i thought this was an important line

i think a big thing that disconcerts adults about learning new skills is that learning as an adult means you are very aware of how bad you are at the beginning in a way children aren’t.

i picked up the saxophone when i was 11 and played until i was about 17. by the end of it i was first chair in our highest ensemble, a district honor band player, etc. but at the beginning – and this is important – i was bad. for the first year or so, i had no rhythm, i couldn’t make my tongue line up with my fingers, i was consistently sharp, etc. etc. other kids actually made fun of me for my lack of skill.

but 11 year old me didn’t care. 11 year old me practiced, but she also thought that being able to play the pink panther made her incredible (i shudder in retrospect). i mean, i was aware i wasn’t a master, but my skill level didn’t deter me from wailing out those notes in a way that i’m sure had my band director questioning his career decisions.

right now, i’m trying to pick up the guitar. it’s a very different instrument from the saxophone, and i struggle a lot with things like strumming patterns and barre chords. and sometimes i don’t want to play, because i know i’m bad at guitar. and sometimes i beat myself up when stumbling through a poor acoustic rendition of Everybody Wants to Rule the World because it’s not how i want it to sound. and it’s made even more frustrating because i can navigate the saxophone so smoothly.

but then i remember that i have to think like a kid. i might not be the best at guitar by any stretch of the imagination, but every little bit of progress is still progress. humility is a big part of learning, but if you treat a practice session like your own private concert, it becomes so much more fun, even if you’re bad like i am.  when you’re first picking up a skill, whether it be an instrument, or a language, or a fine art, no one is expecting you to be the yo yo ma of that thing. forget about how little you know about the skill and think instead about how much you have to learn – that’s fun! do your best!!

Violence, Abusers, and Protest

My grandfather was a generally peaceful man. He was a gardener, an EMT, a town selectman, and an all around fantastic person. He would give a friend - or a stranger - the shirt off his back if someone needed it. He also taught me some of the most important lessons I ever learned about violence, and why it needs to exist.

When I was five, my grandfather and grandmother discovered that my rear end and lower back were covered in purple striped bruises and wheals. They asked me why, and I told them that Tom, who was at that time my stepfather, had punished me. I don’t remember what he was punishing me for, but I remember the looks on their faces. 

When my mother and stepfather arrived, my grandmother took my mother into the other room. Then my grandfather took my stepfather into the hallway. He was out of my eye line, but I saw through the crack in the door on the hinge side. He slammed my stepfather against the wall so hard that the sheet rock buckled, and told him in low terms that if he ever touched me again they would never find his body. 

I absolutely believed that he would kill my stepfather, and I also believed that someone in the world thought my safety was worth killing for. 

In the next few years, he gave me a few important tips and pointers for dealing with abusers and bullies. He taught me that if someone is bringing violence to you, give it back to them as harshly as you can so they know that the only response they get is pain. He taught me that guns are used as scare tactics, and if you aren’t willing to accept responsibility for mortally wounding someone, you should never own one. He told me that if I ever had a gun aimed at me, I should accept the possibility of being shot and rush the person, or run away in a zig-zag so they couldn’t pick me off. He taught me how to break someone’s knee, how to hold a knife, and how to tell if someone is holding a gun with intent to kill. He was absolutely right, and he was one of the most peaceful people I’ve ever met. He was never, to my knowledge, violent with anyone who didn’t threaten him or his family. Even those who had, he gave chances to, like my first stepfather. 

When I was fourteen, a friend of mine was stalked by a mutual acquaintance. I was by far younger than anyone else in the social crowd; he was in his mid twenties, and the object of his “affection” was as well. Years before we had a term for “Nice Guy” bullshit, he did it all. He showed up at her house, he noted her comings and goings, he observed who she spent time with, and claimed that her niceness toward him was a sign that they were actually in a relationship.

This came to a head at a LARP event at the old NERO Ware site. He had been following her around, and felt that I was responsible for increased pressure from our mutual friends to leave her alone. He confronted me, her, and a handful of other friends in a private room and demanded that we stop saying nasty things about him. Two of our mutual friends countered and demanded that he leave the woman he was stalking alone. 

