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What Lovely Lovers

I was looking through some old writing and found this; thought it was okay enough to share. The first line is an allusion to Joseph Conrad’s novella, Heart of Darkness. If you’re not familiar with it and the historical context in which it was written, then I’m not sure how much sense the line makes.

They were more beautiful than King Leopold’s ivory, more learned than Kurtz and darker than his heart. How many people had died for them, no one will ever truly know. But that was not important now. No one counts the grains of sand in a desert, and they were endless. But even deserts had life. They were death personified. No, not personified. They were monsters. An amalgamation of grief and hate and humanity boiled over, overcooked, burned, charred—nothing but toxic ash.

Oh lovely, lovely, lovers. Perhaps it started as a caustic joke, a sarcastic remark, but he knew within the depths of his shared soul that it was true. They were always embracing.

A wide grin split his face, split his mind, split his soul. He shattered into sand.

Dark Spear sparked, bright and black.

How romantic.

hey guys! here is my repost. i took down the original so id appreciate if you’d reblog this version instead!

it was brought to my attention that despite my thoughts/intentions at the time, my coloring mashup of the two hams can be really harmful! there needs to be clear separation between these characters we have been given and the actual found fathers and i may have accidentally blurred the lines on that with my original post. i really hope my followers and this fandom understands that my mashup/color was misplaced in a lineup with the cast and i hope this clears things up. im truly sorry to anyone i may have hurt or misinformed!

I had to learn how to be a monster
and I taught every lesson myself.

My claws were just nails
before I dug them deep into earth
and they emerged as sharp branches.

My teeth were just teeth,
blunt with river rock polished edges,
until I broke them on the forest floor,
chewed flint like fudge
and spat out the last softness
that sheltered on my tongue.

I took the human being I had been
and shaped her into a shadow, a demon,
a being of power.

My hands forgot to be anything but fists,
holding only strength and resolve,
my mouth forgot what it was to smile,
forgot kindness, but it learned how to bite,
it learned how to bare teeth like knives

My heart was the hardest part,
still weak with each beat,
because even monsters can learn how to love
but you don’t need to hold hands
when you can hold the world at your feet.

I had to learn how to be a monster.


Because the world wanted me weak,
and afraid and ashamed.
It wanted me docile.

And I wanted to prove I was more.

So when even our heroes were bowing to pressure,
I remade myself iron

- i had to learn how to be a monster // l.s.

For me, writing is like breathing. With the importance I place on it, you would think ink runs through my veins. Some days, I treat each word I pen like an individual star, writing and writing in hopes that maybe someday, someone will read these lines and deem my existence a constellation, something beautiful and worth remembering. Other days, I write simply because I must. The words I’ve left unspoken claw at my throat, it doesn’t make sense to do anything else but get them down on paper, and it feels like nothing will make sense until I do. But at the end of the day, I know that regardless of the reason, as long as there is breath in this body and these fingers have the strength to curl around a pen or press the keys of a keyboard, I will write. There will always be a voice that needs to be heard. There will always be a poem that needs to be written.
—  World Poetry Day // Maxwell Diawuoh (@maxwelldpoetry)
“Shock events“

A thought via Ken Fletcher courtesy of Heather Richardson, professor of History at Boston College: please read and consider.

I don’t like to talk about politics on Facebook– political history is my job, after all, and you are my friends– but there is an important non-partisan point to make today.

What Bannon is doing, most dramatically with last night’s ban on immigration from seven predominantly Muslim countries– is creating what is known as a “shock event.”

Such an event is unexpected and confusing and throws a society into chaos. People scramble to react to the event, usually along some fault line that those responsible for the event can widen by claiming that they alone know how to restore order.

When opponents speak out, the authors of the shock event call them enemies. As society reels and tempers run high, those responsible for the shock event perform a sleight of hand to achieve their real goal, a goal they know to be hugely unpopular, but from which everyone has been distracted as they fight over the initial event. There is no longer concerted opposition to the real goal; opposition divides along the partisan lines established by the shock event.

