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Sam Winchester x Reader

1450 Words

Written for @impala-dreamer and her one prompt for all Sam challenge. The prompt was:  “I promise, I won’t let go.”

As long as you had known Sam, you dreamed of him, and of the life the two of you could never have together. Everything from the white picket fence, to the boring desk job before you would come home to his dazzling smile. Never once did you tell him, knowing he would give you that soft smile of his, saying something to take away the awkwardness of the moment. So, you kept the wonderful dreams to yourself, knowing they would be the only way you would ever experience a somewhat normal life.

With each hunt draining you, almost killing you once or twice, the dreams sometimes disappeared for days or weeks at a time. Often leaving you lonely, and wanting that comfort they provided. So, when you woke up one morning, with Sam’s arm wrapped tight around you, your bare chest pressed to his, you didn’t think anything of it at first. Glad to have your favorite dreams back, you cuddled as deep as you could, not wanting the dream to end. “Y/N, we need to get up.” Sam chuckled against your hair. “I need to go to work.”

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Updated F.A.Q.

1) How do you pronounce your name?

It’s pronounced the same way as Maeve, it just has an Irish spelling.

2) How long have I been drawing for?

As soon as I could hold a paintbrush I was painting. Both my parents are designers who went to art college so I was encouraged at a super young age.

3) Have you taken any art classes?

Yes, I chose art as one of my subjects all through secondary school (high school I guess is the closest thing), I also did an art class outside school for about 2-3 years but I eventually grew out of it and just wanted to do my own thing. And now I am in Limerick School of Art and Design studying Animation and Motion Design. However, I would still classify what I post on Tumblr/Instagram as self taught because that all came from me, not a teacher.

4) Biggest Inspirations

I’m so inspired by so many thing so it is basically whatever I find eye catching so that might be; People, art styles, colour palettes, compositions, lighting etc.


I have been a fan of both Tony DiTerlizzi and P.J. Lynch for as long as I can remember, with my mom working for Candlewick Press in MA when we lived in America we always had hundreds of children’s books growing up, but those two illustrators have always stuck out in my mind. But more recently I have become absolutely obsessed with Jim Kay, I have the illustrated versions of the two Harry Potter books that have come out and my illustrated version of A Monster Calls is breath-taking. I also have the most gorgeous version of The Boy in Striped Pyjamas that was illustrated by Oliver Jeffers.

Glen Keane, Ollie Johnson, Frank Thomas, Milt Kahl are all animation heroes in my opinion, but I have such a huge soft spot for the company Cartoon Saloon, who are an Irish based animation company who created ‘The Secret of Kells’ and 'Song of the Sea’, obviously because of Irish pride but also because I was lucky enough to go to the studio and meet all the lovely people there who were nothing but kind and supportive of my work.

Gustav Klimt is my favourite painter because of the emotion he is able to capture with such subtlety.. that’s what I want my drawings to show.

Tumblr Artists:

@brittanymyersart @may12324 @alexis-page @corvuxredux@petitrequin @thomkemeyer @cranesketch@celialowenthal @perplexingly @lazyleezard @batcii @kathuon@norhuu @loish @elephantfist @cassandrajp @nesskain @starpatches @lilabeanz @jmeemarie @pheberoni @johannathemad @quillery @franco-e @lexlambs @bellemrdch @jociemamacie @galaxyspeaking @charliebowater @projectnelm @thingsiphotoshopped andsomany others!

5) How long does it take to finish a piece?

It really depends on the day, sometimes it can take an hour, sometimes a couple of days

6) What materials do I use?

For sketching I use lead pencils over 2B, drawing pens, markers, oil pastels, compressed charcoal and watercolour pencils - they tend to have the best pigmentation.

7) What Software do I use?

I draw with Photoshop, record speedpaints with OBS, and edit the videos with Premier Pro.

8) What tablet do I use

I use a Wacom Intuos tablet.

9) Do I take commissions and request?

I tend not to take requests, and I have in my blog description whether my commissions are open or not.

10) Can I repost your drawings?

Not on Tumblr, if you want to post them on Instagram/Twitter/Facebook/Pinterest just make sure you provide a link back to my Tumblr blog or my Instagram which is “meabhusd”

11) Can I make edits/colour in your drawings?

Yes of course, but once again, just link back to me.

12) Can I use your drawings as an avatar/header imagine?

Yes you can.

13) How old are you?

I was born on the 24th of April 1996

14) How do I create character designs

Well every time I read a book I will keep a notebook beside my bed to take down all the descriptions of the characters. Of course it is not enough to just have the physical descriptions of characters in my opinion. I always take into account the characters background/personality/settings etc. All of these elements contribute to a better and more interesting design. For example; if a character has a job working outside doing physical labour, they will probably have stronger bodies, more scars, freckles, sunburn or tans.

15) How do I make characters look more diverse?

Same-facing characters is one of the hardest habits to break and I struggled with it for such a long time! Still do. My advide would be to use references of multiple ethnicities first. After that you would be surprised how different a character can look if you change eyebrows, hairlines, jawlines, cheekbones, noses, lips and bodyweight. If you are relying on a different hairstyle to distinguish between each of your characters it wont work. Also adding features like scars/moles/freckles/facial hair can really make your characters unique.

16) Do I have any OCs?

Yes I do, though they are very under developed. I tend to be quite shy about posting about them because they are more personal than fanart, it’s almost intimate to me. They are under they tag 'meabhd’s ocs’.

17) Do you have any other blogs?

I have one for my college work @meabhd-art but it is very different to this one. Much more traditional work and a lot more abstract..

18) Why do I keep Anon asks off?

I have always been quite private and prefer when I feel like I’m talking to someone rather than a thing? I also have anxiety and it makes me nervous not knowing who is talking to me. I answer every single question, though I only publish them sometimes and I am more than happy to answer questions privately if you are not comfortable having a question published.

19) How do I get over art slumps?

Art slumps are so hard, like I’ve had my fair share of them! I find that they come from a place of repetition? So you keep drawing in the same format, or the same characters. So my advice is to change up and element of how you draw, it’s as easy as using a new brush of photoshop, but it will trigger a problem solving part of your brain that will try and adapt the new element to your style or whatever so it’s more interesting to draw.

20) Do you have any tutorials?

Yes they are in the tag “tutorial”

anonymous asked:

Got any stuckony recs?

YES! Absolutely yes!

My apologies this took until today. I had a busy weekend and had to rest a lot, but I’m here now. :) Also, I don’t have my old bookmarks list (long story) so I’m having to go through and look for my favorites, old and new. Long process! (This took me over four hours, though I was doing a few other things as well. Still, I’m a bit of a slowpoke.)

See below the cut for some of my favorites, and don’t forget to leave kudos and comments (even just an “I liked this!”) for the authors, to let them know their hard work is appreciated!

(If someone knows an author’s Tumblr handle, let me know or tag them so that I can edit this rec list and tag them appropriately!)

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Sega Dreamcast

I hated middle school. There’s a whole swath of memories I’d rather do without as far as the years 1999 through 2002 are concerned. There is, however, one memory I hold near and dear to my heart during this time frame. After reading about it in magazines and being really excited for it, my mother took me to Toys’R’Us one evening to get me a Sega Dreamcast. We brought that puppy home with a copy of Sonic Adventure, hooked it up, fired it up, and took it all in. As the opening cinematic played on my TV, Mum said “It’s like playing a movie!”

Boy, if we only knew what games would go on to look like now.

The Dreamcast was, and to this day remains, my all time favorite console. It’s the swan song of a company that was perhaps a bit too ambitious for its own good, a marvel of gaming technology many years ahead of its time, and home to some of the best and most unique games to ever come out.

At the time of its release, the Dreamcast was the most graphically powerful console on the market. Sony’s Playstation boasted 32-bit graphics, and the Nintendo 64 had double that, at -wait for it- 64 bits. Dreamcast had double of that: 128 bits of beautiful graphics, thanks to the GD-ROM, a proprietary disc format born from squeezing every bit of memory out of a regular old CD as was physically possible, before DVDs and Blu-Ray became as ubiquitous as they are today.

