i took this picture myself hahaha

Sorey: @aruarudayo
Mikleo: @koreanmermaidpuke
Photo from @makkura-taichou

I was at Katsucon this weekend and had an amazing time! I don’t usually like posting photos of myself but I worked for two months to make this cosplay and want to show off ( *`ω´)

Back in June or whatever I instantly fell in love with Sorey’s formal outfit from Tales of Asteria so I went to one of my best friends and was like “so what if we cosplay formal Sorey and White Day Mikleo and go to the Katsucon ball” and we somehow pulled it off. My friends weren’t going to the ball so we shot some pictures of us dancing together by the waterfront for them, though this one is actually a candid photo of us goofing off hahaha

I discovered I don’t have full body pictures of myself on me but when I find some, I’ll post those too. If anyone saw me at Katsucon and took pictures let me know!

Hello friends!

I hope you are all having a happy Halloween! Or….a happy day at least!

I spent some of yesterday and all today making a costume of… you guessed it. This is my first time ever making one by myself…. haha

My mom loved the thing so much she took a bunch of pictures of me hahaha! I love my mom!

…I think I’ll play a game.

If someone can get which version of Hiccup I’m dressed as, I’ll do the unthinkable and post a pic of my dressed up halloween self.
THE CATCH IS, IT HAS TO BE ONE OF THE FIRST TWO ANSWERS THAT I SEE! If the first two are the same answer, I’ll just read the third.

good luck, friends!!

edit: oops i guess i should have specified, haha! I meant All versions of the canon hiccup only. I know there’s not many, hence the catch. I will start with the first guess that is canon!

- the only picture I took inside the hall btw because taking out your phone during concerts sucks A LOT, listen to me -

As some of you may already know, I’ve been to ONE OK ROCK’s concert in Cologne yesterday and because I arrived at the venue pretty early in the morning, I got the chance to talk to some of the guys, especially Taka.

We arrived at the venue at 9:30am and were almost the first ones in the line (this payed off later because we got a really good place in the concert hall!). As ONE OK ROCK’s tour bus arrived we all admired how skilled their bus driver was, because damn, I couldn’t even do what he did with my car tbh. From afar we were able to watch Ryota brushing his teeth, which was super duper interesting as you probably can imagine.

Later, when they (Ryota, Taka and Toru) first came out of the building we didn’t really do anything except for saying “good morning” and “slept well?” (when I asked them the latter, all three of them looked at me like “???” and I had to do movements to make them understand and eventually they said yes, haha). When they left and walked around the corner, probably to get food, a girl that was standing with us went all like “I was waiting for you to ask them for pictures, my English is too bad!”, haha. Actually I was thinking that leaving them alone for now was more polite because they probably wanted to eat something or take a smoke in peace instead of having all their fans jump at them as soon as they would come out. The security guy (he was hilarious btw, if you see this, Security Guy: you rock!) told us that there was no back entrance so they had to come back on the same road.

They eventually came back and kind of everyone was waiting for me to ask for pictures (at least they looked like that because they stared at me and Alina was even like “please ask Toru for me, okay??” haha). To my question whether we could take pics, Taka replied with “sure!”. Tbh I don’t know where Ryota went after he came back with Taka and Toru because I had to take pictures of my friend with Toru and Taka and therefore left sight of him. :c

- my picture with Toru + the one I took of my friend with Alina making Toru cheat on Taka in the bg lmao -

After I got my picture with Toru (Alina was so surprised about his hight, haha) I decided to ask Taka something that had been bothering me a lot lately: if they’d release something in Japanese soon. I cannot really remember what he said exactly, but it somehow went like this:

Me: Are you planning to release something in Japanese soon? Because we miss you singing Japanese. I know it’s been your dream ever since to be globally known and it is your decision anyway, but singing in English AND Japanese is what you became famous for after all.
Taka: I know, it’s actually easier for me to write songs in Japanese. It’s our manager and new lable that wants us to sing more English.
Me: What the hell? But you can still release Japanese songs in Japan, because it’s a different lable there, no?
Taka: An album?
Me: No, no, a single for example.
Taka: Yes!
Me: Please do, we really miss you singing in Japanese!
Taka: We will, promise!

