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I WILL NEVER FORGET HER // A Farewell Rucas Fanmix (LISTEN)

01. Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic - Sleeping At Last
Even though my life before was tragic, now I know my love for her goes on.

02. God Gave Me You - Blake Shelton
A divine conspiracy that you, an angel lovely could somehow fall for me.

03. Right Here, Right Now - High School Musical Cast
Where you are is where I should be too.

04. Shouldn’t Be A Good In Goodbye - Jason Walker
If I never had you I know that I still would’ve mourned you.

05. Anywhere But Here - SafetySuit
I’d rather be anywhere but here without you.

06. I Don’t Wanna Live Forever (Acoustic) - ZAYN
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home.

07. If I Could Fly - One Direction
If I could fly, I’d be coming right back home to you.

08. Wings - Birdy
I just wanna be by your side if these wings could fly.

09. Beside You - 5 Seconds Of Summer
My heart wants to come home. I wish I was beside you.

10. Can I Have This Dance - High School Musical Cast
Even a thousand miles can’t keep us apart ‘cause my heart is wherever you are.

11. All Of The Stars - Ed Sheeran
I can see the stars from America. I wonder, do you see them, too?

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The Rolling Stones ~ Paint It, Black

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black

I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I see a line of cars and they’re all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back

I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens every day

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door, I must have it painted black

Maybe then I’ll fade away and not have to face the facts
It’s not easy facin’ up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you

If I look hard enough into the settin’ sun
My love will laugh with me before the mornin’ comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black

I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I wanna see your face, painted black
Black as night, black as coal

I wanna see the sun flying high in the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah!

childish gambino: because the internet sentence starters
  • ❝ Who am I? ❞
  • ❝ We ain’t gotta sing the same old love song. ❞
  • ❝ And I said what I felt no re-write. ❞
  • ❝ I scorch winters, I burn autumns. ❞
  • ❝ My girl ain’t bad, she more like evil. ❞
  • ❝ Why you standing there say something. ❞
  • ❝ You only come around when you wanna play pool in my hot tub. ❞
  • ❝ Love me better, kiss me back, listen more. ❞
  • ❝ And if I’m dead to the world what you goin’ do? ❞
  • ❝ We were trying to forget there was something wrong. ❞
  • ❝ The fear that I feel man it might kill her. ❞
  • ❝ You can hang with homie on the low, but your boy sound weak like a week ago. ❞
  • ❝ Tuesday afternoon, I ain’t got shit to do but fall in love with you. ❞
  • ❝ I hope you understand now. ❞
  • ❝ If you tell me ‘turn around’ then i’m on it. ❞
  • ❝ You know how I get when I’m lonely. ❞
  • ❝ And I think about you and the moments. ❞
  • ❝ Foot on the gas, I’m just tryna pass all the red lights and the stop signs. ❞
  • ❝ I’m ready to go. ❞
  • ❝ Because I’m way to scared to call and you might get me to stay. ❞
  • ❝ And I’m nervous, truth be told I never saw me growing old. ❞
  • ❝ That’s a problem, cause I’m way to scared to fall. ❞
  • ❝ And we can do the same thing if you wanna have better. ❞
  • ❝ I was thinkin’ ‘bout me, I’d be really bad at it cause I’m thinkin’ ‘bout me. ❞
  • ❝ Yeah we could try, so let’s try. ❞
  • ❝ But you still don’t have the time to kiss me, just hit me. ❞
  • ❝ And if I left you all alone, would you still pick up the phone? ❞
  • ❝ You miss me. ❞
  • ❝ The only one I know is you, so the fuck am I supposed to do? ❞
  • ❝ Rich kid asshole, paint me as a villain. ❞
  • ❝ No matter what you say and what you do, when I’m alone I’d rather be with you. ❞
  • ❝ I’ll take that as a compliment. ❞
  • ❝ Sorry, I’m just scared of the future. ❞
  • ❝ I used to care what people thought, but now I care more I mean nobody out here’s got it figured out. ❞
  • ❝ So therefore I’ve lost all hope of a happy ending. ❞
  • ❝ I’m glad that it happened, I mean it. ❞
  • ❝ Between us, I think there’s something special and if I lose my mental just hold my hand even if you don’t understand. ❞
  • ❝ We gon’ have a party. All my friends, will be there. ❞ 
  • ❝ Get the fuck out of my house! ❞
  • ❝ Please don’t run away, I’m a murderer, what can I say? ❞
  • ❝ What’s wrong? Didn’t respond when I texted you last night, you alright? ❞
  • ❝ I had a dream I was flying over all of us. ❞
  • ❝ I fell in love again. ❞
  • ❝ Just hold me close my darling. ❞
  • ❝ I know you’ve been around. ❞
  • ❝ We used to be unspoken, now everything is broken. ❞
  • ❝ How old are you? Saying that you never date older dudes. ❞
  • ❝ That’s why I never wanna say no to you. ❞
  • ❝ Fuck it, I just wanna feel something. ❞
  • ❝ It’s a struggle to keep breathing. ❞
  • ❝ It’s a lie that you’re living. ❞
  • ❝ I watch them all pass by, the moon and stars. ❞
  • ❝ Don’t ever limit my love. ❞
  • ❝ I’m not afraid of them. ❞
  • ❝ I thought I told you ‘bout it? ❞
  • ❝ It’s crazy how the world look different. ❞
  • ❝ But as long as I look fly by prom night. ❞
  • ❝ And they say there’s no way I should stay with someone like you. ❞
  • ❝ See now I don’t wanna see an era. See now I just wanna live forever and ever. ❞
  • ❝ We were gods, nobody was above me. ❞
  • ❝ 3005, the year that we fear only God will survive. ❞
  • ❝ To be alone is alive. ❞
  • ❝ Give a fuck or give ‘em hell just not a chance to react. ❞
  • ❝ I could have stayed where I was and had the life you’d be proud of, but I’d rather chase things never thought of. ❞
  • ❝ So it seems we were mean’t to die. ❞
  • ❝ But if we fuck up on this journey at least we’re together. ❞
  • ❝ No one’s ever been this lost. ❞
  • ❝ I don’t know who I am anymore. ❞
  • ❝ Funny the day that you’re born that’s really your death sentence. ❞
  • ❝ I wanna solve the world, I think I need your help. ❞
  • ❝ How are you going to trust somebody when you don’t trust yourself? ❞