Stalker-man threw a punch. Now, he said in the aftermath that he was aiming for the man who had confronted him, but he was looking at me when he did it. He had identified me as the agent of his problems and the person who had “turned everyone against him.” His eyes were on mine when the punch landed. He hit me hard enough to knock me clean off my feet and I slammed my head into a steel bedpost on the way down.

When I shook off the stunned confusion, I saw that two of our friends had tackled him. I learned that one had immediately grabbed him, and the other had rabbit-punched him in the face. I had a black eye around one eyebrow and inner socket, and he was bleeding from his lip. 

At that time in my life, unbeknownst to anyone in the room, I was struggling with the fact that I had been molested repeatedly by someone who my mother had recently broken up with. He was gone, but I felt conflicted and worthless and in pain. I was still struggling, but I knew in that moment that I had a friend in the world who rabbit-punched a man for hitting me, and I felt a little more whole.

Later that year, I was bullied by a girl in my school. She took special joy in tormenting me during class, in attacking me in the hallways, in spreading lies and asserting things about me that were made up. She began following me to my locker, and while I watched the clock tick down, she would wait for me to open it and try to slam my hand in it. She succeeded a few times. I attempted to talk to counselors and teachers. No one did anything. Talking to them made it worse, since they turned and talked to her and she called me a “tattle” for doing it. I followed the system, and it didn’t work. 

I remembered my friend socking someone in the face when he hit me. I recalled what my grandfather had taught me, and decided that the next time she tried, I would make sure it was the last. I slammed the door into her face, then shut her head in the base of my locker, warping the aluminum so badly that my locker no longer worked. She never bothered me again. 

Violence is always a potential answer to a problem. I believe it should be a last answer - everything my grandfather taught me before his death last year had focused on that. He hadn’t built a bully or taught me to seek out violence; he taught me how to respond to it.

I’ve heard a lot of people talk recently about how, after the recent Nazi-punching incident, we are in more danger because they will escalate. That we will now see more violence and be under more threat because of it. I reject that. We are already under threat. We are already being attacked. We are being stripped of our rights, we are seeing our loved ones and our family reduced to “barely human” or equated with monsters because they are different. 

To say that we are at more risk now than we were before a Nazi got punched in the face is to claim that abusers only hurt you if you fight back. Nazis didn’t need a reason to want to hurt people whom they have already called inhuman, base, monsters, thugs, retards, worthless, damaging to the gene pool, and worthy only of being removed from the world. They were already on board. The only difference that comes from fighting back is the intimate knowledge that we will not put up with their shit.

And I’m just fine with that.

The thing about Charlie’s PTSD

(contains Wonder Woman spoilers)

You know the thing about him I noticed that I haven’t seen anyone mention? He’s a sniper with PTSD right? And there’s that scene where he points his rifle at the enemy sniper in the tower and can’t pull the trigger. And usually that would mean that the main character would end up having a conversation with him after which he’d get a ‘second opportunity’ to take that shot and this time wouldn’t flinch. 

And we’d be supposed to be proud of him because he ‘overcame his trauma’ by… doing the thing that caused his trauma in the first place? 

BUT THAT’S NOT WHAT HAPPENED HERE, instead we get an amazing scene where when Charlie thinks there’s no point in him going with them for their mission Diana smiles at him and tells him that there is: without him they wouldn’t have anyone to sing to them.

And I thought it was just so… in line with the message this movie was sending. And so true to Diana’s character.

Because in her eyes Charlie’s value as a person or a friend doesn’t rest in whether or not he can pull the trigger and kill.

And I though it was important. 

I mean this movie was filled with many such small but significant moments that addressed things like sexism and racism and the atrocities of colonization, and I’d mention them all it’s just that this one was one I hadn’t seen someone already discussing.

listen you have no idea how important having a bilingual peter in the mcu is because in queens, hispanics are the majority of the minority. i see peter using spanish in the suit when he needs to help someone who doesn’t speak english. like they can utilize that so well into the next few films. man it was such a little thing that made me so happy to see. to be in a theater filled with hispanics and us all laughing out of joy and saying “Ooooo” to that first line peter speaks in spanish in the movie, like yes. i need more of that bond when watching a movie like spider-man on the big screen. 

things i need

- the bloopers from a sanders sides video

- like thomas forgetting his lines or smth while acting in character




Why the SPN mixtape scene from 12x19 is screenwriting gold, and should be taught to the next generations of screenwriters everywhere - analysis

20 seconds. Two lines of dialogue, three gestures, a couple more camera angles. Episode 19, season 12 of a genre TV show “Supernatural”. A single strike of screenwriting and cinematic genius. The mixtape scene.

