i try very hard sometimes

in the time you spend actively hating content creators and stalking their every move, you really could just be off creating the things that you would rather see instead. take that passion and work on creating what you think would be more fulfilling things for people to fall in love with.

if not, at least quit driving more needless negative energy into the world

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Twelve Days of Twelve, Day 2: Favorite Series

“There’s no such thing as the Doctor. I’m just a bloke in a box, telling stories. And I didn’t come here because I’m ashamed. A bit of shame never hurt anyone. I came because you’re sick and you asked. And because sometimes, on a good day, if I try very hard, I’m not some old Time Lord who ran away. I’m the Doctor.”

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The 60 SB monk quest was very emotional for me, but what make me cry the hardest was Erik saying he’d be coming with us to Gyr Abania.

He’s one of my favorite characters (honestly my fav, next to Cid lol) and I’ve had a blast just photobombing him every moment I can. (also I am never letting him live the 68 quest down bc it made my life)

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2 things:

 1. I really need to get some new fineliners hol y

 2. IT’S IKKI’S BIRTHDAY YEeeEE! ^O^

(Also if any of you got some free time, pls check out Amnesia bc ITS SO FRIGgIN GOOD you will not regret it I c a n n o t ˊ▽ˋ)

(And like, Ikki is canonly ticklish, sooo 6ω6)

ever since my meds stopped working i’ve been compulsively deleting my posts minutes after i make them. will i delete this one??? only time will tell.

jk i’m gonna make myself not delete this one.

Babby Steps

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Twelve Days of Twelve Day Eight: Character Development.  (From “Hello, hello.” to “Hello. I’m the Doctor.”)

[x] “Am I a good man?”

[x] “I am not a good man. I am not a bad man. …I am an idiot with a box and a screwdriver. Just passing through. Helping out. Learning.”

[x] “Sometimes, on a good day, if I try very hard….I’m the Doctor.”

[x] “I AM the Doctor. You don’t have to be real to be the Doctor. Long as you never give up.”

[x] “I do what I do because it’s right! Because it’s decent! And above all, it’s kind.”

[x] “Hello. I’m the Doctor.”

anonymous asked:

being a fandom "creator" just makes me more depressed tbh

this is super dumb but I just need to vent I’m sorry if it’s overly negative. I just wish I’d never joined or posted anything because I always feel left out and seeing positive interactions just makes it worse (nobody’s fault, but no matter what I do I can’t stop feeling that way)

It’s okay! Nothing dumb about it, honestly. <3 There are absolutely downsides to being a fandom creator – the difficulty in building an audience, the sheer amount of time/effort/energy you put into your work (often thanklessly) – then there are also downsides to fandom in general. A LOT of them. On the upside there are opportunities to make friends, but that can result in cliques. On the downside you’ve got a lot of passions running really really high, all centered on the same thing, and that can cause drama. In the end, I honestly don’t blame you for feeling down about all this. But even without knowing who you are, I do want to thank you for posting your work and being here anyway. Like, as far as I’m concerned, what makes fandom worth it (in spite of all the crap that comes with it) is the brilliant opportunity we all have to see each other’s work, to expose ourselves to new ideas and to meet new people who like the same things we do. I know I appreciate my favorite shows more when I see them through someone else’s eyes for a little bit. And the more people we have creating content the better, because then there’s more diversity of perspective. It’s quite lovely, I think.

Anyway, I’m sorry you’re feeling discouraged. If you ever want to come off anon and chat about this, you can always message me! (Just please be patient with me if I don’t answer right away. I try very hard but sometimes I just can’t answer messages in a timely manner.) <3 <3 <3

friend: hey can i vent to you about something?

me: *in the middle of a crisis* yeah of course i’m always here

since that lil anon today telling me that i came off uninterested when they tried to talk to me, i’ve gone back through my messages and realised how i could be taken that way. but honestly, i’m so sorry. i try very hard to respond to everyone who messages me, but sometimes there are a lot of you guys, which is lovely bc i want to get to know you all! but it’s near impossible to reply to everyone, on top of my increasingly stressful schoolwork. so if i ever seem uninterested or not friendly : please believe me when i say that i 100% don’t mean to come off that way or if i don’t reply to a message, i’m probably a little overwhelmed and haven’t seen it. sorry again, i’ll do my very best to fix that 🌻

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Doctor : There’s no such thing as the Doctor. I’m just a bloke in a box, telling stories. I didn’t come here because I’m ashamed. A bit of shame never hurt anyone. I came, because you’re sick and you asked. And because sometimes, on a good day, if I try very hard, I’m not some old Time Lord who ran away. I’m the Doctor.

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