i told you this was what i would do

frostbite883  asked:

BtVS Episode, "Becoming, Part 2" AU Question: If Xander Harris had told the Slayer known as Buffy Summers about their other friend's plans on restoring Angelus' soul, what would result in the boy telling her what she wanted and needed to know?

(I love how you’ve framed this question, btw)

First of all, I think Xander delivering Willow’s message wouldn’t have necessarily translated into a different ending. Buffy might have had to kill Angel/us even knowing that Willow was trying to restore his soul. 

What I do think is that Buffy would’ve entered the battle in a different frame of mind. Some people argue that Xander wasn’t trying to be a jerk but he was actually trying to give Buffy the strength she needed to fight Angelus/her former boyfriend. I strongly disagree. I think Xander 100% chose not to deliver that message for purely selfish reasons, reasons that I sort of get. Angelus had killed Jenny and had just kidnapped and tortured Giles, so I understand why Xander wasn’t really rooting for Willow to succeed in performing the spell. Plus, Willow had tried once already and failed, so maybe Xander considered it didn’t really matter whether Buffy knew about it or not if it wasn’t going to work anyway. Regardless of whether his motives were valid or not, he ended up stripping Buffy away of a vital piece of information that might have made her enter the fight with a different mindset. 

We need to remember that Buffy has always found power in her emotions. And not in any kind of emotions; what drives her most of the times is her deep love for others. Now, to go into this fight, Buffy had to let go of her love of Angel because she needed to kill him. Xander’s message reinforced this mindset. She needed to forget she was fighting her former boyfriend and view him only as a target. It’s also important to remember that when Buffy arrived at Angelus’ crypt, he still hadn’t completed the ritual to awaken Acathla… What I’m trying to get at is that had Buffy known the possibility existed of Willow restoring Angel’s soul, she might have approached her opponent in a different way. Her emotions might have helped her stall Angelus or to drive him away from Acathla until the spell had been cast. She might have spent less time fighting his minions so that she could focus on getting him away from the statue, you know? 

EDIT: Plus, she would’ve been better emotionally equipped in the event of Angel getting his soul back mid-fight, as happened… Not knowing that Angel getting his soul back was actually something that could happen as they were fighting made everything so much more traumatic for Buffy, and that’s all on Xander. 

Of course, this is all highly hypothetical. There’s really no way to know, and there’s a big chance she might have ended up having to kill Angel/us all the same. But… (and this is, I think, the biggest way in which things might have turned out differently…)

Xander’s “kick his ass” had an underlying meaning, too. What Buffy got from that message is that neither Xander nor Willow cared about how difficult it was for her to be forced to fight and kill the person she loved. After Angel’s soul was restored and she had killed him, Buffy felt she couldn’t go to her friends for support and comfort because they wanted him dead and they cheered her on to kill him. How could they understand her pain? 

I think that had Xander delivered Willow’s true message, Buffy might have tried to reach out to the Scoobies after the battle because she would’ve understood her friends had her back and weren’t actively rooting for her to be forced to murder the man she loved. The fact that Willow was trying to restore Angel’s soul meant that she didn’t want Buffy to be in a position in which she had to kill the love of her life with her own hands, and more importantly, she wanted Buffy to have the love of her life back

Lacking the knowledge of Willow’s true message, Buffy found herself in a position in which she had no home, no place at school, and no sympathy from her friends regarding what she had gone through with Angel, and I think the last item on that list made all the difference. She truly felt there was no reason for her to stick around. 

Ultimately, even if knowing this hadn’t really changed anything in the slightest, Buffy was still entitled to know. 

TL;DR: forever bitter at Xander for not delivering Willow’s true message

anonymous asked:

