you know that trope in shows or movies where the evil character is in captivity and starts talking to the Heroes to try and mess with their minds, and starts analysing them going “face it you’ll never be good enough” … “you try to act tough but inside you’re broken” … and the Hero gets really rattled and upset.
well i want a scene like that where it doesn’t work
Villain: “You have a darkness inside of you. You try to hide it, but it’s there–”
Hero: “Yeah that’s the depression, there’s pills for that.”
Villain: “You try every day to make your mother proud. Even after death, it still haunts you. But she’ll never be proud of.”
Hero: “Well yeah, she was an emotionally abusive narcissist, she was never proud of anything I did, what else is new.”
Villain: “You put on a good show, but deep inside I know you don’t feel worthy.”
Hero: “I know, man, I’ve been trying to work on that in therapy.”
Like… give me characters who know they’re mentally ill and traumatised who can’t have it used against them because they’ve fully accepted it
i know there’s nothing wrong with being almost 20 and never been kissed or on a date, i know that, but god it feels awful.
even an awkward kiss or date in high school would make me feel better. hell even just having someone tell me they like me in that way. because no matter how much i tell myself it isn’t true, at the end of the day when I haven’t had ANYONE even show romantic interest in me, all i can feel is ugly and unwanted.
“Those things you said yesterday… Did you mean them?” - Renee and Allison ?? Xx
It’s one of those lazy mornings that makes Allison feel like she’s leaning on the pause button in the middle of a joke. Like the laugh track will blare back to life as soon as she leaves her room.
It’s the three of them, sleepily threading through their morning routine like a sewing needle lost in thick fabric. It’s easy to feel like she’s caught in that web when Dan and Renee are there blinking placidly and putting their hot, comforting hands on her bare shoulder. They’re so bright and they ask so much of her without even saying anything.
She’s grateful for them, but she feels like a disruption in their frequency sometimes, when they’re positive and blinding and overcoming, and Allison is not. She’s partway through her story, and sometimes she thinks she’s been that way since birth. Sometimes she thinks she’ll die before she reaches the meat of her own story.
And then there’s this thing with Renee. Like the very best days of your best friendship, replayed and replayed and replayed.
Renee folds her lean legs onto the couch beneath her and puts one hand in her own feathery hair, damaged from bleach and flushed with colour. Allison feels her own lip jut. She wants to put her hands where that cross is a protective arm slung over her neck. Her stomach twists up in the sort of brutal and beautiful bow that Renee’s clever hands would tie.
Renee turns and smiles at her, and Allison feels an ocean of feeling swallow around her heart. She was stupid to toss it at the surface and expect it to be light enough to float.
“Penny for your thoughts?” Renee says, sipping from her pebble grey mug and smiling with the corners of her eyes and her upturned nose.
“I was just thinking about practice being cancelled. I bet Kev and Neil aren’t having as much fun as we are.”
Renee hums and looks at the far wall like she can see them through it. “I’m sure they’re coping.”
“Imagine wanting to sweat for three hours more than you want to sleep,” Allison says, disgusted. “They’re freaks.”
“I can think of a few ways I’d want to sweat for three hours,” Dan announces, wandering over from the kitchen and grinning.
“Two dollars in the Matt jar,” Allison says immediately. “Freak,” she adds as an afterthought.
Dan topples into the arm chair sideways, legs flung over the arm. “I didn’t actually mention his name, damn. Maybe you should put two dollars in the Matt jar.”
“Only if I start fucking him,” she replies, just on the right side of nasty. She likes to throw the most violent way she can say something out into the room and wait for anger or laughter. It almost doesn’t make a difference which one she gets.
“Please don’t,” Renee says airily, and Allison looks at her sideways.
Min Yoongi stared at me long and hard when he saw me in my Sope tracksuit and Sope banner and also JRE just passed by me outside and also stared and just went “Sope!” And at the end when they were about to leave he stage and also Taehyung was walking away from the stage but then ran back because he forgot his phone on the stage lmaoooo
and Jin was playing around with Jungkook and he pulled Jungkook’s hood over his head and HOBI TOTALLY HOED OUT AND WAS JUST FEELING HIMSELF IN A FLANNEL AND A BEANIE AND SHADES AND NAMJOON WAS ALSO IN SHADES AND JIN HAD THE DANGLING EARRING AND JIMIN WAS BASICALLY IN THE OUTFIT FROM THE BAEPSAE PRACTICE OKAY I GOTTA CALM DOWN… I’m calm, I’m calm
Okay they did Dope, Save Me, and Baepsae and for the first two they didn’t really do the choreo but they did for Bapsae and oh my god. I don’t know. How are they real. How.
For the songs they didn’t do the choreo to, Hobi was totally feeling himself and hE CAN MOVE. And they were all bare faced and they’re beautiful I’m kinda floating on a cloud right now byeeeeeee.
(Also I totally spotted @taetaetown a row or two behind me but I was too shy to say anything hahaha)
Also they all look so hot drinking water byeeeeeeeeee.
The only sad thing is I lost my Sope banner so someone better pick it up and put it to good use (jkjkjk). (Plus I got so many free banners so it’s fine)
back at it again with the lazytown ukulele covers - this time it’s lazy scouts! again, i figured out the chords by ear, and i’m sorry this is so embarrassingly short… Tumblr wouldn’t let me upload a longer one from my mobile. (also sorry for my gross face)
"Hi! Nice to see another Ampharos around. My name's Fugue, what's yours?" Fugue asks, grinning. He's holding a deck of cards and wondering if this other Ampharos wants to play with him! @sometimesampharos