i want more of them already

sometimes my mother tells me she loves me and i don’t want to say it back / i say it anyway. she taught me long ago that what i want is not as important as what other people need.

i am still trying to untangle that lie.

sometimes my father hugs me like i am all he has left in this world. i want nothing more than to leave. i stay because i carry his heart on my shoulders and my shoulders are already shaking. if i move it will fall.

i refuse to break hearts if i can help it / i cannot always help it.

yesterday i fell in love with an idea, with a floating cloud of dust / half-invisible / choking on air, on the particles of you.

tomorrow i will try to remind myself to look at the stars. i will forget to stare at the sky but this is fine / this is fine / i can find them in your eyes just as easy. next week i will try to remind myself to hold your hand. i will forget.

i am too busy staring at andromeda / the chained maiden. love never lasts and this is how i navigate home.

l.s. | HIRAETH © 2017

Honestly that pause before Emori told Murphy the truth and how deliberately she chose to do so and look ice-cold in his eyes and make zero apologies for it. Like. I’m not here for “even Murphy can’t trust her”, y’all, he’s the one person she DIDN’T lie to. She took the chance he’d look at her differently if she was as balls-out ruthless as humanly possible and he just respected and loved her extra.

God, this episode stressed me out because I saw the twist coming the whole time (pats self on back) and I knew it would make a lot of the audience turn on them and Emori especially, and I already kinda hated it for that. But just so you know where I stand – John Murphy doesn’t want, nor does he deserve, a love interest who is a cinnamon roll and makes him a Better Person with her goodness and light. I think there is something *so much more interesting* about the fact that Memori bring out something sweet and real and caring in each other, while also being pretty terrible people who would manipulate and throw people under the bus to save themselves and each other. Murphy is a more sincere, gentler person because of Emori and still they SQUASHED THAT LOVE = REDEMPTION ARC like a bug and I’m into it.

Fiction needs conflict; we’ve been really overdue for a reminder that both Murphy and Emori are Chaotic Neutrals at best, and the fact it came in the same episode as Murphy dancing around adorably and Emori raving about his cooking skills is a bonus as far as I’m concerned.

A Reading List for Moms Who Want to Raise Feminist Sons | Brightly

Once I realized that my family would be mostly male (I’m the only double-X here), I oriented myself toward the task of raising good men. But as those boys edge closer to actual manhood — as the 14-year-old’s shoulders get nearly as broad as his dad’s and the 12-year-old starts learning “embarrassing” information about sex and reproduction in his health class — I’m feeling my good-man project needs more specificity. I don’t just want them to be good. They’re already pretty good (kind, curious, mostly respectful, good huggers).

I want them to be feminists. I want them to understand, reflexively, that men and women are equal — not because I say so, but because it feels intuitive to them. Because it’s true.

I started talking about feminist issues with our sons when they were tots, and I basically haven’t stopped. We talk about how women are depicted in commercials and TV shows, how female politicians are sometimes characterized, and how women are often viewed or labeled in terms of their relationship to a man.

We also turn to books, which can do two things in any mom’s quest to raise feminist sons: help you educate yourself on the challenges and issues around feminism, and present your sons with stories of strong and forthright women and girls.

aredhel-of-thrawndolin  asked:

EXCUSE ME but I haven't even been following your blog for 24 hours and you've already made me fall deeply in love with Keanu Reeves


On a more serious note: I am so sorry for contributing to the hell that is being in love with the perfect Keanu Reeves.

On a lighter note:

COME JOIN ME IN MY TRASH PIT!!!!!!!!!!! seriously. anytime. 

Wanna talk about his glorious beautiful unreal hair? im here. Want to send twelve gifs that perfectly display his brown beautiful eyes? SEND THEM. Have a gif request? i’m already opening photoshop. Want to cry over how perfect he is, how smart and humble and absolutely good he is? I’m already crying. Want to talk about the fact htat he’s FIFTY TWO AND LOOKS THE WAY HE DOES? I’M GAME

he is so underappreciated. everyone on this hell earth should love Keanu Reeves and if you love him, i love you. not even joking. i’ve got tears in my eyes as i’m typing. ok. i’m ending this text post now before I start writing poetry about him.