Even the method of memory storage was unlike its competitors; the standard memory card for the Dreamcast was the Visual Memory Unit (VMU), a cross between a memory card and a Gameboy that let you manage data and download minigames to extend the functionality of many games. The only other thing like it that I can think of being made is Sony’s Pocketstation, and that never saw the light of day outside of Japan. You would not believe the number of button-cell batteries I burned through caring for Chao on the go.

Of course, all of the fancy tech and cool gadgets wouldn’t amount to much if the games on offer weren’t fun at all. Tiger’s Game.Com bragged of being a versatily console and handheld device, but the games for it all stank like a fragrant dog poop laying on the sidewalk on a hot Floridian summer day. Thankfully, fun games were something the Dreamcast had no shortage of, even in the brief few years that it was on the market, a slew of which I’d like to bring attention to.

Sonic Adventure 1 & 2

Maybe they haven’t aged as well as I’d like to think, but DAYUM if these weren’t some fun games back in the day. Sonic has always struggled with 3D, but the first attempts at true 3D Sonic games remain quite novel. The first Sonic Adventure had different play styles for each character, some of which were great (Sonic and Gamma, for me at least), others…not so much (the less said about Big, the better), in addition to, for its time, an intricate plot with each character’s story intertwining and playing out differently depending on which character you’re playing as.

Sonic Adventure 2, meanwhile, streamlined the gameplay and improved upon some of the first game’s flaws, cutting out the non-platforming related stages (aside from the treasure hunting stages, which are a touch better than in the first game). It’s story was also very compelling, being one of the darkest storylines in the entire series; government conspiracies, weapons of mass destruction, fucking murder! Maybe that’s not everyone’s cup of tea, but I think we can all agree that SA2 handled “dark and gritty” a lot better than Shadow the Hedgehog’s stand-alone game.

Both games also featured a mini-game that could prove to be just as addicting, if not more so, than the games proper: Chao Gardens. Chao were little, adorable water monsters that players could raise like virtual pets, their popularity likely owed in part to the ubiquity of other virtual pets like Tamagotchi near the end of the millennium, as well as how easy-going and casual raising a Chao was compared to a Digi-Pet that would not wait for you to clean its shit up: you can enter and leave Chao Gardens freely, and you wouldn’t have to worry of your Chao dying of neglect in your absence. There’s also very deep mechanics at work for raising Chao, with their growth and evolution depending heavily on how well you raise them, what animals you give them, and what fruits you feed them, all so you can have them participate in races. The aforementioned VMU also expanded Chao functionality considerably, letting you raise them anywhere you wanted.


My relationship with Shenmue, these days, is very much that of a love-hate relationship. On the one hand, Shenmue popularized two aspects of gaming today that I loathe; Quick-Time Events, and over-blown game budgets (this game would’ve had to be bought by every DC owner TWICE before it could break even). On the other hand, there’s no denying that this game was a labor of love by Yu Suzuki. The attention to detail in Ryo Hazuki’s hometown of Yokosuka is staggering. Everything you can imagine can be interacted with, down to the last dresser drawer in Ryo’s house. Every resident of Yokosuka was unique from the others and had their own behaviors that they would go through, unlike every other NPC in the town, or other games for that matter. The story may be a tad formulaic, and most of the voice work left something to be desired, but the world of Shenmue was one that was very fun to explore.

Plus, this game introduced me to Space Harrier. If that’s not a good thing, you tell me what is.

Jet Set Radio

I had to convince my mother this game wouldn’t turn me into a graffiti-painting delinquent. It was a hard sell, but it paid off, and boy am I glad it did.

Jet Set Radio is very much unlike other games, then and today even. This was the game that helped to popularize cel-shaded graphics; the thick black outlines around the character models made this game look like an anime come to life, and eventually paved the way for the wicked-awesome graphics we see today from Arc System Works with Guilty Gear XRD and Dragonball FighterZ. The idea of playing a roller-blading hooligan throwing tags around the city and evading the police was also unique, and kept players on their toes as techno music accompanies their shenanigans. The game was a bit on the short side, but was challenging and fun enough that multiple playthroughs were warranted.

Making my own graffiti tags was also quite the timesink.

Phantasy Star Online

I may be a late bloomer to the Phantasy Star series, but it has become one very dear to me for helping me meet some of my closest friends (Hi, Tara!).

Phantasy Star was a series of JRPGs by Sega meant to compete with other big franchises like Final Fantasy and Dragon Quest. The original PSO, on the other hand, is an online multiplayer dungeon crawler that would change the course of the series from that point forward. As interstellar colonists investigating mysterious phenomena on an alien planet, players would delve into unique locals with characters they would create themselves to slay monsters, collect valuable items, and unravel the mysteries of the planet Ragol.

The original PSO is also very notable for its attempt to break the language barrier with a unique conversation system. While good ol’ fashioned keyboards remained in vogue, players also had the option of constructing sentences to transmit to other players in the area or party in those players’ native languages. Using this system, you could send a message saying “Help! This dragon is too powerful!”, and your friend in Japan would read it as “助けて!この龍は強すぎる!” It may not have seen much use, since players are more likely to congregate and play with those that can speak a common language fluently, but it was very kind of Sega to provide the option.

One thing that gets me straight in the feels is something from the original beta trailer for this game: “The world of Phantasy Star Online lasts for an eternity!” It is not uncommon for trailers and developers to hype games up with hyperbole (just ask Peter Molyneaux), but this is a statement that has held true for PSO! Even after the last official server for the last iteration of PSO shut down in 2008, private servers continue to run the game to this day, ensuring that the world of PSO truly remains eternal. Even with a proper sequel Phantasy Star Online 2 proving to be a pop culture staple in Japan, the original PSO remains one of the most beloved and enduring MMOs in history.

Skies of Arcadia

I’ve got friends who would skin my hide and leave me to hang like the Predator if I didn’t mention this.

Just about every console since the NES has a JRPG, and the Dreamcast is no exception. While Phantasy Star shifted towards MMO territory, those hoping for a sweeping single-player adventure still had Skies of Arcadia. As the daring sky pirate Vyse and his motley crew of adventurers, players fought to stop an evil empire from awakening an ancient evil while flying across a world of floating continents in a kickass airship. This game is among the most challenging JRPGs in the genre; a clever mind and strategic acumen are needed to survive battles with other pirates, monsters, and rival airships. The world of the game is also incredibly beautiful; I personally think it has much in common with Castle in the Sky, my favorite Hayao Miyazaki film. The soundtrack compliments the game incredibly, and is a joy to listen to by itself.

There are plenty of other games that made the Dreamcast incredible, but this article is long enough as it is, so I’ll have to give those games their proper due later. Suffice to say, though, the Dreamcast is a historical console that remains one of the most beloved in the history of the medium, not only by myself, but by hundreds of thousands of gamers the world over. It may have only been on the market for a few years, but it is said that the brightest stars are the ones that burn out the quickest.

And make no mistake, the Dreamcast is one of the brightest stars there ever was.

Safe & Sound

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Summary: Inspired by the song Safe & Sound by Taylor Swift feat. The Civil Wars - Doesn’t follow the storyline of Civil War. The Avengers find Bucky, the readers long lost lover.
Warning: angst???
Words: ca 1100

Thank you very much to @heyy-its-meh-world for your support! Your words mean the world to me, so this one is for you! I hope you enjoy it!

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An Open Letter to the Overwatch Community

– written by somebody who probably has no business writing it. ;)

So my blog, overwatchuserboxes, was for some reason deactivated from Tumblr briefly last night/early this morning. I luckily heard back from Tumblr support staff after a while and, as you guys can probably tell, the blog is back up and running! :) 

I can’t figure out if this was just a random mistake or if something else happened, but I’ve been over the Tumblr rules and guidelines and I’m confident I didn’t violate any of their terms. But in light of the recent influx of hatred and viciousness in my inbox related to some of the userboxes I have made on request, I instantly wondered if there was some sort of correlation. I don’t think there was, but the fact that I had the thought is ridiculous in itself!! So. Just a (slightly wordy, sorry) post from me re: ship hate and my ~feelings~ below, if you’d like to keep reading. If not, have a lovely day! ❤

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Good Girl!