I then complimented his English, because DAMN it became so good, for real! He understood everything I told him and gave grammatically correct answers (this sounds stupid, but I really didn’t expect him to because I still remember his interviews from 2014, ahaha).

Me: Your English became really good btw!
*crowd agrees*
Taka: Really? Thank you!
Me: Yes, really! I remember your interviews from 2014, they were pretty embarrassing to be honest.
Taka: *covers his eyes* (he really did that, how cute is that??) Ughh, I knoooowww…
*crowd laughs*
Girl: How did you learn so fast though?
Taka: By speaking only. I’m too lazy to study. *laughs*
Me: Are you the best in speaking English from the band now?
Taka: I hope so! *laughs*

Taka was super super kind! He seemed to be a little tired but he still took a lot of time to talk to us. I’m a little sad that I had no chance to talk to Toru, because now I still don’t know how good his English actually is. Also, I totally forgot to ask Taka for a picture, because we were talking for so long, hahaha. 10/10 @myself.

- Alina and I in front of the entrance ~ -

The concert itself was really great too! I already saw them live 2 times before (2013 in Bonn and 2014 in Munich) but they still were as powerful as always! I wasn’t a big fan of the setlist but I enjoyed every second anyway! Something that was kind of bothering me was that Taka sung several songs in English only (Cry out, Mighty Long Fall, Decision…) and therefore I couldn’t sing along because AHAHAHA lyrics. We Came As Romans was super cool too btw! I didn’t enjoy their songs too much when I checked them out on youTube before, but when they performed them live, Alina and I were headbanging to all of their songs like crazy (neck is hurting a lot now, btw).

As Taka announced that they’d perform Heartache in Japanese, the crowd went crazy and during the song he let us sing several Japanese lines (his smile to that was priceless asdfjgjfnjdg, my son) and I desperately hope that he realized by now that their fans really do miss them singing in Japanese. ;;^;;
We’ve got a lot of “I love you”s from Taka that night, hahaha. I think especially he was really enjoying that concert. c:

- Alina and I in Taka’s instagram video haha -

[INTERVIEW] CL FOR GRAZIA KOREA DECEMBER 2015 – “YES, I AM CL.” (DECEMBER 24, 2015)

Q: I find that you have a lot of female fans. And they are unnie** fans too.
A: Ahaha. That’s right. I do have a lot of unnie fans.

**Unnie – Korean way for a younger female to address an older female

Q: I thought that you would have a lot of younger fans.
A: Strangely, I’ve had many unnies and oppas around me since I was young. I grew up listening to their experiences. I really like that.

Q: Although you have a strong personality, you’re able to give others a sense of stability that only people who were brought up well have.
A: Ah, really? Ahaha. Thank you!

Q: I’ve just come to know about Operation Smile through this project. How about CL?
A: Me too. I really like babies and children so I visit the Holt Children Welfare Society a lot. That’s why I feel a special sense of attachment to this project. I’m going to take some pictures with the 6 year old Jiyeon soon. I’m really looking forward to that.

Q: I talked to her for a bit and found out that she usually plays CL’s music out loud and dances to it.
A: Ah, really? I’m even more excited to see her now (smiles).

Q: Your occupation is one that requires you to be in the public eye. I’m curious how is it you balance your private and public selves.
A: I’m of the view that both of those selves will eventually become one. Actually, even though I have to worry about my public self because of my occupation, if I become relatively close with someone I tend to become my private self with them. And that’s what I want to do (smiles).

Q: Are you shy? You kept on smiling while saying that (smiles).
A: I’m still working hard on it (smiles). I think the confidence from my public self needs to be mixed with my private self.

Q: What are some standards/codes that you would like to live by?
A: I want to live as human-like as possible. I want to attempt all the challenges that I would like to attempt, make mistakes and learn from them, without worrying over my career too much. Like a human.

Q: What have you been focusing on lately?
A: I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been working since I was young but I always think that working is the most fun. Should I say that my passion seems to only be concentrated on working? Even when I’m playing with my friends, it would eventually lead to making music together, composing this and that. I gain and give good energy and influence at those times.