Suitors' best pick up line to the princess ^o^)/ love the blog!!!

~~~~hihihi…. hmmm, I’m not very good but here goes…


Leo - *pulls down his glasses and looks over them* Baby, you remind me of an over due library book; you’ve got fine written all over you.

Louis - How much does a polar bear weight? Enough to break the ice ;)

Sid - I like that dress, it’d look better on my bedroom floor… Name’s Sid, remember it ‘cuz you’ll be screaming it later (Sid would have lotsa dirty lines).

Robert - Your parents must be artists, because you are a masterpiece.

Byron - Do you know what this shirt is made of? 100% husband material. I don’t even know what that means, Nico told me to say it.

Albert - I have a pet bunny (1000% effective).

Rayvis - I can’t tell if you’re flirting with me or humoring me.

Alyn - Is your daddy a baker? No… never mind, I was going to ask about a Lemon Meringue recipe…

Giles- Pick up lines…? A man of my status does not use pick up lines (they always failed).

Nico - I’m here to kick ass and make tea, and I’m all out of tea! Oh wait- wrong situation!

I felt a little down when I woke up. I was just laying in bed and thinking of all the things I had to do but don’t want to do or somehow can’t manage to do. I thought that going to the gym would help a bit so I did. When I checked for sport clothes I noticed that I didn’t have any of my usual running pants… Instead I had that short. But I hate shorts because I don’t feel good in it (plus, it’s not always useful for running) and I’m worried of what people my think because you can see cellulite and everything. Anyway… I decided to overcome that and told myself that my body deserves to exercise, and fuck what people might think because I’m here to improve myself! 💪💖

gay-blanket  asked:

hi yes I'm the person who told you about staying up to do homework. So my aunts/grandparents just gave me a lecture on how it's my responsibility to do all my homework, even if it means staying up late or skipping lunch (which I have done). They also said that it's nobody's fault but my own if I fail. I honestly feel like crying because I want to take care of myself but that would mean disappointing the adults because I didn't live up to their standards. What do??¿¿¿

take care of yourself. dont listen to them. you are more important than your grades. it doesnt matter if you disappoint them, it just matters that you’re healthy and well.

anonymous asked:

Do you have prompts for four guys who work in a royal palace as cleaning crew only for them to constantly screw up?

1. “How has he not gotten fired yet?”

“Because we clean up all of his messes.”

“Think we should… You know… Stop?”

2. “You know how I was supposed to sweep the Grand Hall?”

“What did you do?”

“It was just a small-”

“WHAT. DID. YOU. DO?”

3. “Why do you guys protect him?”

“Because he’s one of us. You don’t let your family down.”

4. “You told him to clean the Ballroom? Alone?”

“I thought he could stay out of trouble there.”

“That would explain the crash we just heard.”

5. “Guys, I… I messed up. Again.”

“Don’t worry. We’ll take care of it. Just get yourself cleaned up.”

Hope these help!!! :)

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Brennan: “I am inclined to trust you, but I would feel better with more information.”

Oryen: “So would I.”

Tegon: “Since he doesn’t seem willing to share anything else with us at the moment, perhaps we should instead focus on a plan should we be attacked.”

Adalen: “I agree. If we are attacked here I want to know what we should do. How we would get Sevella and the baby to safety and hopefully ourselves as well.”

Oryen: “I had some ideas on that.”

Brennan: “Then, by all means, tell us.”

Oryen told them about his ideas and they began to put together a few escape plans in case they were unable to remain hidden. Hopefully, they would never have to use them. But they were there should they need them. 

anonymous asked:

Good luck with your group, i really hope things go better for you

Man I’m just really annoyed??? Like it’s a 20 minute presentation worth like 20 or 30% i think. Like this is serious and like honestly my work isn’t that detailed but if they all did the bare minimum like I did we would have enough. Like i made it very clear that I needed the information by tomorrow (saturday) night because I work this weekend and none of them have even given me any sign that it would be done by then. They have all ignored me.

One of the group members hasn’t even been in the chat to see what he needs to do like you are fucking paying to be in this class?? If you don’t pass this class you can’t move onto second year??? I don’t get how people can just overlook that and not do their fucking assignments.

Anyways I emailed my professor and I told her what was going on and made it clear that I don’t have the time to pick up their slack if they don’t give me their info. I’m just hoping she understands. This isn’t just one person not doing their part it’s literally my whole group and i’m just really annoyed,,

ANYWAYS THANKS ANON I JUST HAD TO RANT MORE ABOUT THIS 

anonymous asked:

