i want a body like hers

Looking and Seeing

On their wedding night, Claire says to Jamie, “I want to look at you.”

For she wants to prove she is all in. That she is accepting the gift Jamie gives her in his body, in his protection. In the pleasure they can make together.

In Boston, Frank says, “Look at me, Claire…”

For he wants her to acknowledge him with her eyes.

In the cave, Mary says, “You can look at me, if you’d like…”

For she wants him to feel tenderness - for him to enjoy the simple pleasure of her body.

In Edinburgh, Jamie says to Claire, “You are the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.”

Proving to her that her insecurities are for naught. For she knows that he means inside and out.

She begins to hope. That twenty years of longing will be fulfilled.

So she is emboldened to say to Jamie, “I want to see you.”

Because “looking,” while nice - and essential to enjoy physical intimacy - is no longer enough for them.

They want - need - to SEE each other. To look upon their bodies, yes - but more importantly, to see into each other’s heart and mind and soul.

Knowing that if they don’t find themselves within each other, all is truly lost.

But they look –

– and see –

and find.

whats this?? a finished artwork???

I wanted to practice drawing full bodies again and proportions bc I’ve noticed recently that once I finish the face my motivation usually drops to zero and as a result I have like… SO many abandoned WIPs. so as usual Holtzmann is my default guinea pig ^^

also she’s supposed to look like she’s dusting off her hands but I really don’t know how much it looks like that? I tried

Jillian Holtzmann © Sony, Paul Feig
Art © Aiyana-Kopa


So she took a test and it was negative

She had tried. She had really tried not to get her hopes up. It had only been a couple of months since they started trying, so it was totally reasonable for her not to be pregnant yet; she knew that. But seeing that little minus sign on the test shattered her heart. She hadn’t realised how badly she wanted a baby until now. But she really did want a baby. Subconsciously, she had been hoping, praying, for a positive result and all that hope had just been destroyed in an instant when she saw that negative test sign.

She felt like she had lost something, even though that something was never there. She felt this emptiness; her body had played a trick on her, giving her all this false hope about a pregnancy that wasn’t real. She felt stupid being upset about this. She felt stupid for believing she was pregnant. She thought to herself;

”How could I be so naive? To think a bit of nausea meant I was pregnant? This is so pathetic; come on now, pull yourself together. It’s going to be okay.”

But despite her trying convince herself she had no reason to be upset, the disappointment of it all hit her hard; she just wanted to curl up and go to bed. Tears started to flood down her cheeks and she walked towards the bedroom. She didn’t need Avery seeing her upset, especially for something so silly. She just needed to lie down, and move on. She will get pregnant eventually, these things take time.

thinking more about horror, i want to write a screenplay for a horror film that makes visceral, immediate, and clear the physical suffering and contortions of the body that cis people put trans women through. i wrote about this before as an incomplete story about a hopeful, young trans woman who is driven to extremes of deprivation and self-harm, this whole series of events is set in motion in response to comments like her cis roommate bringing up the supposedly masculine way she sneezes. it’s the kind of thing we find everywhere. like just the other week when my partner’s cis women friends came over - how nice they were until i was in the same room and they heard my voice; the strange way they looked at me then and how i felt the air change - how when i retreated to another room it felt as if they could have said, ‘she’s so cute, but when are you getting her voice fixed?’ i think there’s something there to be explored in a trans women written/directed film, esp looking at things like voice training (a hell of a fucking euphemism) which we we’re supposed to see as a positive thing, as a kind of improvement or a skill, when it’s probably as much of a skill as being able to starve yourself. the tension between this thing that supposedly makes us more free and the fact of the violence it does to our bodies and minds.



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anonymous asked:

do you think sasuke always had feelings for sakura? when do you think he develop feelings for her?

I believe, Sasuke considered her a valuable friend and comrade prior to leaving the village for revenge’s sake or more like, prior to chapter 699. He started considering her “precious” to him ever since the Land of waves arc, when he found Sakura crying over his apparently dead body. Although his feelings for her weren’t romantic yet.

