i thought this was quite lovely

i didn’t know it at the time,
but this would destroy the both of us.
so i guess it is true,
we become the poetry we never intended to write.
when i called it quits,
i knew you were going to be determined to hate me.
but i never would have dreamed it would hurt like this.
i’m so sorry, love, i had to leave.
i swear it was nothing but my best intentions.
but i know that isn’t good enough for either of us.
i suppose the truth is,
poison only tastes like poison after you swallow it.
& i’ve finally come to understand
that there is no name for the man that leaves.
so now i’m looking at his hands around your waist
but i swear to God i can feel them around my neck.
so i’ll throw back 17 more shots,
and pretend that this is not the way things are destined to be.
& i’ll begin to recall the person i wanted to be,
and how i was never able to get it quite right.  
i could have been a better man for you.
so now i’ll spend nights trying to sleep,
and instead of counting sheep, i’ll count every one of my mistakes.
and i just want you to know that i’d trade everything i’ve ever had
just to have the backbone of a man.
—  “the contrition of the dead man” -k.m.k

i haven’t smoked a cigarette in 72 hours yay

honestly it’s really sad and scary that spending 3 days smoke free is this fucking hard. i always kept saying yeah sure i could quit anytime i wanted but guess what bitch haha 

but i have the best support system which i’m grateful for

not only my boyfriend is on his way over as we speak so i’m not alone at home wishing for a cigarette, his family’s been texting me, encouraging me all day saying that they’re proud of me 

eviljaffafish  asked:

The 1975 and Catfish And The Bottlemen

Okay this is really hard. I’ve asked this to myself many times tbh and the answer changes every time. I know this wasn’t meant to go that deep but I have got quite a few things to say on the subject.

Soooo I started listening to both bands in the early 2016 but Catb came first, chronologically speaking. I must say that my love for Catb was immediate, while it took me a while to fully appreciate The 1975, going beyond stereotypes and preconceptions and even overcoming my general intolerance for their fan base (which still annoys the fuck out of me tbh but whatever). I gave Matty the benefit of the doubt though (as he likes to say lol) and after listening to their second album in full, I saw the light: Matty Healy is a genius and my Lord and Savior. Musically speaking, The 1975 are probably a better band than Catfish: they are more skilled and creative musicians, George is a brilliant producer. The 1975 are true artists and I love how they created this clear “setting” for their music, with a definite aesthetic and beautiful atmospheres. I think The 1975 can be labelled as “creative geniuses” without hesitation.

On the other hand, Catb have always said they don’t care about being “creative or revolutionary” when it comes to music and they rather stick to the good old guitar band formula that comes straight from the 90s- early 2000s indie scene. And I’m perfectly fine with that because, at the end if the day, that’s the kind of music that brings me joy. Catb are, virtually, the prototype of my ideal band. I love all of their influences and, If I was in a band, I’d probably follow their steps.

The 1975 have a more charismatic leader, in my very humble and biased opinion. Matty is literally a sum of Richey Edwards, Nicky Wire, Kurt Cobain and Peter Doherty altogether and then he adds something that is peculiarly “his”. Matty is set to be an icon. I also love the fact that he uses his position to bring attention to important issues, he’s very woke and clever, he’s got something to say, which you hardly ever see in young acts today. 

When it comes to song-writing, I can’t really tell who’s best. I personally tend to identify more with Van’s lyrics because they feel more “real” to me in a way. That’s probably because Van and I come from a rather similar background, that’s probably why I feel more close to his experiences and the stories he writes about in his songs, which are, as he stated, based on his and his friends’s lives. Matty’s songwriting is more abstract and “romantic” (not “romantic” in the sense of cheesy, more like… 18th century’s romanticism, if you know what I mean). With this I don’t mean to say that Matty’s lyrics are less personal or true than Van’s, they just come from a different place and there seems to be a totally different approach to songwriting in general. Again, Matty probably is a better writer than Van, from an objective point of view. I love them both, I just feel more close to Van’s lifestyle and that’s why I identify more with him.

