i want it to work out

Um, yes hello if anyone wants to give me some soft serve icecream with rainbow sprinkles…and like maybe all the money in their wallet or something I wouldn’t oppose.😊✨

it’s almost 9pm here aND OHH BOY WAS TODAY A LONG DAY 

me: [is noticeably shaking]
person:  hey- are you, uh, alright?
me: hmm?  Oh! Yeah! I’m fine! A-okay, everything’s going fine nothing to see here!
person:
me:  how are you?

so we had our sixth performance of our play today and my director was in the audience again (he doesn’t come to every show but he tries to when he can) and afterwards he congratulated me on a really good performance and told me he actually wants me to audition for his next play!!! i don’t know anything about it yet but its just so nice to know he wants to work with me again and that my performance impressed him so much. 

also we had a bunch of professional hairdressers in the audience and they came up to me afterwards to ask if i am actual hairdresser because i looked so convincing on stage! success!

anyway that’s six out of ten shows down and now i had three days to rest before our final few shows so hopefully i have time to write a bit while i relax! :

anonymous asked:

Hello! I was wondering if you wrote things for Haruka as well. If so, could I have a scenario where she's having a panic attack over the amount of work and pressure that's on her shoulders and it's up to the members of STARISH and Tomochika to help her out?

Smile- Part 1

(parenthesis)=thoughts
bold text =actions
italics =dialogues


Haruka: (Its not finishing….no matter how much I work…I’m getting worried now…what should I do..) shakes head I have to finish it now!

–An hour passes–

Haruka: As I thought…its too much! If I don’t finish by the deadline, the President wouldn’t appreciate it. (Stupid Haruka! Why do you always take more than you can? But I can’t help myself…I want to be of as much as help possible.)
Haruka: feels chest tighten and tears well up her eyes (Oh dear…I’m crying…I shouldn’t but..) tears stream down her cheeks and she rubs her eyes, sobbing quietly, her breathing uneven It just…won’t end…I don’t know what to do..
Tomochika: opens door Harukaaaaa~! Woah are you alright?! runs to her side and immediately pulls her into a hug Try to breath Haruka…Shhh I’m here with you…tell me whats wrong her eyes waver, obviously worried
Haruka: gu.. hiccups Tomo-chan…Its not finishing…I…
Tomochika: (Ah, she’s still been working…) Deep breaths!
Haruka: tries to breathe Tomo-chan..the deadline is tomorrow..I’m really worried that I can’t… feels chest tighten and tears in her eyes again
Tomochika: Will you do something for me Haruka?
Haruka: nods
Tomochika: Lie down there for me. Close your eyes and just rest. I will be back in a few minutes! leads her to the cot and pulls the blanket over her
Haruka: Where are you going Tomo-chan?? sits up
Tomochika: rests her palms on Haruka’s shoulder and makes her lie down again Give me fifteen minutes!
Haruka: But…! I need to write the song!!
Tomochika: Please lie down for fifteen minutes. For me, Haruka looks pleadingly at her
Haruka: worry fills her eyes but she nods, resigned Alright Tomo-chan pulls her covers and closes her eyes, exhaling a shaky breath


–At the main room–

Tokiya: So she’s been overworking herself. his gaze shifts downwards
Otoya: stands up I knew something was off! She looked so tired when I saw her for breakfast!
Masato: She had her breakfast late? eyes widen with concern
Tomochika: She had her breakfast after I forced her out of the room. sighs Its just that inspiration isn’t striking her
Ren: Yare yare, don’t you all think we should do something for the little lamb? leans back and eyes his teammates At this rate, she’ll collapse any time soon. The last time she worked too much, she ended up with a fever
Syo: yeah….but what do we do…?
Natsuki: I know!!! beams cheerfully

–They all look at him hopefully–

Natsuki: I’ll bake a cake for Haru-chan!! claps hands excitedly
Syo: HELL NO
Natsuki: Eh??? Why not Syo-chan??
Syo: WE WANT NANAMI TO SMILE NOT LAND IN A HOSPITAL DUMBO!
Natsuki: looks down ….
Syo: (shit was I too rude?)
Otoya: Natsuki?
Natsuki: jumps onto Syo and catches him in a tight hug You are adorable when angry Syo-chan!!!!! rubs his cheeks against Syo’s
Syo: IYAAA LET GO OF MEEEE
Masato: Cooking is not a bad idea
Tokiya: yes but she had her breakfast late Hijirikawa-san. I’d rather not compromise on her nutrition.
Ren: smirks wolfishly Maybe I know just how to help her~
Masato: Definitely not.
Otoya: Wahh Natsuki!!! Syo’s dying!! He’s dying!!
Ren: sighs you sure know just how to ruin the mood Hijirikawa
Tomochika: claps ATTENTION GUYS!

–The room turns their gaze to Tomo–

Tomochika: clears throat I think I know just how to make her feel better! You all will help, right?
Tokiya: Of course, Shibuya-san
Masato: nods
Otoya: Definitely! Tell us what we should do! looks hopefully at her
Ren: Anything for the little lamb shrugs with a lazy smile
Natsuki: Haiiii! We’re ready~
Syo: raises his hand in a thumbs up as he lies on the floor gu…
Tomochika: smiles That’s the spirit! Now here’s the plan-


I have planned a part 2 for this! Send an ask for it and I shall give you part 2!

creative work is so tough but i’m very excited to try to get back into it again and really try to figure out what works best with my mind so i can finally get what i want into reality

She’s the betta half of the two

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and you call yourself a spy Natasha

anonymous asked:

Hi, 7goodangel. I am here to ask you about PaperJam as a shy, smol and innocent being (mainly thegreatrouge made him be). There has been some conflicts regarding his trait. Some said his canonical personality is a jerk, like what you wrote in his bio / info and some said that is severely wrong and being shy, (which made him shipped with Fresh), is his canonical personality. What are your thoughts about this? I mean, it is your character and people are taking control of it. Don't you disagree?