1. Save Me a Spark by Sleeping with Sirens

I want to paint down my memories
So I don’t forget
Can we dance when it’s cold outside?
Can we live with no regrets?

2. Stay Gold by First Aid Kit

What if our hard work ends in despair?
What if the road won’t take me there?
Oh, I wish, for once, we could stay gold

3. Fire by PVRIS

You’re out of line,
Buried yourself alive,
And expected to be fine.
You can’t rewind

4. Last One Standing by Simple Plan

You don’t have to say you’re sorry, save your sympathy
With a friend like you, I don’t need an enemy
I would give you time if you were worth it
But guess what: you’re not worth it

5.  Pray for You by Jaron and the Long Road to Love

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are honey, I pray for you

6. Move Along by The All-American Rejects

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

7. The Fire by Tonight Alive

Blatantly, I resisted
The change I knew I had to make
But the fire still existed
I learn from each of my mistakes

8. Hollywood by Cute is What We Aim For

I wanna get older
Don’t wanna fight my age
Now take me back to the simpler days
I wonder how it all happened

9. Tiptoe by Imagine Dragons

From your slanted view see the morning dew
Sink into the soil, watch the water boil
They won’t see me run, who can blame them?
They never look to see me fly, so I never have to lie

10. All We Do by Oh Wonder

I’ve been upside down
I don’t wanna be the right way round
Can’t find paradise on the ground

Euan Morton as Hedwig - Video?

I’m really curious about how Euan’s performance as Hedwig looks like (I mean the choreography is always the same but it is still something else when it’s a different body and voice and emotion put in it and I just wanna see him do it). BUT I don’t live in the states or anywhere near them, nor have the money to fly there and watch the show. So… what I’m asking is: Is somebody nice enough to be a sneaky person and film the perfomance and post it on YouTube or so?? Like?? Pls? I’m sooo curious and really wanna see it and I wish I could. So… My hopes are high up in the skies for somebody to record and post it, since there are also full videos of every other actor having performed Hedwig in the last few years. So maybe somebody does it by Euan’s show. I hope so.
So… pls if somebody does this. Message me maybe? Idk. Just… maybe. I’m sorry if this seems stupid or sth but I’m just so desperate…

Chapter 04

Chris

Everyone was finally here and Robin was happy. If it were up to me it’d be just us, but I had plans for our alone time in the next few days anyways. We were currently all macking by the pool listening to music, and acting a fool as always. Young Dro “Fuck Dat Bitch” was playing and a nigga was grooving.

Ty pulled out his phone recording me when I started doing the dance. I turned around and saw the girls by the pool so I did the dance all the way over there, and then pushed their asses in. Everyone was floored except them of course.

“Christopher!” Robin whined as we all cracked up.

“Yo post that my nigga” I said in between laughs to Ty.

“Already on it nigga” he said cracking up.

I opened my phone and immediately went on Instagram.

kinggoldchains:

Fuck dat bitch, Breezy style! 😂

I liked it and commented: I should’ve shoved their asses harder 😭👌

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LTiCtalY5zI

When I looked up Robin was drying off and I couldn’t help, but stare. Baby was fine. She never made me regret the wedding vows I made. She looked up at me, and blushed bright red. I chuckled because I still had the ability to get to her like that.