In conclusion, there have been times when all I wanted to listen to were Catb and other times when I was utterly obsessed with the 1975. It depends on my mood, really. The reason why I can’t really choose between them is because I see them as two faces of a coin. They represent different sides of me and different moods. They were the two bands that truly defined 2016 and 2017, which were two key years for me. Actually, to say that this period of time was one of the most life changing of my life is an understatement. And Catb and The 1975 have been the soundtrack to that. So, they are both incredibly important and I can’t choose because I love them and uuugggghhhh I’ll stop fangirling now.

This post was utterly unnecessary, delete meeee. 

anonymous asked:

gosh darn it you're straight :(

i never thought there would come a day where someone would be sad about me being straight dklfsglsdkfjg wow i’m quite flattered!! sending u lots of love 🌟

Dave or Romeo who would have imagined it?

Originally posted by stydia-barnes

Part one, Part two, Part three

You sat in your room, eyes stinging with tears, your nose running, it was quite disgusting. Your pajama shirt was covered in tear stains, you had half a mind to change it but who would care.

“ Excuse me, everyone !” someone exclaimed outside. You shook your head. ‘ stupid drunks‘ you thought.  “My name is Dave Hodgman and I am in love with Y/n Y/l/n!” You bolted up from your position on your bed and ran to the window. There he was, standing on your lawn proclaiming his love for you.

“What the fuck?” You gasped, grabbing your hoodie and sprinting downstairs. You flung the door open. Dave spun around facing you.

“Y/n I’m-” He babbled advancing towards her. 

“What the shit, Hodgman?” Dave winced at the use of his last name, you’d never called him that, not once. “ Are you trying to get yourself arrested?” you yelled.

“If that’s what it takes for you to hear me out then, Yeah!” you flung your arms out in confusion. Why was he doing this now, was it out of pity?

“If this is just some pitiful-” Dave rushed forward, taking your waist in his grasp pulling you against him.

“It’s not, I’m sorry, I’m sorry I didn’t see it sooner, feel it sooner. You’re the one, Y/n, you’re the girl I’d travel across the world to see, you’re the girl I would walk five hundred miles for” You chuckled at the song reference. “You’re the girl that steals my hoodies and I pretend not to notice because I know how much you love them” He mumbled pulling on the navy hoodie that you had actually stolen from him.

Dave placed his hand on your cheek, slowly caressing it. You melted into his touch. 

“ Be the Mary Jane to my Peter Parker.” You nodded staring into his beautiful eyes. He glanced down at your plump lips, asking. You said nothing but snaked your hand around the back of his neck and pressed your lips against his. It felt amazing. Applause echoed from across the street. You both turned to look and caught the eyes of several neighbors.

You laughed, pulling Dave towards your house, where no one would be around to applaud the next thing you do.

anonymous asked:

Are you still taking Billy requests? Cause if you are I’d love to see more about him being really protective and possessive and jealous?? Thank you!!

Hello, so I have a couple requests surrounding these emotions from Billy, so I thought I’d do this request as a headcanon of how he acts with these feelings in general :) Thank you for requesting! xx