Last night’s Executive Order has all the hallmarks of a shock event. It was not reviewed by any governmental agencies or lawyers before it was released, and counterterrorism experts insist they did not ask for it. People charged with enforcing it got no instructions about how to do so. Courts immediately have declared parts of it unconstitutional, but border police in some airports are refusing to stop enforcing it.

Predictably, chaos has followed and tempers are hot.
My point today is this: unless you are the person setting it up, it is in no one’s interest to play the shock event game. It is designed explicitly to divide people who might otherwise come together so they cannot stand against something its authors think they won’t like.

I don’t know what Bannon is up to– although I have some guesses– but because I know Bannon’s ideas well, I am positive that there is not a single person whom I consider a friend on either side of the aisle– and my friends range pretty widely– who will benefit from whatever it is.

If the shock event strategy works, though, many of you will blame each other, rather than Bannon, for the fallout. And the country will have been tricked into accepting their real goal.

But because shock events destabilize a society, they can also be used positively. We do not have to respond along old fault lines. We could just as easily reorganize into a different pattern that threatens the people who sparked the event.

A successful shock event depends on speed and chaos because it requires knee-jerk reactions so that people divide along established lines. This, for example, is how Confederate leaders railroaded the initial southern states out of the Union.

If people realize they are being played, though, they can reach across old lines and reorganize to challenge the leaders who are pulling the strings. This was Lincoln’s strategy when he joined together Whigs, Democrats, Free-Soilers, anti-Nebraska voters, and nativists into the new Republican Party to stand against the Slave Power.

Five years before, such a coalition would have been unimaginable. Members of those groups agreed on very little other than that they wanted all Americans to have equal economic opportunity. Once they began to work together to promote a fair economic system, though, they found much common ground. They ended up rededicating the nation to a “government of the people, by the people, and for the people.”

Confederate leaders and Lincoln both knew about the political potential of a shock event. As we are in the midst of one, it seems worth noting that Lincoln seemed to have the better idea about how to use it.

To my utter delight, Tangled: Before Ever After seems to have writers who want to look into the flaws and traumas of the characters and show a deep, nuanced story about how Eugene and Rapunzel made it to the wedding. The most important and promising addition the writers made to this plot line is the character of Cassandra.

“Rapunzel” is a slightly squicky fairy tale. Even in the sanitized versions, it’s a bit creepy that she marries literally the first man she’s ever seen. To really convince us that Rapunzel and Eugene belong together, we need to know that Rapunzel has other friends aside from the man who brought her out of the tower.

Cassandra is just the type of friend that Rapunzel needs. She knows palace life and can help Rapunzel navigate the etiquette and routine. She’s blunt and a bit of a rule-breaker, and can provide a break from the prim-and-proper princess routine with some straightforward talk or an adventure outside the castle.

Most importantly–she hates Eugene. I don’t care about the exact motive–for whatever reason, she cannot stand the man formerly known as Flynn Rider. Rapunzel needs to have friends who don’t think that Eugene is the greatest person ever. It gives her a different perspective on his character and personality. Cassandra challenges her first impressions and forces Rapunzel to consider Eugene’s flaws and decide for herself if he’s a person she wants as a friend.

Now, if Rapunzel marries Eugene, it won’t be because of lack of experience with other people. It’ll be because she’s been around other people–some of whom don’t like him–and still come to the conclusion that he’s the sort of person worth marrying. It makes Rapunzel into a more well-rounded person, and gives the romance a much stronger foundation.

"The youth that inherited the Earth"

I really wanted to get some thoughts out before 4x03 airs. Mostly because this line from Abby was really interesting to me for some reason, and, hopefully, I’m about to flesh out what that reason is. 

So in 4x01, Abby and Kane both realise that they are not the generation that will lead their people in the era of life on earth. This is a pretty pivotal moment, considering the adults have always been conducting themselves as Superior to the kids, because Seniority, amirite? The concept isn’t new at all, but let’s delve into why this moment is important. 