Q: Artists usually tend to debut with a certain concept, then slowly modify the concept as they go along to end with a tailor-made concept that matches them. However, CL’s colour seems to have remained consistent from your debut.
A: That’s because I was lucky. From the very start, friends gave me clothes that matched me and Teddy oppa always helped me to find music that suited me. And since I am also the type to try a lot of things, I think that has helped me to be able to sort through what would match me and what wouldn’t.

Q: Is that why the large variety of styles that you’ve tried never look awkward on you?
A: I think it’s because I liked them. Wearing the clothes and taking photos in them.

Q: Do you like taking photos or being photographed?
A: I like both.

Q: Do you take photos of other people too?
A: Lately, I’ve been taking so many photos of the people around me that they’ve said it seems like I have lost my soul. Hahaha. It’s been a while but I cleaned my room recently and found polaroids that I took in the past. There is also a lot of photos of the (2NE1) members. I looked at them and realised that ‘ah, and so it’s really only photos and memories that remain’. It was from then on that I took pictures like I was crazy. Even though other people thought that it’s really troublesome (smiles).

Q: What do you like about being photographed?
A: That I’m able to leave evidences of many different versions of me. It’s fun because it’s like signing off with a stamp.

Q: Nevertheless, a filtering (??) like CL seems to be powerful from the start. You have your parents to thank for that.
A: That’s right. (I do have to thank them) for having brought me up freely, for me to be myself. Hahaha.

(T/N: I have no idea what they’re talking about but it literally says ‘filtering’)

Q: You’re now in a career that you wanted to go into. What kind of world do you hope for children to live in?
A: Hmm… circumstances are not fairly distributed amongst people right? So, although it may sound corny, I think that it’s important to have confidence. It’s not possible to have the same start as someone else, and since it’s not possible to have the same things as others do, I think that it’s important to have a heart that is able to accept yourself as who you are. I hope that they don’t become afraid. Even if they themselves are a little different from others. Actually, I am like that too. I’m conscious of the fact that others are aware that I don’t have a pretty face even though I’m a celebrity. That’s why I put in as much effort as their awareness of that fact (smiles).

Q: I think of ‘strength’ when you mention being confident in who you are. You seem like someone born with that confidence.
A: Does it seem like so. I’ve had a lot of opportunities to think about this as I work in this career path. Since I’m so different from everyone else. When I debuted around 17 years old, I hear a lot about how I was ugly and that I come off too strong. I’ve had severe internal conflicts and moments of weakness as I had to reconcile the need to protect myself and the need to match the standards imposed by others. I’ve increasingly realised that the right thing to do is to like myself, to feel pretty and to remain faithful to my emotions and feelings. To be honest, this is difficult to do. When everyone else is saying ‘no’ and you’re saying ‘yes’ by yourself. However, since everyone is different, I think that if you invest your passion and time into the strong point that you have, that aspect will become your own charm.

Q: And that’s why people are now submitting to CL’s charms.
A: Ah, is that so? Hehe.

Q: So you debuted at a really young age in 2009. How do you think you survived that period of time if you were to think back about those times now?
A: My early 20s were actually more difficult for me. I think I went through my teenage years without knowing anything and rather aimlessly. I had many worries when I turned 20, such as what to live on in the future etc. My young friends also had the same worries and I used to tell them then that it’s healthy to have these worries and that they are something to be happy about. How could a person live happy every day? You’d have to feel inadequate sometimes for there to be development.

Q: I wonder if it’s because you’re born with a positive personality or is it because you’re surrounded by good people. Are there lots of people that you usually converse with?
A: I’m really close to my younger sister, and also to people at my workplace. I had a really depressing day a few days back, but I met President Yang (Yang Hyun Suk), Jiyong oppa (G-Dragon) and Youngbae oppa (Taeyang) at my workplace. They listened to my worries seriously and comforted me, which cheered me up. My friends are really important to me. That’s why I’m working hard at taking photos of them (smiles) and I’m also having fun with them. Doing these allows me to gain strength again.