Robert Berens and Meredith Glynn, I bow before you.

This scene should be used as an example for future screenwriters how you can put maximum of meaning into minimal time and dialogue. Should be analyzed and taught at universities everywhere, how to achieve the most using the least. How to write for TV, where you only have less than an hour to built something spectacular.


Let’s just peel off all the layers of these 20 seconds of footage and these 13 words. 13 WORDS.

(Cas knocks, Dean doesn’t say anything. Cas opens the door, apologizes for disturbing Dean in his room, and then takes a cassette tape out of his left inside coat pocket, and puts it on the desk, while tapping the label on it that says “Deans (sic!) top 13 Zepp traxx”.)

Cas: Um, I just wanted to return this.

Dean: It’s a gift. You keep those.

13 tracks. 13 words. The future. So number thirteen is important for the future. I mean, are you trying to tell us something here, writers?

(Dean takes the tape, oustreches his arm, and gives it back to Cas. We see Cas’ hand grabbing the tape, and taking it back.)

That tiny scene is ENORMOUS from the perspective of the narrative and the characterization. Let’s see what we can get out of it. (Prepare yourself: it’s gonna be long. Damn, how much meta can you write based on 20 seconds of television and two lines of dialogue?) (Hint: A lot.)

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hello i would like to interrupt your scrolling with this picture of michael

thank you that is all

“I can save today, but you can save the world”

This line.

This line is so important.

Steve Trevor did not get on that plane and sacrificed his life because he thought Diana couldn’t do it, or that she was too fragile, or that he was better than her, or he would be the hero.


Steve Trevor got on that plane and sacrificed his life because the world needed Diana Prince more than it needed Steve Trevor.

Steve Trevor got on that plane and sacrificed his life because he can stop one battle but Diana can stop the war.

Steve Trevor got on that plane and sacrificed his life because he believed with all his heart that Diana is far more important to the world than he would ever be.

He believed in her so much that he would gladly die today so she could give the world a better tomorrow. He believed in her so much that his life didn’t matter to him as much as her life and her destiny.

He died so that Diana could live and fulfill the destiny she was meant for, to be the hero she was meant to be.

And his faith in her, his love for her, and his hope and belief allowed Diana to truly see humanity for what we are and to keep on fighting.

In so many ways, his love, his hope, his belief, may have saved us all.

unpopular opinion on malec 2x12.

I know you are all mad about the malec reunion being too short but it was really well done. Magnus went through a lot of pain and all of you care about it’s if Alec touched him or not. Maybe Alec was afraid to touch him because he thought Magnus was still in shock for what had happened. You can se how he sits slowly next to him to show him that he is there for him but keeping his distance to not overwhelm Magnus. And the “Magnus tell me how to fix this” scene line was SO DAMN important because he wanted to make Magnus feel better and safe but he didn’t know how.

This shows how Malec is more realistic than Climon so stop complaining for everything. Bye.

Reasons why “Last Kiss” is a lyrical masterpiece:

- “The words that you whispered / For just us to know“

- “The beat of your heart / It jumps through your shirt / I can still feel your arms”

- “I don’t know how to be something you miss / I never thought we’d have a last kiss”

- “So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep / And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe”

- “And something reminds you / You wish you had stayed / You can plan for a change in weather and time / But I never planned on you changing your mind“

- “Never imagined we’d end like this / Your name, forever the name on my lips”

And the most important line : “Writer: Taylor Swift”

“you and I are not the same, you don’t want the burden of my name”

listen….. i ain’t trying to start shit…..but look me in the eye and tell me that line doesn’t feed into the qrow is ruby’s father theory

haven’t contributed jack to tumblr in ages lmao but here’s a cute pic of the best gal/justice wife because this doodle was too good

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soulmate au | college au

↝ pairing: mark tuan | reader

↝ genre: fluff + soft angst 

↝ word count: 8.820

author’s note: uh, so it turns out i’m a sucker for soulmate aus. thanks anon for requesting! hope this is as fluffy as you wanted!!