“When are you going to stop acting like that around me ma?” I asked walking over and wrapping my arms around her.

She leaned into my embrace and smiled “I don’t know, you still give me butterflies. Maybe I never will.”

“Yo nigga’s twerk contest in the house. Robin get your used to work the pole ass in there with India and Ashley!” Ty yelled.

Robin smirked “these hoes tryna challenge me?”

She started off toward the house, and I followed clearly interested in what was going on. Ash and Robin used to have twerk offs in front of Ty and I at the studio when we first started dating.

“Aye could you believe Indy and Ash started arguing over who could twerk the best?” Trey asked when I got inside taking a seat next to him.

I started laughing “Ashley know India better than her at that. I saw shorty when she used to work at 4 Play she got skills.”

Trey chuckled “she got more than skills bruh.”

I don’t know where Ty got a mic from, but this nigga was MCing the whole shit. They ain’t even start dancing and we were in there floored.

“AND NOW THE MOMENT WE’VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR, FOR, FOR!!! THE ONE AND ONLY BITCH I CAN TWERK THE POLE BETTER THAN YOUR ASS CONTEST, TEST, TEST!!” Ty said into mic.

My nigga I rolled off the motherfucking sofa that intro was so stupid funny. Ty dropped his joint “Hijack” and Ashley walked in first.

“First we have my wife Cream (Ashley’s old stripper name) she’s well rounded in the twerk and she’s about to show y’all how it’s done!” Ty said.

Pussy, money, weed got all that
Nigga talk shit get your head cracked
Riding with the racks, thang on my lap
Steal your bitch, call it hijack
Hijack, hijack

Pussy, money, weed got all that
Nigga talk shit get your head cracked
Steal your bitch, call it hijack
Hijack, hijack
Steal your bitch, call it hijack
Hijack, hijack
Pussy, money, weed got all that

The best dropped and Ash got to work. Trey and I pulled out some dollar bills and started throwing them for the hype affect. She bent her hips and started moving nothing but her ass to the beat.

"Damn the rest got competition I see” Trey joked.

“Keep those dollars following gentleman if you could afford to put in that work then you could afford to pay for the twerk!” Ty chimed in as Ash did her thing.

“Y’all lucky I got this baby in my stomach I would show these bitches up” Mercedeh chimed in.

Trey, August, and I busted up laughing because the last thing Mercedeh could’ve done was twerk. She mugged us and crossed her arms making Trey and I crack up even more. August tried to console her, but she pushed his ass away quick.

“Man get them preggo hormones out of here you know you can’t twerk, shut up and watch a real woman do it” Trey said as Ashley walked off and India walked in.

“Now, she’s small but she’s full of surprises fellas here’s Spanish Fly (India’s old stripper name)” Ty introduced as Travis Porter’s “Make It Rain” dropped.

You wanna see some ass
I wanna see sum cash
Keep dem dollars comin
And das gonna make me dance
And das gonna make me dance
And das gonna make me dance
Make it rain trick make it make it rain trick
Make it rain trick make it make it rain trick
Make it rain trick make it make it rain trick
Make it rain trick make it make it rain trick

She turned around, and sat on the floor spreading her legs in a split then moving her cheeks to the beat. This nigga Trey pulled out a wad of money and started making it rain.

“Pussy whipped ass” August said making me chuckle.

I still kind of didn’t like his ass because of how far he got with my girl. I was giving him a chance though because he seemed to be very infatuated in her sister. He better be because I’ll bust his ass. India was fucking it up she definitely had the upper hand with Ashley. Nigga Ty looked like he was having flashbacks. The song ended, and I rubbed my hands together because it was Rob’s turn.

“Alright last but not Coco (Robin’s old stripper name) She bout to do it for ya!” Ty said making us all laugh at his goofy ass.

She came in and Rihanna’s “Pour It Up” dropped.

Throw it up, throw it up
Watch it all fall out
Pour it up, pour it up
That’s how we ball out
Throw it up, throw it up
Watch it all fall out
Pour it up, pour it up
That’s how we ball out

Strip clubs and dollar bills
I still got my money
Patron shots can I get a refill?
I still got my money
Strippers goin’ up and down that pole
And I still got my money
Four o’clock and we ain’t going home
Cause I still got my money
Money make the world go round
I still got my money
Benz make your girl go down
I still got my money
Lot more where that came from
I still got my money
The look in yo eyes I know you want some
I still got my money

She zeroed in on her target which was me and winked as she slowly moved to the beat. She turned around and twerked her hips into a full split. She got back up, and walked over to me and bent over right in front of me letting it all hang out. I was putting money in ever nook and cranny of her bikini.