First off, it’s important to remember that the conflict between the older and younger generations has been a central theme of the show since S1.

Note Jaha’s response to the argument Bellamy and Clarke are presenting. Every single response made by an adult to something one of the 100 says on this show can easily be characterised with this one sentence – “Thanks, but you don’t fully understand.” (This isn’t always necessarily a bad thing, btw!) 

This is also what makes 1x11 an important (if largely underrated) episode. 

Throughout most of S1, the delinquents spend their time on the ground playing defense. They don’t really taking any steps forward for themselves as a group. Really what they’re doing is just hoping and waiting for the day the rest of the Ark comes down to save them, for the adults to take the burden of their own survival off their shoulders.

Witnessing the crash of the Exodus ship (1x10) changes that for good.

(Also interesting that all throughout 1x11, the delinquents are gearing up to fight back, building some of their own agency as a group, while back on the Ark, the adults are struggling just to stay alive. Almost a role reversal for the two groups.)

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anonymous asked:

That was such a lovely and thoughtfully written post about how Camren transcends sexualization. It's about hope, love and inclusion for so many. For fans to even fathom, let alone ship, two female pop stars falling in love and for that to be as natural as breathing and not stigmatized was beautiful in theory. Completely agree when it crosses lines it's not cool or fair. But that's missing the forest for the trees. So many sweet fans just craved representation and saw pieces of themselves.

Yes, to some people, I guess Camren is a symbol of special friendship and love and inspiration. They both are role models to a young generation, and they both seem genuine and deep and smart, and the idea of them being together and representing a community who is thirsty for a tangible representation, I could really understand the clamor for Camren.

BUT, I also get Lauren when she says it’s invasive and scary… and I also get what she must feel when people sexualize her. because while I’ve only seen a fraction of what those Twitter/IG stans write to their social media, I can only imagine Lauren or Camila dealing with that on a daily basis. And it’s really tiring to see. Even I, a CS, can say that. I really feel bad for Lauren or Camila to be dealing with that bullshit. It’s enough to make a person lose their temper.

BUT, ALSO, reality is, there will always be shipping and sexualization and romanticizing of everything – it’s part of a celebrity life, even general public life. It’s a commodity, it’s capitalism, it’s human instinct. I get what Lauren is trying to say, it would be IDEAL to focus on the relevant issues: love and feminism and other social issues.

But REALITY is, people are mostly visual beings. They will zoom in on what’s appealing to the eyes before even considering the philosophical angle of life. Some people would just automatically see something pretty, and SAY IT’S PRETTY. Even in art or literature, our eyes will see the beauty of it first, then we process what that work of art really means. Unfortunately, not everyone has a higher consciousness. Not everyone will go beyond the level of appreciating the visual aspect of a person and dig deeper.

That’s why, while I highly respect Lauren for her mind and her passion to be a voice in spreading awareness, she should also consider that not everything is black and white. Not everyone will wanna listen to what she has to say, not everyone is self-aware. Some people will simply settle for admiring her beauty. It’s reality. The challenge for her lies on HOW she will turn that around. How she could make her voice heard DESPITE the reality that some people will be deaf to the relevant issues in life.

Once she realizes that just because she thinks that something is unfair or that some things shouldn’t be talked about or focused on, it doesn’t mean that the media will stop as well. Then maybe she could think of ways to get her message across. In a non-angry way.

I know she will eventually come to that point of realization. I just hope that she wouldn’t be burnt out when the time comes. She will be a relevant voice if she overcomes her natural instinct to lash out.

Babysitter || Kim Taehyung

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Genre: Fluff

Y/B/F - your best friend

The sound of your phone ringing was the first thing that you heard. Taehyung groaned beside you and rolled back over onto his stomach, burying his face in the pillow. The sound of your ringtone going off that early made his ear drums ache.

In your sleepy haze, you managed to grab the phone, answering it and muttering a lazy hello into the microphone.