(also i followed you back from my main <3) 

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anonymous asked:

Have you seen the eyeshadows made by Shiro Cosmetics? I am OBSESSED with them. Just. The one called Gears and Levers from their Unfortunate Events collection speaks to me on an emotional level. And the one in their Hobbit collection called Lingered in Twilight. I'm pretty sure I want to be buried in a coffin filled with the one called Deepmoss. Just. You have to see these.

I haven’t looked at the Shiro Cosmetics site in AGES, and I probably should go do that right now!

… this is going to lead to me coveting more eye shadow, isn’t it? Dammit, I don’t NEED MORE EYE SHADOW. My collection is already a little out of hand! :D

4ever-tuckington-lover  asked:

For the ask prompt thing (if you're not already swamped with them) could you do Tuckington with 4 (Tucker being the one in trouble or something) or 8? Whichever one you want because I honestly couldn't decide which one I wanted more tbh. Thank you!

Dragon Age AU inspired by @powerfulpomegranate‘s post.

Content Warning for mentioned passed addiction.

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anonymous asked:

could we have some relationship/fluff headcanons for gregory violet please?😀

Ah yes, my spirit animal, finally~

Also, I thought that maybe I could write some more headcanons in my requests, I don’t know how it’ll came out but let’s try! I’m such an Aries I can’t even run my blog without changing the rules every month lol.

Wow, I still have so many ideas even though I wrote so much already, I’ll just leave them for the next time, I suppose.

Gregory Violet:

  • Gregory will always consider you as his muse, not in a way where he would want you to be real inspiration for any of his drawings but in a meaning of bringing some sense to his life. It has nothing to do with art itself, really, but you can expect him to quietly watch you in some casual situations as if you were another kind of human and looking for some stimulants this way. Do not be surprised when he will end up creating a bridge or a fly on the paper later then, it’s all the matter of associations which can be hard to understand for the others. What is important, however, you can be sure that no matter what he draws, it never means anything offending.
  • You can try to ask him what inspired him to do this certain drawing but he probably won’t answer you - not in a way you could understand his way of thinking. He is truly secretive and withdrawn even when around you and sometimes he will feel bad about it, wishing that you could communicate in a more open manner so it will be very important for him to show your understanding. Even though he probably won’t show it on the outside, he will be really happy to have you - especially if you will respect his attitude and not push him too much. After getting to trust you, he will eventually try to explain why there is a fly on his drawing and what does it have in common with the way your hair move on the wind.
  • His favourites activities to participate in with you will be certainly watching movies, visiting libraries or art galleries, anywhere where silence is rather required. Even if such places will interest you, he will be completely distracted from them by your presence so you may catch him staying somewhere and blankly staring at the wall, completely not concerned about the freaking Mona Lisa at his right. He will often drown in thoughts and since relationship with you will be something new for him, this will be something to mostly occupy his mind.
  • Gregory demans a lot of distance and you have to be able to give him that. Do not be angry when he will want to spend an evening alone, do not blame him for not wanting to be around you all the time or not wanting to go out, I can assure you that it has nothing to do with an eventual lack of interest, he will just need to have time only for himself to contemplate a little and enjoy the silence without concerning whether you are getting bored or not.
  • He has a lot of self-consciousness and although he won’t ask you for that, some reassuring is always nice for him. As much as he may not be quite responsive toward it, he will never push you away when you will cuddle to him or show him any kind of physical contact; honestly, you can start braiding his hair and he won’t complain - he may even compliment it in the end. When it comes to different ways of spending time with you, he will gladly (but not visibly gladly) agree to go out wherever you want to, only if it won’t be any kind of party. Things that interest you will also interest him and he will always take mental notes about what you like and not - even if he will probably forget about them later.
  • Gregory is insomniac and suffers from chronical nightmares so you should be ready to wake up and help him get over it in the middle of the night. Your presence will be a blessing for him and you won’t ever see him as vulnerable and full of regret as when he will be clutching to your pyjamas for his dear life. Those will be the only moments when you will see him crying.
  • Everyday, he will be actually pleasure to be around: not too absorbing, not too loud but always having something interesting to say (even though he probably won’t say it) and - surprisingly - he can be quite funny. He will like to see you smile or laugh at some of his eccentric behaviours, it won’t offend him in the slighest and if he will realize that some of them are particularly enjoyable for you, he may repeat them more often. He likes the others to give him space but he is also pretty distant himself, aware that sometimes he could be considered as simply weird and this fact doesn’t bother him. You will be able to see it clearly if anyone will ever try to be mean to him, he just won’t give a single fuck and walk away or continue whatever he was doing, leaving the opponent totally confused.