Summary: Werewolf!Reader Story. Readers a young doctor and uses her skills to keep her condition hidden, until she transfers to the Enterprise and tries to deceive a certain grumpy Doctor

Bones x Reader

Wordcount: 1142

A/N: I used to write all the werewolf stories in all variants as a teenager. I always liked to go for the “dirty” kinda “yeah, i’m a thing, no, i don’t lose control, but it does come with it’s shortcomings” werewolf … I’ll expand on what it all means for our lovely Y/N while writing this. I hope you enjoy this as much as I do - please let me know what you think!

This fiction is set in AOS

Warnings: None, really


„Lieutenant Y/L/N“, you said, handing over your PADD to the dark haired CMO. His eyes traced you shortly, then he grabbed your PADD, filing through it for a moment, and nodded. „Welcome aboard, Lieutenant. I’ll show you and our new nurses your quarters right away.“ He gave you your PADD back and started walking. For a lack of alternatives you trailed behind him. Not that he had prompted you to do so, but you got the undeniable feeling that he didn’t expect to have to. „You will be assigned to Beta Shift, as you’re a doctor, and we need one there“ he continued while striding through the Enterprise. „Medbay’s here. I’ll show you everything later. Nurse Wildner, Morgan, follow me.“ - you could tell the Doctor was the ‚no bullshit‘-type just by the look of him. He moved efficiently with some kind of permanent frown fixated on his face. You had heard of him of course. The famous Doctor McCoy, best friend to the even more famous Captain Kirk. The famous Enterprise. After you had left Starfleet Academy you had served three years on the USS Washington as an Assistant Doctor. You had applied to a position on the Enterprise just recently and it came as a surprise to you that you were not only considered but chosen. 

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anonymous asked:

top six controversial opinions!

Are you trying to get me in trouble??? To keep this from devolving into something that has the potential to eat my night, I’m going to make this “controversial opinions about fannish-related matters.”

1. I come down firmly on the side of “even if a ship or a trope is problematic, even if it personally disgusts me, people have every right to write it as long as they use relevant tags or post it in a place where that is expected.” Sometimes I go into a tag looking for edits for a show or movie or something I just watched and run into people going “well, obviously I don’t ship this, I’m not a monster” or whatever, and I am just So Tired of that culture.

2. Concrit should be opt-in 100% of the time. If someone does not have a note on their profile or at the bottom of a fic saying they would welcome it, nothing but perhaps a typo fix should be mentioned in the comments. I for one would rather have an outright hate comment than concrit from a stranger.

3. I really wish there was more division between creators and the fan community. Creators who are going to be kind to us will be kind anyway. Creators who are going to be shitty to us are going to be shitty to us anyway–Teen Wolf is the example. All those fan campaigns, the begging, the fan/creator engagement, and … what, exactly, did we end up with? I’d rather just keep a wall, even an illusory one, there. This is just as much because of fans acting poorly as creators acting poorly, too.

4. I don’t care at all if my ships become canon. That’s kind of weirdly phrased. Like, on a representation level I frequently care a LOT if they become canon? But it makes no difference to my fannish experience if they do or not, that’s a better way to phrase it. Sometimes I see “my ship is more likely to become canon than yours, thus you should ship it” and that’s just not the way my fannish experience works. If a ship of mine DOES get made canon, that actually makes me less likely to write fic, simply because I don’t feel the need to Fix The Canon.

5. On a related note, what I want in canon and what I want in fandom, and even the way I interpret things in canon vs. the characterizations and takes on events I want to see in fandom, are very very different animals. Like, thinking back to Merlin fandom, the Arthur/Gwen vs. Arthur/Merlin debate. And, like … Arthur/Gwen was super sweet on the show! But I had no real desire to read fic. And I loved reading (and writing!) Arthur/Merlin, but could see no healthy and well-done way for the ship to actually happen in the show. Or with Les Mis, I love reading the Brick Purists talk about characterization, but I like to read fic about fanon interpretations, because those characters, the patchworks created by fandom, are often more interesting and flexible and relatable to me than the Pure Hugo Characters.

6. This isn’t so much a “controversial” thing, but it has to be said: look, fandom. Can we, as a community and speaking to writers here, assume that if someone uses the word “Yep” or “Nope” instead of “Yes” or “No,” that they chose to do so because they were going to “pop the p”? Over the course of years this has become a weird obsession of mine and at this point it throws me out of the story EVERY TIME. Fandom, I love you, and this is such a small thing, but PLEASE STOP. WE KNOW. THEY ARE BEING INSOUCIANT OR OBNOXIOUS OR LIGHT-HEARTED, AND ARE SHOWING IT LINGUISTICALLY. Can we just … take it as read and stop saying “’Yep,’ he said, popping the ‘p’.” Please.

how-tobe-him  asked:

Anime suggestions?

Asking a 42 year old lifelong anime dork for anime suggestions!?

Sorry that it’s taken me a little bit to address this.  In the absence of specifics I decided to provide a recommendation of my old favorites as opposed to new releases.  Of course then I realized I could write entire essays on each of my old favorites as a recommendation and started thinking about how to make a post like that.  Then I decided to provide short recommendations for most of the old favorites and save the hard-sell for a single great freaking show.  This in turn led me to end up re-watching large parts of said show because it’s just that freaking great.   Also, if anyone reading this wants lengthy essays on why I love a certain series, ask away and I’ll write one up if I’m feeling productive one day!


If you’re looking for recently-aired stuff, you can go through my GIF tag to see what I’ve been watching for the past few seasons.  Chances are if I’m making GIFs of something I also recommend watching it.   The only recent show that I’d mention specifically as deserving more attention than it received is Made In Abyss.  It’s a great little show.  It’s also really dark, despite the cutesy character designs, so don’t be fooled.  Also, if body horror is a trigger, stay the fuck away.  The Abyss does bad bad things to people.   Anyway, on to the old stuff ;)

Macross Series
Macross is my all-time favorite ongoing setting.  It’s one of the great pillars of the Real Robot genre.  It’s stands apart from its peers by focusing more on the human side of conflicts, having an actual nuanced take on the role of the military, and just being very hopeful in general.    There are several separate series that I recommend, thus I am grouping them together.

The Super-Dimension Fortress Macross (1982):  The original.  A true classic of anime.  The animation is terribly dated at this point, but the story still holds up.  Every time I remember that I first watched this within a year or two of it airing, I feel really old.

Do You Remember Love? (1984):  A stunningly-animated movie version of the TV series.  The story is slightly different, but close enough if you don’t want to put in the time to watch the TV series but want a better frame of reference on the sequels.  It’s also one of the most technically impressive hand-animated movies put to film, so it’s worth a look.

Macross Plus (1994):  Four episode OVA series set 30 years after the original.  The focus is on the reunion of three former friends rather than the overarching events of the setting, so it can easily be watched without knowing anything about Macross.  It’s also widely regarded as one of the best OVA series ever made.  It launched the career of Yoko Kanno, among others.

Macross Frontier (2007):  Takes place 47 years after the original on board one of Earth’s many outbound colony fleets.  Like Macross Plus, the cast is original to the series, and the first 8 or so episodes begin with summaries of the history of the Macross setting, so it can be watched without watching the others…though you’ll miss a lot of references and a bit of the story nuance, but not enough to be unenjoyable. 

Moving on from Macross!

Azumanga Daioh (2002):  The original slice-of-life show.   Cute girls doing cute things.  You will cry when they graduate.  Watch it.

Nadia of the Mysterious Seas (1990):  High adventure in the 1800s!  Very very loosely based on 2000 Leagues Under The Sea.  This is the series that put Gainax on the map.  It also has one of my favorite openings ever.

Aim For the Top!  Gunbuster! (1988):  While we’re talking about the glories of 80s-90s Gainax, let’s drop in on Gunbuster.  A surprisingly-deep take on the Super Robot genre, featuring the most hot-blooded female pilots you’ll find anywhere, which is a huge selling point.   If you ever wonder why Evangelion took off so quickly, it’s because it was sold to us as a TV series “by the people who did Gunbuster!”   