“Y/n!” Your best friends voice flooded over the line. There was a sense of panic in her voice that caused you to sit up straight in bed. Taehyung groaned even louder beside you, not wanting to be up this early but you had never heard y/b/f sound like this before.

She sounded incredibly worried and scared, and you thought that maybe something had happened. You weren’t sure exactly what, but it had to be important.

“My babysitter quit on me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t leave Bora at home, but I can’t bring her to work with me. And I can’t call in sick because then my boss will be angry at me.” Your friend continued to ramble on and on.

You knew how hard it had become for y/b/f ever since she had Bora. Bora’s father had disappeared one day and never returned, making y/b/f’s life more difficult then ever. It didn’t help that she didn’t make as much money as she needed to pay for everything they needed.

You had watched Bora a few times for her, taking the four year old for the day and treating her in ways that her mother couldn’t.

For a four year old, Bora understood that it was tough for her mom. She was possibly one of the smartest kids you had ever met, and it amazed how much she gave up to make her mom happy. She didn’t care about not being able to attend her first year of school, she didn’t care about having the newest toys and such.

It amazed you how mature she was. And you knew that y/b/f really was blessed to have a daughter like Bora.

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Maybe I’m delusional but...

OK, so maybe I’m reaching or being delusional but in 7x10 during the Richard/Daryl scene, Richard says that Carol “might as well be dead right now”. Now I know that it’s not the same wording exactly but immediately when I heard this line I thought about the 2x7 “Pretty Much Dead Already”. Is this reaching? Yeah, probably. Do I care? Fuck no.

So I went back and watched 2x7 and guys, there are so many significant Caryl moments in that episode. The most important one is that 2x7 is the episode where Carol tells Daryl “I couldn’t lose you too” when asking him to not go out looking for Sophia while he is still healing and then Daryl lashes out at her for saying that. Which as we all know “I couldn’t lose you” is said again by Carol in 7x10. Later he takes her to where the Cherokee Roses are blossoming and apologizes for how he acted. Daryl and Carol talk about how they both know that Sophia is out there and that they will find her. During this scene I couldn’t help but think that looking for and finding Sophia was what both of them were “holding on to”. Carol was holding on to fining Sophia for obvious reasons, but what’s more interesting is why finding Sophia was so important for Daryl. I think that it had to do with Daryl’s history of abandonment. When Daryl decides to go off with Merle back in season 3 we find out that Merle left their childhood home because of the abuse from their father and I got the feeling from that scene that Daryl felt that Merle had abandoned him. I would even go so far as to say that Daryl felt abandoned by Merle back in season 1 because even though it was Rick that cuffed him to the roof, Merle escaped but never came back to the camp, never came back for Daryl. And so I think that finding Sophia was so important to Daryl because he didn’t want this little girl to feel like they had all abandoned her too. This is supported by the conversation Daryl imagines he has with Merle when he is injured in the woods in 2x5 “Chupacabra”. This theme of abandonment is also played out in 7x10. Also, Daryl is “holding on to” finding Sophia because it gives him something meaningful to do. Then, another significant Caryl moment is at the end of the episode, when Sophia comes out of the barn and Daryl catches Carol before running toward Sophia. At that point, when both Daryl and Carol see that Sophia is dead they are literally and figuratively holding on to each other.

It’s 3am and I’m running on like 4 hours of sleep from the night before so I’m not sure if any of this even makes sense, maybe I’m imagining it all because of how much I want to prove that Caryl will become canon by the end of this season or maybe there is something to these connections. Who knows, but I couldn’t stop thinking about it so I needed to write it out.

A conflicted rant on Matsuri’s death.

While I respect everyone’s views on this issue and this is not a negative response to anyone’s, especially since I’ve seen a lot of well thought-out counterpoints to mine, I wanted to add some of my thoughts to the discussion.