So today two of those Genius White Boys™ who are physics postgrads were talking to me and trying to convince me to do Physics Honours and asking why I chose astro instead and I told them my reasons (funding - I have a bursary - mental health, e.t.c.) and they didn’t seem to get it. Like, it’s easy to chose the more difficult option when you’re already a self-made millionaire (one of the dudes) or on your 5th (?) degree choice and close to 30 (the other dude) but when you’re a 21 year old with uncontrolled anxiety, overall shitty health and just just just privileged enough to worry about not wanting to further burden your parents with the cost of a degree you can’t self-fund and probably will fail… The easier, better funded, but not as challenging and prestigious choice is the one that you’re going to take. I do kinda regret not doing physics Honours, because whenever I hear physics people talk about their work I feel utterly silly with my baby cosmology and baby python courses and somehow forget that, while they may know about quantum stuffs and Lie Algebra, they don’t have a CLUE how to deal with any of the most basic astronomy problems or have easy access to the mountain of information about space that I have been granted with my astronomy degree. They don’t know how to reduce the spectrum of a distant galaxy, find the age of a star cluster or even work with magnitudes.

So I’m basically so done with the intellectual superiority of physics. Astronomy for life ❤💪💫✨

Calling all BatIM fans!

So I hear you’re worried about this game, or more specifically, its fandom. The Bendy fandom is still in its infancy, yet it already has porn, kinks, OCxcanon, self-inserts, and plenty of discourse. And there’s barely any canon content yet! What’s a conscientious fan to do?

I’ll tell you what you can do. If you make NSFW art, remember to tag #bendy and the kink machine. If you see NSFW art without this tag, GENTLY remind the artist to use the proper tag for their work. We can’t keep artists from drawing what they want, but we CAN remind them to tag their NSFW.

Thank you for your time, and remember: hateful, unsafe fans make a hateful unsafe fandom.

anonymous asked:

What sort of education would work in place of bsl? I always hear that word but I never really hear what sort of ideas people have in mind?

Encouraging people actually research the breeds they’re getting and carefully match breed, sourcing, and purpose with the kind of lifestyle they lead. There are people who actually offer this service if you don’t want to do it yourself- @molosseraptor has talked about doing this already. This keeps breeds out of the hands of those who want them because they saw one once and decided that’s the dog for them, and ensures dogs go to homes that are actually prepared for them.

Making various fun dog sports more available! There was a documentary in the early 2000s about this group of black men who take their APBT and BBMs to inner city neighborhoods and get the kids there involved in weight pull and obedience. The documentary noted that the rate of dog fighting and dog attacks plummeted in the areas these guys visited because people were learning how to properly care for a dog and dog body language, and they had other things they could do with their dogs besides fight them that were positive and fulfilling. I wish I could find it again and watch it as an adult- it was pretty interesting stuff.

Changing the current culture of dogs in the US- this is a hard one and not easily done. This insistence that every dog must love all other dogs, all kids, all people, all the time, can never growl or express itself, can never do dog things, must be perfect at all times- this is creating more dog attacks than it’s fixing. Teaching people to be honest and realistic about what they’re expecting from their dogs, learning dog body language, practicing good dog ownership habits, and enlisting a trainer when you need one- these are things that are shown to reduce dog bites.