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Hello! A few followers of mine requested a post on my note taking system so here it is.

My notes
The above picture is of my Arc Notebook and is a collection of classwork and textbook information! When I’m writing notes I have to always write the date. I always mark down the dates on any worksheets I receive and sometimes add the topic of the class into the calendar on my computer. During classes, I try to pay as much attention as I can. Especially to the information which the teacher emphasises! Class notes are usually really scruffy or I type them and then I will later rewrite/condense and add after class. I find this pretty helpful, however if I miss a day I usually fall behind and end up with a lot more work to do! For rewriting the notes, I look at the syllabus and make sure I write something for each topic. I use colour coding to help too. I refer to the notes from class and other textbooks or the Internet! Having a selection of resources is really useful for understanding your topics. I am also trying to create even simplified topic notes to print later. 

My work layout
For starters, with a new topic I start on new paper. So I can easily find the one topic without having to make it by a title page or something, like in a regular exercise book! Titles are the sections of the syllabus which my notes relate to. Titles and always in black, underlined and capitalised. My notes are mainly in black and always in dot point form. I prefer having small sections of sentences compared to large chunks of writing. As you can see at points my writing goes in. I measure each time at either 1cm, 2cm or 3cm depending on the indent. Usually these notes are important for the line above, for instance an example or a definition. Also, you can see some sentences with arrows (either green or pink) underneath the sentences, these are just additional information which is relevant for either understanding or just interesting! I also leave one line between each section for easier reference.

My colour coding system
I’ve had a lot of messages about this so I thought I should include it! I use the Staedtler Triplus Fineliners for all these notes. I use black as the normal note taking. Red is for the topic of sentence, because I use dot point form the red makes the work stand out so I can quickly refer to that sentence! I don’t use red in every sentence, usually only if I’ve begun talking about something else. I use light blue for terms that I need to remember or are important. I find this useful in all my subjects! Dark blue is for names of people/places/businesses/etc and abbreviations. Orange is for examples and are usually indented by 1cm. I use green for relevant information to help understanding or to clarify and as previously mentioned, I use an arrow and indent at 1cm. I use pink for generally interesting information which isn’t needed but good for showing knowledge. I find colour coding useful, but it makes note taking quite a timely process but it does look pretty!

Overall, my note taking isn’t very complicated and pretty easy to recreate! I hope some of you find this post at least a little helpful. Check out emmastudies.tumblr.com/tagged/me for more. Feel free to message me if theres anything else! :-)

kdramas and sex

I’ve seen a lot of people saying how rare suspicious partner and fight for my way have been in showing couples being intimate, and while I agree they’re very unique, I thought people would appreciate a list of dramas featuring more mature relationships. Some of these are really overt, some are more subtle and require a little bit of reading between the lines. Obviously these are spoilers, but if intimacy is important to you, I suggest taking a look. This list is limited by what I’ve seen, so please add more!

My Secret Romance

Angel Eye’s

Bride of the Century


Can We Get Married?

Coffee Prince

Heartless City

Dalja’s Spring

Empress Ki

Fated to Love You


Heart to Heart

It’s Okay That’s Love

Jealousy Incarnate 

The King 2 Hearts

Marriage Not Dating

Scarlet Heart Ryeo

My Fair Lady

Oh My Venus

Padam Padam

Scent of a Woman


Secret Garden

Secret Love Affair

Strong Woman Do Bong Soon

The Time We Were Not in Love

Witch’s Romance 

These range from subtle fades to black to explicit bed scenes, and are mostly arranged alphabetically rather than drama quality. Feel free to add more or ask about specific dramas.

darkly dreaming dexter starters ( part one )

dark themes edition. ( trigger warning for mentions of murder, etc.)