I don’t necessarily agree in full with all the harsher critiques about Matsuri’s death scene. I think it was important that he died this arc rather than last to emphasize the transition of power between the main Washuu family line and Furuta/V. Other than the Marude revenge narrative and the toxic love narrative that could have formed between him and Urie, Matsuri had wrapped up his major roles in the story. Would I have liked to see him have more screentime in terms of him coming to grips with losing power? Absolutely. Was Matsuri a well-written character that had great potential that wasn’t fulfilled? You fucking bet.  

I think that Ishida generally has the issue of caring too much about his characters and maybe overdeveloping them for what he intends for their role in the major plot, though. To me, the problem is less that Ishida is being lazy with the plot and is mindlessly killing off characters, and more that Ishida got really into developing these characters’ backstories despite the fact that the development wasn’t necessary for their planned arcs. Which leads me to keep asking the question: how much is it poor writing on Ishida’s part, and how much is it that we as an audience get too attached to these minor characters who are going to die? 

I think it’s a mix of both. Ishida has so many characters within this story that it’s difficult to manage their plots effectively. :re has a cast twice the size of the original series’, and Ishida’s trying to complete all of their narratives within the same timeframe. Because of that, sometimes his well-developed characters have seemed flatter than usual in recent arcs. At the same time, though, I think that we’ve spent so much time as a fandom hyping all of these characters up that we all are disappointed when they don’t meet the level of potential that we want them to. For instance, the Houji vs. Tatara scene didn’t seem like a trainwreck to me; I thought it was a fitting ending for two characters who were more than one-dimensional, had backstories, but didn’t play overwhelming roles/have character arcs within the series. I saw the anticlimactic aspects of the fight as actually better for the story’s themes than if we had a more satisfying/drawn-out fight for either of them. However, we had been thinking about this tension between these two characters since the end of TG. While we anticipated the fight, we would go over in our heads all the amazing and mind-blowing ways their encounter could have gone.

And I see myself get like this all the time with the series. I weirdly feel salty on occasion with Akira’s recent story arc, since it was her taking the stereotypical hit and serving as the damsel-in-distress plot point the past arc and a half. However, when I think more about it, it’s not an inherently bad (although generic) situation that weakens her as a character. In any case, I think Akira needs to be shown in more vulnerable situations to further her character development at this stage, and after she recovers this may be the right gateway to that. Characters need to be able to move the plot forward, and Ishida honestly doesn’t put plot over characters often enough in :re.

I think Matsuri’s a much more difficult situation, because he did have some unresolved feelings before his death, and we didn’t get to see them contemplated. He was built as a bigger minor character that should have gotten that one page or panel of reflection. That is undoubtedly a poor writing decision (although I can’t say that I don’t partially enjoy the dark humor route he took with Matsuri’s death scene).

I think there should also be another frame of mind when examining Matsuri’s death and missed potential outside of this lack of reflection, though. Not all more serious and unresolved aspects of characters essentially need to have entire arcs of development. It’s not essentially bad writing to have character traits introduced that don’t ultimately affect the story. Based on how the story has progressed so far, I can imagine that Matsuri first began as a plot device rather than as a developed character inserted into the plot. The Washuu/CCG plot line is so essential to the series that he was most likely always planned to serve his role as the proper CCG heir and die here. If that is the case, Matsuri could have been a more one-dimensional fodder character, and I’m happy that he is not. Even if it was executed in a flawed manner, I would prefer Ishida’s characterization of Matsuri before this anticlimactic death scene over a flatter Matsuri.

thoughts on OCD

hey tumblr, some thoughts

I see a lot of people complain that OCD is over-represented as a “quirky” illness focused on neatness and etc. While I definitely agree with that, it’s important also to recognize that many people with OCD do in fact desire straight lines, clean edges, specific numbers, and other more or less “stereotypical” manifestations. So yes! It’s very important to make people aware of the other forms of OCD that exist (like scrupulosity), but the more commonly-portrayed obsessions are 100% valid as well. They’re stereotypes for a reason.

larchanddragonheartstring  asked:

So i feel like econ majors would maybe do well because we understand things like how everything has a price, and how to create balance in things, and find equilibrium. Or we would do really really poorly because we understand human systems, and they don't exactly line up with what the Fae do. the value systems are all different, and their markets don't work the same, and i could see someone trying to make a deal because they thought they'd figured out a good trade and deeply regretting it

Yeah they operate on a completely different system of reasoning and values than we do; you’d be in trouble if you tried to apply a human system to a transaction with them. But in a more general sense econ majors’s understanding of equilibrium would probably do them good. Things in balance are important.