Well… I have talked to people and seen public conversations and this has happened several times to me over months. I guess I’ve gotten a little numb to it now… or maybe it’s due to school that I haven’t given it the attention that it deserves. Probably due to school. 

I just can’t update constantly like others - even though some others in school were and are able to update constantly. I can’t keep going around and holding up my bio of PJ and police people. It’s exhausting to me… it really takes up the small bit of free time I have. 

I think after I get a solid job that I’ll be able to go around better… but anyway - back to your question. 


While I love seeing interpretations and do not want people to be limited by something and have their imaginations go forth… it’s proving that a huge con comes with that mentality - which you have pointed out. A lot of people swear that PJ is the cute, innocent interpretation that really, did get PJ popular in the first place. While I did have him as a jerk from the beginning - I kinda kept that info to my RP blog - so you could say it is my fault this is all happening and I do think that. I could of done something to make it not as bad as it is now… 

It’s just like the NSFW stuff… people just assume the first thing and run with it. And it really does make me feel like I really am not needed for my own character at points. 

It’s a struggle - I don’t want to have people stop interpreting PJ within AUs… but I also don’t want people to just see him as an innocent child to ship with Fresh. 

And I’m still trying to find the best solution to it. 

But… I feel like the damage is already done. It’s too late for me to talk to all of these people going around swearing on their life that PJ is canoncally like Rouge’s interpretation/AUs. It feels like an hopeless battle to me. 

And I guess I needed someone to ask me this question so then I can fully say my thoughts on this. 

So in short, while I love creativity and don’t want to snuff it out (considering some people would probably think I’m doing that already with saying “No Sin”), I still don’t like it. It irritates me, irks me, frustrates me, and I feel like even as the person who thought of PJ in the first place, my voice isn’t enough. Communities seem like they don’t care about artists unless they reach a ‘certain goal of popularity’ or seem like they have a more professional style of art. I know I do not reach either of those titles. 

People misspell my username all the time - I actually claimed ‘7goodangle’ on tumblr for that reason.

People still say “I’m too lazy to find who made PJ” when they clearly mentioned they looked at the bio on the wiki. 

People still go around arguing others on the canon ship of OmniPJ and swearing that FreshPaper is the true canon ship, when all people are pointing out is that they need to keep the canon ship in mind when going around with information.

Even just basic personality traits… and these things are happening on sites that I do not nor want an account for. 

I still want others to have fun - to be happy; but I don’t know… I guess I’m cutting out my own happiness to get everyone else happy? I want to eventually write a version of PJ within his own universe and story… and he is more like the version I created within the UT verse. Not exact - but close. Though who knows… I might shove PJ to the side and replace his role with another character. I’m still weighing options.

Cause PJ was the first character I ever put this much time and thought into… my first character that was balanced, well rounded…

And what happens?

…well.

You said it Anon. 

They took it - changed it (initially as an AU but now people think it’s canon) - and I can’t do much about it. Due to school and not much free-time… due to how many don’t know the true creator… and just back talking anyone who is just mentioning it to people who swear by it. 

As an artist and a character designer…

It makes me not want to show designs, characters, and stories ever again online.

Considering if this is how I was treated on the first one… why even take a chance at a second one? If it has brought me so much stress, frustration, and time… why even try it again?

I said I was only going to do fanart so if anyone stole it, it didn’t really matter. 
I think I should have stuck with that thought process. 

In conclusion, there are some major things to take away here. First – that yes, I do not like how it has skewed this far to the point of arguing over a fandom version with the canon. Canon is canon and I get the different AUs – this is too far. Way too far. I am emotionally drained from this – from this whole mess that I have been defending throughout majority of PJ’s lifespan. I will state this – Paper Jam is my character. He is my original character that I created more than a year ago. And the UT AU fandom took my character and warped him to something he is not and all of his original meaning is lost. I do not like to hurt others or make other sad – but I must put my foot fully down. This miscommunication needs to stop. I am tired of repeating things over and over and I have past my breaking point time and time again. I just want people to see PJ how he really is… and I wish that people could be focusing more on the reality of him instead of the alternate that they all claim as truth.

Final words: I still like Undertale – I still like creating characters and having fun – but the Undertale AU fandom is ridiculous now. The Amino UT community is insanity in an app, and there is a lot of stuff that has made many artists and creators to their breaking point and leaving the fandom entirely. Everyone in this fandom needs to take ten steps back and look at what they are doing. Go back to the game. Play it again – watch your favorite let’s player’s videos of it again. 

And just… food for thought… please don’t jump the gun on someone else’s OC’s personality and actions. 

I do not want anyone to experience what I had.

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Melanie Martinez + Songs titles.

I was as pure as a river
But now I think I’m possessed

Another commission for @wedomorrison for Golden Grain and Bird Bone, that’s also now doubling as Reaper76Week Day 3. Enjoy laddies~

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He’s weak for the most ridiculous stuff and they 100% know and take full advantage of it