FIRST LOVE PART FIVE: http://imaginingbucky.tumblr.com/post/145713838014/first-love-part
FIRST LOVE PART SIX:
“(Y/n), this is Elaine, my girlfriend.”
As soon as those words left Sebastian’s mouth, you felt like your heart had sunk down to your stomach. It was like the air had left your lungs and you couldn’t breathe. Like you were drowning in the deepest and darkest part of the ocean.
“I’m so excited to be meeting you! Sebastian has told me all about you!” Elaine walked over to you and gave you a hug like you two had known each other all of your lives.
You were surprised and by the look on Sebastian’s face he was too.
“It’s nice to meet you.” You said with the most convincing smile of your life.
“You are just as beautiful as in movies! I’m such a fan of yours also! You were so funny in that runaway bride movie!”
“Thank you.” You said not knowing what else to say.
“What were you guys up to?” She asked with a smile. If only she knew what you guys were really up to, you were positive that she wouldn’t still be smiling.
“We are waiting for fittings for our costumes.” Sebastian answered. He didn’t seem happy at all that Elaine was there. You wished that he would at least act a little happy because then it wouldn’t seem like something almost happened between the two of you.
“It was really nice meeting you, Elaine but I have to run. I’m sure that I will see you around.”
“I’ll be here all week.” Elaine joked before you left the dressing room.
You could tell that Sebastian wanted to stop you from leaving but he didn’t, and that said a lot more.
All you wanted was to be able to get to your hotel room. You didn’t want to cry in front of anyone and you sure as hell didn’t want to talk to Sebastian or see him acting all lovey dovey with Elaine.
Things had gotten so complicated in such a short amount of time. It left your head spinning.
You had been making your way to your trailer to grab your things when Chris spotted you. He could tell that you were upset and made his way towards you.
“(Y/n)? What’s wrong?”
“Elaine is here.” You told him as your chin quivered a little. You hated crying in front of other people.
Chris now understood why you looked like you looked so heartbroken and seemed on edge. He didn’t say anything. He pulled you into his arms and gave the comfort that you needed in that moment.
That night, you stayed holed up in your hotel room. You didn’t feel like seeing anyone and you needed the time to yourself. You thought about how stupid you felt when you almost let Sebastian kiss you.
You could still feel his lips lightly grazing over yours. You could feel his fingertips tracing your skin.
You hated the effect he had over you.
All you wanted was to seek solstice in a silly movie and eat junk food.
Before you could try and decide what movies to watch, someone knocked on your door. Groaning internally, you got off the sofa and walked over to see who it was.
You checked the peep hole and saw Chris standing on the other side of the door. You opened the door and he smiled a little and raised his right arm that held a brown paper bag. “I figured you might be in the mood for some Chinese food.”
“I’m always in the mood for Chinese food.” You smiled a little.
You opened the door a little more so he could step inside. You closed the door behind him and joined him in the living room. Chris set the bag down and sat on the couch before pulling out some boxes of food.
He handed you a box of noodles and some chopsticks after you sat beside him.
“How are you feeling?” He asked once the two of you had started eating.
You sighed a little, “Like my heart has gotten ripped out of my chest.”
“You didn’t really tell me what happened earlier. I’m sorry that I had to be on set and I couldn’t be there for you longer.” Chris apologized.
“No, don’t apologize. I’m really glad that you were there for me when you were.”
“What happened between you and Sebastian?”
“We almost kissed,” you mumbled, “Just when we were about to, Elaine knocked on the door.”
“Could you imagine what would’ve happened if she had just waltzed right in and didn’t knock at all?”
“I really don’t. Things would be a million times worse right now. I just can’t believe that I allowed myself to get swept up in his words and completely lose all of my common sense.”
“Hey, Sebastian is a suave guy. Anyone would get swept up in all of that.” Chris joked trying to make light of the situation. It made you like him more. He wanted nothing more than to make you smile.
You rolled your eyes, “Very funny Evans.
He smiled a little before speaking, “I don’t want you to blame yourself, (Y/n).”
“But I do. I’m not that girl, Chris. I don’t want to become one of those girls that infiltrate relationships.”
“Did Sebastian say if he felt the same way you do?” Chris questioned.
“He told me that he does but he can’t if he hasn’t ended things with Elaine. I don’t even know if I want him to.” You confessed.
Chris set his food down on the coffee table and gave you his full attention, “What do you mean by that?”