Q: You’re in a career that allows you to have a big influence. What do you think about that?
A: It’s impossible for such a responsibility to not feel heavy. However, I am human so I do make mistakes, and I have a life as Chaerin on top of being CL. In any case, I am someone that does music and is loved because of that, so I think that it’s right that I remain faithful to music. I think that doing well in music and putting on good performances is my way of fulfilling my responsibilities.

Q: What are the basics of a good performance?
A: A performance without regrets. You’d have to put in that much hard work and time. So, I don’t think that a perfectly prepared performance is a good performance. Even if I go on stage with just a mic, as long as I do my best, I believe that my energy and emotions will be conveyed to the audience.

Q: I’ve also watch CL live a couple of times. Your force was overpowering.
A: Ahaha. I guess my voice is really loud. I’ve only been aware that my voice is that loud recently (Everyone bursts into laughter).

Q: That’s also a skill that you’re born with.
A: It matches my job, doesn’t it? (Smiles)

Q: What do you think is true beauty?
A: Although everyone has different standards, for me, I think it is honesty. By honesty I don’t mean ‘not telling lies’ but being faithful to who you are and being able to express that without fear of others.

Q: Looking at the bigger picture, I think that the theme of this photoshoot is ‘dream’. It gives people an opportunity to dream of a new life. As CL found her dream of doing music at a young age, what would you like to say to people who have yet to find their dreams?
A: Please spend a lot of time with yourself. My assistant friend is 20 years old and we’ve talked about this topic recently. She said that she didn’t know what she was doing or what it is she wanted to do. So I told her to not forget about the issue or avoid it by playing with her friends and that it’d be good if she could face it head-on. For example, having to separate and being hurt… when time passes, it all gets better. However, how everyone spends that time differently. For some, they might spend that time as if they are dead because they were hurt, but others might invest that time in themselves instead. Everyone is given the same amount of time. That’s why how you use the time given to you is really important.

Q: You have come to this conclusion over some time, haven’t you? It’s interesting how all successful people say similar things.
A: Ah, really? But I’ve not succeeded yet though? Hahaha.

Q: You have received a lot of love to reach this point though.
A: Yes I did. Although I’m lucky, I’ve also received help from a lot of people.

Q: Have you thought of a time when you would no longer be as loved?
A: It’d be fine because I will love myself! I think that love is something that you need to constantly be doing without relying on others. You need to love yourself generously and feel that you are beautiful. “I am going to love myself a lot.” You could love yourself a lot more if you hold a similar conviction in your heart. I could long for love from other people but it’s easier for me to love myself. This would allow you to receive as much love as you would want.

Translated by CLtheBaddestFemale.com.

I. HUGGED. MARK. RUFFALO.
I still can’t believe this actually just happened. The story: this was at the Avengers premiere in London and I had been going on about how badly I wanted to meet Mark for the entire time we were waiting at the barriers. As soon as he made his entrance I got really emotional because I had literally been waiting to meet this guy for years and I think so highly of him. He signed some on the other side and I was getting myself together and telling myself to act cool if he came down to our side. Literally as soon as he came down to our side, I could feel tears welling up again and I told my friends I was probably gonna cry. When he reached my spot, I told him I’d come down from the Netherlands and took a selfie with him (which is quite blurry because I was shaking.) When he was signing for some people behind me I told him: you’re my role model. I had to repeat myself like three times and he leaned in to hear it better, which only made me more emotional. I ended up telling him with big teary eyes and he looked up and told me “aw thank you!” and he hugged me. The woman that guided him through the premiere offered to take our picture when she saw what happened and I look manic in it, hahaha. He was so so so sweet and I really hope I didn’t freak him out too much. It wasn’t till after he moved on to the next people that I actually cried for minutes straight. Thank you so so much Mark I wish I could tell you all about what this meant to me, but I don’t think I can possibly put it into words. You really are my role model.

okay so I was in like for the meet and greet and I was shaking!!! I finally got up to meet him and he just looked at me and smiled and I didn’t know what to say so I said “hi! it’s very nice to meet you!!”

and he said “it’s nice to meet you too!”