  • “ how long have you been doing this?”
  • “ and this ‘something,’ it makes you kill things?”
  • “ have you ever wanted to kill something else?”
  • “ it’s going to make you want to kill, and you can’t help that.”
  • “ what are you?”
  • “ choose what… or WHO you kill.”
  • “ you gimme the fucking creeps.”
  • “ you don’t want to do this to me.”
  • “ put the knife down, ___.”
  • “ jesus christ that hurt!”
  • “ and then it hits me. it’s not me, it’s you. there’s something wrong about you.”
  • “ i should’ve listened to him/her. something’s wrong about you.”
  • “ that’s the kind of shit i used to fall for when i thought you liked me.”
  • “ you’re connected to this thing.”
  • “ maybe you didn’t do it, but i’m gonna find out. and some of what i find is gonna stick to you.”
  • “ ___, come on. for christ’s sake, cut the shit! it’s me!”
  • “ i should shoot you.”
  • “ for god’s sake let me out of this shit and quit acting like a fucking lunatic.”
  • “ goddamn it. come on, ___. snap out of it!”
  • “ ___ should see this. s/he was right about you.”
  • “ of course, neither one of us could manage that with real feeling. after all, we can’t actually feel anything, can we?”
  • “ we’ve both spent our lives playing a part. moving through this world reciting lines and pretending we belong in a world made for human beings, and never really human ourselves.”
  • “ have you done any reading on monsters like us?”
  • “ this happened, ___. the chain saw, the flying body parts, the … blood—”
  • “ we both suffered a classic traumatic event. it made me what i am—and i had a thought that it might do the same for you.”
  • “ you have to listen and do as i say. you have to. you should know that. it’s important.”
  • “ it’s a terrible mess, isn’t it?”
  • “ open them. open your eyes. open them NOW.”
  • “ look. or i will cut your eyelids right off your face.”
  • “ i am a very neat monster.”
  • “ oh, what a madcap little monster i’ve been.”
  • “ If i am ever careless enough to be caught, they will say i am a sociopathic monster, a sick and twisted demon who is not even human.”
  • “ yes, beg me. that’s good. much better.”
  • “ i understand perfectly. you see, i can’t help myself either.”
  • “ can’t? i don’t think i know that word.”
  • “ you are mine now. do exactly as i say.” 
  • “ be good and you will live longer.”
  • “ oh, dear, are we being squeamish? after what happened?”
  • “ how did you know i would want to? you couldn’t really know.”
  • “ it’s a little bit of a shock the first time, isn’t it?”
  • “ killing makes me feel good.”
  • “ i enjoy my work; sorry if that bothers you. but there it is. and it’s not just ANY killing, of course. it has to be done the right way, at the right time, with the right partner—very complicated, but very necessary.”
  • “ i don’t want the cops to catch every serial killer out there. then what would i do for a hobby?”
  • “ there are plenty of people who deserve it.”
  • “ really? even after the new kill last night?”
  • “ imagine how it would’ve felt if i had killed you.”
  • “ i might have had to kill him/her.”
  • “ really, now: if you can’t get me my newspaper on time, how can you expect me to refrain from killing people?”
  • “ it looks very much like the killer might be me.”
{PART 8} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU

Originally posted by jengkook

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Genre: Vampire!AU, Fantasy, Angst, Smut

Summary; Jungkook takes his time consoling you, offering you the chance to fall down the rabbit hole into his world. Meanwhile, the presence outside your apartment makes itself known; at long last.

{Part 1} // {Part 7} {Part 8} {Part 9}

I update this series every Tuesday evening, 9pm-10pm (UK Time)

