

“And Gia or whatever her name is can have you because I guess she had something you wanted that I didn’t have.”

“She wasn’t looking for a ring. That’s what she had.”

“Oh so after six years you don’t think she’ll also want one? She will and I’m assuming she’ll want a much bigger one and one much sooner. All I wanted was the confirmation that you did love me and that you did want to have a family with me. That’s what the ring meant for me. It meant confirming those six years and confirming that we’d be together forever. You just couldn’t do that. Now you’re here and I don’t know why.” I take a huge breath while holding my hands at my side.

“Just… Why are you here Simon?” I ask as tears start to well up.

“I don’t know. Everyone is asking for you. You stopped social media and changed your number. The only person who knew where you were, was JJ and everyone wanted to know where you where.”

“But did you?” I ask and he looks down while avoiding eye contact.

“I don’t know why I’m here. Just forget that I came here.”

“No I want to know why you’re here? Six years together Simon. Why are you here?”

“She’s pregnant and I don’t know what to do. With every issue that came up, I came to you and I’m used to going to you. I’m panicking. I can’t be a dad. I can’t, especially now.”

And that’s when it stopped.

The world stopped when he said she was pregnant.

“Simon I’m sorry I can’t help you with that. You want your ex girlfriend to help you become a dad? When you were supposed to be my husband and the father of my kids?”