so I payed my comedown machine record down and then I put a picture if brunch on top. at first he didn’t get it and then I said “SOOO I was hoping you’d understand the jokes” and you could tell it clicked and he went “Ohhhhh I see , I get it. I get it. very nice” and then he took the paper and I said “you don’t have to sign it if you don’t want to, it was just a joke” and he said “hahah it was a good one. I’m gonna put it on a t shirt. print it out and put it on a t shirt. ” and then he held up the picture to his vest.

after that, I hand him the cd I made him. it has a lot if songs he likes on it and I said “so I made this and it’s just a lot if songs that I’ve read over the years that you like” and he said something along the lines of “sweet I love it” HAHAHAH. so then he puts his hand up for a high five and it was kind if awkward because at the same time I said “and I made this for you too!” and held up the necklace and I high fives him with the necklace in his hand and he was like “oh !!! shit!! another gift thank you!!!” and he inspected it and said “wow. intense. that shit is hardcore..” and he held it up in the light and said “wow… what is that? are those two nails molded into a cross? pretty intense. I get it. wow. thank you so much. thank you a lot” and he was smiling so I think he liked it.

so then he just stares into my eyes and I was like “can you sign this?” and I pointed to the record. he started signing it and said “damn. you came mega prepared. you don’t fuck around, do ya?” and I was like “I was kinda trying to get you to sign the voidz record but it hasn’t come in the mail yet” and he goes “well yeah I haven’t even seen one yet..” and then he smiled and laughed and I said “I saw the posters that your stepfather made and I was wondering if they’re going to be available on the cult site?” and he said “they’re not on there? I thought they were. I guess not. we should have them up on there pretty soon!” so I was just like “oh ok cool!” and then I said “do you kind if I get a picture of you?” and he said “no not at all” so he leans over across the counter and I said “oh nooooooooooo not a picture WITH you, just a picture OF you. and he said "why???” and I said “well because I feel like I look horrible!!” and he said “ohhhh come onnnn no you don’t!!!” and I was like “yes I do !!!!” so he said “oh shut up”

and then before I clicked on the camera app he snatched my phone out of my hand (huge fucking hands) and he threw his entire arm around me for like 10 seconds and then he held the phone up to take a pic and then I said “should you put the flash on?” and he said “I thought you didn’t want to be in the picture and now you want flash? hahaha” and I said “well, I’m gonna crop myself out” and then he still had his arm around me and he held the phone up again and snapped a pic and said
“did I get it?”
and the person behind me said yeah you did and he offered to take another picture and I said “just take it of him. I look so bad and Julian said "oh shut up!!!” so then we took the picture and then

SO lets talk about last night

So Thursday morning I was in my Organic Chem lab and I looked at my phone to see I had a message from Taylor Nation on Twitter I walked out of the classroom and looked at it to see that they wanted my contact information so they could invite me to a super exclusive opportunity that I needed to absolutely keep quiet about. I DM’d them back and waited for a call.

I HAD THE MOST EPIC GAME OF PHONE TAG WITH A VERY NICE LADY FROM TAYLOR NATION. I legit left my school in the middle of my BIO class later that day bc the campus I was at has no cell phone reception and I was not willing to miss out on this opportunity bc I had missed out on the Shake It Off video bc of my work schedule. Once I finally got a hold of the Taylor Nation people they told me that I was going to be part of a special event on Saturday evening from about 4:30 to 10:00 at night and to meet them at a Church in LA and that was the only info I was given.

I had been scheduled to work that day from 9-4 and live 2 hours from LA without traffic so I called my manager up and had the most intense phone call with her begging for my shift to be changed and after awhile i got her to agree but had to work at 630 AM..all worth it for a TAYLOR SWIFT EVENT

I arrived at the church parking lot saturday a little before 430 and saw two fancy buses and began to get really excited. I was a little skeptical about the whole meeting at church situation only bc it made no sense why Taylor would have us there. ALSO my mom was convinced I was being scammed and was being kidnapped so I asked my Dad if he was willing to take on the role of Liam Neeson in Taken and come save me if that is what happened. He said youre on your own sorry.

