i try very hard sometimes

Sometimes I try really hard to talk myself out of such intense feelings about Anakin Skywalker, like, SELF, HE CHOSE TO MURDER A ROOM FULL OF CHILDREN WITH HIS LASER SWORD and all those other really horrible decisions he made, he is responsible for those choices and all that shit he did for 20+ years, but also I just think of how intensely he cared and how much he probably low key wanted to die for all those 20 years but nobody who could kill him would do it already and how he was the shining star that fell so far, how he was so beautiful and that beauty was ruined by his fall, how he loved so passionately and he genuinely wanted to do good and he’s such a disaster, he’s so awkward and obsessive and whiny and need and so emotional and he really did try and he spent so long feeling like he wasn’t doing anything right, he wasn’t the Jedi he was supposed to be, he wasn’t the husband he was supposed to be, he wasn’t the best friend he was supposed to be, he lived with such awful demons and they consumed him and he made his own choices and yet, in the end, he still wanted to do good, he wanted to come back, and I understand why Obi-Wan accepted him again, because he’s Anakin Skywalker, he was so full of light and life, he just shone to look at, that so many of his faults stemmed from being haunted and he was adorable and charming in his awkwardness and I, too, have forgiven him for murdering the Jedi and the roomful of children with his laser sword because there’s not a single bone in Anakin’s body that’s capable of not 100% feeling everything he feels, including the desire to finally come home again.

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anonymous asked:

For some reason I can't really enjoy fics when Yoongi isn't a main character.... I'm so happy you like yoongi so much hehe..💜💜💜💜💜💜

I try very hard sometimes to /not/ make Yoongz a main character to allow me to write other ships and characters but….goddamn it’s hard, it’s so hard, dear anon. I just always have really good characters planned for him that I want to have scenes for. So, I’m glad that you keep coming back to my Yoongz-centric fics haha~

I am so excited for Gabriel to come back but at the same time I’m kinda scared, to be honest.

I am still pissed at the reveal that he faked his death. ‘Cause that means that huge risk he took going up against Lucifer, the fact that he finally decided to make a stand for free will, that he died for the sake of humanity… that meant nothing. It retcons the culmination of his character development into another trick. It ALSO means that his speech on the Casa Erotica DVD (“this is me standing up”) was made while he KNEW he was gonna fake his death and hide again. Fuck. Off.

A part of me is hoping that he was forcibly resurrected and he just let Cas believe he faked his death for the sake of Metatron’s narrative. But if that’s not the case, then I AM scared. I’m scared that the writers are going to fuck up my favourite character rather than bringing him back in a way that honours his original arc. I’m scared that they already have. 

When the Doctor said “And because sometimes, on a good day… if I try very hard… I’m the Doctor”, all I could think about way River saying:

“Now and then, every once in a very long while, every day in a million days, when the wind stands fair and the Doctor comes to call… everybody lives”

Ugh I just can’t even with these two married idiots. So many people idolize the Doctor, but River knows that he has both good days and bad (and loves him either way)

I’m havin lots of “you’re so his wife” feels.

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doctor who rewatch: series nine [2 / 12]

there’s no such thing as the Doctor. I’m just a bloke in a box, telling stories. and I didn’t come here because I’m ashamed. a bit of shame never hurt anyone. I came because you’re sick and you asked. and because sometimes, on a good day, if I try very hard, I’m not some old Time Lord who ran away. I’m the Doctor.

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There’s no such thing as the Doctor.I’m just a bloke in a box, telling stories. I didn’t come here because I’m ashamed. A bit of shame never hurt anyone. I came…because you’re sick and you asked. And because sometimes, on a good day…if I try very hard…I’m not some old Time Lord who ran away. I’m the Doctor. Compassion then. Always.

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Doctor : There’s no such thing as the Doctor. I’m just a bloke in a box, telling stories. I didn’t come here because I’m ashamed. A bit of shame never hurt anyone. I came, because you’re sick and you asked. And because sometimes, on a good day, if I try very hard, I’m not some old Time Lord who ran away. I’m the Doctor.