When the song came to an end she straddled my lap, and I grabbed her crashing my lips onto hers. A nigga almost forgot there were other ppl in the room I was in such a daze.

"AYEE CUT THAT NASTY SHIT OUT!! NOW THE MOMENT YOU’VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR THE WINNER!!!” Ty said dramatic as hell into the mic .

Robin smacked her lips making me laugh. We all got quiet watching to see what this fool was going to say next.

“Hurry up and let these bitches know I won baby” Ashley said kissing Ty on the cheek.

He looked at her and smirked “I will gimme a minute. AIGHT AND THE WINNER IS Robin the fuck y’all thought y’all can’t twerk better than her!”

Ashley slapped this nigga behind his head so hard we all fell out laughing “yo watch your hands my nigga!”

“We gone see if I can twerk tonight when you want some pussy” Ashley said walking off.

“Baby wait!!!” Ty yelled running after her.

We were floored. These niggas always going at it. This trip seems to be going well.

Robin

I was in the kitchen cleaning up the dishes. The girls, and I made all the guys favorites and they were beyond happy. I so busy singing along, and dancing to the music on the radio that I hadn’t seen Chris watching me. I jumped and broke a dish in the process when I saw his tall frame leaning on the fridge.

“Shit baby you scared me” I said bending down to clean up the mess.

“I’m sorry, let me help you.” He said grabbing the broom.

“How long were you standing there?” I asked as I finished up the last dish and wiped the counter.

“A while, I like watching you be you sometimes.” He said smiling like the creep he is.

“Your such a damn creep you know that?” I asked laughing and shaking my head.

He chuckled and walked towards me kissing my forehead “did you decide what your going to do?”

I sighed “no.”

For the last couple months Chris has been trying to convince me to forgive Kevin. To be honest I don’t trust him, and I feel as though he always around. I haven’t said anything to Chris, but I always see this black Range Rover following me. I would like to believe I’m insane though because a lot of people in LA have that SUV.

“Robin Hood, at some point you gotta let the bullshit go. You tend to bring your past fears into our marriage a lot.” He said stating the obvious.

“You know not all my fears stem from Kevin. I’m sorry if I went through a lot of shit. Don’t start with me Christopher!” I said getting agitated.

“Relax I’m just saying you can’t keep treating your nigga like he’s going to pull an antic of the last fool. I love your ass stop being insecure” He said clenching his jaw.

I looked up at him enraged “insecure? Chris kiss my ass. I try very hard to be all you need, be a mother, take care of the daily grind, and all while trying to worry about me. I know you love me, but I gotta deal with my shit in my own way!”

“Nah you married now your fucked up attitude doesn’t only affect you anymore! All this pretending you don’t have shit to face ain’t rocking with me!” He said grabbing my chin.

I pushed him away “ok fine since my fucked up attitude bothers you so much we don’t have to be together. It ain’t all about your ass.”

I smacked my teeth and walked off upstairs into our bedroom. I couldn’t believe he was really throwing that shit in my face. I’m trying so hard, so very hard to change, but I’m broken. Yes I have a family I love, but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m fragile. I always feel like at some point like all the other times it’ll all be ripped away from me.

Chris walked into the room closing the door behind him. He walked up to me and grabbed me. I looked down because I couldn’t look him in the eye. I was putty in his hands, and times like this is when I hated it the most.

“Aye, I didn’t mean to come off as selfish. I see everything you do, and I’m happy you do it. I just want you to try, and let go so we can be truly happy together.” He said lifting my head to kiss my lips.

“Stop, stop making me feel unworthy only to try and take it back after. Chris this isn’t fair. I always feel like you don’t get it, and I don’t know how much more I need to spell it out.” I said tears welling up in my eyes.

“Don’t cry. I get it, I do. But just because I get it doesn’t mean it’s right. Look we both have demons we are fighting. I just want to make sure your okay. I cannot live without you, and if you aren’t you I don’t know how I’d cope.” He said pulling my body into his.

“I’m sorry” I said holding him tight.

“Stop apologizing to me all the time. It’s not your fault I need you to realize that shit and fast.”

I looked up into his brown irises and as always felt like I was on a cloud. I hate him so much for making me love him like this. It was like he became an organ in my body that I needed for survival.

“I’ll forgive him I really will, I just hope I don’t end up regretting it” I said falling from his embrace and climbing into bed.

“You won’t, trust me” he said following pursuit.

I wrapped my leg around his waist and he held me close. I was still mad at him, but I couldn’t help the fact that I wanted him. Yeah I know I’m a weak bitch. I caressed his right cheek before gently colliding my lips with his.

“Your gonna keep fucking with me, and end up pregnant” he grunted against my lips.

I moaned when he grabbed my ass “let’s keep practicing until then.”

He rolled over on top of me, and began to make love to me. Our issues could wait until we got back to LA. Right now I needed this, I needed him.