He knew about Sakura’s feelings for him and even though he wanted to cherish those feelings and have a bright future with Naruto and Sakura, like he himself states that he started to see team 7 as his family, he could not do so because of revenge. Even when he left in chapter 181 and thanked her, it was only because he was grateful to her for loving him and he respected the feelings she had for him at that point. And even when he thanked her in 699 again, it was again because he was grateful to her for not giving up on him and wanting to save him from the darkness even when he pushed her away and tried to harm her many times. But then he poked her forehead, which is a symbol of his genuine affection for her, a gesture which signified his bond with her and the fact he didn’t see her as some mere comrade and friend anymore, which he realized after his final fight with naruto and when he was finally rescued from darkness. But it wasn’t entirely romantic at that point either since we see both Sasuke and Sakura sharing the forehead poke with Sarada in gaiden so I’d say, it symbolizes honest, deep affection which isn’t exactly romantic.

I believe that in order to start all over and be able to love once again, Sasuke needed to see things clearly, he needed to redeem. So I think, when he started to develop entirely romantic feelings for her was after leaving for his journey of redemption, the distance between them at that point made him realize the nature of his feelings for her, which were indeed romantic, and then he returned and they travelled together and that was when, I think, he answered her feelings. And we all know how things ended afterwards.

anonymous asked:

Whatchu got to show on the overwatch fantasy au?!?


widow, and mercy(s) concept ( mercy and grace are some sort o fallen angels which adapt to earth by saying they’re sibilings + cant show heir eyes  and widow is a spider woman who hides her extra eyes with her bangs when she has to interact with?? beings considered normality )

and here we got lucio hanzo and genji doodles ( hanzo & genji r like. the two Big Dragons of the place the au is placed in and like they can shapshift to human when they want and hey autmaticaaly shifthn they suffer major wounds & when theylose skin/limbs/etc as humas it grows back scaley hence hanzos arm and like 75% of genjis body ; lucio is a faun he makes healing music )

i more or less have everyones species marked down but this is the art up 4 now

bonus: current territory map

anonymous asked:

How would Liechtenstein react to her S/O comforting about being flat chested and telling her that she doesn’t need big boobs to be attractive? I’ve always saw her being flat chested even as grown woman and I love flat chested girls. I’m a guy, but keep the s/o gender neutral.

We always keep our s/o’s gender neutral! We want everyone to be able to enjoy our stuff, boy, girl and everyone in-between <3. This is also super sweet, so I’ll have this out for you asap! I hope you like it!~Admin Sarah.

“I’m ready to go..”
Lily sighed quietly as she looked over her body one last time in the mirror. She didn’t have much of..well..anything. Though, at least her dress was pretty. As soon as her lover came in behind her, she gave they a small smile, but it was obvious that she was still nervous.
“Lily?..What’s wrong?..”
“It’s..it’s nothing.”
“You’re not telling me the truth.”
“It’s just that I-”
“You don’t have a big chest?..Is that it?..Again?”
With a quiet sigh, Lily looks down, her hands in front of her as she slowly nods, but her head was soon lifted by her lovers hand, their eyes connecting for a moment before a gentle kiss was planted on her lips.
“Lily, I don’t care if you don’t have a big chest or not..I love you the way you are..because you do or don’t have something doesn’t change how I see you..You’re still sweet and beautiful.”
A quiet gasp is heard from her as she slightly shakes but sniffles, her eyes tearing up as she looks up at her lover.
“You think so?..”
“Yeah, I do..”
With a small smile, she throws her arms around her lover and hugs them tightly, small tears sliding down her cheeks as she gently kisses their cheeks. 
“I love you..”
“I love you, too.”

omgitsshrimp  asked:

It bothered me too when Betty blackmailed Cheryl. Considering what Cheryl has been through I don't think it's crazy for her to hold some animosity toward FP. I wouldn't like the person who covered up my brother's murder and dumped his body in the river either! And Betty sort of implied at dinner that it was irrational for Cheryl to feel this way wasn't really fair to me. I do think 20 yrs is a too much, but he should face some consequence. FP is a great character n I want him to stick around.

I don’t know if 20 years is too much. We see the story from Jughead’s perspective. It’s possible he didn’t just do the cleanup but also the setup and kidnapping, which he copped to when confessing. That’s accomplice to murder, and 20 is about right for that. 

What Betty did was wrong. I noticed at Pops, when Jughead gave her the USB drive, Cheryl only looked at him. She didn’t do it for Betty, she did it for Jughead, probably cause she knows what it’s like to lose your father forever. Betty fucking terrified her. She acted impressed but you could see how scared she was. 