Marmalade Boy (1994):  For years this was my ‘warm blanket and dark chocolate’ anime.  Whenever I was feeling down for reasons hormonal or otherwise I’d just start watching randomly from one of the 76 episodes.  It’s just an animated soap opera.  The main character, Miki, is stunned when her parents come back from a vacation and announce that they’re swapping partners with a couple they met in Hawaii.  They all move into the same house together, and Miki meets the other couple’s son Yuu.  Hijinks ensue.  Nearly every episode ends on a cliffhanger or stunning revelation.  It oozes melodrama from every frame of animation.

EDIT:  I just walked out into the living room and told the wife what I was doing and mentioned that I recommended Marmalade Boy.  Her response:  “RUN MIKI!  RUN FROM YOUR PROBLEMS!” and now I can’t stop laughing, because that’s exactly Miki’s response to everything bad that happens to her.

(I appear to be drifting closer to writing essays for them all, I’ll just add a couple more and move on)

Yamato 2199 (2012):  A bit of a cheat, as this is fairly recent, but it’s a direct remake of the original 1970′s series that I watched as a kid…and it’s frankly better than the original.  

Please Save My Earth (1993):  Six-episode OVA series that covers the first half of the manga series by the same name.  A girl named Alice begins having dreams of living in a hidden base on the moon.  She encounters several other people who are dreaming the same thing.  I used to hate one of the characters for what he did.  Then I understood but still couldn’t forgive it.  Finally, now, I think I can forgive him.  It’s a series that makes you feel very strongly, but to explain is to spoil.  One of Yoko Kanno’s first series as a composer.

His and Her Circumstances (1998):   A romance buds between two people who hide their true selves behind a mask of normalcy.  Will they still like each other once those masks are stripped away?  A compelling romantic comedy from Gainax, and also one of the codifiers of the Gainax Ending, so the show kinda goes to shit in the second half, with three recap episodes and the animation devolving into stick figures, but the main plot is resolved long before then and despite all of this it remains a truly incredible series.

Okay, so, now we come to it.  The hard sell.

If there is anything at all in this post that you watch, you absolutely MUST WATCH

The Day The Earth Stood Still

I cannot possibly summarize the plot better than its own intro, so watch this:

The entire show is like that!  Breathless exposition!  Dashing heroics!  Fearful villainy!  And the entire thing done in a retro-60′s design aesthetic as an homage to the original creator of all the characters within, Mitsuteru Yokoyama.  Top it off with a literally operatic soundtrack and you have the recipe for…well…maybe that’s hard to say?  Why am I recommending a series about a kid who controls a giant robotic pharaoh? 

The show looks absolutely ludicrous, and in many ways it is.  The characters are over the top in a very old-school sort of way.  You’ve got your obvious good guys, literally called the EXPERTS OF JUSTICE.  You’ve got your obvious bad guys who constantly pledge themselves to the service of a guy named BIG FIRE.  The heroes protect the new utopia that the world has become with the invention of a perfect power source.  The bad guys seek to destroy that utopia and crush humanity beneath their heel.  It’s all so cut-and-dry.  Even the characterization of some of the villains as “noble monsters” and some of the heroes as “ends justifies the means” loose cannons doesn’t really give it much depth.

At first.

The show very quickly disabuses you of that notion as it delves into what it actually took to carve out a utopian existence from a humanity that is so frequently opposed to any such thing.  It examines the motivations of the villains and finds them valid.  It examines the motivations of the heroes and finds them wanting.  It provides two questions that drive the emotional arc of the story and demands that the characters, and you the viewer, answer them.

Can happiness be achieved without sacrifice?

Can a new era be reached without misfortune?

As the sins of the past rise up to destroy the hope of the future, somehow the giant robot pharaoh stops seeming so ridiculous.  The fact that everything looks like 1960′s guy-in-monster-suit action cinema only serves to contrast the actual depth of the characters and the series as a whole.  To say more is to spoil, so I’ll not go into detailed analysis.  Suffice it to say:  The show looks silly, yet is really quite serious.

It also has one of the best finales of all time.  I watched this series as it was released, and there was a three year wait between episode six and episode seven, and I can honestly say it was worth every second.  Re-watching it just a few hours ago, my cheeks were wet with tears and stretched in a big grin at the same time.  It’s probably the most satisfying end to a series I’ve seen. 

So, there you have it.  A whole bunch of old anime to watch.  (WATCH GIANT ROBO)

If anyone reading this actually watches something based on my recommendation and enjoys it, please let me know.  It’s always great to hear that a recommendation was well-received.

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 Thanks for tagging me! please excuse my mistakes, english is not my main language.

1. How has your opinion of yourself changed over the years?
I used to think that I have to fit and be the same as everyone else to be accepted. Later I realized I just need to be myself to be happy. I’m kinder with myself now, I must say.

2. If you had to pick one book to read for the rest of your life, which book would you pick?
I would pick the Lord of The Rings series, if it is possible, otherwise Lestat.

3. What’s your favorite season? Do you have a particular reason for liking it? Autumn or winter. I feel more comfortable in warm clothes and more inspirational if I can be inside, cozy, reading or watching movies. I personally hate the high temperatures.

5. Do you consider yourself lazy? No, I may be slow but I’m very diligent and work hard, even to the point of stress, but I don’t like it so I prefer to organize myself to have work and free time healthy balanced.

6. What’s your view on morality? Everything is shades of gray. It took me a lot of time to realize this, but you can’t judge if you are not in the other people’s shoes. 

7. When are you most productive? When I’m inspired, I can make a lot of drawings in a row, but when I’m not, everything becomes slow and thedious. I’m most productive at afternoon, after lunch time.

8. Do you have any strong opinions about things most people don’t think much about? Paranormal activity, demonology, fantasy themes and worlds. And if we talk about real life, I have very strong opinions about human behaviour, gender roles, and relationship dinamics.

9. How do you handle stress? I don’t, lol. I usually freak out and do everything fast until the problem is solved. Lately I’ve been dealing with support of friends and family, but I’m reluctant and I always want to do everything by myself.

10. What would your ideal world be like? I don’t have an ideal world because I don’t believe in the utopian concept of it, I’ll just be happy in a world in which I can be myself and be with my loved ones.

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Chapter Five: Verdant

olicity || explicit || angst || 16,965 || more fics

Summary: When Oliver’s boat went down in the North China Sea, he had no idea how much his life was going to change. He never had a choice in anything that happened to him. Never had a choice in what he became; a monster with blood soaked teeth. When a woman crosses his path by chance, he can’t help but find her completely intoxicating. There’s just something about her, but it’s a fleeting moment and he knows he must let go. He’ll never see her again, anyway. There’s no chance for someone like him to even consider letting something so beautiful enter his life. But Oliver is going to learn that sometimes fate can be a fickle bitch.

Chapters: 5 out of 12
Chapter Word Count: 2535
Other Pairings: background Laurel/Tommy, John/Lyla, and Roy/Thea
Warnings: graphic depictions of violence/blood

Author’s Note: I really love this chapter too and I realized that the odd ones (with the exception of the last chapter) are my faves. This one was just really fun for me to write and I hope y’all enjoy it. 

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Felicity should have packed up her things and parted ways with Team Arrow. That had been the plan when she signed on. After several months of searching, Walter was back home with Moira. She had every reason to go back to her very boring and less than satisfying life. She just really didn’t want to. There was something so amazing about feeling like she was making a difference. It didn’t matter how small that difference may be, it made her feel like her life was worth something. In her daily life, her work at Q.C, she didn’t feel challenged. She hadn’t allowed herself to use her intelligence and skills in years, especially not anything related to hacking. With the team she could actually use her brain, and she loved it. The thrill of testing her skills, cracking the toughest cybersecurity, and bringing down ne'er do wells of the city, brought an enjoyment and purpose to her life that she hadn’t ever had before.

But staying on Team Arrow was more complicated than that and it had everything to do with Oliver.

