this sounds like a…non problem. but i have the week off for “thanksgiving break” which is a thing here for high schools, and it’s sent me spiraling into the panic of having to fill the time between when i wake up and fall asleep. keeping myself busy is a necessity in managing my constant anxiety and *spins wheel* Neuroses Of The Day, so i’m kind of struggling without the obligation of going to work.
ALSO thanksgiving is a triggering holiday for obvious reasons. i so badly fucking wish i could eat carbs and sugar and not immediately wanna steal the bread basket and pumpkin pie and retreat to my room. it’s like…comical and sad. food is my drug!!!! and i can’t just abstain from it!!! so it’s a process in learning what i can handle and what will just make everything worse.