  • I think that he can be quite insecure of himself, and therefore makes himself believe that you aren’t good enough for him and that someone else is gonna come along and take you away.
  • So whenever he’s with you, he makes sure a hand is on your waist or in yours.
  • He kisses you in the school halls in front of boys he’s secretly intimidated by as reassurance for himself, more so.
  • Once you date for a longer period of time, he becomes more confident, and the public affection isn’t purely because he lacks self confidence.
  • He’ll be all over you, kissing your neck and pulling you towards him by your hips.
  • At parties and social gatherings he can get quite possessive and jealous.
  • He shows being possessive as his protectiveness, just furthering it.
  • Also, omg, like whenever there’s lots of “”threats”” aka the basketball team or large groups of boys, he’s vv possessive.
  • He can get quite jealous when he sees you talking to basically anyone.
  • He feels like you’re talking to someone else because he’s boring or something.
  • Which isn’t true at all.
  • Whenever someone tries flirting with you or offers you a drink, he’s over in a flash, butting in and snapping a comment to the person.
  • You can get kind of annoyed with him, because he tends to go over the top, but you do enjoy that he cares.
  • He tries to calm down, as he knows how you feel, but honestly his mind just blanks and he does what his impulse is.
  • When he’s jealous, he gets quiet at first. Ignoring you, or just being really short with his answers.
  • You already know what happened, and reassure him that everything is fine.
  • He then grows sort of angry. Not at you, but at the other person, however because you’re there he ends up yelling at you.
  • You walk off to give him space, but he chases after you and apologises.
  • Other times, he straight up gets angry and in the other persons face.
  • Many fights have happened because he’s gotten jealous and/or protective.
  • He really doesn’t want to lose you, so he tries his hardest to keep anything that could get in the way at bay.
  • You both end up in many arguments because of his impulses and short temper, but he is trying to better himself - especially in those respects.
  • He’s a soft boy, who only wants the best for you.
  • He has a difficult time figuring out his mind, thoughts, heart, and feelings.
  • He usually regrets every hit to a guys face, every word yelled at you, and every time you walk away because of him.
  • He loves you, a lot. And he’s scared to lose that.

Just got back from seeing Justice League with @biffelderberry! It was… a mess, but at least a mostly enjoyable mess lol Quite a bit of annoying sexism, but also waaaay gayer than I thought it would be. Like, so gay I’m not sure there’s a heterosexual explanation for one of the main plot points gay. Also, Barry Allen is precious and I love him. Hands down the best part of the movie, closely followed by Aquaman being half naked and dripping water.

i have a few food aversions. when i tell people this, at first they’re horrified. ice cream? you can’t eat ice cream? oh i had a terrible stomach bug, once, and it was involved. oh, you poor thing. 

first time i tried tequlia i thought it was like vodka and did nine shots in an hour and ended up in the hospital. five years later i can finally drink it again but i no longer can do shots in any situation. same, buddy, happens to the best of us.

can’t eat nutella. i thought you liked it? used to love it before i was allergic and now it gives me itches. sorry about that, i feel for you.

milk? always. what about milk and cookies, i’ve seen you eat that. sometimes, if i’m careful, and other things are in my stomach, my allergy to lactose is okay. sometimes i can have quite a lot in one day. sometimes none at all. makes sense, okay.

i can’t look at bare razors. specifically, x-acto blades. if they’re in a holder they’re okay. but if they’re out and by themselves my brain starts to shout things. when people tell me to lose weight, sirens start sounding. 

but you can’t tell people that. “triggered” is a joke now. what, are you triggered by a dropped plate?

i don’t like to eat meat if i don’t know where it came from. oh, that’s fine, then. i don’t like to listen to certain songs because they remind me of when bad things were happening. i don’t get it, though. it’s over and done with.


get to know meme: favorite movies {5/5} » the hunchback of notre dame (1996)

see there the innocent blood you have spilt
on the steps of notre dame
now you would add this child’s blood to your guilt
on the steps of notre dame?

Canceled Date (Steve Harrington x Female Reader)

Summary: After you had to cancel your date with Steve because you have to babysit your sister, Steve invites himself over and manages to show you a completely different side to him.

Word Count: 2512

Warnings: none, maybe just OOC Steve

Note: First time writing for Steve but ay whatever. I hope you all enjoy! Feel free to tell me what ya think! :)

Originally posted by ilovenarcisse

It wasn’t every night your parents would leave you to take care of your 8 month old sister, but after your father got a promotion at his job, they wanted to celebrate. You really didn’t want to ruin their celebration, so you offered to take care of little Anna for as long as they needed you to.