Having feelings for her boss was the last thing she wanted to do. What made it worse was that she had no idea what he was thinking most of the time. After the whole incident with bomb collar, he’d been even more distant than before. How does he go from saving her life and leaving wine in her home, as an apology for being an ass, to speaking to her as little as possible? It didn’t make a damn bit of sense. Part of her wondered if he thought she was becoming a liability. Maybe she shouldn’t have confronted The Dodger. Maybe she shouldn’t have offered to go on the field. But then again, if he had a problem with her, he would have said something. He’d never kept his displeasure to himself before.

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Feels So Right

Characters: Dean x Vampire!Reader, Sam

Word Count: 2,263

Warnings: Maybe a little angst but mostly fluff

Request:  Hi love, can u do a dean X reader where in a hunt the boys get save by a vampire (girl) and as the time went by dean falls in love her even do everything in his nature is telling him not to? and cloud you tag me please, thank u!

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Motor Oil.


You’ve been trailing him for weeks. You’d know that scent anywhere. You were pulled in when he questioned you at a bar. You couldn’t focus on anything other than that scent and his candy green apple eyes. He made you forget who you were.

You only drank animal blood. Killing humans wasn’t who you were and wasn’t who you ever wanted to be. You were turned into a vampire by accident. These group of men thought you were someone else and turned you but when they found out who you really were, they tossed you outside like trash. They left you to die or to feed all on your own.

That first taste of human blood made your cold, dead heart feel alive again but you hated hurting people. Before this, you had a life. You had a family. You were a nurse, practicing to become a doctor one day. You found joy in making others happier.

But your life was ripped away from you and you’ve never been the same again. You can’t step foot in a hospital without growing your canines.

You weren’t a normal vampire. You were a special kind that didn’t have a full set of sharp teeth that extended from your gums. Your canines were the only ones that grew. You didn’t know why you were like this but only a handful of people get them once turned.

Maybe that is why you were tossed out like trash. Those vampires didn’t know what to do with you. It was said that your type of vampire was very dangerous but they resided in other countries. You were the first of your kind in the United States. You figured that a vampire migrated here, bit you and then left after it was done.

You tried to control your thirst by drinking the blood of animals when they were harmed or dying. You hated killing animals too but it was better than humans.

But that all changed when you met him. Dean Winchester. You already knew who he was even before meeting him. Every monster alive was to fear the Winchesters. You tried not to give anything away as he questioned you and it seemed to work. He got the job done and was out of town the next week.

And so were you.

You followed him all across the country, always staying a few steps behind. You couldn’t give yourself away to him because he would kill you without a second thought. But his scent was what kept the hunger down. He was your medicine and he didn’t even know you.

You tried your best to get a motel room that was a few doors down and drive a stolen car that was a few yards behind. You tried your best to keep yourself hidden from him and it worked until one slip up. He caught you at a bar when he was hanging with Sam.

He didn’t recognize you but if he did, he made no move to let you know that. He flirted with you all night long and you so badly wanted to take him home but you didn’t know what you would do if that happened. Sex for a vampire was always great but it was so much more than that.

It would be more like you marking him as yours so that other vampires would know he belonged to you. If he were to turn, that bond would get stronger. But you couldn’t do that to him since you didn’t want to take his life away like how you got yours taken.

So, you told him you were a lesbian.

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The Boyfriend Tag || Calum Hood

makes perfect sense, babe xx

I M A G I N E 

“Hey guys, welcome to today’s episode!” You cheered in front of your camera. “Today I have a very special guest that a lot of you know and like. It’s my gross best friend, Calum Hood!” Calum jumped on the end of the bed beside you, giving the camera a smile and a peace sign. 

“I am not gross!” Calum then exclaims, playfully shoving your shoulder. You were a very famous Youtuber who gained your subscribers legitimately. But Calum and the boys boosted your fame just a bit, which you didn’t mind. And it was awesome because Calum was almost always able to join you in your videos when you asked. “You’re the worst best friend, Y/N.”

“You love me!” You coo at him, cupping his cheeks as you shake his head side to side. You let go with a few giggles before turning back to the camera with a cheeky smile. “So I’ve brought Cal over because I wanted to do the boyfriend-does-my-makeup tag and didn’t have a boyfriend… So he was the next best thing.” 

“Yay,” Calum says dryly, having you shove his shoulder to gain a chuckle from him. “The only highlight of this is the fact that you’re letting me mess with your face.”

“You can use this highlight as the highlight,” you joke, putting up your small container of highlight. Calum chuckles and takes it from you as you look back at the camera. 

“But yeah, so Calum is gonna do my makeup,” you speak to the camera. As you go over a few of the rules about it, like not looking at a mirror while Calum does your makeup, he was playing with your hand. He kept wiggling your fingers one by one, seeming immensely amused by them. “Cal, what are you doing?” You say as you turn to smile at your best friend softly. 

“Your fingers are small and soft,” Calum says quietly as he at you and gives you a cheeky smile. You poke his nose, causing him to blink quickly. That caused the both of you to have a fit of laughter before going back to the video that you were supposed to be doing. You lay out all your makeup on the bed, allowing Calum to look at all of them and become familiar with them all. It was amusing to see him pick up a few and study them. 

“What’s this, Y/N?” Calum asks as he holds up a pretty fat, glass container. 

“That’s concealer,” you tell him. 

“What does it do?”

“Conceal my face,” you say, having him give you a playful glare as you giggled. “You put it on my face to cover blemishes and stuff. Or like, my dark eyes over here.” You gesture to the area right below your eyes, making Calum focus on that. But then those almond eyes stare into yours, making you blush a bit before you shook your head. “But yeah, it’s supposed to be my skin tone as well so it works.”

“Alright, well,” Calum says. “Let’s just put this all over your face.” Calum immediately went to work, having you two exchange jokes and conversation as you did so. It was for a video after all. But during this, you couldn’t help but feel something as Calum did your makeup. The way he would rub your jaw before pushing it lightly to apply contour. Or the way he looked into your eyes so many times while putting eye-shadow and eyeliner. And every time he finishes one part of the makeover, he would look at you with this face of… admiration rather than achievement. He’d say it’s looking amazing but is he talking about the makeup or you? Either way, your heart raced every time Calum did these things. 

“Okay, let me just put this lipstick and we’ll be finished,” Calum comments as he looks through your lipstick. “I want a good color for your lips. You know, something that compliments everything.” 

“Well, you’re the makeup artist right now,” you say, smiling at him. “Pick what you think is best.”

“Let’s just put this clear lipstick to make your lips shiny,” Calum says simply as he picks it up. 

“Wait, what?” You tilted your head in confusion as Calum went to your lips and began to apply the clear gloss. “Why don’t you want to use any color? These mattes are super nice!”

Calum remained silent as he put the gloss on your lips. You watch as he carefully applied the clear gloss on your lips, making sure he doesn’t get anything outside of your lips. When he finishes, he closes the gloss and studies your face once more. Calum gives you a more… sad smile that usual. “You can look at yourself now,” he says quietly as he grabs your mirror and offers it to you. 

“I probably look like a monster,” you joke, ensuring your viewers enjoyment. But you couldn’t help but think about Calum and his choice in not putting on any lipstick with color. As you look into the mirror, though, you were shocked: Calum did really well. “Holy shit.”

“What? Is something wrong?” Calum began, suddenly frantic. 

“N-no!” You reassure, still studying your face. “It’s just that… you did my makeup really well. Like scarily well. My fucking eyeliner is perfect on both eyes, what the fuck!” 

“I think the eyebrows could’ve been better though,” Calum says with a frown. You look at them and completely disagree. 

“They’re on fleek, Calum, I promise,” you say, putting down the mirror while giving Calum a smile. He flashes you a cheeky smile in return. You began to really adore the crinkles that occur by his eyes when he smiles. He can light up the night with his smile. But you realize you have a video to do and quickly break the gaze. 

“So yeah, let me give you guys a good look at me,” you say with a smile as you put your face at the camera. You move your head so they can get a good look at both of your sides, forehead, and chin. “Let me know in the comments if you’d hire Calum as your makeup artist.”

“Yeah, I need a job!” Calum says with an enthusiastic face. “I’m leaving the band to pursue my real dreams of being a universal makeup artist.”