All through Dylan's writings, he told us how different he was. The way he acted, the way he looked, how he thought, how he felt. Do you think Dylan just wanted to force himself to think that there was no escaping his inevitable infinite solidarity, or do you think that he thought no matter what he did, how old he got, how much he learned or understood, he simply would not be able to relate and transition into being a functioning member of society as a whole with the rest of the 'humans'?

I think more so that Dylan thought that no matter what happened in his life, he was never going to be able to a ‘functioning’ member of society. At that point he’d been depressed for about 2 years. To quote Dylan’s journal, “Sadness seems infinite, & the shell of happiness shines around. Yet the true despair overcomes it this lifetime.” or to use a better quote from his journal “Being made human. Without the possibility of BEING human. The cruelest of all punishments” I’ve read his journal in its entirety once about a year ago but from what i can remember right now Dylan talked quite a bit about how he thought he would never really be able to fit in with the rest of the ‘humans.’ To summarize though I think Dylan truly thought that no matter who he met, what he learned, or how old he got that he would never be able to a ‘functioning’ member of society and really fit in with everyone around him.

anonymous asked:

I don't understand why people feel the need to lecture you over anon... having a knee jerk reaction to something, especially something that is stess inducing such as thinking your friend is about to get mad at you, is VERY hard to prevent. Human brains just do shit like that. If you're conditioned to lie then you lie. Other people laugh when they get in trouble yet they certainly don't think the situation is funny. You understand what you did wrong and you fixed it. Everyone else just shut up.

yeah!! i mean obviously if i was thinking rationally and didnt feel scared then i would have just told the truth in the moment instead of wallowing in guilt and confessing the next day lmao it would have saved me a lot of trouble, but not every brain is perfect when it feels under pressure. but yeah immediately after it happened i knew it was wrong of me to do it and the problem has been resolved. thank u for the message!!

you know what trope pisses me off the most? when the protag is pointing a gun at somebody and they’re like “you won’t do it. you’re too good” and the person holding the gun is like oh shit i am and they slowly lower the gun while the other person laughs. WHAT THE FUCK. if i were there, and somebody told me “you won’t do it” i would immediately shoot them dead without hesitating. who are you to tell me what i wont do. musty bitch

So I came home from work today and there was a kindle addressed to me that I did not remember ordering. I spent the afternoon trying to figure out how I accidentally purchased a kindle from Amazon, and when I came back from hanging out with Catherine, I told my parents, guys, you will not believe what I accidentally ordered for myself. 

“Huh,” said Dad very casually. “Did you get charged for it?” 

I spent the next five minutes checking my bank account and came back into the living room to announce, “No, I didn’t. Do you think it’s a mistake? But it has my name on it! what does this mean”

It was around the time that I started to sound panicked that Dad confessed to buying it for me (“I didn’t realize the mystery of it would be so terrifying”). Which was very, very sweet and slightly unfortunate because yesterday I purchased a replacement kindle for myself. 

So anyway, we now have a family kindle 

How often my conversations about feminism have spiraled into requests for assault. I say, “Women don’t need men to defend them,” and am asked, “Can I punch you, then?” And I say, “Women belong in movies and video games and everything,” and I hear terrible things, unprintable slurs and demands for my assault, the threatening of a young woman to shut up: What they would do to silence me. The things they’d shove between my teeth. I say, “Men cannot threaten any woman they disagrees with,” and I’m told, “Women are just as cruel. Am I not supposed to respond in kind?” In my inbox today I have deleted sixteen messages asking for my life. When I say, “Your virginity only means what you want it to mean,” I’m asked, “If you believe in sexual freedom can I fuck you?” When I say “All it takes to be a woman is to want to be a woman,” I am asked, “So if I just say that I’m a woman, can I watch you in the shower?” As if women stand shadowy behind each other in our private moments. As if being woman means sexually assaulting each other.

Part of me - cynical, unwilling to be frightened, says that it might be a nice dose of reality. My shower where I am naked but my hair becomes streaky and thin, where my body sags, where my makeup smears. To witness a woman less than sexy, legs akimbo while shaving, pulling up flab thighs to reach the underside. Part of me dares them to punch me because I fight to win and am small but I’ll kill a man if he touches me. Once I dropped a U.S Marine. Part of me, hellfire and ice queen - says come on, then. You want a fight? Come fight me.

