i want this bathroom

I wish we could hurry up get through this bullshit of being apart and start our lives together. Instead of snuggling your hoodie and laying my head on your pillow with my tears covering it, I wish I was snuggling you with my head on your chest because I sleep so much better with you. Instead of falling asleep on the phone, I wish I was falling asleep to your kisses. Instead of waking up to your text, I wish I was waking up to your perfect little smile. Instead of your tooth brush sitting in the holder in the same spot where you left it, I wish I was yelling at you because you left it out on the counter. Instead of my floor being clean, I wish it was covered with your clothes because you never pick up after yourself. Instead, of eating pizza rolls and having them all to myself, I wish I was able to give you the last one because I know you really want it. Instead of having my whole bathroom to get ready, I wish you were kicking me out and making me use the small mirror so you can use the big one (even though you don’t need it because you are already beautiful without makeup) Instead of watching movies on FaceTime, I wish we were arguing over the remote and who gets to pick what show we watch. Instead of eating whatever I want for dinner, I wish we were taking hours trying to decide what to eat since you always say “i don’t care” Instead of having my bed to myself, I wish I was sharing it with you and falling off the edge since you take up so much space. In stead of being apart I wish I was there or you were here. Instead of being 600 miles apart I wish we were getting on each other’s nerves from being together so much. I wish I was with you, living our dysfunctional but yet perfect life together

penguinsuit_lu: “Here’s a crazy fucking Ultra story… last night I was enjoying the festival, wasn’t trying to go backstage until I needed to take a shit so I wanted to use the nice bathrooms… so I went to the artist boat and the first person I run into is my brother @ilovemakonnen … haven’t seen him in a minute so we talked for like 15 mins until @steveaoki comes out of his green room… they had just finished performing at mainstage and Aoki tells makonnen “yo we about to go watch @icecube perform”. So of course I join them, and while we’re backstage waiting for him to go on, @louist91 walks by and tells aoki “yo fuck this let’s go in the crowd”… so I watched Ice Cube perform at ultra with my bro Makonnen, Steve Aoki, and my new friend FUCKING LOUIS TOMLINSON!!! If you know me you know how much of a fan I am of @onedirection so I totally had a fan girl moment and I had to catch a quick flick with him after we spoke… couldn’t resist 🤷‍♂️ #ultra “

The start of the gallery wall.
We cleaned all the rugs, curtains and couch cushion covers. Tomorrow I’ll finish the rest of the living room and start on deep cleaning the kitchen after Andrew gets home. I do what I can but I need him to lift stuff and get up on the counters.
After Easter I want to do over the kids rooms and paint the bathroom and finally finish the hallway. Binge watching HGTV is a hell of a drug 😂

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.