“I’m so done,” you giggle as you shake your head your best friend. You then recall your lips and look at Calum with a quizzical stare. “I’m serious though! Why didn’t you use any colored lipstick?”

“Well…” Calum dragged, looking shyly at you. His chubby cheeks begin to tint pink as he stared at you. “Your lips were already such a beautiful color. So I didn’t feel the need to cover it up. Instead, I just wanted to highlight them with a shine,” Calum says quietly. You found him going closer to you as he spoke, making you blush but unable to move away. “They’ve always been so lovely.” He goes closer, with his hands landing on the bed, staying on both sides of your waist. “And so plump and soft.” Calum begins to whisper as you felt his breath on your lips. “And kissable.” He breathes, his lips finally clashing on yours, giving you a brief and gentle kiss. He pulls away quickly, with the two of you sharing very red faces. 

“I…” you begin, attemping to think of what to say. But the situation made you speechless and your mind was racing. You swore that your heart was going to run out of your heart and win a rely race. 

“S-sorry, Y/N, I don’t know what came over me–” 

“Do it again,” you whisper as you grab his shirt and pull him to you. His lips attach themselves on yours once more, having him instantly ease into the lip. You were melting, finally feeling those plump, pink lips you’ve want to kiss since you met him. His taste was splendid, with the flavors of cookies and pizza. You were instantly hooked, addicted to his lips and kissing him. Calum then pulls away shyly. 

“What’s wrong?” You whisper, afraid that you’ve done something wrong. 

“The camera is still on,” Calum says softly, having the both of you turn around to see the bright dot of red flicker at the both of you. 

“Fucking hell,” you groan as you go and turn off the camera. Once you did, you go back on the bed and stare at Calum. He bites his bottom lip, staring at you with adoration. Grabbing the neck of his shirt teasingly, you pull him close enough to have his lips one inch away from you. “Now,” you breathe,” where were we?”

“Right here,” Calum says seductively as he finally places your lips on yours to have another loving kiss. 

Ooo Calum the makeup artist. tbh I think he’d be pretty good if someone gave him a chance. 

1000+ words of parent!phan headcanon:

because parent!phan makes me so weak !

- phil brings up kids over dinner one night, startling dan so much that he chokes on his wine for a few seconds. it’s surprising; between the two of them, dan’s usually the one to discuss domesticities like that. “kids? are you sure?” phil’s smile is hesitant, but there’s an excitement in his eyes that’s contagious. “yeah, i think i am. a little dan junior running around might be fun.”  dan rolls his eyes even as happiness surges through his heart. “ok , first of all, we are not calling him that.” the next morning, phil wakes up to a surrogate agency flyer taped to the coffee pot, with an appointment date scrawled on the bottom in dan’s messy script.

-once they decide on a surrogate, dan insists that phil be the one to send in his DNA. he claims it’s because he doesn’t want their child to have his proneness to existential crises, but it’s really because the cerulean shade of phil’s eyes is a genetic miracle that must be continued.

- they spitball baby names to each other on a constant basis, going so far as to attach a dry erase board on the refrigerator to keep track of all their options. “winston” tops the list, courtesy of phil. there’s also “delia”, “elizabeth", “christopher", and many more, gathered from childhood memories or favorite books and movies or even heard in passing as they walked through town. “child susan” is crossed out several times, as is “phan”. dan takes baby names very seriously, thank you very much.

-phil’s room gets remodeled into a nursery, filled with toys and clothes that arrive in boxes under dan’s name. he makes sure to order from both the “girls” and “boys” section from harrod’s - there’s no way in hell he’s going to let gender roles affect his kid.

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Tangled Pt. 2

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A few steps along, Bucky caught up with me and matched my stride.  "I meant what I said.  I’d still like to walk you home, even though I’m not physically attached to your dog.“

"I’d really like that too.”


“So how did you get Frankie?” Bucky asks.

A laugh bubbles up at the thought of the memory; “My mother thought it was time for me to ‘reclaim my independence’. So she brought me to the rescue that trains guide dogs.  I thought we were going to lunch, but as soon as we got out of the car, the jig was up. I heard the yapping and barking and I’m sure that if looks could kill, we’d have had to host her wake.” I chuckle. “She begged me to just think about it and meet some of the dogs.” I rolled my eyes at the thought of it “but I had always been a sucker for dogs, even before…” I trailed off.

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Courage and Kindness: Part 10

PAIRING: au reader x bucky barnes 



Finally we have reached the ball!! (I had to watch the dance scene so many times and pause it every so often so I could translate it as accurately as I could! I am now confident I could do that routine in my sleep)  And chapter 10 wow this has kinda become a monster whoops.  I think I’ve decided that I will post a new chapter each Monday I don’t know why but mondays have been the days I’ve been uploading on and I’m a sucker for routine, it gives me a deadline in a odd way! Anyway enjoy xx 

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Part 9


Originally posted by windfallx

You felt Bucky lead you, swaying gently before turning you both in a spin. You snuck a glance at the guests forming a circle around the dance floor.

“They’re all looking at you” you’re eyes were wide never had you experienced anything like this before.

“Believe me, they’re all looking at you” Bucky said, his eyes never leaving yours as he leaned you out of his hold guiding you along the dance floor.

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Tagging game

ASDFGHJK Thank you so much @oftrickstersandmoose for tagging me and saying that about my blog!! That’s sooo sweet <333

I am going to do this thing, even though no one probably cares that much… Still, I will use this opportunity to tell everyone that reads this that THEY ARE AWESOME AND SIMPLY SOME ADORABLE CUTE LITTLE ANGELS ^-^