For instance- the talk of the week is currently that BBM that ripped the baby’s face off. If you haven’t heard about it- a newly adopted BBM attacked a baby and effectively removed his nose, lips, and cheeks. The dog had been in his new home home less than 24 hours, it was their friend’s dog and they were visiting, and the baby was on the floor with the dog when it happened. I do not know if there was supervision involved, but even if there was, I know from personal experience that bites can happen in a flash and you may be moving to stop a bad situation from happening as it happens. The baby is obviously not at fault here- but I also don’t believe the dog or dog’s breed is at fault either. This was a brand new dog in a brand new environment (where dogs are far more likely to lash out), experiencing stress from upheaval and an extended stay in a shelter (which ups your chances of a lash out because trigger stacking), and now there’s strangers in the home and a wiggling red creature on the floor. Remember that not all dogs recognize babies and young children as humans so we have no idea what this dog thought of this baby.

Instead of saying, “this could be prevented if that breed/type was banned”, which ignores that labrador that removed that toddler’s face and that pomeranian that killed that baby, we could say “you giant morons who puts a baby on the floor with a dog you just met???” or “that’s what two week shutdowns are for” or “who didn’t properly temperament test this dog at the shelter?” or “was anyone supervising when this happened?” Unfortunately, it’s easier to blame the dog/breed than it is to admit that there was at least one human lapse in judgement involved with this situation which caused a young child to experience traumatic injury and lifelong disfigurment and disability. Education all around could have prevented this from happening far more effectively than broad-brush bans.

anonymous asked:

I'm so excited for Bellarke but in the same breath I'm extremely nervous. The waiting doesn't help cos the bedroom and shower scenes are clearly foreshadowing something. Are you nervous or a bit worried that the writers won't do justice to Bellarke or that they'll actually drag it out more

I am pretty convinced that they’re not going to drag it out much longer. They’ve been dropping some hints and pushing the characters and taking them through lessons that all point to canon expression of Bellarke feelings through physical contact. And words, too. They are having troubles reigning it in. Clarke was already done restraining herself and now she’s really sad. Bellamy has been steering away but now he has no reason to steer away anymore.

The story tells me they are going to give us bellarke. I wanted established bellarke but it looks like that’s not coming until s5… if then. 

But I think we’re getting bellarke sex this season. Not shipping. The narrative is pointing that way. 

Haikyuu chapter 247 update: The battle at the trash heap and the Miyu twins!! Spoilers alert!!

I feel for coach ukai’s sentiment. It really is not an easy feat to surpass his grandfather. But he was able to bring the team in the tournament after a long time. He worked hard to help the team. I guess he is on that way already. I know for sure grandpa ukai see’s how good of a work coach ukai is doing. he must’ve been so proud of what he has done already. It will be harder from this point but he have to trust his team also. 

This is what i am talking about. Honestly i don’t want this two team to go against each other. Basically because i see them more of on the friendly teams than that of being rivals. But i guess it can’t be help if they face each other soon. they were known to be rivals for a long time now. Once they face each other it will really be an intense face-off. I am excited at the same time kind of worried for the standing of karasuno. Well best wishes to both teams. Nekoma was also anticipating their face-off. If ever the god of luck was on both nekoma and karasuno’s side then this dream will become a reality.

This, This and This!!! i think i will gonna have a new favorite character in haikyuu other than kuro ( but of course kuro will be my all time favorite character in haikyuu). The Miya twins, just looking at this panel speaks a lot besides them being oh so good looking. I can sense some oikawa+ushijima tandem between this two brothers ( in terms of skills of course).They look very strong and capable.Our boys will be having a hard time with this two alone. But then again the mangaka was giving us a very good fight again. I hope our boys will do well.

