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“Where do you think the money went?” he repeated.
“Guns?” asked Jesper.
“Ships?” queried Inej.
“Bombs?” suggested Wylan.
“Political bribes?” offered Nina. They all looked at Matthias. “This is where you tell us how awful we are,” she whispered.
He shrugged. “They all seem like practical choices.”
“Sugar,” said Kaz.
Jesper nudged the sugar bowl down the table to him.
Kaz rolled his eyes. “Not for my coffee, you podge. I used the money to buy up sugar shares and placed them in private accounts for all of us—under aliases, of course.”
“I don’t like speculation,” said Matthias.
“Of course you don’t. You like things you can see. Like piles of snow and benevolent tree gods.”
“Oh, there it is!” said Inej, resting her head on Nina’s shoulder and beaming at Matthias. “I missed his glower.”
“Besides,” said Kaz, “it’s hardly speculation if you know the outcome.”

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On its own, Ni is a very extreme function. It’s so easy to get lost within Ni if one isn’t careful because it’s such an interesting world. Insights are anywhere and everywhere to analyze. Anything and everything can strike your fancy and you can spend hours trying to unravel a single intuition. It’s like a never ending maze of twists and turns without any dead ends. And that’s where the danger lies. Without any dead ends, how do you know when to stop? How long will you keep walking into an endless void of truths before you lose yourself in it? After all, when everything is a concept and interpretation, what is real?

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Made for each other [2/ 3] (Part one/Part three)

Personality Traits 

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half life character posters [1/?] 

Victoria Van Dal + Rose  pt. i

So, how upset would you guys be if I made a sequel for Pink Asters?  Just wondering since I made an in-depth outline for a sequel and I feel like I wanna make it. And I know that everybody hates the idea of sequels. Plus, if it ain’t better than the first one, then everyone believes it’s ten times worse (even if the first wasn’t that great in the first place). 

I’m also kinda doubting my writing skills right now. Like, has my stuff always been getting so few notes? I don’t mean to sound greedy for attention, but since nobody seems to ever comment on how well (or poorly) I write, I kinda have to just assume few notes means few people liked what I wrote. And, more and more it seems fewer people are enjoying my stuff. I just kinda feel like I’m fading out of existence right now…

Combine the few notes I’ve been getting, plus the fact my internet has been terrible, plus the fact that I might just get hate simply for making a sequel, and you might see why I don’t want to write the sequel even though I’d really love too. Well, to be honest, I kinda don’t feel like writing much at all right now. Or do anything, really. 

I think my writing has been improving, but I’m not sure. If my work has been getting boring, I don’t know. Everything I have written I wrote because at some point it was an idea I had and I felt so excited about it, that I wanted everyone else to enjoy my idea too. I know everyone says to write because you enjoy it, and I do, but the reason I post stuff is so people can enjoy what I write with me. But I don’t see the point if nobody enjoys what I write. 

I remember when I got inspired to write Pink Asters. For some reason, at the time, writing Sonadow flower shop AUs seemed to be super popular, and after reading this post, I got the idea for Pink Asters. I was writing non-stop for an entire weekend I think. Well, I was researching flowers a lot while writing it too. And, while I was writing, I just felt so excited to share what I wrote with everyone. While writing, I knew people were going to enjoy reading it. And, to this day, I’m still getting more notes from that fic.  

Well, while I was writing the overview thingy for the sequel, I felt that excited again. I was so excited to share it with everyone, I would randomly think about it and have to stop myself from stupidly smiling in public. But, with how little attention my stuff is getting now, I just don’t feel like I should write it. I feel like if I write anything right now, it’s just going to be boring or something. I want to know why hardly anybody likes my stuff anymore, but nobody is saying anything. I’d rather have a dozen people in my ask box talking about all the flaws of my writing than literally the nothing I’m getting now. 

I don’t feel like I should post anything anymore. It feels like I’m only writing for like, 2 people. I guess I’m happy that at least a couple people like my work, but I swear that more people used to find my stuff enjoyable. I feel like I have to be doing something wrong to have so many people lose interest, but I don’t know what it is. I just want somebody to say something. Is my stuff getting more and more boring? Have I suddenly started writing in a way that nobody likes reading? I just want to know. 

I don’t think I can make that sequel. Or anything else right now. If nobody is going to read it, why should I write it?