Looking and Seeing
On their wedding night, Claire says to Jamie, “I want to look at you.”
For she wants to prove she is all in. That she is accepting the gift Jamie gives her in his body, in his protection. In the pleasure they can make together.
In Boston, Frank says, “Look at me, Claire…”
For he wants her to acknowledge him with her eyes.
In the cave, Mary says, “You can look at me, if you’d like…”
For she wants him to feel tenderness - for him to enjoy the simple pleasure of her body.
In Edinburgh, Jamie says to Claire, “You are the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.”
Proving to her that her insecurities are for naught. For she knows that he means inside and out.
She begins to hope. That twenty years of longing will be fulfilled.
So she is emboldened to say to Jamie, “I want to see you.”
Because “looking,” while nice - and essential to enjoy physical intimacy - is no longer enough for them.
They want - need - to SEE each other. To look upon their bodies, yes - but more importantly, to see into each other’s heart and mind and soul.
Knowing that if they don’t find themselves within each other, all is truly lost.
But they look –
– and see –