Good luck to Karasuno and hopefully grandpa ukai will be better so he can still see our boys doing well in the competition and attaining their goal and he will see coach ukai doing the best that he could for the team that grandpa ukai loves so much.

jameson’s hazel hues were CLOUDED over in thought, a hand raked through his hair as a deep sigh fell from his lips, “do you think someone would give me twenty bucks if i asked?” there was no REAL point to the question except he wanted some booze for the night. perhaps even some lottery tickets ( not that he needed to waste his money any more than he already did ). “or would PICKPOCKETING them be easier?”

You know I just love this woman.

She hasn’t even met the man for more than a couple hours but she has already given him a loving nickname, like he’s part of the family.

She cooks for him.

Also she made it EXTRA-LARGE, I’m sure not everybody gets that special treatment.

“An extra-large for the handsome russian boy.”

And just look how delighted she gets when Victor praises her food. She’s just the perfect mother in law.

And never forget this.

She looks so proud, so pleased, and you know most parents want their kids to find someone who’ll take care of them the same way they did, because their kids are their treasures, they are what they consider most precious in their lifes. And she knows her son has finally found the one, he has finally got to meet the man who’ll treasure him above everything, and I think she knew it since Victor walk through their door… You know, how moms have this sixth sense about people, and more when it involves friends or lovers.

That smile, she’s a proud mom, and she knows his son now has someone who will be sure to hold him up even in the hardest of times.

Now imagine them both coming back to Hasetsu after the grand prix… and having to explain the rings, their engagement, and the future date for their wedding. Imagine her joy. Imagine her with her future grandchildren, I don’t know I just love her too dam much.


“An ecstatic smol mom, skipping after listening to his future son in law praise her cooking skills.”


…I wonder if that was actually a good decision to make there, Kuroo

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“I teach English at a community college in Queens. I love the job, but I hate grading papers. I’d prefer to just have one continuous discussion about Shakespeare. I envy the math teachers who can just put their tests through a Scantron machine. Placing value on a student’s writing is much more nuanced and complicated. What if they have great ideas but their English language skills aren’t as developed? What if English is their second language? What if they’ve faced major challenges in life? Do I ignore those things? Or do I consider context while grading? I want to set high standards and prepare my students for what comes next. But so many of them already have a self-defeating attitude. And I don’t want to discourage them any further.”

And another thing about this photo reel

The immediate reasons to be fucking oBSESSED are obvious but do you know what else really has me emotional about it? 

Yuuri’s confidence. His carefree attitude. He’s totally taking the lead here! Like seeing this is WILD for me, especially knowing this happened BEFORE THE EVENTS of this series. I love this! I can’t get enough of this and I want more (hence my other post lol). LOOK AT HIM. And just take away the obvious perfection of this victuuri content and think about Yuuri as a character. 

Yes, he’s drunk, but listen drinking doesn’t give you qualities and skills you weren’t already capable of. I’m p sure all of them were a little tipsy :p.  All it does it lower your inhibitions and amplify certain aspects of you that already exist. Drunk Yuuri is still Yuuri. THIS IS REALLY YUURI. He didn’t just suddenly learn how to pole dance and break dance and do all these holds. And we’ve seen him pull of his eros sober. It was something all his own and it was so surprising at the time but now? Now it makes perfect sense in the best way. 

I really feel like the Yuuri in these camera roll scenes is significantly real and seeing him so confident and in the spotlight is like WOW. My heart breaks a little because HE DOESN’T REMEMBER. Boy has to know and understand that he captured everyone’s heart that night. He’s a goddamn shooting star. As a character he’s a triumph, a masterpiece. He’s so multifaceted and honestly seeing his journey to this point in his career was already good enough. 

But they didn’t stop there! They were like “Not only is Yuuri a badass now, he was ALWAYS A BADASS. Victor didn’t change him at all. This wasn’t what we thought it was going to be at first AT ALL. It seemed like Victor was spicing up Yuuri’s life and bringing out all these NEW sides of him. ALL LIES. Yuuri was the one spicing up Vitya’s life. EVERYONE’S lives even! Who knows what the atmosphere between all of them was like before this? Like honestly? I bet they were all being super stuffy and formal and not all that chummy like they are now and their closeness now is partially thanks to this cute boy. I love Yuuri so much like :’) Just….I just need a moment. *ahem* 

OKAY but do y’all UNDERSTAND like he was upstaging CHRISTOPHE !!! 

he was DANCE BATTLING YURIO. YURIO you guys. Since when has this kid been a socialite? Letting loose at parties?! WHAT? This is the power of our pork cutlet king

this was ALL before the main events in the series like…I’m dumbfounded right now.

