i want shoujo legs

this is the swimsuit i bought recently. sometimes i like it on me. the rest of the time i look at this and i want to cover it up and never look at it again because i can see my love handles squeezing out of my bottoms, i can see my big thighs and i can see my not-flat stomach and sometimes i makes me sick. 

i don’t know how i feel about my body anymore. i weigh around 135 pounds at 5'3" inches tall and most days i can’t stand it. 

i dunno :/