The only bad part was that you had to cancel your date with your boyfriend. You were dating Steve Harrington, the “King” of the school. He had told he really didn’t care about that title, and it was a bit stupid. You have been dating for at least 3 months, and your parents absolutely adored him, and you like to think his parents adore you too.

Anyway, Steve had been a bit upset when you told him you had to cancel. You were both going to watch a movie at his house since you worked at the theater and didn’t want to be there any longer than you needed to.

“Come on (y/n), we’ve been planning this for a week,” Steve said over the phone, you sighed.

“I know, I know- maybe tomorrow I can come over,” you said, feeling bad. Steve was silent for a moment.

“I’ll let it slide this time, but you have to promise me that we’ll spend the whole day together.” You furrowed your eyebrows.

“The whole day?” you asked, you can see him nodding.

“Yup! To make up for all the other times you had to cancel!” You scoffed.

“I only canceled once before this!” you claimed, he hummed.

“All day tomorrow so clear your schedule, babe,” You were silent for a moment, before a smile grew on your lips.

“I’ll get to that…I’m really sorry, Steve,” you apologized again.

“It’s alright (y/n), what are you doing anyway, I didn’t even ask,”

“I have to watch Anna, my parents are going out to celebrate or something,” you shrugged, moving on your stomach, holding your phone against your ear.

“You have to babysit?” he asked, his voice changing suddenly, like he was excited. You nodded as if he could see you.

“Yeah- I’m not canceling on you for no reason,” you laughed, Steve laughed as well. Your heart sped up because you really loved hearing his laugh.

“You know what- our date is not being canceled, tell your parents I’ll be there in 10 minutes,” Your smile fell, and you tilted your head.


“You heard me! I’ll be there in ten minutes,” You could just hear him get up, and grab his car keys. You sat up.

“Steve! My parents aren’t going to like it if my boyfriend comes over while they’re gone- they might think-”

“Come on- we’re going to babysit, that’s all! I’ll see you in ten minutes! Love you!” Your jaw dropped. Was he seriously going to come over?

“(y/n)?” his voice broke you out of your thoughts and you shook off.

“I love you too, but if my parents turn you away at the door- don’t blame me!” He laughed, and you did too, before the line went dead.

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your love could start a war

billy hargrove x reader

words: 1303 (this one got long idk i love dacre’s face)

warnings: language, fighting

request:  Could you do an Imagine where Billy flirts with the reader and he’s like a dick to everyone else but her and he even kicks someone’s ass because the person tried to flirt with the reader. Like not as aggressively as his fight with Steve at the end. Thanks if you do it :)

Billy Hargrove had a reputation. It wasn’t a good one, as most saw him as kind of a dick. His ‘fuck you’ attitude and disregard for what people thought of him, most of Hawkins wasn’t quite sure how to feel about him. Most were intimidated, trying to fly under his radar. But you never really understood why.

You’d only ever seen him as caring and kind since the first day you met him. He was always more concerned of you than himself. He gave you a sea of compliments, no matter how many times you told him to stop, and was the first person you called when you just needed something. From the first day you met him, he was nothing but the most amazing guy in the world, it was hard to think of him as otherwise. He always sat with you at lunch on the same bench every day, even though it wasn’t his lunch period. You sat on the bench now, basking in the sunlight and waiting for him.

“How’s my favorite girl?”

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Voltron Rebel AU: Keith and Lance

Concept outfit designs.

Can’t wait to do Rebel Klance with @boku-no-heroo at Katsucon 2018!!!