I know that everyone is focused on that last minute of show which really took a severe LEFT into “what the hell lol” but I was blown away by Ryan in his scenes leading up to all that. He really gave you Rob’s pain and I found some of the dialogue for him so so telling. 

Because one of the through lines in today’s episode was Robert’s concern and anger on behalf of Liv. That was important. I was glad that he was so taken aback and insulted that Aaron didn’t seen to care what was happening with Liv or that he thought she would be fine with what was happening. 

That’s why so much of that last scene made me understand him. His anger at Aaron for being “weak” and letting them down. His anger at himself for not being enough and for opening himself up. But man his dialogue was great. 

“Everyone reckons I get what I want. Always. You, Chrissie, Aaron. I just use people and toss them aside. That’s what they think. Maybe that’s the only way to be. Because falling in love…that’s a mug’s game.” 

“I’m no use to him anymore.” (Ryan’s delivery on that line was amazing.)

And the fact that he wasn’t just upset for himself but for other people and how Ryan played that – man. 

“He doesn’t think about the people who love him. I don’t know how many times he’s broken Chas’ heart….and now he’s breaking Liv’s.”

That was great to have because while he takes this momentary step into trying to be his former self – all of that – the caring about those other people – the anger at himself – it goes to show that he isn’t that man anymore no matter how hard is tries to prove otherwise. 

And at the end of the day I hold on to that and am glad to be here to see this Robert Sugden come to that realization himself. 

Thoughts about S4 and SOTL - this time I'm serious

This must be my serious period. It won’t last, but since I have all this seriousness to let out…

I already knew something about it, but now that I’m reading SOTL I’m finding more and more lines and dialogues that make Clarice and Will one person.

I personally like it. In the TV Show it makes even more sense, because Will is not drunk in Florida with a face that looks like a Picasso, we know that, Will is the most important relationship in Hannibal’s life and I like that the feelings Hannibal expresses for Clarice in the book are referred to Will in the show.

That’s why I’d rule out the possibility of seeing Clarice in season 4. I’m ok with that, I think that Bryan already gave us a lot of great female characters, I’d be happier with a close-up on murder husbands in season 4.


If Clarice shows up, I’d love something like… She knows who Will and Hannibal are - well, obviously - she starts to investigate on them and on the video left behind by the Dragon and when she finds them in Cuba - I don’t know anything about FBI jurisdiction, so don’t ask me how - all becomes a discussion between Hannibal and Will ,because the first wants to kill her and the latter doesn’t.


Buffalo Bill is the new interesting killer Jack is trying to catch with Clarice’s help.

Will and Hannibal follow the news from Cuba and then make their return to lurk around the investigation to have the chance to kill Buffalo Bill.

I like this very much. But I don’t know if the Jack we know will continue his work with the FBI. I hope so.       


We know how many grudges Hannibal holds.

Will leads him to Cuba because he wants to kill Chilton, Alana, Jack…

This can have its elements of ridiculousness, but I’d actually like them constantly talking about who they can or can’t kill.

And they never agree, obviously.


I find in SOTL a lot of Jack’s lines, speaking to Clarice, that are obvious references on how Will’s mind worked. And it’s like Jack is trying to train Clarice to become Will, because actual Clarice’s words

Will Graham was the keenest hound ever to run in Crawford’s pack, was a legend at the Academy.

Jack (to Clarice):Maybe you’ve got a knack for this. (referring to Buffalo Bill) You think about him enough, you see where he’s been, you get a feel for him, you don’t even dislike him all the time, hard as that is to believe.