“If Sebastian really does care about me like he says he does, why hasn’t he tried to talk to me? Why did it take him three weeks after I told him how I felt before he came and told me how he felt?” You asked rhetorically. You knew Chris didn’t have the answers. You didn’t even have the answers. The only person that had the answers to your questions was the one person you weren’t speaking to.
Chris placed his hand on top of yours, “I wish I knew what to do to make you feel better.”
“Honestly, you being here right now is enough.”
“Things will work out in the end, (Y/n).”
“I hope that it will. Part of me thinks that I’m wasting my time. Part of me thinks that I should move on. It has been so long and I’m honestly ready to settle down. I’m not even sure that Sebastian is in that stage in his life. Maybe Elaine showing up is a sign that it’s time for me to move on.”
“Maybe all of that is true, but I don’t want you to think that you have to go through this alone.”
“I feel terrible that you’ve practically turned into my therapist.” You chuckled.
“We all have to talk to someone, and I won’t charge you nearly as much as a therapist would.” Chris teased before the both of you continued to eat your food.
Chris sat with you and watched Sixteen Candles. It was one of your favorite movies and you watched it whenever you needed to laugh or when you were upset.
“Hey, (Y/n)?” Chris asked during the scene where Jake Ryan was looking around at his trashed house.
“Are you pretty savvy with Internet lingo?” He asked.
“I would say so, why?”
“I’ve noticed that some fans have been referring to me as a cinnamon roll lately. Do you know what that means?”
When you woke up that morning, you realized that you weren’t alone in bed. You rolled over and saw a topless Chris a few feet away from you.
The two of you had spent the night watching movies and before you knew it, it was three in the morning.
Chris had dozed off during the middle of Die Hard. You had shook his shoulder gently, “Chris, wake up.”
It took him a few seconds before he finally did. “What’s going on?” His voice was still thick with sleep.
“C'mon, time for bed.” You stood up off the couch and stretched.
He groaned, “I’m too tired to go to my room, just leave me here!”
You laughed a little, “The couch isn’t comfortable enough. You can sleep in my bed, c'mon.”
“Where will you sleep?” Chris asked as he slowly got up. You placed a hand on his back and guided him to your room.
“The bed is king sized. It’s big enough for the both of us, Evans.”
Chris yawned as the two of you entered your bedroom, “As long as you are okay with it.”
“I am. Now let’s get some sleep.”
You had slept relatively well considering that you had a lot on your mind. Talking to Chris did seem to relieve some of the stress that you had. He really was like your own personal therapist.
You stretched a little, careful not to move too much to wake him. Neither of you had to be on set until the afternoon. It was going to be one of those late nights and you were glad that you did get some sleep or else you would be useless.
Getting out of bed, you did your usual morning routine. You were in desperate need of some coffee and a blueberry muffin. You figured that you would provide breakfast since Chris provided dinner the night before.
Once you were done changing and fixing your hair, you exited the bathroom and quietly went into the living room.
Just as you were putting on your shoes to go and get you and Chris some coffee, someone knocked on your door.
You got up to go and answer it, figuring that it was someone from set giving you the usual schedule for the day. Instead when you opened the door, you saw Sebastian.
You froze, “What are you doing here?”
“(Y/n), can we talk? Please?” Sebastian looked like he hadn’t gotten much sleep. His hair didn’t have the usual vigor to it.
“I don’t have anything to say to you, Sebastian. You need to go.” You tried to close the door but he was stronger than you.
He wedged it open even more enough for him to step inside, “(Y/n)! Can we just talk like two adults?!”
“No! There isn’t anything left to say! Please just go!”
“(Y/n), I didn’t know that she was going to come here. I didn’t expect for her to. I hadn’t talked to Elaine for a few days and now she’s here–”
“You don’t have to explain anything to me. You don’t owe me anything. I’m not your girlfriend!”
Sebastian felt like that was a little harsh. He hadn’t meant to hurt you at all. He didn’t know if you would ever forgive him.
“(Y/n)? What’s going on?” You turned your head and saw Chris had walked out of your bedroom. He was still shirtless and you knew that the situation didn’t look good.
Sebastian froze once he had saw Chris. He looked at you and pieced it together.
“Are you serious?!”
Chris held his hands up, his eyes widened once he realized how the situation had looked, “Seb, this isn’t what it looks like.”
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