You know, a person can only give so much. Can only try so hard. After that, they break. They break down, they give up, they quit. They realize that maybe, maybe it’s not worth it. It’s a one way street, and they can’t turn around. You can’t expect someone to keep going, when you give them no where to go…..
The Avengers Live Reading of ‘Our Town’: A Mini-Recap

Once more, moving back to the big city proved to be of a large benefit to me for fangirl reasons–it was announced a couple weeks ago that Scarlett Johansson was putting on a live-read of ‘Our Town’ with most of the cast of the original Avengers (we were only missing Hemsworth) as well as some local talent. The proceeds went to Puerto Rico, and so it was basically a win-win all around, so I scraped together the cash to go. 

It was hosted at the Fox Theatre in Atlanta, GA (which was also on my bucket list, so yay!) and it makes sense, as they are currently filming Infinity War Part 2 in our lovely city, so it was very kind of them to take a night to put this performance on for us and to help the relief efforts in Puerto Rico.

Because I am currently and perpetually impoverished, I had to take one of the seats that was pretty far away, but I was still able to see and hear the cast just fine. The theatre itself is quite lovely (although for some reason the bathrooms were disgusting, wtf) and everything moved smoothly once it was time for the show to start.

If you follow me, you might’ve seen my recap for the Hugh Jackman Princess Bride Live-Reading, and this was in the same vein, though it was slightly more formal since it was at the Fox Theatre and not at a college campus full of dorky twenty-somethings. As a result, this is just a few moments I felt were worth sharing once again for your entertainment.

Disclaimer: I have never seen nor read Our Town. Don’t ask me why–just never had the opportunity, so I apologize that I don’t remember character’s names and motivations well, but I’ll do my best.

The first really great moment to report was that towards the beginning of the play, Chris Evans (playing Mr. Webb), had a page missing from his script. So they all turned their pages and then there was this hysterical silence for a good 10-15 seconds while they all tried to figure out whose line it was and then the darling meatball Chris Evans goes, “I’m missing Page 12″ and we all proceed to laugh our asses off. Even better, he jokes, “I knew it was me! I just knew it!” It was a genuinely adorable moment.

The next great moment was when Mark Ruffalo, playing Jeremy Renner’s father, was admonishing his son for being lazy, and there’s this exchange:

Ruffalo: Son, how old are you?

Renner: (beat) I’m sixteen. (in a deep, clearly adult voice) Dad.

Cue the theatre cracking up.

After that, we had a running joke slipped in there after a particularly funny line read that sent Renner into a gigglefit and after he recovered, we had this gem:

Evans: Are you okay?

Renner: Yeah, I’m okay. I have page 12.

Again, laid the whole room out laughing.

And the final moment is just a bonus for any Marvel fans still out there shipping Hawkeye/Black Widow: Renner and ScarJo played Emily and George, who fall in love, and they even shared a little kiss and held hands and even though I don’t ship it, I thought you guys would like to know that. It was cute as hell.

On the non-humorous side, I’d have to say that RDJ and ScarJo were the stand out performances. RDJ played the narrator, and I think his very iconic speech patterns made the narrator’s lines really jump off the page and into the ears. ScarJo did a marvelous job with the emotional angle that comes to a head in the final act of the play, and I would venture to say it must be very personal to her or be something she loved prior to the reading because she seemed quite invested in it. I also enjoyed the hell out of Chris Evans as the kind of hunky-dory father character, using his super-earnest Cap voice for the role. 

Side note: In that photo, you can see how far away I am from the stage, right? Tell me why I could still see how incredibly built Chris Evans was even from all the way back there? He had this tight black t-shirt on and some grey sweatpants, and when he got up to leave, I was like:

Originally posted by somenerdthing


Anyway, I’m so terribly glad I was able to go because it was a wonderful production that is for an amazing cause. I’m happy to report that they raised $500,000 for Puerto Rico. It was truly an unforgettable night.

What I Realized

Originally posted by pinkharold

This made my heart so happy. Thank you for requesting! Also, I hope you guys enjoy this gif of Harry from a wedding, it actually made my heart melt. Love you all so much. xx - L

A video of you and Harry from a wedding goes viral online.

Warnings: None

Word Count: 996

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