ANyways soon enough after talking to tons of different girls and boys who were all the sweetest people ever and biggest fans we were told to ccheck in all of our stuff and signed a confidentiality agreement. We were loaded onto the buses where I sat with two girls that were just so nice and funny. Cindy and Megan it was so nice to meet the two of you. Our bus sang songs all the way to our destination. Which while we were driving to I was beginning to get excited bc we were in a residential area…could we be actually going to Taylors house?!

We got off the bus and were greeted by a security guard who told us to respect where we were. Respect its location and respect the objects and not to snoop around.He was going on and on about this and then he said “You guys are going to have a great time with Taylor tonight so just be respectful” so NATURALLY WE ALL SCREAMED. and me and the girl next me hugged in excitement he told us to take a deep breath and was kinda like oh woops i just gave it away

we hung out in the backyard where there were tons of food, pizza, veggies, sushi. chicken. steak, sweets and water/soda. I noticed a mat that said beware an attack cat lives here. and looked inside a window and saw an MTV award chilling on a shelf. about 20 minutes later we were told it was time to go inside. I was luckily standing right next to the door we were going into. We piled into Taylor’s living room that was decorated so cozy and smelt amazing there was a chair near the front of the room where I had a feeling she would be sitting in so i grabbed a seat right smack next to it.

We sat in the room for a few minutes and I hear people to the right of me start to gasp and scream. I see Mama swift walk in the room and then I see the Queen herself walk in. TAYLOR SWIFT was in the room with me..She sat right in front of me. she told us she had been stalking us on the internet ffor the past 6 months. and she chose us to be here tonight.SHE CHOSE US. Dead we are all dead because she chose us to be here.rip 45 swifties she asked if we were okay to listening to the whole 1989 album with her. and we all screamed YEA….***FUN story i just remembered!!! right when she walked in someone screamed omg its becky and she laughed and shook her head***

She played us the album and took 3-5 minutes explaining each song. and about halfway through the album we had an intermission where she brought us homemade pumpkin chocolate chip cookies that were to die for. and then Olivia appeared in the arms of a fan a few minutes later. we got back to listening to the album…Im not able to give any details about the album at all but it is such an amazing album. YOU ARE GOING TO LOVE IT.  i will say that out of the woods gave me the chills and I told her that after it played and she was like “OMG YES THANK YOU” and on the last song she played, she was singing along to all of them, but on the last one she made eye contact with me for about 10 seconds while singing and it was awesome.

we then had a dance party to shake it off and backseat freestyle and were then lined up to take professional and Polaroid pictures with Taylor. When I got up to her I gave her a hug and told her my name was Taylor and she was like OMG mine too and then I thanked her for multiple things and talked about 1989 with her. We then faced the shelve of props and she asked what do you wanna do for our picture i was like i think i wanna hold the grammy she was like i think you should. We took to professional pic and then the polaroid i was so worried about blinking in the poloraod that i made myself blink hahaha. but i dont even care.

We were then lead outside and given a bag of merchandise.

needless to say this was an amazing experience. i have so much more to say but this is such a long post. I have stories about Mama and Papa swift and some other little Taylor things that if you all would like to hear about just ask.

I CAN NOT THANK @taylorswift enough for letting us into her home, choosing us for this and being so incredibly sweet the whole time.

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Got my walk in today that I promised myself.

Instead of my audio book I listened to music and you may have been able to catch me dancing while I walked. Definitely some hip moving and a little booty shaking. Hahaha

It got dark fairly quick, and if you don’t know I oddly really love trees. So I had to take a picture of this natural beauty. 😍

Also, I really love this pic I took of myself.

story about meeting julian tonight!!!

okay so I was in like for the meet and greet and I was shaking!!! I finally got up to meet him and he just looked at me and smiled and I didn’t know what to say so I said “hi! it’s very nice to meet you!!”

and he said “it’s nice to meet you too!”

so I payed my comedown machine record down and then I put a picture if brunch on top. at first he didn’t get it and then I said “SOOO I was hoping you’d understand the jokes” and you could tell it clicked and he went “Ohhhhh I see , I get it. I get it. very nice” and then he took the paper and I said “you don’t have to sign it if you don’t want to, it was just a joke” and he said “hahah it was a good one. I’m gonna put it on a t shirt. print it out and put it on a t shirt. ” and then he held up the picture to his vest.