But more is scared. More timidly deletes messages, makes sure my name is hidden, doesn’t answer the endless antifeminist comments. The insertion of men and their opinion on simple things like “I teach children to ask before hugging.” When I close my eyes sometimes I wonder if they’re right and that scares me. How much am I going to change when my voice only echoes around me.

Why are you angry. Why are you angry. What do you think we are taking from you? If it’s not already equal why would equality frighten you.

The ancient art of being a woman and trying to get your voice heard: the gentle suggestion, the peaceful comment. The quiet listening to another opinion and the fact we must acknowledge it before we can continue. That I must educate, be sweet, be feminine in my feminism or else it’s “invalid.” I must present my declaration as a timid thing: “Women maybe should be part of more things.” And then the apologies: of course I don’t hate men, yes I like plenty of things with men in them, no I don’t think women are better. And then the explanations: women are people, here is the number of women in media, here is the number of dead women in media, here are the number of shows led by men. And then I brace for it. For the bullying.

Every time I speak it’s from a flinch. From “maybe this isn’t always the case but for me it is.” From please listen. From less demanding. God forbid I state factually that men are violent. If I speak about our fathers and brothers and the cycle of anger unfolding. God forbid I suggest that just once we should cut the bullshit and treat women well without pandering to men about how that helps them. What if I say “Men shouldn’t hit anyone. Hitting isn’t an answer.”

I’ll tell you what happens. The post was up for four seconds with three notes. The message I get is “If hitting isn’t allowed I’ll just go ahead and shove a gun down your throat.”

can i just say something?

when I was a kid, I told my mom that I wanted to be an actress when I grew up. You know what she told me?

She said, “sure, but you’re going to have to do it in China. America won’t hire you if you’re Asian.”

And that was it for that dream. 

Of course, that was just a phase - one of many, one I would’ve gotten over anyway. But what she said stuck to me. You’re going to have to act in China, because America doesn’t hire Asians.

And if there’s anything I learned over these years, it’s that she was right. Asian-Americans don’t get to see ourselves on screen. We don’t get to read about our deeds. And we get pissed. We complain, we shout, and people dismiss us because, oh, “the Japanese are okay with Ghost in the Shell”, and “I’ve heard that mainland Chinese are perfectly fine with Iron Fist.” Well, great for them. This isn’t about them.

This is about us. Asian-Americans. Asian-Canadians. Asian-Australians. Asian hyphen something. And the Asians in Asia don’t understand - because they can’t. They’re surrounded by media portrayals of them. They never have to fight for representation because it’s always there. They have no idea what it’s like to live in a country that sees you as other, and then to have to go back to your home country, to have your parents tell you “this is you, this is your culture, your heritage” and you look upon the faces of your family and you see nothing of yourself in them. 

Asian-Americans are not the same as Asians who live in Asia. We live in a different culture. Our values, our beliefs, the experiences that shape our lives are separate. 

We want to see ourselves in western media because it’s what we grew up with. It’s what surrounds us. Sure, we can watch K-dramas and anime and Chinese/Taiwanese/Japanese/whatever dramas, and a lot of us do, but it’s still not us

We shouldn’t have to go watch Asian dramas just to see a part of us represented. We shouldn’t have to move to Asia just to be hired. 

We deserve to represent, and be represented, as ourselves.

Private eye: *holds up photo* Have you seen this guy around here recently?

Me: I don’t know, my memory isn’t all that great, if you know what I mean

Private eye: *slides me $50* Maybe this would help you remember?

Me, pocketing the money: Wow thanks dude, don’t know if it’ll do much to help but i’m willing to try anything at this point, by the way what was your name again? i know you told me like a minute ago but I kinda forgot

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Oklahoma Rep. wants men to have more say in women’s abortions, says women are just “hosts”

  • The Oklahoma rep behind the state’s most recent abortion bill thinks it’s time men were allowed a little more say in what women do with their bodies — because women are mere “hosts” who don’t always treat their wombs responsibly.
  • “I believe one of the breakdowns in our society is that we have excluded the man out of all of these types of decisions,” Oklahoma Rep. Justin Humphrey told The Intercept.
  • His bill, HB 1441, would require women seeking abortions to first obtain the father’s written permission.
  • “I understand that they feel like that is their body,” he continued, referring to women. “I feel like it is a separate — what I call them is, is you’re a ‘host.’ And you know when you enter into a relationship you’re going to be that host and so, you know, if you pre-know that then take all precautions and don’t get pregnant.” Read more (2/14/17 8:00 AM)