Nickname: Riri (no one actually calls me like that, but I found out it’s another abbreviation of my name so I love it =)) )
Gender: Fangirl (that’s it. That’s my gender. Forget about female, I am a fan-femme ❤︎)   
Star Sign: Libra ^^ (the most indecisive person ever, I admit it) 
Height: a bit more than 5ft 1′ I think? (I know, I know… I am literally a shrimp! But at least I get to stay in front of tall people and watch better everything XD)
Time: time…time is irreversible.. the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole… But, yeah, it’s about midnight here, if that’s the question =)  
Birthday: Oct 1st  ❤︎
Favourite Bands: *pulls out powerpoint project* Are you sure of this?? *brings pictures and merchandise* jk XD My favorite band EVER will forever be Fall out boy I love them SO much,my wonderful adorable obsession!! <333 I also love mcr (my babies asdfghjk), p!atd, bvb, Green Day, AC/DC, Def Leppard, Rolling stones, Led Zeppelin, Bon Jovi, Aerosmith, Skid Row, The Offspring, The Beatles, Journey, Metallica, Gnr, Whitesnake, Foreigner, Boston,CCR, Van Halen, BOC, Asia, lynyrd skynyrd, alice cooper, Eagles… The list can go on till tomorrow :)) Also, a special mentioning would be Abba and Modern Talking <333 and, of course, my second favorite band (I shamelessly admit I have 90 songs of them on my phone device), QUEEN XD
Favourite Solo Artists: hard to choose, uggh… My favorite singer used to be Celine Dion, so… I also love Kylie Minogue, Michael Bolton, Cyndi Lauper, Bryan Adams, Barbra streisand, Amy Grant, Bob Dylan, Elvis, too many to think of right now… Could I add Richard too?? =)) (even though he always says he is NOT a musician, his voice is wonderful aaaahh *sighs*) 
Song Stuck in My Head: “All star” by Smash Mouth! It’s kind of making me feel more confident though, but it’s annoyingly catchy… Oh and yeah, how could I forget about “anyway you want it” by Journey, it got stuck in my mind for a whole week, I am so glad I got over it 
Last Movie I Watched: Forrest Gump =) (watched it today, I admit I have cried a lot to it, and now I have only southern accents stuck in my head heeelp)
Last Show I Watched: Big Bang Theory <33 (I adore sitcoms) I was trying to see if I can get to watch more Star Trek on tv, but instead I saw this :)
When did I create my blog?: umm…My main one, I think around October last year?? And this secondary little thing that made my life better, I think sometime in May :))
What do I post? Post or reblog?: Both? =)) I reblog brilliant posts and I write anything that comes into my mind about Gabe <3 Also, I just simply adore making photo edits, gifs and stuff like that with him, so…
Last Thing I Googled: it’s actually “sunburnt” because I got one during hiking yesterday, so I needed to know how to treat it better XD (I am so glad I didn’t have to do this game earlier, when my last thing was “how to burn people”, I assure you I am not a psychopath hehhe… Even though it was annoying that google was showing results for “good comebacks”, not actually burning people alive…)
Any other blogs?: Hells yeah. Not many though. My main one where I haven’t posted anything for six months, a side blog with nice book quotes and nature landscapes that finally turned into a fandom one (oops!!) and one with song lyrics where I make photo edits and post mostly fob and mcr lyrics because when I don’t find them on google I must make them by myself :D  But here I have most of my followers <33
Do you get asks?: Umm…Nope, never got one, only messages, but happily waiting for some =) 
The Story Behind My Username: *coughs*……it was, my darlings, the summer of 2017 when me meets the other inner me and I’m like “yo, I know about music” and the other me is like “yo, I know more about music!! ”, “that’s impossible! Do you wanna start a side blog? We’ll call it after your new favorite song ever that makes your heart sing and melt in the same time because of the most adorable mellow sweet feathered golden angel, that small tiny muffin who ruined your life” and I was like “yeah that’s cool” and that’s it XD Actually, I came up with the idea of this blog when I realized how obsessed I was with Gabe and at 2 AM I was creating gifs just to post them here, and the only logical username that came in my mind was this, I just love the heat of the moment!!! <33 *starts humming while eating a candy bar and sobbing in a corner*
Following: 155! ;D
Favourite Color: GREEN! Grass green, cyclam, turquoise, that coral red-orange wonderful thing, blue violet, sunflower bright yellow (guess why ;)))…
Average Hours of Sleep: probably eight hours. Sometimes 6, sometimes 11… Two weeks ago I slept only one hour, yesterday 12, so it depends XD
Lucky Number: 111 <3 Not lucky, but favorite one I guess :)) But usually all my lucky numbers contain “1” so… I also love 21, dunno why
Instruments: Fountain pen. JUST KIDDING! If it means musical instruments, I used to play piano and violin, but now I only know a bit to play the national anthem, that’s all… Currently I am into guitar, I have been trying for six months to learn how to play it from youtube tutorials, I can play couple of chords ;D
What I’m wearing right now: whoa easy there, tagging game! (just a joke again, sorry ^-^) It’s actually only a dress with green and pink floral print because summer nights when you don’t want to go to sleep, just to stare at the stars, hum songs and spend time on tumblr, that’s why :) I just find dresses easier to wear when the heat outside overwhelms you
How many blankets do I sleep with?: umm… Like now, during summer? Only a white sheet, it’s too hot (even though I sometimes want to go back to my warm blanket in case of monster night attacks). But on winter I can sleep with two wool blankets or even more… :) 
Dream Job: Cardiothoracic Surgeon or any kind of doctor in general :)) It’s been my dream since I was two, I just love anatomy…<3 (probably I shouldn’t add my temporary dreams too, like becoming an actress, a Broadway singer, a detective or a novel writer and artist, should I?^^) 
Dream Trip: aaah hard to say, but I think it would be a road trip in Arizona or any western desert part in general, while driving an old rusty convertible car (preferably an impala, of course), watching the ruby sun going down into the lakes painted on the azure sky and the stars sparkling brightly at night, feeling the freedom air and humming old rock songs (and singing “take it easy” when I get to Winslow, AZ :D)… Also, another dream trip would be in my favorite cities: NYC (to see Tiffany’s and Broadway :)), Paris (mainly the opera house and get to sing “bonjour Paris” like in Funny Face) and Rome (driving  a scouter or riding a vintage bike on the old streets, while picking ruby geraniums and singing Dean Martin songs aahh). Also, a trip to provence where I can dance through the lavender fields, the Alpes with warm small cottages or Greece would be wonderful (as long as I can admire the landscapes and the local culture with not so many people around… ^^)
Favourite Food: grilled chicken with french fries and any kind of dessert (chocolate especially)<33 Also a bunch of sour soups, pasta, fish, meat, pizza and hamburgers, jam with butter and honey, cereals with milk, bacon and eggs, meatballs, chicken soup with dumplings, boiled potatoes with butter and parsley, pancakes, and this list could go on and on…. (now I got hungry ugh…)
Nationality: Romanian :) (this should explain the “sour soup” thing) 
Favourite Song Right Now: umm…*trying to make up my mind while sweating nervously* Probably still the heat of the moment, or Tiffany Blews by fob… But right now, I mean really RIGHT NOW, I think it would be “don’t stop believing” it’s so uplifting and purely…gorgeous :)

Sorry for the long post, in real life I never speak up, yet, here, I am a chatter box oops >.<

Now, the ceremony of tagging people! *drums beating*… Aaaand the nominees are….LEONARDO DiCAPRIO!! (SOORY just a silly joke ^^) Now, for real, I am tagging :  @scarlettwinchester23  ( ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ ) , @sabriel-fanboy-83, @akhuna01, @hunters-hiraeth, @tricksterxangel, @lisiblack, @chaotictrickster, @quaker-wtf-lass and any other cinnamon roll that wants to do this, but I know you won’t do it unless I tag you, so, here you are : @that-sweet-person-who-read-my-ramblings-and-wants-to-do-this-game-too  ❤︎  You have been officially tagged ;) 

I love you all so much!! <3

rules: in a text post, list 10 books that have stayed with you in some way. don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard– they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you. tag 10 friends, including me, so i’ll see your list. make sure you let your friends know you’ve tagged them!

TAGGED BY @walonvaus and @wavelette <3<3

these are not in any particular order, and I’ve read most of them years ago. I’m just listing stuff I remembered enjoying about them, and I might have a different opinion if I read them now

  1. The Blue Sword - Robin McKinley (I love… ;__; the desert, the adventure, the magic, the escapism)
  2. Reaper Man - Terry Pratchett (this book hit me right where I lived right when I needed it most, I cried my body weight in water tears)
  3. The Last Unicorn - Peter S. Beagle (a book too good for me to entirely understand how good every part of it is, and I need to reread it, the language, the huge metaphors, the beautyyyyy)
  4. The Left Hand of Darkness - Ursula K. Le Guin (that image of the two of them desperately surviving the journey over the glacier, the empathy that comes with close proximity, the worldbuilding and gender stuff)
  5. Time of the Twins (series) - Margaret Weis (the actual original shitty wizard (who wants to become a god) trainwreck series, the first book’s interactions between Raistlin and Crysania being ODDLY SIZZLING to teenage me, Raistlin teleporting Tass into a duck pond, the absolute wreck that I was at the end of the third book, the terror and helplessness of wizards vs. gods, CRYSANIA WHO NEVER DESERVED ANY OF THIS BULLSHIT, you really can’t stop people you love from making horrible shitty abusive decisions, but you can and will survive it and the sky will be blue again)
  6. The Darkangel - Meredith Ann Pierce (the removed, fairy tale tone. the fantasy/fairy tale story built on an intriguing sci-fi base that is never fully explained (they live on a terraformed moon, but it’s a detail you can totally miss), the actual awful-acting and horrifying, terrible monster love interest, the herione’s selfless weaving with threads of golden empathetic love, the journey, the quiet strange tone of the whole book, the eerie lion automaton in the middle of the desert, the ending)
  7. Meditations (transl. Gregory Hays) – Marcus Aurelius (“the mind without passions is a fortress. no place is more secure. once we take refuge there we are safe forever”- Marcus effing saving my life during one of my darkest depression episodes, the interest level involved in reading a Roman Emperor’s private notes to himself that he never meant to be published)
  8. The Dragonbone Chair - Tad Williams (the beauty, otherworldliness, and unknowable-ness of the elves in this series hasn’t been matched by another one that I’ve read, the main character is so dynamic, the coolness factor, the sense of helplessness and real danger against impossible odds, the rage-inducing villains, the worldbuilding, the world travel, the magic, goddamn it, I still love it)
  9. Anne McCaffrey dragon/psychic books - (an author who coasted almost entirely on the coolness of the concepts she came up with…. Really tough to read now because of sexism and other various issues, but those story concepts will stay with you for a super long time. dragons… and teleportation and shit)
  10. The Best of All Possible Worlds - Karen Lord (I have never wanted two characters to kiss more, ever in my entire life, in all of my life. Also a fucking godsend to read after playing the Solas romance in Inquisition, since it has so many of the same themes. The last remnants of an endangered people (and the reactions to that new reality), the horrifying implications of the psychic power use, the careful consent, the friends(colleagues)-to-lovers, thank you so much for reccing it to me bones. I just straight-up buy whatever bones tells me to, and I’ve never regretted it)

tagging: whoever wants to fill this out!!

anonymous asked:

Hi! So this has been bugging me for awhile but do you think dean hides parts of his personality from Sam? Like for example when he geeks over things he would look at Sam and shut his mouth(Sin City?) and when he sings all out of love I think? Or with Donnie and the cake things? Like he wants to do this stuff but he feels like Sam wouldn't approve or something so he becomes this macho man again? Sorry for this horrible worded question, i just wanted to know if I'm the only one who feels this way!