after that, I hand him the cd I made him. it has a lot if songs he likes on it and I said “so I made this and it’s just a lot if songs that I’ve read over the years that you like” and he said something along the lines of “sweet I love it” HAHAHAH. so then he puts his hand up for a high five and it was kind if awkward because at the same time I said “and I made this for you too!” and held up the necklace and I high fives him with the necklace in his hand and he was like “oh !!! shit!! another gift thank you!!!” and he inspected it and said “wow. intense. that shit is hardcore..” and he held it up in the light and said “wow… what is that? are those two nails molded into a cross? pretty intense. I get it. wow. thank you so much. thank you a lot” and he was smiling so I think he liked it.

so then he just stares into my eyes and I was like “can you sign this?” and I pointed to the record. he started signing it and said “damn. you came mega prepared. you don’t fuck around, do ya?” and I was like “I was kinda trying to get you to sign the voidz record but it hasn’t come in the mail yet” and he goes “well yeah I haven’t even seen one yet..” and then he smiled and laughed and I said “I saw the posters that your stepfather made and I was wondering if they’re going to be available on the cult site?” and he said “they’re not on there? I thought they were. I guess not. we should have them up on there pretty soon!” so I was just like “oh ok cool!” and then I said “do you kind if I get a picture of you?” and he said “no not at all” so he leans over across the counter and I said “oh nooooooooooo not a picture WITH you, just a picture OF you. and he said "why???” and I said “well because I feel like I look horrible!!” and he said “ohhhh come onnnn no you don’t!!!” and I was like “yes I do !!!!” so he said “oh shut up”

and then before I clicked on the camera app he snatched my phone out of my hand (huge fucking hands) and he threw his entire arm around me for like 10 seconds and then he held the phone up to take a pic and then I said “should you put the flash on?” and he said “I thought you didn’t want to be in the picture and now you want flash? hahaha” and I said “well, I’m gonna crop myself out” and then he still had his arm around me and he held the phone up again and snapped a pic and said
“did I get it?”
and the person behind me said yeah you did and he offered to take another picture and I said “just take it of him. I look so bad and Julian said "oh shut up!!!” so then we took the picture and then

so I met Jeff and Amir next. I walked down and I console rely forgot what happened. all I remember is when they signed my record and I said “can I get a picture of you guys together?” and they both said “yeah!!!! no problem!!! I’m so flattered” and I smiled and I said “do you guys want flash? do you mind?” and they were both like “oh yeah no!! go ahead! do what ever you want!” so I got the camera ready and was about to take the pic but I saw neither if then smiling so I said “what are you guys doing!! smile!!”
so I took a pic on flash and they both smiled:)

next I met beardo and Alex and they are so funny. I had my comedown machine record with me for everyone to sign and they both conversed and said “hey I remember when we made this record. it was a good one. it was a lot of fun making this record” and I laughed and said “well I ordered the tyranny record online but it hasn’t come yet” and Alex said in his adorable accent: “oh like a vinyl? you listen to music in a record player?” and I said “yeah!” and he said something along the lines of “hell yeah!! that’s fucking awesome. sweet man.” he was so nice:) so then I said “can I get a picture if you guys together?” and they were like “HELL YEAH!!!!” so I was gonna take a pic of them but I forgot what happened but they did something and I said “do you want me to just take a video?” and they were like “YESSSSSSSS” so I did.

they both started dancing like idiots together and I was dying of laughter. I said “thank you so much. it was very nice to meet you both.” and Alex asked what my name was and I said “Ali” and he smiled. so I walked away and waited for then to come out of the signing area and I talked to the girl beardo was with for a bit and she was so nice! we were making jokes and laughing and then beardo got her and they went back behind the counter to sign and then later in I was just standing watching them sign things and out of the corner of my eye I see the girl turned around and then looked back and then beardo turned around too and they both smiled so big at me and waved!! I was gonna wait until Julian came out because he promised someone to come meet him and his 2 friends after the signing but the guards kicked everyone out like 4 minutes before the voidz finished signing everything.

and I was front row to see the voidz and they were amazing!!!!!!!