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Why Moana Deserves More


Hello! Today, I would like to discuss my thoughts on the movie, Moana. Ever since it came out, it’s safe to say that it has been a success, from doing well at the box office, positive critical reception, to nominations in several award shows. However, I feel like it’s still not as recognized as it should be, compared to other Disney films like Frozen, Big Hero 6, Zootopia, etc. That is why today I am going to go into my thoughts on why Moana, the movie, deserves more in terms of recognition and credit among the Disney canon.
First off, I am going to respond to the criticism that of Moana following the Disney formula too much. I can agree that at the basic structure of the movie, it DOES follow the past formula of Disney movies pretty much. But the story itself is MORE than that. Even though Moana wants to see more in the world, kinda like in Ariel, Belle, etc, it is shown in the movie that she truly wants to help her village. In the sequence of her learning to lead her village and doing her best to solve the problems, something that is RARELY seen in Disney movies, female leads doing their jobs of leaders, we see Moana enjoy partaking in her community and handle things with competence and calm, so it truly makes her struggle with her desire to go to the ocean. Some people argue about the overprotective dad trope in Moana’s father, Tui, but he only has a few minutes of screen time so it is nothing to get too riled up over, in my opinion.
Some people argued that Maui left for no reason but it is understandable why he left. He got mad that his hook, an item that was important to him, was broken and was on the verge of being destroyed for good. He was understandably mad at Moana as she made a reckless choice and to some degree selfish, as seen in the line where she says that she thought that she could make it as well. But we as the audience are meant to know that Maui still was wrong for leaving. Some people argue that we never knew what made him come back but I think it’s insinuated enough that he thought thinks over (possibly with Mini Maui). And he also works afterwards with Moana to help get her to restore the heart of Te Fiti. Everyone seems to forget that he RISKED his life to help buy Moana time. When you watch the movie again, Te Ka was looking at Moana and Maui noticed this. So he gets Te Ka to notice him and Te Ka is about to fireball and kill Maui until Moana shines the heart at her. And Maui does apologize to Te Fiti at the end of it. At first it’s awkward but that'a how it is in real life. He even says that he had no excuse for what he done, so that’s really important to take into account.
The culture in Moana I believe is shown is a beautiful way. They clearly did a lot of research, as seen with the trips and long time spent on it. They also had a voice cast that reflected Polynesian culture. It may not be 100% accurate as they did have to Disney-fy some of it for the movie, but’s safe to say it is a respectful representation that encourages you to look more into Polynesian culture after you watch the movie. The music in Moana is also PHENOMENAL and it has made its mark on Disney Music History. With talents such as Opetaia Foa'i, Mark Mancina, and Lin Manuel Miranda, you can’t go wrong. The voice performances especially make the music emotionally resonate, especially that of Auli'i Cravalho, whom I’m eternally grateful that Disney got her for the job and hope to see more of her in the future. Dwayne Johnson also does a fantastic job as Maui, both delivering charm and charisma in his singing and voice acting. There’s also different ways that scenes are done that have a big impact on this movie. Such as the “I Am Moana” scene, when Gramma Tala’s spirit comes back to Moana, but she reunited with Moana in the way that any grandmother and granddaughter would, embracing each other openly. Tala also validates Moana’s emotions at the moment and admits that she never should have put so much responsibility on Moana (something I usually never see in these type of stories). And she fully says to Moana that she and her family support her no matter what, allowing Moana to think and realize for herself who she is and remind herself of why she is on her mission. THIS is what makes the scene so ICONIC. Moana’s animation is also breathtakingly beautiful and so engaging. When I saw this on the big screen, it made me want to just jump into the water. And the colors are so vibrant and make the movie so full of life! The humor in this movie is also very done well. I love how the water who is personified in this acts as a character and serves its own comic relief. Hei-Hei the chicken is also extremely funny in him just acting like a dumb rooster. His own presence of him being totally unaware and his reaction to him discovering he’s out in the ocean is just plain hysterical. This movie just has so much to offer anyone and has an inspiring heart of its own. This movie is dripping with Disney heart and I hope Disney brings more of Moana in the future and continue to do so. I recommend this movie to EVERYONE because I believe that this movie is universal and speaks to everyone on its level. I strongly encourage you to continue to support it and I will as well. 🌊⛵️🏝🌺🐚🌸🐷🐔⭐️🌟🐠🐟🐋🦀🐚⛵️

pandabort  asked:

Hi Sam. In a recent post about disability you made reference to "the medical model, social model, or biopsychosocial model of disability". Please could you share some more information about these different models? You can just tell me to go google it, but I thought it might be okay to ask since you're clearly very knowledgable in this subject area and I find you are good at explaining things! Thanks.

The Medical Model (or Biological Model) of disability is the one most people are familiar with it. It views disability in the same light as illness. It is something that is wrong and it must be fixed or cured. This is the model that is shaped by doctors and healthcare providers as a whole, and represents the primary view of the medical industry, psychology industry, education industry, and society in general.

The primary problem with the Medical Model of disability is that it makes no room for a disabled person. The person does not matter - what matters is the disability, which needs be cured - whereupon you will be left with a person. This is the driving social force behind inspiration porn, microaggressions, and segregation. An example of this model would be that we must find a cure for autism, regardless of what that cure may be.

