Hi, I really hope I’m not bothering you at all, I just wanted to say that I am so much thankful for your fic. I started reading it last night and I couldn't stop and then it was 2am and I had to take a breather after chapter 14 and I am crying so much but I am so grateful for it. This part here: Eren sighed. Hesitantly, he combed his fingers through Levi’s hair, his touch becoming more confident when Levi didn’t reject him. “Maybe death is a relief for some people. People who have been in pain-
(2/5) for too long,” he said. “But it wasn’t for me. I wanted–very much–to
live.”“I– I want that. I want to want to live,” Levi said. He grabbed
Eren’s hand, squeezing it hard.“But I’ve tried everything–the doctors,
the medications, the therapies, the fucking diets–and I’m so tired of
trying. I’m so tired. Every day I wake up and there’s nothing inside–no
happiness, no sadness, just exhaustion. Whenever I start to think I’m
feeling different, feeling better, it gets snatched away. How am I– how is anyone supposed to want to live like that?”
(3/5) Putting what it is into words, it was such a relief. I know they say that fics aren’t written for the readers and I also agree on that, but just holy shit, I AM JUST SO SO LUCKY TO BE A READER and this chapter- I just wanted to say that it really helped a lot. A whole lot.
(4/5) Most important of all THIS: “I don’t have any answers for you,” Eren
said. “But if that’s what you want, don’t you have to keep living? Every
day you are alive is a new chance that things might change. If you die,
you lose that.”
(5/5) For these kind words, thank you. I hope these words reach more people
who need them. I haven’t been around fan fiction for very long, but I do
know that fic writer’s works mean a lot to them, and as a reader I just
/I’m not very good at english to express everything, I’m sorry/ I hope
that the kindness you’re able to share through your work-if not now- but
someday you’d be able to receive it as well. Thank you!
Ahhhh, thank you so much for your sweet messages! Depression is an issue that is close to my heart since I have struggled with it most my life and known many other people who struggle with it. So when I write a character who is depressed, I try to think very carefully about not only portraying that experience accurately, but also not making everything feel so hopeless for both the character and the reader.
Everyone experiences depression in different ways, so it is hard to know what will help someone. What might be helpful for me might not be helpful at all for you. But if you and anyone else is able to find something helpful in my writing, then I am very, very glad.