Cheryl is who she is cause of how she was raised. It’s something she can grow out of. She can become a good person. Betty…has been faking being a good person her whole life. She’s a sociopath and if that wasn’t clear with Chuck, it is clear as hell now. 

eddeha  asked:

Mark kills himself because Mark's occult powers are too OP and he can do shit from beyond. Takes Damien and Celene and traps them to get back at Colonel, as well as framing him, and also takes Damien's body because Damien sided with Colonel a lot. So Celene uses her powers to bring you back with Damien, then Damien (since he's in your body and only needed you to be revived) kicks you out into the mirror. The blue glow of Dark represents Damien's spirit, red is Celene's residual power.

I was thinking that too!!
But like, Mark probably killed himself after he heard about the affair and his angry spirit wanted revenge

my mom stopped by for like 10 minutes last night because my family was having a party nearby and she managed to make me feel bad about my body and how i looked before id even seen her for a fucking minute lol. i wish there was a way to make her treat me better without having to starve or nearly kill myself but fuck it starving myself only made her angry at me so whatever. who cares. im only going to get fatter and uglier and lonelier as i get older and its going to prove her point more so who cares.

ask-sparks-market  asked:

📐((for whoever you want-))

Send “📐” and I’ll redesign your muse in my style 

(Here’s Sofee redesign! I didn’t change the outfit too much but i did make a few edits on her physical body. Like making her hands look like robotic fingerless gloves, there’s a bit of shading of course, and her eyes changed a bit. The other edits are mostly making her closer to my style’s proportions. She was real fun to work with!)

anonymous asked:

I’m now started dating a girl and I don’t know if I’m ready. I feel very awkward. She knowns I’m trans but I feel like I’m not ready. I feel so uncomfortable that I don’t want any sexual things. I don’t want to break up but I feel like I have to wait for myself to be ok with my body first before I start a serious relationship. What do I do?

Tell her. Honesty isn’t just the best way out, it’s also the only way out where neither or you get hurt. Just tell her what’s going on and go from there.

- Michael

“I love Rouge she’s my fave”

“But her design is just awful, sexualization much?”

WKM - What happened?

I’m going to cover all of this mess in this post. It’s just what I think could be the truly amazing story behind this amazing video series. 

There are LOTS of questions in my own head and I’m gonna try answering (hopefully) most of them! Here we go!


The biggest question raised is, obviously, who killed Markiplier? From what we could gather throughout the series, demons are likely to exist in this scenario.

Even the newspaper gives a hint that the mayor might have been a “demon in disguise”. So there are spiritual, supernatural things happening here. I, for one, can not answer the biggest question out of all, how he died and who he was killed by. I can only make one assumption; here’s my theory.

We know that Mark’s body went missing at some point. Where exactly is never shown or hinted at, but I have a likely theory that Mark himself was the one to hide his own body in form of his spirit. Or just, behind all that was happening in general. However, what we do know is that Mark, I quote (Damien): “(He) trapped us here in this broken shell and we had no way out.” 

It seems established that, during the time we were outside to talk to the gardener, Damien and Celine tried to reach out to Mark(’s ghost), hence she wanted to “talk to the dead”. During that time, Mark took the chance to inhabit Damien’s body and trap him inside his own, dead shell that could not be used anymore. Whilst doing so he either accidentally killed Celine by possessing her first, her not being able to hold the soul inside her body, OR Celine did not die and let Damien inside her body to save him from being thrown into the corpse, which would explain why she was red and blue in the end sequence of Chapter 3. She also appears to be having two pairs of eyes above her head at one point. Possibly a hint that she’s two in one at that point?

Either way, we know that Damien represents BLUE and Celine represents RED thanks to the ending of Chapter 4:

Which is why it could very well be that She kept Damien’s soul inside her body for a short while to save his life. And of course Damien was PISSED after that, betrayed by whom he cared for, who he fought Will for and whom he thought was a good, a childhood friend he could trust. That’s for the angry step towards us, the angry stare. He looks at us, knowingly. He chooses his victim that very moment.

We are told to run. The door closes and Celine does not come out. Her shell possibly broke and both souls were set free without a shell, or she kept it up and waited for the right moment to talk to us. 

The right moment being the time Will shot us.