i miss you and i make myself sick over it like i told my mother i was doing well but i’m listening to music about lost lovers and watching the rain fall and letting myself sink into it. what i mean is that yesterday if you’d asked me to come home to you i would have run out in the snow for you. what i mean is i can’t let myself let go of you.

i went to the psychiatrist today, looking to get a professional diagnosis for bpd. when i told her that i think i have bpd she said “oh good! its really hard to diagnose people with things when they have no idea what they might have.” she also said that if i think i have bpd, then i probably have bpd. its that simple. she even told me to do my own research and come to my own conclusions and then bring back what ive put together. so everyone that has said that my self diagnosis was stupid or wrong, eat my entire ass.

yuuri and viktor are sort of both trash at understanding each other right off the bat in emotional moments but what i really, really, really love is that when one of them fucks up, the other person doesn’t hold it in and let that problem grow and feelings get worse–they get mad. and they say that.

when viktor ~shattered his glass heart~ in episode 7, yuuri didn’t just get hurt, he was angry that he was hurt. so he told viktor exactly what the problem was. just saying “sorry, i didn’t mean it” doesn’t fix it. yuuri actually straight up says “i know you didn’t mean it, but that you’d say it at all fucking sucks, and in the future here is what i want out of you. here is what you can do better.”

and viktor!! listens!!! he visibly throughout the rest of the series has made efforts to avoid behavior that would upset yuuri like that again.

and it’s reversed in episode 12. yuuri absolutely shocks viktor, and viktor says to him, “you’re being selfish. you’re hurting me. and i’m mad.” yuuri doesn’t exactly… get why viktor feels that way, but when he sees viktor clamming up again before his free skate he essentially just says “cut it out with this coach act and express yourself” and that brings down their walls.

compatible couples don’t have to be on a perfect wavelength. they don’t have to know, without question, what the other person is thinking. there are always going to be communication issues. and yuuri and viktor absolutely have them!! but what matters is how you deal with it and how you resolve it and when you’re open with the fact that there is even an issue at all.

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What would you say is the biggest problem facing young women today?

We think that we live in a post-feminist society, and we do not. We’re told we don’t need feminism anymore, that we have the vote, that like, we’re all good. And I think, actually, that’s incredibly disconcerting because then, when young women move into the world and they realize, Oh, why am I not being paid the same, why am I being treated differently? And they start to blame themselves because they don’t understand that they’re part of a historic pattern, they’re part of a much larger system which is kind of working a little bit against them. (x)

Hospital Starters
  • [ Requested by Anon about a week ago. Warnings for blood, suicidal thoughts, and medical stuff. Thanks! : ]
  • "Hey, you're awake!"
  • "Where am I?"
  • "You hit your head. There was so much blood that I got scared."
  • "Don't try to get up. You're safe here."
  • "I hate this place..."
  • "How could you do this to yourself?"
  • "The world didn't give me a choice, and now, I'm suffering even more!"
  • "You really came..."
  • "I told you I would be here when you woke up."
  • "How many tests did they do on you?"
  • "If I wasn't drugged up, I could tell you the names of every test they do in this place."
  • "When are they going to let you leave?"
  • "They said that I'll be here for a few days. Maybe a week."
  • "What happened to you? You have so many things sticking out of you."
  • "That's what happens when you're dying."
  • "It's probably time to change those bandages..."
  • "You aren't in pain, are you?"
  • "You were in an accident. You almost didn't make it."
  • "That would explain why I feel terrible."
  • "I thought you were dead..."
  • "I'm not dead, am I?"
  • "I didn't know it was this bad..."
  • "I may not live much longer..."
  • "I'm dying..."
  • "You can't die! There has to be something they can do!"
  • "I'm too far gone for any surgery to fix me."
  • "I want you to know that I'll miss you most."
  • "Don't say that! I don't like it when you talk like this..."
  • "I just want it to happen so I don't have to think about it all the time."
  • "I wanted to say goodbye to you one more time."
  • "If you don't get some sleep, I'm going to hit this button and tell a nurse you're bothering me."
  • "Don't abuse that call button!"
  • "You know that button only works every five seconds, right?"
  • "Maybe if I push it hard enough, more will come out."
  • "I get to come home today."
  • "Did you fill out the release forms yet?"
  • "They hooked me up with a bunch of prescriptions. I'm gonna be high as a kite."