I mean… This Jack is talking about our Will, and it’s great. The Jack of SOTL doesn’t deal with a Will in love with Dr. Lecter, but in this line it’s like he’s talking exactly about our Will and how he fell for Hannibal.

This makes me think about a part in Season 4 in which Jack could desperately try to find someone who thinks how Will thinks. And to him maybe Clarice seems the right candidate.

But this is too weak. And also useless.

I don’t know, I’m burning with ideas because in SOTL there’s so much of the TV show that you think constantly about how that reference could be used in another season.

Hope to hear what you think.

No-one objected to Moneypenny being black because public were not told, says Naomie Harris

“I think I was very lucky that it was never revealed I was Moneypenny until the movie was already out,“ she told Town & Country magazine. "People didn’t have a chance to say, ‘Oh no, we don’t want a black Moneypenny,’ because they didn’t know she was coming.”

And when they saw the film, they thought, hopefully, ‘OK, we can live with her.’ So there were no objections, which I’m really happy about.”

Harris has also spoken about the nuances of her character’s relationship with 007 in the latest Bond outing, SPECTRE.

She said: “I feel as though they have a much stronger and more mutually respectful relationship. The great thing about Moneypenny is that she’s not willing to cross that line, because for her the job is more important than the man. There’s something really powerful about that decision.”

Ms Harris also refused to consider nude scenes as part of her role in the latest installment in the Bond series. “I don’t feel it’s part of my job, I don’t like this sexualisation and objectification. It’s not what I’m about at all,” she said.

“I have always felt that kind of mission, I was never going to play stereotyped roles, and I was always going to show women, and particularly black women, in a positive light… I’m a feminist, and it’s very important to me to reflect that.

“Sam talked to me about his vision for Moneypenny and how he wanted her to be completely modernised, really different, a woman who women in the audience could identify with and admire.”

My Thoughts As I see it:

I don’t see the context that makes this acceptable on any level Robert was just feeling sorry for himself & reverting to type by cheating. Aaron wasn’t that horrible taking a few swipes at him lost in his own depression & despair. 

Robert’s not let Aaron push him away before why now like this yes he’s lonely but no excuses there. I hated what he said to Rebecca undermining so many precious Robron dialog. so interesting to see what he behaves like tomorrow now & to do it in Aaron’s new home & bed of all places!

I thought Aaron’s prison story line was going to tell an important story but we’re not seeing a whole lot other than the first week & now it’s been totally overshadowed.

This of course might be a plotty bit of nonsense where it’s engineered to give Robron a baby but how they could have Aaron credibly accept it & forgive Robert without compromising Aaron’s character and it’s so disheartening to see Robert’s character development over the last year totally undermined & undone.

I hope they don’t drag out Aaron finding out about this too long that would be awful I’d like that particular Band-Aid pulled off fast not in a painfully slow and torturous way that is unbearable to watch.

This whole thing is horrible they may be pulling them apart to sew them back together to recreate new golden moments but they have tainted so much of the recent heart warming moments from SSW the wedding ‘I’ll wait’ ‘I know. You know’ moments it feels a bridge too far particularly with what Robert said about Aaron being weak & the other brutal things which seemed worse because it was all behind Aaron’s back who is just so vulnerable right now. 

Emmerdale cannot assume as long as they put Robron back together at the end fans will be satisfied and stay invested there is a limit & a line they should draw & not cross. I’d love to know Emmerdale’s plans going forward & have some new insight in the form of interviews with Iain, Danny, Ryan & Emily. 

5 Things I’ve I’ve Learned While Writing My First Manuscript

Hello and welcome to my first blog post! I’m Laura – an aspiring writer, as you may have guessed by the title of this post – and I, like many others, have made a lot of horrible mistakes and revelations with my first manuscript. While I’m only halfway through my first draft, being the masochistic, self-embarrassing person that I am, I thought I’d share what those lessons were.

1.      The first line is hard.

It’s even harder when you put all this pressure on it that you really don’t need. It’s just a collection of words, just like the rest of the novel.

Don’t fret.