Yuri was so timid and insecure in the first episode. And we just rolled with that. We thought this was about a blossoming skater trying to find his footing again. We thought it was about Victor helping him learn to be confident. 

Originally posted by bunnydesuuu

But nah. Yuuri had us fucking fooled. This man is a showstopper. This guy captivated the greatest skater on the scene, he completely stole the show. He just hit a rough spot, honestly.  

Imagine if someone tried to tell us Yuuri Katsuki knew how to do pole! Or breakdance! Or would hold his idol Victor in a saucy tango pose? 

We’d all be like HA! Okay~ :p 

We thought Victor was going to be the seductive one. 

Mann the production team must have been laughing at all of us this whole time. They were sitting on this from DAY ONE. 

We got played in the best way. Honestly? Standing ovation. This is how it’s done. Other studios better step up because YOI raised the bar beyond our wildest dreams. 

After seeing Fantastic Beasts last night I tried doing the “looks like a cinnamon roll but could actually kill you” meme with the main characters but they’re all cinnamon rolls who look like cinnamon rolls and wouldn’t hurt a fly. They’re the cinnamon roll squad

Soo-orry. I know, I have messages to respond and in general i’m pretty ghosty at the moment, but really, today I find the time to sit and draw only around midnight, so take your guess.

I’m going to respond (and if you send your message before some of the ones I already reply - well, or I want to draw something in the answer or in general I need more time to reply (there is a brush ask if I remember correctly, stuff like that)) just not very fast, idem for the chat. 

And -ops? The blog is still holidayish?  Well. Uh. Red is … a cute color. Yup. Totally. 

This December I’m planning on letting you go, but it’s like the wind on a cold day—it sends a chill that makes my heart beat faster, the goosebumps and shivers part of that exhilaration.

Think of it like this—I take off on long runs and I still come back to the place we met, replaying memories like old film reels in my head. They’re already tinged with sepia, one year ago and it feels like forever.

Do you play them back, too? Do you ever miss the way we used to make each other laugh? Do you miss us?
Because lately all I do is think about where I was a year ago, meeting you for the first time and making you laugh, and talking so fast that we ran out of breath.

I miss you this December.
And I don’t want to miss you. Leaving has become less of a distant daydream and more of a reality, and the only certain thing now is that neither of us will be where we are now. The new year will separate us, finally sever that last thread linking us together. And I don’t want to hurt.

I don’t want to miss you like this. Like late night poetry, and the dizziness of a blow to the head whenever you walk by without a glance. I don’t want to be the girl who can’t let go of something she lost a long time ago, or begrudge you any happiness you might find.
I don’t want to miss you like a weight on my chest, like a physical thing resting behind my eyes, watching you as though from far away, watching you recede like my hometown in my rearview mirror.

This December I am letting you go, I tell myself. I cloak myself in ‘I don’t care,’ put up shields of nonchalance and make excuses about work like I can’t be bothered. This December I want to be better.

And maybe one day I will forget about you, like I forgot the first boy I fell in love with. Maybe one day it won’t hurt to see you, like claws raking across my chest. Maybe I’ll get to a place where I’m okay with you walking out of my life. Maybe I’ll be okay.

But what if I don’t want to let you go? What if the idea of forgetting you fills me with incredible remorse? What if I’m tired of breaking my own heart?
What if I’m tired of the pressure of plans and scraping my heart out, of replaying old memories and telling myself I can’t want you anymore?

What if I’m tired of just okay?

What if this December, I’m just yours?

—  jasminawritespoetry, ‘December’