And here is the thing; We did NOT die. If you listen closely, you can hear a faint heartbeat in the background during this very scene. They both tell you to believe them, tell you stories to make you feel sorry for them. Which, of course, you do. Damien seems pissed and loses his temper once more, like he did with the Colonel before, and shouts angrily that Mark walks around in his body. Which is why I think that part is true. He couldn’t take his anger in. He can’t, he has a low temper, that’s just it.

But Celine reminds him that he “can’t do this right now”. Reminds us to believe them. What you’re told is that Mark trapped both of them inside his old, dead body and that they brought you there so you have a chance to survive. Damien tells you that you can’t survive on your own and Celine says she can bring you back the same way she brought you there. But what Damien says afterwards is the most important clue.

He says: “But you can’t survive on your own. You’re .. dead, after all. (…) I know this all sounds crazy. Honestly, I don’t know what the fuck is going on. But I know that I trust Celine. And if you trust us … let me in. We can fix this.”

Gathered: Damien lies to you after all this time of actually being genuine. He was betrayed by Mark, knows that you trust him, wants revenge and is angry. He lures you into a false sense of security, tells you you can fix this together. He makes you feel like a friend by telling you that he feels the same way about all of this. And then, he mentions that oh so beloved trust of his. That one thing he completely lost thanks to Mark. 

Also important to note; It is ONLY DAMIEN that inhabits your body after all of this. Why is that?
Celine states that she can send “you” back, not “us”. She says “you” have a choice. And Damien ends his sentence with “let me in.” Not let us in.

You trust Damien and he tells you that it will work, he promises.

And it does work! You wake up in your own body, get up, meet the Colonel who is completely out of it by now.

He does not recognize us as a “Dark” or “Damien” because we don’t look like Damien yet and Dark doesn’t exist yet either. Damien, at this point, is inside our body and trying to take over. 

We listen to what Will says and see him, in desperation and utter confusion, try to find his dear friends he lost.

Once he’s away, only THEN do we walk over to the mirror. And here is where it gets interesting.

We take Damien’s cane: Take a look at the hands.

A thin, female and young looking hand (possibly Amy wee i love her), but then something happens.

The hand changes, transforms into a different one. Into a hand similar to Damien’s. Because Damien is inhabiting your body by himself. Celine is likely still in Mark’s body or, as I mentioned earlier, never died to begin with. It’s Damien who was so fed up, he had to use you to get what he wants. And he gets it alright:

A body. A shell to use as a puppet. He transformed your body into a copy of his own. Mark likely still uses actual Damien’s body, but Damien had to make you look like him to finish this with you. 

Then this happens.

And sad music plays in the background all throughout this scene and it broke my heart - but why did it break my heart? Because that right there is a representation of broken trust, my friends. Damien threw us out of the body he stole from us and trapped us either behind our screens or in that mirror (hence the weird noise light inside the crack). He used us. He manipulated us. We were his first victim.

And he feels bad about it at first. Note how Dark’s look changes after he throws us out? Because now we can see what he truly is; a broken man. He had so much trust in Mark, in us. He was a genuine, good and kind hearted man. He neglected his other friends for Mark only to then find himself betrayed by Mark or whatever he had unleashed that day. He is troubled, his emotions are a whirlwind and all the while he has to keep his anger inside. After all, Damien has a short and low temper. Guilty about what happened, he looks up at you.

Reminds himself that he has a goal now; take revenge. Looks at you now with almost disgust to make you feel even worse. This is a reflection of his own emotions that very moment. We are supposed to feel exactly what Damien felt. Betrayal, fear, loneliness. An end. The mirror itself is a genius metaphor for this.

He then leaves us. Clearly guided by rage and hatred and you can FEEL that, I get goosebumps just thinking about this. (@markiplier frickin amazing acting, dude!) Anyway, here he makes up his mind to take back control over what is rightfully his. Mark; his own body.

We are then left in darkness, questioning and clueless, sad and quite literally broken. 

Dark’s origin, ladies and gentlemen.

(just my take on this. It’s probably, like, super wrong lmao also sorry for the long post ilyall)


Daisy Johnson in Agents of SHIELD: ‘Farewell, Cruel World!’

  • Me: It's okay to be unsure of your gender/sexuality!!1! It's totally cool to be figuring yourself out!
  • Me @ me: except you bc u need to get ur stuff together and figure out what the heck u are right now immediately