Hello! :D

Yeah, that feels like a pretty fundamental part of Dean’s personality - not just that he has a load of extra layers but that he keeps them from Sam as best he can. You’re far from the only one to think that! 

What gets me is that Sam is present for a great deal of these instances but never seems to put it all together properly - he still reacts in surprise when Dean willingly betrays his surface layer in front of him. :P

There was a lot of discussion of this over season 10 because the most regular plot thread was Dean’s unravelling personality and, increasingly, Sam’s fears about that as the driving force to the end of season awfulness… I’ll never find easy links because it was a season-long discussion and it’s all thrown into my gargantuan Dean tag or my episode tags which run to like 20 pages of posts on average by this point, but after pretty much every episode the meta community would tear into what happened with Dean’s yo-yoing characterisation and usually how Sam related to it. (I’m tagging this swiftie!Dean and Dean vs cake if you want to go through those tags on my blog for the best examples from season 10 :P) 

10x09 stands out in my memory not so much for general Dean characterisation, but because of the discussion of the story that they told Cas about Dean going to that club and getting drugged, and how Sam seemed to have a completely different idea of the emotional tone of the story because of their respective ages at the time. To stay in depressing John Winchester territory, in Bad Boys in season 9, Dean describes how Sam never found out about him going to Sonny’s as “the story became the story” - whatever John said at the time to explain why Dean dropped off the radar ended up being what Sam thought was true literally until the subject came up by chance in season 9 so he could otherwise have never found out. Jumping way back, in the Christmas episode in season 3 we see where tiny Dean eventually tells baby Sam (okay they were like 8 and 12 or something :P) about monsters being real, which is the most obvious example of keeping an aspect of their life hidden from Sam for years and years.

Generally Dean seems to hide the bigger stuff from Sam, to protect him physically (from monsters) or emotionally (from how terrible it was growing up hunting monsters) and that’s just spiralled on as his mindset through their whole lives, where Dean has a sort of duty, as he feels, to protect Sam from everything: within that is the sense that his hyper masculine surface layer is that of the protective big brother, and so cracks in that aren’t just revealing his own weakness (which, in his head, would extend to random things that are girly or sissy or whatever and betray that tough shell like music choice or food or, uh, certain delicate items of clothing, not just serious emotional stuff - basically anything that would generically be deemed unmanly by more judgemental society) but actively threatening Sam just because his shell is his role as a protector, not just for his own personal feelings, and so if it cracks it might not be strong enough or what is required to protect Sam. (I’m not saying this actually has any use in protecting Sam, just that this seems to be how Dean knows to do it and how he copes when Sam needs protecting - by giving over his very self to this role.)

He also has to let Sam know that he is the tough protector who can be trusted to look after him and keep him alive as an ongoing life-long hang up from their childhood and so it’s more important that Sam knows he’s this tough guy, and so Dean screens his own behaviour in front of Sam probably more than anyone except for he would have with John. A great deal of this also, aside from the more obvious comments literally about needing to protect him, comes across in projecting his own insecurities on Sam - all those times he’s teased him for being girly. It sort of is meant, I guess from Dean’s POV, to suggest he is more manly than all that and to sort of assert himself as tougher than Sam blah blah… My mental image of Dean in a lot of situations is him as a bird with the feathers all puffed up hopping around a bigger bird which is completely uninterested in paying any mind to his display of pretending to be the bigger bird. :P

This is also related to how we get the general impression Dean often will act more normally away from Sam or towards other people, and often why there seems to be a focus on Dean bonding with other characters more than Sam - new characters with fresh dynamics show Dean acting differently from how he would with Sam and let us see him in different light and frequently more relaxed moods. There are multiple points in the show where Dean is stressed from looking after Sam during particular spikes in Sam-related issues where Dean will crack open around someone else, even if it’s just, say, skipping out for a drink and getting some other form of human interaction away from Sam so that he can express how stressed he is, as he would never tell Sam that looking after him is a burden.

When it comes to opening up to Sam, though… Those gifsets with parallels where Dean is telling Sam to shut up/get in the car/shut up and get in the car when confronted with past love interests/”CasDean” are funny as a surface comparison, but Dean’s using the same reaction to Sam about women he was canonically romantically connected to where there wouldn’t technically be anything interesting to deny: even when there’s understandable emotion in the situation, he’ll chase Sam off from talking about it, and while we point out Dean is the greatest source of chick flick moments on the show, he is still the one always policing if they have emotional conversations where he can, and making big decisions to unload emotional things. For example, I recently watched Children Shouldn’t Play with Dead Things, and Dean spends the entire episode (plus the preceding stretch of season 2) being clawed up by the probability of John’s deal, but even when Sam confronts him for being emotionally erratic in the middle of the episode he won’t talk it through. It’s only at the very end when they’re miles down the road (and in a different set of clothes so it could honestly be days later :P) he abruptly pulls over at a scenic spot on the side of the road to open up with his suspicions that he was brought back from the dead at the cost of John’s life. He only goes further to admit it was probably a demon deal in Crossroads Blues - again, they both had obviously contemplated the eventuality, but Dean would not discuss it until the case got overwhelming with the idea and it had to be discussed.

But Dean can also be a nerd upfront to Sam, when things seem less stressful. For example of two of his grander nerdy moments, he enjoyed dressing up and embracing being a dork in front of Sam in both Frontierland and LARP and the Real Girl, and, all things considered, mid season 6 and 8 were some of their less stressful times where nothing was actively wrong with Sam (he had the wall up against his hell visions and his soul back at that point in season 6, and the foreshadowing for the end of season 6 was only starting to sneak in around the edges and not yet something they had a great deal of cause to worry about. The LARP episode is in a pretty quiet stretch of plot right before they find the bunker and a few episodes away from Sam taking up the trials). In these cases goofing off and indulging his own interests and pleasures wasn’t dangerous or destabilising their power dynamic, which in times of stress, is much more emphasised as they go into a sort of survival mode of relating to each other, and they were acting more like normal brothers. Also from my rewatch, Hell House is the most dorky of dorky brother episodes, and comes right after Shadow, a stressful John-related episode but after which they voluntarily stop looking for him, and they’re sort of on vacation at that point, waiting for his say-so to rejoin the main plot, and so they get a goofy episode where they’re not emotionally beholden to the main plot in the same way on season 1′s much smaller scale, and I don’t think it’s a coincidence it’s one of the few times they really just screw around acting like completely normal brothers who just happen to get tangled up in paranormal happenings.

Apparently I have a lot to say on this. :P

But yeah, all the little instances through the show where Dean gets excited by something or likes someone because they capture his nerdy interest or any number of things, Sam is usually right there, and Dean will check his reaction against him every time, even if it’s just a subtle glance. Even the Taylor Swift thing I borrowed a gif for up there, Dean glances over at Sam first, and then clearly decides to carry on listening to Shake It Off despite Sam’s presence, making an active decision to embrace it in relation to Sam’s presence.