The Social Model of disability is the dominant model subscribed to by activists and self-advocates with some notable exceptions that are borrowed from the Biopsychosocial Model. This model of disability removes the medical from the person, and argues that disability is not inherent, it is a social construct. Universal accessibility is attainable (and it is), so the only reason why disability exists is because socially we choose not to attain it. Achieving universal accessibility removes disability by inherently putting everyone on the same footing without requiring special accommodations. Basically, you normalize “medical” disability being ok, and no one is disabled because their life is accessible.

This is a laudable view, but not without its problems. First, it entirely removes the Medical Model from the person. It makes no account for the reality that some of us have unpredictable disabilities that inherently cannot be accommodated. It is also unrealistic. Disability is an infinitely varried spectrum. We will never be able to accommodate everyone, and someone will always be left out. That doesn’t mean we can’t do better - and we must - but it is unrealistic to expect that we can effective account for all scenarios. This is also the view that spawned person first language - which is a deliberate attempt to remind society that we are people that have a disability not a disability with a person somewhere underneath like the Medical Model. Many activists that subscribe to this model borrow identity first language from the Biopsychosocial Model. Using autism as example, this model states that autism is a neurotype and should not be cured because different is not bad.

The Biopsychosocial Model of disability does two major things. First, it combines the Medical Model (bio) with the Social Model (social). Second, it adds a third element, Psychology (psycho). This is an explicit acknowledgement that there are medical aspects of disability that are very real to the people who experience them, but also an explicit acknowledgement that there are social aspects to disability that are caused explicitly and entirely by society. It also introduces the idea that psychology, and in particular identity, play a large role in how any given individual experiences their disability. This is the model by which it is possible to understand that researching a cure is okay as long as you put that cure in the hands of the people who want it and not in the hands of those who don’t. This is the model that supports identity first language.

This model is also not without its problems. The biggest of these problems is that there is a very delicate balancing act that has to be done between acknowledging the medical realities and the social realities of disability. For example, this model recognizes that autistics that want a cure deserve a cure, and therefore we should research a cure. The social reality of this is that the only cure for autism is in utero testing and abortion - eugenics. We’ve seen this with Down Syndrome if you would like a reference. Clearly, this is not good for autistics that want a cure any more than it is for those that don’t. But what about a medication that limits meltdowns, or evens out hypersensitivity? Sounds good, but directing society in that direction is horrible difficult fight that isn’t even on the radar. In a lot of ways, it can be as unrealistic as the Social Model. It is also exceptionally easy to swing to far into the Medical Model or Social Model, in an attempt to be as inclusive as possible to people with various identities.

So that’s the general breakdown, in broad strokes. I didn’t have the word for it until recently, but my own beliefs align with the biopsychosocial model of disability. I believe that my disabilities are, at least in some ways, medical in nature, and I can and do take steps to alleviate specific aspects. This includes specific aspects of my autism (in particular meltdowns and shutdowns).

I also believe that a large portion of my disabilities are entirely social. A huge amount of my issues with ADHD and autism would simply vanish if true universal accessibility were a thing. Poof. Gone. This would do nothing, however, for the fact that my hands hurt, that the air is touching me, and that these things distress me even when the environment around me is accommodating and accessible. It doesn’t matter that I can hip check a button to open the door instead of pulling it, my hands still hurt - which is why the medical model is pertinent to my life.

And I hope it is obvious that I am an activist and self-advocate. I believe that there is a line between these to walk, and I believe that there is a lot of nuance between those two that is exceptionally important and ignored by those two models. I believe that the most fundamental personal right is autonomy, which includes the right to identity and self determination. Put this all together and I am squarely in the biopsychosocial model of disability.

Right oh. So this is longer than I thought it would be, and my wrists are screaming, so I’m going to end this hear. I hope this is a good beginning, and if you have more questions please feel free to send them.

In the mean time, give a lot of thought to the ideals versus the reality of disability, and be brutal with yourself. Figure out where you really stand on a day to day basis (I frequently struggle with falling squarely into the social model and taking radical stances on topics that, frankly, have a lot more nuance than I understand), and where you really want to be. Then fight for it. Hopefully, we don’t end up on opposite sides!