2.     Don’t go back and edit.

There were so many times when I finished a chapter or a scene and then realized: Shit. That’s not how I mapped that character. Or, oh my god, I just missed out a HUGELY important part of that character’s backstory.

What I’ve learned is that it’s the hardest but the best thing you can do for your novel to just. Keep. Pushing. Through.

You’ve got to grit your teeth and remember that this is what second drafts are for, because if you go back and rewrite something every time you notice a mistake, you’ll never finish the stupid thing.

3.     Outlines can be really fun. Or they can be torture.

This lesson is kind of unavoidable as a newbie writer. If you’ve never outlined your book before, you won’t know what sort of outline you like. So you could get 20,000 words into the story (like me), realize you screwed up your outline because you did it on Word instead of post-it notes, and lose your damn mind.

“Why is everything so disorganized!?” You scream, before slamming your head against the keyboard for the millionth time.

Take a deep breath. Stop writing. Redo your freaking outline.

4.     Finish ALL character construction before you start writing.

I didn’t take this step seriously because I didn’t take my writing seriously in the beginning; it was just something I was dabbling in which I hadn’t done in years.

But if you’re considering writing a novel, you have to finish all your character construction 100% before you can start the novel.

A lot of my characters have half-finished outlines. So sadly, I’m gonna have to take a break from all the fun writing I’ve been doing to map them out halfway through the story.

5.     Don’t be too hard on yourself.

I’m actually pretty good at remembering this lesson, but I think every writer finds it invaluable.

You don’t need to be the next F. Scott Fitzgerald in the writing world to have an incredible work in your hands – or, well, your head.

Remember that it’s okay to make the above mistakes, and many more (seriously, I could list hundreds). Just push the negative thoughts away for a moment, and keep tapping at that keyboard. Good things are bound to come out of it if you work hard enough.

So that’s all I’ve got to say on the subject. I’m sure I’ll have plenty more to talk about once my novel is finished and once I move onto the editing phase for my novel. Thanks for reading this far and I’d love to hear some feedback!

@tvfandomfaves replied to your post Page 23

So what did you think?

I thought it was a good ending to a storyline and a ship that they completley screwed up.

They did manage to keep the essence of Page 23. The idea that there are multiple ways a story can play out, that hope is always important.

I loved that Regina accepted all parts of herself, that she finally realised no one is wholly good or wholly evil. That actually we need the ability to love and hate, that the line is blurred. Lana’s acting both as the Queen and Regina was phenomenal you could see it go from determination to somehow destroy the other, to confusion, to fear, to realisation, to love. It was such a beautiful scene and while part of me wishes they had recombined- I think that having them both separate but still learning to love the other was a really good end to the split queen arc.

The hug between the Queen and Henry was touching and sweet, I love Regal Believer in all its forms. I also think that it showed the power of the bond between a mother and son- that one word can mean so much, can create such a sense of pride.

The Outlaw Queen/Wish Robin aspect I liked but it was never going to be perfect. I think it was only after watching the episode I finally accepted that. There will be no closure for Outlaw Queen that was taken away in the disaster that was 5x21.

However, I think that the conversation with the Queen, showed that Robin did truly understand the Queen in a way we didn’t get to see when they were ‘the same person’ .

I kind of wish we had got a goodbye scene with Regina and Wish!Robin but then part of me (now after not being emotionally compromised) almost liked that there wasn’t one because I think it would be Regina saying goodbye to a different man, and Robin would be saying goodbye to a different Regina and that I think would maybe hurt more. I don’t know I’m conflicted.

The Queen and the thief finally got their drink, and by god they need it, and I am happy that there is a version in canon in which they can be happy.

I think that in terms of Robin’s character we haven’t got closure. We never will- not in canon. I think though that page 23 did provide a degree of closure for Regina. I think that now she can finally, truly grieve. I think that now as OQers we can enjoy fanon, and the moments we got without worrying if something will be taken away. 

I hope this makes sense, I’m not very good at articulating my thoughts.